[hirarandi]

in my words :—–
ye ek alag hi kahaani hai. bachpan se main thoda spiritual raha hun. aksar shaant jagah dekh kar main aankhe band karke baith jaata tha. tumhe ye baat thodi ajeeb lagegi lekin ye sach hai.
Ek baar college mein history ke teacher ne bhagvaan buddh ki kahaani shunaayi thi. ush kahaani ki kuch khaas panktiyaan mujhe aaj tak yaad hain.
Kahaani ke anushaar bhagvaan buddh ko bodhvriksha ke neeche enligtenment huyi thi. mere man mein bachpan se ye sawaal baar baar aaya hai ki kya hai ye enlightenment.
Pata to kuch tha nahin. main aksar shaant jagah dekh kar chupchaap aankhe band karke baith jaaya karta tha. kyonki maine shuna tha ki bhagvaan buddh bhi aankhe band karke baitha karte the. par kabhi kuch khaas ahsaash nahi huva.
Jab bhi aankhe band karta tha to bas andhera hi deekhta tha. vaise bachpan mein itna kuch pata bhi nahi tha meditation ke baare mein. Lekin pata nahin kyon main phir bhi kuch na kuch try karta rahta tha
Didi jab mujhe kabhi aisi haalat mein dekhti thi to kahti thi, “jatin kya koyi jholachaap baba ban-ne ka iraada hai, chalo padhaayi karo”
Didi aksar mujhe jatin kah kar hi bulaati thi. vaise har koyi mujhe bachpan se billu kah kar hi bulaata hai
Maine Osho ki maditation practices ke baare mein kaafi shun rakha tha. par kabhi kishi jagah ja kar try nahi kiya tha.
Jab main ush din tumhaare ghar se nikla tha to man bahut jyada udaas tha. delhi jaane ka bilkul man nahi tha. aur main mumbai mein ruk kar tumhe aur jyada pareshaan nahi karna chaahta tha.
Pune mein jo osho ashram hai ushke baare mein kaafi shun rakha tha. man mein achaanak ek vichaar aaya ki chalo pune chalta hun aur kuch maditation sikhta hun, shaayad dukhi man ko kuch shaanti mil jaaye.
Maine jeendagi mein tumhe barbaad karne ke alaawa koyi bura kaam nahi kiya. Par tumhe barbaad karna hi mera sabse bada paap ban gaya. Agar ush vakt tum mujhe apna leti to mere dil ka bojh halka ho jaata, par aisa ho nahi paaya. tumhe paane ki ummeed kho chuka tha. aise mein meditation mein mujhe roshni ki ek kiran nazar aa rahi thi.
Maine shun rakha tha ki meditation mein inshaan mar kar ek naya janam leta hai. aur ish tarah main apne ander ke ush billu ko maarne nikal pada jishe tum jaanti thi
Aur ish tarah mein pune pahunch gaya
Mera ek college ka friend, madan pune mein ek call center mein laga hai. mujhe bhi ushne vahi lagva diya. madan bhi osho ke ashram jaata rahta tha. maine 4-5 baar ashram ja kar dynamic meditation seekh li. Ushke baad mein madan ke ghar par roj subah dynamic meditation karne laga.
Dynamic meditation ka 3 mahine ka ek pura complete cycle hota hai. ishe pura kar liya jaaye to inshaan ko kuch bahut gahre ahsaash hote hain. Unko shabdo mein nahi kaha ja sakta.
Pure 3 mahine maine ye meditation ki. kabhi madan ke ghar par aur kabhi ashram par. Ish meditaion ne meri jeendagi badal di. Main billu se jatin ban gaya. Pehle bas naam ka jatin tha. ish meditation ke baad sach mein jatin ban gaya.
“hmm…. to tum meditation seekh rahe the, ishliye apni didi ko dekhne nahi aaye, mujhe ye sab shun kar bilkul acha nahi lag raha jatin. Kuch kaam aise hote hain jinhe aap kabhi nahi taal sakte. Tum apni didi ko bhula kar aatma parmaatma ke chakkar mein pad gaye, kya tumhe nahi lagta ki tumne bahut galat kiya hai, aur tum meditation seekhne bhi kahaan gaye,….ek sex guru ke asharam mein, lagta hai tum khud ko dhoka de rahe ho” ritu ne kaha
“aisi baat nahi hai main didi ko ush haalat mein tv par hi nahi dekh paaya to vaha ja kar kaise dekh leta. Mere ander itni himmat nahi thi ritu. Maine to ish baat ko hi swikaar nahi kiya ki vo meri didi hi thi. haan par aaj baat dushri hai. aaj main bahut shaant hun. 3 mahine jo maine meditation ki hai, ushne meri jeendagi badal di hai. vaise kaafi had tak to tumhaare pyar mein main badal hi chuka tha, baaki ka kaam ish mediatation ne kar diya aur ish tarah billu maara gaya. Aur haan osho par sex guru ka thappa vo log lagaate hain jo sex mein upar se neeche tak dube huve hain, maine osho ko khub padha hai unhone kabhi sex ko promote nahi kiya” —- maine kaha.
“Mujhe laga sanjay ne tumhaare saath kuch aisa vaisa kar diya. vo ush din jish din tum aakhri baar letter daalne aaye the, tumhaare peeche hi gaya tha. ushne mujhe bataaya tha ki ushne tumhaare tukde tukde karke mumbai ke naalo mein baha diye. Main ye shun kar soch baithi thi ki ab tum ish duniya mein nahi ho” —- ritu ne kaha
“ritu inshaan frustration mein kaafi kuch bol jaata hai. sanjay ne yu hi tumhe pareshaan karne ke liye bol diya hoga. This is natural tendancy of frustrated person” ———- maine kaha
“par mujhe lagta hai ki tumhe ek baar to kavita ke liye aana chaahiye tha” — ritu ne kaha

[hirarandi]

“ye baat main ab samajh raha hun, par pehle himmat nahi thi. mere dil mein jo didi ki ek shunder tasvir thi ushe hata kar main ek kankaal vaha nahi beethaana chaahta tha” —- maine kaha
phir hum thodi der shaant khade rahe. Meri nazar ritu ke chehre par gayi to vahin ja kar tik gayi. main ritu ko pyar se dekhne laga. pehli baar vo dil mein pyar ley kar mere paas khadi thi. bahut pyara ahsaash ho raha tha mujhe ush vakt
“kya dekh rahe ho” —- ritu ne pucha
“apni jaan ko dekh raha hun ki kaisi hai meri jaan, bahut pyari lag rahi ho, I love you” — maine kaha.
“Jatin mujhe maaf kardo maine ush din mandir ke baahar tumhe na jaane kya kya bol diya tha” —- ritu ne kaha
“I love you ritu” —– maine kaha
“jatin main kah rahi thi ki mujhe maaf kardo maine ush din mandir ke baahar tumhe na jaane kya kya bol diya tha” —– ritu ne kaha
main itna bhaavuk ho raha tha ki mujhe kuch nahi shun raha tha. maine phir apne pyar ka izhaar kiya
“I love you ritu, do you love me” ? —- maine pucha
“tumhe meri aankho mein kya nazar aa raha hai, jatin” —– ritu ne bade pyar se meri aankho mein dekh kar pucha.
“Pyar nazar aa raha hai, ish samunder se bhi gahra pyar nazar aa raha hai, jishke kinaare hum khade hain, aisa kaise ho gaya ritu” —- maine bhaavuk ho kar pucha
“pata nahi jatin, main khud hairaan hun ki mein kaise tumhe pyar kar sakti hun, par jo bhi hai ye sach hai ki I love you, kya tumhe pata hai ki tum mujhe kyon pyar karte ho” —- ritu ne pucha
maine kaha, “nahi pata, bas itna pata hai ki tumhaare bina jee nahi sakta, meditation mein bahut gahre ahsaash pa kar bhi tumhe bhula nahi paaya. abhi kuch dino pehle mere saath kuch ajeeb huva. mein dynamic meditation karne ke baad shaanti se aankh band karke baith gaya, pata hai mujhe apne ander kya deekhaayi diya”
“kya deekhaayi diya jatin” —- ritu ne pucha
“mujhe tum deekhaayi di ritu, bade pyar se mushkura rahi thi. ush din maine decide kiya ki dynamic meditation khatam karke tumhe dekhne mumbai aaunga. Aur dekho aaj main aa gaya. Par aaj pata chala ki vo bhagvaan ka sanket tha ki jao, tumhaara pyar tumhe bula raha hai. dekho aaj tum aankho mein pyar ley kar mere saamne khadi ho, lagta hai mujhe sab kuch mil gaya. I love you ritu, I realy love you a lot” —- maine bhaavuk ho kar kaha
aakhri ki lines bolte huve meri aankho mein aanshu utar aaye.
“tumhaare ishi pyar ne mere man mein pyar jagaaya hai, varna to main tumse bahut nafrat karti thi” —- ritu ne bhi bhaavuk ho kar kaha
maine dekha ki ritu ki bhi bolte bolte aankhe bhar aayi thi.
love is really a very wonderfull gift of god. Ush vakt mujhe aisa lag raha tha ki main chaand par pahunch gaya hun. khud ko bahut halka mahsush kar raha tha.
maine ritu ke kandhe ki aur haath badhaaya
“nahin, mujhe chuna mat, maine kaha na mere pyar ka ye matlab nahin hai ki tum mere sharir se kheloge” —– ritu ne meri aankho mein dekh kar kaha
maine apna haath vaapis kheench liya. main bas ushe chu kar kahna chaahta tha ki tum meri jeendagi ho. Par ushki baat mujhe bilkul buri nahi lagi. vaise bhi jo aapki jaan ho ushki baat kya kabhi buri lagti hai.
“ritu mujh se shaadi karogi” ——- maine bahut bhaavuk ho kar pucha
ritu thodi der tak mujhe dekhti rahi aur phir apni nazre jhuka li. Main badi besabri se ushke jawaab ka intezaar kar raha tha.
“jatin main aaj tumhaare liye kuch bhi karne ko taiyaar hun, pyar jo ho gaya hai tumse, par ek baat se pareshaan hun ki hamaari shaadi ka aadhaar kya hoga” —- ritu ne pucha
“kya ish pyar ke baad kishi aadhaar ki jaroorat rah gayi hai ritu, ye apne aap mein sabse bada aadhaar hai” —- maine kaha
“kya log ye nahi samjhenge ki hamaari shaadi ka aadhaar havash hai” —- ritu ne kaha
“kya tumhe aaj bhi vo sab kuch yaad hai jo hamne havash mein dub kar kiya tha” —- maine pucha
“nahin main to ushe bahut pehle bhula chuki hun, tabhi to tumhe baar baar kah rahin hun ki mujhe chuna mat, main ush paap ko ek pal ko bhi yaad nahi karna chaahti” —- ritu ne kaha
“main bhi aaj vo sab kuch bhula chuka hun ritu. Tabhi maine kaha ki vo billu mar chuka hai. aaj bas ish dil mein pyar hai.peechle dino maine kuch yaad kiya to vo din tha jish din tumne mujhe yaha gale lagaaya tha. main bhi ush paap ko yaad nahi karna chaahta. Hum dono ish jeendagi mein bahut neeche gire the. Aaj badi mushkil se sambhlein hain. Yaha se hamein ek nayi shuruvaat karni hai. hamaari shaadi ka aadhaar ye pyar hai ritu aur kuch nahin. tum kahogi to main tumhe jeendagi bhar nahi chuvunga, aaj mere dil mein bas pyar hai, havash ko main bahut peeche chhod chuka hun” —— maine kaha
“tumhaari baate mere dil ko chu rahi hain jatin, par bahut mushkilein hain hamaari shaadi mein. Main samajh nahi pa rahin hun ki apne papa ko kya kahungi. Maine aaj tak unki baat nahi taali hai. papa mujhe sidharth ke saath shaadi karne ko kah rahe the. maine unhe kah diya tha ki main sidharth se shaadi nahi karungi aur apni jeendagi ka safar akele taiy karungi. Ab unhe kish muh se kahungi ki main shaadi karna chaahti hun, vo bhi ush inshaan se jishke kaaran meri pehli shaadi tuti hai. vo yahi samjhenge ki main havash mein andhi ho gayi hun. unhe kaise samjhaaungi ye pyar jo hamein khud bhi abhi tak samajh nahi aaya hai. chalo hum to phir bhi samajh hi rahe hain, ye duniya kabhi nahi samjhegi jatin. ab tum hi bataao ki kya karun main” ——- ritu ne meri aankho mein dekh kar kaha
ye shun kar meri aankhe nam ho gayi. maine kaha, “ to ishka matlab tum mujh se shaadi nahi karogi, hain na, kyonki ish duniya ko ye pyar samajh nahi aayega. tum mujhe ye bataao ki aaj tak kish ka pyar ish duniya ko samajh aaya hai, jo hamaara aayega. agar sab log aisa sochenge to koyi pyar ko anjaam tak ley jaane ki himmat nahi karega. Bada dukh huva tumhaare muh se ye sab shun kar. Par chalo chhodo”
“nahin jatin tum mujhe galat samajh rahe ho, maine kaha na ki main tumhaare liye kuch bhi karungi, tumhe pyar jo kiya hai, main to bas apni duvidha tumhe bata rahi thi. please don’t mind. I love you. Main tumhaari hun jatin. Please don’t take me wrong” —– ritu ne kaha
“kya sach kah rahi ho ritu ? please main tumhaare liye bahut emotional hun, mujhe saaf saaf kah do ki kya tum mujh se shaadi karogi. Main sach jaan-na chaahta hun. I don’t want to force you into any thing now. Jo bhi man mein ho bol do” maine kaha
“bataao kab karni hai shaadi jatin, main taiyaar hun. main bas apni concern bata rahi thi. mere liye apne ghar walo ko samjhaana mushkil hoga. Khaaskar mere papa ye baat nahi samjhenge. Par ye jeendagi meri hai. tumhe apna dil diya hai. ab ish pyar ke liye main kishi bhi anjaam tak jaane ko taiyaar hun. pata hai tum yaha nahi the to main har pal tumhe dekhne ke liye tarasti thi. har taraf meri nazre tumhe dhundati thi. aaj bhi jab khidki se tumhe jaate huve dekha to bhaag kar tumse milne yaha chali aayi. Jeetna tum mujhe pyar karte ho utna hi main bhi karti hun. jaldi se date decide kar lo main taiyaar hun. par yaad rakhna shaadi koyi khel nahi hai. bahut badi zeemmedaari hoti hai shaadi ke baad. Kya tumhe yakin hai ki tum ye zeemmedaari neebha paaoge” —- ritu ne kaha.
“Bilkul ritu maine to apne parivar ke liye bahut kuch soch rakha hai. main umar mein tumse chhota sahi par tazurbein mein tumse kahin aage hun. bahut kuch seekha hai ish chhoti se jeendagi mein. Tum chinta mat karo main ek pati ke saare farz nibhaaunga.” —- maine kaha
“par jatin, mujhe khud par yakin nahin hai ki main ek patni ke saare farz nibha paaungi ya nahi. mujhe ek moka dena jatin. Main puri koshis karungi” —- ritu ne kaha
ritu ne ye baat meri aankho mein dekh kar kuch ish tarah kahi ki main madhosh ho gaya.
Man kar raha tha ki ritu ko gale laga lun. Par main jaanta tha ki vo aisa hargeez nahi karne degi.
Kuch na kuch karne ka mera man to tha, jish se ki apne dil ki bhaavnaao ko deekha sakun.
Maine apne anguthe ko daanto se cheer diya aur ushmein se jo khun nikla ushe jhat se ritu ki maang mein bhar diya
“Jatin ye kya kiya, paagal ho gaye ho kya” ? ritu ne thoda gusse mein kaha.
“Mita do agar chaaho to, par tum ab meri patni ho, mujhe ish duniya se koyi matlab nahi hai” —– maine kaha
“main ishe mitaane ko nahi kah rahin hun, main to ye kah rahi thi ki ye angutha cheerne ki kya jaroorat thi tumhe. Main vaise bhi ab tumhaari hi hun” —- ritu ne bhaavuk ho kar kaha
“bas tumhe gale lagaana chaah raha tha. samajh nahi aa raha tha ki kaise apne dil ki bhaavna ko tumhe deekhaaun. Ishliye apne khun se tumhaari maang bhar di” —- maine kaha
ush vakt hum thodi der bina kuch kahe khade rahe. Hum dono ki aankho mein aanshu the. Kuch nahi pata tha ki hamaare riste ka matlab kya hai, par hum dono ek dushre ke saath chalne ko taiyaar the. Pyar bhi ajeeb cheez hai. ishko samajhna sach mein bahut mushkil kaam hai.
kab raat ke 9 baj gaye pata hi nahi chala.
“Chalein ab jatin, kaafi andhera ho gaya hai, mujhe andhere se dar lagta hai” —– ritu ne kaha
aur ish tarah hamaari khaamosi tuti.
“Theek hai chalte hain, ab mujhe shaadi ka intezaam bhi karna hai, kaafi kuch sochna padega. chalo sab manage ho jaayega, hamaara pyar hamaare saath hai na. Filhaal chalte hain” —- maine kaha.

[hirarandi]

“haan chalo baaki ki baatein baad mein karenge” — ritu ne kaha
“ruko pehle ish jagah ka dhanyavaad karte hain. Ish jagah ne hamaare pyar ke phool ko kheelte huve dekha hai. yaha hum chaaro taraf apne pyar ki khusboo chhod kar ja rahein hain. Chalo aankhe band karke ish jagah ka sukriya karein aur bhagvaan se duva karein ki yaha jo bhi aaye man mein pyar aur shaanti ley kar jaaye” —- maine kaha
“tum to koyi philosopher ban kar lote ho. Ye kya meditation ka asar hai, ya phir kuch aur jo main nahi jaanti” —– ritu ne kaha
“mujhe nahi pata kishka asar hai, haan par tumhaare pyar ka bahut gahra asar hai mujh par. Aaj bahut jyada khus hun. aaj tumhe aakhri baar dekhne aaya tha aur dekho tum hamesha ke liye meri ho gayi. meri jaan aaj meri patni ban gayi” ——– maine kaha
ritu ne kuch nahi kaha aur nazre jhuka kar mushkura di. Bahut pyari lagti hai ritu aise nazre jhuka kar mushkuraate huve. Ush vakt main bahut khus tha ki ritu ab meri jeendagi mein aa gayi hai.
“chalo ab aankhe band karke prayer karein, phir chalte hain” — maine ritu se kaha... 
hum dono ne aankhe band karke man hi man prayer ki aur phir saath saath ritu ke ghar ki aur chal pade.
Hum dono raaste bhar apne khaayalo mein khoye rahe aur ek dushre se kuch nahi kaha. Bas chalte chalte ek dushre ki taraf dekh kar mushkura dete the.
Ritu ka flat kab a gaya pata hi nahi chala. Main man hi man duva kar raha tha ki ritu ka ghar thodi der aur na aaye aur hum yu hi saath saath chalte rahein. Par ghar kaafi nazdeek tha. hum bahut jaldi vahaan pahunch gaye.
“Theek hai ritu tumhaara ghar aa gaya, ab tum jao, main chalta hun” —- maine kaha
“kahan jaaoge, jatin” ? — ritu ne pucha
“tum meri chinta mat karo, main chala jaaunga, bahut theekane hain rukne ke mere paas, aur phir hotel to hai hi” —- maine kaha
“kya tum hotel mein rukoge ?? , ye ghar ab tumhaara hai jatin, 3 bedroom hain ghar mein. Mujhe acha lagega agar tum mere saath rahoge to” —- ritu ne kaha
ye shun kar dil bahut bhaavuk ho gaya. Itna pyar aur sammaan de rahi thi ritu ki dil thaame nahi tham raha tha. lag raha tha ki main ro padunga.
maine man hi man socha ki ritu ka man vaakayi mein ushke sharir se bhi jyada shunder hai. vaise mujhe ye baat hamesha se pata thi ki vo ek achi inshaan hai.
maine kaha, “nahi ritu samjha karo, kishi ne dekh liya to bevajah badnaami hogi. ab bas shaadi karne ke baad hi ish ghar mein ghusunga. Aur vaise bhi main bahut bhaavuk ho raha hun tumhaare liye. tumhaare saath ruk gaya to kahin bahak na jaaun”
“tumhaari taange tod dungi tum bahak kar to deekhaao, ab main vo ritu nahin hun jo tumhaare bahkaave mein aa jaaungi” — ritu ne kaha
“pata hai, ab tum jhansi ki rani ban chuki ho. Mujhe to khud tumse dar lagne laga hai….hehehe… Pata nahi kab talvaar se mujhe kaat daalo. Ek baat bataao kya tumhe bandook chalaani aati hai” —- maine pucha
“nahin… kyon kya huva” —- ritu ne pucha
“sukar hai, varna to ush din jangal mein tum mera bheja uda deti. Maine socha bhi nahi tha ki tum pistol ley kar fire bhi kar sakti ho. Meri taang se goli cho kar nikal gayi varna jeendagi bhar langda kar chalna padta” —- maine kaha
“sorry jatin ush vakt haalaat hi kuch aise the. Mujhe tum se itni nafrat thi ki tumhe maar dena chaahti thi. Haan par aaj tumhe bahut pyar karti hun. tum aao to sahi. Hum alag alag bedroom mein shoyenge. Ab tum mere pati ho jatin. Meri maang apne khun se kya majaak mein bhari thi tumne” —- ritu ne kaha
“Ab aisi baate mat karo main ro padunga, kyon itna pyar de rahi ho. Sambhaalna mushkil ho raha hai. Main samajh sakta hun ki tumhe meri chinta hai. don’t worry about me jaan, I will be fine. Abhi jaane do. Shaadi ke baare mein bhi planning karni hai. bahut jaldi mein tumhe sab kuch final karke bata dunga. Now you go and take care. Haan apna mobile number de do kuch kaam huva to phone karunga” —- maine kaha
“theek hai jatin, jaisa tum theek samjho, apna khyaal rakhna aur phir se kahin gaayab mat ho jaana” —- ritu ne kaha
maine ritu se mobile number ley liya.
ritu good night kah kar ghar mein chali gayi. main ushe jaate huve dekhta raha.
ghar mein jaate hi vo khidki mein aa gayi. maine ushe bye kiya aur chal pada.
Jaate huve mein baar baar khidki ki aur dekh raha tha. ritu ke chehre par bahut pyare bhaav the. Mujhe hamaare beech ek pyara sa rista banta nazar aa raha tha.

[hirarandi]

Pune se chalte vakt madan ne mujhe apne ek friend, dinesh ka number diya tha. ush din main dinesh se phone par baat karke ushke ghar ki location puch kar ushke ghar chala gaya.
3-4 din main ritu se nahi mil paaya. mujhe chinta ho rahi thi ki pehle kuch kaam to mil jaaye yaha mumbai mein. Aise khaali peeli shaadi ka kya faayda. Pune mein call center ka experience ho gaya tha. dinesh ne mujhe kuch call centers ke naam bataaye aur maine ek jagah jaa kar join kar liya. call center colaba ke nazdeek hi tha.
phir maine shaadi ke baare mein sochna shuru kiya.
28 june ke baad, Ek baar bhi ritu se milne nahi ja saka. Main sab kuch final karke hi ritu se milna chaahta tha.
Maine ek pandit se shaadi ki date nikalwaayi. 12 July ko subh mahurat baith raha tha.
Maine ushi mandir mein shaadi ka intezaam kiya jahaan ritu aksar jaaya karti thi. pujaari ko mushkil se paise de kar pataaya ki chinta ki koyi baat nahi hai, shaadi mandir mein karne ki iccha hai ishliye kar rahe hain. Ghar walo ka koyi virodh nahi hai.
5 july ko main shaam ko ritu se milne gaya.
Maine ritu ke ghar ki bell bajaayi
Ritu ne darvaaja khola aur ek pyari si hansi se mera swaagat kiya aur boli, “to mil gaya janaab ko mere liye vakt, the kahaan aap itne dino se?”
Maine kaha, “chalo gate way of India par ghumte huve baat karenge, bahut jaroori baat karni hai tum se”
“Tumne kya ish ghar mein na aane ki kasam kha rakhi hai, tumhaari patni hun main koyi gair nahin hun, tum ush khun ka matlab nahi jaante shaayad par mujhe pata hai. aao na main coffee bana rahi thi. aao dono saath saath peeyenge” —- ritu ne kaha
ritu ne itne pyar se bulaaya ki main khud ko rok nahi paaya aur ghar ke ander aa gaya
maine charo aur dekh kar kaha, “bahut pyara ghar hai tumhaara ritu”
“tumhaara nahi hamaara jatin, ye hamaara ghar hai” — ritu ne kitchen ki aur jaate huve kaha
“tum baitho main coffee ley kar aa rahin hun” — ritu ne kitchen ke ander se awaaj lagaayi
main kursi par baith gaya.
Ritu coffee ley kar aayi. Ushke chehre par ajeeb si chamak thi.
Maine pucha, “ kya baat hai, itni khus kyon ho”
“Aaj tum pehli baar ghar jo aaye ho, bahut khus hun” —- ritu ne kaha
“ritu hum 12 july ko shaadi kar rahein hain” — maine kaha
“kya itni jaldi, kaise manage hoga sab kuch” — ritu ne hairaan ho kar pucha
“arey hum mandir mein shaadi kar rahein hain, ishmein kya manage karna hai. jahaan tum har Sunday jaati ho na vahin shaadi karenge, maine saara intezaam kar liya hai. aur haan maine ek call center join kar liya hai. ab main pati ban-ne ke liye taiyaar hun” —– maine kaha
“maine to abhi tak ghar par bhi baat nahin ki ish baare mein, samajh nahi aa raha ki kaise baat karun main” — ritu ne kaha
“kar lo ritu, ek baar unhe bata do, phir dekhte hain ki kya hota hai, aur haan mein nikalta hun, mujhe call center jaana hai” —- maine kaha
“kya aaj tumhaari chuti nahi hai jatin” —- ritu ne pucha
“chuti thi par koyi emergency aa gayi hogi mujhe abhi thodi der pehle phone karke bulaaya hai. aur haan apne ghar baat kar lo. Jishe invite karna hai kar lo hum har haal mein 12 ko shaadi kar rahein hain.. ok… bye” —- maine kaha aur chal pada
“tum kahaan ruke ho jatin” — ritu ne pucha
maine kaha, “ek dost ke yaha ruka hun, tum chinta mat karo..bye”
“tum ab yahin aa jao, kyon yaha vaha rah rahe ho” — ritu ne kaha
“ritu 12 ke baad yahin tumhaare saath hi rahunga, main bhi tumse dur nahin rahna chaahta, tabhi to itni jaldi ki date nikalwaayi hai shaadi ki maine” — maine kaha
“ok ji, jaisa aapko sahi lage, bye apna khyaal rakhna” — ritu ne kaha
maine peeche mud kar dekha, ritu ki aankho mein bahut jyada pyar tha. main vaha se jaana nahi chaahta tha par phir bhi mujhe jaana pada.
Aur phir vo din aa gaya jish din hamaari shaadi huyi.
12 july ko shaadi ka shaam 6 baje ka muhurat tha.
main taiyaar ho kar 5 baje hi ritu ke ghar pahunch gaya.

[hirarandi]

Maine bell bajaayi
Darvaaja khula to vaha kishi dushri aurat ko pa kar main chonk gaya. Baad mein pata chala ki vo dipti thi
“Aao jeeja ji, aapka swaagat hai, ritu taiyar ho rahi hai, aao baitho” —- dipti ne kaha
main ander aa gaya.
Ander ghuste hi ek 31-32 saal ke aadmi ne mujh se haath milaaya aur bola, “welcome dear, to aaj aap se mulaakat ho hi gayi”
Baad mein pata chala ki vo manish tha
Main manish aur dipti ko jaanta nahi tha ishliye un se jyada baat nahi ki aur chupchaap ek taraf baith gaya.
Koyi 15 minut baad dipti ne mujhe kaha, “jeeja ji aap ander jao, ritu aapko bula rahi hai”
Main khada huva aur ritu ke bedroom mein ghuss gaya
Ander jo dekha vo unbelievable tha.
Ritu laal saree mein leepti mere saamne khadi thi. bahut jyada pyari lag rahi thi. man kar raha tha ki ushe baahon mein bhar lun
“Dekh kya rahe ho, bataao kaisi lag rahin hun” — ritu ne pucha
“bahut pyari lag rahi ho jaan bas pucho mat” — maine ritu ki aur badhte huve kaha
“mujhe chuna mat….” —- ritu ne kaha
maine ritu ko beech mein hi tok diya aur bola,“haan haan mujhe yaad hai tum mujhe pyar karti ho to ishka matlab ye nahi hai ki main tumhaare sharir se khelunga. Ye mujhe rat gaya hai. main to bas tumhe nazdeek se dekhna chaah raha tha”
“ye saree kaisi lag rahi hai” — ritu ne pucha
“achi lag rahi hai, balki bahut achi lag rahi hai” — maine kaha
“arey ye tumhaari laayi huyi saree hai, pehchaan kyon nahi rahe ho tum” — ritu ne thoda gusse mein kaha
“ohh haan ritu mujhe lag to raha tha par samajh nahi aa raha tha ki ye tumhaare paas kaise aayi, mujhe laga tum bhi vaisi hi saree ley aayi ho” —- maine kaha
“maine tumhaari taxi ka sheesa tod kar nikaal li thi. acha huva time se nikaal li. Baad mein to vo taxi yaha se gaayab hi ho gayi” — ritu ne kaha
“acha kiya ritu, aaj tumne dil ko ek aur khusi de di. Meri laayi huyi saree tumne pahan li aur mujhe kya chaahiye. mujhe to lagta tha ki ye sasti saree hai” — maine kaha
“sasti saree nahi hai ye, bahut keemti hai mere liye. dil se laga kar rakha hai maine ishe. Aur dekho kitni pyari lag rahi hai mujh par. Lag rahin hun na tumhaari dulhan main” —- ritu ne kaha
ritu ki baat shun kar meri aankho mein aanshu bhar aaye. jab itna pyar miley to koyi bhi ro dega.
“Kya huva jatin, ye aankhe kyon bhar aayi hain tumhaari” — ritu ne pucha
“kuch nahi bas khusi ke aanshu hain, tum jaldi taiyaar ho kar baahar aa jao, hum mandir ke liye late ho rahe hain” —– maine kaha aur darvaaje ki aur mud gaya
“ruko to jatin,…….. I love you” —- ritu ne peeche se kaha
maine kaha, “I love you too ritu, jaldi karo hum late ho rahein hain”
“theek hai, bas 10 minut mein aa rahin hun” — ritu ne kaha
ritu ke ghar se koyi nahi aaya. Maine pune se madan ko bhi invite kar liya tha. vo seedha mandir pahunch gaya.
Bahut emotional pal tha vo mere liye jab main ritu ke saath 7 phere ley raha tha. ek ek kadam main bahut bhaavuk ho kar rakh raha tha. ritu khaamosi se chal rahi thi. upar se mandir ka maahol. Bahut peacefull environment mein hamaari shaadi ho rahi thi. bhagvaan ko ye shaadi manjoor thi tabhi bhagvaan ke mandir mein hi unhi ke saamne ye shaadi ho rahi thi.
Jaise hi pura process khatam huva, ritu ne meri aur dekha aur boli, “ab to rahoge na mere saath hamaare ghar mein”
Main bas mushkura diya aur aankhe jhapka kar haan ka ishaara kiya
Tabhi ritu ka mobile baj utha.
Ushne phone uthaaya aur maine dekha ki vo kishi gahri chinta mein kho gayi.
Maine pucha, “kya baat hai ritu”
“Papa tumse baat karna chaahte hain jatin, please chupchaap sab kuch shun lena vo bahut gusse mein hain” —- ritu ne kaha
“theek hai laao phone mujhe do” — maine kaha
maine phone kaan par laga kar hello bola hi tha ki udhar se gusse ki bochaar ho gayi, “meri baat kaan khol kar shun ladke, shaadi to tune ritu se kar li par main tujhe kuch nahi dunga. Ritu ko bhi apni jaaydaad se bedakhal karta hun. tu yaha mere ghar mein ghusne ki himmat mat karna. aur haan ritu ko kuch nukshaan pahunchaaya na to teri boti boti karke kutto ko khila dunga, neech kahin ka”
bas itna kah kar ritu ke papa ne phone kaat diya
“kya kah rahe the papa jatin” — ritu ne pucha
“kuch nahi aashirvaad de rahe the ki tum dono sada khus rahna” — maine kaha
“jhut bol rahe ho…. hain na, ye aashirvaad unhone mujhe bhi diya hai” —– ritu ne kaha
“ritu bado ke muh se nikla har bol aashirvaad hi hai, tum chinta mat karo vakt ke saath sab kuch theek ho jaayega. Jish bhagvaan ne ye rista banaaya hai, vahi bhagvaan ish riste ki laaz bhi rakhega. Chalo ab chalte hain” —- maine kaha
hum chale hi the ki sidharth vaha aa gaya
“congratulation to both of you. Mujhe lag hi raha tha ki tum dono ka gahra pyar hai. all the best. Ritu hamesha khus rahna” — sidharth ne kaha
maine dekha ki ritu ne sidharth se theek se baat nahi ki. kaaran aaj diary padh kar pata chala ki aisa kyon tha.
mandir ghar ke nazdeek hi tha par phir bhi maine ek car arrange kar rakhi thi ghar tak jaane ke liye.
hum dono sabhi ko bye karke car mein baith gaye. Dil mein ajeeb sa mitha mitha ahsaash ho raha tha. main apni dulhan ke saath baitha tha. ritu ne meri aur dekha aur maine ushki aur dekha. Hamnein aankho hi aankho mein apne pyar ka izhaar kiya. Par ritu ke chehre par ek dard bhari mushkaan thi
Koyi 5 minut mein hum ghar pahunch gaye.
Ghar aate hi ritu bedroom mein ghuss gayi aur bed par gir kar rone lagi.
Maine darvaaja khadkaaya to vo jhat se uth gayi aur apne aanshu puchne lagi
Main ushke karib aa gaya. Ritu ki aankhe laal ho rakhi thi
“Kya baat hai ritu, kya mujh se koyi galti huyi hai” — maine pucha
“nahi jatin tumhaari koyi galti nahi hai, papa ne mujhe pehli baar itni buri tarah se daanta hai. aisa lag raha tha ki vo mujhe galat samajh rahe hain. Unhe shaayad lagta hai ki maine ye shaadi apne jism ki aag bhujaane ke liye ki hai. unhone aisa kaha nahi par jaise vo mujhe daant rahe the ush se yahi lag raha tha. unhone ye tak kah diya ki chintoo ko ab bhool jao, main tum paapiyon ke paas ushe nahin bhejunga. Main apne bete se kaise dur rahungi jatin, pata nahi kya hoga. main bahut dukhi hun. I am very sorry jatin, main abhi tumse koyi baat nahi kar paaungi. Mera man tha ki hum mandir se aa kar dher saari baate karenge par mera dil abhi bahut bhaari ho raha hai. please mujhe galat mat samajhna. Main thodi der late rahin hun, tum bhi dushre kamre mein araam kar lo” —- ritu ne bhaavuk ho kar kaha
“theek hai ritu tum araam karo, meri chinta mat karo, main bhi araam kar leta hun” — maine kaha.
Koyi ek ghante baad ritu mere kamre mein aayi.
Main aankhe band karke bistar par leta huva tha.
“Sho rahe ho kya jatin” ritu ne pucha
main jhat se uth gaya aur uth kar baith gaya
meri dulhan aankho mein pyar lekar mere saamne khadi thi.
“nahi jaan bas aankhe band karke leta huva tha. kaisi ho tum” —- maine kaha
“tumhe bahut bura lag raha hoga ki maine tumhe yahaan dushre kamre mein leta diya. jatin mere dil ke zakham abhi hare hain. Mujhe thoda vakt do, main puri koshish karungi ki main ek achi patni ban paaun. Please mujhe galat mat samajhna. Main tumhe bahut pyar karti hun. tum chaaho to mere paas aa jaana, tumhe rokungi nahin. Par mujhe thoda vakt chaahiye ish nayi jeendagi mein adjust hone ke liye. sab kuch itni jaldi ho gaya hai ki main hairaan hun. please mujhe samajhne ki koshish karna” ——- ritu ne emotinal ho kar kaha
“main samajh sakta hun jaan, mere kaaran hi to tumhe zakham mile hain. Tum chinta mat karo. Hum pyar se ek saath rahenge. Rahi baat tumhaare paas aane ki to mujhe koyi jaldi nahi hai. tum ab meri patni ho. Puri jeendagi padi hai paas aane ke liye. tum ab sho jao, tumhaari aankhe laal ho rahi hain” —- maine kaha...

[hirarandi]

Aur ish tarah se hamaari shaadi shuda jeendagi ki shuruvaat huyi. Aaj lagbhag ek mahina ho gaya shaadi ko. Hum hanste boltey hain. Ache dost ki tarah ek chhat ke neeche rahte hain. Baith kar ganto baate karte rahte hain. Jab ritu bolti hai to main pyar se ushke chehre ko dekhte huve ushki baat shunta hun. jeendagi bahut pyari aur hasin ban gayi hai. haan ye aur bhi jyada hasin ho sakti hai agar hum dono ek normal husband wife ki tarah rah paayein to. Par mujhe ish baat ka koyi gam nahin hai.
Ritu mera pura dhyaan rakhti hai. ushe bhi apne office jaana hota hai par phir bhi ushe pehle mujhe breakfast dene ki chinta rahti hai. kabhi kabhi khud breakfast karne ka time ushke paas nahi hota par mujhe kheela kar hi office jaati hai. ushki mere prati dedication dekh kar aankhe bhar aati hain.
Kabhi shaam ko vakt hota hai to hum dono gate way of India par ghum aate hai aur khub masti karte hain. Ice-cream khaate khaate hum dur tak nikal jaate hain
Hamaari jeendagi mein sex nahi hai par pyar chaaro aur beekhra pada hai. hum dono apni pyar se bhari duniya mein bahut khus hain.
Aaj ye diary padhi to ye ahsaash aur gahra ho gaya ki kitna bada paap kiya tha maine. Ek maasum se phool ko maine badi berahmi se kuchla tha. sukar hai vo phool aaj meri jeendagi mein hai aur mere paas moka hai ushe phir se kheelne dene ka. Main apni puri koshish karunga ki ab mere kaaran ritu ko koyi bhi dukh ya takleef na ho. Jish pyar se vo mera dhyaan rakhti hai utne hi pyar se main bhi ushka dhyaan rakhunga.
Aaj ye baat samajh mein aa rahi hai ki kyon ritu mujhe ushke sharir ko chune se mana karti hai. jitna julm ushne saha hai, ushki jagah koyi aur hota to mar jaata. Dukh bas ish baat ka hai ki ye sab mere kaaran huva. Man kar raha hai ki ritu ke kadmo mein gir jaaun aur ush se phir ek baar maafi maangu. Par vo uth jaayegi aur mujhe yaha apne paas dekh kar pareshaan hogi. kuch kahegi nahi mujhe, haan man hi man udaas jaroor ho jaayegi aur mujh se sorry feel karegi ki vo mujh se dur dur rahti hai.
Kal ritu ne mujh se bade pyar se pucha tha
“Jatin tum mujh se naraaj honge na”
maine kaha, “kyon aisa kyon kah rahi ho tum ritu”
ritu ki aankhe bhar aayi aur vo rote huve boli, “main tumhaari patni hun aur jab se shaadi huyi hai main roj tum se alag sho rahin hun, main kya karun jatin mujhe kuch samajh nahi aata. Jab bhi tumhe apne paas bulaane ka sochti hun to vahi sab purani baate man mein ghumne lagti hain. Ek andhera maano mujhe gher leta hai. Main tumhaari jeendagi barbaad kar rahin hun.. hai na”
“nahi ritu aisa kyon kah rahi ho, jeendagi to maine tumhaari barbaad ki thi. tumne to mujhe apna kar meri jeendagi par ek ahsaan kiya hai. mujhe jeendagi bhar tumhaare sharir ko chune ka moka na bhi mile mujhe koyi gam nahi hoga. Mujhe aaj bas ye khusi hai ki main tumhaara pati ban ke tumhaare saath hun. mujhe tumse kuch aur nahi chaahiye jaan, tum mujhe itna pyar de rahi ho vo kya kam hai. sex ke liye ye shaadi nahi ki thi maine, pyar ke liye ki thi. hum bas araam se apni ish shaadi shuda jeendagi mein aage badhte hain, jo bhi hoga acha hoga. I love you” —- maine ritu ko samjhaate huve kaha
“lekin phir bhi jatin main bahut dukhi hun ki ek patni ke roop mein main fail ho rahin hun, aisa nahi hai ki main koshish nahi kar rahi hun. bahut koshish kar rahi hun. par meri aatma tak andhera bhara hai. aaj tumhaare liye dil mein nafrat nahi hai phir bhi mera ye sharir ush sab ke liye taiyaar nahi hai jishke liye ek patni ko hona chaahiye. upar se mere papa ki daant ne mujhe aur jyada ashaaye bana diya hai” — ritu ne kaha
“to zemmedaar kaun hai ish sab ke liye. main hi to zemmedaar hun na, main tumhaari haalat nahi samjhunga to aur kaun samjhega. Tum jabardasti kuch koshish mat karo. Hamaari kishmat mein ek hasin husband wife ka rista raha to vo jaroor aayega. ye pyar sex se kahin jyada kimti hai jaan, kishi baat ki chinta mat karo aur sho jao” —- maine kaha
ish tarah badi mushkil se kal maine ritu ko samjha bujha kar shulaaya tha.

[hirarandi]

ritu mere saamne padi hai aur main ushke saamne baitha huva ye diary leekh raha hun. par ab tak maine ya to ushke chehre ko dekha hai ya phir ushke kadmo ko. Ushke sharir ka koyi aur ang mujhe jaise deekhaayi nahi de raha hai. ish pyar ne mere ander ki havash ko khatam karke rakh diya hai. main bas ritu ko ek baar gale laga kar pyar se kahna chaahta hun, “ritu maine tumhaare har dukh ko mahsush kiya hai. tumhaare sabhi dukho ke liye main zemmedaar hun. mujhe jo saja deni ho de do par ish dukh ko jald se jald bhula do. Hasin pyar ki ek hasin jeendagi hamaara intezaar kar rahi hai. maine hi tumhe ye dukh diye hain ab main hi tumhe ek hasin safar par ley jaana chaahta hun. please mere saath chalo”
Date : 22-08-09
Kal jo huva ushki mahak abhi tak feeza mein faili huyi hai. charo aur rang beerange phool khil aaye hain. Meri aur ritu ki jeendagi ko jaise pankh lag gayein hain. Hum dono bahut unche ud rahein hain. Abhi tak kal ka ahsaash baaki hai. bahut dardnaak vakt tha kal hum dono ke liye par ushke ahsaash bahut pyare the.
Kal main apna mobile ghar hi bhool gaya. Shaam ko call center mein kaafi busy tha. main koyi 12 baje free huva. Mein ritu ko inform bhi nahi kar paaya ki aane mein thodi der ho jaayegi.
Maine raat ke 12 baje ghar ki bell bajaayi
Ritu ne darvaaja khola. Ushke chehre par chinta aur pareshaani saaf deekhaayi de rahi thi.
Maine darvaaja band kiya aur pucha, “kaisi ho jaan”
Ritu mere gale lag gayi aur rote huve boli, “kahan rah gaye the tum, mujhe bahut chinta ho rahi thi, phone bhi nahi kiya tumne”
“ritu tum mere gale lag kar khadi huyi ho. Tumhe pyar karne ka ye matlab nahin hai ki tum mere sharir se khelogi, chalo hato” —- maine hanste huve kaha
ritu hat gayi aur boli, “sorry galti ho gayi, par tum kya ek phone nahi kar sakte the, mujhe apni jaan kahte ho par tumhe meri koyi chinta nahi hai”
“sorry jaan bahut busy tha, dhyaan hi nahi raha ki kab 12 baj gaye, please mujhe maaf kar do” —- maine ritu ke kandhe ki aur haath badha kar kaha
par vo peeche hat gayi aur boli, “chalo haath dho lo main khaana lagaati hun”
ritu kitchen mein chali gayi. bahut naraaj lag rahi thi. jab aapka pyar naraaj ho to kuch acha nahi lagta. Maine pehli baar ushe aise naraaj hote huve dekha tha.
ritu kitchen mein mere liye khaana garam kar rahi thi.
mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha ki kaise manaaun main ritu ko. Mein kitchen ke door mein khada khada ritu ko dekhta raha. ushke najdeek jaane ki himmat nahi ho rahi thi
par phir bhi mujh se raha nahi gaya aur maine ritu ko peeche se baahon mein bhar liya aur kaha, “sorry jaan aage se aisa nahi hoga. Aage se kabhi late huva to turant tumhe phone karke bataaunga, please mujhe maaf kar do”
“tumhaari marji hai jatin, mujhe to bas tumhaari chinta ho rahi thi. bure bure khyaal aa rahe the ki pata nahin tum kahan rah gaye” —- ritu ne kaha
ajeeb baat thi ritu ne mujhe hatne ko nahi kaha. Maine phir meri jaan ko bahut ache se apni baahon mein daboch liya
maine kaha, “ritu main tumhe baahon mein bhar kar khada hun, tum mujhe daant kar hata kyon nahi rahi ho, mujhe daant kar vahi dialogue bolo na sharir se khelne wala…. please”
“tum mere pati ho, ab kya ye bhi bataana padega tumhe, main chaahe chaahun ya na chaahun tum mere saath kuch bhi kar sakte ho, tumhaara mujh par pura adhikaar hai” — ritu ne kaha
main turant hat gaya aur bola, “tumhaari marji ke bina main kabhi kuch nahi karunga jaan, apne pyar ko main kabhi dukh nahi dunga”
ritu ghum kar mere gale lag gayi aur boli, “jatin I love you…. mujhe aise mat sataaya karo. Pata hai dil bahut bhaari ho raha tha. ek phone bhi nahi kar sake tum. Itna busy koyi nahi hota, main 6 baje se aankhe beechaaye baithi hun. ek ek minut bahut mushkil se beeta hai mera”
shaadi ke baad pehli baar hum aise gale lag kar khade the. Vakt maano tahar gaya tha. mujhe bahut acha lag raha tha khud ko ritu ke itne karib paa kar. Mujhe ye ahsaash ho raha tha ki shaayad ritu ab ush safar par chalne ke liye taiyaar hai jo ki ek pati, patni ka hota hai.
maine ritu ke chehre ko apne haatho mein thaam liya
ushne apni aankhe band kar li.
Maine aage badh kar ritu ke honto par apne hont tika diye.
aur phir mere aur ritu ke honto ke beech vo kiss huyi jishki maine sapne mein bhi kalpana nahi ki thi.
hamaare hont kya jude, aisa lag raha tha jaise ki hum dono ki aatma jud gayi ho aur jud kar ek ho gayi ho. Bahut pyara ahsaash ho raha tha mujhe ritu ko kiss karte huve. Jish tarah main ritu ke honto ko apne honto mein dabaata tha ushi tarah ritu bhi mere honto ko apne honto mein dabaane ki koshish karti thi. mere honto ki har ek movement ka jawaab ritu apne honto ki similar movement se de rahi thi. Koyi 15 minut hum yu hi kitchen mein khade khade ek dushre ko betahaasa kiss karte rahe. Hamaari saanse bhi tej tej chalne lagi thi.
Aisi kiss ke baad mujhe bilkul vishwaas ho gaya ki ek aadmi aur aurat ke beech kiss pyar ka izhaar karne ka sabse pyara tareeka hai. ek dushre ko kiss karte karte main aur ritu pyar ki ush gahraayi tak pahunch gaye jishki hamne kalpana bhi nahi ki thi.
Jish tarah hum ek dushre ko kiss kar rahe the, ush se aisa lag raha tha ki hum ek dushre ke liye janmo se pyase hain.
Ritu achaanak hat gayi aur boli, “chalo khaana kha lo, tumhe bhook lagi hogi”
“Nahin aaj bhook nahin hai” — maine kaha aur kah kar phir se ritu ke honto ko apne honto mein daba liya.
hum phir se ush pyari si kiss mein kho gaye. Mere liye khud ko sambhaalna mushkil ho raha tha.
maine ritu ko apni godi mein utha liya aur ushke bedroom ki taraf chal pada
“jatin ye kya kar rahe ho, khaana thanda ho raha hai” — ritu ne kaha
“ho jaane do thanda, aaj hamaari suhaagraat hai jaan, bhul jao sab kuch aur ish pal mein kho jao” —- maine kaha
ritu ne aankhe band kar li
maine ritu ko bedroom mein la kar pyar se bed par leta diya.
maine ushke chehre par sikan dekhi. Shaayad vo phir se kuch bura mahsush kar rahi thi.
mujh se dekha nahi gaya aur maine kaha, “chalo ritu khaana khaate hain”
“nahin jatin please mujhe chhod kar mat jao, mujhe baahon mein bhar lo please” —- ritu ne rote huve kaha.
Main bahut bhaavuk ho gaya aur ushe apni baahon mein bhar liya.
“Kya baat hai jaan ro kyon rahi ho main tumhaare paas hi to hun” —- maine kaha
“Jatin jab bhagvaan ko hamaare dil mein ye pyar ka phool hi khilaana tha to hamein itne lambe raste se kyon ghumaaya ki hum ghum ghum kar thak jaayein, aur ish pyar ke phool ki khusbu tak ko mahsush na kar paayein” —- ritu ne pucha
“pata nahi ritu, hum dono ish vishaal duniya ke aage bahut chhote hain. Hamein bas itna pata hai ki hamein pyar hai. puri kahaani to bas bhagvaan hi jaante hain. Kya pata hamaara janmo ka rista ho. Ish janam mein galti se tum sanjay ki patni ban gayi aur phir bhagvaan ne ish galti ko sudhaar diya. kuch bhi ho sakta hai jaan. Ye duniya bahut anokhi hai aur rahashyon se bhari hai. hum jaante hi kitna hain ish duniya ko” — maine kaha
itne pyar mein jab pati patni ek dushre ke gale lage hon to unke beech ek khubsurat sex ki sambhaavna ban jaati hai. aisa hi kuch mere aur ritu ke beech ho raha tha.
pati hone ke naate mujhe ek koshish karne ki jaroorat thi. par mujhe bas ritu ka dar tha. main ushe koyi dukh nahi dena chaahta tha. vo bahut emotional ho kar mujh se leepti huyi thi. main ush ke itne karib hone ke kaaran bahakta ja raha tha.

[hirarandi]

aur phir bina soche samjhe maine ek koshish ki. vaise bhi pyar soch samajh kar nahi hota.
maine ritu ke ubhaaro ko thaam liya aur unhe pyar se dabaate huve kaha, “jaan tumhe pyar kar raha hun, jab bhi kuch bura lage to mujhe rok dena, main turant ruk jaaunga”
ritu ne kuch nahi kaha aur apni aankhe band kar li
thodi der tak main ritu ke ubhaaro ko pyar se masalta raha
maine ritu ke chehre ko dhyaan se dekha to paaya ki vo shaanti se aankhe band karke ush pal mein khone ki koshish kar rahi hai. vo koshish hi kar rahi thi kyonki kabhi ushke chehre par sikan hoti thi aur kabhi shaanti. Vo kishi kasam-kash mein deekh rahi thi.
maine bahut pyar se dheere se ritu ki kameez ko upar sarka kar ushke ubhaaro ko thaam liya.
ritu ne bra nahi pahni thi. shaayad raat ko shote vakt vo nahi pahanti hogi. mujhe apni patni ke baare mein pata hi kitna hai.
maine ritu ke ek nipple ko muh mein ley liya aur pyar se choosne laga.
maine nazre utha kar ritu ke chehre ko dekha. Kuch clear nahi ho raha tha ki ushe kaisa lag raha hai.
maine pucha, “ jaan kya main hat jaaun”
“nahin jatin aaj mujhe ye sab face karna hi hoga, varna mai kabhi nahi kar paaungi. Main tumhaari patni hun. tum meri parvaah kiye bina jo man mein aaye karo” — ritu ne kaha
“ye kya kah rahi ho jaan, aisa nahi kar sakta main jaan, chalo kishi aur din try karenge” —- maine kaha
“tum jab mere ubhaaro ko chum rahe the to tumhaare man mein kya tha jatin, havash ya pyar” —– ritu ne pucha
“pyar tha jaan, havash ko to main kab ka tyag chuka hun” —- maine kaha
“to phir ye pyar jaari rakho jatin, tumhaara pyar hi mere un ghaavo ko bhar sakta hai jo tumhaari havash ne kabhi mere sharir ko diye the. Aaj mujhe tumhaari patni hone ka vo ahsaash de do jo har patni ka sapna hota hai. mujhe pyar karo jatin….bas pyar karo” —- ritu ne kaha
maine ritu ke dushre nipple ko honto mein daba liya aur ushe betahasa choosne laga.
par phir bhi ritu ke chehre ke bhaav yahi jatla rahe the ki vo kishi conflict mein hai
maine ritu ki kameez utaar kar ek taraf rakh di aur ushke dono ubhaaro ko thaam kar pyar se masalne laga.
par ritu jaise ek laash ki tarah mere neeche padi thi. ye soch kar meri aankhe bhar aayi ki hey bhagvaan kya haal kar diya hai maine apni jaan ka. mujh se ye sab dekha nahi gaya aur maine ritu ke kadmo ko thaam kar kaha, “jaan mujhe maaf kar do, mujhe tumse kuch nahi chaahiye”
maine ritu ko dekha to vo bhi ro rahi thi.
main uth kar ushke chehre ke paas aaya aur ushke aanshu punch kar bola, “koyi jaroorat nahi hai ye sab karne ki hamein jaan, hamaara pyar kaafi hai hum dono ke liye”
“I am sorry jatin, main ish liye kah rahi thi ki mujhe ek moka do, main ek jeenda laash ban chuki hun” —- ritu ne rote huve kaha
“bas jaan please… aisi baate mat karo varna main mar jaaunga. Tumhaari ish haalat ke liye main hi zemmedar hun” —- maine kaha
“nahin jatin, tum hi nahi, main khud bhi zemmedar hun. pehle to jo huva so huva, par mera jo ** karne ki koshis ki gayi aur mujhe jish tarah baar baar jalil kiya gaya ushne to mujhe pura khatam kar diya hai. I am very sorry jatin tumhe pyar to karti hun par tumhe kuch dene ke liye mere paas nahi hai,varna to jish din shaadi huyi thi ushi raat khud ko tumhaare kadmo mein beecha deti main. Ishliye tumhe kahti thi ki mujhe moka dena, mein patni ka farz nibhaane ki koshish karungi.” — ritu ne rote huve kaha
“bas ritu, please meri jaan logi kya ab” —- maine kaha
main ritu ke saath bed par late gaya aur ushe baahon mein bhar liya. bahut der tak hum chupchaap pade rahe aur kuch nahi bole. Kab hamein neend aa gayi pata hi nahi chala. Jab meri aankh khuli to paaya ki subah ke 4 baj rahein hain. Kamre ki light jali huyi thi. Ritu mere saath hi paanv sikod kar lati huyi thi. bahut pyara ahsaash tha vo mere liye. hum shaadi ke baad pehli baar ek saath sho rahe the aur hamein ye pata bhi nahi tha.
ritu ka muh meri taraf hi tha. vo sirf salwaar mein thi. ushke ubhaar meri aankho ke biklul saamne the. Vo bilkul ek maasum bache ki tarah sho rahi thi.
maine ritu ko baahon mein bhar liya aur vo hadbada kar uth gayi.
“ohh…. tumne mujhe dara diya” — ritu ne kaha
“tum bahut pyar se sho rahi thi, raha nahi gaya aur tumhe baahon mein bhar liya, I love you jaan” —– maine kaha
“I love you too jatin, kya time huva hai” —- ritu ne pucha
“pure 4 baje hain jaan, kab neend aa gayi pata hi nahi chala. Hum ek saath sho rahe the aur hamein ish baat ka ahsaash bhi nahi tha. tumhe kaisa lag raha hai jaan” —- maine pucha
“acha lag raha hai jatin, vo kaun si patni hogi jo apne pati ke saath sho kar khud ko khusnasib nahi samjhegi” —- ritu ne kaha
aur hum phir se gale lag kar sho gaye.

[hirarandi]

Date : 23-08-09
6:00 pm
kal ka pura din hamaare pyar ki khusbu se mahkta raha. 21 ki raat ko mere aur ritu ke beech sex nahi huva par sex se badh kar hamaare beech itna pyar huva ki ushki mahak hamaare saath jeendagi bhar rahegi.
Kal subah jab mein utha to ritu bed par nahi thi.
Main foran uth kar baahar aa gaya. Maine dekha ki vo naha dho kar apne chote se mandir mein puja kar rahi thi. main bhi ushke saath ja kar aankh meech kar khada ho gaya.
“Arey tum kab uthe” — ritu ne pucha
maine kaha, “abhi abhi uth kar aaya hun”
ritu ne achaanak neeche jhuk kar mere paanv cho liye
maine kaha, “arey ye kya kar rahi ho tum”
“kuch nahi ye to ek patni ka dharam hai” —- ritu ne kaha
maine ushe baahon mein bhar liya aur kaha, “tumhe pa kar mujhe sab kuch mil gaya jaan mujhe aur kuch nahi chaahiye. I love you”
“main khud ko tumhaare kadmo mein beecha dungi jatin, bas thoda sa vakt aur do mujhe. Main puri koshish kar rahin hun. chalo ab fresh ho jao, main breakfast banaati hun” —– ritu ne kaha
office mein bhi hum ek dushre se phone par baat karte rahe.aisa lag raha tha jaise ki naya naya pyar huva hai hum dono ko. Aur ye tha bhi sach. Jaisa pyar hum ab dekh rahe the vo bilkul naya tha. ye pyar ek pati patni ka tha. office mein kayi baar meri aankhe tak bhar aayi ritu ko soch kar
ritu ne pucha, “aaj shaam ko kya khaana pasand karoge”
maine kaha, “kal raat hamne kya khaaya tha”
“raat to hum dono bhooke sho gaye the” —- ritu ne kaha
“bhooke nahi shoye the, hamne pet bhar ke pyar khaaya tha, aaj shaam ko bhi vahi khaaunga theek hai… tiayaar rahna meri baahon mein aane ke liye” —- maine kaha
“tum paagal ho gaye ho jatin” —- ritu ne kaha
“bilkul ho gaya hun paagal, jishki tumhaare jaisi patni ho vo khusi se paagal ho jaayega” —- maine kaha
“bas maska mat lagaao, main ab phone kaat rahin hun, important meeting mein jaana hai… bye shaam ko miltey hai” —- ritu ne kaha aur phone kaat diya
main ritu se pehle ghar pahunch gaya
Maine pure ghar ko saja diya. ritu ke bedroom ko jahaan hum dono peechli raat shoye the maine phoolo se saja diya. ush bed ko phoolo se dhak diya jahaan hmaara peechli raat pyar mahka tha.
Ritu jab ghar aayi to hiaraan rah gayi
“Arey tum aaj mujh se pehle aa gaye aur ye kya kar rakha hai, my god kitna pyara sajaaya hai ghar ko, kya koyi party karne wale ho aaj” —- ritu ne hairaani mein kaha
“haan aaj hum apne pyar ko celebrate karenge, pyar ki hi baat karenge, pyar ko hi khaayenge aur pyar ko hi peeyenge. Ish party mein humaare shiva aur koyi nahi aayega” —- maine kaha
“tum sach mein paagal ho gaye ho jatin” —- ritu ne hanste huve kaha
“to kya huva ish paagal ko tum pyar to karti ho na” —- maine kaha
ritu mere gale lag gayi aur boli, “I love you jatin”
maine ritu ko godi mein utha liya aur bedroom mein ley aaya.
Bedroom ko dekh kar vo boli, “wow, ye phoolo ki barsaat kishne kar di”
Maine kaha, “madam mere alaawa yaha koyi aur bhi hai kya ?, itni mehnat se sajaaya hai maine aur tum kah rahi ho kishne kar di”
“Sorry jatin majaak kar rahi thi, mujhe pata hai, ye paagal pan tum hi kar sakte ho” — ritu ne kaha
maine kaha, “jaan kal ke pyar ki mahak aaj mujhe har taraf mahsush ho rahi thi. kal raat tumhaare itne karib tha main, mujhe vishwaas hi nahi ho raha. apne dil ki feelings deekhane ke liye maine ye room phoolo se saja diya hai. phoolo ki jo mahak ish kamre mein hai, vaisi hi mahak mere dil mein hai”
“tum deewane ho gaye ho jatin, ab mujhe yu hi uthaaye rakhoge ya phir neeche bhi utaaroge” —- ritu ne hanste huve kaha
maine ritu ko pyar se phoolo ki sez par leta diya aur khud bhi ushke saath late gaya
maine pucha, “ab hum saath saath shoyenge na jaan”
“hmm… tumse pyar karne ka ye matlab nahi hai ki tum mere sharir se kheloge” — ritu ne hanste huve kaha kaha
“jaan sach kah raha hun kal bahut acha laga mujhe. Tumhaare karib hone ka bahut pyara ahsaash tha mere liye” —- maine kaha
“mujhe bhi acha laga jatin, main aaj pura din office mein tumhe sochti rahi. mera sharir mere bas mein nahi hai, par mera pyar tumhaare kadmo mein har pal haazir hai” — ritu ne kaha
“jaan ek baat kahun” — maine pucha
“haan kaho” —- ritu ne jawaab diya
“hamaara ek pyara sa rista ban gaya hai. ish riste ka aadhaar pyar hai, hum pyar mein khoye rahte hain jo hoga acha hoga. Tum kishi baat ki chinta mat karo” — maine kaha
“haan jatin mujhe pata hai, mujhe bas ye dukh rahta hai ki main tumhe ek patni ka sukh nahi de pa rahi” —— ritu ne kaha
“kaun kahta hai tum patni ka sukh nahi de rahi ho. Mera itna khyaal rakhti ho. Acha acha khaana khilaati ho. Aur kal mujhe itni pyari kiss di thi. abhi tak mere hont fadak rahein hain” —– maine kaha
“vo sirf kiss nahi thi jatin, vo mera pyar tha, kaash tumhe ye sharir bhi de paati, par ye mere bas mein nahi hai” —- ritu ne bhaavuk ho kar kaha
“pata hai jaan, vo tumhaara pyar tha, varna to tum mere nazdeek kahaan aati ho… tumhaara pyar mujhe meri aatma tak mahsush huva tha. aisa lag raha tha ki hum ek ho gaye hain” —- maine kaha
hum ek dushre ki aankho mein bade pyar se dekh rahe the. Dekhte dekhte kab hamaare hont mil gaye pata hi nahi chala.
Bahut der tak hum kiss karte rahe
Achaanak mujhe ritu ki diary mein leekhi baate yaad aa gayi aur mere honto ki movement ruk gayi
Ritu ko shaayad kuch mahsush huva aur ushne mere honto se apne hont hata kar pucha, “Kya huva jatin”
“ek baat soch raha tha jaan” —- maine kaha
“bolo kya baat hai, jatin” —- ritu ne pucha
maine ritu ke chehre par pyar se haath rakha aur kaha, “ jaan maine tumhaari diary padh li hai”
“kya ?? tumne diary padh li, bura laga hoga na tumhe ? maine to ush mein tumhe khub bura bhala kah rakha hai” —- ritu ne kaha
“kuch bura nahi laga jaan, main pehle ushi laayak tha. bura laga to bas ye ki mere kaaran tumhe kitna kuch sahna pada. Mujhe aisa lagta hai ki
tum khud ko ush paap ke liye maaf nahi kar pa rahi ho jo ki maine tum par thopa tha” — maine kaha
“main kya karun jatin, ab jab tum diary padh hi chuke ho to samajh sakte ho ki sex naam se mujhe kitni nafrat ho gayi hai, par mera yakin karo main ek achi patni ban-ne ki puri koshish kar rahin hun” — ritu ne kaha

[hirarandi]

“ritu vo sab to theek hai, par jab tak tum khud ko maaf nahi karogi, tab tak yu hi pareshaan rahogi. Apni galti ko maan-na alag baat hai par hum hamesha ush galti ko sar par dho kar nahi chal sakte. Aaj jeendagi ek khubsurat mod par hai. chaaro aur hamaare pyar ki mahak faili huyi hai. sab kuch bhula kar ish pyar ki mahak mein kho jao. Shaanti se apne chaaro aur dekho ek hasin jeendagi hamaara intezaar kar rahi hai” —- maine kaha
“main samajh rahin hun jatin. Jab se tumse shaadi huyi hai, maine khud ish pyar ki mahak ko apne chaaro aur mahsush kiya hai. mera yakin karo main khud ko ish pyar par luta dena chaahti hun. kal jab tum mujhe godi mein utha kar bade pyar se yaha bedroom mein laaye the to main man hi man khud ko tumhaare liye taiyaar kar rahi thi. main soch rahi thi ki tumhaare kadmo mein aaj apna pyar beecha dungi. par na jaane kyon ushi vakt papa ki kahi baate jo unhone shaadi vale din phone par kahi thi mere kaano mein gunjne lagi. yaad hai na tumhe ki vo kah rahe the ki vo chintoo ko hum paapiyon ke paas nahi bhejenge. Ishliye mera sharir jakad gaya aur main zeenda laash ban kar rah gayi. jatin main tumhaari patni hone ke saath saath ek ma bhi hun. mujhe apne bete ki bahut yaad aati hai.” —— ritu ne bade hi bhaavuk andaaz mein kaha
maine aage badh kar ritu ke maathe ko chum liya aur kaha, “ohh jaan, mujhe bhi chintoo ki chinta hai. mujhe nahi pata tha ki tum ushe ley kar itna pareshaan hogi”
ritu rote huve mere gale lag gayi aur bhaari man se boli, “jatin, main roj papa ka phone try karti hun, par vo mera phone kaat dete hain. Mammi aur sonu bhi mujh se koyi baat nahi kar rahe. samajh nahi aata ki main kya karun, kya nahin. Main kaise apne bete se milun”
“hmm….. aisa karte hain hum delhi chalte hain. Ushe khud yaha ley kar aayenge” ——- maine pyar se kaha
“nahin jatin apne ghar walo ka saamna karne ki himmat mujh mein nahi hai, vo mujhe bahut galat samajh rahein hain” —– ritu ne kaha
“jeendagi mein ish baat se farak nahi padta ki log aapko kya samajhte hain, farak padta hai to ish baat se ki aap khud ko kya samajhte hain. Ish pyar ki laaz rakho jaan aur sar uncha rakh kar aage badho. Tumhaara aisa behaviour ish pyar ka apmaan hai” —- maine kaha
“to tum hi bataao ki kya karun main” — ritu ne pucha
“jao aur apne bete ko apne saath ley aao” —- maine kaha
“kya tum mere saath chaloge” —– ritu ne pucha
“kyon nahi jaan, maine abhi kaha to tha ki, delhi chalte hain, chintoo ab mera beta hai. main abhi flight book kra kar aata hun ” —- maine kaha
“arey ruko mera credit card kab kaam aayega, yahi laptop se book kar lenge” —- ritu ne kaha
“nahin tum apna credit card apne paas rakho apna ghar main khud sambhaalunga, 10 minut lagenge abhi ticket ley kar aata hun” — maine kaha
“tum mera koyi kharcha nahi hone dete, mera paisa bhi to tumhaara hi hai” —- ritu ne kaha
“vo to theek hai jaan lekin main apne parivaar ki saari zimmedari khud uthaana chaahta hun” —- maine kaha
“theek hai main dinner taiyaar karti hun, jaldi aana, hum khaana kha kar dher shaari baate karenge” — ritu ne kaha
main ticket ley aaya. Subah 7:30 ki flight thi.
hum dono raat bhar baate karte rahe. Man mein yahi sawaal tha ki ritu ke ghar jab hum jaayenge to ushke parents kaise react karenge. Baate karte karte hum peechli raat ki tarah ek dushre ki baahon mein sho gaye.

[hirarandi]

Date : 23-08-09
abhi shaam ke 6 baje hain. Hum subah 10 baje delhi pahunch gaye the. Abhi main laxminagar apne ghar par hun. ritu ko subah karol bagh ushke ghar chhod aaya tha.
jaise hi hum ritu ke ghar pahunche, jaisi ki hamein ummeed thi, kishi ne hamaara swaagat nahi kiya.
Hum ghar ke darvaaje par hi ruk gaye.
Ritu ke papa aag babula ho kar hamaare paas aaye.
Unhone ritu ko kuch nahi kaha aur meri aur dekh kar bole, “kaha tha na maine ki ish ghar mein kadam mat rakhna, tumhaari himmat kaise huyi yahaan aane ki, dafa ho jao yahaan se, varna zute maar kar yahaan se nikaalunga”
Maine kaha, “dekhiye, ritu apne bete ke liye pareshaan hai, aur main ishka pati hone ke naate yahaan khada hun, aap please gussa mat kiziye aur ek baar ritu ki baat shun liziye, ye aapki bahut izzat karti hai, ishliye yahaan aayi hai”
Itna shunte hi ritu ke papa ne mere muh par ek thappad jad diya aur bole, “bakwaas band kar aur foran yahaan se dafa ho ja”
Tabhi ritu ka chhota bhai bhi vahaan aa gaya
Ushke aane ki to koyi chinta nahi thi par vo haath mein ek hokey ley kar aa raha tha. ek violent maahol banta nazar aa raha tha. yahi main nahi chaahta tha. hum to shaanti se baat ko suljhaana chaahte the.
“Saale teri himmat kaise huyi yahaan ghussne ki” — ushne hokey ko mujhe deekhaate huve kaha
“dekho bhai, main yahaan koyi ladaayi jhagda karne nahi aaya hun, meri patni apne bete ke liye pareshaan hai aur mujhe lagta hai ki ek ma ko bete se juda nahi karna chaahiye” —- maine kaha
lekin sonu(ritu ka bhai) ko jaise kuch samajh nahi aaya aur ushne hokey ghuma kar mere pet mein de maari.
Vaar itni jor ka tha ki main ladkhada kar gir gaya. Par jaldi hi uth gaya. Mujhe har haal mein ritu ke saath rahna tha
Ritu ye sab dekh kar rone lagi aur boli, “papa please hamaari baat to shuno”
“Chup karo tum ritu, tumse main koyi baat nahi karna chaahta” —- ritu ke papa ne kaha
sonu ne hokey mere sar par maarne ki koshish ki par maine ushki hokey ushke haath se cheen li
“dekho munna hokey se main bahut khel chuka hun, baat aaj pyar ki hai aur maine apni jeendagi mein yahi seekha hai ki khun kharaabe se kuch haansil nahi hota, meri baat mat shuno, mai ja raha hun, par ek baar ritu ki baat shun lo. Ek ma apne bete ke liye yahaan aayi hai” — maine kaha
sonu meri baat shun kar chupchaap vahin khada ho gaya par vo mari aur bade gusse se dekh raha tha
maine ritu ke kaano mein kaha, “jaan tum yahin ruko, main chalta hun, mere yahaan rahne se shaanti ka maahol nahi ban paayega. Tum mere jaane ke baad shaanti se confidently baat karna. Main laxminagar apne ghar ja raha hun, koyi baat ho to phone kar dena”
“nahin please mujhe akela chhod kar mat jao, mujhe bahut dar lag raha hai” —– ritu ne kaha
“darne ki kya baat hai jaan, tumhaare papa tumhe bahut pyar karte hain tabhi itna gussa ho rahe hain. Tum araam se ander jao, mere yahaan rahne se baat chit ka maahol nahi ban paayega. Main chalta hun, theek hai, don’t worry about anything, keep faith in god and in this love” —– maine kaha
sonu ko hamaari baate shun gayi thi vo bola, “haan…haan jaldi se yahaan se dafa ho jao varna yahaan se tumhaari laash jaayegi”
“theek hai jatin, apna khyaal rakhna, main tumhe baad mein phone karungi” —- ritu ne dheere se kaha
main ghar se baahar aa gaya aur ritu ander ki aur chal padi. Ushke papa chupchaap ushe dekh rahe the.

[hirarandi]

Date : 24-08-09
2:00 pm
kal shaam ko main bahut bechain tha. ritu ke karib rahne ki itni aadat ho gayi hai ki ek ek pal ushke bina mushkil se beet raha tha. phir mujhe ushki chinta bhi ho rahi thi ki vo kaisi hai. subah jab main ushe ushke ghar chhod kar ghar se baahar nikla tha to ushne bade pyar se peeche mud kar meri aur dekha tha. abhi tak vo moment meri aankho mein ghum rahi hai. ajeeb hota hai ye pyar bhi, har vakt dil ko bechain rakhta hai.
subah se shaam ho gayi par ritu ka koyi phone nahi aaya. Main ushka phone try kar raha tha to baar baar switched off aa raha tha. Dil bahut bechain ho raha tha. main ushke ghar jaana chaahta tha, par ye soch kar ruk gaya ki kahin koyi ladaayi jhagda na ho jaaye aur bani banaayi baat bigad jaaye.
koyi 8:30 baje ritu ka phone aaya
“kaha thi tum mujhe kitni chinta ho rahi thi” — maine pucha
“sorry jatin, phone ki bettery khatam ho gayi thi, aur main yahaan baato mein uljhi huyi thi, tum theek to ho. Sonu ne badi jor se hokey maari thi na. I am sorry for that jatin” —– ritu ne kaha
maine kaha, “main apne ghar par hun, jaan tum meri chinta mat karo aur bataao ki kya huva”
“jatin, sab theek hai, chinta ki koyi baat nahi hai, abhi main busy hun, koyi ek ghante main tumhe phone karti hun, theek hai, mera wait karna araam se baat karenge….ok” —– ritu ne kaha
maine kaha, “theek hai jaan, tum chinta mat karo, araam se phone karna”
“theek hai phir main thodi der mein aati hun”
—– ritu ne kaha
ye kah kar ritu ne phone kaat diya
aur phir jeendagi ka vo khubsurat lamha aaya jishki yaad jeendagi bhar mere saath rahegi. Main shaayad sab kuch bhul jaaun par vo lamha kabhi nahi bhula paaunga
koyi 9:30 par mere ghar ki bell baji
maine darvaaja khola to, khusi ke maare meri aankhe bhar aayi
mere saamne meri dulhan khadi thi, aur bade pyar se meri aur mushkura rahi thi.
“kya baat hai pati dev, ander nahi aane doge kya” —– ritu ne pucha
“tum yahaan kaise pahunch gayi jaan, tum to kah rahi thi ki main ek ghante baad phone karungi” —- maine khusi mein jhum kar pucha
“saari baat yahi karoge ya phir ander bhi bulaaoge” —- ritu ne pucha
“ruko tum pehli baar ghar aayi ho, aur main apni dulhan ko pure riti rivaaz se ghar mein parvesh karaaunga”
main itna khus tha ki mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha ki main kya karun. Maine pura ghar chaan maara par sawaagat karne ke liye kuch nahi mila. bahut dino baad ghar aaya tha, ishliye kuch milna mushkil tha.
main vaapas darvaaje par aa gaya. Shaayad ritu meri uljhan samajh gayi aur boli, “kya baat hai jatin, tum kishi baat ki chinta mat karo, main aa rahi hun”
maine kaha,“ nahi ruko to”
main ritu ke paas aa gaya aur bola, “jaan ghar mein tumhaare swaagat ke liye kuch nahi hai, lekin mein tumhaare kadmo mein apna dil beecha raha hun, tum mere dil par paanv rakh kar ghar mein parvesh karo”
ye kah kar main ritu ke kadmo mein late gaya
“jatin ye kya kar rahe ho tum, ish sab ki koyi jaroorat nahi hai, chalo utho yaha se” —- ritu ne jhuk kar mujhe uthaate huve kaha
“nahin jaan meri jeendagi ka ye khubsurat ahsaash mujh se mat chino, main ye din yaadgaar banaana chaahta hun” —– maine kaha
“tum nahi maanoge” —- ritu ne kaha aur mushkuraate huve mere dil par halka sa paanv rakh kar ghar mein daakhil ho gayi
“haan to pati dev ab utho aur ye darvaaja band kar lo” —- ritu ne kaha
“tum to bahut halki ho jaan, dil par kuch asar hi nahi huva” —- maine kaha
“ye tumhe abhi pata chala, roj mujhe godi mein utha kar ghumte ho, tab ye ahsaash nahi huva kya” — ritu ne mushkura kar pucha
maine uth kar darvaaja band kiya aur ritu ko baahon mein bhar kar kaha, “Tumne aaj mujhe bahut bada gift diya hai, yahaan aakar, pata hai mai tumhe bahut miss kar raha tha”
“main bhi tumhe miss kar rahi thi jatin” —- ritu ne kaha
“acha bataao to sahi ki kya huva ghar par aur chintoo kahaan hai” —– maine pucha
“jatin papa ne mujh se koyi baat nahi ki haan maine mammi aur sonu ko sab kuch samjha diya hai. mammi kah rahi thi ki vo khud papa ko samjha lengi ushke baad shaanti se chintoo ko ley jaana. Sonu hi mujhe apni car mein yahaan tak chhod kar gaya hai, vo sorry mahsush kar raha tha, kah raha tha ki baad mein shaanti se tumse milega. Bas ab papa ki baat hai, ishliye maine chintoo ko abhi laane ki zid nahin ki. main bhi yahi chaahti hun ki sab shaanti se ho jaaye. Main khus hun ki mammi aur sonu ab mere saath hain. Papa mujhe bahut pyar karte hain, mujhe yakin hai ki vo bhi jaldi hi samajh jaayenge. Ab lagta hai ki meri jeendagi mein shaanti hai aur sab kuch theek hone wala hai”

[hirarandi]

“ye to bahut acha huva jaan, bahut tassali mili hai dil ko ye shun kar, phir hum kal shaam ko vaapas chalte hain” —– maine kaha
“haan kal airport par hi ticket ley lenge” —- ritu ne kaha
“par tum abhi kaise aa gayi, kishi ne tumhe roka nahin” —— maine pucha
“mammi rok rahi thi. par mujhe tumhaari chinta ho rahi thi. dekhna chaahti thi ki tum theek to ho. Tumne kuch khaaya ki nahin” —- ritu ne kaha
“haan jaan maine kha liya hai, abhi baahar se kha kar aaya tha” —- maine kaha
“jatin ye ghar to acha hai” —– ritu ne kaha
“haan mammi papa bas yahi ghar chhod gaye the. Ishke alaawa mere paas kuch nahi hai. soch raha hun ishe bech kar mumbai mein hi kuch kharid lun” —- maine kaha
“arey nahi bechne ki kya jaroorat hai, kabhi hum delhi aaye to kahaan tahrenge, mumbai mein hai to hamaara ghar” —- ritu ne kaha
“theek hai baad mein baat karenge, pehle ye bataao ki kya seva karun apni biwi ki main” —- maine pucha
“mujhe late-ne ka man ho raha hai jatin, subah se baithe baithe thak gayin hun” —- ritu ne kaha
maine ritu ko godi mein utha liya aur seedhiyon ki taraf chal pada
“ye kahaan ley ja rahe ho jatin” —- ritu ne pucha
“chat par ley ja raha hun jaan, aaj chaandni raat hai, maine chat par apna bistar laga rakha hai, hum aaj khule aasmaan ke niche chaandni raat mein shoyenge” —- maine kaha
“jatin ruko to mujhe niche utaro, mujhe ley kar kaise chadoge tum” —- ritu ne kaha
“chad jaaunga jaan, tum mein bojh hi kahaan hai” —- maine kaha
“maine ritu ko jamin par beeche bistar par leta diya aur bola, “tum araam se leto main pani ki bottle ley kar aata hun, raat ko paani ki pyas lagegi to kaam aayega” —– maine kaha
“jatin ye bistar to chhota hai, hum ek saath ish par kaise latenge” —– ritu ne sharmaate huve kaha
“late jaayenge jaan, hum ek dushre ki baahon mein honge to ye bistar tumhe bada lagega,” —- maine hanste huve kaha
“tum paagal ho” —- ritu ne kaha
“haan tumhaare pyar mein paagal hun. vaise ye bisatar maine apne liye lagaaya tha, ab tum aa gayi ho to hum dono ishi par shoyenge ” — maine kaha aur paani lene ke liye chal pada
maine peeche mud kar dekha to ritu mushkura rahi thi
main vaapas aaya to dekha ki ritu aankhe band karke lati huyi hai
chaandni raat mein ritu itni pyari lag rahi thi ki man kar raha tha ki ushe bas dekhta rahun. Ushki pyari surat ke aage chaandni pheeki lag rahi thi
main chupchaap ritu ke baayin aur late gaya.
Ushki pyari si surat par halki si mushkaan ubhar aayi. Ushe pata chal gaya tha ki main ushke paas late gaya hun.
Apni dulhan ke saath chaandni raat mein koyi bhi bahak jaayega. Mere liye khud ko thaamna mushkil ho raha tha. upar se ritu ke chehre par itni pyari mushkaan thi ki dil thaame nahi tham raha tha.
Maine apna dayaan haath halke se ritu ke ubhaar par rakh diya aur ushe mahsush karne laga. ritu ki saanse tej hone lagi.
“jatin hat jao, tumhe pyar karne ka ye matlab nahin hai ki tum mere sharir se kheloge” —- ritu ne aankhe band rakhte huve kaha.
Ye kah kar ushke chehre par ek pyari si mushkaan ubhar aayi
“acha to tumhe pyar karne ka kya ye matlab hai ki main tumse hamesha dur rahunga. Vaise tum hi bataao ki tumhe pyar karne ka kya matlab hai” —- maine bhi hanste huve kaha
“mujhe nahi pata” —- ritu ne sharmaate huve kaha
maine ritu ke honto par apne hont tika diye. Aisa laga jaise 2 fadakte huve angaare takra gaye hon
hum thodi der tak passionately kiss karte rahe
phir maine ritu ki kameez ko upar sarka kar ritu ke ubhaaro ko thaam liya
“paagal ho gaye ho kya, koyi dekh lega yahaan jatin” — ritu ne sharmaate huve kaha
“chaaro taraf unchi deewar hai ritu, hum duniya ki nazro se dur ish chaandni raat mein bilkul tanha hain” —- maine kaha
ritu ke ubhaar ushki bra mein kaid panchi ki tarah lag rahe the. Maine ritu ke kaan mein kaha, “jaan ye shote vakt aaj bra kyon pahan rakhi hai, utaar do na aur aajaad kar do in phoolon ko”
ritu ne koyi jawaab nahi diya.
main samajh raha tha ki ritu ke liye ye karna mushkil hoga, kyonki vo shaayad abhi bhi puri tarah sex ke liye taiyaar nahi thi. par mera maksad pyar ke saagar mein sex ko ish tarah dubona tha ki ritu naturally pyar mein sex ka aanand ley paaye.
Maine pyar se kaha, “ ritu aao hum aaj pyar ke ek lambe safar par chalte hain. Chaand tak pahunchne ki koshish karenge dekhte hai kya hota hai”
Ritu ne kaha, “jatin, agar main na chal paayi to aur ladkhada kar gir gayi to”
“to main tumhe apni baahon mein thaam lunga jaan, main hun na. Main tumhe apni godi mein ley kar chalunga” —– maine ritu ke gaal ko cho kar kaha
“jatin tum mujhe har vakt godi mein utha kar ghumte ho, thak jaaoge” — ritu ne kaha
“nahin jaan jab baat tumhaari hai to main kabhi nahi thakunga, main tumhe manjil tak ley ja kar hi chhodunga” — maine kaha
“bas bas aisi baate mat karo main ro padungi, chalo main tiayaar hun tumhaare saath chalne ke liye” —– ritu ne kaha
“theek hai phir ab ye bra utaarne do bevajah pareshaan kar rahi hai” —– maine ritu ki aankho mein dekh kar kaha
“tumhe yakin hai hamein yahaan koyi nahi dekhega” —- ritu ne pucha
“haan jaan tum khud dekh lo chaaro taraf unchi deevar hai, aur main kya apni patni ki izzat se khelunga” —– maine kaha
ritu ne chaaro taraf nazre ghuma kar dekha aur boli, “yakin nahi hota ki itni pyari chaandni raat mein hum tanha hain, jatin ye khawaab hai ya hakeekat”
“yahi to ish ghar ki khaas baat hai, varna aur yahaan kuch nahi hai. main to bachpan se garmiyon mein yahin upar chat par hi shota aaya hun” —- maine kaha
“mujhe bhi chaandni raat mein late-na acha lagta hai, par ye raat to kuch khaas hi hai” —- ritu ne kaha
“pata hai kyon khaas hai ye raat ritu” —- maine pucha
“kyon jatin” ? —- ritu ne pucha
“kyonki meri shunder patni meri baahon mein hai” —- maine kaha
“tum ek dum paagal ho jatin” —- ritu ne hanste huve kaha
“ab chalein apne pyare safar par jaan” — maine pucha
“mujhe dar lag raha hai jatin, pata nahi main theek se tumhaara saath de paaungi ya nahin” —- ritu ne kaha
mujhe ritu ki baat shun kar ush par itna pyar aaya ki maine ushke honto ko chum liya aur bola, “darne ki kya baat hai ritu, ye to ek pyara safar hai, chalo pyar se chalte hai. ye mat socho ki hamein kahin pahunchna hai. hum bas chalenge aur dekhenge ki ye pyar ka safar kaisa hai…ok… chalo ab thoda upar utho mujhe ye bra utaarne do”

[hirarandi]

tum kitne badal gaye ho jatin” —- ritu ne kaha
“sab tumhaare pyar ka asar hai, meditation bhi maine tumhaare pyar mein dub kar hi ki thi, ab utho na ye bra mujhe pareshaan kar rahi hai”
“theek hai baba ye lo” —- ritu ne kaha aur kah kar thoda upar ho gayi
maine ritu ki bra utaar kar ek taraf rakh di
ritu ke ubhaaro ko dekh kar mere muh se nikal gaya, “ohh my god, kitne pyare lag rahein hain ye chaandni raat mein, inki shundarta ke aage to chaand bhi sharma jaayega”
“chup karo, badmaash kahin ke” —- ritu ne sharmaate huve kaha
“nahin ritu ye sach hai, tumhaare ubhaaro ki chamak ke aage chaand bhi feeka pad gaya hai” —– maine kaha
mere liye vo pal bahut hi pyara tha. man kar raha tha ki bas ritu ke ubhaaro ko dekhta rahun.
Kab madhosh ho kar maine ritu ke baayein ubhaar ke nipple ko honto mein daba liya pata hi nahi chala
Jaise hi maine nipple ko honto mein dabaaya, ritu ke muh se halki si awaaj nikli, aaahhhh…. Aisa laga maano maine shitaar ke taar ched diyein hon aur ushmein se pyar bhara mitha sa sangeet nikal pada ho
Ush vakt mujhe vishwaas ho gaya ki ritu mere saath pyar ke safar par chalne ke liye taiyaar hai. phir maine thaan liya ki aaj apni jaan ko pyar ki ush gahraayi mein ley jaaunga jo ush ne sapne mein bhi nahi sochi hogi. main ritu ko pyar ka special gift dena chaahta tha
Maine ritu ke dono ubhaaro ko haatho mein thaam liya aur unhe thoda jor se masalne laga.
Ritu ki saanse phoolne lagi
“Aaaahhh jatin, ruk jao…….” Ritu ne haanpte huve kaha
“kya huva jaan acha nahi lag raha kya” —– maine pucha
“nahin aisi baat nahi hai, itni jor se kyon daba rahe ho” —– ritu ne halki se awaaj mein pucha
“in phoolon par thoda jor ajmaana jaroori hai, varna ye kheel nahin paayenge, dekho jor se masalne par kaise tan gayein hain, pehle se bhi bade nazar aa rahein hain” —– maine hanste huve kaha
“tum kya kamasutra mein expert ho” — ritu ne pucha
“nahin, tum se pyar karne mein expert hun” —- maine kaha
ye kah kar maine ritu ke ubhaaro par apne honto se pyar barsaana shuru kar diya. main baar baar ritu ke nipples ko choos raha tha. Aisa lag raha tha jaise ki ritu ke ubhaaro mein prem ras bhara ho aur main ritu ke nipples se prem ras pee raha hun
“kya tumne in ubhaaro mein mere liye pyar bhar liya hai ritu” —- maine pucha
“kaisi baat karte ho jatin, mujhe sharam aa rahi hai, please ……. Mujhe aise mat chedo” —– ritu ne sharmaate huve kaha
“nahin ritu ched nahi rahaan hun, bas tumhaari jheezak dur kar raha hun, ab tum meri patni ho aur hamaara bahut pyara rista ban gaya hai. pyari pyari baate to hum kar hi sakte hain” —- maine kaha
“vo to theek hai, par abhi nahin, abhi mujhe…..” —- ritu ne sharmaate huve kaha
ritu ke chehre par sharam ke saath saath jo pyari si hansi thi ush se ye saaf pata chal raha tha ki vo mere pyar mein dub chuki hai. main khud aisa hi chaahta tha. badi mushkil se paya tha maine vo pal ritu ke saath. Mera pyar ritu par asar karne laga tha.
ubhaaro ko masalte huve main ritu ke sharir ko kiss karta huva ushki naabhi tak pahunch gaya aur ushke chaaro aur ushe chumne laga.
ritu mere neeche theerakne lagi, jaise ki vo bardaast nahi kar pa rahi ho. Par mujhe ritu ko be-intaha pyar dena tha.
ritu ki naabhi ko kiss karte karte main aur neeche ki taraf sarakne laga.
ab mere hont ritu ki salwaar ke naade ke upar the
maine naade ko chum liya aur ushe daanto mein daba kar kheenchne laga
“ohh jatin aaahhh…. Ruk jao” — ritu ne aahein bharte huve kaha
“kya huva ritu” — maine gardan utha kar pucha
“thodi der ruk jao jatin, meri saanse phool rahin hain” —- ritu ne haanpte huve kaha
“nahin jaan yahaan rukna theek nahi hai, pyar ki aag bahut bhadak chuki hai, yahaan ruke to ye aag hamein jhulsa degi. Hamein aage badhna hoga” —– maine kaha
“thodi der ruko to jatin” —– ritu ne phir kaha
maine upar aa kar ritu ke honto ko apne honto mein ley liya aur ek bahut gahri kiss ki
ritu ki saanso ki garmi mujhe mere honto par mahsush ho rahi thi.
main jaldi hi neeche pahunch gaya, ab intezaar karna mushkil ho raha tha, ritu ke chehre se lag raha tha ki vo ab khud ko thaam nahi pa rahi. main vakt barbaad nahi karna chaahta tha.
maine ritu ke naade ko khol kar salwaar neeche sarka di aur bola, “wow kitni pyari panti hai, kala rang mujhe bahut pasand hai”
“ohh jatin baate mat karo….” —- ritu ne kaha
maine dheere se panti neeche sarka di
chaandni raat mein ritu ki yoni itni pyari lag rahi thi ki mujh se raha nahi gaya aur maine ushki pankhudiyon ko chum liya aur chum kar unhe honto mein ley kar choosne laga.
“aaaahhhh………ooohhhhh….. jatin” —- ritu aahein bharte huve gardan daayein baayein ghuma rahi thi
“kaisa lag raha hai jaan” —- maine pucha
“aaaahhhh….bardaast nahin ho raha jatin, please thodi der hat jao” —– ritu ne aahein bharte huve kaha
maine ritu ki yoni ko faila kar apni jeebh ritu ki yoni mein daal di aur jitni ho sake utni ander sarka di
“ohh no….. tum aaj mujhe maar daaloge” —- ritu ne apni taange patakte huve kaha
par maine rukna theek nahi samjha, kyonki mujhe ritu ko pyar ki aur jyada gahraayi mein ley jaana tha. main ritu ki yoni mein apni jeebh ragadta raha aur ritu aaaahhh..oohhh karke aahein bharti rahi.
chaandni raat mein hum dono ka pyar ek alag hi unchaayi cho raha tha.
maine ab aur intezaar karna theek nahi samjha, ritu ki saanse bahut tej chal rahi thi. hamaare milan ka sahi vakt aa gaya tha.
main salwaar ko utaarne laga to ritu boli, “jatin, ruko ishe utaarna jaroori hai kya, hum khule aasmaan ke niche hain”
main samajh gaya tha ki ritu jheejak rahi hai. maine jaldi se salwaar utaar kar ek taraf rakh di aur phir panti bhi dheere dheere neeche sarka kar utaar di.
Main khud itna bahak chuka tha ki ek pal bhi rukna mushkil ho raha tha.
Maine jaldi se apne kapde utaar kar ek tataf faink diye aur ritu ke upar aa gaya.
Jaise hi main ritu ke upar aaya mera ling ritu ki yoni se takra gaya.
“Aaaahhhhh….” —- ritu ke muh se nikla
Ritu ne apna chehra apne haatho mein dhak liya

[hirarandi]

Maine ushke haatho ko hataaya aur ushke honto ko apne honto mein ley liya.
Maine pucha, “jaan ab hum ish safar ke aakhri padaav par hain. Kya tum final ride ke liye taiyaar ho, main apna ling tumhaari yoni mein daalne ja raha hun”
“Ohh jatin,……. please mujh se kuch mat pucho, mere liye kuch bhi kahna mushkil hai,…… I love you. ley chalo mujhe jahaan ley chalna hai, main tumhaari patni hun, har kadam par tumhaare saath rahungi” —– ritu ne aahein bharte huve bhaavuk andaaj mein kaha
“ok jaan fasten your seat belt I am going to take you to the moon” —- maine kaha
“ley chalo jatin jahaan ley chalna hai, mujhe pura yakin hai ki tum mujhe girne nahi doge” —- ritu ne pyar se kaha
maine apne ling ko apne daayein haath mein pakda aur ritu ki yoni par laga diya.
ek pal key liye mere ling aur ritu ki yoni ke beech bahut pyari kiss huyi. Man kar raha tha ki ushi position mein ruka rahun.
Par kishi anjaan shakti ne mujhe aage dhakail diya aur mera ling lagbhagh aadha ritu ki yoni mein sama gaya
“Aaaaahhhhhhhh…… jatin….. I love you” —- ritu ne aahein bharte huve kaha
“I love you too jaan” —— maine kaha
aur ye kah kar maine ek jhatke mein apne ling ko ritu ki yoni mein dhakail diya. sab kuch pyar ki madhoshi mein ho raha tha
ritu ne mujhe baahon mein bhar liya aur apne naakhun meri peeth par gada diye. Mujhe halka sa dard huva par vo dard itna pyara tha ki main kah nahi sakta. ish se saaf pata chal raha tha ki ritu ush pal ko bahut jyada enjoy kar rahi hai. ye mere pyar ki jeet thi
phir maine bina ruke ritu ki yoni ke ander apne pyar ki halchal shuru kar di. Maine pyar ka vo toofan khada kar diya ki ritu jor jor se aahein bharne lagi
“aaaahhhhh…….. jatin thodi der ruko varna main chaand tak pahunchne se pehle hi gir jaaungi” —– ritu ne kaha
“aaahhhh…..nahin jaan, chaand ka safar beech mein ruk kar pura nahi kiya ja sakta. hang on. Main tumhe hargeez girne nahi dunga. Agar tum gir bhi gayi to main tumhe phir utha lunga. Par ye gaadi ab apni manjil par hi rukegi” —— maine haanpte huve kaha
“ooohhh……tum bahut badmaash ho jatin” —- ritu ne aahein bharte huve kaha
“tumhe pyar karne ka ye matlab nahi hai ki main ye khubsurat badmaashi nahi karunga” —– maine kaha
“aaahhhh……lagta hai, maine tumse shaadi karke galti kar li hai, tum ab mujhe jeendagi bhar sataaoge” —- ritu ne haanpte huve kaha
“aahhh…haan sataaunga, vo bhi pure haq se, I love you” —- maine kaha
“I love you too jatin, thodi der ruko na” —– ritu ne kaha
“kya tumhe dard ho raha hai, ritu” —— maine dhakke maarte huve pucha
“nahin jatin dard nahin hai, par bardaast nahi ho raha” —– ritu ne kaha
“chaand ki unchaayi tak pahunchne ke liye tumhe thodi der aur bardaast karna hoga. Hum pyar ki aisi unchaayi ki taraf badh rahein hain jahaan hum kho jaayenge aur parmaatma mein mil jaayenge” —– maine kaha
“oooohhh….tumhaari baate meri samajh se baahar hai jatin, please jaldi khatam karo….aaahhhh” —- ritu ne kaha
“mujh par vishwaas rakho jaan, main ish milan ko sex se kahin aage ley ja rahaan hun…..aahhh” —- maine bina ruke kaha
“k..k..kahaan ley ja rahe ho jatin” —- ritu ne pucha.
“Pyar ke charam par, mujhe khud vahaan ka rasta nahi pata. Shuna hai ki vahaan bhagvaan rahte hain. Shaayad ye pyar hamein vahaan ley jaaye” —- maine kaha
mujhe khud nahi pata tha ki main kya kah raha tha. apne aap mere dil se kuch na kuch nikal raha tha.
main thodi der yu hi laga raha. ritu bhi thodi der kuch nahi boli. bas padi padi aahein bharti rahi
“aaahhh……kaisa lag raha hai tumhe jaan” —– maine apni speed aur badha kar pucha
“bahut acha…..par bardaast nahi ho raha, ab ruk bhi jao” —– ritu ne kaha
maine apni speed aur tej kar di. Hum dono ki saanse apne charam par pahunch gayi
“bas jaan…….. hum pahunchne… hi wale hain, hang on” —- maine kaha aur apni speed ko toofaan ki gati de di.
Aur phir achaanak mera prem ras ritu ke ander bah gaya aur main ritu ke upar gir gaya.
Vakt maano tahar gaya.
Achaanak maine mahsush kiya ki ritu subak rahi hai. maine sar utha kar dekha to vo ro rahi thi.
Maine pucha, “kya huva jaan, maine kuch galat kiya kya” ?
“Main aaj phir ye soch kar ro rahin hun ki agar bhagvaan ko hamein ye khubsurat rista dena tha to hamein itne badsurat rasto par kyon ghumaaya. Kya hum pehle nahi mil sakte the” —- ritu ne rote huve kaha.
“Dukhi mat ho jaan, sukar manaao ki hum aakhir mein mil to gaye. Ish jeendagi mein hum dono bahut neeche gire the. Tumhaari galti kam thi. main hi tumhe neeche ghasit kar ley gaya tha. kya tumhe ye baat pata hai ki prakriti ka ek niyam hai, ‘jo bahut neeche girta hai ushi ki bahut uncha uthne ki bhi sambhaavna hoti hai’. Newton ka third law bhi to yahi kahta hai, ‘To every action there is always an equal and opposite reaction’. Shaayad bhagvaan ko hamein neeche gira kar bahut upar uthaana tha. Dekho aaj hum pyar ki ek khubsurat unchaayi par khade hain. Yahaan se ye duniya aur ye jeendagi bahut khubsurat nazar aa rahi hai. dil chota mat karo aur bhagvaan ko hamein ish mod par laane ke liye sukriya karo” —— maine kaha
“tum sach mein bahut badal gaye ho jatin” — ritu ne kaha
“sab tumhaare pyar ka asar hai jaan, sab tumhaare kaaran hai”
“vaise tum ab baahar nikloge ya phir main dkakka de kar baahar nikaalun” —- ritu ne hanste huve kaha
“tum hi nikaal do dhakka de kar. Mera tumse dur jaane ka man nahi hai” —– maine kaha
“tum ek dum deewane ho gaye ho” — ritu ne kaha
“jishe jeendagi mein itna pyar mile vo bhala deewana kyon nahi hoga” —- maine kaha
“jatin tumne apni diary mein leekha tha ki hum bas chintoo ko rakhenge, aur bacho ki kya jaroorat hai. par kya hum ish pyar ka phool nahi kheelaayenge” —- ritu ne sharmaate huve kaha
“tum chaahti ho ki ish pyar ka phool kheele” — maine ritu ki aankho mein jhaank kar pucha
“haan jatin” —- ritu ne kaha
“theek hai phir main din raat tumhaari jamin ki seenchaayi kar dunga, dekhna pyar ka bahut pyara phool kheelega” —- maine kaha
“din raat ki jaroorat nahi hai Mr… tumne kya meri jaan lene ki thaan rakhi hai” —- ritu ne kaha
“tumhaari jaan mein meri jaan hai ritu, I love you. Tum chinta mat karo mera pyar tumhe pareshaan nahi karega” — maine kaha
“main to majaak kar rahi thi jatin, tumhaara pyar meri jeendagi hai, pareshaani nahi. dubaara aisa mat bolna” —- ritu ne kaha
aur phir hum ek dushre ki baahon mein kho gaye aur thodi der chupchaap pade rahe. Main abhi bhi ritu ke upar tha.
kab neend aa gayi pata hi nahi chala
par jab mein neend mein tha to mere dil mein mitha mitha ahsaash ho raha tha. hum dono ka milan mujhe meri aatma tak mahsush ho raha tha.
hamaara milan, delhi mein hoga, vo bhi chaandni raat mein, maine socha bhi nahi tha. maano koyi sapna sach ho gaya ho.
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subah chidiyon ki awaaj ne hamein uthaaya. Pehle meri aankh khul gayi. ritu mere baaju mein sikud kar lati huyi thi. hum dono ke upar ek patli si chaddar thi. kab main ritu ke upar se hata, kab vo chaddar hamne odhi mujhe kuch yaad nahi. yaad hai to bas itna ki chaandni raat mein maine apni patni ko pa liya
mumbai jaane ke liye aaj shaam 6 baje ki flight hai. ritu koyi 10 baje karol bagh apne ghar chali gayi thi. main ushke ghar ke liye nikalne wala hun. vaha se hum dono airport ke liye nikal lenge.

[hirarandi]

Date : 24-09-09
11:30 pm
Bahut dard dekha hai ritu ne apni jeendagi mein, vo bhi itne kam vakt mein. Bahut had tak main khud ushke dukho ke liye zimmedaar tha.
Par aaj vo bahut khus hai. aankhe band karke mere paas hi lati huyi hai. ushe dekhta hun to ush par bahut pyar aata hai. hum abhi abhi pyar karke hate hain. Aaj ushne pyar karte vakt khub shor machaaya. Mujhe bahut acha laga ki vo ab sab kuch bhula kar ish pyar mein kho jaati hai.
Peechle hafte se maine ghar par hi ritu ko meditation seekhana shuru kar diya hai. vo bade pyar se seekh rahi hai. mera maksad ish riste ko ek alag hi unchaayi tak ley jaane ka hai. mujhe khusi hai ki ritu mera saath de rahi hai. meditation hamaare man ko shudh karke hamaare jeevan ko ek nayi disha deti hai. meri yahi koshish hai ki hum har vakt apne man ko shudh rakhein aur ache positive vichaar lekar jeendagi mein aage badhein. Maine aur ritu ne bure vichaaro ke parinaam apne jeevan mein dekhe hain ishliye ish baat ko ache se samajhte hain
Hum har Sunday ko mandir jaate hain, aur bhagvaan ka sukriya karte hain ki unhone hamein ek hasin rista diya hai.
Mera aur ritu ka bahut pyara rista chal raha hai. hamaare riste mein pyar hi pyar hai. takraar bhi hai jhut nahi bolunga par ushme bhi to pyar hi hota hai. pyar aur takraar saath saath chalte hain. Ritu jab ruth jaati hai to ushe manaane mein bahut maja aata hai. ruthte manaate aksar hum pyar mein dub jaate hain.
Abhi hamein ek saath bahut saare challenges ka saamna karna hai. chintoo jab yahaan aayega to pata nahi mujhe apnaayega ki nahi. par ritu ne kal kaha tha ki, “jab maine tumhe pyar kar liya to hamaara beta bhi karne lagega”
Mujhe pata hai ki ye itna aasaan nahi hai. par mujhe ummeed hai ki sab kuch theek hoga
Mujhe abhi jeendagi mein bahut kuch karna hai. maine m.com correspondence shuru kar di hai. civil services ka attempt bhi lene ja raha hun. ish December mein form bhar dunga. Jab mein b.com first year mein tha to maine socha tha ki ek baar civil services try karunga. ye chance lene ka ab vakt aa gaya hai.
Main aur ritu dil mein dher sara pyar ley kar pyar ke safar par chal pade hain. Jo bhi mushkilein hongi unka hum saath saath mukaabla karenge.
Vaise aaj shaam ko hamaare beech ek bahut pyara pal aaya.
Hum dono ne ek dushre ko surprise gift diya aur phir kuch aisa huva ki hum khud ko rok nahin paaye aur bhaavnaao mein bah kar pyar kar baithe.
Mujhe ritu saree mein bahut pyari lagti hai. main ushe yellow saree mein dekhna chaahta tha. maine aaj dopahar ko ek yellow saree kharid li thi.
Ghar aate hi maine ritu ko saree thama di. Vo saree dekh kar chonk gayi.
Maine pucha, “kya huva jaan saree pasand nahi aayi kya”
“Nahin bahut pyari hai jatin, tum aankhe band karo mujhe bhi tumhe kuch dena hai” —- ritu ne kaha
maine aankhe band kar li
ritu ne thodi der mein kaha, “aankhe kholo pati dev”
jaise hi maine aankhe kholi ritu ne mere haath mein ek shirt thama di. vo yellow shirt thi.
“arey tum bhi yellow shirt ley aayi” — maine kaha
“haan ishiliye to main hairaan thi ki ye matching kapde kaise kharid liye hamne, vo bhi bina baat kiye” —- ritu ne kaha
“yahi to pyar ka chamatkaar hai jaan, we are realy made for each other” —- maine kaha
ush pal mein hum itne madhosh ho gaye ki hamne ek dushre ko baahon mein jakad liya aur phir hamaare beech vo toofaani pyar huva ki kah nahi sakta.
ushi toofaan se chakna choor ho kar ritu mere baaju mein sho rahi hai aur main ish diary ka aakhri panna bharne mein laga hun.
hamaara pyar chaand ki unchaayi se bhi kahin aage badh gaya hai. shaayad hum bhagvaan ke nazdeek pahunch gaye hain
Shaayad kah raha hun kyonki sachaayi mujhe bhi nahi pata. Pata hai to bas itna ki main ritu ke pyar mein khud ko bhula chuka hun.
The End