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34.6
Kavita
All she said before leaving for hospital, “Sorry for keeping you waiting. We will discuss in the evening.”
Jaya did not elaborate further. She looked a bit disturbed. I was getting impatient. No information of my husband. I was afraid. ‘Does it concern me? Anything related to him? Is it so that Jaya could not convince him?’ All worst possibilities filled my mind immediately.
Anxiously I asked, “You seem disturbed a lot. I have lost everything it seems. Please tell me. I can tolerate. He has refused to meet me, isn’t it?”
She looked at my face for a brief period, took my both hands in her, smiled in assurance, “Don’t worry Kavita, Its nothing related to you. This is my personal problem. I needed some time for myself. We will meet in the evening. OK?” She pressed my hands assuring me again before quickly disappearing on her way.
*******
I did not find her during dinner. After dinner when I was retiring to my room, Jaya appeared and asked me to wait in the balcony. She appeared jovial.
Very shortly she joined me. “I am sorry to keep you waiting for so long. Some personal problem had kept me busy all these days. Now everything has been settled. “She was happy and calm.
I intervened her, “My problems can wait. I have waited for so long. A few days more may not affect much.” With slight hesitation I added, “You can trust me. You may share your feelings with me if you consider me your friend. Though, I may not be of much help. “
“There is nothing to hide. I thought of sharing with you last time we met here, even I considered requesting you accompanying me. I was not sure about my situation and your mental preparedness. It was a bit urgent and I had to rush. “
Then I had another shock of life.
Jaya continued, “You may be surprised on what motivated me to take so much interest in your life? We meet hundreds of patients with different problems of their life. It’s impossible for us to explore everybody’s problems in such depths. I took keen interest as I compared your husband with my father. He is a simple man like my father with full of love and passion on life, yet suffering. Your life has a striking similarity with my mother. Mona’s story is my story, my life. Mona is none other than me.”
I was shocked, “What do you say?”
Jaya, most probably, did not hear me. She continued from previous. She was speaking as if in dream.
“That day after reading the first part of the letter, I did not read the letter of my mother. All I knew that I had to reach asylum at the earliest. Dehradun and Mussoorie was my native. I have spent best part of my life there. I knew the location of asylum and the ashram. I took flight to Dehradun and from there to destined ashram took another 2 hours.”
“I could meet my father. He hardly recognised me. I also met Guruji for the first time. I was tired of travel & agony. I took early bed in the guest house of asylum.”
Next day morning I opened the letter of my mother. I opened the Pandora box. The whole world crushed under my feet.I could feel the pain of my mother, a wife of a loving husband. I could understand the agony of her life and humiliation. I had humiliated her without knowing exact reasons behind her self-indulgence. A daughter had denounced her mother.The content of the letter I had told you was slightly exaggerated to lure you in confession. The farm house was true without involvement of caretaker. BDSM was added to inflict negativity in the character. Rest was more or less true.
“I was fortunate enough to get my life back. Guruji could save my mother from committing the heinous crime. Guruji saved me from my downfall. I devoted myself in well being of ashram. My father responded to treatment. He was progressing to normalcy, steadily but very slowly. I changed my subject in masters. Instead of becoming heart specialist, I chose to become psychiatrist. I concentrated more on human sexology. Guruji saved my mother’s life, but could not convince her to meet me. She remained elusive in my presence. She did take care of my father; she even was a great help in asylum in other activities. She actively participated in all activities willingly as requirement arose. She never showed any hesitation in anything except hiding herself in my presence. I could experience her presence, whenever I visited asylum, but could not meet her. Human psychology is quite complicated.”
“Three days back, she had a mild stroke and fell down to injure her seriously. She refused to move outstation for treatment leaving her husband alone in asylum. Just think. One day she was ready to leave the world without concerning her husband’s future in the asylum! I was called to persuade her. I could meet her after a gap of seven years. You can easily imagine the emotional outbursts. Finally, I could convince her. Yesterday she had been successfully operated with angioplasty.”
*****
“Guruji opened my eyes on ethics & morality. He said, ‘Both ethics & morality dictates good and bad behaviour of individuals. What is correct and what is wrong? While ethics is external to a person, morality is internal. Neither of them is absolute. They are volatile and relative; highly dependent on community and social settings. If you travel to the history of evolve of mankind, you will find distinguished opposite conception had swept within the same section of humans on very acceptance of standards of ethics and morality. Progress of mankind is always dynamic and consequently the concept of ethics and morality. Just consider the case of your mother. Re-viewing her behaviour from outside, on her decision of not marrying the father of her biological child can generate a debate on ethical & moral ground without reaching to a conclusion. Its impossible to prove whether her action was right or wrong. The matter gets further complicated, once you try to judge her from her standpoint.’ ”
“He made me view sex from different angles. First time I learnt to view sex as life necessity other than carnal pleasure. Our nature of upbringings in the society and flaws in learning process are mainly responsible for creating a complex unnatural concept on sex. A life process connected with new life can never be dirty. It is the basic requirement of our continued existence.”
“A sexual activity is a great healer to remove psychological stress. Keeping the same in mind, society have approved sex outside societal bonds to minimize mental aberration. He asked me a very simple question. ‘Say, you are hungry of food and food is available. What do you think is proper? Consume food and get devoted in other activities or without taking food get preoccupied in physical & mental constraints. A healthy sexual activity is physiological & psychological food for a healthy adult human. What good it will serve to keep body & mind starved keeping them preoccupied continuously. Don’t you think it is better to free body & mind from constraints to engaged in a better meaningful life activity elsewhere?’ I had no arguments to counteract him. “
“He further stressed, ‘Think about life of a prostitute. She is earning her livelihood by engagement in sex. She is also doing a great social activity by removing the stress and helping in maintaining social harmony in family life to some extent. Do your moral help you hate her because of her profession, a profession maybe she was forced into. What moral do you have to impose your morality on others? The most important factor here is to consider that, do we have any ethical right to judge her morality in her personal life. In case of your mother, she is an individual with different identity. Do you have right to impose your concept of morality on your mother, while her actions had no adverse effect on your independent life? Are not you trespassing?’ ”
***
She smiled at me, “Guruji made my life simple. I no longer feel bad on my birth history. Neither I hate my biological father nor has my love to my father reduced. Who am I to question his personal life? Who is father? He had never failed to perform his fatherly duty. A child is connected with father through his love, affection and care. And my father never allowed raising any suspicion that I was not part of his blood. I think he himself had forgotten that I was not his blood. The best part was I had no religion on birth. My religion is humanity. Guruji helped me understanding basics of religion and its purpose. No religion existed in early life of mankind. Concept of God appeared with fear and unexplained fury of nature. Religion surfaced to explain the mystery of universe and energy. Over time period, religions divided into sub-group to take care diversified aspects of life. At some particular requirement religion got mixed with culture to create further subdivision. I had learned the inner meaning of religion and philosophy of life.”
She smiled at me again. A divine glow spread from her smile to touch me. I also smiled in acknowledgement. It touched my heart. I was no more a worried person. Somebody inside my heart assured me. There was nothing to worry. All clouds got blown away from my mind.
In commensurate in my thinking, Jaya touched my hands and made my hearts beat faster. In an assurance tone she continued, “Guruji will be meeting you tomorrow in asylum prior to your meeting with your husband. He is aware of every incident of your life. Start immediately after breakfast. He prefers you avail public transport. I will drop you in the bus-stand on my way to hospital.” Then in a lighter tone she added, “I hope, now, you are not carrying any grudge against me.”
In response I touched her feet.
She hurriedly stopped me and helped me stand up and occupying my seat. “Please don’t do this. Though I may be two year’s older from you, by respect, you are my senior. Dada landed in Hardwar and met me. I had prior knowledge of his arrival. Guruji had briefed me about him. I heard him again in details. Immediately, I knew there must be something wrong. Subsequently with detailed analysis, I could guess your motive. Somehow, I correlated him with my father. My father had faced a lot of hardship due to his physical shortcomings. I elevated him in the post of my elder brother. He had enormous flaws in his character & behaviour. Still, his simplicity and honesty earned my heart. And his pristine love. Is it possible for any woman to ignore that kind of love and inflict pain? I grew suspicious. My mother was before my eyes. I had experiences of many patients. Human psychology was my subject. I have learnt to think beyond apparent physical appearance and behaviours. I took special care for him.”
“You must admit that you are just an ordinary woman. You don’t possess any extra-ordinary qualities. The beauty and figure you are proud of do not have any contribution from you. You have acquired them by birth. Remember, you have zero contribution on anything to be proud of what you receive through hereditary. Where is your contribution? Still you are not ordinary. My brother had made you extra-ordinary. His love has made you special. Try to contribute something of your own. Make my brother happy. He loves you more than anything of this world.”
In a hesitant and feeble voice I asked, “Does he know about my whereabouts?” I could not hold my curiosity further.
Jaya became mischievous again. “He means your husband? Do you think, after knowing your sexual violence, he would be loitering around without reaching you?”
I put my face down deeply embarrassed. With shy smile I accepted my mistake, “No. He would have reached to me long back.”
Jaya lifted my face with her fingers placed below my chin. She frowned at me and chuckled, “No, he is ignorant of many things. He is not aware of your life struggle since he left early morning nearly five months back on his mission of improving self-reliance.He, however, may be educated with everything prior to your meeting with him or maybe you have to educate him. Guruji will take the final decision. Are you suspecting anything negative?”
I made a brave face hiding my anxiety, “No, no, not for that. I know him well, just curiosity.”
****
Jaya smiled, “I can understand your mental dilemmas. Don’t worry. Be positive. Everything will be OK. Guruji wants you understands a few things on your ignorance or limited knowledge which led your life turmoil. If you have specific queries on anything, you may ask me now. Even, you are permitted to interrupt me in-between.”
I hesitated, “I am curious on how could you guess my motive. I have never left any hint to anybody.” I looked down.
She amused,” So that you can plan next time fool proof?” She must have noticed my reddened face. I heard her giggle, “No need to feel embarrassed. I will include some outline enough for your appreciation. OK? Now look up. It would be a long story taking away your sleep for the night. Anyway, I know you will not sleep due to the excitement of meeting your husband.”
Jaya continued, “You must understand the physical & psychological trauma your husband had passed through since arrival of Prem in your house. Guruji was in Bangalore to deliver a lecture on stress management when he met Manu. He was on the verge of psychological breakdown. Your blatant, unnatural actions had pushed him to despair. You were well aware of his despair. Unfortunately, you were consumed in your own despair. You were pushing him to a point of no return. Under similar situations, most of the victims go extreme. They either kill themselves or kill the peoples responsible for their despair. Sometimes, they lose their mental balance. He was different. He did not consider you entirely responsible for his debacle. He gracefully accepted his shortcomings. He accepted your slavish behaviour and brazen adultery. He accepted his physical torture and humiliation. But he could not accept you getting pregnant by others. Every species in this world wants his gene to be propagated.It makes sense that humans, like any animal, would feel a drive to propagate their own genes. He was no different. He could not accept your morbid decision. After considering all possible outcomes, he decided for relocation. He decided to relocate himself out of your life.”
Jaya brought me out of my trance, “Guruji could persuade him from taking extreme steps and advised for joining confidence build up training programme. God is great. He readily accepted Guruji’s offer only to drop immediately on financial issue. He was not ready to spend money on him depriving your comfort, so that, you are not in financial crisis. No explanation could deter him from his stand. His mental firmness amazed Guruji. He was so much in love with you. “
“We had witnessed his love during training also. To remove negative emotions temporarily, human effigies are sometimes deployed. He never touched your effigy to express his anger.”
“Even after financial problem was sorted out, he was not ready to join immediately. Guruji could witness his sense of responsibility. He excused himself for a day, so that he could complete his responsibilities not to put the company in trouble. A man, dejected in life does not forget his responsibilities of his duties.”
“Finally, Manu landed in my chamber, I had listened to him sitting in this balcony. Wait for 5 minutes, I will be back”
She came back shortly with some papers in her hand and a tape recorder. Jaya switched off the light. Darkness prevailed everywhere. Jaya’s voice came floating, “Listen to your husband.” In the darkness I witnessed my husband through my ear. I listened to my own story, the shameful story of my morbid affairs to achieve my secret goal.
It continued for hours with occasional interruptions of Jaya. She was asking for clarifications. Finally, it ended with his final departure in the wee hours of that fateful day of my violation. I could feel the pain and psychological trauma he had pass through. Clearly he was torn between his love and my happiness. Absolute silence prevailed.
After sometime, Jaya got up and switched on a dim light. I heard her, “His training started. Slowly he gained confidence. He was a very good learner. Once we could remove anxiety and fear from his mind, his adoption to changed reality was supreme. The physical structure could not be altered. It’s God gifted and we all have to be contented with our primary physical structure. He was more than normal in every category of physiological aspects within limitations of his physical constraints. In some cases he could be placed in top places.”
“When we analysed his Bio chemistry report on his arrival, we observed a high level of Estrogen& low level of Testosterone hormone in his blood. “
“While Estrogen levels are significantly lower in males compared to females, estrogens nevertheless also have important physiological roles in males. As the testosterone is transformed into Estrogen the low levels of testosterone can cause many unpleasant symptoms including loss of muscle mass, fatigue, low libido, erectile dysfunction etc.”
“High level of Estrogen may stimulate breast tissue growth. Men with too much Estrogen may develop gynecomastia, a condition which leads to larger breasts, loss of body hair and Erectile Dysfunction. Men with high levels of Estrogen may have difficulty in getting or maintaining an erection. A prolong high level presence of Estrogen in male body can permanently make him infertile.”
"Manu was definitely being administered drugs. He confirmed, none of you had administered him any drug directly within his knowledge, which indicates he was being drugged without his knowledge. Can you suggest anything, Kavita?”
‘I know it. Now I know it for sure. Prem has duped me.’ I answered lowering my face, “I am only responsible. I was mixing sleeping tablets in his beverages. When Prem replaced them with drugs, I had no knowledge. But I did stop giving him sleeping pills after my shifting to Prem”
Jaya responded, “I collected both the drugs during my stay at your house. While you were being administered sex enhancement drugs, Manu was being administered female hormones. Even after you stopped mixing, Manu was directly consuming it since your shifting. Effectively, he was under female hormone control. Manu was saved. A prolonged period of high level of Estrogen in a man’s body will inflict femininity. He could have developed breast in long run and lost his erection completely becoming impotent. This could have been irreversible.”
I vowed in my mind. ‘I am not going to leave Prem so easily. He has to pay for his every crime. He wanted me to beg for my life. I will make his life such that he will forget to beg for his life also. I did make mistake to attempt suicide. I cannot die without teaching him lesson. I should not die without revenge.’
Jaya continued, “We had definite proof that he was being drugged. It could be either you or Prem. We also did analyse his semen quality. On arrival his sperm count was 1,50,000 per ml. It improved considerably to 2,50,000 per ml within a month and 4,50,000 per ml in four months in favourable condition. In medical terms, his semen qualified for impregnating any woman in her fertility. Your non-conceiving could be attributable to many other probabilities. Nature decides her judgement on pregnancy most of which still are not perceived by human.”
Jaya abruptly stopped and fixed her eyes on me in piercing. She appeared to be finding out probable reasons for my not getting pregnant. Unable to withstand, I lowered my face to avert her gaze. Did she suspect some malpractices from my side? I knew, I did not do anything. I genuinely was looking for motherhood for past four years. God has denied me motherhood for my sin, which I could not divulge.
She continued in assertive tone, “You were obsessed with children. Every woman desires to attain motherhood. It’s your right to get pregnant. Your husband’s physical performance was not hindrance to your pregnancy. Many women in the world never enjoyed orgasm but became mothers. Sperm quality and count of your husband was not issue. Within limitations of other unfavourable conditions, your non pregnancy could be attributable to birth control measures or your physical constraints.”
“We had Manu’s version of story. Obviously, we did not accept everything on face value. However, based on his version we made our preliminary observation”
“Kavita was well aware of Prem’s character. He was arrogant, selfish, bullish, womaniser etc. For him women were only sex object made of flesh. Definitely, she was not akin to marry him. Moreover, he was engaged. She never favoured divorce as she could have done this earlier. She had never intended to elope with him. Then, exactly what was she achieving by inviting Prem? Again, what was her motive?”
"Manu was not sissy as Kavita had experienced for 4 years. She was encouraging him in sissy cuckoldry trait almost by force since arrival of Prem. Worst possible outcome could have been losing mental balance or life. What were the possible gains she could achieve? ‘Un-hindrance physical pleasure along with Manu’s property while enjoying social status’ could be her aim. It sounds interesting!”
"Unfortunately, Manu did not possess a fortune. Moreover, Kavita was sharing all his property jointly. This nullified property angles. Torturing physically and mentally carried inherent risk of being implicated by law. The fact, a complaint by Manu could land both Kavita and Prem behind bars was not unknown to her. She was taking greater risks far outwitting the extra gains she could possibly achieve in materialistic world. Though, not ruled out completely, the theory of ‘Un-hindrance physical pleasure along with property while enjoying social status’ was not very convincing to me."
"Prem and Kavita have been discovered in close relationship by her husband’s friends Puja & Aslam. People were observing both in closeness in various malls etc while she was flaunting your body. In morning workout, she was being observed in short revealing dresses. In India all these were bound to draw attractions of neighbours. Her lovemaking sounds were audible to neighbours from outside while her husband was not in house. All these facts were made known to her directly or indirectly by her husband. She couldn’t pretend ignorance. Kavita was actively allowing gossip to grow. As if she was willingly announcing the whole world to get acquainted to her adultery with Prem. The very social status was at risk and she was well aware of it. So, it was not the social stigma, Kavita remain married. Kavita remained married to her husband because she loved her husband."
Jaya smiled mischievously, “So, the theory of ‘Un-hindrance physical pleasure along with her husband’s property while enjoying social status’ failed. We looked for ‘Un-hindrance physical pleasure along with Manu’s property without social component’. I would have been happy to harmonise with Kavita’s behaviours. Say, she was not bound by social stigma. But she loved her husband. She has never failed to express her love to her husband. She had made sincere attempts to safeguard her husband from bullying of Prem. So, definitely, she would not like to find him mental or dead. Her husband submitted himself into her adultery. He accepted her extramarital relationship. Then, why to torture him? Why to convert him to sissy cuckold? A bit contradictory, is it not? A few incidences further grow suspiciousness. Kavita was constantly cautioning him with example of Vipul against possible attacks. She was constantly asking him to be proactive while dealing with Prem. She was vulnerable to unknown fear in her mind.
She took a pregnant pause, “It does not have much significance whether Kavita loved Prem or had any attachment with Prem. It’s important that she loved her husband. Still she was causing trauma to him. On one hand, she was involved in his social destruction. On the other hand, she was protecting him constantly from Prem. She was afraid of something. This clearly indicated she was being manipulated."
Jaya addressed to me, “Preliminary report indicated the presence of your extortion and a deep-rooted motive. To understand better, we created three mathematical models for all three of you.
I will give my sample analysis with precise dates as per Manu’s version. The date of arrival of Prem is designated as date one. We have used most of the techniques mathematically available to derive a logical conclusion.
1 Direct proof
2 Proof by mathematical induction
3 Proof by contraposition
4 Proof by contradiction
5 Proof by construction
6 Proof by exhaustion
7 Probabilistic proof
8 Combinatorial proof
9 Nonconstructive proof
10 Statistical proofs in pure mathematics
Out of all techniques, the most used ones were direct proof, proof by contradiction, proof by exhaustion and probabilistic proof.”
For every character we plotted the following
1 Dressing pattern within 24 hours and day wise
2 Physical discomfiture within 24 hours and day wise
3 Mood change within 24 hours and day wise
4 Sexual behaviour, frequency, orgasmic bliss, pattern of moaning
5 Smiling pattern at different scenarios.
6 Body movement / gestures during humiliation or bullying as recipient, observer or donor.
7 Sleeping pattern
We also traced the precedence of every incident to derive interrelationship between incidences and effect on society, relationship, economy, physic, moods, loss & gain, apparent gratification, rewards & punishments etc. Social, cultural and economical, religious background of the characters were superimposed in our derivation.
I will present here a few samples for your understanding.
Initially, our entire analysis was based on the story narrated by Manu. Subsequently at appropriate level, we came across with direct or indirect proofs to validate our analysis. The first character we analysed was Manu character.
Manu:
The positive aspect of his character was his unmasked love. His love was not marred with revenge feeling. Next was his patience and endurance level not accepting defeat at any cost. He was simple in lifestyle and not greedy. He was sober in behaviour and had respect to women. He was diligent and responsible to his external works but equally irresponsible to his personal front.
The most prominent negative aspect of his character was his refusal to physical fitness, anxiety, fear and refusal to accept the truth. During his ordeal with Prem & Kavita, he had many opportunities to learn the truth and defuse the threats which he avoided only because he refused to accept the truth. For example, he valued virginity of women before marriage and would not have married to Kavita had he knew the truth. He never tried to figure out the truth directly from Kavita. With regard to A.A and boyfriend, Kavita never accepted his idea, however Manu never tried to figure out the truth. He had ample opportunity to meet Gowri in isolation without involvement of Prem which he did not. He never differentiated between real efforts and pseudo efforts.
He never mixed with people. He had no real friends. We observed nobody visited them on friendly gestures. Strangely, he had exhibited no hobby for his entertainment. Consequently, he was more dependent on his wife on every aspect of life. Sharing life is altogether different to submission. The reason for his submissiveness was fear of failure. He was lacking confidence. Honestly, there was no reason for him to serve coffee to the trio in their bedroom except his submissive nature to his wife. His emotional draining was part of his submissive life style. People of such character invariably always face loneliness in life. They can never be happy as happiness is achieved only in sharing.
His dependency on his wife was abnormally high, which could never take him to success in life on any scale as he could not take any decision on his own. He was well aware of his poor performance and doubted on his ability of fathering a child. He, however never bothered to check with a consultant in spite of all opportunities available around him. His attitude towards life was negative and life never bestows a person with pessimistic attitude.
He correctly diagnosed the sexual slavery of his wife. But he never made any sincere efforts to understand the nature of her slavery, whether it was forced upon or willing. Accepting that his wife had given ample indication for him to accept her slavery as willing, at the same time, she had also given indications of her foreboding mental state. His attitude of ignoring her distress signals in pessimistic way without verifying authenticity added negativity in his character.
The pessimistic attitude of Manu had helped other character to behave erratically.
Gowri:
Gowri was a south Indian Brahmmin woman of young age of around 24 years, educated, earning her own livelihood and staying away from family all alone in another city outside her home town. She was in love with Prem outside her community and religion. So, she must be open minded, self dependent without prejudice to cultural and religion bindings. She was not ultra-modern woman displaying herself in public and not very fashion conscious.
On 10th day, Thursday, Prem took virginity of Gowri. 15th and 16th Prem had sex with Gowri again. We see her again on 53rd day Friday when she visited Manu’s house for the first time. In between Prem was never late night to return after meeting Gowri. We came to know that Kavita had met her earlier and she had extended her invitation. Kavita presented herself on that day as a good housewife. Gowri was dressed in sober. She was very shy in presence of Manu. Gowri spend the weekend at Manu’s place. On Friday Manu heard her suppressed moaning of lovemaking. She was clearer next night in her moans. The fact of a shy unmarried woman first time visiting some unknown house with her fiancé and making love with loud moaning grew suspicion. Only torture and pain could support this fact. On Sunday morning Gowri was nervous and uncomfortable in front of Manu. Same day night, there was no lovemaking sound heard by Manu, justifying her painful intercourse and avoiding sex. On Saturday, all of them went for outing but on Sunday all stayed back, logically appeared to be commensurate with her painful intercourse on previous night.
On 56th day Monday, Manu spoke to Gowri in Prem’s mobile. Initially she was tongue tied and answered only after a few ‘hellos’. It appeared she was afraid to something. Manu wanted to talk something to her in private and she was cut off by Prem abruptly. She never contacted Manu in future. She was a progressive, educated, independent woman. She could advance to pre-marriage physical relationship with Prem, outside of her community and religion, but was afraid to talk to Manu. Manu was no-one but her host for last two days. What was her hesitation to talk to Manu? It was a clear indication of suspicious behaviour on part of Gowri. She was forced by Prem to behave other ways. But why?
On 60th day Gowri made her 2nd visit in different environment. Manu was projected in sissy dress as a cuckold. Gowri was averting her eyes from Manu. Her behaviour suggested that she was already aware of Manu’s cuckoldry. So much change in Gowri in just one week was abnormal. All three went to Prem’s bedroom for a likely threesome drawing Manu’s attention. Next morning, Manu was forced to serve coffee to prove his cuckoldry in the eyes of Gowri. Manu observed Gowri in same dress as previous evening. In a likely event of threesome activities, two of participants were in scanty dress, whereas the third partner fully dressed and that also same dress of previous evening.This suggested a clear show off.
For next two days till Sunday, Manu was being projected as cuckold. Gowri was not allowed any chance-meet with Manu. She was being protected. Unlike previous week, Kavita and Prem skipped morning workout to ensure Gowri’s isolation from Manu. On Saturday night, Manu was caught eavesdropping. Sunday, on 62nd day, Gowri was dropped back at late evening. Why? If threesome was main aim, why Gowri was required to be vacated?
Answer came from next day activity. Prem’s motorcycle had snag and Manu had to give lift. Bangalore is a big city with modern transport. Prem could easily manage transport for his one-time return journey. Manu was not in conversation with Prem since Kavita’s shifting to Prem. What made Prem to meet Manu? During return journey, Prem inquired Manu’s action in the previous nights. Prem was never interested to know whereabouts of Manu. What made him curious? He was worried. He wanted to ensure that Manu had returned back in his room in the night. He was afraid of roll playing being exposed.
Next question was why Prem had to meet Manu outside? Prem could very well ask Manu same inside house in Kavita’s presence. So, it proved her presence was unwanted.Prem wanted to hide his questions from Kavita also. If he desired one to one meeting, he could have asked Kavita to leave house for some period. Prem was sure, she won’t vacate leaving Manu alone in house with Prem. This clearly indicates that Prem had no chance to meet Manu alone under her protection and he made arrangement to meet Manu outside. Knowing very well that Manu would refuse him if contacted directly, he took help of Kavita. Prem knew very well that Manu can’t refuge Kavita.
We looked in depth at the incidents during Gowri’s second visit.
All other time Gowri made visit, there were phone calls in advance except on this visit.
On entry, Gowri looked at Manu briefly and looked down. She was seemingly embarrassed. Why? An adult woman ready to participate in cuckoldry and threesome in a short while is embarrassed?
On Saturday morning, during serving coffee, Manu had seen brushings marks on Kavita’s upper body. Next day, Sunday morning he observed more brushings. At Sunday late evening, the brushes disappeared as Manu did not find them on her body. She was reading magazine under bright light. Manu should not have missed.
On Saturday morning while serving coffee, Manu find Kavita’s deep cleavage while she was bra less and most probably naked under blanket. The breasts disperse outward while not in support. Deep cleavage calls for lifting and pushing breasts tissues to inward. So Kavita was not topless.
Not only Manu was manipulated in sissy dressing on Friday evening, next day also, she manipulated Manu in sissy dress again. Kavita moved a particular set to the bed for drawing immediate attention of Manu. What made her to take keen interest in Manu’s sissy dressing?
Saturday, Kavita forced Manu doing laundry, first time after shifting. Gowri’s presence made the difference.
Possible obvious reason could be revenge out Manu’s spat on Kavita 4 days back. She became so revengeful that, she planned meticulously with Prem and Gowri to take revenge. Beautiful.
Gowri being part of the revenge programme should not be embarrassed as we have observed.
Kavita kissed Manu on immediate opportunity after the show and arranged lunch for him during her outing. She was doing these behind the scene hiding Prem & Gowri. While Prem & Gowri were part of conspiracy, what was the reason for this secrecy? Her revenge programme evaporated immediately with Gowri’s departure. Not only that, while Manu met her in isolation on Sunday late evening after Gowri’s departure, she talked about Prem’s vacation after two weeks.
Kavita’s revenge was not at all convincing. We distinctly observe different behaviour in presence of Gowri-Prem and in absence of them. So, Kavita was not taking revenge on Manu. Reason for cuckoldry show off was different.
The above incidents cleared a few things. It was clear that cuckold game was played by Kavita and Prem where Gowri was manipulated. Something they were gaining by projecting Manu as cuckold to Gowri. Prem was more concerned on effectiveness of Manu’s cuckoldry show-off. It appeared; Kavita was an unwilling partner in the game forced to take active part. Wasshe being blackmailed? We will come back at this point again.
Gowri’s third visit on 67th day was more or less similar cuckoldry show off. On 74th day Gowri made her 4th visit. Kavita’s dress was not revealing. She was in sari except display of belly ring pendant. Also, Manu was not made to display his cuckoldry. The purpose was already over.
From 16th day to 53rd day Prem never claimed of having sex with Gowri. We plotted Prem’s sex life to draw the conclusion. During this period, mostly Prem was available in house after evening barring on 23rd when he went out after planning creampie for Manu. That day also Prem was not late night. Was Gowri avoiding sex with Prem for some reasons?
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Kavita
All she said before leaving for hospital, “Sorry for keeping you waiting. We will discuss in the evening.”
Jaya did not elaborate further. She looked a bit disturbed. I was getting impatient. No information of my husband. I was afraid. ‘Does it concern me? Anything related to him? Is it so that Jaya could not convince him?’ All worst possibilities filled my mind immediately.
Anxiously I asked, “You seem disturbed a lot. I have lost everything it seems. Please tell me. I can tolerate. He has refused to meet me, isn’t it?”
She looked at my face for a brief period, took my both hands in her, smiled in assurance, “Don’t worry Kavita, Its nothing related to you. This is my personal problem. I needed some time for myself. We will meet in the evening. OK?” She pressed my hands assuring me again before quickly disappearing on her way.
*******
I did not find her during dinner. After dinner when I was retiring to my room, Jaya appeared and asked me to wait in the balcony. She appeared jovial.
Very shortly she joined me. “I am sorry to keep you waiting for so long. Some personal problem had kept me busy all these days. Now everything has been settled. “She was happy and calm.
I intervened her, “My problems can wait. I have waited for so long. A few days more may not affect much.” With slight hesitation I added, “You can trust me. You may share your feelings with me if you consider me your friend. Though, I may not be of much help. “
“There is nothing to hide. I thought of sharing with you last time we met here, even I considered requesting you accompanying me. I was not sure about my situation and your mental preparedness. It was a bit urgent and I had to rush. “
Then I had another shock of life.
Jaya continued, “You may be surprised on what motivated me to take so much interest in your life? We meet hundreds of patients with different problems of their life. It’s impossible for us to explore everybody’s problems in such depths. I took keen interest as I compared your husband with my father. He is a simple man like my father with full of love and passion on life, yet suffering. Your life has a striking similarity with my mother. Mona’s story is my story, my life. Mona is none other than me.”
I was shocked, “What do you say?”
Jaya, most probably, did not hear me. She continued from previous. She was speaking as if in dream.
“That day after reading the first part of the letter, I did not read the letter of my mother. All I knew that I had to reach asylum at the earliest. Dehradun and Mussoorie was my native. I have spent best part of my life there. I knew the location of asylum and the ashram. I took flight to Dehradun and from there to destined ashram took another 2 hours.”
“I could meet my father. He hardly recognised me. I also met Guruji for the first time. I was tired of travel & agony. I took early bed in the guest house of asylum.”
Next day morning I opened the letter of my mother. I opened the Pandora box. The whole world crushed under my feet.I could feel the pain of my mother, a wife of a loving husband. I could understand the agony of her life and humiliation. I had humiliated her without knowing exact reasons behind her self-indulgence. A daughter had denounced her mother.The content of the letter I had told you was slightly exaggerated to lure you in confession. The farm house was true without involvement of caretaker. BDSM was added to inflict negativity in the character. Rest was more or less true.
“I was fortunate enough to get my life back. Guruji could save my mother from committing the heinous crime. Guruji saved me from my downfall. I devoted myself in well being of ashram. My father responded to treatment. He was progressing to normalcy, steadily but very slowly. I changed my subject in masters. Instead of becoming heart specialist, I chose to become psychiatrist. I concentrated more on human sexology. Guruji saved my mother’s life, but could not convince her to meet me. She remained elusive in my presence. She did take care of my father; she even was a great help in asylum in other activities. She actively participated in all activities willingly as requirement arose. She never showed any hesitation in anything except hiding herself in my presence. I could experience her presence, whenever I visited asylum, but could not meet her. Human psychology is quite complicated.”
“Three days back, she had a mild stroke and fell down to injure her seriously. She refused to move outstation for treatment leaving her husband alone in asylum. Just think. One day she was ready to leave the world without concerning her husband’s future in the asylum! I was called to persuade her. I could meet her after a gap of seven years. You can easily imagine the emotional outbursts. Finally, I could convince her. Yesterday she had been successfully operated with angioplasty.”
*****
“Guruji opened my eyes on ethics & morality. He said, ‘Both ethics & morality dictates good and bad behaviour of individuals. What is correct and what is wrong? While ethics is external to a person, morality is internal. Neither of them is absolute. They are volatile and relative; highly dependent on community and social settings. If you travel to the history of evolve of mankind, you will find distinguished opposite conception had swept within the same section of humans on very acceptance of standards of ethics and morality. Progress of mankind is always dynamic and consequently the concept of ethics and morality. Just consider the case of your mother. Re-viewing her behaviour from outside, on her decision of not marrying the father of her biological child can generate a debate on ethical & moral ground without reaching to a conclusion. Its impossible to prove whether her action was right or wrong. The matter gets further complicated, once you try to judge her from her standpoint.’ ”
“He made me view sex from different angles. First time I learnt to view sex as life necessity other than carnal pleasure. Our nature of upbringings in the society and flaws in learning process are mainly responsible for creating a complex unnatural concept on sex. A life process connected with new life can never be dirty. It is the basic requirement of our continued existence.”
“A sexual activity is a great healer to remove psychological stress. Keeping the same in mind, society have approved sex outside societal bonds to minimize mental aberration. He asked me a very simple question. ‘Say, you are hungry of food and food is available. What do you think is proper? Consume food and get devoted in other activities or without taking food get preoccupied in physical & mental constraints. A healthy sexual activity is physiological & psychological food for a healthy adult human. What good it will serve to keep body & mind starved keeping them preoccupied continuously. Don’t you think it is better to free body & mind from constraints to engaged in a better meaningful life activity elsewhere?’ I had no arguments to counteract him. “
“He further stressed, ‘Think about life of a prostitute. She is earning her livelihood by engagement in sex. She is also doing a great social activity by removing the stress and helping in maintaining social harmony in family life to some extent. Do your moral help you hate her because of her profession, a profession maybe she was forced into. What moral do you have to impose your morality on others? The most important factor here is to consider that, do we have any ethical right to judge her morality in her personal life. In case of your mother, she is an individual with different identity. Do you have right to impose your concept of morality on your mother, while her actions had no adverse effect on your independent life? Are not you trespassing?’ ”
***
She smiled at me, “Guruji made my life simple. I no longer feel bad on my birth history. Neither I hate my biological father nor has my love to my father reduced. Who am I to question his personal life? Who is father? He had never failed to perform his fatherly duty. A child is connected with father through his love, affection and care. And my father never allowed raising any suspicion that I was not part of his blood. I think he himself had forgotten that I was not his blood. The best part was I had no religion on birth. My religion is humanity. Guruji helped me understanding basics of religion and its purpose. No religion existed in early life of mankind. Concept of God appeared with fear and unexplained fury of nature. Religion surfaced to explain the mystery of universe and energy. Over time period, religions divided into sub-group to take care diversified aspects of life. At some particular requirement religion got mixed with culture to create further subdivision. I had learned the inner meaning of religion and philosophy of life.”
She smiled at me again. A divine glow spread from her smile to touch me. I also smiled in acknowledgement. It touched my heart. I was no more a worried person. Somebody inside my heart assured me. There was nothing to worry. All clouds got blown away from my mind.
In commensurate in my thinking, Jaya touched my hands and made my hearts beat faster. In an assurance tone she continued, “Guruji will be meeting you tomorrow in asylum prior to your meeting with your husband. He is aware of every incident of your life. Start immediately after breakfast. He prefers you avail public transport. I will drop you in the bus-stand on my way to hospital.” Then in a lighter tone she added, “I hope, now, you are not carrying any grudge against me.”
In response I touched her feet.
She hurriedly stopped me and helped me stand up and occupying my seat. “Please don’t do this. Though I may be two year’s older from you, by respect, you are my senior. Dada landed in Hardwar and met me. I had prior knowledge of his arrival. Guruji had briefed me about him. I heard him again in details. Immediately, I knew there must be something wrong. Subsequently with detailed analysis, I could guess your motive. Somehow, I correlated him with my father. My father had faced a lot of hardship due to his physical shortcomings. I elevated him in the post of my elder brother. He had enormous flaws in his character & behaviour. Still, his simplicity and honesty earned my heart. And his pristine love. Is it possible for any woman to ignore that kind of love and inflict pain? I grew suspicious. My mother was before my eyes. I had experiences of many patients. Human psychology was my subject. I have learnt to think beyond apparent physical appearance and behaviours. I took special care for him.”
“You must admit that you are just an ordinary woman. You don’t possess any extra-ordinary qualities. The beauty and figure you are proud of do not have any contribution from you. You have acquired them by birth. Remember, you have zero contribution on anything to be proud of what you receive through hereditary. Where is your contribution? Still you are not ordinary. My brother had made you extra-ordinary. His love has made you special. Try to contribute something of your own. Make my brother happy. He loves you more than anything of this world.”
In a hesitant and feeble voice I asked, “Does he know about my whereabouts?” I could not hold my curiosity further.
Jaya became mischievous again. “He means your husband? Do you think, after knowing your sexual violence, he would be loitering around without reaching you?”
I put my face down deeply embarrassed. With shy smile I accepted my mistake, “No. He would have reached to me long back.”
Jaya lifted my face with her fingers placed below my chin. She frowned at me and chuckled, “No, he is ignorant of many things. He is not aware of your life struggle since he left early morning nearly five months back on his mission of improving self-reliance.He, however, may be educated with everything prior to your meeting with him or maybe you have to educate him. Guruji will take the final decision. Are you suspecting anything negative?”
I made a brave face hiding my anxiety, “No, no, not for that. I know him well, just curiosity.”
****
Jaya smiled, “I can understand your mental dilemmas. Don’t worry. Be positive. Everything will be OK. Guruji wants you understands a few things on your ignorance or limited knowledge which led your life turmoil. If you have specific queries on anything, you may ask me now. Even, you are permitted to interrupt me in-between.”
I hesitated, “I am curious on how could you guess my motive. I have never left any hint to anybody.” I looked down.
She amused,” So that you can plan next time fool proof?” She must have noticed my reddened face. I heard her giggle, “No need to feel embarrassed. I will include some outline enough for your appreciation. OK? Now look up. It would be a long story taking away your sleep for the night. Anyway, I know you will not sleep due to the excitement of meeting your husband.”
Jaya continued, “You must understand the physical & psychological trauma your husband had passed through since arrival of Prem in your house. Guruji was in Bangalore to deliver a lecture on stress management when he met Manu. He was on the verge of psychological breakdown. Your blatant, unnatural actions had pushed him to despair. You were well aware of his despair. Unfortunately, you were consumed in your own despair. You were pushing him to a point of no return. Under similar situations, most of the victims go extreme. They either kill themselves or kill the peoples responsible for their despair. Sometimes, they lose their mental balance. He was different. He did not consider you entirely responsible for his debacle. He gracefully accepted his shortcomings. He accepted your slavish behaviour and brazen adultery. He accepted his physical torture and humiliation. But he could not accept you getting pregnant by others. Every species in this world wants his gene to be propagated.It makes sense that humans, like any animal, would feel a drive to propagate their own genes. He was no different. He could not accept your morbid decision. After considering all possible outcomes, he decided for relocation. He decided to relocate himself out of your life.”
Jaya brought me out of my trance, “Guruji could persuade him from taking extreme steps and advised for joining confidence build up training programme. God is great. He readily accepted Guruji’s offer only to drop immediately on financial issue. He was not ready to spend money on him depriving your comfort, so that, you are not in financial crisis. No explanation could deter him from his stand. His mental firmness amazed Guruji. He was so much in love with you. “
“We had witnessed his love during training also. To remove negative emotions temporarily, human effigies are sometimes deployed. He never touched your effigy to express his anger.”
“Even after financial problem was sorted out, he was not ready to join immediately. Guruji could witness his sense of responsibility. He excused himself for a day, so that he could complete his responsibilities not to put the company in trouble. A man, dejected in life does not forget his responsibilities of his duties.”
“Finally, Manu landed in my chamber, I had listened to him sitting in this balcony. Wait for 5 minutes, I will be back”
She came back shortly with some papers in her hand and a tape recorder. Jaya switched off the light. Darkness prevailed everywhere. Jaya’s voice came floating, “Listen to your husband.” In the darkness I witnessed my husband through my ear. I listened to my own story, the shameful story of my morbid affairs to achieve my secret goal.
It continued for hours with occasional interruptions of Jaya. She was asking for clarifications. Finally, it ended with his final departure in the wee hours of that fateful day of my violation. I could feel the pain and psychological trauma he had pass through. Clearly he was torn between his love and my happiness. Absolute silence prevailed.
After sometime, Jaya got up and switched on a dim light. I heard her, “His training started. Slowly he gained confidence. He was a very good learner. Once we could remove anxiety and fear from his mind, his adoption to changed reality was supreme. The physical structure could not be altered. It’s God gifted and we all have to be contented with our primary physical structure. He was more than normal in every category of physiological aspects within limitations of his physical constraints. In some cases he could be placed in top places.”
“When we analysed his Bio chemistry report on his arrival, we observed a high level of Estrogen& low level of Testosterone hormone in his blood. “
“While Estrogen levels are significantly lower in males compared to females, estrogens nevertheless also have important physiological roles in males. As the testosterone is transformed into Estrogen the low levels of testosterone can cause many unpleasant symptoms including loss of muscle mass, fatigue, low libido, erectile dysfunction etc.”
“High level of Estrogen may stimulate breast tissue growth. Men with too much Estrogen may develop gynecomastia, a condition which leads to larger breasts, loss of body hair and Erectile Dysfunction. Men with high levels of Estrogen may have difficulty in getting or maintaining an erection. A prolong high level presence of Estrogen in male body can permanently make him infertile.”
"Manu was definitely being administered drugs. He confirmed, none of you had administered him any drug directly within his knowledge, which indicates he was being drugged without his knowledge. Can you suggest anything, Kavita?”
‘I know it. Now I know it for sure. Prem has duped me.’ I answered lowering my face, “I am only responsible. I was mixing sleeping tablets in his beverages. When Prem replaced them with drugs, I had no knowledge. But I did stop giving him sleeping pills after my shifting to Prem”
Jaya responded, “I collected both the drugs during my stay at your house. While you were being administered sex enhancement drugs, Manu was being administered female hormones. Even after you stopped mixing, Manu was directly consuming it since your shifting. Effectively, he was under female hormone control. Manu was saved. A prolonged period of high level of Estrogen in a man’s body will inflict femininity. He could have developed breast in long run and lost his erection completely becoming impotent. This could have been irreversible.”
I vowed in my mind. ‘I am not going to leave Prem so easily. He has to pay for his every crime. He wanted me to beg for my life. I will make his life such that he will forget to beg for his life also. I did make mistake to attempt suicide. I cannot die without teaching him lesson. I should not die without revenge.’
Jaya continued, “We had definite proof that he was being drugged. It could be either you or Prem. We also did analyse his semen quality. On arrival his sperm count was 1,50,000 per ml. It improved considerably to 2,50,000 per ml within a month and 4,50,000 per ml in four months in favourable condition. In medical terms, his semen qualified for impregnating any woman in her fertility. Your non-conceiving could be attributable to many other probabilities. Nature decides her judgement on pregnancy most of which still are not perceived by human.”
Jaya abruptly stopped and fixed her eyes on me in piercing. She appeared to be finding out probable reasons for my not getting pregnant. Unable to withstand, I lowered my face to avert her gaze. Did she suspect some malpractices from my side? I knew, I did not do anything. I genuinely was looking for motherhood for past four years. God has denied me motherhood for my sin, which I could not divulge.
She continued in assertive tone, “You were obsessed with children. Every woman desires to attain motherhood. It’s your right to get pregnant. Your husband’s physical performance was not hindrance to your pregnancy. Many women in the world never enjoyed orgasm but became mothers. Sperm quality and count of your husband was not issue. Within limitations of other unfavourable conditions, your non pregnancy could be attributable to birth control measures or your physical constraints.”
“We had Manu’s version of story. Obviously, we did not accept everything on face value. However, based on his version we made our preliminary observation”
“Kavita was well aware of Prem’s character. He was arrogant, selfish, bullish, womaniser etc. For him women were only sex object made of flesh. Definitely, she was not akin to marry him. Moreover, he was engaged. She never favoured divorce as she could have done this earlier. She had never intended to elope with him. Then, exactly what was she achieving by inviting Prem? Again, what was her motive?”
"Manu was not sissy as Kavita had experienced for 4 years. She was encouraging him in sissy cuckoldry trait almost by force since arrival of Prem. Worst possible outcome could have been losing mental balance or life. What were the possible gains she could achieve? ‘Un-hindrance physical pleasure along with Manu’s property while enjoying social status’ could be her aim. It sounds interesting!”
"Unfortunately, Manu did not possess a fortune. Moreover, Kavita was sharing all his property jointly. This nullified property angles. Torturing physically and mentally carried inherent risk of being implicated by law. The fact, a complaint by Manu could land both Kavita and Prem behind bars was not unknown to her. She was taking greater risks far outwitting the extra gains she could possibly achieve in materialistic world. Though, not ruled out completely, the theory of ‘Un-hindrance physical pleasure along with property while enjoying social status’ was not very convincing to me."
"Prem and Kavita have been discovered in close relationship by her husband’s friends Puja & Aslam. People were observing both in closeness in various malls etc while she was flaunting your body. In morning workout, she was being observed in short revealing dresses. In India all these were bound to draw attractions of neighbours. Her lovemaking sounds were audible to neighbours from outside while her husband was not in house. All these facts were made known to her directly or indirectly by her husband. She couldn’t pretend ignorance. Kavita was actively allowing gossip to grow. As if she was willingly announcing the whole world to get acquainted to her adultery with Prem. The very social status was at risk and she was well aware of it. So, it was not the social stigma, Kavita remain married. Kavita remained married to her husband because she loved her husband."
Jaya smiled mischievously, “So, the theory of ‘Un-hindrance physical pleasure along with her husband’s property while enjoying social status’ failed. We looked for ‘Un-hindrance physical pleasure along with Manu’s property without social component’. I would have been happy to harmonise with Kavita’s behaviours. Say, she was not bound by social stigma. But she loved her husband. She has never failed to express her love to her husband. She had made sincere attempts to safeguard her husband from bullying of Prem. So, definitely, she would not like to find him mental or dead. Her husband submitted himself into her adultery. He accepted her extramarital relationship. Then, why to torture him? Why to convert him to sissy cuckold? A bit contradictory, is it not? A few incidences further grow suspiciousness. Kavita was constantly cautioning him with example of Vipul against possible attacks. She was constantly asking him to be proactive while dealing with Prem. She was vulnerable to unknown fear in her mind.
She took a pregnant pause, “It does not have much significance whether Kavita loved Prem or had any attachment with Prem. It’s important that she loved her husband. Still she was causing trauma to him. On one hand, she was involved in his social destruction. On the other hand, she was protecting him constantly from Prem. She was afraid of something. This clearly indicated she was being manipulated."
Jaya addressed to me, “Preliminary report indicated the presence of your extortion and a deep-rooted motive. To understand better, we created three mathematical models for all three of you.
I will give my sample analysis with precise dates as per Manu’s version. The date of arrival of Prem is designated as date one. We have used most of the techniques mathematically available to derive a logical conclusion.
1 Direct proof
2 Proof by mathematical induction
3 Proof by contraposition
4 Proof by contradiction
5 Proof by construction
6 Proof by exhaustion
7 Probabilistic proof
8 Combinatorial proof
9 Nonconstructive proof
10 Statistical proofs in pure mathematics
Out of all techniques, the most used ones were direct proof, proof by contradiction, proof by exhaustion and probabilistic proof.”
For every character we plotted the following
1 Dressing pattern within 24 hours and day wise
2 Physical discomfiture within 24 hours and day wise
3 Mood change within 24 hours and day wise
4 Sexual behaviour, frequency, orgasmic bliss, pattern of moaning
5 Smiling pattern at different scenarios.
6 Body movement / gestures during humiliation or bullying as recipient, observer or donor.
7 Sleeping pattern
We also traced the precedence of every incident to derive interrelationship between incidences and effect on society, relationship, economy, physic, moods, loss & gain, apparent gratification, rewards & punishments etc. Social, cultural and economical, religious background of the characters were superimposed in our derivation.
I will present here a few samples for your understanding.
Initially, our entire analysis was based on the story narrated by Manu. Subsequently at appropriate level, we came across with direct or indirect proofs to validate our analysis. The first character we analysed was Manu character.
Manu:
The positive aspect of his character was his unmasked love. His love was not marred with revenge feeling. Next was his patience and endurance level not accepting defeat at any cost. He was simple in lifestyle and not greedy. He was sober in behaviour and had respect to women. He was diligent and responsible to his external works but equally irresponsible to his personal front.
The most prominent negative aspect of his character was his refusal to physical fitness, anxiety, fear and refusal to accept the truth. During his ordeal with Prem & Kavita, he had many opportunities to learn the truth and defuse the threats which he avoided only because he refused to accept the truth. For example, he valued virginity of women before marriage and would not have married to Kavita had he knew the truth. He never tried to figure out the truth directly from Kavita. With regard to A.A and boyfriend, Kavita never accepted his idea, however Manu never tried to figure out the truth. He had ample opportunity to meet Gowri in isolation without involvement of Prem which he did not. He never differentiated between real efforts and pseudo efforts.
He never mixed with people. He had no real friends. We observed nobody visited them on friendly gestures. Strangely, he had exhibited no hobby for his entertainment. Consequently, he was more dependent on his wife on every aspect of life. Sharing life is altogether different to submission. The reason for his submissiveness was fear of failure. He was lacking confidence. Honestly, there was no reason for him to serve coffee to the trio in their bedroom except his submissive nature to his wife. His emotional draining was part of his submissive life style. People of such character invariably always face loneliness in life. They can never be happy as happiness is achieved only in sharing.
His dependency on his wife was abnormally high, which could never take him to success in life on any scale as he could not take any decision on his own. He was well aware of his poor performance and doubted on his ability of fathering a child. He, however never bothered to check with a consultant in spite of all opportunities available around him. His attitude towards life was negative and life never bestows a person with pessimistic attitude.
He correctly diagnosed the sexual slavery of his wife. But he never made any sincere efforts to understand the nature of her slavery, whether it was forced upon or willing. Accepting that his wife had given ample indication for him to accept her slavery as willing, at the same time, she had also given indications of her foreboding mental state. His attitude of ignoring her distress signals in pessimistic way without verifying authenticity added negativity in his character.
The pessimistic attitude of Manu had helped other character to behave erratically.
Gowri:
Gowri was a south Indian Brahmmin woman of young age of around 24 years, educated, earning her own livelihood and staying away from family all alone in another city outside her home town. She was in love with Prem outside her community and religion. So, she must be open minded, self dependent without prejudice to cultural and religion bindings. She was not ultra-modern woman displaying herself in public and not very fashion conscious.
On 10th day, Thursday, Prem took virginity of Gowri. 15th and 16th Prem had sex with Gowri again. We see her again on 53rd day Friday when she visited Manu’s house for the first time. In between Prem was never late night to return after meeting Gowri. We came to know that Kavita had met her earlier and she had extended her invitation. Kavita presented herself on that day as a good housewife. Gowri was dressed in sober. She was very shy in presence of Manu. Gowri spend the weekend at Manu’s place. On Friday Manu heard her suppressed moaning of lovemaking. She was clearer next night in her moans. The fact of a shy unmarried woman first time visiting some unknown house with her fiancé and making love with loud moaning grew suspicion. Only torture and pain could support this fact. On Sunday morning Gowri was nervous and uncomfortable in front of Manu. Same day night, there was no lovemaking sound heard by Manu, justifying her painful intercourse and avoiding sex. On Saturday, all of them went for outing but on Sunday all stayed back, logically appeared to be commensurate with her painful intercourse on previous night.
On 56th day Monday, Manu spoke to Gowri in Prem’s mobile. Initially she was tongue tied and answered only after a few ‘hellos’. It appeared she was afraid to something. Manu wanted to talk something to her in private and she was cut off by Prem abruptly. She never contacted Manu in future. She was a progressive, educated, independent woman. She could advance to pre-marriage physical relationship with Prem, outside of her community and religion, but was afraid to talk to Manu. Manu was no-one but her host for last two days. What was her hesitation to talk to Manu? It was a clear indication of suspicious behaviour on part of Gowri. She was forced by Prem to behave other ways. But why?
On 60th day Gowri made her 2nd visit in different environment. Manu was projected in sissy dress as a cuckold. Gowri was averting her eyes from Manu. Her behaviour suggested that she was already aware of Manu’s cuckoldry. So much change in Gowri in just one week was abnormal. All three went to Prem’s bedroom for a likely threesome drawing Manu’s attention. Next morning, Manu was forced to serve coffee to prove his cuckoldry in the eyes of Gowri. Manu observed Gowri in same dress as previous evening. In a likely event of threesome activities, two of participants were in scanty dress, whereas the third partner fully dressed and that also same dress of previous evening.This suggested a clear show off.
For next two days till Sunday, Manu was being projected as cuckold. Gowri was not allowed any chance-meet with Manu. She was being protected. Unlike previous week, Kavita and Prem skipped morning workout to ensure Gowri’s isolation from Manu. On Saturday night, Manu was caught eavesdropping. Sunday, on 62nd day, Gowri was dropped back at late evening. Why? If threesome was main aim, why Gowri was required to be vacated?
Answer came from next day activity. Prem’s motorcycle had snag and Manu had to give lift. Bangalore is a big city with modern transport. Prem could easily manage transport for his one-time return journey. Manu was not in conversation with Prem since Kavita’s shifting to Prem. What made Prem to meet Manu? During return journey, Prem inquired Manu’s action in the previous nights. Prem was never interested to know whereabouts of Manu. What made him curious? He was worried. He wanted to ensure that Manu had returned back in his room in the night. He was afraid of roll playing being exposed.
Next question was why Prem had to meet Manu outside? Prem could very well ask Manu same inside house in Kavita’s presence. So, it proved her presence was unwanted.Prem wanted to hide his questions from Kavita also. If he desired one to one meeting, he could have asked Kavita to leave house for some period. Prem was sure, she won’t vacate leaving Manu alone in house with Prem. This clearly indicates that Prem had no chance to meet Manu alone under her protection and he made arrangement to meet Manu outside. Knowing very well that Manu would refuse him if contacted directly, he took help of Kavita. Prem knew very well that Manu can’t refuge Kavita.
We looked in depth at the incidents during Gowri’s second visit.
All other time Gowri made visit, there were phone calls in advance except on this visit.
On entry, Gowri looked at Manu briefly and looked down. She was seemingly embarrassed. Why? An adult woman ready to participate in cuckoldry and threesome in a short while is embarrassed?
On Saturday morning, during serving coffee, Manu had seen brushings marks on Kavita’s upper body. Next day, Sunday morning he observed more brushings. At Sunday late evening, the brushes disappeared as Manu did not find them on her body. She was reading magazine under bright light. Manu should not have missed.
On Saturday morning while serving coffee, Manu find Kavita’s deep cleavage while she was bra less and most probably naked under blanket. The breasts disperse outward while not in support. Deep cleavage calls for lifting and pushing breasts tissues to inward. So Kavita was not topless.
Not only Manu was manipulated in sissy dressing on Friday evening, next day also, she manipulated Manu in sissy dress again. Kavita moved a particular set to the bed for drawing immediate attention of Manu. What made her to take keen interest in Manu’s sissy dressing?
Saturday, Kavita forced Manu doing laundry, first time after shifting. Gowri’s presence made the difference.
Possible obvious reason could be revenge out Manu’s spat on Kavita 4 days back. She became so revengeful that, she planned meticulously with Prem and Gowri to take revenge. Beautiful.
Gowri being part of the revenge programme should not be embarrassed as we have observed.
Kavita kissed Manu on immediate opportunity after the show and arranged lunch for him during her outing. She was doing these behind the scene hiding Prem & Gowri. While Prem & Gowri were part of conspiracy, what was the reason for this secrecy? Her revenge programme evaporated immediately with Gowri’s departure. Not only that, while Manu met her in isolation on Sunday late evening after Gowri’s departure, she talked about Prem’s vacation after two weeks.
Kavita’s revenge was not at all convincing. We distinctly observe different behaviour in presence of Gowri-Prem and in absence of them. So, Kavita was not taking revenge on Manu. Reason for cuckoldry show off was different.
The above incidents cleared a few things. It was clear that cuckold game was played by Kavita and Prem where Gowri was manipulated. Something they were gaining by projecting Manu as cuckold to Gowri. Prem was more concerned on effectiveness of Manu’s cuckoldry show-off. It appeared; Kavita was an unwilling partner in the game forced to take active part. Wasshe being blackmailed? We will come back at this point again.
Gowri’s third visit on 67th day was more or less similar cuckoldry show off. On 74th day Gowri made her 4th visit. Kavita’s dress was not revealing. She was in sari except display of belly ring pendant. Also, Manu was not made to display his cuckoldry. The purpose was already over.
From 16th day to 53rd day Prem never claimed of having sex with Gowri. We plotted Prem’s sex life to draw the conclusion. During this period, mostly Prem was available in house after evening barring on 23rd when he went out after planning creampie for Manu. That day also Prem was not late night. Was Gowri avoiding sex with Prem for some reasons?
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