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Kaavya ke dil mein ek pagalapan bhara, wikrit sa khyal kaundha. ek aisi bechaini jisane uski sochane-samajhane ki sari sudh chheen li.

*‘muaawaza... mujhe iska prayashchit karana hoga! mujhe apne is apawitr munh ko saf karana hoga... mujhe apne pati ko bhi wahi samarpan dena hoga jo mainne us akhaade wale buzurg ko diya hai! agar main Rajesh ko wo sab kuchh saunp doon... agar main inke badan ko wahi sukh de doon... to shayad... shayad mera yeh pap kuchh kam ho jae... shayad bhagawan mujhe maf kar de!’*

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02:35 AM.

Kaavya ne bina koi aawaz kiye chaadar ko ek taraf hataya.

uske nange ghutane us thande lakadi ke parquet wale farsh ke rug par tick gaye. wo ek gunahagar ki tarah, ghutanon ke bal rengati hui Rajesh ki taraf wale gadde ke kinaare I.

uski chhaati us patle silk ke neeche pagalon ki tarah dhadak rahi thi. galon par aansoo sookhakar khinch rahe the, aur uske honth... jo Tauji ke us saadhe aath inch ke wishal land ko choosane aur unki dadhi ke gharshan se ab bhi halke sooje hue aur surkh laal the... wo tharathara rahe the.

usne apne donon kanpate haathon ko aage badhaya.

Rajesh ke dheele cotton pyjame ka elastic uski patli kamar par tha. Kaavya ki ungliyon ne bahut hi naphasat se, saans rokakar us pyjame ke nefe ko pakada aur bahut aahista-aahista use neeche ki taraf sarakana shuroo kiya.

Rajesh ne nashe mein sirf ek halki si karah li, lekin uski aankhen Nahi khuleen.

pyjama khisakakar Rajesh ki jaanghon ke beech tak utar gaya.

kamre ke maddham andhere mein... Rajesh ka wo paurush, jo poori tarah uttejit hone par bhi bamushkil 4.7 inch ka hi rahata tha, is time dheeli, sust halat mein mushkil se do inch ka ek bejan kenchua banakar uski jaangh par dhulaka hua pada tha. wo poori tarah se shant, dheela aur murda tha.

Kaavya ki nazaren us land par tick gayin.

aur usi ek second mein... uske dimaag ki nason mein anajane hi ek khauphanak tulana kaundh gayi!

kahan Tauji ka wo 8.5 inch ka wishal, nason se bhara, faulaadi kaala khanbha jo zara si chhuan par aag ugalane lagata tha... jisane uske poore halak ko phad dene ki had tak bhar diya tha... aur kahan uske pati ka yeh nazuk, chhota aur komal sa ang, jo chhah sal se kisi bachche ki tarah bejan pada tha.

Kaavya ne jhatake se apni aankhen bheench leen. *‘Nahi! yeh main kya soch rahi hoon... yeh mere pati hain! yeh mere dewata hain!’*

usne apne aansuon ko apni kalaai se ponchha. usne ek gehri, bheegi hui saans li aur apne sir ko neeche jhuka diya.

Kaavya ne apne poore chhah sal ke waiwahik jeewan mein oral sex ko hamesha ek ghinauni, ashleel aur gandi cheez batakar Rajesh ko dutkar diya tha. Rajesh ne kaee bar pyaar se, minnaten karake usase yeh mang ki thi, lekin Kaavya ne hamesha yeh kahakar dant diya tha ki *'main koi bazaroo aurat Nahi hoon jo yeh sab gand munh mein loon!'*

lekin aaj... aaj wahi uchch-kuleen, ghamandi bahu apni us jhoothi maryada ko aansuon mein bahakar, apne usi pati ke pairon ke paas ghutanon ke bal jhuki hui thi.

Kaavya ne apne bheege, laal honth khole... aur Rajesh ke us sust, chhote paurush ko apne munh ke makhamali ghere mein samet liya.

*sass...*

Kaavya ne apni poori garm jeebh se us land ke sire ko chhua. usne apni lar se us sookhi khal ko bhigoya. wo pagalon ki tarah, ek hatash aur tooti hui aurat ki tarah apne sir ko aage-peechhe hilane lagi.

uski garm saansen Rajesh ki jaanghon se takara rahi thin. uske honth Rajesh ke us chhote land ko apni jadon tak kheenchane ki koshish kar rahe the, uski jeebh us nazuk crown ke neeche ki nason ko sahala rahi thi. Kaavya ke munh se ek bheegi, sisakati hui phusaphusahat us mans ke tukde se takaraee:

*“jag jaie na Rajesh... please... ek bar uth jaie... mujhe... mujhe apni bahon mein bhar leejie... mujhe is aag se bacha leejie... dekhie main aapke saamne jhuki hoon... uthie na...”*

uski aankhon se aansoo lagatar tapak rahe the, jo Rajesh ki jaanghon aur uske pet ke nichale hisse ko bhigo rahe the.

lekin... jismani sachchaee kisi bhawukata ki mohataj Nahi hoti.

Rajesh ke badan ne koi harakat Nahi ki.

kal raat ki wo andhi, behisab Black Dog scotch... uski liwar ki purani bhaari dawaen... aur chhah maheene se chali aa rahi uski chronic erectile dysfunction (ED) ki beemari, in sabane milakar Rajesh ke nichale dhad ki nason ko poori tarah se sunn kar rakha tha.

Kaavya chahe jitani bhi shiddat se apni jeebh chalati, chahe jitani bhi garm lar us par undelati, Rajesh ka wo land Kaavya ke munh ke bheetar kisi ubale hue, geele reshami dhage ki tarah mud jata tha. usamen tanaav ki ek ratti bhar bhi harakat paida Nahi ho rahi thi. wo poori tarah se bejan, bedam aur murda tha.

Kaavya ke jabade dukhane lage. uski saansen phoolane lageen.

uska dil kisi gehre, kaale kuen mein girata chala gaya. akhaade ke us 56 sal ke boodhe ke jism mein bina chhue hi shole bhadak uthate the, aur uska 31 sal ka jawan, padha-likha pati uski itani nangi, roti hui samarpan ki bheekh ke bawajood ek inch bhi Nahi hil pa raha tha!

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02:55 AM.

Kaavya ne har Nahi mani. usne apni donon hatheliyon se Rajesh ki jaanghon ko dabaya aur apne munh ko aur zyada gaharaee tak le jane ki koshish ki.

aur theek usi pal... wo kayamat I!

Rajesh ke mathe par achaanak bal pade. uski band aankhon ke pote phadaphadae.

shayad sharab ke us ghane nashe mein, sapane ke kisi dhundhale kone mein, uske ling par hone wali us garm, geeli halachal ne uske dimaag ko ek halka sa jhataka diya tha.

Rajesh ka sookha, basi honth hila. uske halak se ek bhaari, ladakhadati aur nashe mein doobi hui phusaphusahat phooti:

*“...Kaavya... uff... AC theek hua kya... Tauji... ko... bula liya kya...?”*

*sannanann!*

Kaavya ki reedh ki haddi mein jaise kisi ne bijali ka nanga tar chhoo diya ho!

**“Tauji?!”**

apne pati ke munh se, theek us time jab uska apna munh uske nange guptang par chipaka hua tha, 'Tauji' ka nam sunana... Kaavya ke kaleje ko cheer kar rakh gaya!

uska poora jism barph ki tarah jam gaya. khauf aur dahshat ka ek aisa bhayanak daura us par pada ki usne ek jhatake mein apne sir ko peechhe kheencha!

*dhadam!*

Kaavya ladakhadakar peechhe ki taraf giri. uski donon hatheliyan farsh ke kaleen par dhans gayin. uski aankhen phati ki phati rah gayin, saans seene mein hi ghut gayi. use laga ki Rajesh jag chuka hai! use laga ki Rajesh ne apni aankhen khol li hain aur wo dekh chuka hai ki uski beewi uske pairon ke beech munh dabae kya kar rahi thi!

“h... h...” Kaavya ke halak se sirf sookhi hawa nikali.

kamre mein sannaata tha.

Rajesh ne sirf apna sookha honth chata, apna sir takie ki doosri taraf ludhakaya... aur phir se usi tarah bhaari-bhaari, kharraton wali gehri neend mein doob gaya. wo jaga Nahi tha; wo to sirf apne usi kal raat wale zahareele tane ko sharab ke nashe mein badabada raha tha.

Kaavya waheen farsh par baithi thar-thar kanpati rahi.

uska poora badan paseene se bheeg chuka tha. uska munh Rajesh ke us bejan land ki namakeen khal aur apni hi gadhi, garm lar se bhara hua tha.

Kaavya ne apni donon aankhen band keen. usne apni palakon ko kasakar bheench liya...

aur us munh mein bhare paani ko, apne pati ki us sookhi khal ke us namakeen ark ko... usne apne halak ke neeche utar liya.

*glap...*

ek ajeeb, bhayanak aur dardanak sangam. pet ke bheetar Tauji ka wo gadha, khaulata hua veerya pehle se maujood tha... aur ab uske oopar uske apne pati ki lar aur paseene ka ark bhi utar chuka tha. ek hi wansh ke do mardon ka ansh ab us aurat ke pet mein ek sath tair raha tha.

Kaavya ne kanpate haathon se Rajesh ke pyjame ko wapas oopar kheencha. usne chaadar ko uske seene tak odhaya.

usne ek pal ke liye Rajesh ke us sote hue chehre ko dekha. us chehre par daya, bebasi aur ek aisi bhayanak mayoosi thi jise bayan karane ke liye is duniya mein koi laphz Nahi tha.

Kaavya samajh chuki thi, yeh khaee ab kabhi Nahi pat sakati. uska prayashchit adhoora hi rahega.

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03:10 AM.

master bedroom ki wo 31 degree wali umas ab Kaavya ke liye kisi faansi ke fande jaisi ban chuki thi.

use us kamre ki deewaron se ghin aa rahi thi. use apne pati ke bistar se ghin aa rahi thi. use lag raha tha ki agar wo us bistar par aur ek pal bhi ruki, to uska dam ghut jaega aur wo cheekh padegi.

usne apne aansuon ko ponchha. usne farsh se apne donon pair uthae aur billi ki tarah dabe panw us kamre ki chaukhat ko par kar liya.

galiyaara bilkul weeran aur thanda tha.

Kaavya seedhe saamne ki taraf Nahi gayi, usne guest room ke us band darwaaze ki taraf dekhane ki bhi himmat Nahi ki. uske kadam khud-b-khud baeen taraf mude, aur wo seedhe **Anu ke kamre** ke bheetar dakhil ho gayi.

*click.*

darwaaza band ho gaya.

Kaavya ne deewaar par lage remote ko uthaya aur AC ka button dabaya. kamre ka Panasonic inverter AC dheere se phusaphusaya, aur mahaz tees second ke bheetar us kamre mein **22 degree ki barph jaisi thandi, taza aur sukoon bhari hawa** tairane lagi.

kamre ki wo thandi hawa jaise hi Kaavya ke paseene se bheege badan se takaraee, uski reedh mein ek kanpakanpi daud gayi.

yeh kamra... yeh uski saat sal ki beti Anu ka kamra tha.

Anu hafte ke dinon mein apne nana-nani ke ghar rahati thi, isliye kamra bilkul saleeke se saja hua tha. deewaron par Barbie aur pariyon wale poster lage the, study table par rang-birangi pencils aur drawing books rakhi thin, aur chhote se single bed par chameli ke phoolon ke print wali saaf-suthari chaadar bichhi thi. hawa mein bachchon wale mild Johnson's baby powder aur fabric conditioner ki ek behad masoom, pawitr mahak basi hui thi.

aur us masoomiyat ke mandir mein... Kaavya apne us ardhanagn, papi aur doosre mard ke veerya se lathapath jism ko lekar khadi thi.

Kaavya ki himmat jawab de gayi.

wo seedhe us chhote se single bed par gir padi. usne Anu ke chhote se, narm takie ko apni chhaati se bheench liya aur apne munh ko us takie mein dabakar pagalon ki tarah sisakane lagi.

*“he eeshwar... meri bachchi... teri maa kitani gandi hai... main kitani neech aurat hoon Anu... main tere layak bhi Nahi bachi...”*

kamre ki 22 degree wali thandi hawa bhi uske andar ki aag ko bujha Nahi pa rahi thi. uski donon jaanghon ke beech wo dadhi ki ragad ab bhi tees mar rahi thi. uska pet ab bhi bhaari tha.

Kaavya ne us takie ko itani zor se daba rakha tha ki uske haath ke nakhoon takie ke cover mein dhans gaye the. wo roti rahi... roti rahi... yahan tak ki uski aankhon ke sare aansoo sookh gaye aur uski palaken bhaari pattharon jaisi ho gayin.

usne apne dimaag ke us kone ko chhua bhi Nahi jahan uska phone ya tablet rakha tha; uske paas apni is barbadi ko shabdon mein pirone ki bhi takat Nahi bachi thi. wo bas apni us chhoti si bachchi ke bistar par ek laachaar, tooti hui gudiya ki tarah sikud gayi.

thakan aur aansuon ke us bhaari bojh ne aakhirakar subah ke **03:45 baje** uski chetana ko apni girapht mein le liya.

wo ek bechain, bure sapanon se bhari neend mein doob gayi, jahan use kabhi ganw ke akhaade ki laal mitti dikhaee deti, kabhi shadi ke pheron ka jalata hua hawan-kund, aur kabhi Tauji ke wo safed plaster bandhe haath jo use daladal mein kheench rahe the.

lekin us neend ke bheetar bhi... uske zehan ka ek paharedar jag raha tha, jisaki suee theek ek hi bat par ataki thi: *subah hone se pehle jagana hai... sooraj nikalane se pehle!*

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05:00 AM.

*jhataka!*

Kaavya ki aankhen ek jhatake mein poori ki poori khul gayin.

kamra ab bhi 22 degree par bilkul thanda aur khamosh tha. baahar khidaki ke par, poorab ke aasaman mein abhi bhor ka pehla neela-syah ujaala bhi theek se Nahi phoota tha.

lekin Kaavya ke mathe par achaanak thande paseene ki ek boond chhalak I.

uski chhaati dhadakane lagi. uske dimaag mein ek aisa bhayanak, khoonkhar khyal bijali ki tarah kaundha jisane uski neend ke aakhiri katare ko bhi ek second mein jalakar rakh kar diya!

**Tauji ke palang ki chaadar!**

Kaavya ka saans gale mein hi atak gaya.

*‘he bhagawan! kal raat... jab main us 69 wali position mein Tauji ke munh ke oopar thi... jab mera wo bandh toota tha...!’*

Kaavya ki rooh kanp uthi. use wo pal yad aaya jab uski yoni se wo chandan aur chameli ke itr se mahakata hua garm, gadha ras moosaladhar sailab ki tarah chhoota tha! wo paani sirf Tauji ke munh aur dadhi par Nahi baha tha; wo Tauji ke seene se bahata hua seedhe us lakadi ke takht ki cotton chaadar par ja gira tha!

Kaavya ka apna itana sara stri-ras... Tauji ke jism ka khaulata hua paseena... wo sab kuchh us chaadar ke beechon-beech ek bahut bade, gadhe aur badaboodar dag ki shakl mein sookh raha hoga!

agar subah sooraj nikala... aur agar Rajesh ya ghar mein kam karane wali baee us kamre mein chali gayi... to us chaadar par jama wo lasalasa, safed-peela dag aur uski wo teekhi, madahosh kar dene wali kaamuk gandh cheekh-cheekhakar poori duniya ko bata degi ki kal raat us bistar par kya anarth hua hai!

Kaavya ek pal bhi aur bistar par Nahi ruki.

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05:15 AM.

Kaavya ne dabe panw Anu ke kamre ka darwaaza khola.

poora flat us bhor ke neele, thande andhere mein dooba hua tha. har taraf ek ajeeb si, rahasyamayi shanti thi.

Kaavya billi ki tarah sarakati hui seedhe galiyaare mein bani lakadi ki linen cupboard ke paas pahunchi. usne bahut aahista se almari ka palla khola aur andar se Tauji ke bistar wali chaadar jaisi hi, ek bilkul naee, dhuli hui aur kadak safed cotton ki chaadar nikali.

usne chaadar ko apne seene se chipakaya, aur seedhe guest room (Guest Room) ki taraf badh gayi.

darwaaze ka handle thanda tha. Kaavya ne use aahista se ghumaya... aur kamre ke bheetar dakhil ho gayi.

khidaki se aati hui bhor ki dhundhali, neeli roshni mein... Sukhdev Tauji usi tarah takht par chitt pade hue the.

unki aankhen khuli hui thin. wo soe Nahi the. 56 sal ka wo pahalwaan raat ke us maha-pap ke malabe tale daba hua, apni chhat ke pankhe ko takataki bandhe ghoor raha tha. unke donon bhaari plaster bandhe haath unke seene par usi tarah bebas pade the.

darwaaze ki halki si sarasarahat par Tauji ki gardan ghoomi.

Kaavya ko us neele ujale mein, haath mein safed chaadar liye apni taraf aate dekhakar Tauji ka halak sookh gaya. unki bhaari, kanpati dehati aawaz mein ek dari hui phusaphusahat phooti:

“b... bahu? tu... is time...”

Kaavya ne apne honthon par apni ek thandi ungli rakh di:

“shashash... Tauji, zara bhi aawaz mat nikalie. chupachap lete rahie.”

Kaavya ki aawaz mein ek ajeeb si, dari hui teji thi. wo seedhe bistar ke paas I. uski nazar jaise hi takht ke beechon-beech gayi, uska kaleja munh ko aa gaya.

chaadar ke theek us hisse par, jahan kal raat Kaavya ki yoni aur Tauji ka chehra tha... wahan kam se kam do feet chauda ek gehra, katthaee-safed sa geela aur akada hua dag phaila hua tha! wo dag sookhakar paapdi ban chuka tha, aur usamen se wahi teekhi, namakeen aur chandan jaisi madahosh kar dene wali kam-gandh ab bhi hawa mein tair rahi thi.

Kaavya ne Tauji ki aankhon mein dekha. Tauji ne sharm ke mare apni aankhen jhuka leen. us akhaade ke saand ka chehra guilt se kaala pad chuka tha.

“Tauji... zara sa sahara leejie,” Kaavya ne bahut dabi aawaz mein kaha, “mujhe yeh chaadar badalani hogi. agar yeh dag kisi ki nazar mein aa gaya... to hum donon isi ghar mein zinda daphan ho jaenge.”

Kaavya ne Tauji ke bhaari, faulaadi pairon ko bahut ehatiyat se uthaya. usne Tauji ki peeth ke neeche se us maili, badaboodar chaadar ko ek sire se kheenchana shuroo kiya.

Tauji ke plaster bandhe haath unke seene par hile, lekin wo bebas the. wo sirf apni saanson ko rokakar apni kulawadhoo ki is khamosh, kanpati hui mehanat ko dekh rahe the.

Kaavya ke haathon mein jab wo geela, akada hua kapada aaya, to uski ungliyon mein ek siharan daud gayi. usne us poori chaadar ko bahut phurti se ek tight gole mein lapet liya.

phir, usne apni laee hui naee, taza chaadar ko us gadde par phailaya. usne charon konon ko gadde ke neeche itani naphasat aur sakhti se dabaya ki us par ek bhi silwat nazar n aae. bistar aisa lag raha tha maano us par kabhi koi baitha tak n ho!

Kaavya ne jane se pehle ek pal ke liye Tauji ki taraf dekha.

Tauji ki boodhi, laal aankhon mein aansoo chamak rahe the. unhone bina kuchh bole, sirf apni palaken jhapakakar apni kritajnyata aur apni bebasi zahir ki.

Kaavya ne koi jawab Nahi diya. usne us maili chaadar ke bundle ko apni bahon mein bheencha, aur kamre se baahar nikal gayi.

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05:45 AM.

Kaavya seedhe flat ki utility balcony mein pahunchi.

subah ki thandi, os bhari hawa ne uske chehre ko chhua. usne front-loading washing machine ka dhakkan khola, us maili chaadar ko andar thoons diya, aur oopar se lavender ki khushboo wale liquid detergent ka ek bada dhakkan seedhe drum mein udel diya.

usne machine ko 'Cold Pre-Wash & Soak' par set kiya aur start ka button daba diya.

*ghararar...*

machine ne paani kheenchana shuroo kiya. jhaag banane laga. us chaadar par jama wo sara pap, wo sara veerya aur stri-ras ab us Surf ke paani mein ghulakar hamesha ke liye mitane laga tha.

Kaavya ne balcony ki jaleedar khidaki se baahar dekha.

poorab ki disha mein ab narangi aur sunahari kiranen phootane lagi thin. shahar jag raha tha.

Kaavya ne ek lambi, gehri saans li.

wo seedhe common bathroom mein gayi. usne geyser ON kiya aur khaulate hue garm paani ke neeche khadi ho gayi. usne sabun se apni gardan, apne seene, apni jaanghon ke un dadhi wale nishanon ko ragad-ragad kar dhoya. usne apne balon ko dhoya, unako tauliye se sukhaya, aur phir ek kade, sanjeeda joode mein bandh liya.

usne apne us aasamani silk ke camisole ko chhupa diya, aur almari se nikalakar ek behad sada, dheela-dhala aur poori tarah band gale ka **halke badami rang ka cotton ka salwar-suit** pahan liya. usne apne dupatte ko donon kandhon aur seene par is tarah saleeke se lapeta ki uski gardan ka ek katara bhi dikhaee n de.

ghadi mein **06:45 AM** baj rahe the.

Kaavya ne kitchen mein kadam rakha.

usne gas jalaee. peetal ki saucepan mein doodh, paani, kuti hui adrak aur ilaaychi dalakar chai chadha di. usne counter par aata nikala aur subah ke naashte ki taiyari mein lag gayi.

uska chehra ab bilkul shant, bhawaheen aur sapat tha, ek aadarsh, susheel aur nishthawan bharateey kulawadhoo ka chehra, jisaki pawitrata par koi ungli Nahi utha sakata tha.

peechhe... master bedroom mein Rajesh ab bhi apni usi sharab ki khumaari mein pada tha, jisaki aankh theek paune aath baje khulane wali thi. wo jagega, sir pakadega, aur kitchen mein aakar isi Kaavya ko chai banate hue dekhega...

aur Kaavya ke munh se wo adhoora sach sunega: *‘kamre ka AC garm hawa phenk raha tha Rajesh... isliye main raat ko Anu ke kamre mein jakar soee thi!’*

Tauji ke bistar ka dag mit chuka tha. Anu ka kamra uski gawahi ban chuka tha.

bas ek hi cheez rah gayi thi...

wo chhah bhaari, veerya se sane tissue, jo Tauji ke kamre ke steel dustbin mein akhbaar ke neeche dabe pade the, aur jinaka kal banakar Rajesh kuchh hi palon mein us kamre ki taraf badhane wala tha!

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