Adultery SAMREEN: Shikast-e-Zanjeer-e-Muflisi

[Herotic]

EPISODE 25

Maine abhi apne andar uthte hue us dard, us zillat aur us bepanah azaab ke samandar ko sameta hi tha ki Vivaan ke wajood se ek aisi achanak bijli si koodi. Uske chehre ke wo siah aur beparwah taassur ek lamhe mein badal gaye. Uski aakhein, jo pehle se hi surkh thi, unme ek aisi qatilana aur shaitan numa chamak uth khadi hui, maano wo is waqt duniya ki har nafrat aur gusse ko mujh par utaar dena chahta ho. 

Bina ek pal soche, bina kisi rehem ke usne apna majboot aur maansal haath aage badhaya. Aur agle hi lamhe uske sakht, patthar jaise ungliyon ne aage badhakar seedha mera nazuk gala apni giraft mein le liya.
 
Mera gala uske un majboot hathon ke beech achanak kas gaya. Uski ungliyan mere saanson ke raste par ek aisi aahani deewar ban kar khadi ho gayin, ki meri ek hi saas seene ke andar hi ghut kar reh gayi. Mera wajood, jo pehle se hi kaanp raha tha, us achanak aur bedard hamle se hawa mein jaise jhool gaya.
 
Uski giraft itni sakht thi, itni bereham thi ki meri gardan ki nashein khinch gayin. Mera gala andar se dabne laga, aur mujhe laga ki bas... ab yehi aakhri lamha hai. Mera dam ukhadne laga. Aankhon ke aage andhera sa chhaane laga, aur zameen mere pairon ke niche se khisakne lagi.
 
Lekin us maut ke qareeb wale aalam mein bhi, meri aankhein khuli ki khuli reh gayin. Maine apne kaanpte, bejaan se haath uthakar foran Vivaan ke us majboot aur garm haath ki kalaai ko pakad liya. Main uske un baazuon ko hatane ki nakam koshish karne lagi, lekin uske aahani hathon ke samne meri taaqat ek tinke ke barabar bhi nahi thi.
 
Main saans lene ke liye tadap rahi thi, aur meri un nam, phati hui aankhon mein aasuon ka sailaab umad pada tha. Main apni unhi aansuon se bhari hui aankhon ko upar karke, ektak seedha Vivaan ki un surkh, pathar bani aankhon mein dekh rahi thi. Meri wo nazrein ek aakhri, bebas fariyad thi, ek aisi ummeed jo us zaalim ke dil mein thodi si bhi shafqat jagane ki koshish kar rahi thi.
 
Dekh rahe ho na tum? Main mar rahi hoon... tum meri jaan nikaal rhe ho, Vivaan! meri wo be-zubaan cheekh uski aankhon se keh rahi thi. Lekin us zaalim ke chehre par... reham ka ek qatra tak nahi tha.
 
Wo apna sara gussa, sara zehar, aur is khooni raat ka pura qahar seedha mere gale par nikaal raha tha. Uski saansein tez thi, uska seena upar-neeche ho raha tha, aur uska wo gathila haath aur zyada kasne laga. Haye ***! Us waqt uska wo gussa itna bhayanak lag raha tha maano wo mujhe zinda zameen mein gaad dena chahta ho. Wo apne andar ke saare azaab, saari nafrat aur us khooni raat ke trauma ka badla mere is naazuk wajood se le raha tha.
 
Mera dum ghut raha tha. Hoth khule hue the, aur zuban se ek be-aawaz siski nikalne ki koshish kar rahi thi. Wahan dhabe ki us peeli roshni mein, andhere aur sookhte hue khoon ke beech, ek aurat ki zindagi us aahani giraft ke beech sisak rahi thi, aur samne khada wo mard apni hi nafrat ki aag mein jal raha tha. Main bas apni saanson ki aakhri dor ko pakde hue, uski unhi siah aankhon mein dekhti chali gayi, jab tak ki mera wajood us giraft ke aage poori tarah bebas nahi ho gaya.
 
Tabhi, mere gale par kasne wali wo aahani giraft, jo kuchh lamhe pehle meri aakhri saas bhi chheen lene par tuli hui thi, wahan fiza mein ek ajeeb sa thumraav aa gaya.
 
Meri aankhon se behte hue wo garm aansoo, tap-tap kar ke seedha Vivaan ke usi majboot aur maansal haath par gir rahe the jo mere gale ko jakde hue the. Un aansuon ki nami ne shayad uske patthar bane wajood mein kahin koi halki si darar daal di ho. Main apni unhi phati hui, nam aankhon se, bina apni nazrein hataye, bas ektak uski siah aur surkh aankhon mein dekh rahi thi. Aur mere unhi kaanpte hothon se, badi mushkil se ek be-jaan fariyad nikal saki.
 
"Vivaan... please..." Wo ek chota sa lafz tha, ek aisi ghabrayi hui iltija thi jo us zaalim ki giraft ko chunauti dene ke bajaye uske aage ghutne tek chuki thi. Aur jaise hi wo aawaz uske kaano mein padi, pata nahi achanak use kya hua. Uska wo hath, jo mere gale par kisi pighle hue lohe ki zanjeer ki tarah kasa hua tha, ek hi jhatke mein dheela pad gaya. Jaise kisi ne uski poori taaqat ek hi lamhe mein khench li ho, usne apna haath foran mere gale se hata liya aur pichhe ki taraf do kadam ladkhada kar hat gaya.
 
Mera gala jo saanson ke liye taras raha tha, achanak khula toh ek tezi se hawa mere andar utri. Main wahi khadi ho gayi, apne dono haathon se apna gala sahlate hue, tez-tez haafne lagi. Mera seena buri tarah upar-neech ho raha tha, aur pairon ke niche zameen abhi bhi dol rahi thi.
 
Lekin jab maine samne dekha, toh mera dil ek pal ke liye aur bhi zyada ghabra gaya. Vivaan ki halat achanak badal chuki thi. Wo jo abhi tak ek patthar ki tarah sakht aur be-reham khada tha, ab wo buri tarah haaf raha tha. Uske maathe aur gardan par paseene ki moti-moti boondein chamakne lagi thin. Uski saansein itni tez aur choti ho chukin thin maano usne khud koi lamba daud ka safar tay kiya ho, ya uske andar koi ajeeb sa panic attack uth pada ho. Uski wo surkh aankhon mein ab gusse ki jagah ek ajeeb sa khalipan, thakaan aur ghabrahat tair rahi thi.
 
Use aisi haalat mein, itna behal aur toota hua dekh kar, achanak mera ji ghabrane laga. Mera dil andar se ek ajeeb si bechaini aur dard se bhar gaya. Yeh zaalim ladka, jisne abhi-abhi mujhe itni gandi gaali di thi, jisne meri izzat ko taar-taar kiya tha, aur jo mere gale ko ghot kar mujhe maut ke kareeb le gaya tha, ek aisa shakhs jo sach mein meri zara bhi izzat nahi karta tha, jo mujhe ek pal mein beizzat kar ke rula sakta tha.
 
Lekin uske bawajood... use is tarah paseene mein dooba hua, achanak se tuta hua aur be-jaan halat mein dekh kar, mere andar ki aurat ka wo kamzor dil pighalne laga. Mera darr dheere-dheere ek ajeeb si fikar aur bechaini mein badalne laga. Haaye *** ise kya ho gaya hai? Yeh is tarah kyun kaanp raha hai? Ab main kya karun?
 
Main khud apne gale par haath rakhe, haafte hue bas use dekhe ja rahi thi. Mera wajood abhi bhi darr se tharr-tharr kaanp raha tha, lekin uske sath hi ek ajeeb si khichav thi, ki main is zaalim ladke ko is halat mein akele kaise chhod dun. Wahan dhabe ki us andheri aur khooni fiza mein, hum dono ek dusre ke saamne khade the, jahan nafrat aur darr ki us deewar ke beech ek ajeeb aur khaufnaak sannata saans le raha tha.
 
Fiza mein tairta hua wo khauf, jo abhi tak hamare beech ek zeharile saaye ki tarah qaayam tha, achanak ek ajeeb aur dard-naak kashmakash mein badal chuka tha. Vivaan ki wo haalat, wo toot-fhoot, wo maathe par chalakte paseene ki boondein, aur uska be-hisaab haafna, mere andar ke saare darr aur gusse ko ek pal mein mita chuka tha. Uski wo bebasi mujhse dekhi nahi ja rahi thi.
 
Bina ek lamha zaya kiye, main aage badhi. Maine apne dono kaampte hue hathon se uske mazboot kandhe ko mazbooti se pakda aur ek halka sa jhatka dete hue uske chehre ko apni taraf kiya. "Vi… vivaan... tumhe kya ho raha hai? Dekho meri taraf! Kya ho gaya hai tumhe?" Maine fikar aur ghabrahat se bhari aawaz mein puchha, aur uske thande pad rahe gaalon ko apne kaampte hue hathon se thapthapaya.
 
Lekin jaise hi meri nazrein uske chehre par padin, aur maine uski aankhon mein dekha... mera kaleja ek dam se dhak se reh gaya. Mera poora wajood sateh par sunn pad gaya. Wahi kathor, zaalim aur patthar dil ladka, jiske andar nafrat aur gusse ke alawa kuchh nahi dikhta, abhi uski unhi surkh aankhon se aansuon ka ek sailab beh raha tha. Be-aawaz, chupchap aansoo uske gaalon par phisal rahe the. Uski wo rooh ko cheer dene wali siski, jo wo apne andar hi andar ghont raha tha, mere seene ko cheer gayi. Sach me mera kalega fatne laga vivaan ko rota dekh kar. Bhale hi is shaitaan ne aaj mere saath kitna kuchh kiya… par fir bhi ek lagao sa mehsoos hone laga mujhe is zaalim se.
 
Ek aisi aag mere andar lagi ki mera dil mom ki tarah pighal gaya. Wo ladka, jisne mujhe abhi-abhi zaleel kiya tha, jisne mere gale ko kas kar mujhe maut ke kareeb pahuncha diya tha, use is halat mein, be-sahara aur andar se toota hue dekh kar mera gussa kahan gayab ho gaya, mujhe khud pata nahi chala.
 
Main foran palati. Dhabe ke us chhote se counter par wo boodha dhaba-wala darr ke maare ek kone mein simat kar baitha tha. Maine apni poori taaqat se, ek cheekh-numa aawaz mein use pukaara "Are suniye babaji! Jaldi se paani lekar aaiye na… zara jaldi kijiye!"
 
Darr ke maare wo boodha foran lapka aur ek glass paani ek chhote se jug se bhar kar le aaya. Main foran uske paas gayi, glass chhin liya aur bhagti hui wapas Vivaan ke paas aayi jo abhi bhi wahi ladkhadata hua khada tha. "Lo vivaan... paani piyo... kuchh nhi hua sab theek hai…" maine glass uske honton ke kareeb kiya.
 
Lekin Vivaan ne apni zidd aur purani fitrat nahi chhodi. Usne apna sar jhatak diya aur aisi halat mein bhi apne nakhre dikhate hue pichhe hatne laga, maano use kisi ki fikar ya sahare ki koi zaroorat na ho. Usne aawaz mein thodi si akad lane ki koshish karte hue kaha, "Dimaag kharab mat karo mera... mujhe nahi peena... hatao ise."
 
Mera gussa, jo fikar ke niche daba tha, achanak ek baar fir ubla. Lekin is baar wo gussa nafrat ka nahi, balki ek haqdaar fikar aur daant ka tha. Maine apni aawaz ko sakht kiya, apni bhawein sikaudi, aur ek zordar daant lagate hue us par chilla padi.
 
"Chup ekdm… bilkul chup! Ekdum nakhre baazi band karo apni! Drama laga rakkha hai is ladke ne… Ankhon mein aansoo bharke marne ki halat bana rakhi hai aur yahan nakhre dikha rahe ho? Chupchap aankh band karke paani piyo, warna sach keh rahi hoon, is baar mera haath chhut jayega! Chupchap muh kholo apna!"
 
Meri us sakht, daant se bhari hui aawaz aur meri ankhon mein jhalakti fikar ka asar hua. Vivaan ne pehli baar ek aise bacche ki tarah meri taraf dekha jo apni zidd haar chuka ho. Usne koi lafz nahi bola, bas apni nam aankhon se meri taraf dekha, aur aahista se apne honthon ko khol diya.
 
Maine apne kaampte hathon se wo glass uske honthon se lagaya, aur usne ek hi saans mein saara paani pee liya. Paani peete hi uska gala khula, usne ek lambi saans li, aur apna ek haath apne maathe par rakh liya. Main wahi khadi rahi, glass ko wahi pakde hue, aur apne hi andar uth rahe us ajeeb tufaan ko mehsus karne lagi, jahan nafrat ki zameen par fikar aur dard ka ek naya aur ghor andhera phool khil raha tha.
 
Paani ka wo glass peene ke baad Vivaan ke chehre par jo ek murjhai hui si bejaan halat thi, wo dheere-dheere kam hone lagi thi. Uski saansein jo kuchh lamhe pehle ek toofan ki tarah chal rahi thin, ab aahista-aahista apni aam raftaar par laut rahi thin. Uski aankhon mein jo be-hisaab aansoo aur darr ka samandar umad raha tha, wo bhi ab thoda thamne laga tha.
 
Use is tarah thoda normal aur sambhalte hue dekh kar, meri jaan mein jaan aayi. Aisa laga maano mere seene par se koi bhaari patthar hata liya gaya ho. Wahi khada wo boodha dhaba-wala darr aur sahme hue andaz mein hum dono ko dekh raha tha. Maine bina ek pal gawaye, glass uski taraf badhaya aur kaha, "Yeh lijiye apna glass." Wo boodha foran kaanpte hue haathon se glass pakad kar wapas apne counter ki taraf bhaag gaya.
 
Ab wahi sunsaan rasta aur raat ka sannaata bacha tha. Main foran aage badhi. Maine apne dono haathon se Vivaan ki baazu ko pakda, use sahara diya, aur us andhere mein chalate hue wapas usi car ke paas le aayi jisse wo thodi der pehle aaya tha. Maine driver side ka darwaja khola aur use bade pyaar aur aahista se pakad kar driver seat par baitha diya.
 
Wo chupchap, bina kisi zidd ke, ek thake hue musafir ki tarah seat par dhas sa gaya. Uski aankhein abhi bhi gaadi ke dashboard par tiki thin. Main foran ghum kar aayi, co-driver wali front seat ka darwaja khola, aur uske bilkul bagal mein aakar baith gayi.
 
Gaadi ke andar baithte hi Vivaan ne bina kuchh soche, apni kaanpte hue ungliyon se ignition key ko ghumaya aur engine start karne ki koshish ki. Uska ek haath abhi bhi steering par thar-thara raha tha, aur wo bina apni halat ki parwah kiye gaadi ko aage badhane ki firaaq mein tha. Lekin jaise hi usne gear par haath rakha, maine foran jhatke se apna haath badhaya aur uske us kaanpte hue haath ko apne haathon mein kas kar pakad liya.
 
Mera dil ek baar phir tezi se dharak utha, aur is baar gusse ke sath-sath usme ek bepanah fikar aur haq-daari shamil thi. Maine apni aankhon mein gussa aur bhawein sikaudte hue us par ek aur zordar daant laga di.
 
"Dimag kharab ho gaya hai kya tumhara? Halat dekhi hai apni? Aise kaanpte hue haathon aur toote hue jism ke sath drive karne chale ho! Kahi raste mein gaadi kheenchi aur seedha kisi ped ya khadhe mein ghusa di, toh kya hoga? Bilkul band karo ye nautanki aur seedhe baitho chupchap!" Meri wo sakht, fikar se bhari hui daant us khamosh car ke cabin mein goonj uthi.
 
Vivaan ne apna sar dheere se upar uthaya aur ektak meri aankhon mein dekha. Uski un surkh aur thaki hui aankhon mein ab gusse ka namo-nishan nahi tha, balki ek ajeeb sa ajeeb-o-gareeb khali-pan aur herani thi, maano use samajh hi na aa raha ho ki ek aurat, jise usne paanch minute pehle gale se ghont kar maarne ki koshish ki thi, jise itni gandi gaali di thi, wahi aurat ab uski is tarah jaan ki fikar kyun kar rahi hai.
 
Main khud hairan thi apne is rawaiye par. Pata nahi kyun... mujhe iski fikar hone lagi thi. Zindagi mein pehli baar, ek aise zaalim aur pathar-dil insaan ke liye mere andar ek aisi bechaini jaag uthi thi jo kisi apnon ke liye hoti hai. Kisi gair *** ke mard ke liye, jisne mere saath itna galat kiya hai, main khud se hairaan thi. Haalanki main ye achhi tarah janti thi ki yeh ladka na meri izzat karta hai, na hi iske dil mein mere liye koi achhi jagah hai. Lekin iske bawajood, us waqt uski maut ya uski kharab halat ka khayal mere pure wajood ko kaanpne par majboor kar raha tha.
 
Maine uska haath abhi bhi apne haathon mein jakda hua tha. Uski ungliyan thandi pad rahi thin. Maine apni aawaz ko thoda naram karte hue, lekin hukumat wale andaz mein kaha, "Tum apni jagah se hiloge bhi nahi vivaan… Chabi mujhe do... ya phir chupchap yahi baitho, wo sab hospital pahuch bhi gye honge… please tum shaant raho bas!"
 
Wo bas chupchap baitha raha, kuchh nahi bola, aur meri unhi ankhon mein dekhta raha, jahan gusse ke peechhe chhupi hui fikar saaf nazar aa rahi thi.
 
Aisehi kuchh der jo sannata hamare beech fikar aur ek anjaani si narm-dili ki dor se bandha tha, wo achanak ek baar fir toofani hawaon ki zad mein aa gaya. Vivaan, jo abhi tak ek thake hue aur toote hue mard ki tarah chupchap baitha tha, uske chehre ke taassur ek second mein badal gaye. Uske andar dabi hui aag, jo dard aur aansuon ke parde ke peechhe chhupi thi, achanak ek bhayankar jhaad ki tarah ubhar aayi. Uski saansein fir se tez ho gayin, aur usne apne jabde ko is qadar kas liya ki uske gaalon ki nasein khinch gayin.
 
Wo achanak aage ki taraf jhuka, aur uske honthon se behuda, gandagi aur nafrat se bhari aawaz nikalne lagi. "Jisne bhi... jisne bhi yeh sab karwaya hai na, kasam se kehta hoon, uski ma chod dunga!" Vivaan gusse se dahada, aur gaadi ke dashboard par apna mukka de mara. "Madarchod... saale kutton ne mujhe jaan se badh ke maanne wale mere chacha ko maar diya!... Ek-ek ko dhoond kar zameen mein gaadunga behnchod!"
 
Uski wo gaaliyan, wo chillaahat aur wo aag itni achanak thi ki mera seene ka dhak-dhak karta dil ek baar fir darr se kaanp utha. Main toh abhi tak uski fikar aur dard ke asar se bahar bhi nahi aai thi, aur yahan wo ek nayi qayamat ka elaan kar raha tha.
 
Lekin uske gusse ka rukh achanak badal gaya. Usne apni un surkh, gusse se bhari hui aankhon ko meri taraf ghumaaya. Uski nazron mein ab fikar ka namo-nishan nahi tha, balki ek aisi aag thi jo mujhe zinda jala dena chahti thi. Usne apni ungli utha kar seedha meri aankhon ke samne kar di, aur aisi ghinoni aur zaleel baatein shuru kar din jinhone meri rooh ko andar se noch kar rakh diya.
 
"Aur in sab ki jad tu hai madharchod!" Vivaan chillaaya, aur uski aawaz mein ek zehrila tanz tha. "Yeh sab teri hi wajah se hua hai, haramzaadi! Tu... tu aur teri manhoosiyat!" Mera wajood sunn pad gaya. "Main?" mere honthon se bas itna hi nikal saka. "Haan, tu behn ki lodi!" wo aur zyada qareeb aate hue dahada. "Subah jab tu mere ghar mein aayi, tabhi se bad-shaguni shuru ho gayi thi. Aur abhi... abhi din dhalte hi tune kya kiya? Tune wahi ghar pe Pappu chacha ko sare aam sabke saamne thappad mara tha na? Tune unko zaleel kiya tha, unki mardangi aur unke character par haath dala tha!"
 
Uski har ek baat ek teekhe khanjar ki tarah mere seene mein utar rahi thi. Main bas uski aankhon me apne faili hui nam aankhon se dekh rhi thi. Main kaanpte hothon se bas itna hi keh saki, "Vivaan... maine bas wo kiya jo kisi bhi aurat ko...", "Bakk mat!" usne meri baat beech mein hi kaat di, aur aisi gandi aur kaali zabaan ka istemal kiya jise sun kar ek aurat ka sar sharm se zameen mein gaad jaye.
 
Wo mujhe ek ke baad ek aisi gaaliyan bakne laga jo kisi besharam se besharam mard ke munh se bhi shobha na dein. Usne mujhe kaali zabaan wali, bad-nasib aur bad-chalan aurat kehna shuru kar diya. "Tu ek aisi ghatiya aurat hai Samreen, jiske pair jahan padte hain wahan laashein bichh jaati hain!" Vivaan ki zabaan zehar ugal rahi thi. "Ek number ki bad-chalan aurat hai tu! Tere andar zara bhi sharm-o-haya nahi hai… Aur sirf itna hi nahi... tu toh ek dayan hai, dayan!"
 
Wo lafz gaadi ke us chote se cabin mein kisi zehrile dhuen ki tarah fail gaye. Mera dam ghutne laga. Main wahi co-driver seat par ekdm sunn hokar baithi rahi. Mere kaanpe hue hoth khule ke khule reh gaye, aur aankhon se ansoo ek baar fir sailab ki tarah behte hue mere gaalon ko bhigone lage.
 
Yeh wahi ladka tha jiske saath maine na jaane kitna bada gunaah kiya tha, apne shauhar ke alawa ye pehla aisa mard tha jiske saath maine jismani rishte bana liye the, wo bhi gair *** ke hone ke bawajood, aur abhi jiske aansoo dekh kar mera dil pighal gaya tha, aur ab wahi ladka mujhe is duniya ki sabse gandi, sabse zaleel aur giri hui aurat saabit karne par tula hua tha. Usne mujhe maut ke us manzar ki saari zimmedari mere sar par daal di, jaise us goli ka chalna, us khoon ka behna sab meri hi kisi manhoosiyat ka nishaan ho.
 
Mera dil andar se cheekh utha, Kya sach mein main itni buri hoon? Kya mera hona hi ek gunaah hai? Haaye *** kya ye main jahannum me aa chuki hun? kya mere gunaahon ki saza mujhe milne lagi hai? Main apna chehra apne dono hathon se chhupa kar, fati hui aawaz mein wahin sisak-sisak kar rone lagi. Aur Vivaan abhi bhi gaadi ke steering par haath maarte hue gusse mein badbad raha tha, uske lafzon ki aag mere wajood ki raakh uda rahi thi.

To Be Continued...