Adultery Maryada Ki Dararein: Jab Pati Ne Hi Rachi Apni Sanskari Biwi Ki Sej

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Chapter 17: Madira aur Saazish

Tablet par un kahaniyon ko padhne ke baad Kavya ke andar ek ajeeb si bechaini ghar kar gayi thi.

Shuruaat mein to vah keval wahi articles padhti thi jo maine uske tablet par pop up ke zariye bheje the, lekin ab baat usse kahin aage nikal chuki thi. Boutique se lautne ke baad, ghar ki saaf safai bas upar upar se nipatkar, vah seedhe apne Android tablet mein munh gada leti thi. Uski bhookh itni badh gayi thi ki vah internet par khud aisi websites aur forums khojne lagi thi jahan sasur aur bahu ke beech ke varjit khinchav aur anubhavon par khulkar charcha hoti thi.

Usne mahilaon ke ek gupt online forum ki sadasysta bhi le li thi. Us forum mein keval chuninda mahilaon ko hi entry milti thi. Kavya wahan doosri aurton ki gupt daastanein padhti ki kaise patiyon ki beemari ya kamzori ke baad unke sasuron ne unki pyaas bujhai aur unhe bhari poori aurat banaya.

Kavya in baaton mein itni khone lagi thi ki ek din mere office se lautne ka waqt ho gaya aur use hosh hi nahi raha. Pakde jaane ke dar se usne apne phone mein ek secret alarm set kar liya tha. Mere ghar pahunchne se theek das minute pehle alarm bajta, Kavya turant saare tabs band karti, browsing history delete karti aur bilkul sanskari, seedhi saadi biwi bankar sofe par baith jaati.

Main apne laptop par uske tablet ke proxy logs dekhta to meri chhaati garv aur hawas se phool jaati. Lekin main yeh bhi jaanta tha ki sirf kahaniyan padhne aur haqeeqat mein zameen aasmaan ka farq hota hai. Tauji aur Kavya ke beech khinchav to tha, lekin maryaada ki deewar itni mazboot thi ki dono mein se koi bhi pehla kadam uthane ki himmat nahi kar pa raha tha.

Mujhe is aag mein thoda aur ghee daalna tha. Aur vah mauka bahut jald aa gaya.

Nauvin manzil par hamare flat 903 mein waise to din bhar ek ajeeb sa shaant sannata pasra rehta tha. Hamari beti Anu ka bada high fi college shehar ke purane raees ilaake mein uske nana nani ke bangle ke bilkul paas tha, jabki hamari is high rise society se kaafi door padta tha. Aane jaane ki sahooliyat ki wajah se Anu college ke dinon mein zyadatar apne nana nani ke ghar hi rehti thi aur sirf weekends ya aise khaas maukon par hi hamare paas aati thi.

Ghar mein subah subah naashta ya tiffin banane ki koi maaraamaari nahi rehti thi Kavya apne boutique ke kaam mein der raat tak thaki rehti thi, isliye jab bhi ghar mein naashta nahi banta, main IT park wali apni office canteen mein kha leta tha aur Kavya apne boutique ke paas kisi cafe mein. Dopahar ko kaamwaali bai aakar sirf Tauji ke liye khaana aur chai bana deti thi, kyunki din bhar ghar mein akele vahi rehte the.

Lekin us hafte hamare ghar mein ek khaas paarvariya mauka tha Tauji ke gaon se hamare paas aaye chhe mahine poore hue the aur unka janmdin bhi tha. Weekend hone ki wajah se Anu bhi ghar aayi hui thi. Maine office se jaldi chhutti le li aur shehar ki sabse mehngi whisky ki ek bottle khareed kar ghar pahuncha. Kavya ne poore mann se Tauji ki pasand ka khaas dehaati, masaledaar khaana taiyaar kiya tha dheemi aanch par paki desi mutton curry, khasta rotiyan, jeera rice aur kesariya kheer.

Raat ko hamari beti Anu khaana khaakar apne kamre mein gehri neend mein so gayi.

Dining table par maine Tauji ke saamne glass rakh diya. Shuruaat mein Tauji ne halki jhijhak dikhai, "Are Rajesh, itni raat ko ye sab... bahurani saamne hai, achha nahi lagta beta."

"Are Tauji, aaj aapka khaas din hai," Kavya ne khud aage badhkar shaalinta muskaan ke saath kaha, "Aap sankoch mat kijiye. Rajesh poore hafte mehnat karte hain, aaj aap dono khushi khushi baithiye. Main aap logon ke liye garam garam mutton shami kebab sek kar laati hoon."

Kavya ne bhi apne liye ek ghoont halki red wine ka glass thaam liya, taaki hamara saath de sake.

Table par mahaul behad rangeen aur bhaavuk hota chala gaya. Whisky ke ghoonton ke saath Tauji ke dil ke purane taale khulne lage. Maine jaanbujhkar gaon ke purane dinon ki baat chhed di kaise mere maata pita ke guzar jaane ke baad khaandaan ke matlabi rishtedaaron ne mujhe besahaara chhod diya tha, aur kaise Tauji ne jawani mein shaadi tak nahi ki, pahalwani ka akhada chhodkar din raat paseena bahaya taaki ve mujhe padha likhakar ek bada afsar bana saken.

Yeh sab batate hue Tauji ki bhaari awaaz bharrа gayi. Unki badi, kathor aankhon se aansu chhalak pade, "Rajesh beta... bhagwan ne mujhe aulad nahi di, par tujhe paalkar mujhe laga ki meri zindagi safal ho gayi. Tu khush hai, bahu khush hai, bas mujhe aur kuch nahi chahiye."

Maine bhaavuk hokar Tauji ke paanv chhoo liye aur unke gale lag gaya.

Saamne baithi Kavya ki aankhon se bhi aansu behne lage. Usne Tauji ke is tyaag ke baare mein suna to tha, lekin aaj jab usne apne sasur ke munh se yeh dard bhari daastan suni, to uska dil shraddha aur moh se bhar gaya. Uski nazar mein Tauji sirf ek bujurg nahi, balki ek saakshaat devta ban chuke the.

Raat ke baarah bajte bajte sharaab ka asar bahut gehra ho gaya. Mujhe to corporate parties mein peene ki aadat thi, isliye mera dimaag ekdum sachet tha, lekin Tauji gaon ki saadi zindagi ke aadi the. Mehngi whisky ke chaar bade peg andar jaate hi ve poori tarah sudh budh kho baithe. Unka vishaal, bhaari shareer kursi par hi jhoolne laga.

"Kavya, Tauji ko bahut zyada chadh gayi hai... chalo, inhe kamre mein lita dete hain," maine sahaara dete hue kaha.

Kavya ne fauran aage badhkar Tauji ka doosra kandha thaama. Tauji ka bhaari, kasrati jism Kavya ke naazuk badan se sat gaya. Nashe ki jhonk mein Tauji ka bhaari haath anjaane mein Kavya ki nangi kamar par ja tika. Kavya ke badan mein ek halki si sihran daudi, lekin is waqt vah sirf unki seva mein lagi thi.

Humne kisi tarah Tauji ko unke guest room ke lakdi ke palang par le jaakar lita diya. Tauji bistar par girte hi gehri, kharraaton bhari neend mein chale gaye.

"Rajesh, aap yahin rukiye, main dining table samet kar joothe bartan sink mein rakh deti hoon," Kavya ne haanpte hue kaha aur pallu sambhaalti hui kitchen ki taraf badh gayi.

Kamre mein ab sirf main aur besudh pade Tauji the.

Tauji chitt lete hue the. Sharaab ki garmi se unka chehra tamtamaya hua tha. Achanak mere khurafaati dimaag mein ek khaufnaak aur zabardast khayal kaundha.

Pichhli baar jab Kavya nashe mein thi, to Tauji ne uska khula jism dekha tha aur unki soi hui hawas jaag uthi thi. To phir is baar paasa kyun na palat diya jaye? Agar Kavya Tauji ki is mardaani taakat ko apni aankhon se dekh le, to uske mann ki bachi khuchi hichak bhi hamesha ke liye raakh ho jayegi!

Maine kamre ka darwaza dheere se sataya. Phir Tauji ke paas gaya. Tauji ka kurta paseene se bheega tha. Maine unke kurte ke saare button khol diye. Unki chaudhi, baalon se bhari bhaari pahalwan jaisi chhaati bahar nikal aayi.

Phir maine unki sooti dhoti ki gaath ko dheela kiya. Tauji gaon ke seedhe saade insaan the, ve shehron ki tarah chust underwear nahi pehante the. Dhoti dheeli hote hi, sharaab ke nashe aur garmi ki wajah se unka vishaal, pachpan saal purana poori tarah be parda ho gaya. Chaandni ki halki roshni mein Tauji ki vah mardaana lambai kisi khoonkhaar lohe ki rod jaisi lag rahi thi saadhe aath inch se bhi zyada lamba, gehra saanwla aur kadak.

Maine Tauji ke upar koi chaadar nahi daali. Unhe usi tarah nanga aur be parda chhodkar, maine apni jeb se apna corporate smartphone nikala. Aur us chaalu phone ko Tauji ke theek bistar par, unki jaangh ke bilkul paas gadde par rakh diya.

Jaal poori tarah bichh chuka tha.

Main ladkhadaate kadmon se bahar nikla aur master bedroom mein jaakar apne bistar par aundhe munh gir pada. Maine aankhen band kar lin aur nashe mein dhut hone ka naatak karne laga.

Do minute baad Kavya apne haath ponchhti hui bedroom mein aayi. Usne mujhe bistar par is tarah gira dekha to ghabrakar mere paas aayi, "Are Rajesh... aap bhi bahut zyada pi gaye hain. Uthiye, theek se soiye."

Maine aankhen aadhi kholkar, ladkhadaati zubaan mein karaahate hue kaha, "Kavya... mera... mera phone kahan hai? Kal subah IT park ke director ki bahut zaroori call hai... mera phone nahi mil raha... please, zara dekh kar laao na..."

Kavya ne mere maathe par haath pherа, "Aap shaant rahiye, main dhoondhti hoon. Shaayad hall mein sofe par chhoot gaya hoga."

Kavya bahar nikli. Maine kamre ke halke andhere mein aankhen gada din aur kaan khade kar liye.

Hall mein kuch pal talaashi lene ke baad Kavya ko shaayad yaad aaya ki jab hum Tauji ko sambhaal rahe the, tab phone mere haath mein tha.

Uske nanhe kadmon ki chaap ab seedhe Tauji ke guest room ki taraf badh rahi thi.

Aur phir sannate mein ek halki si awaaz goonji charrr... Tauji ke kamre ka darwaza khula, aur Kavya andar daakhil ho gayi.

Master bedroom ke bistar par lete lete, mere haath paanv paseene se bheeg gaye aur dil ki dhadkan kisi paagal ghode ki tarah daudne lagi. Shikaar khud chalkar jaal mein daakhil ho chuka tha.

Chapter 18: Sannata aur Siskariyan

Kavya jaise hi Tauji ke kamre mein daakhil hui, master bedroom mein lete hue mere seene ki dhadkanen bekaabu ho gayin.

Maine kaan poori tarah khade kar rakhe the. Ghar mein sannata itna gehra tha ki bahar sadak se guzarne wali kisi gaadi ka horn bhi saaf sunai de raha tha.

Paanch minute beet gaye... saat minute beet gaye...

Ek chhota sa mobile phone dhoondhne mein bhala kitna waqt lagta hai? Agar vah sirf phone uthaane gayi hoti, to ab tak laut aayi hoti. Lekin das minute ho chuke the aur Tauji ke kamre se bahar aane ki koi aahat nahi thi.

Mere andar ka shaitaan aur mera bechain dil aapas mein takra rahe the. Kya Kavya ne Tauji ko us haalat mein dekh liya? Kya vah us saadhe aath inch ke kadak, saanwle pahaad ko dekhkar sann reh gayi hai?

Mujhse raha nahi gaya. Main dabe paanv bistar se utha aur apne bedroom ke darwaze ke paas jaakar khada ho gaya. Darwaze par lage halke paardarshi paledaar sheeshe ke paas maine apna kaan sata diya. Mera mann kar raha tha ki dabe paanv jaakar Tauji ke kamre mein jhaank loon, lekin agar maine aisa kiya aur Kavya ne mujhe dekh liya, to meri mahinon ki mehnat aur saara khel ek jhatke mein tabaah ho jaata.

Isliye main wahin khada raha, apni saanson ko thaame hue.

Pandrah minute... bees minute... pachees minute...

Itna lamba waqt ek nashe mein soye hue bujurg ke kamre mein ek jawaan bahu kya kar rahi hogi? Meri kalpanayen bekaabu hone lagi thin. Kya Kavya ne apne kapde utaar diye? Kya vah us madhosh pahalwan ke upar chadh gayi hai?

Aur tabhi, sannate ko cheerte hui ek behad dheemi, madhosh aur kaanpti hui awaaz mere kaanon se takrai

"Ufff... hmmmm..."

Meri reedh ki haddi mein barf ki ek thandi lakeer daud gayi! Yeh awaaz... yeh wahi dabi hui siskari thi jo Kavya keval tab nikaalti thi jab uska jism bepanaah garmi aur charam sukh ki aag mein jal raha hota tha. Shaadi ke itne saalon mein maine yeh awaaz bahut kam suni thi, aur aaj wahi awaaz mere pachaas saal ke Tauji ke kamre se aa rahi thi!

Mere pairon tale zameen khisakne lagi aur saath hi mere badan mein ek ajeeb si uttejna ka sailaab umad pada.

Kamre ke andar se Kavya ki saanson ki raftaar tez hone ki aawaazen aa rahi thin. Beech beech mein uski dabi hui karaahen aur payal ki halki si runjhun sunai de rahi thi. Vah poori tarah apni maryaada aur pyaas ki jung mein khud ko jhonk chuki thi.

Karib das minute tak yeh madhosh khel chalta raha. Aur phir, ek behad teekhi, lambi aur thartharaati hui siskari goonji "Aaahhh..."

Aur uske baad sab kuch shaant ho gaya. Bilkul khaamosh.

Main samajh gaya ki Kavya apne charam sukh ke shikhar ko chhoo chuki thi. Bina apni aankhon se dekhe bhi, sirf un aawaazon ko sunkar hi mera poora jism sunn pad chuka tha.

Kuch minaton ke baad, Tauji ke kamre ki kundi khulne ki halki si charmarahat hui.

Maine fauran sheeshe se bahar hall ki taraf nazrein gada din.

Tauji ke kamre se Kavya bahar nikli. Hall ki madhim night bulb ki roshni mein uska chehra kisi pake hue laal seb ki tarah damak raha tha. Uske baal bikhere hue the, maathe par paseene ki bareek boondein chamak rahi thin aur uski chhaati tezi se dhaunkni ki tarah upar neeche ho rahi thi. Usne Tauji ka darwaza dheere se band kiya, apni ast vyast kurti aur bra ko theek kiya, aur ladkhadaate kadmon se seedhe bathroom ki taraf badh gayi.

Thodi hi der mein bathroom se shower ke chalne aur paani girne ki awaaz aane lagi. Vah khud ko saaf kar rahi thi... shaayad us madhosh lamhe ke paseene aur daagon ko paani ki dhaar mein baha dena chahti thi.

Main turant ulthe paanv bhaaga aur apne bistar par jaakar let gaya. Maine karwat andar ki taraf le li aur aankhen aadhi moondkar sone ka dhong karne laga.

Karib pandrah minute baad bathroom ka darwaza khula. Kavya kamre mein daakhil hui. Usne apna purana night suit badal liya tha; ab vah halke gulabi rang ke saade sooti kurte aur pajame mein thi. Uske badan se saabun aur geele baalon ki bheeni bheeni khushbu aa rahi thi.

Kavya ne apni chappalein utarin aur dheere se bistar par mere paas aa gayi.

Vah mere karib jhuki. Uska kaanpta hua, naazuk haath mere gaal par aakar tika. Maine aadhi khuli palkon se dekha Kavya ki badi badi aankhon mein bepanaah pyaar, gehra apraadhbodh, dard aur pashchataap ki ek bhayanak aandhi chal rahi thi.

Aur phir, uski aankhon se tap tap karte hue garam aansu beh nikle.

Kavya ne jhukkar mere maathe ko chooma. Uske aansu ki do garam boondein seedhe mere gaal par tapak padin.

Vah bistar par mere peeche let gayi aur usne apni baanhein meri kamar mein daal din. Uska badan reh rehkar hichkiyon se kaanp raha tha. Vah apne us beemar, seedhe saade pati ke pyaar mein ro rahi thi, jiske bharose ko usne apni soi hui pyaas ke aage ek pal ke liye daanv par laga diya tha.

Mere gaal par uske aansu sookh rahe the, lekin maine unhe ponchhne ki himmat nahi ki. Mujhe samajh aa gaya tha ki Kavya ka jism bhale hi Tauji ke us mardaani roop ke aage fisal gaya ho, lekin uska dil aur uski aatma aaj bhi sirf aur sirf meri thi.

Us raat hamare kamre mein khaamoshi cheekh rahi thi, aur hum dono mein se kisi ki aankhon mein neend nahi thi.

Chapter 19: Pashchataap aur Parchhaain

Raat bhar ki bechaini aur jaagne ke baad, agli subah jab meri aankh khuli to ghadi mein sava chhe baj rahe the.

Aamtaur par hamare ghar mein subah ka yeh nazaara kabhi dekhne ko nahi milta tha. Kavya koi gharelu housewife nahi thi; vah shehar ke sabse sambhraant ilaake mein apna naami bridal boutique chalati thi. High profile ameer clients ke bridal lehngon ke trials, fittings aur kaarigaron ke kaam ki wajah se vah aksar raat ko nau das baje buri tarah thakkar ghar lautti thi. Doosri taraf, mujhe IT park ki bhaari traffic aur supply chain ki early morning calls ki wajah se subah saat baje hi ghar se nikalna padta tha, jabki hamari cook bai nau baje aati thi. Hamare beech yeh modern samajh thi ki main raaste ke cafe se hi coffee aur naashta le leta tha, taaki Kavya ki neend kharab na ho.

Lekin aaj jab main kamre se bahar nikla, to poora ghar mahak raha tha.

Kitchen se taaza kuti hui adrak aur ilaaychi wali kadak chai ki khushbu aa rahi thi, aur dining table par bhaap udaata hua poha, tale hue kaju aur garma garam upma saj chuka tha.

Kavya table par platein saja rahi thi. Uski aankhen halki laal thin aur palkon ke neeche raat bhar jaagne ki thakaan aur rone ke nishaan saaf dikh rahe the. Lekin jaise hi usne mujhe dekha, uske honthon par ek behad meethi, magar apraadhbodh se bhari muskaan tair gayi.

"Rajesh, aap uth gaye? Jaiye jaldi se fresh ho jaiye, maine bathroom mein geyser on kar diya hai. Phir garam garam naashta kijiye," Kavya ne behad dulaar se kaha.

Maine muskuraate hue use chheda, "Are meri jaan, aaj sooraj kis taraf se nikla hai? Itni subah subah uthkar mere liye itna lazeez naashta? Mujhe to apni aankhon par yakeen hi nahi ho raha!"

Kavya ke haath mein jo chammach thi, vah ek pal ke liye wahin tham gayi. Uska chehra halka sa feeka pada, phir usne apni teekhi naak sikoDte hue roothne ka naatak kiya, "Aap bhi na... hamesha mazaak udaate hain. Agar aisi baat hai to main kal se bilkul nahi banaungi."

"Are baba, mazaak kar raha tha," maine aage badhkar uska kandha thaam liya, "Thank you so much... itna pyaar dekhkar to mera dil bhar aaya."

Mere ye lafz sunte hi Kavya ki aankhon mein ek ajeeb sa dard bhar aaya. Usne bina kuch kahe apni dono baanhein mere gale mein daal din aur apna chehra mere seene mein chhipa liya. Uska badan halka sa kaanp raha tha.

"Rajesh... main aaj ke baad roz aapke liye subah naashta banaungi. Aap kabhi bahar ka khaana nahi khaayenge. Main... main aapse bahut pyaar karti hoon Rajesh, bahut zyada," usne rundhe hue gale se mere seene mein fusfusaya.

Maine uske reshami baalon par apni thudi tika di. Jab main office ke liye apni car ki taraf badha, to maine dekha ki Kavya nauvin manzil par hamare flat 903 ki balcony par khadi hokar, ekatak mujhe jaate hue dekh rahi thi tab tak, jab tak meri gaadi society ke mukhya gate se bahar nahi nikal gayi.

Gaadi chalate hue mere chehre par ek shaitaani muskaan khinch gayi. Kavya ka yeh badha hua pyaar, yeh subah ka naashta aur yeh samarpan... darasal us paap ke bojh ki bharpai thi jo kal raat usne Tauji ke kamre mein mehsoos kiya tha. Vah apne apraadhbodh ko mujh par pyaar barsaakar dhona chahti thi. Mujhe tasalli ho gayi ki Tauji ka jism bhale hi use khinch le, lekin uska dil hamesha mera hi rahega.

Shaam ko jab main IT park se lauta, to ghar ka mahaul bilkul shaant aur suljha hua tha.

Lekin dinner table par maine ek bahut bada badlaav mehsoos kiya. Kavya Tauji se pehle se kahin zyada baatein kar rahi thi. Vah baar baar Tauji ki thaali mein garma garam rotiyan aur daal paros rahi thi, "Tauji, thoda sa ghee aur lijiye na... gaon jaisa swaad to nahi hai, par sehat ke liye achha rahega."

Tauji bhi khush hokar apni bhaari awaaz mein baatein kar rahe the. Lekin meri nazrein Kavya par tiki thin. Jab Kavya table se khaali bartan utha rahi thi, to uski aankhen anjaane mein hi sahi, Tauji ke chaudhe seene aur unki dhoti ke ubhaar par ek second ke liye thahar jaati thin. Uski aankhon mein ek nayi, chori chhipe jhaankti hui pyaas thi.

Raat ke saadhe gyaarah baje, jab Anu, Kavya aur Tauji sab apne apne kamron mein gehri neend mein so gaye, tab main dabe paanv apne study room mein daakhil hua.

Mere haath paseene se bheege hue the. Maine apne laptop ki screen kholi aur hidden camera ki kal raat ki recording ka timer theek us waqt par set kar diya jab Kavya Tauji ke kamre mein gayi thi.

Video screen par play hone laga.

Tauji ke kamre mein ghup andhera tha. Kavya ne darwaza dheere se khola aur andar kadam rakha. Darwaze se aa rahi halki roshni mein usne pehle side table par mera phone dhoondha, lekin wahan kuch nahi tha.

Andhere mein kuch samajh na aane par, Kavya ka haath deewar par lage light ke switch ki taraf badha. Usne jaise hi switch dabaya kamre mein peeli, madhim roshni phail gayi.

Aur roshni phailte hi, Kavya ki nazar bistar par pade Tauji par gayi.

Agle hi pal, Kavya ke munh se ek dabi hui teekhi cheekh nikli "Ufff!"

Shaayad use dar tha ki kahin Tauji jaag na jaayen, isliye usne bijli ki phurti se apna gora, naazuk haath apne dono honthon par daba liya.

Bistar par pachaas saal ka vah gathila, bhaari pahalwan bina kisi chaadar ke besudh pada tha. Sharaab ke nashe mein Tauji ki dheeli sooti dhoti ek taraf khisak chuki thi, aur unki taangon ke beech unka saadhe aath inch ka vishaal, kadak aur kaala mardaani lauda poori akad ke saath hawa mein tana hua tha.

Video mein Kavya ka chehra dekhne layak tha. Uski aankhen phati ki phati reh gayin thin. Uska doosra haath, jo light ke switch par tha, ab deewar se tik gaya tha kyunki uske ghutne buri tarah kaanpne lage the. Agar usne deewar ka sahaara na liya hota, to vah shaayad wahin farsh par dher ho jaati.

Kavya ne munh par haath daba rakha tha aur uski chhaati tezi se dhadak rahi thi. Vah jis phone ko dhoondhne aayi thi, use vah poori tarah bhool chuki thi. Uski badi badi kajrari aankhen Tauji ke us be parda, vishaal laude par aise jam gayin thin jaise kisi billi ki nazar taazi machhli par jam jaati hai.

Aur phir, us hairat aur dar ke beech... Kavya ki aankhon mein ek bhayanak, bekaabu hawas ki aag sulagti hui saaf dikhne lagi.

Chapter 20: Bhadakti Pyaas aur Sangharsh

Study room mein baithkar main apne laptop ki screen par is tarah gada hua tha ki palak jhapkaana bhi bhool gaya tha.

Video mein Kavya karib paanch minute tak usi tarah deewar ke sahaare khadi rahi. Uske seene ka ubhaar tezi se dhadak raha tha aur uski aankhon mein chhai hawas ki dhundh itni gehri thi jaise vah kisi sammohan ke asar mein ho.

Phir, usne deewar se sahaara chhoda. Uske kaanpte hue kadam dheere dheere Tauji ke palang ki taraf badhne lage. Vah mushkil se do kadam ki doori thi, lekin un do kadmon ko tay karne mein Kavya ko poora ek minute lag gaya. Har kadam ke saath uski saanson ki awaaz tez ho rahi thi.

Palang ke paas pahunchkar Kavya neeche jhuki. Usne bistar par pade mere phone ko uthaya jis phone ko dhoondhne ka maine use bahaana diya tha. Lekin ab us phone ki koi keemat nahi thi. Kavya ne bina uski taraf dekhe, use beparwahi se side stool par rakh diya. Uski nazrein ek second ke liye bhi Tauji ke us saadhe aath inch ke vishaal, kadak lund se nahi hati thin.

Phone rakhne ke baad Kavya do minute tak bilkul but bankar khadi rahi.

Aur phir, uska kaanpta hua, mehndi se racha naazuk haath dheere dheere Tauji ke laude ki taraf badha.

Screen par yeh nazaara dekhkar meri saansen atak gayin. Main kursi par aage jhuk gaya. "Chhoo le Kavya... chhoo le use..." mere dil ke andar ka shaitaan paagalon ki tarah cheekh raha tha.

Jab Kavya ki ungliyan Tauji ke us tapte hue lund se bamushkil ek inch ki doori par thin, to uska haath achanak hawa mein hi thithak gaya.

Uske chehre par ek bhayanak androoni jung chhid gayi thi. Ek taraf uski saat pheron ki maryaada, sanskari khaandaan ki bahu hone ka daayitv aur mere prati uska pavitra samarpan tha aur doosri taraf uske saamne pada pachaas saal ke ek hatte katte pahalwan ka vah be parda, vikraal mardaani roop tha, jiski pyaas uske andar mahinon se sulag rahi thi.

Kavya ne ek pal ke liye apni nazrein neeche se hatakar Tauji ke chehre par daalin.

Tauji sharaab ke gehre nashe mein bekhabar so rahe the. Unke chehre par koi harkat nahi thi.

Aur bas, wahi ek lamha tha jab Kavya ke mann ki bachi khuchi maryaada ki deewar bharbharakar dhah gayi.

Kavya ne apni aankhen bheencheen aur uska haath aage badhkar seedhe Tauji ke us vishaal, garam lund par ja tika!

Jaise hi Kavya ki naazuk, makhmalI ungliyon ne Tauji ke us lohe jaise kade laude ko mutthi mein bheencha, Kavya ki gardan jhatke se peeche ki taraf jhuk gayi. Uske reshami baal uske kandhon par bikhar gaye aur uske laal, rasile honth madhoshi mein khul gaye.

Kavya ka poora gora badan sir se lekar pair tak tharthara utha. Tauji ke us laude ki tapish aur uski motai kisi jawaan ladke se kahin zyada khaufnaak aur zabardast thi. Neend mein hi sahi, Kavya ki chhuwan paate hi Tauji ka vah pachpan saal purana lund aur zyada akad gaya, uski nasen khinch gayin aur uska sira aur zyada tamtama gaya.

Kavya ne apni aankhen kholin. Uski aankhon mein ab koi dar nahi tha wahan sirf bepanaah hawas aur madhoshi tair rahi thi. Vah apni komal hatheli se Tauji ke us vishaal laude ko dheere dheere sehlane lagi.

Vah neeche jhuki. Uske laal honth Tauji ke us laude ke bilkul karib pahunch gaye. Vah madhosh hokar us mardaani jism ki teekhi, jungli gandh ko apni saanson mein kheench rahi thi. Uski chhaati dhaunkni ki tarah chal rahi thi.

Sehlaate sehlaate Kavya ki dono gori jaanghen aapas mein ragad khaane lagin. Uska jism garmi se tapne laga tha.

Achanak Kavya ne apna doosra haath neeche badhaya aur apne kurte ko upar kheench liya. Phir usne apni salwar ka naada dheela kiya aur apni sooti panty ko dheere dheere apni taangon se neeche sarka diya.

Meri aankhen phati ki phati reh gayin. Kavya ne apni panty ko poori tarah utaarkar farsh par phenk diya tha. Uska nichla gora, chikna badan poori tarah nanga ho chuka tha aur uski jaanghon ke beech ki jagah geeli hokar chamak rahi thi.

Kavya ne apne ghutne palang par tikaaye aur vah dheere dheere Tauji ke bhaari jism ke upar chadh gayi.

Vah Tauji ke theek upar baithi thi ek rani ki tarah, jisne apne shikaar par poori tarah kabza kar liya ho. Usne apni dono taangen Tauji ke dono taraf phaila lin aur apne badan ko dheere dheere neeche jhukaane lagi. Tauji ka vah vishaal lund aur Kavya ki geeli, tadpati hui choot ke beech ki doori bas kuch hi centimeter reh gayi thi.

Study room mein baithe baithe mera gala sookh gaya tha. Kya yeh waqai hone ja raha tha? Kya meri biwi sachmuch mere Tauji ke us pahaad jaise laude ko apne andar sametne wali thi?

Lekin theek usi aakhri mod par jab Tauji ka sira Kavya ki choot ke muhaane ko chhoone hi wala tha Kavya ka poora jism patthar ki tarah jam gaya!

Uski aankhon mein ek bhayanak jhatka laga. Uske dimaag mein shaayad mera, apni beti Anu ka aur apne parivaar ki izzat ka khayal bijli ki tarah kaundha.

Kavya jhatke se peeche hati aur palang par seedhi khadi ho gayi! Usne Tauji ke laude se apna haath hata liya.

Vah gehri gehri saansen le rahi thi. Uski aankhon mein ek pal ke liye hosh lauta tha jaise usne khud ko narak ke muhaane se wapas kheench liya ho.

Mujhe laga ki khel khatam ho gaya. Kavya shaayad ab kapde pehankar bahar nikal jayegi. Mere dil mein gehri niraasha aur saath hi ek ajeeb sa sukoon dauda.

Lekin main galat tha.

Sirf ek minute tak khadi rehne ke baad, Kavya ke chehre par vah vahshi pyaas ek baar phir laut aayi. Us jismani aag ne uske sanskaaron ko dobara leel liya.

Kavya ek baar phir ghutnon ke bal neeche baithi, aur usne apne dono haathon se Tauji ke us kaale, tapte hue laude ko aur bhi zyada mazbooti se jakad liya!

Chapter 21: Baptism aur Pink Lily

Laptop ki screen par jo drishya ubhar raha tha, usne mere seene ki dhadkanon ko jaise jama diya tha.

Kavya aur Tauji ke beech ki doori har beet te second ke saath simat ti ja rahi thi. Study room ki kursi par baitha main apni saansen roke hua tha; mera dil aise chhatpata raha tha jaise koi khanjar seedhe mere seene ke aar paar utarne wala ho. Uttejna aur dahshat ka aisa khaufnaak toofan maine zindagi mein kabhi mehsoos nahi kiya tha. Kya meri biwi sachmuch mere pachaas saal ke Tauji ke saath us antim seema ko paar karne ja rahi thi? Kavya ki choot aur Tauji ke ling ke beech ki doori lagatar kam hoti ja rahi thi. Tauji ka ling ek nukile khanjar ki tarah lag raha tha, jo dheere dheere mere dil ko cheerne wala tha. Saans lena bhi mushkil ho raha tha.

Lekin theek usi aakhri mod par jab unke jismon ke beech bamushkil das centimeter ka faasla bacha tha Kavya ki gati achanak tham gayi.

Vah Tauji ke kade, mazboot badan se kuch inch upar hi ruk gayi. Uske chehre par ek bhayanak khinchav tha, honth buri tarah kaanp rahe the aur aankhen aadhi mundi hui thin. Usne maryaada ki us aakhri khaai mein chhalaang lagane se khud ko rok liya tha. Lekin apne badan ki us sulagti hui aag ko shaant kiye bina lautna ab uske bas mein nahi tha.

Kavya ne ek haath se Tauji ke us tapte hue, kathor laude ko apni naazuk mutthi mein thaame rakha, aur apne doosre haath ki tarjani ungli ko apni bheegi hui choot mein dheere dheere andar daal diya. Vah dheere dheere masturbation karne lagi.

Usne gehri saans li aur apni aankhen dheere se kholin. Uski kajrari, madhosh aankhon ne neeche pade Tauji ke chehre ko dekha dhoop mein tapi hui sakht twacha, maathe ki gehri jhurriyan, aur akhade ki kasrat se faulaad bani baalon se bhari chaudhi chhaati.

Us purusharth ke saaye mein Kavya ke haath ki ungliyan uske apne hi badan par tezi se fisalne lagin. Usne ungli ko poori tarah choot ke andar daalkar ghumaya, aur tabhi Kavya ke laal, rasile honthon se ek lambi, madhosh karaah nikli "Ufff... aahhh..."

Yeh wahi awaaz thi! Yeh wahi pehli siskari thi jo pichhli raat maine apne bedroom ke darwaze par kaan satakar suni thi! Screen par dekhkar mujhe yakeen hua ki vah awaaz Kavya ki apni hi dabi hui pyaas ki pehli bagaawat thi pehli baar jab usne khud ko chhua tha.

Kavya ki ungliyon ki raftaar badhti ja rahi thi. Uska ek haath apne khud ke jism par machal raha tha aur doosra haath Tauji ke laude ko usi lay mein tezi se sehla raha tha, unhe bhi hastmaithun mein madad kar raha tha. Uski saansen dhaunkni ki tarah chalne lagi thin. Kavya ke mann mein maryaada aur hawas ka ek bhayanak dvandv chal raha tha vah baar baar neeche jhukti, Tauji ke aur karib aati, lekin jaise hi antim seema chhoone lagti, ghabrakar apni kamar ko wapas upar kheench leti. Choot aur ling ke beech ki doori kam karne aur phir badha dene ka yeh sangharsh lagatar chal raha tha.

Vah jhukkar Tauji ke tapte hue seene aur us vishaal laude se uthne wali teekhi, mardaana gandh uske pheromone ko apni saanson mein bhar rahi thi. Usne madhoshi mein apni komal jeebh se apne sookhe honthon ko bhigoya, maano koi swaadisht pakwaan chakh rahi ho. Uski payal ki halki si runjhun aur kamre mein goonjti uski tez saansen sannate ko cheer rahi thin. Kavya ka gora, chharhra badan paseene ki bareek boondon se chamakne laga tha. Uski choot se zyada se zyada taral behne laga tha, jo Tauji ki jaangh par tapak raha tha. Har harkat ke saath Tauji ka ling aur mota, aur lamba hota ja raha tha.

Us lagatar khinchav aur sehlahat ke asar se, neend ke gehre aagosh mein hi sahi, Tauji ke bhaari jism mein ek zordaar sihran daudi. Unki jaanghen akad gayin aur unke us pachpan saal purane kathor laude ne neend mein hi apni poori taakat ke saath apna saara sanchit veerya bahar phenk diya. Ande ke aakar ke munde se mootramaarg ke raaste gaadha, doodhiya safed veerya phoot pada aur Kavya ke poore chehre par chhidak gaya uske baal, aankhen, naak, honth, thodi… sab kuch Tauji ke veerya se lathpath ho gaya. Uske nightgown par bhi veerya ke chheente pad gaye. Main unki veerya ki maatra dekhkar hairaan reh gaya.

Aur theek usi pal, Kavya ke munh se ek teekhi, kampkampi bhari cheekh nikli "Aaahhh!"

Kavya ka poora jism patthar ki tarah akad gaya, uski aankhen upar ki taraf khinch gayin aur uski apni deh ne bhi charam sukh ke veg mein apna saara paani chhod diya. Vah Tauji ke upar hi besudh hokar kaanpne lagi.

Study room mein screen ke saamne baithe baithe, us paagal kar dene wale manzar ko dekhkar mera bhi poora jism sunn pad gaya. Main bhi screen ke saamne hi skhalit ho gaya, aur mera saara veerya underwear mein hi sama gaya.

Kuch der tak video mein sannata chhaya raha. Kavya usi tarah Tauji ke upar charam ke jhatke jhelti hui ruki rahi.

Phir, dheere dheere uski saanson ki raftaar thami. Aur jaise hi hosh lauta, uski aankhon se vah madhosh nasha palak jhapakte hi gaayab ho gaya.

Uski jagah ek bhayanak, rooh kampa dene wale pashchataap aur aatmglani ne le li.

Kavya kisi zinda laash ki tarah Tauji ke bistar se neeche utri. Jaise hi uske nange pair farsh par pade, uske ghutne ladkhada gaye aur vah deewar ka sahaara lekar bamushkil girne se bachi. Charam sukh ki thakaan aur mann ke paap ne uski saari taakat nichod li thi.

Kavya ki aankhon se aansuon ki aviral dhaara behne lagi. Usne kaanpte haathon se Tauji ke side table se tissue paper uthaye. Usne behad saavdhani se apne chehre, baalon aur nightgown se veerya ponchha, phir Tauji ke ling aur apne chhidke hue taral ko saaf kiya.

Iske baad usne Tauji ke ab dheele pad chuke laude ko wapas unki dhoti ke andar kiya, unke ubhre hue jaanghiya ki or ek nazar daali, aur dhoti ko theek se kheenchkar unka poora badan sasamm aan dhak diya.

Jaate jaate usne side stool par pada mera smartphone uthaya, kamre ki light bujhai aur rote hue dabe paanv kamre se bahar nikal gayi. Saubhaagya se usne yeh nahi bhulaya tha ki vah mere phone ko khojne hi aayi thi.

Screen par video tham gaya.

Maine kursi ki peeth se tikar ek lambi, thandi saans li. Kal raat jab maine Kavya ke geele baal aur badla hua night suit dekha tha, to mujhe laga tha ki sab kuch khatam ho gaya. Lekin aaj apni aankhon se yeh recording dekhkar mujhe samajh aaya ki Kavya ne us nashe aur bekaabu tadap ke beech bhi mere liye apni aakhri pavitra maryaada ko bacha kar rakha tha. Vah agar chahti to us raat Tauji ko poori tarah apna sakti thi unke lambe ling ko apni choot mein utaar sakti thi lekin mere prati uske pyaar aur uski antaratma ne use us aakhri paap se rok liya. Sirf sampark se hi vah maili ho gayi thi, aur usi apraadhbodh ne use rone par majboor kiya tha.

Mere mann mein Kavya ke is roop ko dekhkar jahan ek vikrit uttejna thi, wahin uske charitra aur nishtha ke prati ek gehra samman bhi jaag utha. Maine kal use galat samjha tha. Vah abhi bhi meri patni thi, jo mujhe gehraai se pyaar karti thi aur apni ichchhaon ko santusht karne ke liye seema nahi laanghna chahti thi.

Tabhi mujhe yaad aaya ki aaj shaam jab main office se lauta tha, tab Kavya ghar mein bahut gumsum thi. Usne Tauji se nazrein churai thin, aur phir bedroom mein jaakar apne tablet par der tak kuch type kar rahi thi. Kal raat ka kya hua tha, uske baad aaj dopahar kya hua hoga?

Maine fauran apne laptop par Kavya ke rooted tablet ke aaj shaam ke proxy logs aur screen recording kholi.

Shaam ko boutique se lautne ke baad Kavya ne tablet on kiya tha. Usne Tauji se kuch baatein kin, phir kamra saaf karne lagi. Lekin uski aankhon mein jigyaasa dheere dheere ichchha mein badal rahi thi. Vah baar baar unke seene aur jaanghiya ke paas se guzarti, shaayad pichhli raat ki yaadon mein doobi hui.

Bedroom mein aakar usne apna tablet chaalu kiya. Jab use screen par koi naya article nahi dikha, to uske chehre par ek gehri niraasha ubhri thi. Phir usne internet par mahilaon ke ek behad secret, invite only anaam micro blogging network (Tumblr jaisi site) ko khola tha. Kuch der sochne ke baad usne wahan ek naya gupt account banaya apne dil ke dard ko anaam pannon par darj karne ke liye.

Uska username tha "Gulabi Kumudini" (@pinklily_confessions).

Gulabi Kumudini… gulabi rang jo sankoch, jhijhak aur dabi hui chaahat ka prateek hai, aur kumudini yani lily jo pavitrata ka prateek hai. Din mein ek nishkalank, safed phool jaisi sanskari bahu, jo raat ke andhere mein apni sulagti hui pyaas aur pashchataap mein dheere dheere gulabi hoti ja rahi thi.

Kavya ne us blog par apni pehli diary pravishti likhni shuru ki thi. Uske chehre par likhte waqt khauf, uttejna, aansu, dard, bhram aur apraadhbodh ke mile jule bhaav tair rahe the. Vah lambe samay tak likhti rahi. Jab tak main office se lauta, usne apni pehli post ka draft poora kar liya tha.

Kaanpte haathon se maine us webpage ko apne browser mein khola (jo proxy bookmarks mein mil gaya tha) aur Kavya ke us gupt blog ko dekha. Screen par meri sanskari, khoobsurat biwi ke dil ki vah ankahi cheekh kaale aksharon mein darj thi, jise usne duniya se chhipakar us anaam panne par udel diya tha.

Chapter 22: Log 1: Pink Lily aur Anaan Tipanniyan

Dopahar ke teen baj rahe the.

IT park ki vishaal glass façade wali bahumanzila imaarat ke saatven floor par, meri team ke log apne apne cubicles mein headphone lagaye sprint planning mein jute the. Lekin mere workstation ki dohri monitor screen par ek gupt split window khuli hui thi.

Ghar ke WiFi network se jude Kavya ke Android tablet ka poora proxy traffic mere laptop par mirror ho raha tha.

Kavya ko shuru se hi likhne ka shauk tha. Hamare circle mein sab jaante the ki vah shaadi ke paridhaanon, aesthetics aur gharelu lifestyle par ek chhota sa public blog chalati thi, jahan vah silk ki bunai aur fashion trends par kabhi kabhaar halke phulke articles post kiya karti thi. Mujhe bhi uske us shauk se kabhi koi etaRaaz nahi tha.

Lekin aaj dopahar... aaj dopahar jab nauvin manzil ke hamare flat 903 mein sannata pasra hua tha beti Ananya hafte ke dinon ke niyam ke tahat apne nana nani ke ghar par thi, aur Tauji dopahar ka bhojan karke apne kamre mein vishraam kar rahe the Kavya ne apne tablet par ek bilkul naya, gupt incognito browser khola tha.

Usne ek secret, invite only blogging network (Tumblr jaisa ek anaam micro blogging platform) par ek naya account register kiya tha.

Uska chuna hua gupt handle meri screen par chamak raha tha: @pinklily_confessions 'pink lily'

Pink lily...

Screen par Kavya ke bedroom ka internal webcam feed bhi ek chhote kone mein chal raha tha.

Kavya hamare double bed par baithi thi. Usne halke peele rang ka ek saada sooti kurta pehan rakha tha, baal jude se chhootkar uski gori gardan aur kandhon par bikhere hue the. Uski aankhen laal thin, maano vah ghanton roi ho. Uske kaanpte haath tablet ki on screen keyboard par tezi se chal rahe the. Har kuch second mein vah rukti, apni bheegi palkein ponchhti, gehri saans leti, aur phir dobara likhne lagti.

Uske dil ke bheetar jo khaufnaak toofan, jo bhayanak akelapan aur jo varjit aag sulag rahi thi, use vah duniya ke saamne nahi la sakti thi. Vah kisi saheli se nahi keh sakti thi, mujhse to kabhi nahi keh sakti thi. Us ghutan ko bahar nikalne ke liye usne is anaam, kaale pannon wale digital ekaant ko apni sharnasthali banaya tha.

Kaanpti ungliyon se maine uske us pehle blog post ka live text load kiya.

Kavya ne us post ka sheershak diya tha: Sheershak: 'Shwet se Gulabi hota ek Phool Mera Pehla aur Aakhri Pashchataap'

Aur neeche, kaale background par safed aksharon mein meri sanskari, roopvati patni ke dil ki vah nagn, rooh kampa dene wali sweekarokti darj thi:

"Gulabi rang sankoch, jhijhak aur dabi hui chaahat ka prateek hai... aur pink lily keval aur keval pavitrata ka. Main apne jeevan mein hamesha ek nishkalank, doodh jaisi safed kumudini ki tarah rahi hoon. Lekin aaj... aaj is aadhi raat ke baad, vah phool apni pavitrata kho chuka hai. Vah andar se mutate ho raha hai, safed se dheere dheere ek sulagte hue gulabi rang mein badal raha hai.

Mera naam yahan sirf 'pink lily' hai. Main jaanti hoon ki uparwale ne mujhe ek aakarshak roop rang aur shaalinta swabhaav diya hai. Shaadi se pehle aur shaadi ke baad bhi kayi mardon ne meri taraf chaahat bhari nigahon se dekha, lekin maine kabhi apne pati ke alawa kisi ke baare mein nahi socha. Mera ek bhara poora, sukhi parivaar hai. Ek pati hain, jo din raat hamare liye mehnat karte hain aur mujhse gehra prem karte hain. Hamari ek pyaari beti hai, Ananya. Aur ghar mein ek bujurg, poojya sasur samaan Tauji hain, jinhone mere pati ko apni poori jawani qurbaan karke paala hai.

Sab kuch itna shaant, itna aadarsh tha... sivaye ek baat ke.

Kuch saal pehle mere pati ki ek badi surgery hui thi. Us beemari ne unke shareer ko andar se tod diya, unki paurush kshamta khatam ho gayi. Us din ke baad se hamare beech kabhi koi shaaririk sambandh nahi ban paaya. Shuruaat mein mujhe laga ki aurat sirf pyaar aur samman se jee sakti hai. Lekin jaise jaise meri umar tees ke karib pahunchi, aur mere pati ki laachaari badhti gayi, mere jism ke bheetar ek aisi pyaas jaag uthi jisne mujhe bheetar se khokhla karna shuru kar diya.

Maine kabhi kisi gair mard ki taraf aankh nahi uthai. Office mein jab paraaye mard ishaare karte, to mujhe unse ghin aati thi. Main sochti thi ki apne beemar pati ke aatmasamman ko bachana hi mera sabse bada dharm hai. Agar ve zindagi bhar naamard bhi rahen, to bhi main ek sanskari patni bankar unke saath khadi rahungi.

Lekin kuch din pehle... mere tablet par kuch ashleel aur varjit kahaniyan achanak pop up hone lagin. Pehle mujhe nafrat hui, lekin phir meri dabi hui pyaas ne mujhe unhe padhne par majboor kar diya. Un kahaniyon mein umradaraaz mardon, sasur aur bahuon ke varjit rishte the. Un lekhon ne mere dimaag ke us hisse ko khol diya jiske baare mein mujhe khud pata nahi tha. Achanak... mujhe ek bujurg mard ki jhurriyan, unki dhoop mein paki hui sakht deh, aur unke pake hue baal uttejak lagne lage.

Aur phir, meri nazrein hamare hi ghar mein rehne wale iklaute mard par tikne lagin mere Tauji.

Ve chhappan saal ke poorv pahalwan hain. Jab ve bina aasteen ki baniyan mein balcony mein khade hote hain, to unki chaudhi, baalon se bhari faulaadi chhaati dekhkar mera kaleja kaanpne lagta hai. Ve mere pati se bilkul ulat hain kachchi, dehaati mardaangi se bhare hue. Main din raat khud ko samjhati rahi ki yeh paap hai, yeh ghinauna hai... lekin jab bhi main akele mein unke baare mein sochti, meri jaanghon ke beech ek aag sulagne lagti thi.

Aur kal raat... kal raat mere sabr ka baandh poori tarah toot gaya.

Kal raat mere pati ne bahut sharaab pi li thi aur Tauji bhi nashe mein so gaye the. Mere pati ne mujhe Tauji ke kamre mein apna phone khojne bheja. Jab maine wahan light jalai... to Tauji ki dhoti khuli hui thi. Unka vishaal, kasrati badan poori tarah nanga tha.

Maine apni zindagi mein apne pati ke alawa kabhi kisi baalig mard ka lund nahi dekha tha. Lekin Tauji ka vah ang... vah mere pati se kahin zyada lamba, mota aur khoonkhaar tha. Vah kisi kaale, faulaadi hathiyaar ki tarah dikh raha tha. Us manzar ne mujhe sammohit kar diya.

Mere dimaag ne cheekh cheekh kar kaha ki bhaag jao, lekin mere pairon ne hilne se mana kar diya. Mere haath apne aap us taraf badh gaye. Aur jaise hi meri ungliyon ne Tauji ke us tapte hue lund ko chhua... mere poore jism mein bijli ka ek aisa jhatka dauda jisne meri rooh ko jhakjhor diya. Us mard ke badan se uthne wali paseene aur mardaangi ki teekhi gandh ne mujhe paagal kar diya.

Maine apni maryaada ki aakhri seema nahi laanghi... maine unhe apne bheetar nahi utaara. Lekin maine unke upar baithkar, apne haathon se unhe aur khud ko us charam sukh tak pahunchaya. Unke sanchit veerya ki fuhaaron ne mere poore chehre, mere honthon aur mere kapdon ko bhigo diya. Main roti hui us kamre se bhaagi.

Main apavitra ho chuki hoon. Maine apne us laachaar pati ke vishwaas ka katl kar diya hai jo mujhse jaan se zyada pyaar karta hai. Kya uparwala mujhe kabhi maaf karega? Kya main ek kulta, ek paapi aurat ban chuki hoon? Kaash koi mujhe bata sake ki main is aag se kaise bachun... ya phir yeh aag mujhe poori tarah jalak ar raakh kar degi?"

Monitor ki screen par in panktiyon ko padhte hue mere haath tharthara rahe the.

Mere halak mein thook sookh chuka tha. Mere dil ki dhadkanen itni tez ho gayi thin ki mujhe laga mera dam ghut jayega.

Kavya ke ve shabd... ve koi kaalpnik kahani nahi the. Vah meri biwi ka vah sach tha jise usne apni rooh se nichodkar us digital panne par udel diya tha. Usne mere paurush ke khokhlepan ko poori duniya ke saamne beparda kar diya tha. Ek taraf to us baat ne mere swabhiman ki dhajjiyan uda din thin, lekin doosri taraf... us nagn sachchai ne mere pant ke bheetar, mere soye hue paurush mein ek aisi bekaabu, unmaadi garmi paida kar di thi jisne mujhe kursi par chhatpataane par majboor kar diya.

Kavya ne us post ko publish kar diya tha.

Video feed mein maine dekha ki post publish karne ke baad Kavya ne apna munh dono haathon mein chhipa liya aur phoot phoot kar rone lagi. Use lag raha tha ki agar kisi ne yeh padha, to duniya us par thookegi, use ek badchalan aurat kahegi.

Lekin karib chaalis minute baad... jab main screen par refresh daba raha tha, to us blog ke neeche ka comment section kisi jwalamukhi ki tarah phatne laga.

Us anaam secret network par Kavya akeli nahi thi. Wahan saikdon aisi shaadishuda aurten thin jo usi tarah ke band kamron aur pyaase jismon ke saath ghut rahi thin.

Pehla comment kisi @shweta_unspoken naam ke handle se tha:

"Yaar itna guilty feel karne ki bilkul zaroorat nahi hai! Agar tumhara husband saalon se haath bhi nahi laga pa raha to koi bhi normal aurat paagal ho jayegi. 30 ki umar mein jism ki apni zarooratein hoti hain baba... kab tak khud ko maarogi? Stop blaming yourself yaar, you did nothing wrong."

Doosra comment @secret_bahu_92 ka tha:

"Girl, chill! Tumne to bas unhe haath se chhua hai, koi unke saath so to nahi gayin na? Aur vo bhi koi bahar ka sadak chhaap mard nahi hai, tumhare apne sasur samaan Tauji hain jinhone poora parivaar sambhaala hai. Sach bolun to gaon ke in purane pahalwanon mein jo asli mardaangi aur thahraav hota hai na, vo aaj ke in kamzor daftar wale ladkon mein kabhi nahi mil sakta. Tum to lucky ho ki ghar mein hi aisa mazboot saaya hai!"

Teesra comment @lonely_wife_pune ka aaya:

"Oh God... padhkar hi rongte khade ho gaye! Sach kahoon to agar main tumhari jagah hoti to kab ka sab kuch bhool chuki hoti. Jab dono taraf itni pyaas hai to isme paap kaisa? Tumne us akele bujurg ko bhi to itni badi khushi di hai... unhone poori umar bina aurat ke kaati hai yaar. Agli baar jab mauka mile to darna mat, apni jawani ko ghutne mat do. We are all with you sis [img=22x0]https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/2764.png[/img]"

Chautha comment ek chhota lekin teekha comment tha @desires_in_dark se:

"Paap vaap kuch nahi hota behen, sab bakwaas hai. Samaaj sirf aurat ko dabaana jaanta hai. Jab pati laachaar ho jaye to apni body ko vo sukh lene do jo vo deserve karti hai. You are not a sinner, you are just a woman!"

Screen ke chhote video window mein maine dekha ki Kavya ne apna sir uthaya.

Usne kaanpte haathon se tablet uthaya. Jaise jaise vah un comments ko padhti gayi, uske rote hue chehre ke bhaav badalne lage.

Uski aankhon mein jo khauf aur apraadhbodh ka andhera tha, vah dheere dheere pighalne laga. Uske honthon par ek bahut dheemi, halki si kampkampi bhari raahat tair gayi. Un anjaan aurton ke shabdon ne Kavya ke us sabse bade paap ko ek saamaajik 'majboori' aur ek 'praakritik zaroorat' ka jaama pehna diya tha. Ve tipanniyan uske liye ek aisa zahreela naitik licence ban gayi thin jisne uski bachi khuchi maryaada ki deewaron ko ek hi jhatke mein dhah diya tha.

Kavya ne ek lambi, gehri saans li. Usne apni gardan peeche ki taraf jhukai, uske chehre par ab pashchataap nahi tha... ab uski aankhon mein ek nayi, sulagti hui chamak thi.

Aur main? Apne office ki kursi par baitha main samajh chuka tha ki Kavya ab kabhi wapas nahi lautegi.

Maine jis aag ko sulagaya tha, us aag ko ab poori duniya ki hawa mil chuki thi. Meri biwi ab apni us varjit pyaas ko paap nahi, apna haq maanne lagi thi.

Chapter 23: Log 2: Ankahi Aag, Subah ka Poha aur Sulagti Tipanniyan

Shaam ke karib chhe baj rahe the.

Daftar ki gahmaagahmi ab dheemi padne lagi thi, lekin meri screen par khula gupt proxy console lagatar sakriya tha. Kavya ne apne tablet par Tumblr jaise us gupt blog network par log in kiya hua tha.

Pehle post ke neeche mile un anaam shaadishuda aurton ke bebaak comments ne Kavya ke bheetar ki ghabraahat ko bahut hadd tak shaant kar diya tha. Usne dekha tha ki is duniya mein vah akeli nahi thi; wahan aisi saikdon aurten thin jo apni atript jawani aur laachaar patiyon ke beech ghut rahi thin. Us digital hamdardi ne Kavya ko ek aisi adrishya dhaal de di thi jiske saaye mein vah ab apne dil ke us sabse gehre, andhere kone ko khangalne ki himmat juta rahi thi.

Kavya ne apne bedroom ke shaant mahaul mein jahan door balcony se aati shaam ki thandi hawa pardon ko haule se hila rahi thi apni doosri post type karni shuru ki.

Handle wahi tha: @pinklily_confessions ('pink lily').

Post ka sheershak tha: Sheershak: 'Log 2: Paseene ki Gandh, Subah ka Poha aur Dahleej ka Khauf'

Maine apne workstation ki screen ko thoda aur paas kheench liya. Meri hatheliyon par paseena aa gaya tha.

Kavya ne likha tha:

"Pichhli post mein maine keval yeh bataya tha ki maine maryaada todi... lekin us raat ki jo aag mere zehan mein chhap chuki hai, use main apne andar daba nahi paa rahi hoon.

Jab maine Tauji ke us vishaal, faulaadi lund ko apni ungliyon mein thaama tha, tab mere bheetar sirf dar nahi tha ek aisi andhi, barbar hawas thi jisne meri sochne samajhne ki saari taakat chheen li thi. Maine apni nicker utaarkar kinaare phenk di thi. Mera nichla badan poori tarah bheegkar machal raha tha. Main apne hosh khokar us boodhe pahalwan ke upar chadh gayi thi.

Us waqt mera mann sirf yeh chahta tha ki main us kaale, bhaari hathiyaar ko apne poore wajood ke bheetar utaar loon aur apni saalon ki pyaas ko ek hi jhatke mein bujha loon. Jab unke lund aur mere jism ke beech sirf ek inch ka faasla bacha tha... tabhi achanak mere dimaag mein mere beemar pati ka masoom, thaka hua chehra kaundh gaya.

Us ek pal ki bijli ne mujhe rok liya. Maine khud ko maryaada ki aakhri khaai mein koodne se bacha liya. Lekin phir jab maine neeche dekha Tauji ki dhoop mein tapi chhaati, unki safed baniyan se jhaankte pake hue baal, aur unka vah lund jo kisi lohe ke khambhe ki tarah tana hua tha to main peeche bhi nahi hat saki. Maine khud ko yeh jhootha dilaasa diya: 'Jab tak vo mere andar nahi utre, tab tak maine apne pati ko dhokha nahi diya... hai na?'

Kaash main khud se itna bada jhooth na bolti.

Maine ungliyon se khud ko sehlaate hue unke lund ko apni mutthi mein tezi se chalana shuru kiya. Unki deh se uthne wali vah kachchi, mardaana dehaati gandh jo mere pati ke mehnge perfume se bilkul alag thi usne mujhe kisi nasheeli sharaab ki tarah madhosh kar diya. Jab hum dono ek saath charam par pahunche, to unke sanchit veerya ki gaadhi fuhaaron ne mere chehre aur mere kapdon ko poori tarah bhigo diya. Us pal mujhe laga ki meri aatma udkar baadalon mein sama gayi hai.

Lekin us charam ke khatam hote hi... main zinda laash ban gayi.

Main aadhi raat ko apne bathroom mein bhaagi. Maine shower ke neeche khade hokar teen teen baar khushbudaar saabun se apna chehra, apne baal aur apni jaanghen ghis ghis kar dhoin. Lekin vo gandh... vo Tauji ke veerya ki gandh mere rom rom mein bas chuki thi, vo dhul hi nahi rahi thi. Mujhe khud se ghin aa rahi thi. Ek pal ke liye mann mein aaya ki balcony se kood kar jaan de doon... lekin tabhi mujhe apni soi hui beti aur apne pati ka khayal aaya.

Main bedroom mein lauti. Mere pati chaadar odhe bekhabar so rahe the. Unke chehre ki masoomiyat dekhkar meri aankhon se khaare aansu tapak kar unke gaalon par gire. Mujhe itni aatmglani ho rahi thi ki main poori raat ek pal ke liye bhi so nahi pai. Subah chhe baje uthkar maine pehli baar apne pati ke liye pyaar se adrak wali chai aur garam poha banaya sirf apne us bhayanak paap ka bojh kam karne ke liye. Jab mere pati ne muskurakar mujhe gale lagaya, to mera dil sharm se phat raha tha.

Aur sabse daraawni baat aaj shaam ki hai.

Aaj jab main apne boutique se kaam nipatkar wapas apni society ki nauvin manzil par pahunchi, to lift mein mere pair kaanp rahe the. Mujhe Tauji ka saamna karne se dar lag raha tha. Mujhe lag raha tha ki agar Tauji us raat hosh mein the, agar unhe sab yaad raha... to ve apni is kulta bahu ke munh par thook denge. Ve mere pati ko sab bata denge aur mera ghar ujad jayega.

Lekin jab maine kaanpte haathon se flat ka darwaza khola... Tauji hamesha ki tarah aaramkursi par baithkar TV dekh rahe the. Unhone mudkar bilkul sahaj, pita samaan sneh se mujhse poochha, 'Bahu, aa gayi? Bahut thak gayi hogi, thoda paani pi le.'

Us waqt mujhe samajh aaya ki ve us raat sharaab ke nashe mein poori tarah besudh the. Unhe kuch yaad nahi tha.

Us ek second mein mere seene se ek bhaari pahaad utar gaya. Lekin raahat ke theek peeche... us aag ne dobara sir utha liya. Jab ve uthkar paani ka lota lene kitchen ki taraf gaye, to unki safed dhoti ke peeche se unki bhaari jaanghon aur kamar ki lachak ko dekhkar mera gala phir se sookh gaya. Meri nazrein anjaane mein unki dhoti ke beech us jagah par tik gayin jahan vah hathiyaar chhupa hua tha. Mujhe sharm aani chahiye... par main ek rajkumari ki tarah apne us boodhe rajkumar ko chori chhipe nihaar rahi thi.

Kaash duniya mein koi aisi dawa hoti jo meri yaaddasht mita deti. Main apne pati se bahut pyaar karti hoon, main unke prati wafadaar rehna chahti hoon... lekin kya main is aag ko hamesha ke liye daba kar rakh paungi? Mujhe dar hai ki kisi din main poori tarah bahak jaungi."

Monitor ki screen par in shabdon ko padhkar mera gala buri tarah sookh gaya tha.

Meri patni... jo ghar mein mere saamne itni seedhi, itni sanskari bani ghoomti thi, vah andar hi andar us boodhe ke jism ki lat mein giraftaar ho chuki thi. Usne maana tha ki vah Tauji ki dhoti ke ubhaar ko kisi bhookhi billi ki tarah ghoor rahi thi.

Mere seene mein ek ajeeb, dotarfa aag jal uthi. Ek taraf mere purusharth ki vah bhayanak, apmaanjanak beizzati thi ki meri biwi mere ghar mein mere hi sage Tauji ke lund ke liye tadap rahi thi. Aur doosri taraf... us nagn sachchai ne mere badan mein ek aisa jhanjhanaata hua nasha bhar diya tha ki mera haath anjaane mein meri pant ki zip par chala gaya tha. Main us tadap ko padhkar paagal ho raha tha.

Kavya ne post publish kar di thi.

Aur publish hone ke sirf pandrah minute ke bheetar... us secret Tumblr network par comments ki baadh aa gayi.

Is baar ke comments pehle se bhi zyada teekhe, bebaak aur khatarnaak the:

Pehla comment @neha_secrets ka tha:

"OMG sis, tum sach mein bahut lucky ho ki tumne aen mauke par khud ko rok liya! Lekin yaar, apne aap ko bewakoof mat banao please [img=22x0]https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f602.png[/img] 'andar nahi gaya to cheating nahi'... ye sab hum aurten sirf apne mann ko tasalli dene ke liye bolti hain! Jab tum unke upar baithkar charam tak pahunch chuki ho, to aage khud ko kaise rokogi? Sach to yeh hai ki tum already us aag mein kood chuki ho."

Doosra comment @bahu_not_bechari naam ke user ka aaya:

"Girl, poha aur chai banakar tumhara guilt kam nahi hone wala! Aur waise bhi, vo koi gair mard thodi hain yaar... tumhare apne sasur samaan Tauji hain jinhone tumhare husband ko paala hai. Aur gaon ke purane pahalwanon ki taakat jaante ho? Agar tumhare husband saalon se thande pade hain, to tum kab tak apni jawani ko aise sukhaogi? Tumhare husband ko bhanak bhi nahi lagegi aur tumhari saari bechaini khatam ho jayegi. Sach kahoon to tum already unke pyaar mein pad chuki ho, bas admit karne ki himmat nahi juta pa rahi ho."

Teesra comment @simran_k_34 ka tha:

"Suno, tumne apni aankhon se dekha hai ki vo mard kitna taakatvar hai. Jab vo tumhare saamne baniyan aur dhoti mein ghoomenge to nazrein to bhatkengi hi na baba! Isme tumhari koi galti nahi hai. Jab jism bhookha hota hai to aise hi react karta hai. Don't fight nature yaar... let it flow! Zindagi ek baar milti hai, aise ghut ghut kar jeene ka koi matlab nahi [img=22x0]https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/2764.png[/img]"

Aur chautha comment @divya_unspoken ne likha tha, jisne poori baazi hi palat di:

"Ek baat notice ki tumne? Agar vo us raat nashe mein bhi the, phir bhi unhone koi jabardasti nahi ki. Vo kitne sharif aur gentleman hain! Aaj ke zamane mein aisa mard kahan milta hai jo aisi haalat mein bhi aurat ki izzat kare? Socho agar tumne unhe thoda sa pyaar de bhi diya, to vo tumhari kitni kadr karenge. Apne aap ko paapi samajhna chhodo aur us mard ke saaye ka maza lo!"

Screen ke kone mein chal rahe bedroom ke webcam par maine dekha ki Kavya ne apna tablet thaam rakha tha.

Vah in comments ko ek ek karke padh rahi thi.

Uske honthon par jo pehle khauf tha, vah ab poori tarah gaayab ho chuka tha. Un anaam aurton ke shabdon ne Kavya ke mann mein chal rahe us aakhri sankoch ko bhi ek hansi mazaak aur 'kudrati zaroorat' bana diya tha. Jab usne padha ki 'vo kitne gentleman hain, agar tumne unhe thoda pyaar de bhi diya to vo tumhari kitni kadr karenge', to Kavya ke chehre par ek gehri, sharmili muskaan khil gayi.

Uski ungliyon ne apni gardan par phera lagaya. Usne apni aankhen moond lin.

Vah ab apraadhbodh mein nahi ro rahi thi. Vah us kalpana mein doob rahi thi.

Study room ke andhere mein baithe mujhe samajh aa gaya tha ki ab Kavya ko kisi baahri dhakke ki zaroorat nahi thi. Uska dimaag poori tarah taiyaar ho chuka tha. Ab bas ghar mein ek aisa mauka chahiye tha jahan Tauji ka paurush khulkar saamne aa sake... aur phir Kavya khud apni marzi se us aakhri seema ko paar kar jayegi.