31-08-2026, 09:01 PM
The three months that followed the PTM were a slow, grueling crawl through a gray, muffled landscape. The initial shockwave of humiliation didn't fade so much as it calcified, becoming a permanent, low-grade ache in my bones. I fell into a state that was less clinical depression and more a profound emotional hibernation. At college, I was a ghost. I spoke only when spoken to, my answers clipped and hollow. I ate my lunch alone, avoiding the cafeteria where the echoes of laughter felt like accusations.
But humanity, in its stubborn way, seeks connection. My friends—Rohan, Vikram (once the rivalry softened into a wary camaraderie after the shared trauma of my public disgrace), and a few others—did something remarkable. They never mentioned it. Not once. No jokes, no awkward questions, no pitying looks when the topic of parents came up. It was a silent, unanimous pact of mercy. They talked about games, about movies, about the unbearable grind of pre-board prep. Slowly, tentatively, I began to thaw. I’d laugh at a stupid joke. I’d contribute to a debate about a new phone. I became a functional, if quiet, member of the group again. A new, brittle normalcy was glued together.
But it was a normalcy built on a foundation of eggshells. The shame was merely buried, not removed. Its presence manifested in two cruel ways.
First, during moments of unchecked, raucous fun—during a particularly intense game of football after college, or when we were howling with laughter over a meme—the boundary would sometimes slip. Someone, usually from the periphery of our group or a casual acquaintance, would make a comment. "Hey Arjun, your mom's blouse at the PTM, man…" followed by a low whistle, or a crude, grinning nudge. "I bet the teachers couldn't teach for a week after that view!" The laughter would die. My friends would glare. My own blood would turn to ice. I was 100% certain that for some of these guys, my mother’s exposed cleavage wasn't just a memory but fodder for their private fantasies. The knowledge that classmates were likely masturbating to the mental image of her was a violation that felt even more intimate than the videos.
Second, and more dangerously, was conflict. I became a master of de-escalation. If an argument flared over a borrowed pen, a disputed goal, a sharp word, I would immediately back down. I’d swallow my pride, my anger, anything to avoid the nuclear option I knew was coming. Because if things got heated, the trump card was always there, waiting to be played. A sneer, a pointed finger: "Why don't you go cry to your whore mother?" or something similarly vicious. And I would have to stand there, silenced. Not by logic, but by the undeniable, public truth of it. So I avoided arguments. I became agreeable to a fault, a doormat, my spine softened by the constant threat of my mother's notoriety being used as a cudgel against me.
At home, the evidence of her double life was no longer digital, but temporal. Her schedule became a map of her infidelity. Fridays, she’d come home late, well past 10 PM, smelling faintly of an unfamiliar perfume and a tired, sated kind of energy. Saturdays, she’d announce she had to go to the office for "urgent work," leaving in the same black sedan, dressed not in office formals but in the kind of elegant, body-conscious outfits she wore in the later videos. I knew, with a cold, certain dread, that she wasn't going to any office. She was going to him. To Aakash. But without the laptop, without the locked folder, I was blind. I had no proof, no window into their world. Just the gnawing certainty and the hollow, ticking clock of her absences.
Then, on a perfectly ordinary Wednesday evening, the axis of my world tilted off its foundations and shattered.
It was 4 PM. I was in my room, mechanically solving physics problems, the numbers blurring into meaningless symbols. The front door slammed open, not with her usual controlled click, but with a force that shook the frame. Heavy, frantic footsteps echoed through the flat.
"Arjun!" Her voice was a sharp, ragged scream, stripped of all its newly acquired confidence, raw with a panic I hadn't heard in years. "ARJUN!"
I stumbled out of my room. She was standing in the middle of the living room, still in her work saree, but it was disheveled, her pallu hanging loose. Her face was ashen, her makeup smudged under eyes wide with pure terror. She was clutching her phone like a lifeline, her entire body trembling.
Before I could ask what was wrong, the words exploded from her, each one a hammer blow to my chest:
"Arjun… your father… your father has been arrested!!!"
The sentence hung in the air, nonsensical, impossible. Arrested? My father? Arun Sharma, the most law-abiding, tax-paying, risk-averse man I knew? The man whose greatest rebellion was having a second helping of dessert?
"What?" was all I could manage, my voice a dry whisper.
"It's true!" she wailed, tears now streaming down her face, but they weren't the performative tears of the videos; these were tears of genuine, world-ending shock. "The Dubai security officer!!… they came to his office this afternoon. They took him. Something about… about financial fraud. Embezzlement. Falsifying documents. I don't know… I don't understand!" She sank onto the sofa, her body collapsing in on itself.
The shock was so total, so absolute, it bypassed emotion and went straight to a terrifying, silent clarity. My father was in jail. The bedrock of our mundane, troubled existence had just been yanked away. And as I looked at my mother—sobbing, terrified, her illicit world of backless blouses and poolside passion suddenly rendered grotesquely irrelevant by this new, brutal reality—a single, icy thought crystallized in the chaos:
The details were a black hole. Every question I asked her in those first, shell-shocked days met with a wall of evasion or a fresh wave of helpless tears.
"When was he arrested?" I pressed, the need for a timeline a pathetic attempt to impose order on the chaos.
She hesitated, her eyes darting away. "I… I don't know exactly. The call came Wednesday… but it might have happened Tuesday… or even Monday…" The vagueness was infuriating. It felt less like ignorance and more like a refusal to know, to make the reality too concrete.
"Can we talk to him? Call him?"
Her response was a flat, despairing fact that chilled me to the bone. "In Dubai, if you are arrested for serious crimes… you get one phone call. Per month."
One call. Per month. The words echoed in the silent flat. My father was not just arrested; he was severed. Placed in a communication vacuum. The isolation of it was a punishment in itself.
For a week, I cried myself to sleep. Silent, shuddering sobs into my pillow, mourning not just my father’s freedom, but the last vestige of my own childhood. The world had become a hostile, incomprehensible place.
For a brief, surreal fifteen days, my mother seemed to share the weight of the new reality. The transformation was immediate. The sleeveless, backless armor she’d worn to declare her independence was packed away. She returned to modest, high-necked kurtas, her expression drawn and genuinely worried. The Friday late nights ceased. The Saturday "office" disappearances stopped. She was home, present, moving through the rooms like a ghost in her own right, speaking in hushed tones with lawyers on the phone, her face pale with a fear that looked authentic. It was as if the shock of Dubai had momentarily jolted her back into her role as Arun Sharma’s wife.
But the reprieve was fragile, an ice sheet over a boiling ocean.
Around the sixteenth day, the ice cracked. It started subtly—a slightly shorter sleeve, a deeper shade of lipstick. Then, with a speed that felt like a physical betrayal, she reverted completely. The sleeveless dresses and those obscenely revealing sarees reappeared, clung to her body with a renewed defiance. The Friday late nights resumed, but this time with an upgrade.
One Friday evening, as she stood by the door applying a final coat of a dark, wine-colored lipstick, she announced it casually, as if discussing the weather. "The work pressure is too much with… everything. There’s a conference in Mumbai. At the Grand Marquis Hotel. They’ve given me a room. I’ll be back tomorrow night."
A room. In a Mumbai hotel. On a Friday. The words hung in the air, dripping with implication. She wasn't even hiding it behind "office work" anymore. The conference was a flimsy, transparent curtain for what it really was: a planned overnight with Aakash.
I was horrified. My father, her suhaag, her other half in the eyes of God and society, was sitting in a strict Dubai prison, allowed one call a month, facing financial ruin and possibly years in a foreign jail. And she was packing an overnight bag to stay in a luxury hotel with the man who was almost certainly the architect of his destruction. The disconnect was so vast it induced a kind of mental vertigo. Looking at her—poised, perfumed, a spark of eager anticipation in her eyes despite the carefully manufactured concern—you couldn't tell her husband was in jail. It was as if that part of her life had been neatly compartmentalized into a drawer labeled "Inconvenient Tragedy," to be opened only during scheduled monthly phone calls.
When the one-month mark since his arrest passed, she told me she’d finally spoken to him. She did it from her office, she said. Her voice was clipped, reporting facts. "He said… when he first got to Dubai, there were some transactions. Big ones. Approved by his office here, with his signature, but… he says they’re fraudulent. The documents were falsified."
The moment she said "approved by his office," my mind, now permanently tuned to suspicion, locked onto a name. Aakash. He had worked in my father’s company. A senior position in finance, if I remembered the old, off-hand mentions correctly. He had left abruptly a year ago, just before starting his own rival venture. Had he planted a timed bomb in the company's systems before he left? Authorized phantom deals, forged signatures on documents that would only surface when my father was on foreign soil, seeking investment? It was a classic, cruel setup. The pieces fit with a sickening click.
But the atmosphere in our home refused to mirror the tragedy. The days that followed were, for me, a slow agony of confusion and silent rage. Yet, the environment itself felt bizarrely normal. My four-year-old brother, oblivious, laughed and played, his world untouched. My mother showed no outward sign of tragedy. No weeping, no prolonged silences, no wearing of somber colors. She managed the household, went to work, and on Fridays, she transformed back into Parineeti—Aakash’s Parineeti—with a chilling efficiency. The home didn't feel like a house waiting for its patriarch to return from a business trip; it felt like a stage where the wife had already moved the set pieces and was rehearsing for a different play entirely. The pain was mine alone to feel, a solitary, festering wound in a house that had decided, under her direction, to pretend everything was fine. The only evidence of the cataclysm was the empty chair at the head of the dining table, and the growing certainty in my gut that my mother was not just moving on, but actively collaborating in the burial of her old life.
But humanity, in its stubborn way, seeks connection. My friends—Rohan, Vikram (once the rivalry softened into a wary camaraderie after the shared trauma of my public disgrace), and a few others—did something remarkable. They never mentioned it. Not once. No jokes, no awkward questions, no pitying looks when the topic of parents came up. It was a silent, unanimous pact of mercy. They talked about games, about movies, about the unbearable grind of pre-board prep. Slowly, tentatively, I began to thaw. I’d laugh at a stupid joke. I’d contribute to a debate about a new phone. I became a functional, if quiet, member of the group again. A new, brittle normalcy was glued together.
But it was a normalcy built on a foundation of eggshells. The shame was merely buried, not removed. Its presence manifested in two cruel ways.
First, during moments of unchecked, raucous fun—during a particularly intense game of football after college, or when we were howling with laughter over a meme—the boundary would sometimes slip. Someone, usually from the periphery of our group or a casual acquaintance, would make a comment. "Hey Arjun, your mom's blouse at the PTM, man…" followed by a low whistle, or a crude, grinning nudge. "I bet the teachers couldn't teach for a week after that view!" The laughter would die. My friends would glare. My own blood would turn to ice. I was 100% certain that for some of these guys, my mother’s exposed cleavage wasn't just a memory but fodder for their private fantasies. The knowledge that classmates were likely masturbating to the mental image of her was a violation that felt even more intimate than the videos.
Second, and more dangerously, was conflict. I became a master of de-escalation. If an argument flared over a borrowed pen, a disputed goal, a sharp word, I would immediately back down. I’d swallow my pride, my anger, anything to avoid the nuclear option I knew was coming. Because if things got heated, the trump card was always there, waiting to be played. A sneer, a pointed finger: "Why don't you go cry to your whore mother?" or something similarly vicious. And I would have to stand there, silenced. Not by logic, but by the undeniable, public truth of it. So I avoided arguments. I became agreeable to a fault, a doormat, my spine softened by the constant threat of my mother's notoriety being used as a cudgel against me.
At home, the evidence of her double life was no longer digital, but temporal. Her schedule became a map of her infidelity. Fridays, she’d come home late, well past 10 PM, smelling faintly of an unfamiliar perfume and a tired, sated kind of energy. Saturdays, she’d announce she had to go to the office for "urgent work," leaving in the same black sedan, dressed not in office formals but in the kind of elegant, body-conscious outfits she wore in the later videos. I knew, with a cold, certain dread, that she wasn't going to any office. She was going to him. To Aakash. But without the laptop, without the locked folder, I was blind. I had no proof, no window into their world. Just the gnawing certainty and the hollow, ticking clock of her absences.
Then, on a perfectly ordinary Wednesday evening, the axis of my world tilted off its foundations and shattered.
It was 4 PM. I was in my room, mechanically solving physics problems, the numbers blurring into meaningless symbols. The front door slammed open, not with her usual controlled click, but with a force that shook the frame. Heavy, frantic footsteps echoed through the flat.
"Arjun!" Her voice was a sharp, ragged scream, stripped of all its newly acquired confidence, raw with a panic I hadn't heard in years. "ARJUN!"
I stumbled out of my room. She was standing in the middle of the living room, still in her work saree, but it was disheveled, her pallu hanging loose. Her face was ashen, her makeup smudged under eyes wide with pure terror. She was clutching her phone like a lifeline, her entire body trembling.
Before I could ask what was wrong, the words exploded from her, each one a hammer blow to my chest:
"Arjun… your father… your father has been arrested!!!"
The sentence hung in the air, nonsensical, impossible. Arrested? My father? Arun Sharma, the most law-abiding, tax-paying, risk-averse man I knew? The man whose greatest rebellion was having a second helping of dessert?
"What?" was all I could manage, my voice a dry whisper.
"It's true!" she wailed, tears now streaming down her face, but they weren't the performative tears of the videos; these were tears of genuine, world-ending shock. "The Dubai security officer!!… they came to his office this afternoon. They took him. Something about… about financial fraud. Embezzlement. Falsifying documents. I don't know… I don't understand!" She sank onto the sofa, her body collapsing in on itself.
The shock was so total, so absolute, it bypassed emotion and went straight to a terrifying, silent clarity. My father was in jail. The bedrock of our mundane, troubled existence had just been yanked away. And as I looked at my mother—sobbing, terrified, her illicit world of backless blouses and poolside passion suddenly rendered grotesquely irrelevant by this new, brutal reality—a single, icy thought crystallized in the chaos:
The details were a black hole. Every question I asked her in those first, shell-shocked days met with a wall of evasion or a fresh wave of helpless tears.
"When was he arrested?" I pressed, the need for a timeline a pathetic attempt to impose order on the chaos.
She hesitated, her eyes darting away. "I… I don't know exactly. The call came Wednesday… but it might have happened Tuesday… or even Monday…" The vagueness was infuriating. It felt less like ignorance and more like a refusal to know, to make the reality too concrete.
"Can we talk to him? Call him?"
Her response was a flat, despairing fact that chilled me to the bone. "In Dubai, if you are arrested for serious crimes… you get one phone call. Per month."
One call. Per month. The words echoed in the silent flat. My father was not just arrested; he was severed. Placed in a communication vacuum. The isolation of it was a punishment in itself.
For a week, I cried myself to sleep. Silent, shuddering sobs into my pillow, mourning not just my father’s freedom, but the last vestige of my own childhood. The world had become a hostile, incomprehensible place.
For a brief, surreal fifteen days, my mother seemed to share the weight of the new reality. The transformation was immediate. The sleeveless, backless armor she’d worn to declare her independence was packed away. She returned to modest, high-necked kurtas, her expression drawn and genuinely worried. The Friday late nights ceased. The Saturday "office" disappearances stopped. She was home, present, moving through the rooms like a ghost in her own right, speaking in hushed tones with lawyers on the phone, her face pale with a fear that looked authentic. It was as if the shock of Dubai had momentarily jolted her back into her role as Arun Sharma’s wife.
But the reprieve was fragile, an ice sheet over a boiling ocean.
Around the sixteenth day, the ice cracked. It started subtly—a slightly shorter sleeve, a deeper shade of lipstick. Then, with a speed that felt like a physical betrayal, she reverted completely. The sleeveless dresses and those obscenely revealing sarees reappeared, clung to her body with a renewed defiance. The Friday late nights resumed, but this time with an upgrade.
One Friday evening, as she stood by the door applying a final coat of a dark, wine-colored lipstick, she announced it casually, as if discussing the weather. "The work pressure is too much with… everything. There’s a conference in Mumbai. At the Grand Marquis Hotel. They’ve given me a room. I’ll be back tomorrow night."
A room. In a Mumbai hotel. On a Friday. The words hung in the air, dripping with implication. She wasn't even hiding it behind "office work" anymore. The conference was a flimsy, transparent curtain for what it really was: a planned overnight with Aakash.
I was horrified. My father, her suhaag, her other half in the eyes of God and society, was sitting in a strict Dubai prison, allowed one call a month, facing financial ruin and possibly years in a foreign jail. And she was packing an overnight bag to stay in a luxury hotel with the man who was almost certainly the architect of his destruction. The disconnect was so vast it induced a kind of mental vertigo. Looking at her—poised, perfumed, a spark of eager anticipation in her eyes despite the carefully manufactured concern—you couldn't tell her husband was in jail. It was as if that part of her life had been neatly compartmentalized into a drawer labeled "Inconvenient Tragedy," to be opened only during scheduled monthly phone calls.
When the one-month mark since his arrest passed, she told me she’d finally spoken to him. She did it from her office, she said. Her voice was clipped, reporting facts. "He said… when he first got to Dubai, there were some transactions. Big ones. Approved by his office here, with his signature, but… he says they’re fraudulent. The documents were falsified."
The moment she said "approved by his office," my mind, now permanently tuned to suspicion, locked onto a name. Aakash. He had worked in my father’s company. A senior position in finance, if I remembered the old, off-hand mentions correctly. He had left abruptly a year ago, just before starting his own rival venture. Had he planted a timed bomb in the company's systems before he left? Authorized phantom deals, forged signatures on documents that would only surface when my father was on foreign soil, seeking investment? It was a classic, cruel setup. The pieces fit with a sickening click.
But the atmosphere in our home refused to mirror the tragedy. The days that followed were, for me, a slow agony of confusion and silent rage. Yet, the environment itself felt bizarrely normal. My four-year-old brother, oblivious, laughed and played, his world untouched. My mother showed no outward sign of tragedy. No weeping, no prolonged silences, no wearing of somber colors. She managed the household, went to work, and on Fridays, she transformed back into Parineeti—Aakash’s Parineeti—with a chilling efficiency. The home didn't feel like a house waiting for its patriarch to return from a business trip; it felt like a stage where the wife had already moved the set pieces and was rehearsing for a different play entirely. The pain was mine alone to feel, a solitary, festering wound in a house that had decided, under her direction, to pretend everything was fine. The only evidence of the cataclysm was the empty chair at the head of the dining table, and the growing certainty in my gut that my mother was not just moving on, but actively collaborating in the burial of her old life.


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