Do Roop Ki Bhookh

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Dopahar ka samay tha.
Aarav kitchen mein khada hokar paani pi raha tha. Glass uske haath mein thodi der ruk gayi. Uske dimaag mein raat wale scenes bar-bar aa rahe the — Suman ki gaand mein lund ka dhakka, uski cheekhein, Kavita ke muh ka choosna, aur us aadmi ka woh antim jumla: “Ab tera number hai.”
Kavita ab bhi bedroom mein soyi hui thi. Uske baal bedsheet par bikhre hue the. Aarav ne use dekha toh ek ajeeb si feeling uthi. Kal tak woh uski “maa” ke shareer ko dekh rahi thi, aaj woh uske mard shareer ke saamne thi. Yeh dono ehsaas ek saath rehna mushkil ho raha tha.
Shaam ke paanch baje Rina aayi.
Uske saath Kavita bhi uth chuki thi. Dono living room mein baith gayi. Aarav unke saamne khada raha, haath seene par fold kiye hue.
Rina ne pehle bolna shuru kiya.
“Kal raat… jo hua, woh main jaanti hoon. Kavita ne mujhe bata diya. Aapki maa ke saath woh aadmi…”
Aarav ne beech mein kaha, “Main sab jaanta hoon. Ab mujhe details chahiye. Har cheez.”
Kavita ne neeche dekhte hue kaha, “Usne pehle… aapki maa ki… choot chaati. Phir andar daala. Bohot zor se. Phir… peeche se bhi. Main… main bhi wahan thi. Usne mujhe bhi… unke doodh choosne ko kaha.”
Aarav ki mukh-mudra nahi badli.
Lekin uske lund ne kapdon ke andar thoda sa reaction diya. Yeh reaction usse khud pasand nahi aaya. Usne socha — kya main isse uttejit ho raha hoon? Ki meri “maa” ko kisi ne choda?
Rina ne aage kaha, “Aapki maa ne rokha nahi. Ek baar bhi nahi. Jaise… jaise woh chahti thi ki koi use is tarah se le.”
Aarav ne aankhein band kar li.
Uske andar do awaazein lad rahi thin. Ek kehti thi — yeh shakti tujhe kha rahi hai. Doosri kehti thi — aur gehra jaa, aur dekh, aur le.
Usne aankhein khol kar dono ko dekha.
“Aaj raat tum dono yahi rukogi. Lekin aaj main tumhein nahi chodunga. Aaj main sununga. Aur sochunga.”
Rina thodi hairaan hui.
“Aap… nahi?”
“Nahi.” Aarav ne saaf kaha. “Kyunki ab mujhe samajh aa raha hai ki har baar jab main kisi ko chhoota hoon, toh main thoda aur kho jaata hoon. Kal raat meri maa ne jo diya, uska asar ab bhi mere andar hai. Main usse mehsoos kar sakta hoon.”
Kavita ne dheere se poocha, “Aap… sach mein unki maa ho? Ya… kuch aur?”
Kamre mein ek ajeeb si khamoshi chha gayi.
Aarav ne unki aankhon mein dekha. Jhooth ab itna bhaari ho gaya tha ki uska wazan uske kandhon par mehsoos ho raha tha. Usne jawab dene ki jagah sirf itna kaha,
“Jo main hoon, woh ab itna seedha nahi raha.”
Tabhi bahar se dastak hui.
Teen baar. Dheemi, lekin saaf.
Aarav ne darwaza khola.
Woh aadmi khada tha. Is baar uske haath mein kala pouch tha. Usne pouch aage badhaya.
“Andar aa. Baat karni hai.”
Aarav ne use andar aane diya. Rina aur Kavita sofe par sakht ho gayi. Aadmi ne unki taraf ek nazar daali, phir Aarav ki taraf.
“Kal raat tumhari maa ne jo diya, woh usne khud chaha. Mainne jabarjasti nahi ki. Usne apni taangein khud kholi thin.”
Aarav ki mukh-mudra mein pehli baar gussa dikha.
“Tumhe kya chahiye?”
Aadmi ne pouch khola.
Andar se ek chhota sa kaala pathar nikala — purana, thoda chamakdar, jaise mandir ki nakashi ka hissa ho. Usne pathar Aarav ke haath mein rakh diya.
“Yeh rakh. Jab bhook itni tez ho jaye ki tum control na kar sako, toh isse chhoona. Yeh thodi der ke liye shant karega. Lekin har baar iska asar kam hota jayega.”
Aarav ne pathar ko dekha.
Haath mein rakhte hi ek thandi si lehar uske shareer mein daud gayi. Bhook thodi si peeche hati.
Aadmi ne aage kaha, “Main tumhara dushman nahi hoon. Main usse pehle wale ko dekh chuka hoon jo is shakti ko nahi sambhaal paya. Woh ant mein na mard raha, na naar. Sirf ek bhookha saaya. Main nahi chahta ki tum bhi wahi bano.”
Aarav ne pathar ko mutthi mein band kiya.
“Phir tum madad kyoon kar rahe ho?”
Aadmi ne muskura kar kaha, “Kyunki tumhari bhook ab colony se bahar nikalne wali hai. Aur jab nikalegi, toh sirf tum nahi… kai log jalenge.”
Itna keh kar woh darwaze ki taraf badha.
Jaate-jaate usne ek baar phir Aarav ki taraf dekha.
“Kal raat tumhari maa ne jo awaazein nikali thin… woh ab bhi mere kaanon mein hain. Jab tum phir se woh banoge, toh yaad rakhna — bhook ab sirf jismani nahi rahi. Woh tumhare dil mein bhi ghus chuki hai.”
Darwaza band hote hi kamre mein phir se khamoshi chha gayi.
Aarav ne pathar ko dekhte hue sofe par baith gaya. Rina aur Kavita uske paas aa kar baith gayi.
Kavita ne uska haath pakad liya.
“Aap theek ho?”
Aarav ne unki taraf dekha.
Do auratein. Dono uske shareer ko jaanti thin — ek mard wale ko, ek naar wale ko. Dono uske jhooth ka hissa ban chuki thin.
Usne dheere se kaha, “Aaj raat main tum dono ke saath sounga. Lekin bina kuch kiye. Mujhe… bas tumhare kareeb rehna hai.”
Rina ne uska doosra haath pakad liya.
“Theek hai.”
Raat ko teenon ek hi bed par let gaye.
Aarav beech mein tha. Ek taraf Rina, doosri taraf Kavita. Unke haath uske seene par the. Aarav ke lund ne kai baar reaction diya, lekin usne kuch nahi kiya. Sirf unki saanson ko sunta raha.
Uske mutthi mein woh kaala pathar ab bhi tha.
Thanda.
Lekin uske andar ki bhook poori tarah se shant nahi hui thi.
Woh bas intezaar kar rahi thi.

Subah ka ujala dheere-dheere kamre mein faila, lekin Aarav ki aankhon mein abhi bhi raat ka andhera tha.
Woh beech mein litta hua tha. Ek taraf Rina, doosri taraf Kavita. Dono ke haath uske seene par the — ek haath uske dil ke bilkul upar, doosra uske pet par. Jaise raat bhar woh usse yeh mehsoos karata rahe ki woh akela nahi hai. Aarav ki mutthi mein woh kaala pathar ab bhi dabba hua tha. Pathar thanda tha, lekin uske andar ki bhook us thandak se bhi gehli hui thi. Woh soyi nahi thi. Woh bas chupchap dekh rahi thi.
Aarav ne aankhein kholi.
Ceiling ki taraf dekhte hue usne apne aap se ek sawaal kiya jo pehli baar itni saaf awaaz mein aaya:
“Main inhein kya de raha hoon? Aur inse kya le raha hoon?”
Rina ne aankhein kholi. Usne Aarav ko dekha, lekin is baar uski muskaan mein pehle jaisi chulbulahat nahi thi. Ek thaki hui, naram si pehchaan thi.
“Neend nahi aayi?” usne dheemi awaaz mein poocha.
Aarav ne sir hilaaya. “Aayi thi. Lekin sapne mein main Suman tha. Aur us sapne mein main khud ko dekh raha tha… jaise koi aur dekh raha ho.”
Kavita bhi uth gayi. Usne Aarav ke chehre ko dheere se dekha. Uske aankhon mein kal raat wala darr ab nahi tha. Uski jagah ek ajeeb si mamta thi, jo shayad use khud samajh nahi aa rahi thi.
“Aap… dard mein ho?” usne poocha.
Aarav ne jawab nahi diya. Usne sirf unka haath apne haath mein le liya. Teenon ke haath ek dusre mein uljhe hue the. Yeh chhoona pehle jismani tha. Ab yeh kisi aur cheez jaisa lag raha tha — jaise teen log ek hi jhooth ke neeche saans le rahe hon.
Dopahar tak unhone saath mein khana khaya. Baatein ki.
Rina ne bataya ki uske bete ne kal college mein pehli baar medal jeeta. Uske awaaz mein garv tha, lekin uske baad ek chhoti si khamoshi aa gayi. Jaise woh soch rahi ho ki yeh ghar, yeh bed, yeh aadmi… uske bacchon wale jeevan se kitna door hai.
Kavita ne is baar Dubai ka zikr kiya.
“Woh phone nahi karta,” usne dheere se kaha. “Kabhi-kabhi lagta hai ki main yahan hoon hi nahi. Sirf ek khali flat mein rehti hoon.”
Usne Aarav ki taraf dekha. “Aap dono… aapki maa aur aap… mujhe pehli baar yeh mehsoos hua ki koi mujhe dekh raha hai. Sach mein dekh raha hai.”
Aarav ke gale mein kuch atak sa gaya.
Usne socha — main inhein dekh nahi raha. Main inhein use kar raha hoon. Aur yeh jaante hue bhi yeh yahan hain.
Shaam ko pathar ka asar kam hone laga.
Bhook wapas aayi. Pehle halki, phir teez. Aarav ke lund ne kapdon ke andar jo reaction diya, usse woh sharminda sa mehsoos hua. Pehli baar.
Usne dono ko dekha aur kaha, awaaz mein ek ajeeb si bheek thi,
“Aaj main control karna chahta hoon. Lekin agar main haar jaaun… toh mujhe mat chhodna. Mujhe rokna. Please.”
Rina ne uska chehra apne haathon mein liya.
“Hum nahi chhodenge.”
Raat ke nau baje jab bhook itni tez hui ki Aarav ka shareer kaampne laga, toh woh bathroom nahi gaya.
Usne unhein kaha, “Yahin raho.”
Kavita ne uska lund haath mein liya. Rina ne uske seene par muh rakh diya. Lekin is baar unhone jaldbazi nahi ki.
Kavita ne usse choosa — dheere, jaise woh uske lund ko nahi, uske andar chhipi hui bekaraari ko samajhna chahti ho. Aarav ki aankhein band thin. Uske dimaag mein Suman ki yaadein aa rahi thin — uski gaand ka phailna, uski cheekhein, us aadmi ka lund. Yeh yaadein usse uttejit bhi kar rahi thin, aur tod bhi rahi thin.
Usne Rina ke baal sehlaate hue kaha,
“Main tumhein dard nahi dena chahta. Lekin meri bhook… woh dard maangti hai.”
Rina ne uske honthon par ungli rakh di.
“Toh do. Lekin aaj sirf dard mat dena. Kuch aur bhi dena.”
Jab Aarav ne Rina ki choot mein lund daala, toh usne aankhein kholi hui rakhi.
Woh uske chehre ko dekh raha tha. Har dhakke ke saath Rina ki aankhein kitni gehli ho rahi thin, uska muh kitna naram pad raha tha.
“Ahhh… Aarav…” Rina ki awaaz mein is baar sirf maza nahi tha. Ek ajeeb si pehchaan thi.
“Main… main aapko jaanti hoon. Dono ko.”
Aarav ne uske maathe se pasina saaf kiya.
Uske andar kuch toot raha tha. Jhooth ka ek hissa.
Phir usne Kavita ko liya.
Kavita ne uske kandhe pakad liye. Unki aankhein mili.
“Aapki maa… kal raat… usne bhi yahi aankhein ki thin,” Kavita ne dheere se kaha. “Jab woh jhad rahi thi. Bilkul yahi.”
Aarav ka dhakka ruk sa gaya.
Usne Kavita ke chehre ko apne haathon mein liya.
“Main darta hoon,” usne pehli baar itni saaf awaaz mein kaha. “Ki ek din main na Aarav rahunga, na Suman. Sirf yeh bhook.”
Kavita ne uske honthon ko choom liya.
“Toh aaj raat hum aapki bhook ko akela nahi chhodenge.”
Jab Aarav jhada, toh usne pathar ko itna zor se dabaya ki uski mutthi mein dard ho gaya.
Usne apna pani Rina ke pet par, phir Kavita ke seene par giraaya. Lekin is baar jhadne ke baad jo khali pan hota tha, woh thoda kam tha. Unke haath uske shareer par the. Unki saansein uske kaan mein thin.
Baad mein teenon chipke hue lette rahe.
Aarav ke aankhon se ek aanso nikal gaya. Usne use jaldi se poonch liya, lekin Rina ne dekh liya.
Usne kuch nahi poocha. Sirf uska sir apne seene se laga liya.
Subah hone se pehle Aarav ne khidki se bahar dekha.
Woh aadmi wapas khada tha.
Is baar uske saath ek aurat thi.
Umar mein Suman jaisi. Aankhein teez.
Lekin uski nazar mein sirf bhook nahi thi. Kuch aur bhi tha — jaise woh pehle bhi yeh sab dekh chuki ho.
Aadmi ne upar dekh kar sir hilaaya.
Jaise keh raha ho —
Ab tum akela nahi lad rahe.
Aarav ne pathar ko apne seene se laga liya.
Uske peeche Rina aur Kavita soyi hui thin.
Uske andar bhook ab bhi thi.
Lekin ab uske saath ek naya darr bhi tha —
Ki kahin yeh dono bhi uski bhook ka hissa na ban jaayein.

Subah ke saat baj rahe the.
Aarav ne khidki se peeche hat kar pathar ko apne pocket mein rakh liya. Rina aur Kavita abhi bhi soyi hui thin. Unke chehron par kal raat ki thakan ke saath ek ajeeb si shaanti thi. Aarav ne unhein dekha toh uske seene mein ek garmi si uthi — na sirf bhook ki, balki kisi aur cheez ki. Ek ajeeb sa darr ki kahin yeh dono bhi uski tarah kho na jaayein.
Usne dheere se kapde pehne aur neeche utar gaya.
Building ke bahar woh aadmi ab bhi khada tha. Uske bagal mein woh nayi aurat.
Umar shayad battis-teintis. Gori chamdi, lambe baal, aankhein teez lekin thaki hui. Uske honthon par ek halki si muskaan thi jo muskaan nahi, kisi purani yaad jaisi lag rahi thi.
Aadmi ne Aarav ko dekhte hue kaha, “Neend poori nahi hui hogi.”
Aarav ne seedha poocha, “Yeh kaun hai?”
Aurat ne khud jawaab diya. Awaaz mein koi jaldbazi nahi thi.
“Mera naam Meera hai. Main us aadmi ki tarah nahi hoon jo tumhein pathar diya. Main… pehle usi shakti se guzar chuki hoon.”
Aarav ki saans ek pal ke liye ruk si gayi.
“Tum…?”
Meera ne sir hilaaya.
“Haan. Paanch saal pehle. Main bhi hafta-hafta badalti thi. Mard ban kar chodti thi, naar ban kar chudwati thi. Colony nahi, ek chhote se shehar mein. Ant mein main na mard rahi, na naar. Main bas… bachi rahi. Bahut mushkil se.”
Usne apne gale ka scarf thoda sarkaaya. Wahan ek patli si line thi — jaise koi purana daag.
“Yeh nishaan us din ka hai jab main pehli baar poori tarah se khud ko bhool gayi thi. Mainne apne aap ko sheeshe mein dekha aur pehchaan nahi paayi.”
Aadmi ne beech mein kaha, “Mainne use sambhala tha. Ab main tumhein sambhaalna chahta hoon. Lekin is baar pehle se zyada khatarnak hai. Tumhari bhook tez hai. Aur tumne jhooth ko itna gehra utaar liya hai ki woh ab tumhara hissa ban chuka hai.”
Aarav ne pathar ko pocket se nikaal kar haath mein liya.
“Yeh kitne din kaam karega?”
Meera ne jawaab diya, “Kam. Har baar kam. Ek din bilkul nahi karega. Tab tumhein faisla karna hoga — ya toh is shakti ko poori tarah se apna lo aur khud ko kho do, ya phir isse todne ka koi raasta dhoondho.”
Aarav ne un dono ko dekha.
“Todne ka raasta hai?”
Meera ki aankhein thodi gehli ho gayi.
“Hai. Lekin uski keemat bhi hai. Mainne wahi raasta chuna tha. Isliye main ab bhi yahan khadi hoon… thodi si bachi hui.”
Tabhi upar se Rina ki awaaz aayi.
“Aarav? Aap kahaan ho?”
Aarav ne peeche mud kar dekha. Rina balcony mein khadi thi. Kavita uske bagal mein. Dono ne neeche Meera ko dekh liya.
Meera ne dheere se kaha, “Woh auratein… tumse jud chuki hain. Yeh khatarnak hai. Shakti unhein bhi kheenchne lagti hai.”
Aarav ne pathar ko wapas pocket mein daala.
“Main unhein nahi khoonga.”
Meera ne muskura kar kaha, “Yahi toh har koi kehta hai. Mainne bhi kaha tha.”
Aadmi ne aakhiri baar bola, “Aaj raat hum phir milenge. Park mein. Akela aana. Pathar lete aana. Aur soch kar aana — tum kya banna chahte ho.”
Dono chale gaye.
Aarav kuch der wahi khada raha. Phir dheere-dheere upar laut aaya.
Flat mein Rina aur Kavita uska intezaar kar rahi thin.
Rina ne seedha poocha, “Woh aurat kaun thi?”
Aarav ne unhein sofe par baithne ko kaha. Phir sab bata diya — Meera ke baare mein, shakti todne ke raaste ke baare mein, aur is baat ke baare mein ki un dono ko bhi khatra ho sakta hai.
Kavita ki aankhein bhar aayi.
“Matlab… hum bhi…?”
Aarav ne unke haath pakad liye.
“Main nahi hone dunga. Main koi na koi raasta nikaalunga.”
Rina ne uska chehra apne haathon mein liya.
“Aap akela nahi. Hum hain.”
Aarav ne unhein apne se chipka liya.
Is baar uske lund ne koi badi reaction nahi di. Sirf ek halki si garmi thi. Bhook maujood thi, lekin uske upar ek naya wazan chadh aaya tha — zimmedari ka.
Raat hone mein abhi der thi.
Teenon ne saath mein time bitaya. Baatein ki. Chup rahe. Kabhi-kabhi Rina Aarav ke baal sehlaati, Kabhi Kavita uska sir apne god mein rakh leti. Yeh chhoona ab sirf jismani nahi raha tha. Yeh ek tarah ka sahara ban gaya tha.
Shaam ko jab pathar ka asar phir se kam hone laga, Aarav ne bathroom mein jaakar pathar ko zor se dabaya. Thandak aayi, lekin pehle se kam.
Usne sheeshe mein apne aap ko dekha.
Aankhon ke peeche andhera thoda aur gehra ho gaya tha.
Usne socha —
Aaj raat park mein jaana hoga.
Akela.
Aur faisla karna hoga.