Adultery A Husband and Wife’s Playful Texts Turn Into a Complicated Affair

[RCF]

RCF, i might have mentioned this multiple times that I am hooked to  this story and reread the earlier chapters to find clues where Nikitha felt love towards Jay after their challenge. She definitely realised that Jay loved her deeply more than her own love for Jay in the past. Never once she felt love towards Jay in literal words like "I love Jay" even in her own thoughts .

She felt jealousy, concern, care and an overwhelming gratitude to make him a better person, to solve his family issues and to clear his name in the company etc., we know all these combined is what one can define as love but did she ever think that way even internally. What's her definition of love? 

She believes What Tharun showed is love even though so far she didn't reciprocate to Tharun that she loves him. But what did Tharun show atleast in the courting period and few instances after she moved in?

Remove the dates and romance in office, he showed he is patient, offered a shoulder, comforted her when she is down, fought with her parents (is it parallel to Jay Nikitha marriage), had sex with her knowing she is yet to love him. All this happened with Jay too. But she believed when those are happening with Jay , love is something more. She never defined that.

When she herself believes she is not loving Jay (she loved Jay till sometimes before Taruna entry as per her own admission) and she is not deserving of him, how will the reconciliation work. May be there is a way but I am not able to see the path.

Nikita committed to someone then the things you do for others you won't brand it as love, She thinks she moved on, she has always thought that she moved on, she was consistent in that behavior and mindset all the time. She made sure Jay is not loving her anymore and she committed to Tharun....so in her mind she moved on when she said yes for sex with Tharun in Mumbai, so nothing that happens will change that in her mind unless she knows that Tharun is not hers to have and claim. once that reality settles then her world will turn upside down to ashes...any other thought on who she loves, who is her partner, where would her life go from here, Do I really love Tharun or Jay, all these questions only come after her world crashes beneath her feet...

So only possibility for her to travel back in time and analyses her mistakes is when she knows Tharun cannot be hers anymore....Remember her words, I never had fatherly and motherly love, I only got it from you over the years but didn't realize it but now do not think I am missing out, I get it from Tharun...so what happens when she loses it, when that love that Tharun has for her is not a right one, he himself has not moved on from Mithra or Mithra did not move on from Tharun...where would Nikita end up? 

Every perspective that you are searching from Nikita won't happen until she loses Tharun....

Also, Do you think she did all the things she did for Jay only for escaping from guilt from her end?No maybe she is thinking its all about guilt, but its not guilt only, its her heart won't allow her to move on until she made sure Jay is OK. that's love bro...its not for her guilt she did all those things though it was projected that way all through the story, it is her love for Jay. Remember after her commitment, she ran on road naked because Jay is in danger...there is nothing Tharun could have done to stop her...only thing on her mind is Jay's life. Only that time alone her heart was running things everywhere else in this story her mind is ruling things, what happens when heart takes over again...

I know the ending is stretched to 3 months now from the time she left Jay and never thought about him which seems unusual to me but if she ends up with Tharun then maybe the ending is meant to be practical end. Readers need to adjust and see the things as consequences for the actions and live with those kind of message, which is fine...but not necessarily correct. 

~RCF