28-04-2026, 05:59 PM
Chapter – 14
Ghar pahunchte hi main seedha apne kamre mein ghus gaya. Darwaza zor se band kiya aur bed par let gaya. Dil mein ek aag si lag rahi thi — gussa, sharm, aur sabse badi baat, apne upar gussa.
“Main kuch kyun nahi kar paya?” main apne aap se baar-baar pooch raha tha. “Us kameene ne meri Ammi ko kiss kiya mere saamne… aur main chup-chaap washroom chala gaya? Ek shabd bhi nahi bola? Kya main itna namard hoon?”
Lekin jaise-jaise sochta gaya, dimag mein wahi scene repeat hone laga. Restaurant ka corner table. Akash Ammi ke bilkul paas. Ammi ki aankhein band. Aur phir… Ammi khud aage badh kar Akash ke honton par apne hont rakh deti hain. Woh chhota sa, hesitant kiss.
Mera dil zor se dhadakne laga. Aur sabse buri baat — mere lund mein ek ajab si harkat hone lagi. Woh dheere-dheere sakht hone laga.
“Na… nahi… yeh kya ho raha hai?” main ghutne ki awaaz mein bola.
Main neeche haath le gaya aur usse dabane ki koshish ki, par yeh aur zyada khada ho gaya. Dimag mein sirf Ammi ka laal padta chehra aur Akash ke hont ghum rahe the. Main apne aap se nafrat kar raha tha, par sharir sun nahi raha tha.
“Harami hoon main… apni Ammi ke baare mein aisa soch raha hoon?”
Main ne ghussa aa kar apne hard lund par zor se mukka mar diya. Dard se meri aankh se aansu nikal aaye, par woh khada hona band nahi hua. Ek aur mukka maara. Phir bhi kuch nahi hua. Finally main ne chaadar muh par daal li aur zor-zor se saans lete hue sochne laga — “Bas… bas ab so ja Idris… yeh sab bhool ja.”
Bahut der tak karvat badalte hue main neend ke aagosh mein chala gaya.
Agla din college mein Akash mujhse milne aaya. Uska chehra normal tha, jaise kal kuch hua hi na ho.
“Idris, sun… boards nazdeek aa rahe hain. Main ab tere paas nahi aa paunga padhane. Tu ab kaafi improve ho gaya hai. Ab khud se momentum maintain kar lena.”
Main uski baat sun kar andar se khushi se jhoom utha. Jaise koi bojh dil se utar gaya ho. Kal raat ka woh kiss, woh sab… sab khatam ho jayega.
“Shukriya bhai… sach mein bahut shukriya,” main muskurate hue bola. “Main try karunga.”
Akash ne sirf sar hilaya aur chale gaya. Us din pura din main bahut halka mehsoos kar raha tha. Jaise ek bura sapna khatam ho gaya ho.
Shaam ko ghar aaya toh 5:30 baje Ammi drawing room mein baar-baar ghadi dekh rahi thi. Unka chehra thoda pareshan tha. 5:50 tak jab Akash nahi aaya toh unhone finally mujhse poocha, “Idris… Akash aaj nahi aaya? Koi baat hui thi kya?”
Main ne unki taraf dekha. Unki aankhon mein ek ajeeb si bechaini thi.
“Woh… boards ki taiyari kar raha hai. Ab nahi aa payega,” main ne casually bola.
Ammi ka chehra ek pal ke liye udas ho gaya. Woh kuch seconds chup rahi, phir dheere se boli, “Achha…”
Unka yeh ‘Achha’ itna halka tha ki lag raha tha unhone khud ko sambhalne ki koshish ki ho. Main ne notice kiya — unki aankhein thodi si nam si ho gayi thi.
Main andar se dukh bhi mehsoos kar raha tha, par saath hi ek badi si rahat bhi. Akash ab nahi aayega. Sab theek ho jayega.
Phir Ammi ne baat badli, “Lekin beta… ab uske bina tera padhai ka kya hoga? Woh itna achha padhata tha. Tu phir se peeche na chhoot jaaye.”
Main ne kuch nahi kaha. Sirf sar hila diya.
Raat ko khane ke time Ammi ne Abbu ko sab bata diya. Abbu thoda concerned hue, par unhone bhi accept kar liya. “Theek hai… Akash ko bhi apni padhai karni hai. Idris ab theek ho gaya hai. Khud se manage kar lega. Hum umeed karte hain.”
Agla kuch din bahut mushkil guzre.
Meri purani aadatein wapas laut aayi thi. 10 minute padhta, phir 1 ghanta so jata. Kabhi phone utha leta, kabhi porn videos dekhne lagta. Dimag bilkul control mein nahi tha. Har baar padhne baithta toh kuch der baad Ammi ka woh kiss wala scene ya Akash ki muskaan yaad aa jati. Concentration zero ho chuka tha.
Main khud se lad raha tha, par haar raha tha.
Ek shaam, jab dimag bahut zyada heavy ho gaya, mujhe Akash ki purani baat yaad aa gayi — “Kabhi-kabhi fresh air mein bahar nikal liya kar, dimag refresh ho jata hai.”
Main utha aur park ki taraf chal pada.
Park mein thodi der ghumta raha. Thandi hawa chal rahi thi. Bench par baith gaya. Dimag thoda shaant hone laga tha. Soch raha tha ki ab wapas ghar chalte hain.
Tabhi nazar park ke kone mein padi.
Wahan Chand baitha tha — akash ka woh sadakchaap lafua dost. Apne purane blue jeans aur tight black t-shirt mein. Woh mobile par baat kar raha tha aur zor-zor se hans raha tha. Uski hansi door tak sunai de rahi thi.
Main ne turant nazar ghuma li. Usko ignore karne ki koshish ki. Utha aur wapas jaane laga.
Lekin tabhi uski awaaz aayi —
“Arre Idris! Ruk toh saale!”
Main ruk gaya. Peeche mud kar dekha — Chand mobile side mein rakh chuka tha aur seedha meri taraf badh raha tha.
Mera dil zor se dhadakne laga.
Ghar pahunchte hi main seedha apne kamre mein ghus gaya. Darwaza zor se band kiya aur bed par let gaya. Dil mein ek aag si lag rahi thi — gussa, sharm, aur sabse badi baat, apne upar gussa.
“Main kuch kyun nahi kar paya?” main apne aap se baar-baar pooch raha tha. “Us kameene ne meri Ammi ko kiss kiya mere saamne… aur main chup-chaap washroom chala gaya? Ek shabd bhi nahi bola? Kya main itna namard hoon?”
Lekin jaise-jaise sochta gaya, dimag mein wahi scene repeat hone laga. Restaurant ka corner table. Akash Ammi ke bilkul paas. Ammi ki aankhein band. Aur phir… Ammi khud aage badh kar Akash ke honton par apne hont rakh deti hain. Woh chhota sa, hesitant kiss.
Mera dil zor se dhadakne laga. Aur sabse buri baat — mere lund mein ek ajab si harkat hone lagi. Woh dheere-dheere sakht hone laga.
“Na… nahi… yeh kya ho raha hai?” main ghutne ki awaaz mein bola.
Main neeche haath le gaya aur usse dabane ki koshish ki, par yeh aur zyada khada ho gaya. Dimag mein sirf Ammi ka laal padta chehra aur Akash ke hont ghum rahe the. Main apne aap se nafrat kar raha tha, par sharir sun nahi raha tha.
“Harami hoon main… apni Ammi ke baare mein aisa soch raha hoon?”
Main ne ghussa aa kar apne hard lund par zor se mukka mar diya. Dard se meri aankh se aansu nikal aaye, par woh khada hona band nahi hua. Ek aur mukka maara. Phir bhi kuch nahi hua. Finally main ne chaadar muh par daal li aur zor-zor se saans lete hue sochne laga — “Bas… bas ab so ja Idris… yeh sab bhool ja.”
Bahut der tak karvat badalte hue main neend ke aagosh mein chala gaya.
Agla din college mein Akash mujhse milne aaya. Uska chehra normal tha, jaise kal kuch hua hi na ho.
“Idris, sun… boards nazdeek aa rahe hain. Main ab tere paas nahi aa paunga padhane. Tu ab kaafi improve ho gaya hai. Ab khud se momentum maintain kar lena.”
Main uski baat sun kar andar se khushi se jhoom utha. Jaise koi bojh dil se utar gaya ho. Kal raat ka woh kiss, woh sab… sab khatam ho jayega.
“Shukriya bhai… sach mein bahut shukriya,” main muskurate hue bola. “Main try karunga.”
Akash ne sirf sar hilaya aur chale gaya. Us din pura din main bahut halka mehsoos kar raha tha. Jaise ek bura sapna khatam ho gaya ho.
Shaam ko ghar aaya toh 5:30 baje Ammi drawing room mein baar-baar ghadi dekh rahi thi. Unka chehra thoda pareshan tha. 5:50 tak jab Akash nahi aaya toh unhone finally mujhse poocha, “Idris… Akash aaj nahi aaya? Koi baat hui thi kya?”
Main ne unki taraf dekha. Unki aankhon mein ek ajeeb si bechaini thi.
“Woh… boards ki taiyari kar raha hai. Ab nahi aa payega,” main ne casually bola.
Ammi ka chehra ek pal ke liye udas ho gaya. Woh kuch seconds chup rahi, phir dheere se boli, “Achha…”
Unka yeh ‘Achha’ itna halka tha ki lag raha tha unhone khud ko sambhalne ki koshish ki ho. Main ne notice kiya — unki aankhein thodi si nam si ho gayi thi.
Main andar se dukh bhi mehsoos kar raha tha, par saath hi ek badi si rahat bhi. Akash ab nahi aayega. Sab theek ho jayega.
Phir Ammi ne baat badli, “Lekin beta… ab uske bina tera padhai ka kya hoga? Woh itna achha padhata tha. Tu phir se peeche na chhoot jaaye.”
Main ne kuch nahi kaha. Sirf sar hila diya.
Raat ko khane ke time Ammi ne Abbu ko sab bata diya. Abbu thoda concerned hue, par unhone bhi accept kar liya. “Theek hai… Akash ko bhi apni padhai karni hai. Idris ab theek ho gaya hai. Khud se manage kar lega. Hum umeed karte hain.”
Agla kuch din bahut mushkil guzre.
Meri purani aadatein wapas laut aayi thi. 10 minute padhta, phir 1 ghanta so jata. Kabhi phone utha leta, kabhi porn videos dekhne lagta. Dimag bilkul control mein nahi tha. Har baar padhne baithta toh kuch der baad Ammi ka woh kiss wala scene ya Akash ki muskaan yaad aa jati. Concentration zero ho chuka tha.
Main khud se lad raha tha, par haar raha tha.
Ek shaam, jab dimag bahut zyada heavy ho gaya, mujhe Akash ki purani baat yaad aa gayi — “Kabhi-kabhi fresh air mein bahar nikal liya kar, dimag refresh ho jata hai.”
Main utha aur park ki taraf chal pada.
Park mein thodi der ghumta raha. Thandi hawa chal rahi thi. Bench par baith gaya. Dimag thoda shaant hone laga tha. Soch raha tha ki ab wapas ghar chalte hain.
Tabhi nazar park ke kone mein padi.
Wahan Chand baitha tha — akash ka woh sadakchaap lafua dost. Apne purane blue jeans aur tight black t-shirt mein. Woh mobile par baat kar raha tha aur zor-zor se hans raha tha. Uski hansi door tak sunai de rahi thi.
Main ne turant nazar ghuma li. Usko ignore karne ki koshish ki. Utha aur wapas jaane laga.
Lekin tabhi uski awaaz aayi —
“Arre Idris! Ruk toh saale!”
Main ruk gaya. Peeche mud kar dekha — Chand mobile side mein rakh chuka tha aur seedha meri taraf badh raha tha.
Mera dil zor se dhadakne laga.
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