Adultery अम्मी और अंकल — एक नया अंदाज़

[Deepak.kapoor]

Adhyay 1

Main Sahil hoon. Yeh kahani meri zindagi ke us mod ki hai jab waqt ne ek ajeeb karwat li thi. Hum Delhi gaye the, meri Ammi, Aisha ki cousin, Saima, ki shaadi ke liye. Saima Ammi ke mama ki beti thi, isliye yeh ek bada family event tha.


Ghar se hum teeno nikle the—main, meri Ammi, aur meri Nani. Mere Abbu, Fahad, ko business ke kaam se rukna pada, isliye woh humare saath nahi aa sake. Main college mein tha, apni hi dhun mein rehne wala ek average sa ladka. Medium height, patla sa jism, aur kaale baal jo aksar messy rehte the, hawa mein lehraate huye. Mera chehra Ammi se zyada Abbu se milta tha. Dekhne mein main masoom lagta tha, par mere andar ek bechaini thi, ek tez dhadkan jo har naye tajurbe ko talashti thi.


Main Sahil hoon, aur yeh waqya meri Ammi, Aisha, ke us jaadui roop ke ird-gird buna gaya hai jisne mujhe pehli baar yeh ahsaas karaya ki kudrat ne unhe kis kadar fursat mein tarasha tha.


Meri Ammi ki khoobsurati sirf ek bete ki nazar se hi nahi, balki kisi bhi dekhne wale ke liye ek madhosh kar dene wala manzar thi. College mein hone ke naate, main auron ki nazron ko padhna seekh gaya tha, aur aksar dekhta tha ki jab Ammi kamre mein dakhil hotin, to waqt jaise thehar sa jata. Unki lambi surahidaar gardan aur us par tika woh chaand sa gol chehra kisi sangmarmar ki moorat jaisa lagta tha. Unki twacha ka rang itna saaf aur doodhiya safed tha ki roshni jaise unse takrakar waapas laut-ti thi.


Us din unhone ek maheen kapde ka suit pehna tha, jo unke charhare magar gathavdar badan par is kadar chipka tha ki unke jism ka har ubhaar apni ek alag kahani keh raha tha. Unki patli kamar jab chalne ke dauran halki si bal khati, to unke bhare huye pusht koohey aur pusht seena ek aisi lay paida karte the jise andekha karna namumkin tha. Unke kaale ghane baal unki peeth par kisi naagin ki tarah lehra rahe the, aur unse aati chameli ki bheeni khushboo hawa mein ek nasha sa ghol rahi thi. Main unka beta tha, unse beintehaan pyaar karta tha, par us din meri aankhon mein unke liye sirf mamta nahi, balki unki bepanaah khoobsurati ke liye ek gehri achraj bhari kashish thi.


Meri Ammi bahut caring thin, jinki duniya unki family ke ird-gird hi ghoomti thi. Unki muskurahat aisi thi jo dil ko sukoon de.


Safar ki shuruat hi hungamedar rahi. Railway station par jaise insaano ka samandar umad pada tha. Abbu saath nahi the, isliye Nani aur Ammi ki zimmedari mere kandhon par thi.


Us din safar ke liye Ammi ne ek dheela-dhala kaala abaya aur chehre par brown veil (naqab) pehna hua tha. Unka poora jism sir se pair tak dhaka tha. Oopar se dekhne par sirf ek siyah saaya nazar aata, lekin Ammi ka woh abaya unki bepanaah khoobsurati ko chhupane mein naakaam tha.


Unka gora rang abaya ke siyah kaale rang ke contrast mein kisi jalte huye diye ki tarah khil utha tha. Abaya ne unke jism ko zaroor dhaka tha, magar unke doodhiya safed haath jab abaya ki aasteenon se baahar nikalte, to kaale kapde par unki safedi kisi sangmarmar ki tarah chamakti thi. Naqab ke peeche se unki badi-badi kaali aankhein jab uthtin, to aisa lagta jaise koi gehra raaz beparda hone ko ho.


Chalte waqt jab abaya ki zameen choomti hui kinariyaan halki si oopar uthtin, to unke narm aur gore pairon ki ek chhoti si jhalak dikh jaati, jo kaale abaya ke saath ek qayamat sa contrast paida kar rahi thi. Woh jhalak cheekh-cheekh kar bata rahi thi ki us kaale libaas ke neeche chhipa hua poora badan kis kadar doodhiya aur bedaag hoga.


Abaya kitna bhi dheela kyun na ho, jab hawa ka koi jhonka unse takrata ya woh mudtin, to kapde ka khichav unke bhare huye seene aur pusht koohon ke curve ko saaf bayan kar deta tha.


Jaise hi train platform par aakar ruki, coach ke darwaje par chadhne waalon ki ek andhi daud shuru ho gayi. Station ka woh shor-sharaba aur dhakka-mukki kisi anhoni ka ishaara de rahe the. Bheed ka fayda uthakar kuch aawara kism ke log Ammi ke ird-gird ghera banane lage. Halaanki Ammi us dheele-dhale kaale abaya mein poori tarah dhaki thin, lekin un bhediyon ki bhookhi nazrein us kapde ke paar dekh rahi thin. Ve Ammi ke chalne ki lay aur abaya ke khichav se unke jism ke utaar-chadhav ka andaaza laga rahe the.


Maine dekha ki kaise ek hatte-katte aadmi ne jaan-boojhkar Ammi ke bilkul kareeb aane ki koshish ki, uski nazrein Ammi ke abaya se dhake pusht koohon par jami hui thin. Bheed ke ek zordaar rele ne Ammi ka santulan bigaad diya, aur woh ladkhadakar peeche ki ore jhukin.


"Sahil... bacha mujhe!" Ammi ki aawaaz naqab ke peeche se kaanpti hui aur behad bebas si aayi.


Usi pal, us bheed ka fayda uthakar ek ganda haath badi chaalaki se Ammi ke abaya ke oopar se hi unki sudaul gaand tak pahuncha. Us shakhs ne koi hichkichahat nahi dikhayi aur Ammi ke bhare huye koohey ko mazbooti se dabochkar bheenjh diya. Ammi ke munh se ek dabi hui cheekh nikli, woh buri tarah darr gayi aur thartharane lagin. Us sparsh ki darindagi ne unhe andar tak hila diya tha.


"Sahil!" Unhone dahshat mein mera naam pukara.


Meri ragon mein khoon khaul utha. Maine palak jhapakte hi Ammi ki kamar mein apna haath daala aur unhe apni ore poori taaqat se kheench liya. Mera haath unke abaya ke kapde ke oopar tha, lekin us dheele libaas ke neeche se bhi mujhe unki patli kamar ki golayi aur unke dehakte badan ki tapish ka saaf ahsaas hua. Woh khauf ke maare mujhse poori tarah chipak gayin. Unka abaya se dhaka hua bhaari seena meri chaati se zor se sat gaya tha. Main unki tez hoti dhadkanon ko apne seene par mehsoos kar sakta tha, aur us pal unki bebasi ne mere andar unhe bachane ke ek naye junoon ko janm de diya tha.


Jaise hi bheed ka ek aur rela aaya, Ammi poori tarah se mujh par dha gayi. Unki poori deh mere jism se is kadar chipki hui thi ki unke aur mere beech hawa ki bhi jagah nahi bachi thi. Us pal, pehli baar mujhe apni Ammi ke bhare huye seene ka sparsh itni nazdeeki se mehsoos hua. Abaya ke kapde ke peeche bhi unke urojhon ki narmi aur unka ubhaar meri chaati par dabaav bana raha tha. Woh ahsaas itna narm aur makhmali tha ki mere zehan mein ek bijli si kaundh gayi. Ek bete ke taur par maine kabhi aisa nahi socha tha, par us dabaav aur unke badan ki garmi ne mere andar ek ajeeb si sihran paida kar di thi.


Tabhi peeche se logon ka ek zordaar dhakka laga, jisne Ammi ko mere aur kareeb dhakel diya. Woh is kadar ghabra gayin ki unhe laga jaise unka dam ghut jayega. Apni sthiti ko samajhne aur bheed ke beech raasta dekhne ki jad-do-jahad mein, unhone aanan-faanan mein apne chehre se brown naqab hata diya.


Jaise hi unhone naqab hataya, aisa laga maano kaali ghataon ke peeche se achanak poora chaand nikal aaya ho. Unka woh doodhiya safed chehra, pasine ki chhoti-chhoti boondon se chamakta hua, un gandi niyat waale logon ke saamne beparda ho gaya. Unki badi-badi aankhon mein faili dahshat aur unke gulaabi lab, jo darr se kaanp rahe the, ne wahan maujood har shakhs ki saansein thaam din.


Station ki roshni mein unka chehra kisi daiviye apsara ki tarah damak raha tha. Jo log ab tak sirf abaya ke peeche ke jism ka andaaza laga rahe the, unke saamne ab woh bepanaah husn saakshaat tha. Har taraf jaise ek sannaata sa chha gaya, har nazar unki us noorani khoobsurati par gad gayi thi. Ammi apni hi khoobsurati se bekhabar, bas meri aankhon mein apni jaan ki salaamati talaash rahi thin, jabki main unhe us bheed ki darinda nazron se bachane ke liye aur kaskar apne ghere mein le chuka tha.


Nani, jo umra ke is padaav par bhi apni paini samajh rakhti thin, turant taad gayin ki bheed ki aad mein kya ganda khel khela ja raha hai. Unhone dekha ki kaise Ammi bebas hokar mujh par dha gayi hain aur unka chehra beparda ho chuka hai. Apni umra ki kamzori ko dar-kinaar karte huye, woh foran Ammi ke peeche aakar kisi dhaal ki tarah khadi ho gayin.


Nani ki aankhon mein us waqt mamta nahi, balki ek sherni jaisa gussa tha.


Unhone zordaar aawaaz mein un aawara logon ko fatkaarte huye kaha: "Sharm nahi aati tum logon ko? Doob maro kahin! Yeh jo harkatein kar rahe ho, yaad rakhna, tumhare ghar mein bhi maa-behenein aur betiyan hongi. Kya unke saath bhi yehi tamasha hote dekhna chahte ho? Insaaniyat mar gayi hai kya tum sabki?"


Nani ki kadak aawaaz aur us fatkaar mein itna dam tha ki aas-paas ke kuch log sharmindagi se nazrein jhukane lage. Unka woh raub dekhkar jo haath Ammi ke makhmali badan ki toh le rahe the, ve achanak thithak kar peeche hat gaye.


Nani ne Ammi ka haath mazbooti se pakda aur meri taraf dekhte huye ishaara kiya ki hum andar ki taraf badhein. Ammi abhi bhi kaanp rahi thin, unka chehra meri chaati mein chhipa hua tha aur unke narm seene ka dabaav abhi bhi meri dhadkanon ko bekaaboo kar raha tha. Nani ke peeche se morcha sambhaalne ke baad, maine bhi poore zor se raasta banaya aur hum aakhirkar us darinda bheed ko peeche chhodte huye train ke dibbe ke andar dakhil ho gaye.


Mushkil se hum dibbe ke andar pahunche. Ammi ki saansein abhi bhi ukhdi hui thin. Jab woh apni seat par baithin, unke chaand se gol chehre par pasine ki nanhin boondein chamak rahi thin. Unhone abaya ko thoda dheela kiya, jisse unki lambi surahidaar gardan ka woh gora hissa abaya ke kaale collar se ubhar kar saamne aa gaya.


Main unke saamne baitha, unhe dekh raha tha. Mere mann mein unke liye koi galat vichaar nahi tha, par us bheed bhare haadse aur abaya ke oopar se huye un sparshon ne mere andar ek ajeeb si jaagrookta bhar di thi. Mujhe ahsaas hua ki meri Ammi sirf meri Ammi nahi, balki ek aisi aurat hain jinki ek jhalak, chahe woh abaya mein hi kyun na ho, zamaane ko betaab kar deti hai. Unki woh masoomiyat aur abaya ke peeche chhipa woh kaatilana badan, dono milkar ek aisa jaadu jaga rahe the jisne mujhe us din pehli baar apni hi Ammi ko ek alag nazariye se dekhne par majboor kar diya.


Ammi ne meri taraf dekhkar ek feeki si muskurahat di aur kaha, "Shukriya Sahil, agar tu nahi hota to aaj pata nahi kya hota..."


Unki woh shahad si meethi aawaaz mere kaanon mein mishri ki tarah ghuli, aur maine bas itna socha ki main ta-umra unki dhaal bankar khada rahunga.


Train ki dim light aur pahiyon ki goonj ke beech, woh safar mere wajood mein ek aisi halchal macha raha tha jise main chaahkar bhi daba nahi pa raha tha. Main Ammi ke bilkul bagal mein satkar baitha tha. Nani khidki waali seat par gehri neend mein thin, unki halki kharraton ki aawaaz dibbe ke sannaate in ghul rahi thi.


Ammi ka woh kaala dheela-dhala abaya ab humare beech ki doori ko mitane mein naakaam saabit ho raha tha. Train ki har thartharahat aur har mod par aane wala jhatka Ammi ke narm aur garm jism ko mere shareer se zor se takra deta tha.


Jab bhi train ki raftaar tez hoti, unka bhaari aur sudaul seena meri baanh se ragad khaata, jisse mujhe us makhmali dabaav ka gehra ahsaas hota. Unke jism ki woh aag jaisi tapish abaya ke kapde ko paar kar mere jism mein utar rahi thi, jisse meri nason mein ek ajeeb si bechaini daudne lagi.


Abaya ki aasteenon se baahar jhaankte unke doodhiya safed haath chandni mein aur bhi haseen lag rahe the. Unse aati lotion aur chameli ki mili-juli bheeni khushboo mere nathuno se takrakar mere dimaag mein ek nasha sa ghol rahi thi.


"Beta, Delhi mein bahut maza aayega," Ammi ne aahista se fusfusakar kaha.


Unki woh shahad si meethi aawaaz aur unke labon ki garmahat mere kaan ke paas mehsoos hui, jisse mere ronte khade ho gaye. Unki aankhon mein shaadi ki khushi thi, par meri nazrein unke un gulaabi hothon aur us lambi surahidaar gardan par tik gayi thin jo naqab hatne ke baad ab poori tarah numaya thi.


Train ki ek zordaar vibration ne Ammi ko poori tarah meri taraf dhakel diya. Unka chauda koohey meri jaangh se zor se sata aur unki patli kamar ka jhukav mere par aa tika. Us pal mujhe gehraayi se ahsaas hua ki meri Ammi kitni sexy aur dilkash hain. Unke badan ka har curve, har ubhaar ek qayamat tha. Mere andar kaamukta ki ek tez lahar uthi, jisne mere dil ki dhadkanein bekaaboo kar din.


Par jaise hi yeh khayal aaya, mere zehan mein ek bijli si kaundhi. 'Yeh kya soch raha hoon main? Yeh gunaah hai, mahapaap hai!' Maine jhatke se apni aankhein band kar lin aur us zahreele magar meethe khayal ko jhatakne ki koshish ki.


Woh meri Ammi thin, meri jannat. Lekin unke badan ki woh chhuan aur woh khushboo mujhe baar-baat usi daldal ki taraf kheench rahi thi. Maine apna sar unke kandhe par tika diya, par train ki har harkat unke narm gosht ko mujhse ragad rahi thi, jo mujhe baar-baar yeh yaad dila raha tha ki meri 'jannat' is duniya ki sabse khoobsurat aur kashish bhari aurat hai. Woh raat mahaz ek safar nahi, balki mere andar shuru hone waale ek naye aur khatarnak adhyay ki pehli dastak thi.