Adultery आप-बीती ~ Truth is Dark

[Rajan Raghuwanshi]

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Kisi tarah main bablu ke ghar pahucha. Mujhe dekhte hi wo puchhne laga ki aane me maine itni der kyo laga di. Ab bhala main use kaise batata aur kaise samjhata ki der se kyo aaya tha main. Baapu ne maa ki kasam khila di thi is liye usko sach bata bhi nahi sakta tha. Waise baapu ne aur to sab samjha diya tha lekin ye nahi kaha tha ki is baat ke baad kisi ke saamne khud ko samaanya bhi banaye rakhna. Mujhe bhi is baat ka khayaal nahi tha. Tabhi to bablu ke paas ho kar bhi main usi sab ke bare me soche ja raha tha. Main chaah kar bhi us manjar ko bhula nahi pa raha tha.

"Kya hua tujhe. Bata kyo nahi raha ki itni der kaise hui aane me."

Mujhe chupchap sochta dekh bablu ne fir puchha.

"W..wo main baapu ko bulane ke liye kheto ki taraf chala gaya tha." Maine hadbada kar jaldi se bataya use─"Isi liye aane me der lagi. Ab tu ye chhod aur chal jaldi. Bahut garmi lag rahi hai mujhe."

"Haan chal chalte hain."

Main aur bablu nadi taraf chal pade. Wo thoda batooni kism ka tha is liye pure raaste wo bematlab ki baate karta raha jabki main ek baar fir se usi sabke bare me sochte huye gum ho gaya tha.

Mere man me ab sawaal khade hone lage the. Ab main khud se hi sawaal kar raha tha ki mere baapu apne hi majhle bhai ki biwi ke sath aisa galat kaam kaise kar sakte hain. Aur to aur majhli kaki khud apne mard ke rahte aisa kaise kar sakti hai. Mere baapu to uske jeth lagte hain. Matlab ki jeth ko to wo chhooti bhi nahi hain fir unhi ke sath itna bada galat kaam kaise kar rahi thi wo. Kya un dono ko aisa karna bilkul bhi galat nahi lagta.

Main aur bablu kabhi kabhar is tarah ki baate kar liya karte the. Bablu ka mere alawa ek aur dost tha jo bablu ko aksar aisi hi baate mirch masala laga kar bataya karta tha. Fir bablu wo sab mujhe bataya karta. 

Shuruaat me mujhe aisi baate sunne me ajeeb laga karta tha aur sharm bhi aaya karti thi. Magar dhire dhire aisi baato me ruchi hone lagi thi. Jab bablu apne dost ki aisi baato ko usi ke jaise mirch masala laga kar batata to mere andar gudgudi hone lagti thi. Ek romanchkari ehsaas hota. Pure jism me jhurjhuri hone lagti aur man me ajeeb si tarange uthne lagti thi. Bablu ki najro se bacha kar main aksar apne jism ke us ang ko bheench diya karta jis ang se ham mard peshaab karte hain. Bheench is liye deta tha kyoki wo mere chhote se pent me khada ho jata tha aur usme ajeeb si jhanjhanahat hone lag jati thi. Shuruaat me mujhe badi hairaani hoti thi lekin fir samajh aa gaya tha ki aisi hi baato aur kaamo se to uska gahra talluk hai.

Khair main yahi soch raha tha ki aakhir baapu aur kaki aisa kaise kar sakte hain. Matlab jo cheej aise rishto me galat hai use wo kaise kar sakte hain. Maine is bare me bahut socha magar kuch samajh na aaya ki dono ne aisa kyo kiya hoga.

Achanak mujhe khayaal aaya ki aisa unhone aaj se pahle bhi kiya hoga. Shayad haan kyoki aisi cheeje ek din me nahi hua karti hain. Matlab ki do log pahle aisi cheejo ke liye mel milaap ka tarika apnaate hain. Aapas me baatcheet hoti hai. Aise kaam ke liye dono ki rajamandi hoti hai. Tabhi ja kar unke aapas me aise sambandh bante hain. Thoda samay to pakka lagta hai lekin ye bhi sach hai ki jab ek baar sambandh ban jata hai to dubara banne me samay nahi lagta. Jism me jab hawas ki aag lagti hai to bas mauke ki hi talash hoti hai.

Iska matlab baapu aur kaki bahut pahle se aisa taal mel banaye huye the aur aise najayaj sambandh ke liye raaji ho rakhe hain. Is nateeje ne mere andar ajeeb si sansani faila di.

"Tujhe kuch sunaai bhi de raha hai ya bahra ho gaya hai."

Achanak bablu ki tej awaaj mere kaano me padi to main uchhal pada. Ham dono nadi ke paas pahuch chuke the aur wo mujhe hi ghoore ja raha tha.

"Aaj kuch hua hai kya tere sath." Usne bade dhyaan se mujhe dekha─"Kab se dekh raha hu tujhe. Tu saale meri kisi baat ka jawaab hi nahi de raha. Aree jawaab to door ki baat hai tu to meri kisi baat par hu haan bhi nahi kar raha. Kya ho gaya hai...jaldi bata mujhe."

Main uski baat sun kar buri tarah ghabra gaya. Ghabra is liye gaya kyoki mere andar ek aisa raaj kaid tha jo agar kisi ko pata chal jaye to aafat hi aa jaye. Bablu ne jis tarah baat ki thi usse mujhe aisa abhaas hua jaise use sab kuch pata chal gaya ho.

"K..kuch nahi...aisi baat nahi hai." Maine jaldi se baat banaai─"Bas aaj thodi tabiyat sahi nahi lag rahi hai."

"Gaand tod dooga teri jhooth bolega to." Bablu ne aankhe dikhaai─"Saaf saaf bata...kya chhupa raha hai mujhse."

Main ashcharya se aankhe faad kar dekhne laga use. Meri dhadkane ye soch kar tej ho gai ki kahi sach me use sab kuch pata to nahi chal gaya. Anjaan is liye ban raha hai kyoki wo sab kuch mere mukh se sunna chaahta hai.

Agle kuch hi palo me meri haalat ajeeb si ho gai. Kaano me baapu ki kahi baat goonjne lagi aur aakhir me di hui maa ki kasam kisi bomb ki tarah tej awaaj karte huye footne lagi.

"M...mera yakeen kar yaar." Maine mushkil se khud ko samhala─"Sach me aaj tabiyat thodi kharab hai. Mera to aaj yaha nadi me nahane ka bhi man nahi tha. Chala is liye aaya hu kyoki agar nahi aata to tu gussa hota."

Bablu ek baar fir bade dhyaan se dekhne laga mujhe. Uske is tarah dekhne se meri dhadkane fir se tej chalne lagi. Andar ki ghabrahat me bhi ijafa ho gaya. Man hi man maine ye kahte huye bhagwan ko yaad kiya ki aaj bacha le bablu se.

"Waise teri haalat dekh kar mujhe bhi lag raha hai ki teri tabiyat kuch thik nahi hai." Tabhi bablu bola─"Achha thik hai....Tu nadi me mat nahana...bas yahi par baith ja. Main jaldi se aath das dubki laga kar aur thoda sa tair kar aata hu. Fir main tere sath tere ghar chaluga. Kaki se boluga ki teri tabiyat thik nahi hai is liye saroja taai se dava mangwa le."

Bablu ki is baat se main ekdam chaunk pada. Asal me main nahi chaahta tha ki bablu tabiyat ke bare me meri maa se kuch kahe. Kyoki aise me kai sawaalo ke jawaab mujhe dene pad jaate jo mere liye jara bhi asaan nahi ho sakta tha.

"A..aree nahi nahi yaar." Main jhat se bola─"Dawa wava ki jarurat nahi hai. Wo kya hai ki garmi jyada ho gai hai. Ghar ja kar araam karuga to sab thik ho jayega."

"Tu sach kah raha hai na."

"Haan yaar...bhala jhooth kyo boluga tujhse."

"Bolna bhi nahi warna jaanta hai na...gaand tod duga teri." Bablu ne geedad bhabhki di─"Ab tu baith yahi par. Main aata hu thodi der me."

Bablu ne fatafat kapde utaare aur kood pada bahti nadi me. Hakikat ye thi ki usse kahi jyada chahat meri thi nadi me kood padne ki magar ab main aisa na karne ke liye majboor ho chuka tha. Tabiyat ka bahana banane ke baad main nadi me nahi kood sakta tha warna bablu fir aise sawaal karne lagta jinke jawaab main nahi de pata. Is liye aisi garmi me apni chahat ka balidan kar dene se mujhe badi mayusi hui. Khair ab main yahi chahta tha ki kitna jaldi wo nadi se baahar aaye aur fir ham dono apne apne ghar jaye.

Aakhir kuch samay baad wo baahar aaya. Maine kuch bolna thik nahi samjha is liye chup hi raha. Jab usne khud ko pochh kar kapde pahan liye to ham dono chal pade.

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Ghar me baapu se saamna ho jata is liye main seedha kheto ki taraf hi aa gaya tha. Man me abhi bhi wahi sab chal raha tha. Aankho ke saamne wahi manjar chamak uthta tha. Baapu ka kamar ke niche pura nanga jism dikh jata. Unke nange pond(Nitamb) dikh jate. Kaki ki nangi taange aur bhari bhari jaanghe chamak uthti aur kaano me goonj uthti unki wo maadak siski jo us wakt mere kaano me pahuch gai thi.

Main bahut koshish kar raha tha us sabko bhulane ki magar bhula nahi pa raha tha. Aaj se pahle maine apne ghar pariwar ki kisi bhi aurat ya ladki ko na to belibaas dekha tha aur na hi kabhi unke bare me galat socha tha. Magar aaj ki is ghatna ne mujhe andar tak jhakjhor diya tha. Ek aise ladke ko gahraai se sochne par majboor kar diya tha jo ab se pahle tak sirf khelne koodne me hi magan rahta tha.

Baar baar main apne man se us sabko jhatakta magar agle hi pal wo fir se mere man mastishk me aa kar baith jata tha. Sab kuch is tarah tarotaja ho jata tha jaise wo sab abhi isi pal me hua ho. Sach kahu to ab is sabse pareshan aur bechain hone laga tha main. Samajh nahi aa raha tha ki kaha jaau aur kaise apne dimag se is sabko nikaalu.

Makaan ke baahar hi ek neem ka pedh tha jiski chhaav me baitha tha main. Is wakt kheto par mere siva koi nahi tha. Iske bavjood andar us kamre me jane ki meri himmat nahi ho rahi thi jis kamre me us samay baapu aur kaki najayaj sambandh banane me lage huye the.

Main sochne lagta ki kya majhle kaka ko is baat ka pata hoga. Jawaab me mujhe yahi lagta ki unhe is bare me kuch pata nahi hoga. Bhala duniya me aisa kaun mard hoga jo apne hi bade bhai ke sath apni hi biwi ke najayaj sambandh ko bardast kar lega.

Matlab saaf hai ki majhle kaka ko ye sab bilkul bhi pata nahi ho sakta. Iska matlab yahi hua ki ek taraf mere baapu pariwar ke sath chhal kar rahe hain aur dusri taraf manju kaki apne pati ko dhokha de rahi hai. Matlab dono hi ek aisa gunaah kar rahe hain jiske bare me agar kisi ko pata chal jaye to pakka kayamat aa jayegi.

Ek tarah se dekha jaye to hamare pure pariwar ke mukhiya mere baapu hi hain. Bhale hi ghar alag alag hain lekin umar me sabse bade hone ke naate har tarah ki jimmedari unke hi upar hai. Ek achhe charitra ka mukhiya kabhi bhi aisa nahi chaah sakta ki uske pariwar ka koi bhi sadasya apne hi pariwar ki kisi aurat ke sath najayaj sambandh banane ka soche. Ab jab yaha par mukhiya hi sabki najro me dhool jhonk kar aisa najayaj sambandh bana baitha hai to kya kaha jaye.
 
Insaan jab sochna shuru kar deta hai to uski kalpanaye jane kaha kaha parwaj karne lagti hain. Is wakt yahi ho raha tha mere sath. Main kalpana kar raha tha ki kya majhli kaki ke alawa mere baapu ka aisa najayaj sambandh chhoti kaki se bhi hoga. Waise chhote kaka ka byaah teen saal pahle hi hua tha. Unko ek beti hai jo abhi bahut hi chhoti hai. To main kalpana kar raha tha ki kya baapu ka najayaj sambandh chhoti kaki se bhi hoga....Main kya karu...Aaj jo dekha hai uski vajah se ab main kuch bhi sochne ko majboor ho chuka tha.

Chhote kaka ka naam Shyam charan hai. Maa baapu aur majhle kaka ke alawa gaav ke log unhe shyam ya shyamu kahte hain. Main bhi unhe shyamu kaka bolta hu aur majhle kaka ko dashrath kaka. Shyamu kaka ka byaah mere saamne hi hua tha. Matlab chhoti kaki sangita mere saamne hi dulhan ban ke ghar aai thi. Uske baad se ab tak maine kabhi bhi unke bartaav me aisa kuch mahsoos nahi kiya tha jisse main ye kah saku ki wo aisi waisi soch wali aurat ho sakti hain. Waise aaj se pahle tak to main manju kaki ke bare me bhi yahi samajhta tha lekin aaj maine unki jis tarah ki hakikat dekhi thi uski vajah se ab yahi lagne laga hai ki maa ke alawa sab unke jaisi hi hongi.

Meri soch badal chuki thi. Ab iske alawa main kuch aur soch hi nahi sakta tha. Maine sapne me bhi nahi socha tha ki ek din mujhe is tarah ki hakikat ke sath jhatka lagega.

Main samajh nahi pa raha tha ki is sabke baad ab mujhe kya karna chahiye. Mere man me ab ye jaanne ki utsukta hone lagi thi ki baapu aur manju kaki ne aapas me is tarah ka sambandh kaise bana liya hoga. Aakhir dono ke bich aisi kaun si sthiti bani hogi jisse dono ke man me aisa karne ka khayaal aaya aur fir dono ne aisa najayaj rishta bana liya.

Ek aur sawaal mere man achanak se aa raha tha aur wo ye tha ki kya baapu ki tarah mere dono kaka bhi aisi soch wale hoge. Waise to maine un dono me se kisi ko bhi aisi kisi sthiti me nahi dekha tha aur na hi kabhi aisa unke bare me socha tha magar aaj ki is ghatna ke baad meri kalpanaye maano kuch bhi soch lene ke liye ajaad ho chuki thi.

Maine soch liya ki ab is bare me main khojbeen karuga. Matlab ki ab main chori chhupe sab par najar rakhuga aur jaanne ki koshish karuga ki is pariwar me baapu aur manju kaki ke alawa aur kaun hai jo aisa sochta hai aur aisa karta hai. Waise jaruri nahi ki sab aisa hi sochte ya karte ho lekin main ab apni utsukta aur byaakulta ko mitane ke liye iska pata laga kar hi rahuga.

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"Aree kareja tu akele yaha kya kar raha hai." 

Shyamu kaka ki awaaj sunte hi main chaunk pada. Wo bade pyar se mujhe kareja(Kaleja/Jigar ka tukda) kahte hain.

"Is pedh ke niche mast thandi hawa lag rahi thi kaka to yahi baith gaya." Maine bataya.

"Bade bhaiya aur Dashrath bhaiya khana kha ke abhi nahi aaye kya."

"Aaye hote to kya wo dono yaha dikhte nahi kaka."

Main shararat se muskura utha.

"Tu ab bada ho gaya hai kareja." Shyamu kaka ne mere sir par hath fera─"Is liye ab ye shararte karna band kar de aur apne kaka logo ki kaam me madad kiya kar. Hame bhi thodi raahat mil jayegi."

"Haan to maine kab mana kiya kaka. Tum hi bataao kya karu main."

"Hansiya se gehu kaat'te to banega nahi tujhse." Kaka ne kaha─"To tu ek kaam kar kate huye gehu ki pulliya bana. Ye to tu kar hi lega na."

"Tum ek baar kar ke bata do kaka." Main uth kar khada ho gaya─"Fir main bhi waise hi karne laguga."

"Shabaash...chal abhi kar ke batata hu tujhe."

Thodi hi der me main shyamu kaka ke sath us khet me aa gaya jisme kataai lagi thi. Pure khet me kate huye gehu ke chhote chhote gatthe pade huye the.

"Dekh ye wala gattha maine paani me fulaane ke liye rakha tha." Kaka ne kahi se gehu ka ek aisa gattha la kar dikhaya jisme se paani ris ris ke jameen par gir raha tha─"Ab tu puchhega ki pani me kyo to wo is liye kyoki isse gehu ke pedh ekdam mulayam ho jate hain aur modne par ya gaanth baandhne par toot'te nahi hain."

"Haan ye to main jaanta hu kaka."

"To ab achhe se dekh ki kaise main in chhote chhote gattho ko samet ke thode bade akaar me ek gattha bana kar bheege huye bandhna se baandhta hu."

Kahne ke sath hi kaka ne bheege huye gehu ke kareeb aath das pedh nikaale. Fir usme se chaar ya paanch ki sankhya me alag alag do bhaag banaya. Fir dono ke chhoro me gaanth laga di jisse dono ko mila kar ek bada sa bandhna ban gaya. Fir use jameen par seedhe akaar me rakh diya. Uske baad wo kate huye gehu ke chhote chhote gattho ko utha utha kar usme ikattha rakhne lage. 

"Isme kam se kam chhote chhote ye saat aath gatthe rakhne hain." Gatthe rakhne ke baad kaka ne use bandhna se baandhte huye bataya─"Fir is tarah se is pure gatthe ko achhe se baandh dena hai. Bas isi tarah ye pulli ban kar taiyar ho jati hai. Tujhe samajh aa gaya na."

"Ye karna to bahut asaan hai kaka."

 "Achha....agar tujhe asaan lagta hai to jaise maine banaya hai waise hi pulli bana ke dikha."

Shyamu kaka ne muskura kar kaha to maine haan me sir hilaya aur lag gaya kaam par. Main bhi ab sab kuch waise hi karne laga tha jaise kaka ne kiya tha. Kuch der baad pulli taiyar kar ke main seedha khada ho gaya. Pulli ki gaanth waisi nahi laga paaya tha jaise kaka ne lagaai thi lekin kisi tarah pulli bana hi daali thi maine.

"Dekh lo kaka...bana liya na maine." Maine garv se seena chauda kar ke kaha to kaka hans pade.

"Bahut badhiya kareja." Kaka ne meri peeth thapthapaai─"Mujhe khushi hui ki mere batane par ek hi baar me tu pulli banana aur use baandhna seekh gaya. Ab isi tarah tu jitni pulliya bana sakta hai bana daal. Baaki to ham kar hi lenge."

"Thik hai kaka."

Maine josh me kaha aur kaam par lag gaya.

Kaka muskurate huye dusre khet ki taraf chale gaye. Mere liye ye kaam naya tha is liye main pure josh ke sath jaldi jaldi pulliya baandhne me lag gaya tha. Josh aur jaldbaaji ki vajah se jaldi hi main paseene me bheeg gaya. Garmi jyada thi. Sir ke upar hi tapta hua suraj tha. Khair maine kameej utaar kar ek taraf rakh di aur fir se kaam me lag gaya.

Iska asar ye hua ki main us baat ko bilkul hi bhool gaya jis ko kaka ke aane se pahle tak soch soch ke pareshan aur bechain ho gaya tha main. Ab mere man me sirf yahi tha ki mujhe is wale khet ki saari pulliya baandh kar is khet ka kaam khatm karna hai. Apni dhun me main jane kab tak isi tarah pulliya banaya raha. Kuch samay baad achanak maa ki awaaj sun chaunk pada main.

Palat kar dekha to maa ke sath sath manju kaki aur sangita kaki par najar padi. Maa hairani se dekh rahi mujhe.

"Aree waah...Aaj to mera raj dulara bahut jayada kaam kar raha hai." Fir unhone apni mamta barsate huye kaha─"Mujhe pata tha ki jab mera raja beta kheto ka kaam karega to wo apne dono kakao ko bhi peechhe kar dega."

"Tum bilkul sach kah rahi ho jiji." Sangita kaki ne muskurate huye kaha─"Hamare raju sachmuch apne kaka logo ko peechhe kar dege."

Maa aur chhoti kaki ke baad ekaek meri najar manju kaki par padi. Jaise hi unse meri najre mili to wo hadbada si gai aur jhat se najre jhuka kar pare dekhne lagi. Unhe dekhte hi mere andar halchal shuru ho gai thi. Jis sabko ab tak main bhula baitha tha wo fir se mere man me ubhar aaya tha. Ek baar fir se aankho ke saamne wahi manjar chamakne laga tha.

"Mere bete ke kaam par najar mat laga dena tu." Udhar maa ne sangita kaki par jhutha gussa dikhaya─"Chal ab yaha se. Bahut kaatna baaki hai abhi."

Maa chhoti kaki ko le kar dusre kheto ki taraf badh chali jabki manju kaki waise hi apni jagah par khadi rahi. Kuch palo tak main bhi ajeeb si kasmakas ke sath khada raha fir palat kar apne kaam par lag gaya.

Mere andar abhi bhi halchal machi hui thi. Dil ki dhadkane tej tej chal rahi thi. Man to kar raha tha ki kaki ko yaha par akela dekh jaau aur unse puchhu ki us samay wo mere baapu ke sath kya kar rahi thi lekin main chaah kar bhi unse kuch puchhne ki himmat na kar saka.


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