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Insaan ki kismat kab badal jaye koi kalpana bhi nahi kar sakta. Kabhi kabhi insaan kismat ke badalne ka besabri se intjar karta hai to kabhi chahta hai ki abhi jaisa chal raha hai waisa hi chalta rahe. Lekin aisa hota nahi hai kyoki sab kuch insaan ke chaahne se nahi hota.
Upar wala ek aisa khiladi hai jiske saamne har Khiladi maat kha jata hai. Uske paas itni taakat hai ki wo jab chaahe jis pal chaahe insaan ki takdeer badal de. Uske baad insaan ek baar fir se wahi karne lag jata hai jo wo hamesha se karta aaya hai.
Maine kabhi nahi socha tha ki mere sath ek din kismat ka khel aise shuru hoga aur fir mere andar is tarah badlaav hona shuru ho jayega. Main to aisa tha jo apni chhoti chhoti khushiyo me hi magan rahta tha. Jaise apni umar ke ladko ke sath khelna koodna. Nadi me ja kar dubki lagana aur ji bhar ke tairna. Apne dosto ke sath chori chhupe sarpanch ke baag me ghus kar aam tod kar khana.
Duniyadari se koi matlab hi nahi tha aur na hi duniyadari ki samajh thi. Aisa nahi tha ki main koi nasamajh bachcha tha lekin jawaani ki dahleej par pahuch kar bhi main thoda bhola aur nadaan tha. Maa baapu ka laadla tha lekin bachpan se hi aise sanskaar mile the ki main na to kabhi galat raaste par gaya aur na hi laad pyar ki vajah se bigda.
Mere hisaab se mere jeewan ka abhi tak ka safar achha hi gujar raha tha. Khair jaisa ki maine bataya kismat kab badal jaye koi kalpana bhi nahi kar sakta. Kismat jab kisi insaan ke jeewan me dakhal deti hai to sab kuch badalne lagta hai. Shuru shuru me hame ajeeb to lagta hai lekin majboori ya fir utsukta ke chalte ham cheejo par ruchi lene lagte hain aur jab usse hame achha mahsoos hota hai to baar baar us cheej par ruchi lene lagte hain. Kyoki usme hame ek alag hi maje ka abhaas hota hai.
Aisa bhi hota hai ki shuru shuru me sab ajeeb lagta hai aur is baat ka bhi ehsaas hota hai ki ye galat hai magar kyoki wo cheej hamare liye ekdam nai hoti hai aur usse hame ek alag hi maje ka ehsaas ho raha hota hai is liye ham us khayaal ko dimag se jhatak dete hain jo hame ye ehsaas karwata hai ki ye galat hai.
Aisa nahi hai ki jo cheej galat hoti hai use kismat hi sahi thahraati hai balki kismat ya fir ye kahe ki hamara jameer galat cheej hone ka abhaas karaata hai. Magar kyoki hame us nai cheej me itni ruchi aur itna maja aane lagta hai ki ham us galat ko pahle najarandaj karte hain aur fir ham khud hi dhire dhire faisla kar lete hain ki sab sahi hai.
Khair mera ye maamla bhi aisa hi tha jise main gujarte wakt ke sath sahi thahrata chala gaya tha. Kuch to bholapan aur nadaani ke kaaran aur kuch us nai cheej se milne wale ek anokhe maje ke kaaran.
Maine kalpana bhi nahi ki thi ki wo din mere jeewan ka aisa din banne wala tha jisse mere sochne samajhne ka tarika hi badal jayega.
To chaliye dosto main aap sabko apne us ateet ki taraf le chalta hu jahan se is kahani ka agaaj hua tha
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"Are ab kaha ja raha hai tu?"
Main khana kha ke jaise hi chauke se baahar jane laga to maa ne jhat pucha.
"Khet ja raha hu maa."
"Sach me?"
Maa ne beyakini se meri taraf dekha.
"Haan maa." Main thoda hadbadaya─"Tumne hi to kaha tha ki kha ke sidha khet jaau aur baapu ko khana khane ke liye bhej du."
"Are waah mera raj dulara to bada agyakaari ho gaya hai." Maa ne aankhe nacha kar kaha to main muskura utha─"Thik hai ja aur jaldi bhej dena baapu ko. Waise bhi aaj der ho gai hai."
Maine muskurate huye daud laga di kheto ki taraf. Khet jyada door nahi the balki gaav ke pichhe taraf hi the. Ghar se waha tak pahuchne me mushkil se das minute lagta tha aur agar main daudte huye jaau to usse bhi kam samay lagta tha. Aam taur par main daudte huye hi jata tha kyoki apne dost bablu ke sath mujhe khelne bhi jana hota tha.
Us din bhi main kheto ki taraf daudte huye hi ja raha tha. Man me bas yahi tha ki baapu ko boluga ki maa ne khana khane ke liye bulaya hai. Uske baad wahi se bablu ke ghar ki taraf daud laga dooga.
Ham gaav ke sadharan log the. Jyada dhan sampatti nahi thi hamare paas. Hamara gujara kheto me upje anaaj se hi hota tha lekin iske bavjood ham apne is chhote se sansaar me khush the.
Biraadri ke logo se hamari haalat thodi si achhi thi kyoki hamare paas unse thoda sa jyada jameene thi. Yu to baapu ka aur unke dono bhaiyo ka batwara pahle hi ho gaya tha lekin kheti baadi abhi bhi ek me hi thi. Matlab jameeno ka batwara abhi tak nahi hua tha.
Teeno bhaiyo ka prem aur taalmel thoda achha tha is liye bina kisi ladaai jhagde ya man mutaav ke sab achha hi chalta aaya tha. Apne dono bhaiyo me baapu sabse bade the is liye sabhi faisle wahi karte the magar aakhiri faisla wahi hota tha jisme baaki do bhaiyo ki bhi rajamandi ho.
Jaisa ki maine bataya batwara pahle hi ho chuka tha. Matlab ghar alag alag the teeno bhaiyo ke. Purane ghar ke alawa gaav ke andar hi hamari thodi si jameen padi thi jise baapu ne apne dono bhaiyo ko ghar banane ke liye de di thi. Iske alawa kheto par bhi hamara ek chhota sa makaan bana hua tha. Us chhote se makaan me ek taraf maweshi baandhe jate the aur ek taraf ke hisse me bhoosa wagaira rakha rahta tha. Iske alawa saamne wale hisse ke daahini taraf ek chhota sa kamra tha jisme kuch jaruri samaan rakha rahta tha. Ek khaat bhi rakhi hoti thi jo araam karne ke liye hoti thi.
Hamare kheto ke paas se hi ek nadi gai hui thi jo aage sarpanch ke kheto se hote huye dusre gaav nikal gai thi. Garmiyo me main aur bablu isi nadi me dubkiya lagaate aur ji bhar ke tairte the. Sarpanch ke kheto ke paas hi nadi me dono taraf pakka paat tha jisme do teen seedhiya thi. Gaav ke jyadatar log wahi par garmiyo me nahaate the.
Us din maa ke kahne par main daudte huye kheto ki taraf ja raha tha. Bachpan se hi daudne me raftaar tej thi is liye main kuch hi der me kheto par pahuch gaya tha. Garmi ab joro ki hone lagi thi is liye jaldi hi main paseene me naha gaya tha. Haafne bhi laga tha lekin iski parwaah nahi thi mujhe. Baad me bablu ke sath nadi me nahana jo tha mujhe.
Kheto par main baapu ko idhar udhar dekhne laga magar wo mujhe kahi na dikhe. Gehu ki paki hui fasal aadhi kat gai thi aur baaki kaatne ke liye khadi thi.
Kuch doori par ek khet me majhle kaka gehu kaatne me lage huye the. Khet me wo akele hi kataai kar rahe the. Kaki shayad ghar ja chuki thi kyoki dopahar ke khane ke liye khana bhi banana hota tha unko. Chhote kaka bhi kahi najar na aaye aur na hi chhoti kaki. Shayad wo dono ghar ja chuke the.
Kismat jab koi naya khel shuru karti hai to sabse pahle isi tarah wakt aur haalaat banaati hai jisse insaan us wakt bhram ka shikaar ho jata hai. Baad me ham alag alag baate bana kar usko alag roop me jaahir kar dete hain.
Us wakt main majhle kaka ko awaaj laga kar unse baapu ke bare me puchh sakta tha lekin us wakt mere man me aisa karne ka khayaal is liye bhi nahi aaya tha kyoki mujhe apne dost bablu ke paas jane ki jaldi thi. Dusre mujhe ye bhi pata tha ki baapu agar kheto par nahi hain to jarur makan ke andar us chhote se kamre me rakhi khaat par araam kar rahe honge.
Beshak sab kuch vidhaata ki marji se hi hota hai lekin kabhi kabhi insaan khud bhi nasamjhi kar jata hai. Maine us wakt baapu ke bare me majhle kaka se nahi puchha. Agar puchhne ke liye awaaz lagaai hoti to shayad ye kahani aisi ban hi nahi sakti thi. Meri kismat to ek din jarur badalti magar uski ibaarat is tarah nahi likhi jaati.
Jab main samajh gaya ki baapu kamre me hi khaat par araam kar rahe honge to jhat us taraf teji se chal pada. Yaha bhi aisa ho sakta tha ki main andar ghusne se pahle baapu ko awaaj laga deta magar us wakt maine ye bhi nahi kiya tha. Shayad niyati kuch jyada hi jor lagaye huye thi ki main sirf wahi karu jo wo chaahti hai.
Warna aksar main awaaz laga diya karta tha. Is liye nahi ki mujhe baapu se ya kisi se bhi kisi galat haalaat ki ummid hoti thi ya aisi jankaari hoti thi balki aisa is liye ki main bhola aur nadaan tha. Dusre sabka laadla tha to bejhijhak kahi bhi kuch bhi bol deta tha magar us din kyoki sab kuch badal jana tha is liye niyati ne maano mujhe khamosh hi kar diya tha.
Mere man me bas yahi tha ki jald se jald main baapu ko khana khane ke liye bol du aur fir bhaag kar bablu ke ghar chala jaau. Magar kya pata tha ki agle kuch hi palo me kuch aisa ho jayega jiski main kalpana bhi nahi kiye huye tha.
Jaldbaaji ke chakkar me main jaldi hi makaan ke andar daakhil hua. Andar baye taraf wale hisse me bhoosa rakha hua tha aur daahine taraf ke hisse me wahi chhota sa kamra tha.
Us wakt kamre ka darwaja aapas me bhida hua tha. Main usi jaldbaaji me aage badha aur us darwaje ko ek hi jhatke me andar ki taraf dhakel kar khol diya. Agle hi pal aankho ke saamne jo najara dikha usse meri aankhe fati ki fati rah gai.
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Kamre me baapu meri taraf peeth kiye khade the. Unki lungi jameen par hi ek taraf padi thi. Matlab wo kamar se niche pura nange the. Unke aage majhli kaki thi jo saamne khaat ki paat ko pakde aage ki taraf jhuki hui thi. Unka bhi kamar ke niche ka pura hissa nanga tha. Unki dhoti aur saya unki kamar ke paas tha jise baapu apne dono hatho se dabaye apni kamar ko aage pichhe kiye ja rahe the. Mere kaano me kaki ki maadak siski padi thi. Majhli kaki ki nangi taange aur gudaaj jaanghe saaf dikh rahi thi.
Ab itna bhi bhola aur nadaan nahi tha main ki un dono ko is haalat me dekh kar kuch samajhta hi nahi. Jawaani ki dahleej par pahuch chuka tha main is liye mard aur aurat ke bich hone wale aise sambandho se waakif tha main. Ye alag baat hai ki khud mere man me kabhi aisa karne ka khayaal nahi aaya tha.
Baapu aur kaki ko aisi haalat me dekh main aankhe faade bhauchakka sa darwaje par hi khada rah gaya tha. Jabki udhar jaise hi bhadaak ki awaaj ke sath darwaja khula tha to wo dono buri tarah uchhal pade the. Dar aur ghabrahat ke maare kuch hi palo me dono ka bura haal ho gaya tha.
Baapu ne jaldi hi khud ko samhala aur fir jhatpat paas hi padi apni lungi ko utha kar use kamar me lapet liya. Dusri taraf kaki ka dar se jyada sharm ki vajah se bura haal hua ja raha tha. Hosh ud chuke the unke magar fir jaise unhe apni haalat ka khayaal aaya to unhone bhi badi teji se dhoti saya niche gira kar apne nangepan ko chhupa liya. Iske baad jab unse waha par khade rahna mushkil ho gaya to fauran hi kamre se baahar nikal gai. Mujhse najar tak nahi mila saki thi wo.
"R..raju tuu yaha k...kaise?"
Kaki ke jaate hi baapu ne haklaate huye mujhse puchha. Badi mushkil se wo najar mila pa rahe the mujhse.
Idhar baapu ki awaaj sunte hi maano main anjaan duniya se waapas lauta. Hadbadahat me maine ye soch kar jaldi se idhar udhar dekha ki abhi jo kuch dekha hai wo sach tha ya meri aankho ka dhokha.
"W..wo wo baapu....m..maa ne tumhe k..khana khane ke liye b..bulaya hai."
Fir maine khud ko kisi tarah samhala aur atakte huye baapu se kaha.
"A..achha h..haan." Baapu apni baukhlahat ko dabane ki koshish karte huye kaha─"T...thik hai tu ja....main aata hu thodi der me."
Koi aur wakt hota to main baapu ke itna kahte hi khushi khushi waha se daud lagate huye chala jata magar jo kuch maine dekha tha uski vajah se main andar hi andar bada ajeeb sa mahsoos karne laga tha. Main bhool chuka tha ki mujhe apne dost bablu ke paas jana hai.
"A...achha sun." Tabhi baapu ne mere kareeb aa kar kaha─"I...iske bare me k..kisi ko kuch mat b..batana. Samajha na?"
"K..kiske bare me baapu?" Main ekdam se ulajh sa gaya magar jaldi hi samajh aa gaya ki baapu kis bare me bol rahe hain.
"A..abhi jo kuch tune yaha dekha hai." Baapu apni sharm aur jhijhak ko kisi tarah daba kar aur khud ko thoda sakht dikha kar kaha─"Us bare me kisi se bhool kar bhi kuch mat kahna."
Meri haalat ajeeb si thi. Apne baapu ko main aise dekhne laga tha jaise achanak hi mere baapu koi anjaan aadmi lagne lage ho aur ab main unhe pahchaanne ki koshish kar raha hu.
"A..are chup kyo hai bol na." Mujhe ajeeb tarah se apni taraf dekhte dekh baapu shayad andar hi andar ghabra gaye is liye jhat bole─"T..tune thik se suna na maine kya kaha hai?"
Maine bina kuch bole haan me sir hila diya. Baapu ki haalat ekaek kharaab hoti ja rahi thi. Shayad unhe ye ehsaas hone laga tha ki kahi main ye baat kisi se bata na du. Itna to wo bhi jaante the ki main bhola aur nadaan hu. Sabse jyada main apni maa ko hi maanta hu aur kareeb kareeb unse saari baate bata diya karta hu.
Meri is aadat ka ehsaas hote hi baapu ki haalat kharaab hone lagi thi. Aisa nahi tha ki wo maa se darte the magar ye baat hi aisi thi ki iske chalte koi kitna hi bada soorma kyo na ho wo bhi bheegi billi ban jayega.
Koi nahi chahega ki is tarah ki baat kisi ko pata chale. Ghar me maa ko ya kisi ko bhi pata chala to pariwar me bahut bada kalesh ho jayega. Is kalesh ki vajah se baat ghar se baahar nikal jayegi aur agar gaav walo ko pata chal gaya to bahut badi badnaami wali baat ho jayegi. Biraadri ke log hi kya balki pura ka pura gaav hi hamara jeena haraam kar dega.
Baapu ne lapak kar mere dono kandhe thaam liye aur fir mujhe bade pyar se samjhaane lage. Samjhaane ke sath sath mujhe kai aisi cheejo ka pralobhan bhi dene lage jo paas ke gaav me lagne wale mele me main aksar unse lene ko kahta to wo mujhe daant diya karte the.
Kahne ka matlab ye ki baapu ne mujhe har tarah se samjhaya aur har tarah ka pralobhan diya. Main bhola aur nadaan jarur tha magar moorkh nahi tha. Jyada nahi par thoda samajhdaar bhi tha. Is liye unke samjhane par main samajh gaya tha magar shayad unhe itne par bhi tasalli na hui thi. Tabhi to aakhir me unhone mujhe maa ki kasam khila di. Main bhauchakka aur awaak sa dekhta rah gaya tha unhe.
Jaari hai............
Insaan ki kismat kab badal jaye koi kalpana bhi nahi kar sakta. Kabhi kabhi insaan kismat ke badalne ka besabri se intjar karta hai to kabhi chahta hai ki abhi jaisa chal raha hai waisa hi chalta rahe. Lekin aisa hota nahi hai kyoki sab kuch insaan ke chaahne se nahi hota.
Upar wala ek aisa khiladi hai jiske saamne har Khiladi maat kha jata hai. Uske paas itni taakat hai ki wo jab chaahe jis pal chaahe insaan ki takdeer badal de. Uske baad insaan ek baar fir se wahi karne lag jata hai jo wo hamesha se karta aaya hai.
Maine kabhi nahi socha tha ki mere sath ek din kismat ka khel aise shuru hoga aur fir mere andar is tarah badlaav hona shuru ho jayega. Main to aisa tha jo apni chhoti chhoti khushiyo me hi magan rahta tha. Jaise apni umar ke ladko ke sath khelna koodna. Nadi me ja kar dubki lagana aur ji bhar ke tairna. Apne dosto ke sath chori chhupe sarpanch ke baag me ghus kar aam tod kar khana.
Duniyadari se koi matlab hi nahi tha aur na hi duniyadari ki samajh thi. Aisa nahi tha ki main koi nasamajh bachcha tha lekin jawaani ki dahleej par pahuch kar bhi main thoda bhola aur nadaan tha. Maa baapu ka laadla tha lekin bachpan se hi aise sanskaar mile the ki main na to kabhi galat raaste par gaya aur na hi laad pyar ki vajah se bigda.
Mere hisaab se mere jeewan ka abhi tak ka safar achha hi gujar raha tha. Khair jaisa ki maine bataya kismat kab badal jaye koi kalpana bhi nahi kar sakta. Kismat jab kisi insaan ke jeewan me dakhal deti hai to sab kuch badalne lagta hai. Shuru shuru me hame ajeeb to lagta hai lekin majboori ya fir utsukta ke chalte ham cheejo par ruchi lene lagte hain aur jab usse hame achha mahsoos hota hai to baar baar us cheej par ruchi lene lagte hain. Kyoki usme hame ek alag hi maje ka abhaas hota hai.
Aisa bhi hota hai ki shuru shuru me sab ajeeb lagta hai aur is baat ka bhi ehsaas hota hai ki ye galat hai magar kyoki wo cheej hamare liye ekdam nai hoti hai aur usse hame ek alag hi maje ka ehsaas ho raha hota hai is liye ham us khayaal ko dimag se jhatak dete hain jo hame ye ehsaas karwata hai ki ye galat hai.
Aisa nahi hai ki jo cheej galat hoti hai use kismat hi sahi thahraati hai balki kismat ya fir ye kahe ki hamara jameer galat cheej hone ka abhaas karaata hai. Magar kyoki hame us nai cheej me itni ruchi aur itna maja aane lagta hai ki ham us galat ko pahle najarandaj karte hain aur fir ham khud hi dhire dhire faisla kar lete hain ki sab sahi hai.
Khair mera ye maamla bhi aisa hi tha jise main gujarte wakt ke sath sahi thahrata chala gaya tha. Kuch to bholapan aur nadaani ke kaaran aur kuch us nai cheej se milne wale ek anokhe maje ke kaaran.
Maine kalpana bhi nahi ki thi ki wo din mere jeewan ka aisa din banne wala tha jisse mere sochne samajhne ka tarika hi badal jayega.
To chaliye dosto main aap sabko apne us ateet ki taraf le chalta hu jahan se is kahani ka agaaj hua tha
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"Are ab kaha ja raha hai tu?"
Main khana kha ke jaise hi chauke se baahar jane laga to maa ne jhat pucha.
"Khet ja raha hu maa."
"Sach me?"
Maa ne beyakini se meri taraf dekha.
"Haan maa." Main thoda hadbadaya─"Tumne hi to kaha tha ki kha ke sidha khet jaau aur baapu ko khana khane ke liye bhej du."
"Are waah mera raj dulara to bada agyakaari ho gaya hai." Maa ne aankhe nacha kar kaha to main muskura utha─"Thik hai ja aur jaldi bhej dena baapu ko. Waise bhi aaj der ho gai hai."
Maine muskurate huye daud laga di kheto ki taraf. Khet jyada door nahi the balki gaav ke pichhe taraf hi the. Ghar se waha tak pahuchne me mushkil se das minute lagta tha aur agar main daudte huye jaau to usse bhi kam samay lagta tha. Aam taur par main daudte huye hi jata tha kyoki apne dost bablu ke sath mujhe khelne bhi jana hota tha.
Us din bhi main kheto ki taraf daudte huye hi ja raha tha. Man me bas yahi tha ki baapu ko boluga ki maa ne khana khane ke liye bulaya hai. Uske baad wahi se bablu ke ghar ki taraf daud laga dooga.
Ham gaav ke sadharan log the. Jyada dhan sampatti nahi thi hamare paas. Hamara gujara kheto me upje anaaj se hi hota tha lekin iske bavjood ham apne is chhote se sansaar me khush the.
Biraadri ke logo se hamari haalat thodi si achhi thi kyoki hamare paas unse thoda sa jyada jameene thi. Yu to baapu ka aur unke dono bhaiyo ka batwara pahle hi ho gaya tha lekin kheti baadi abhi bhi ek me hi thi. Matlab jameeno ka batwara abhi tak nahi hua tha.
Teeno bhaiyo ka prem aur taalmel thoda achha tha is liye bina kisi ladaai jhagde ya man mutaav ke sab achha hi chalta aaya tha. Apne dono bhaiyo me baapu sabse bade the is liye sabhi faisle wahi karte the magar aakhiri faisla wahi hota tha jisme baaki do bhaiyo ki bhi rajamandi ho.
Jaisa ki maine bataya batwara pahle hi ho chuka tha. Matlab ghar alag alag the teeno bhaiyo ke. Purane ghar ke alawa gaav ke andar hi hamari thodi si jameen padi thi jise baapu ne apne dono bhaiyo ko ghar banane ke liye de di thi. Iske alawa kheto par bhi hamara ek chhota sa makaan bana hua tha. Us chhote se makaan me ek taraf maweshi baandhe jate the aur ek taraf ke hisse me bhoosa wagaira rakha rahta tha. Iske alawa saamne wale hisse ke daahini taraf ek chhota sa kamra tha jisme kuch jaruri samaan rakha rahta tha. Ek khaat bhi rakhi hoti thi jo araam karne ke liye hoti thi.
Hamare kheto ke paas se hi ek nadi gai hui thi jo aage sarpanch ke kheto se hote huye dusre gaav nikal gai thi. Garmiyo me main aur bablu isi nadi me dubkiya lagaate aur ji bhar ke tairte the. Sarpanch ke kheto ke paas hi nadi me dono taraf pakka paat tha jisme do teen seedhiya thi. Gaav ke jyadatar log wahi par garmiyo me nahaate the.
Us din maa ke kahne par main daudte huye kheto ki taraf ja raha tha. Bachpan se hi daudne me raftaar tej thi is liye main kuch hi der me kheto par pahuch gaya tha. Garmi ab joro ki hone lagi thi is liye jaldi hi main paseene me naha gaya tha. Haafne bhi laga tha lekin iski parwaah nahi thi mujhe. Baad me bablu ke sath nadi me nahana jo tha mujhe.
Kheto par main baapu ko idhar udhar dekhne laga magar wo mujhe kahi na dikhe. Gehu ki paki hui fasal aadhi kat gai thi aur baaki kaatne ke liye khadi thi.
Kuch doori par ek khet me majhle kaka gehu kaatne me lage huye the. Khet me wo akele hi kataai kar rahe the. Kaki shayad ghar ja chuki thi kyoki dopahar ke khane ke liye khana bhi banana hota tha unko. Chhote kaka bhi kahi najar na aaye aur na hi chhoti kaki. Shayad wo dono ghar ja chuke the.
Kismat jab koi naya khel shuru karti hai to sabse pahle isi tarah wakt aur haalaat banaati hai jisse insaan us wakt bhram ka shikaar ho jata hai. Baad me ham alag alag baate bana kar usko alag roop me jaahir kar dete hain.
Us wakt main majhle kaka ko awaaj laga kar unse baapu ke bare me puchh sakta tha lekin us wakt mere man me aisa karne ka khayaal is liye bhi nahi aaya tha kyoki mujhe apne dost bablu ke paas jane ki jaldi thi. Dusre mujhe ye bhi pata tha ki baapu agar kheto par nahi hain to jarur makan ke andar us chhote se kamre me rakhi khaat par araam kar rahe honge.
Beshak sab kuch vidhaata ki marji se hi hota hai lekin kabhi kabhi insaan khud bhi nasamjhi kar jata hai. Maine us wakt baapu ke bare me majhle kaka se nahi puchha. Agar puchhne ke liye awaaz lagaai hoti to shayad ye kahani aisi ban hi nahi sakti thi. Meri kismat to ek din jarur badalti magar uski ibaarat is tarah nahi likhi jaati.
Jab main samajh gaya ki baapu kamre me hi khaat par araam kar rahe honge to jhat us taraf teji se chal pada. Yaha bhi aisa ho sakta tha ki main andar ghusne se pahle baapu ko awaaj laga deta magar us wakt maine ye bhi nahi kiya tha. Shayad niyati kuch jyada hi jor lagaye huye thi ki main sirf wahi karu jo wo chaahti hai.
Warna aksar main awaaz laga diya karta tha. Is liye nahi ki mujhe baapu se ya kisi se bhi kisi galat haalaat ki ummid hoti thi ya aisi jankaari hoti thi balki aisa is liye ki main bhola aur nadaan tha. Dusre sabka laadla tha to bejhijhak kahi bhi kuch bhi bol deta tha magar us din kyoki sab kuch badal jana tha is liye niyati ne maano mujhe khamosh hi kar diya tha.
Mere man me bas yahi tha ki jald se jald main baapu ko khana khane ke liye bol du aur fir bhaag kar bablu ke ghar chala jaau. Magar kya pata tha ki agle kuch hi palo me kuch aisa ho jayega jiski main kalpana bhi nahi kiye huye tha.
Jaldbaaji ke chakkar me main jaldi hi makaan ke andar daakhil hua. Andar baye taraf wale hisse me bhoosa rakha hua tha aur daahine taraf ke hisse me wahi chhota sa kamra tha.
Us wakt kamre ka darwaja aapas me bhida hua tha. Main usi jaldbaaji me aage badha aur us darwaje ko ek hi jhatke me andar ki taraf dhakel kar khol diya. Agle hi pal aankho ke saamne jo najara dikha usse meri aankhe fati ki fati rah gai.
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Kamre me baapu meri taraf peeth kiye khade the. Unki lungi jameen par hi ek taraf padi thi. Matlab wo kamar se niche pura nange the. Unke aage majhli kaki thi jo saamne khaat ki paat ko pakde aage ki taraf jhuki hui thi. Unka bhi kamar ke niche ka pura hissa nanga tha. Unki dhoti aur saya unki kamar ke paas tha jise baapu apne dono hatho se dabaye apni kamar ko aage pichhe kiye ja rahe the. Mere kaano me kaki ki maadak siski padi thi. Majhli kaki ki nangi taange aur gudaaj jaanghe saaf dikh rahi thi.
Ab itna bhi bhola aur nadaan nahi tha main ki un dono ko is haalat me dekh kar kuch samajhta hi nahi. Jawaani ki dahleej par pahuch chuka tha main is liye mard aur aurat ke bich hone wale aise sambandho se waakif tha main. Ye alag baat hai ki khud mere man me kabhi aisa karne ka khayaal nahi aaya tha.
Baapu aur kaki ko aisi haalat me dekh main aankhe faade bhauchakka sa darwaje par hi khada rah gaya tha. Jabki udhar jaise hi bhadaak ki awaaj ke sath darwaja khula tha to wo dono buri tarah uchhal pade the. Dar aur ghabrahat ke maare kuch hi palo me dono ka bura haal ho gaya tha.
Baapu ne jaldi hi khud ko samhala aur fir jhatpat paas hi padi apni lungi ko utha kar use kamar me lapet liya. Dusri taraf kaki ka dar se jyada sharm ki vajah se bura haal hua ja raha tha. Hosh ud chuke the unke magar fir jaise unhe apni haalat ka khayaal aaya to unhone bhi badi teji se dhoti saya niche gira kar apne nangepan ko chhupa liya. Iske baad jab unse waha par khade rahna mushkil ho gaya to fauran hi kamre se baahar nikal gai. Mujhse najar tak nahi mila saki thi wo.
"R..raju tuu yaha k...kaise?"
Kaki ke jaate hi baapu ne haklaate huye mujhse puchha. Badi mushkil se wo najar mila pa rahe the mujhse.
Idhar baapu ki awaaj sunte hi maano main anjaan duniya se waapas lauta. Hadbadahat me maine ye soch kar jaldi se idhar udhar dekha ki abhi jo kuch dekha hai wo sach tha ya meri aankho ka dhokha.
"W..wo wo baapu....m..maa ne tumhe k..khana khane ke liye b..bulaya hai."
Fir maine khud ko kisi tarah samhala aur atakte huye baapu se kaha.
"A..achha h..haan." Baapu apni baukhlahat ko dabane ki koshish karte huye kaha─"T...thik hai tu ja....main aata hu thodi der me."
Koi aur wakt hota to main baapu ke itna kahte hi khushi khushi waha se daud lagate huye chala jata magar jo kuch maine dekha tha uski vajah se main andar hi andar bada ajeeb sa mahsoos karne laga tha. Main bhool chuka tha ki mujhe apne dost bablu ke paas jana hai.
"A...achha sun." Tabhi baapu ne mere kareeb aa kar kaha─"I...iske bare me k..kisi ko kuch mat b..batana. Samajha na?"
"K..kiske bare me baapu?" Main ekdam se ulajh sa gaya magar jaldi hi samajh aa gaya ki baapu kis bare me bol rahe hain.
"A..abhi jo kuch tune yaha dekha hai." Baapu apni sharm aur jhijhak ko kisi tarah daba kar aur khud ko thoda sakht dikha kar kaha─"Us bare me kisi se bhool kar bhi kuch mat kahna."
Meri haalat ajeeb si thi. Apne baapu ko main aise dekhne laga tha jaise achanak hi mere baapu koi anjaan aadmi lagne lage ho aur ab main unhe pahchaanne ki koshish kar raha hu.
"A..are chup kyo hai bol na." Mujhe ajeeb tarah se apni taraf dekhte dekh baapu shayad andar hi andar ghabra gaye is liye jhat bole─"T..tune thik se suna na maine kya kaha hai?"
Maine bina kuch bole haan me sir hila diya. Baapu ki haalat ekaek kharaab hoti ja rahi thi. Shayad unhe ye ehsaas hone laga tha ki kahi main ye baat kisi se bata na du. Itna to wo bhi jaante the ki main bhola aur nadaan hu. Sabse jyada main apni maa ko hi maanta hu aur kareeb kareeb unse saari baate bata diya karta hu.
Meri is aadat ka ehsaas hote hi baapu ki haalat kharaab hone lagi thi. Aisa nahi tha ki wo maa se darte the magar ye baat hi aisi thi ki iske chalte koi kitna hi bada soorma kyo na ho wo bhi bheegi billi ban jayega.
Koi nahi chahega ki is tarah ki baat kisi ko pata chale. Ghar me maa ko ya kisi ko bhi pata chala to pariwar me bahut bada kalesh ho jayega. Is kalesh ki vajah se baat ghar se baahar nikal jayegi aur agar gaav walo ko pata chal gaya to bahut badi badnaami wali baat ho jayegi. Biraadri ke log hi kya balki pura ka pura gaav hi hamara jeena haraam kar dega.
Baapu ne lapak kar mere dono kandhe thaam liye aur fir mujhe bade pyar se samjhaane lage. Samjhaane ke sath sath mujhe kai aisi cheejo ka pralobhan bhi dene lage jo paas ke gaav me lagne wale mele me main aksar unse lene ko kahta to wo mujhe daant diya karte the.
Kahne ka matlab ye ki baapu ne mujhe har tarah se samjhaya aur har tarah ka pralobhan diya. Main bhola aur nadaan jarur tha magar moorkh nahi tha. Jyada nahi par thoda samajhdaar bhi tha. Is liye unke samjhane par main samajh gaya tha magar shayad unhe itne par bhi tasalli na hui thi. Tabhi to aakhir me unhone mujhe maa ki kasam khila di. Main bhauchakka aur awaak sa dekhta rah gaya tha unhe.
Jaari hai............
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