Adultery Priya Didi

[shailu4ever]

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She could have told Amit what was going on, exposed Ravi’s advances, but she hadn't.
Not in the theater, not in the car, not in the house.
 
Why?
Why had she wanted to feel Ravi instead of her husband?
Why had her mind betrayed her?
Why had she let herself drift into something so dangerous, so forbidden?
 
She stared at the ceiling, tears beginning to sting the backs of her eyes. She tried to blink them away, but they came, relentless, quiet, rolling down her temples and into her hair.
 
She felt like she was drowning.
 
Drowning in guilt.
Drowning in desire.
Drowning in the shame of what had happened.
 
Had she been taken advantage of?
She wasn’t sure anymore.
 
There was a part of her that felt like she had been exploited, used by Ravi, and yet, a deeper, darker part of her wanted it.
 
Had she been manipulated by him?
Or was this something she had allowed to happen?
Something that, deep down, she had wanted to happen?
 
Her tears began to fall freely, soaking into her pillow as she pressed her face into the soft fabric.
 
Was this what she had become?
 
A woman willing to destroy everything for a forbidden thrill?
 
Amit’s steady breathing continued beside her, unaware of the chaos whirling inside Priya.
 
He had no idea.
He was completely asleep, his arm still dbangd over her, unaware of the turmoil within her.
Her heart broke for him.
 
“Why am I doing this to him?” The thought reverberated through her mind again and again, a mantra she couldn’t escape.
 
She loved him, she did.
She had made vows to him, promises.
And yet, here she was, consumed by the image of another man.
 
The memory of what had happened, the way Ravi had touched her, kissed her, made her feel wanted and desired.
 
She wanted to scream, to cry out and make everything stop.
But there was nothing she could do.


 
The tears came harder now, unstoppable. She couldn’t hold them in any longer. She cried softly, her body trembling with the weight of it all.
 
Her heart broke for the woman she had become.
She wanted to stop, wanted to push Ravi from her thoughts, but it wasn’t that simple.
She couldn’t erase the way he made her feel, the things he made her crave.
 
As Amit’s breath grew slower and deeper.
Priya knew he was slipping into a peaceful sleep beside her.
Completely unaware of the war raging inside her.
 
She wanted to escape.
She wanted to tell him everything, to confess it all.
But she was terrified.
Terrified that once she spoke the truth, everything would shatter.
There would be no coming back from it.
 
Instead, she stayed silent... 
 
And cried in the dark.
 

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