Adultery Priya Didi

[shailu4ever]

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She turned her head slightly, just enough to see Amit’s face in the dim light.
His breathing was slow now, deep and even. He trusted her completely. There was no doubt, no suspicion, no hesitation in the way he held her.
 
Her heart broke for him.
 
A fresh wave of sobs threatened to escape as she imagined his face if he ever knew the truth. The hurt in his eyes. The disbelief. The shattering of everything they had built together.
 
“I can’t do that to him.”
“I can’t destroy him.”
 
And yet,
 
She already had.
 
Maybe not with words.
Not with confessions.
 
But with her thoughts.
With her desires.
With the way she had let another man live inside her mind while making love with her husband.
 
She felt like a liar.
To Amit.
To herself.
 
Her chest ached, physically painful now, as if her heart were being squeezed from the inside.
 
“What do I do now?”
 
There was no answer.
 
Only fear.
 
Fear of the truth.
Fear of silence.
Fear that once spoken, nothing could ever be repaired.
 
Her tears slowed eventually, exhaustion overtaking her, leaving her hollow and raw. She lay there, eyes burning, heart heavy, listening to Amit sleep beside her.
 
He slept peacefully.
She lay awake, broken.
 
She wanted to escape, from the room, from her thoughts, from herself.
 
She wanted to rewind time, to undo every moment that had led her here.
 
But she couldn’t.
 
So she stayed.
 
Silent.
Still.
Crying quietly in the dark.
 
And the weight of her secret pressed down on her chest, heavier than any confession she was too afraid to make.
 
The reality of what had just happened began to sink in, heavy and suffocating.
 
There had been no hesitation, only the knowledge that Ravi was pushing boundaries, testing her limits.
 
In that moment, a strange excitement bubbled up inside her, an excitement she couldn't deny.
 
Her body had responded, almost on instinct.
 
Why?
Why had she not pulled away?
Why hadn’t she told him to stop, told him this was wrong?
Why hadn’t she pushed him away?
She could have, couldn’t she? 

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