Adultery Knowing My Wife, Knowing Me As Well - part III

[RCF]

Dear RCF & Harry Jordan,

Your appreciation truly means a lot to me. Krish_999 created a masterpiece, and I simply added a small touch. I lack the imagination and writing skills, and I consider myself just an admirer (I hope you are teasing me).

As mentioned in my earlier post, I found it hard to believe in Meera's sudden change of heart, Desai's quick surrender regarding Meera, and Meera's carelessness leading to pregnancy. Meera is intelligent, Desai is cunning, and Krish is foolish. It's not appropriate to ask the author to rewrite this section or provide an epilogue justification, as he has already revised the final chapters. The climax is in this chapter, and the epilogue will only cover the aftermath. Epilogues usually reveal twists in suspense thrillers, which this story is not. That's why I attempted my own justification for my peace of mind rather than anyone else's. I addressed all perceived loopholes by incorporating inputs from various users.

RCF, you are the biggest supporter of Meera’s love for Krish and their eventual union. While I supported the ending, I was disheartened by her actions in earlier chapters, especially the 49th. Her dramatic change of heart and repentance seemed unbelievable without a strong reason. That's why I introduced Maitrei to help her see reality.

Bineeshm,
 
Yes, I have always been a believer in Meera's love for Krish. I fought with some of the most avid followers of this story since part 1 for Meera. There were no threads available now from the days of Xossip. If they were here, you would have seen my comments from part 1 arguing on this same point all the way till part 3 now. 
Reason is very simple, when a story is given with one person POV, other characters are not that transparent enough for us to determine their true thoughts, nature and situational awareness. Things that are perceived from one's POV limit you to understand everyone in a true sense.

These unknowns create assumptions, perspectives and varied variety of reasoning regarding a character. Meera is one character in this story that is most debatable in terms of her actions vs thoughts...Her actions many times conflicted against her words according to many readers in this story, yet her only word vs action that truly resonated across all 3 parts until chapter 42 was her love for Krish, Even though I believe that underlying love for Krish is still intact, her bond with Desai grew into something that it shouldn't have been in the first place.


Only since the rewritten chapters, author showed Meera bond with Desai in a way that was never portrayed in similar fashion across all the series with any other third character. She started feeling the loss of Desai which was weird to me in chapter 43, since then she felt the loss and that feeling kept growing, and you can see the steps they took first with out planning then planned..So you can see even Krish misunderstood her bond with Desai because he can see she was craving him, his attention, his mere presence was making her nervous and uncomfortable. then when they meet she couldn't resist him.…so the person whose POV we have been reading did not understand her stand against Desai vs himself...so only two options for author is either stand behind Krish's assumptions and make Meera realize her true feelings regarding Desai or write sequences that prove it to Krish that bond is insignificant...My biggest gripe with last chapter is author did not do either...he did not prove it to Krish about the bond neither he explained it to us. He again kept majority of readers in the dark even in ending it. 
Some assumed she twisted the ending to her favor to drive Desai away, some assumed she is a bitch who is now blaming both while she enjoyed all this while, some say she only returned to Krish because she is now pregnant, Some say this ending is not sustainable because it is not love but a forcible venture to keep the kid while some say kid is not even Krish's.

So why did the author give us this ending with so much uncertainty and leave it for so much speculation. My point is whether Desai is a cuck or not, whether Desai and Meera bond is strong or not, whether Krish wants to leave her or not, the important aspect that should have been in the last chapter is for Meera to explain her stand on her relationship with Desai to Krish or get a clarity if she is lacking it in the first place, or if she has clarity then that should be revealed in this chapter, neither was done.

So when you tried to bridge the gap with her thoughts, you portrayed it to us that Meera made mistake all series, with the person in Goa, with Das, with Shekar, with Desai but here is the thing, those are not mistakes, Sleeping with someone as part of a game with Krish is never a mistake in this series, that was a preset that this story started with so it won't change in between based on our convenience. 
The only real mistake she made was with Sunny. That’s where it started and she began this chain of events with a mistake...other mistake which never should have been in this story was with Ashish, which did not impact the story line, nor did I understand to this date why it was even included in the story. Unless it was included for making Meera to think that if she can sleep with Ashish and Krish can forgive me, would I be doing wrong in sleeping with Desai, hence she kind of stopping being resistant to Desai later after Ashish...I do not know..we can only speculate as many things in this story.

So, everything else that happened in between with many men that she slept with were all the pawns in the game between Meera and Krish. The game that they played for their pleasure, for them to reinvent their sexual life, for their thrill…that game only changed in the rewritten chapters or maybe 2-3 chapters before...as Desai started to become more than a pawn…hence there need to be explanation.

Your explanation that Desai created a fantasy world for Meera where he became Krish for her or the version of a Krish that she desired which she chose than the reality all this time without her own consciousness is a good theory which I already previously explained with an analogy of her favorite sweet vs her own sweet but author proved both of us wrong in last chapter by stating that she thought Desai was different not the same Krish but finding Desai same as Krish made her end things now, that means she inadvertently forged a bond with Desai because he was everything that Krish was never in her life, that means not a cuck but a possessive lover, caring and attentive lover. So wasn’t that a contradictory theory vs an ending where Desai is a cuck.

She has a bond with Desai, she revealed the true face of Krish to Desai by narrating Jai’s incident, then Desai plays a game with Piyush to prove it to her that Krish did not change, then he slept with Nidhi out of frustration that he did not get to sleep with Meera, He left and keeps coming back for Meera, where is Desai that wanted to be Krish here before chapter 43? Author want us to believe that he was pursuing her all this time for not himself as a perfect partner in life but rather to be with him so she can be that perfect wife where he can share her with his friends? Unbelievable! 
No, I see him as a different person, an alternative multi verse version of Krish where he was not a cuck but then from chapter 43 when author rewrote it, he changed this personality into some one else…he suddenly started bringing Krish in conversations while they were having sex, thinking as him, wanted to be him, then in bed asking Meera to think as him…so for me it’s clear that when author wanted to rewrite these chapters, he came up with this idea of making Desai cuckold or making Desai Krish…hence the rewritten chapters were modified with Krish’s presence in Desai and Meera alone time. I could not get myself convinced that Desai was ever a cuck nor he changed before 43 chapter. He simply is not a cuck but was made one…sorry but I cannot agree to this plot of author even though I told previously that we must agree with author who knows his characters well.
 
The real story line in the last chapter should have been a high point for Meera where she chooses Krish over a perfect Desai because her love for Krish triumphs over everything and that includes a perfect future with Desai too. Even though she went ahead with Krish, either she should have a plan or by natural flow of events should have had clarity or realization that her bond with Desai is nothing for her compared to her love with Krish, her realization should have brought a clarity to Krish as well. I felt this point was so difficult to write and prove it hence the cuckold plot and pregnancy was introduced but felt it spoiled the ending for me.

By adding cuckold angle author proved himself wrong or at least left a lot for speculation now, that if at all Desai is not a cuck, what would have happened here? Would she be still with Krish? Would she have stopped chasing Krish more and accepted her fate with Desai and left with him to his home town, meet his parents and spend 2 weeks in Bamboo resort, then maybe convinced that Krish will have no fantasies in his life without her so she would have divorced Krish or realizing her spent time with Desai, she would have come back to Krish because she loved him..…so much could happen in so many different ways…so her thoughts and ways that her mind worked is very hard to fill and explain the gaps…hence I do not agree with your theory. It doesn’t explain a lot of things irrespective of how well you try to explain her and Desai.

~RCF