Adultery Knowing My Wife, Knowing Me As Well - part III

[RCF]

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Only l disliked his dominant behavior of forcing Meera which was echoed in Meera's voice also. Once he has decided to part ways, he has no business to force Merra on her decision.
He knows the pain of separation and not truly moving on means from end of part 2 for both him and Meera. They were living as ghosts at that time stalking each other and trying to make each other move on…So this time he wants to make sure Meera realizes her feelings for Desai and give it a chance to make future, hence he was pushing her to be with Desai, because if he simply walks out he doubts Meera will ever move on and would think her cheating caused her marriage to fail and would hate Desai for it with guilt. He doesn’t want that for her, in fact he wants her to be happy with Desai like he has seen them in his absence. This is not new in his character, he was always this selfless.

During intense physical intimacy, it's quite natural for partners to speak nonsense out of reality. We need to analyse her with her behaviours in other situations. She has always given ample hints of her subtle weakness towards her sex partners. Desai is not different and naturally a psychological bond is created as physical intimacy progressed. Within arguable environment, it can be called love in a lighter sense. It doesn't imply her loss of love on her husband.
Exactly, in this case she is trying to argue the same with Krish when she says she can let go of Desai but not her love for him…

The message is clear. Krish is pushing his wife to Desai for his own benefits. Krish is under the influence of cuckolding. 
That's all what Meera can perceive from the behavior of Krish.
I doubt, Meera is seeing this as cuckold behavior. She sees this as Krish’s sacrifice for her happiness. She is not that naïve to think Krish is doing this for his fantasy.
Yes, Her thought process might not have yet understood Krish’s change, and she might be still thinking that he is same old Krish longer term who might get excited if not for Desai for someone else tomorrow, but him pushing her away right now for Desai, she definitely sees it as his selflessness. She knows if Krish wants it, they can start a family and permanently ban Desai from their life and there is nothing she can do about it as her own choice was to be with him and not end the marriage. Yet he chose to give them a chance so why would she think this as his fantasy rather than sacrifice. Her statement calling Krish as wonderful human confirms it.

Meera is confusing. Meera understands that Krish is in deep pain. He is apparently serious about ending the marriage. What she fails to understand is why he is forcing her to Desai. Why he is not leaving her own to decide her future. Is he possibly playing another game?  Another dirty game to fulfill his own fantasy.

She is not confused by Krish, she is confused about her own feelings for Desai, she is giving serious thought to what Krish has said and trying to process his points about her mind and body, because with out clarity to it she wouldn't be able to explain it to Krish. She is thinking about their future too about what Krish said that he won’t change ever in future if they are together. 
Either her reason to go ahead with Krish’s plan is to understand her feelings for both Krish and Desai better or to sacrifice for Krish’s sake so that he can be free of this life of fantasies.


What's are the choices Meera has?

1. Swim with Desai.
Whatever be the chemistry and success in future with Desai, this will be last nail on the coffin in terms of Krish Meera relationship. Irrecoverable, the moment Meera steps into any bedroom with Desai.
Not necessarily, Like I said before, Desai is sure he wants Meera, Krish is sure he thinks Meera will be happy with Desai. The only person who is confused is Meera so she will try to work through it to figure out her feelings. So, if she goes to Desai into bedroom doesn’t mean it’s over. She can have sex or whatever but need to come out of it with a clarity.

2. Show Desai exit gate and beg pardon from Krish.
Possibly many readers will sigh a relief.
Though not impossible, continuing with Meera immediately not at all possible for Krish. Even though, Krish would pardon her, he needs time to heal his wound and Meera needs to show exemplary patience with devotion, dedication, commitment and honesty.
It’s not about pardoning Meera or Meera pardoning Krish. It’s about understanding their issues, solving them for the future. Two issues namely, Meera’s bond with Desai (if it is real or a temporary mirage) and Krish’s fantasies and a conclusion for it.  I believe if they love each other, everything else can be resolved over time. They only need to believe they belong to each other whether they have issues or not.

3. Show Desai exit gate and walk out alone.
I would personally vote for this. Meera needs time. She needs to understand her faults. More she needs to convince herself more about her choices, a satisfying sexual life full of thrill and shattering orgasmic pleasures or a blissful family life sacrificing sex to some extent. She could wait for Krish to heal his pain before reunion without any hints of any intimacy with any man.
This could be one solution if the author chooses it but I doubt this will be a good ending, this is like an open ending with no conclusion to this series.

~RCF