Adultery My Loving Hotwife Meena

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Hier speaks Meena:

Hi,
Since your questions are more about me and my activities, my husband has asked me to write my own answers here because I can do that better and more precisely...
 
If we don't categorize the topic under simple and general (main) words like love and sex, many of the questions that arise have already been answered. Unfortunately, one (whether man or woman, I don't make a distinction) is marked absolute, depending on one's inclinations and actions and reactions, to different siruations and relationships.

We should differentiate between physical, mental and emotional sensitivities and sensualities, between where the psyche plays a role, or where hormones gain the upper hand in a certain situation, etc.

I have never intentionally held back, or forced myself not to eat the forbidden fruit... I didn't care what morality, social rules, loyalty rules or promises or feelings of shame dictated to me.

If I behaved like that, it was because my inner feelings and desires decided so. This always affects my relationships with others...
 
I can't swear (or claim) that Nadir has given me the greatest physical pleasure and joy, and passion and the highest peaks (should I have reached as a woman) in sexuality, in my life.
Perhaps (likely but not necessarily) it was another man... I can't remember who (honestly!), but even during the time I was experiencing it, Nadir was still the highest priority for me and in my conscious, not only because he was my husband...

Now some points you asked about:

(1) if you mean a catalyst (as a cleansing meaning) and not an enzymatic meaning (to ease the conscience and legalize her act!) yes, it may be. But more and simply her most strong pleasure feeling comes directly from feeling Nadir's pleasure, the feeling that Nadir enjoys what she does!

(2) Meena doesn't like to admit that sex with other men causes her joy and pleasure (of course it does, a man, or rather a woman, has to be frigid if it does not!) but why doesn't she admit it? She never denied that, did she?
She doen’t admit it, why? Very simple! Because she knows that Nadir knows that! Nadir knows that Meena generally enjoys sex highly, because he had seen it again and again! Why should she emphasize it additionally and why should she consequently and intentinally unsettle Nadir and give him the false idea that she "enjoys" the other men more?
Your opinion about the cause, why she does not CONFESS, -By the way I do not like this word because confess means that you have done something fraudulent or illegal and now for some reason you HAVE to talk about it! - (Is it because Nadir is failing to understand her dynamics previously and it caused them to fight? or was it because she made some mistakes previous where she got closer to other men with out involvement from Nadir?) is not right!

3) Jala was and is still for Meena a frined, like Mitra oder any other friend, and not more! 
Meena didn't want to form a bond with him because she didn't have any emotional feelings or feeling of love for him. Everything that happened was only because of Jalal's sentimental view of the situation and his feelings of love for her. Meena wanted to seduce him and to get him ready, so far to the point of prephase of their game, what Nadir wanted, but that was Jala who interpreted it differently and misunderstood it. After that phase, it was too late and also difficult for her to clarify the matter as she planned. Meena could not bring herself to admit this at that stage, because of her nature and personality, until Nadie himself became active and organized their (Meena and Jalal’s) only real and full sexual contact. Meena never spoke to Jalal in an emotional way or to declare her love, on the contrary, she always stressed that Nadir was the only man she could consider as her life partner.

4) In such borderline and sensitive conditions and areas that they, Meena and Nadir, move, any male person who loves a woman, becomes sensitive, suspicious and at the end, with the smallest signs, also jealous. Nadir has only recently has gained the complete awareness and high confidence that no matter what happens, he is the only man whom Meena really loves!

5) This statement is not right! Please see my reply (3) on one time more. Meena didn’t lose herself, not emotionally and not physicall. Otherwise, she would have slept with Jalal several times while Nadir was away! She didn't take any action, she just reacted to the situation. If she responded positively physically at certain moments, that was a physiological body reaction. I'm speaking quite frankly here as a woman: Even a woman who is sexually attacked and abused, with the right manipulation, gets wet down there and may even experience a climax! Purely physically and physiologically! We are living creatures and not stones! We have nervous systems and hormones!

6) Right!

7) Unfortunately, Meena cannot and will not make a false ADMIT (not CONFESS!). She has often admitted and shown throughout the history of this story that she loves sex and physical contact in general and enjoys it very much. The point here is that if Nadir should no longer approve of and does not want these sexual adventures, these games, more, she certainly and of course, on her own initiative, will not do such activities.
I'm sorry! Meena is not an unfaithful and disloyal woman and will not be one!

Have A nice time,
M.

Some answers and some misunderstandings! 

1. Yes, when I said Catalyst , its more towards push in one's mind rather than legalize or conscience related.

2. Why would it unsettle Nadir if you agree that you like some one physically? In fact he has been prodding Meena to be open and talk about her desires. Also confess not only means something fraudulent, when some one is hesitant to openly talk or embarrassed or feeling shy also comes into this category though more precisely or usually used for crimes yes but here which is not what I meant. 

3. When I say bond, it doesn't mean love or sex. Its a connection and nothing to do with emotional or physical to an extent that should be considered as cheating. I do not know why you get defensive every time some one asks a question to understand something. Did I mention anywhere in my comment that Meena is falling in love with Jalal? Or Did I mention anywhere that bond means its cheating Nadir? I went and read that part again, I felt there is a connection between Meena and Jalal if you notice what they shared even in theater or their conversations have been intimate when in library but its still a bond of some sort. Maybe it came from a fact that Jalal loved her and she is trying not to upset him so she was dealing it softly but my comments are always misconstrued in wrong way lol, no need for that.

4. Understood
5. I do not think my statement is wrong. I did mean the same thing what you were saying about physical reactions. When I was saying she got carried away my meaning was she let go herself into physical reactions for what Jalal was doing. Nadir was not involved and yes he mentioned that to see if we can set the play field but the meetings went overboard. Meena was always conscious not to indulge in sex but she was also not planning for a heavy kiss and was also not planning Jalal would touch her between the legs and make her lose herself. Nothing is planned with Nadir but it happened and that's exactly I was referring to getting carried away from the initial plan. I was not judging it to be wrong. I was saying I felt it to be different with Jalal compared to others. Please read my statement again.

7. Lol misunderstanding again. Did I say Meena is unfaithful? So if you see a lumberjack and you find him desirable then does it mean unfaithful? No right. Then if you come and tell Nadir that I find him sexy would that mean unfaithful? I was saying same thing that Nadir might want Meena to express such opinions and it could be sexy for him. Maybe Nadir can clarify he doesn't like if Meena tells such a way but I just felt from the story that he likes her to open up and talk about her desires.