24-12-2024, 03:51 PM
(This post was last modified: 25-12-2024, 05:08 PM by Salir. Edited 2 times in total. Edited 2 times in total.)
Hot Dog And Ice Age - 1
Some days after Jalal left the country, I got a call from Tahir who wanted to come to me
in the university clinic and Jalal informed me of this beforehand.
His family doctor wanted him to be admitted for a few days and to have a general physical
examination, especially of his heart, due to occasional chest pains, and he thought of me.
I arranged for him next week to be examined by a heart specialist friend and in the following
days stay in our hospital for five days for further examinations.
He wasn't too happy because he didn't want to spend the night away from his ranch or stay
in the city any longer. I spoke to him and promised him that he would have peace,
but that he had to stay for five days in the hospital.
*
Some days later he was with me in the morning and was then admitted to the heart clinic.
In the afternoon I called Meena and asked her to visit him when she had time.
In the evening, she told me that she had visited him and that he was a bit depressed at first
but then they had a good chat.
She said that Tahir is a funny guy and very entertaining. He loves nature and animals are his
real friends and family.
In these five days, I visited him three times and Meena four times. He was very grateful
that we treated him like that. Even his girlfriend visited him only three times.
After extensive and thorough examinations, it was determined that he is completely healthy
and that his complaints are more related to muscular problems and tension. His doctor only
recommended that he should be more careful with physical activities and heavy lifting.
***
When Tahir after these five days, wanted to go back, he visited me to say goodbye to me
and also, to Meena and thank her.
I called Meena and asked her to come to come by. Tahir thanked us and invited us to stay at his
ranch for a weekend. He seemed like a very simple, kind and nice person. I liked him
because of his natural and uncomplicated, friendly manner and honesty.
I said that next week is it possible and I have free. Meena also agreed.
*
This was about three weeks after Jalal flew awys and left the country.
He had one time called and spoke to Meena, but very short just to say that he is
now in New Jersey, in his new home.
*
Shortly after his trip, I think it was at the weekend thereafter, I felt a weakening of my
libido. I was able to describe it as a mild erectile dysfunction.
The problem gradually increased so that in two weeks I could hardly get an erection.
At first, I thought that our, mine and Meena's opinion problems could be the cause.
We hadn't had sex for three weeks and she was probably still angry with me.
I knew that I wasn't right in my opinion and reaction, at least not absolutely, but how
else should I react?
I couldn't let Jalal do what he wanted, at least I couldn't follow his whole wish or
allow Meena to do that.
That caused a time of relative coldness between us. I thought that after Jalal left it
would be forgotten and everything would be fine. But I didn't guess correctly.
I knew that she would forgive me, I thought I could use my charm and the help of
more and intense intimacy and perhaps more exciting sex to make things easier and
faster, but then this thing with the erection problem happened.
I didn't want to admit it or for her to notice and so I didn't make any attempts to
approach her, not even in the evening did I try to hug her or caress her.
I was afraid she would notice the problem.
I kept thinking it was a temporary weakness and that soon I would be
my old self again and I would be able to satisfy my wife as a man.
Of course, she saw my behaviour as an intentional attempt to keep her away.
and that made everything worse, but it continued like that for some time.
That was not my intention to continue my silence about my weakness, but because
every day I thought that tomorrow everything would be fine again.
I consulted at last two urologists I knew, who were my colleagues at the university
and were experts in this field.
Various laboratory tests were carried out. In the end, they said it is non-organic
disorders and the diagnosis was “functional impotence”, that meant everything was
psychological because of constant professional or private overexertion and stress,
with chronic overactivation of the sympathetic nervous system and increased
noradrenaline and adrenaline levels.
No one knew how long it would take, but things would get better at some point!
In the meantime, some psychotropic drugs and blue potency pills were recommended.
I thought I am not even 40 and can't I start taking these biochemical medications now
at that age. What will it be like when I'm sixty?
Some days I was even happy that there was an ice age between Meena and me
and she didn't notice.
That was wrong. My thoughts and my behaviour were wrong. You can't hide something
like that, especially from someone who is directly affected by it.
I often thought that this is not my Meena, she would always come to me after a few
hours and try to make me pacify with her charm.
I suspected that firstly, she thinks that despite my claims, I have not forgiven
her for what happened while I was away for my medical meeting, that I still want to
punish her for her secret hours with Jalal back then. And she thought that all her
attempts to improve our relationship and repair the wound, are of no use in short time
but for sure only time can and will help.
Secondly, Meena considered our last conversations and discussions about Jalal and
their future meeting, my wishes and expectations as authoritarian orders. She saw my
warnings about the danger of Jalal's proximity, as my pressure on her and the exploit
of my rights as a husband and my misuse of the place that I have in her life and heart.
This made the delicate situation worse; I was sure because I knew that she had a
weakness in this regard and a very strong sensitivity when she realized that someone
was using her kindness and helpfulness, for his own ends and advantages.
In this case her reaction was always very strong and apparently now was such a case.
Meena was thinking that I had committed such abuse and was still angry.
* * *
To be continued…
Some days after Jalal left the country, I got a call from Tahir who wanted to come to me
in the university clinic and Jalal informed me of this beforehand.
His family doctor wanted him to be admitted for a few days and to have a general physical
examination, especially of his heart, due to occasional chest pains, and he thought of me.
I arranged for him next week to be examined by a heart specialist friend and in the following
days stay in our hospital for five days for further examinations.
He wasn't too happy because he didn't want to spend the night away from his ranch or stay
in the city any longer. I spoke to him and promised him that he would have peace,
but that he had to stay for five days in the hospital.
*
Some days later he was with me in the morning and was then admitted to the heart clinic.
In the afternoon I called Meena and asked her to visit him when she had time.
In the evening, she told me that she had visited him and that he was a bit depressed at first
but then they had a good chat.
She said that Tahir is a funny guy and very entertaining. He loves nature and animals are his
real friends and family.
In these five days, I visited him three times and Meena four times. He was very grateful
that we treated him like that. Even his girlfriend visited him only three times.
After extensive and thorough examinations, it was determined that he is completely healthy
and that his complaints are more related to muscular problems and tension. His doctor only
recommended that he should be more careful with physical activities and heavy lifting.
***
When Tahir after these five days, wanted to go back, he visited me to say goodbye to me
and also, to Meena and thank her.
I called Meena and asked her to come to come by. Tahir thanked us and invited us to stay at his
ranch for a weekend. He seemed like a very simple, kind and nice person. I liked him
because of his natural and uncomplicated, friendly manner and honesty.
I said that next week is it possible and I have free. Meena also agreed.
*
This was about three weeks after Jalal flew awys and left the country.
He had one time called and spoke to Meena, but very short just to say that he is
now in New Jersey, in his new home.
*
Shortly after his trip, I think it was at the weekend thereafter, I felt a weakening of my
libido. I was able to describe it as a mild erectile dysfunction.
The problem gradually increased so that in two weeks I could hardly get an erection.
At first, I thought that our, mine and Meena's opinion problems could be the cause.
We hadn't had sex for three weeks and she was probably still angry with me.
I knew that I wasn't right in my opinion and reaction, at least not absolutely, but how
else should I react?
I couldn't let Jalal do what he wanted, at least I couldn't follow his whole wish or
allow Meena to do that.
That caused a time of relative coldness between us. I thought that after Jalal left it
would be forgotten and everything would be fine. But I didn't guess correctly.
I knew that she would forgive me, I thought I could use my charm and the help of
more and intense intimacy and perhaps more exciting sex to make things easier and
faster, but then this thing with the erection problem happened.
I didn't want to admit it or for her to notice and so I didn't make any attempts to
approach her, not even in the evening did I try to hug her or caress her.
I was afraid she would notice the problem.
I kept thinking it was a temporary weakness and that soon I would be
my old self again and I would be able to satisfy my wife as a man.
Of course, she saw my behaviour as an intentional attempt to keep her away.
and that made everything worse, but it continued like that for some time.
That was not my intention to continue my silence about my weakness, but because
every day I thought that tomorrow everything would be fine again.
I consulted at last two urologists I knew, who were my colleagues at the university
and were experts in this field.
Various laboratory tests were carried out. In the end, they said it is non-organic
disorders and the diagnosis was “functional impotence”, that meant everything was
psychological because of constant professional or private overexertion and stress,
with chronic overactivation of the sympathetic nervous system and increased
noradrenaline and adrenaline levels.
No one knew how long it would take, but things would get better at some point!
In the meantime, some psychotropic drugs and blue potency pills were recommended.
I thought I am not even 40 and can't I start taking these biochemical medications now
at that age. What will it be like when I'm sixty?
Some days I was even happy that there was an ice age between Meena and me
and she didn't notice.
That was wrong. My thoughts and my behaviour were wrong. You can't hide something
like that, especially from someone who is directly affected by it.
I often thought that this is not my Meena, she would always come to me after a few
hours and try to make me pacify with her charm.
I suspected that firstly, she thinks that despite my claims, I have not forgiven
her for what happened while I was away for my medical meeting, that I still want to
punish her for her secret hours with Jalal back then. And she thought that all her
attempts to improve our relationship and repair the wound, are of no use in short time
but for sure only time can and will help.
Secondly, Meena considered our last conversations and discussions about Jalal and
their future meeting, my wishes and expectations as authoritarian orders. She saw my
warnings about the danger of Jalal's proximity, as my pressure on her and the exploit
of my rights as a husband and my misuse of the place that I have in her life and heart.
This made the delicate situation worse; I was sure because I knew that she had a
weakness in this regard and a very strong sensitivity when she realized that someone
was using her kindness and helpfulness, for his own ends and advantages.
In this case her reaction was always very strong and apparently now was such a case.
Meena was thinking that I had committed such abuse and was still angry.
* * *
To be continued…
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