Romance An Old Debt has to be Paid..by salir

[Salir]

I would like to mention a few things here that I have observed in this story from the beginning. 
I appreciate them because they don't contradict each other or........... 

..........* Meena keeps some passages that she experiences and feels with her sexual partners during the act in the 
background and does not address them openly because she does not want to offend Nadir, and not because 
she has something to hide.
This is the problem that mainly takes place in Nadir's head and sometimes leads to non-verbal outbursts... 


In this sense
All the best

Lollobionda

Dear Lolobionda,

Excuse me I didn‘t notice your recent update and analysis about our discussion, me with RCF.
I didn‘t want to continue that topic. The story has to go on, and it would be correct to say, went on
already and has to be told.
 
But it gives me no peace not to mention some points:

I'm really irritated because I have the impression that we women,
according to the general opinion, always have to come up short and run close and obey...
I'm not a feminist person, who demands more rights because in the history of mankind, millions
of years, women had been wronged as females.

But we live in the 21st century, and I don't understand why I have to come up short when
somebody else is guilty and there is another way, if I am sure that I do not endanger my
relationship and life? I must repeat me: I know and knew my limits because I know my husband.
I knew what his intention was, I knew it exactly , I didn‘t need to ask about!
 
We're not writing the story as it continues because we want the story to be exciting and hot or logical.
But we tell how it was, and I'll probably behave like that if I get into a situation like that again.
 
what is logical? How many people behave according to my logic in society?
There is no logic for human behavior because we are first unique and second ilogocal!
Driving a car is more dangerous than flying, we know that from numbers and research reports on
the subject.
But I, as a so-called logical creature, am afraid of flying and not afraid of driving a car. Where is logic?
 
Our friend, RCF, wanted to know why did I not run after Nadir because then was my behaviour
logical, in his logic world, I can say it why…  Because I was angry with Nadir at that moment, and I
liked Jalal (I like him still – as a good friend of my family- even if I didn‘t meet him for about 12 or
13 years,) and I was horny too!
 
Satisfied? For me it wasn't my fault and my dearest knew and knows it.
 
That was my reaction at that moment. Do not making misunderstand me! I mean not that I was
so hot that I could sacrifice my love and my happy life for it, but I do not sacrifice my honour and
me , my ego if „he“ made or makes a mistake, never, not then and not now either!
I can give my life for him but everything has its limits!
Why should I come short? To save our relationship? It was my fault the week before that incident
and I paid for it. Everyone has to take responsibility for their guilt and to be punished!
Aside from that (please attention , this point is most important!), I knew Nadir and I knew that he
wouldn't get lost, why would he? He wanted it to happen, [i]yes, I knew but only under his regulations,[/i]
I didn't need to ask why he did it, why he went away that day, because I knew why! It was
hot for him, like always: to show me off and watch, or later hear about how it was, and enjoy, but
only under his control and limited, as he wanted!
 
Thinking that I had to run after him? Sorry, that's not me....
 
If I have fun or enjoy other contacts (I emphasize under the assumption that my Nadir is
in favor of, and with his permission), not because that I'm missing something, love,
tenderness or size, thickness or length, in my marriage...
It almost always comes with his initiative and why should I "disappoint" him !?
 
and I say again here, it's still hot to have sex with my husband!
I don't need anyone to satisfy me, but if that's what he wants, why should I just play a role?

In this regard: I can play the piano a little, but when I play on a piano from
Steinway and Sons (one of the best known piano manufacturers in the world), I will not be able
to compete with Lang Lang (one of the best piano players of all time), no matter what cheap
piano he plays... do you get the point?

We have found our way, despite many illogical things, we, me and my Nadir know how to make each
other happy and give love, this is the most important point.
 
Have fun…