Adultery Knowing My Wife, Knowing Me As Well - part III

[Harry Jordan]

This story is giving me jitters. Every character is behaving against their nature and the progress of story is good but no significant milestones, so with 4-5 episodes for end of this series things doesn't seem like they escalated much. Krish confirmed in his message earlier that the story is coming to an end and he has made up his mind about the ending. 90% of readers want happy ending as earlier finish but I thought that was only possible if the couple get separated around episode 43-44 so they will have time to sort out the issues, feelings and insecurities but since they did not part ways now my fear is obviously for the ending that I would hate.

The reason I called this episode as brilliant because it felt like a race between tortoise and Hare fable. Hare always thinks its ahead of the game and game is with its reach and it can win whenever it wants to win.
Tortoise is making steady progress and knows it goal and has plans for everything. It trusts its instincts and believes in being relentless in pursuing the goal and also believes in never give up attitude.
Hare is just complacent that it possess the speed(Marriage & Love) and it can win the race(Meera) and all it needs to do is put the foot down and run but will it run or sleep under the tree(Cuckold nature) thinking speed will save the race and will win it for him.
So we know who is Hare and who is Tortoise here. Unfortunately for this story we thought good side is Hare unlike in the fable but are we sure anymore? Is there any good left in anybody in this tale?

Lines are blurred, morals compromised , feelings out and ugly, desperation at peaks. Who is craving for love here? No one but Desai.

Yes its true..
Meera:
She doesn't care about her love any more, she gave into cravings of her body more and its on her mind all the time. She says when ever Desai is in town she is struggling to face him and forget him but the truth is he is on her mind always whether he is in town or not. Its hurting to even think and imagine Meera like this and this part made her into completely different person, its like she lost herself in this bodily pleasures that life itself has no meaning other than fuck like rabbits all the time.
Nidhi being young is much better or maybe not because Desai is not pursing her so we will never know it. If she has problem with Krish in bed then she should address those issues herself, talk through them and give confidence to Krish. Instead she is fighting her own demons and ignoring the glaring problem which is making her crave for Desai more. This is second instance where we do not know Meera's stand on affair with Desai. Earlier Krish did not ask if she would tell him if he is not at home so we didn't know if she would have kept it secret or not. Now we again are at that crossroads where Krish knows about their secret arrangement but we don't know if Meera will reveal it to Krish or not.  Perfect cliffhanger again.
I do not think Author would make Krish invite Desai into the house anymore as it will get repetitive as we saw those 3 under the same house million times so would that mean Meera will cheat Krish outside? If yes then what happened to her love? If that happens then we can come to an agreement that Meera has indeed changed and Desai has become important for her than Krish.

Krish:
Krish is equally messy with his feelings, he is torn between his weakness for fantasies and his fear of losing Meera, Usually one of those should be predominant but in Krish's case he has not control on both of those feelings. When things escalate he gives into his cravings but once he sees or hears something that threatens his position as a husband he regrets. This has been going on this whole part. He is always torn between between his fantasies and fear of losing her. Though it should have stopped the moment he knew Desai is in love with his wife but yet he did not change himself nor he tried to find solution for his wife's obsession. Instead he is still giving into his cuckold nature. People here are mad at waiting for a train to stop at a station that would never come. Krish taking control of his life and taking head on Desai would never happen, Despite knowing that his wife is craving Desai's company more than being with him at this moment we do not see any anguish in him which can kill his dumbness and cucky nature. He is the same man who jerks on his wife's moans from other bedroom. Frankly when I first read the episode where he is hiding in the shelf and he saw that his wife for the first time pat into Desai mouth, I thought he would realize how bad his situation is in his life but now we saw the same thing second time and still he is thinking of inviting Desai to his home so that they don't start meeting outside. What kind of madness drive people into his dumb behavior. Would anybody dare to question him if he walks into that room and drag Desai and throw him out of the house for confessing his love to Meera? Voice recorder is a tiny matter when it comes to Desai pouring his heart out. He should question his wife's intention in giving into Desai's cravings despite knowing that he loves her. She has to decide if she wants Krish or Desai. Of course all this would happen if you are not Krish but alas we only know one krish and he is dumbfuck. He screws himself and he doesn't need anybody for that in his life. Maybe he needs to know more about himself than about his wife.

Desai:
So who here is truly expressing love? Isn't it Desai? Whether its fabricated or genuine at this point we do not care, we only see what Author is trying to show us and its being portrayed as he is a changed man and changed for Meera and desperate for her love, like truly obsessed. There's two possibilities here
1. Lets take a guess that Desai knows about recorder and that's the reason he was taking Krish's side in the bedroom. He was indirectly manipulating krish into thinking that he cares about him and he is not trying to take her away from him, at the same time he is confessing his love for her, making her realize that he is one woman man now and he is extremely jealous of her when she is with krish while our Krish is jerking his wad next bedroom which usually Meera despises. See the glaring difference between the game of Hare and Tortoise. One is always focused on his goal. When will Meera fall for him? He has been making brownie points one meeting after another trying to make an impression that she is everything to him. Meera at one point despite Desai living under same house never gave him a chance because her husband is bedridden and cannot participate in their game , same Meera now talking about meeting outside or keeping affair secret. Isn't she a changed woman?
2. Desai doesn't know about recorder and he genuinely cares about both of them but then what is his plan? He wants Meera for sure and if not like his wife at least like a lover with an arrangement with Krish. What's stopping him from taking Meera away from Krish? is it really his caring about Krish? I do not think so for a second because he said in this episode he is ready to marry her, so then its about the consent from Meera is exactly what's stopping from taking Meera away from Krish. Meera still hangs on to Krish and wants her marriage to work despite her cravings for Desai. So how will Desai triumph that and try to get Meera. His only option is amplify that cravings into desperation.He is doing exactly that and leaving no stone turned when he gets a chance with her alone.He is pushing her to meet again secretly to make her crave for him more and more.

So my fear of the inevitable ending is getting bigger and bigger. We are in 47th chapter and i still with out making it look like unreal, cannot see how Krish and Meera can find answer for Desai in next 4 chapters. Instead couple are giving into their cravings more and more like drug addicts and Hare is still under the tree while tortoise is near the end line.

~RCF

I like many of your observations , and it definitely points to the direction of not exactly a happy ending for Krish and Meera as a couple.



Me personally , I wouldn't like the idea of the story ending where the cuckold looses , because lets face it , majority of the story regarding cuckolds have that ending where the partner chooses the better option. Krish is a unique character from them so I am fine with whatever end they choose but as a fan , I want Krish's character to end in a high note. If it is indeed separation I want Krish to find success and a change in goal in life.

But one thing is for certain , if Meera indeed chooses Desai over Krish. It will be the complete undoing of her being since she won't be the same Meera anymore , she is already showing some big changes in herself. She is definitely more infactuated and more involved with Desai than her past lovers. If she chooses Desai , Meera will be dead , she will change completely , and that will be such a dark ending to Krish's character because Krish's love will be ripped apart. Krish has always been an important part in Meera's personality and behavior , take him away and Meera will crumble. And maybe that will trigger Krish to never love again and completely let go off his cuckolding kink and become someone else entirely.

Its weird because I recently watched a movie called Territorio which has the cuckolding theme and the ending in that movie was really depressing because the wife in it leaves the husband and it wasn't a vice choice in that movie either. 

I wouldn't want a sad ending for this , but the signs point that way. But I also felt the same while reading the other story of Atul and Anvita where I thought their marriage was coming to an end and then BAM it turned into a murder mystery. I would be very much surprised if the author does have shocking twists like that in store for us in the future.