Romance An Old Debt has to be Paid..by salir

[Salir]

Hi Salir. Your story is one of its kind and It takes courage to relive those moments and share it with readers. Truly love the descriptions and bringing it live before our eyes.

Now since I am late to the story, have been reading with a pace comfortable for me and I have finished it until ’Better than those days! - 18’

I am sorry if I am dragging you back to earlier chapters while your focus is on Pond Master series but have few questions until Chapter 18.

1. Why were you thinking about divorce and your outburst in :Disclosure Conversation chapter 15" Why were you accusing her as if its all her fault?

   
2. What would have happened if she did not give you expensive car as a gift or a letter wishing you Happy Birthday?

3. "He is simply the only man who touched my mind and my soul, and even now when I think about him, he does it! You remember the day at sea in your house when he was going to leave. And I left with him? It was me and not him who wanted to ride back home with.
   Nadir even insisted that I stay and enjoy my holidays. But you know what? I couldn't imagine being without him even for some days. The thought of it was not bearable for me and now... "
   
   What would be your decision if there was no camera and you did not hear the conversation between Mansi and Meena after you left the house? Would you understand her point of view? Would you have given a chance for her to explain if there was no gift and no camera to hear her side of story?
   
   
   

Thank you for your interst,

I can only give one answer to your questions at this moment, I'm sorry that I can only say: I don't know! I don't know why I acted like that, behaved so ridiculously sometimes, why I was so selfish...

 
I don't even know what would have happened if she hadn't acted like that? What would my reaction have been... would I have really left her despite my love for her?

M. (abbreviated, because her real first name begins with letter M too) always knew what she wanted and how far she would go, but sometimes I didn't know how far I would go... how far I would allow her to go and how far I would approve of and tolerate her behavior. 

She may have known that about me, she always said that she knew me better than I knew myself.

To answer a question about my behavior in relation to a certain situation that has not happened, I must have a lot of knowledge about my psyche! I honestly say that I don't!

I'm glad that I'm not a psychologist or psychatrist by profession, which I find incredibly difficult, but rather I have to deal with tubes in my job! They have an easier job to understand, they have to play a carrier role, carry blood, nutrients and oxygen and bring them to the target organ.
Nevertheless, they are vital! A small, simple vessel can explode or become blocked, and the heart, brain and all other organs and thus life comes to an end!

Nevertheless, I am just a craftsman and nothing more! I clean these tubes or replace them and life goes on…
I know about that because it's not difficult! 
But what about my psyche? No, too complicated!
 
Meena can perhaps analyze her behavior better, she has always been able to do that, at least better than I can do with my behavior and psyche...
 
I have to say about the gift, she is very sensitive... When I admired a car on a TV- crime series, earlier this century (the old Jaguar in the British TV series "Inspector Morse"), she noticed it and years later when she wanted to make a reconciliation attempt (no matter who was to blame for the misery) she gave me a very similar car!
 
Now you know how it is despite incredible relationship turbulence, and while I am 50 and she is 45 (although she looks at least ten years younger and I'm not the only one saying that), we are together and more connected than ever...
 
and love rules our lives..

Be happy and enjoy,

Salir