Adultery Knowing My Wife, Knowing Me As Well - part III

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Chapter - 44

My eyes suddenly fell on my large clothing shelf. It had enough space for me to hide, and the chance of Meera opening it was slim. For a moment, I wondered if there was any chance of Meera knowing that I was already home. When I was talking to her on the phone, we had only spoken about her whereabouts. I hadn’t told her where I was. She was probably expecting me to be home; her ringing the doorbell suggested that. However, she would be easily convinced otherwise if I did not open it.

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Glad both will break up now, their love is lost! Its time for them to be apart for some time to figure out what they really want in life. Meera has to sort out her feelings for both and decide what she exactly wants, who she can live with or with out
and Krish needs time to mend himself so he is not a cuck anymore and he needs to grow a spine which will take some time.  

Few snippets that explains the state both are in right now.

“He is a changed man, now. And I have no desire to go back.”

Is he changed man? Why would Meera assume he is a changed man? Unless she changes him no one else can change him.

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"My heart says I’m messed up, nothing else," Meera admitted.

Meera's eyes brightened in a way that frightened me. He was opening up his feelings, and she seemed to like it.

"I never thought I could feel this way again," she murmured, her voice tinged with emotion. "You've made me feel alive in a way I didn't realize I needed."

“Did you miss me, Meera?” he asked.
“Mmm…”
“How much?”
“You have no idea,” she responded breathlessly.


Just the revelation that he is right there in that room witnessing her passion for Desai and her mixed feelings alone should break her heart and make here leave Krish as she should think that she does not deserve to be in this marriage anymore as she now has feelings for two men and she has kept that hidden from Krish. She should have been open about it with Krish when they patched up last episode. She missed Desai and had feelings for him and knows she cannot stop him but yet decided to stay in her marriage, what was she thinking by hanging on this marriage but yet have conflicted feelings about it?

She either needs to find her lost love or be with Desai forever if she loves him, she needs to figure out what she wants.


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Oh my God. I said myself. I should have made that call.
I closed my eyes. I knew I had failed myself.

Nothing new to reveal here..Krish finds ways to screw himself again and again and for the first time I felt he did himself a favor by doing this..he now knew how his wife felt about Desai. Was it just sex? He now knows the depth of connection his wife shares with Desai and to what extend he lost his wife.

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It wasn’t that I had committed the gravest betrayal of the night. But the revelation of my presence in the same room while she was getting fucked by Desai would undoubtedly prove that I had been willing to let it happen.

Oh common for once would love Author to give credit to Meera for showing her emotions and betraying Krish with her feelings for Desai. Yes he did mistake by staying silent in the closet. He did mistake by not calling and stopping them at right time. Those were same mistakes he did all the time..nothing new.
The new mistakes are done by Meera..so who is to blame here? Can we see Krish standing up to her? At least if not to Desai, he should get point to point with his wife and not take all the blame.

Also for once i would love Krish to leave Meera and go separate ways in this story, Didn't he say previously he will only leave her if he believes she is in love with some one else, now its proven she has feelings her Desai as well. She also did a special favor to Desai which she once proclaimed is only special for her husband and gave the juice to Desai.
There is no moral compass that can show one is right other is wrong between them so why should Meera always blame Krish and leave him or end marriage?

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Once upon a time this story was driven by the love Krish and Meera shared between them..am not so sure anymore.If not for their love then what is it that is interesting in this story other than sex? Their love is what keeps this story alive.
Anything dragged until it reaches the limit then trying to mend might not be as beautiful as it once was..Is this story going to end up same? Even if the couple comes back together can they revive what they once had together?
Feel like Author is stretching the emotional connect between Desai and Meera to a point where there is no return and even if it happens the love between Meera and Krish will seem superficial. Why write such things which could be detrimental to unblock later or is it destined to end with alternative ending which is ugly as hell.