21-10-2024, 06:17 PM
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(continuation "Pond Master 11...)
When we were at home in bed, I had the feeling that Meena was
thoughtful again.
I turned to her, head bowed, kissed her lips and asked, “what is the matter,
My baby?”
Meena was for some seconds silent, if she is thinking, how to answer.
“Today, our dancing that was somehow, not okay, …I mean,” she couldn’t
find the correct wording and right explanation, I thought.
"But I saw you two, that was hot, you know, Jalal and you dancing
together. You seemed to be enjoying each other." I spoke.
"Oh, well yes, I guess. He is a very good dancer; I had no idea." Meena
responded.
She looked at me if she waits for me to say something important to her
while I tried to choose my words carefully, "You know I don't mind you
dancing with other men, don't you?"
"Yes, I know, you have often told me that," she replied.
"Well..., I especially like you dancing with him," I said.
"What, why him in particular?" Meena asked.
"He, that is, well… it is obvious how lovely he thinks you are and how
lucky I am to be married to you.
Also, you, well the truth is you both look good together. In dancing with
him you look very natural," I argued.
Meena smiled and said softly, "honestly my dear Nadir, I knew about your
voyeuristic tendencies and actually the two things complimented each
other,"
And after a short pause if she tries to concentrate her thoughts to
talk, continued, "my love of dancing, with other men, and you,
my beloved husband being able to watch.
This is the one thing, but second thing is that it seemed today you were
more excited than usual about me dancing with old Mr. Noori, and I am still
charmed why,"
"Yes, probably that is it, he is, or better to say that is you have never
danced with such a man before, have you?" I tried my best somehow to
argue.
"No, I haven't, but to be honest that didn't really cross my mind. It was
more that he is a friend of us now, well, yours, and mine too, we
appreciate him, and I was flattered that he wanted to dance with me,", she
said, and then, before I find the right answer, she went on, "Nadir, what is
it about me dancing with Jalal that excites you so strong?" while this
statement, she looked directly in my direction.
I felt her deep gaze even in the dim light.
"Yes, well partly. That is exciting because he is a powerful athletic man, "
and after a short pause, "but it's more than that, let me think… it's because
he is so fascinated by you, while he seems so…"
"Old but ruling, controlling, predominating, commanding, just like uncle
Mansi, is this what excites you so much?" Meena said finishing my
sentence and obvious train of thought.
She was thoughtful but at the same time she looked relieved if she has
discovered something.
"I think your love to play with fire and touch danger is slowly but surely
rises above even normal levels for you.
This is dangerous my dear.
It excites more and more, to come into contact with fire, danger and finally
pain, is this what fascinates you so?
You want this all, but without getting hurt, you want to move on the border,
on the edge," Meena spoke.
"Maybe," I said quietly.
"I have the impression that all stimulates you and that makes you more
alive, but shouldn't it normally be scarier? I'm on the other side and
that's exactly the point that scares me, not that I don't have confidence in
myself…"
"But that is probably why it appeals to me so much, feeling me alive… " I said.
" I understand, ", she said, ", like a small bad boy, looking for new games
and toys, even playing with fire, dangerous but exciting...But fire burns, it
has that in its nature, maybe a child doesn't know this and reaches for fire,
but you have to know that fire burns..."
And after a short pause she continued, " Did you think about what you
would do if the fire burns you, if the danger hurts you, and if the pain is not
bearable, Nadir? "
"Seen this way, actually you suppose we are on a game field, a game with
components of fire, fear, pain, excitement and pleasure," I argued,
"And the game means for me to live and to be alive, "
"I don't think so... then in relation to me and our love and even the third
person who plays a role here, you are shameless selfish Nadir, aren't
you?" Meena asked,
"No, nto at all. I'm sorry, in my opinion there is something for
everyone, enjoyment and pleasure, and I firmly believe that.
But to finish this unnecessary conversation, my lovely Meena,
if you don't want to, that's fine, it's just...", I said as my last statement,
"I don’t want to discuss this with you anymore, this endless discussion
is getting too much for me., let’s leave it, " I said, slightly upset.
She probably sensed that I was a little angry, even though I didn't mean to be.
" You are right Nadir, this is an endless unnecessary discussion, but it
means I am afraid, I don't want anyone to get hurt, ", she said, "I feel the
danger, I need warn you not to play on the edge, it is dangerous, but I am
going to do what your desire is, I love you and believe that to love is not
just look at other’s eyes and feel or search the love, but to look at the
same direction in life…"
Meena then looked at me with another wicked smile. What was she up to
now?
***
next day, early in the morning before she wakes up, I thought it was high noon to control my hidden cameras again.
I hadn't used them for a long time.
I tried whether they work and activated them for the times when Meena is at home.
To be continued,
(continuation "Pond Master 11...)
When we were at home in bed, I had the feeling that Meena was
thoughtful again.
I turned to her, head bowed, kissed her lips and asked, “what is the matter,
My baby?”
Meena was for some seconds silent, if she is thinking, how to answer.
“Today, our dancing that was somehow, not okay, …I mean,” she couldn’t
find the correct wording and right explanation, I thought.
"But I saw you two, that was hot, you know, Jalal and you dancing
together. You seemed to be enjoying each other." I spoke.
"Oh, well yes, I guess. He is a very good dancer; I had no idea." Meena
responded.
She looked at me if she waits for me to say something important to her
while I tried to choose my words carefully, "You know I don't mind you
dancing with other men, don't you?"
"Yes, I know, you have often told me that," she replied.
"Well..., I especially like you dancing with him," I said.
"What, why him in particular?" Meena asked.
"He, that is, well… it is obvious how lovely he thinks you are and how
lucky I am to be married to you.
Also, you, well the truth is you both look good together. In dancing with
him you look very natural," I argued.
Meena smiled and said softly, "honestly my dear Nadir, I knew about your
voyeuristic tendencies and actually the two things complimented each
other,"
And after a short pause if she tries to concentrate her thoughts to
talk, continued, "my love of dancing, with other men, and you,
my beloved husband being able to watch.
This is the one thing, but second thing is that it seemed today you were
more excited than usual about me dancing with old Mr. Noori, and I am still
charmed why,"
"Yes, probably that is it, he is, or better to say that is you have never
danced with such a man before, have you?" I tried my best somehow to
argue.
"No, I haven't, but to be honest that didn't really cross my mind. It was
more that he is a friend of us now, well, yours, and mine too, we
appreciate him, and I was flattered that he wanted to dance with me,", she
said, and then, before I find the right answer, she went on, "Nadir, what is
it about me dancing with Jalal that excites you so strong?" while this
statement, she looked directly in my direction.
I felt her deep gaze even in the dim light.
"Yes, well partly. That is exciting because he is a powerful athletic man, "
and after a short pause, "but it's more than that, let me think… it's because
he is so fascinated by you, while he seems so…"
"Old but ruling, controlling, predominating, commanding, just like uncle
Mansi, is this what excites you so much?" Meena said finishing my
sentence and obvious train of thought.
She was thoughtful but at the same time she looked relieved if she has
discovered something.
"I think your love to play with fire and touch danger is slowly but surely
rises above even normal levels for you.
This is dangerous my dear.
It excites more and more, to come into contact with fire, danger and finally
pain, is this what fascinates you so?
You want this all, but without getting hurt, you want to move on the border,
on the edge," Meena spoke.
"Maybe," I said quietly.
"I have the impression that all stimulates you and that makes you more
alive, but shouldn't it normally be scarier? I'm on the other side and
that's exactly the point that scares me, not that I don't have confidence in
myself…"
"But that is probably why it appeals to me so much, feeling me alive… " I said.
" I understand, ", she said, ", like a small bad boy, looking for new games
and toys, even playing with fire, dangerous but exciting...But fire burns, it
has that in its nature, maybe a child doesn't know this and reaches for fire,
but you have to know that fire burns..."
And after a short pause she continued, " Did you think about what you
would do if the fire burns you, if the danger hurts you, and if the pain is not
bearable, Nadir? "
"Seen this way, actually you suppose we are on a game field, a game with
components of fire, fear, pain, excitement and pleasure," I argued,
"And the game means for me to live and to be alive, "
"I don't think so... then in relation to me and our love and even the third
person who plays a role here, you are shameless selfish Nadir, aren't
you?" Meena asked,
"No, nto at all. I'm sorry, in my opinion there is something for
everyone, enjoyment and pleasure, and I firmly believe that.
But to finish this unnecessary conversation, my lovely Meena,
if you don't want to, that's fine, it's just...", I said as my last statement,
"I don’t want to discuss this with you anymore, this endless discussion
is getting too much for me., let’s leave it, " I said, slightly upset.
She probably sensed that I was a little angry, even though I didn't mean to be.
" You are right Nadir, this is an endless unnecessary discussion, but it
means I am afraid, I don't want anyone to get hurt, ", she said, "I feel the
danger, I need warn you not to play on the edge, it is dangerous, but I am
going to do what your desire is, I love you and believe that to love is not
just look at other’s eyes and feel or search the love, but to look at the
same direction in life…"
Meena then looked at me with another wicked smile. What was she up to
now?
***
next day, early in the morning before she wakes up, I thought it was high noon to control my hidden cameras again.
I hadn't used them for a long time.
I tried whether they work and activated them for the times when Meena is at home.
To be continued,
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