07-07-2023, 10:35 PM
It’s been 4 years of persistence which finally gave me the ultimate price. I had sexual thoughts about my mom for few years now. Coming from a conservative Indian family we did not have discussion about sex in general but i always had lust for my mom which i never mentioned to anybody. She first caught me in an act of hiding in her closet while she was about to change, it shocked her and I got slapped by her. I felt so ashamed that i could not even look her in the eye. For few days i did not think anything like that but slowly those thoughts started coming back and i again started thinking about her in a sexual way.
I had a habit of watching porns especially dedicated to mom and son porn. Watching those porn used to stimulate me even more. One fine day my mom caught me watching porn and the worst was she read the title of the video “mother gangbanged by son and friends”. She said she was ashamed of me and told me “yahi sab karta hai tu, haiwaan ban gaya hai internet ke karan”. In English it translates as - “ these are the kind of things you watch, you have become a pervert/monster due to Internet”. I felt ashamed again but lesser than the previous time.
In the next few months I realised that i cannot suppress these feelings and it will always be there. I lived with it. It was very difficult though and i lost concentration on studies. That year was really tough for me. After that year ended mom kind of forgave me for those incidents. Things were fine between us and we spoke chatted and everything. Although she did not let me come physically very close to her.
Things went like that for sometime but i still could not get those feelings about my mom out of my head. I decided i will tell her everything regardless of what she will say. At least i can put my thoughts in a best way possible. So I went up to her, she was doing laundry i started helping her and just told her. This was the exact line I said - “Mom, I know you found me hiding in your closet and watching an incest porn. I only did that because i had sexual feelings for you and i still do. I tried to suppress it but it did not work and I don’t know what to do”. Her face had disappointment. She said you will not change and will always be like this.
I felt little better after telling her but that sexual urge was still there. Next day i told her how i was not able to concentrate in studies and how i am not able to enjoy anything anymore. And then i told her “would you let me see you naked and have sex with me”. She was furious after hearing this and one more slap on my right cheek. She said horrible stuff again to me. In that moment i did not feel bad for the first time and no guilt as well.
In the next few days i would cry and eat less.
Like how a child shows stubbornness to his mother when he doesn’t get what he wants i was doing a similar thing. This went on for months but she saw me how disoriented i have become. She did get worried cause at the end i am her son and she would not want me to suffer.
After few days she came to my room and told me “ I don’t know what exactly you want but if it will help you then “. That is all she could say i guess and then she left my room. After so many years that was the first day i had an actual smile on my face and i had an erection too. I had butterflies in my stomach. I got up, got changed and took a shower.
We had dinner and we did not say a word to each other. Post dinner she got up and went to her room. I don’t know why but i was very nervous. I never thought a day like this would come so i was not able to think straight. But i was horny as hell. After sometime i went upto her room and opened the door.
She was lying down as she usually does post dinner. She saw me coming but did not make any movement. I sat next to her first and slowly put my hand on her waist. She wears saree at night too while sleeping. I slowly moved my hand around her stomach. My hands were shaking because i was touching her skin. But i moved further up and touched her breast over her blouse. I can’t believe i was touching my mother’s boobs. The same mother who breastfed me once. I tried to put my hands inside her blouse but it was little uncomfortable. Now i had the full confidence. I got up and removed her blouse she just looked the other way but i could see that she was enjoying a bit.
Slowly i took out her bra and those beautiful breast were in-front of me.
The dark brown nipples on fair skin boob looked amazing. I pressed them gently and put my mouth in one of them. I had the strongest erection ever. I sucked on her boobs for quite sometime.
….To be Continued
I had a habit of watching porns especially dedicated to mom and son porn. Watching those porn used to stimulate me even more. One fine day my mom caught me watching porn and the worst was she read the title of the video “mother gangbanged by son and friends”. She said she was ashamed of me and told me “yahi sab karta hai tu, haiwaan ban gaya hai internet ke karan”. In English it translates as - “ these are the kind of things you watch, you have become a pervert/monster due to Internet”. I felt ashamed again but lesser than the previous time.
In the next few months I realised that i cannot suppress these feelings and it will always be there. I lived with it. It was very difficult though and i lost concentration on studies. That year was really tough for me. After that year ended mom kind of forgave me for those incidents. Things were fine between us and we spoke chatted and everything. Although she did not let me come physically very close to her.
Things went like that for sometime but i still could not get those feelings about my mom out of my head. I decided i will tell her everything regardless of what she will say. At least i can put my thoughts in a best way possible. So I went up to her, she was doing laundry i started helping her and just told her. This was the exact line I said - “Mom, I know you found me hiding in your closet and watching an incest porn. I only did that because i had sexual feelings for you and i still do. I tried to suppress it but it did not work and I don’t know what to do”. Her face had disappointment. She said you will not change and will always be like this.
I felt little better after telling her but that sexual urge was still there. Next day i told her how i was not able to concentrate in studies and how i am not able to enjoy anything anymore. And then i told her “would you let me see you naked and have sex with me”. She was furious after hearing this and one more slap on my right cheek. She said horrible stuff again to me. In that moment i did not feel bad for the first time and no guilt as well.
In the next few days i would cry and eat less.
Like how a child shows stubbornness to his mother when he doesn’t get what he wants i was doing a similar thing. This went on for months but she saw me how disoriented i have become. She did get worried cause at the end i am her son and she would not want me to suffer.
After few days she came to my room and told me “ I don’t know what exactly you want but if it will help you then “. That is all she could say i guess and then she left my room. After so many years that was the first day i had an actual smile on my face and i had an erection too. I had butterflies in my stomach. I got up, got changed and took a shower.
We had dinner and we did not say a word to each other. Post dinner she got up and went to her room. I don’t know why but i was very nervous. I never thought a day like this would come so i was not able to think straight. But i was horny as hell. After sometime i went upto her room and opened the door.
She was lying down as she usually does post dinner. She saw me coming but did not make any movement. I sat next to her first and slowly put my hand on her waist. She wears saree at night too while sleeping. I slowly moved my hand around her stomach. My hands were shaking because i was touching her skin. But i moved further up and touched her breast over her blouse. I can’t believe i was touching my mother’s boobs. The same mother who breastfed me once. I tried to put my hands inside her blouse but it was little uncomfortable. Now i had the full confidence. I got up and removed her blouse she just looked the other way but i could see that she was enjoying a bit.
Slowly i took out her bra and those beautiful breast were in-front of me.
The dark brown nipples on fair skin boob looked amazing. I pressed them gently and put my mouth in one of them. I had the strongest erection ever. I sucked on her boobs for quite sometime.
….To be Continued
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