22-01-2023, 10:39 PM
main jaanata hoon ki aap sabhee ne yah muhaavara suna hoga; "manushy ka sabase achchha dost," jo kutte ko sandarbhit karata hai. khair, is kahaanee mein aap dekhenge ki kaise hamaara kutta is mahila ka sabase achchha dost ban gaya hai.
mere talaak ke baad, mainne ghar ka adhigrahan kiya, ek bada do bedaroom, viktoriyan shailee ka ghar. main ek pyaara, tejatarraar, ramaneey, teen varsheey bostan teriyar, jisaka naam "rooe" hai, ko chhodakar ekamaatr nivaasee hoon. jab mera beta sena mein hai tab main use paalane ka phaisala karata hoon.
rooe ek achchhee tarah se prashikshit kutta hai, jab use baahar jaane kee jaroorat hotee hai to vah bhaunkata hai, ek bade jarman shepard kee tarah ghar kee rakhavaalee karata hai, jo koee bhee mere anumodan ke bina hamaare domen mein pravesh karane kee himmat karata hai use kaatata hai. isalie raat gyaarah baje jab main kaam par jaane ke lie ghar se nikala to chinta nahin kee, kyonki main jaanata tha ki jab main lautoonga to ghar surakshit rahega.
kaam ke baad, mere lie ghar aana, pravesh karana, apanee chaabiyon ko us dish par rakhana asaamaany nahin hai jahaan mainne unhen hamesha rakha tha, aur phir kutte ko baahar jaane diya. ek baar jab vah samaapt ho gaya to mainne use andar jaane diya aur use khaana khilaaya. main phir apane joote utaar deta, upayogita kaksh mein jaata, kapade utaarata aur apanee vardee voshar mein phenk deta, phir apane labaade pahanata aur dekhata ki naashte ke lie kya taiyaar karana hai.
is vishesh din, main narak ke roop mein kaam kar raha tha aur baage ko chhodane ka phaisala kiya. kaee baar, main aisa karatee kyonki kisee ke mujhe dekhane ka rahasy mere kaamonmaad ko badha deta hai. mere nippal kathor hain, meree jhaadee bheeg gaee hai, aur main hava mein apanee uttejana ko soongh sakata hoon.
main bedaroom mein gaya aur mere paas maujood ek eks-reted patrika utha lee jisamen kaamuk akshar the. isake baad, main living room mein apanee pasandeeda kursee par baithane ke lie hol ke neeche chalata hoon, ek khulee aadhee-ekaant khidakee ke bagal mein.
jaise hee main prshthon ko dekhata hoon, mujhe do mahilaon ke baare mein ek kahaanee milatee hai, jo ki meree pasandeeda hastamaithun kalpanaon mein se ek hai.
mainne padhana shuroo kiya. mere dvaara padhe gae pratyek pairaagraaph ke saath, meree uttejana uchch giyar mein chalee gaee. pratyek nippal itana kathin hai; main kasam khaata hoon ki agar koee unhen kaatega to ve toot jaenge. meree yonee itanee bheeg chukee hai ki ras donon jaanghon se neeche bah raha hai. main klit ko mahasoos kar sakata hoon, dhadak raha hai, mujhe chhoone, chutakee lene aur kheenchane ke lie bheekh maang raha hai.
main padhane se ruk gaya, aur apane haathon ko apanee chhaatee par daudaaya, shuddh aanand mein karaah raha tha. mainne phir baen nippal ko taanana shuroo kar diya, ise kheenchakar apanee tarjanee aur angoothe ke beech ghumaana shuroo kar diya. jab mainne aisa kiya, to doosara, meree chaahat vaalee choot kee or sarak gaya, ek dulaar ke saath jo ek pankh ke roop mein halka tha. main ichchha se aniyantrit roop se kaanpane lagata hoon.
kaanpatee ungaliyon ke saath, mainne phir apanee tarjanee ko apanee bhattha ke maadhyam se chalaaya, ise meethe amrt se dhank diya. usake baad main taral se bhare ank ko apane munh mein laaya, use choos raha tha, aur svaad chakh raha tha.
jaise hee mere haath mujhe mantramugdh karate hain, meree aankhen garm kahaanee ko padhane ke lie vaapas chalee gaeen. har shabd ke saath, meree ungaliyaan apana jaadoo chalaatee hain; mere saath khilavaad karana, kheenchana, jaanchana aur chutakee bajaana, charamotkarsh ke kareeb.
achaanak mujhe apanee jaangh par yah thandee naak mahasoos hotee hai. jab mainne neeche dekha, to main jam gaya, vahaan rooee thee. pahale to mujhe laga ki vah mujhase kah raha hai ki use ek baar phir baahar jaane kee jaroorat hai. haalaanki, isase pahale ki main kuchh pratikriya ya kuchh kah paata, usakee jeebh meree choot par shoony ho gaee.
he bhagavaan, mujhe nahin pata ki kya karana hai, mere man mein utsaah aur bhay ka ek dhabba hai. yah tab mujhe ek kahaanee yaad aatee hai jo mainne ek baar ek kutte ke baare mein padhee thee jo is mahila ka yaun shoshan kar raha tha. mujhe yaad aaya ki isane kaha tha ki ve ek mahila ke prati bahut aakarshit hote hain, na keval usakee yaun uttejana, balki usake maasik dharm ke dauraan. ek cheej jo ve karana pasand karate hain vah hai billee aur gaand ko god mein lena, aurat ko kaamottejana tak laana.
"kya vah, kya vah mujhe sah sakata hai?" dhikkaar hai, yah ek lamba samay ho gaya hai jab mainne maanav-murga khaaya tha ya khaaya bhee tha.
main bas peechhe jhuk kar dekhane ka phaisala karata hoon ki kya hota hai. main kutte ko aashvast karate hue baat karata hoon, "achchha ladaka, rooe, bas itana hee, maan kee yoni kha raha hai."
use lagata hai ki mujhe kya chaahie aur kya chaahie. vah mujhe chodana shuroo kar deta hai, usakee lambee khuradaree jeebh, mere andar ek jaik haimar kee tarah ja rahee hai, jaise ki vah mere meethe amrt ko paryaapt roop se praapt nahin kar sakata.
main apanee aankhen band karata hoon, apana sir peechhe phenkata hoon aur chillaata hoon, "he bhagavaan! ise jaaree rakho bebee, achchha ladaka tum maan ko achchha mahasoos kara rahe ho!
main use vismay se dekhata hoon. tabhee dhyaan aata hai ki usaka chhota sa paanch inch ka land apanee myaan se phisalata hua, phoola hua, rason se damakata hua, dhadakata hua dikhaee deta hai.
main apane aap se poochhata hoon, "aashchary hai ki kya vah mujhe us kamabakht murga ko chhoone, khelane aur choosane dega, ememem !!!!"
kutte kee jeebh meree choot se phisal gaee aur meree gaand ko saaph karane laga ki yah kya kar diya! main apanee ungaliyon ko ek baar apanee klit par sarakaata hoon, aur charamotkarsh, jitana mainne kabhee kiya hai, usase kaheen adhik kathin.
jab main thoda shaant ho jaata hoon, to main rooe ko dhoondhata hoon. jab mainne use dekha, to vah thoda peechhe kee or jhuka hua baitha hai, jisase usaka land pooree tarah se baahar nikal aaya hai. na keval vah karaah raha hai, balki apane land ko chaat raha hai.
vaasana se meree aankhen jangalee ho jaatee hain aur main kaanp uthata hoon, kyonki usaka land itana sakht hai, ki gaanth bhee myaan se baahar hai.
main phir apane aap se kahata hoon, "kyon na use kuchh khushee den, aakhirakaar usane mamma ko sah liya?"
main kursee se utara aur rooe ke bagal mein pharsh par sarak gaya. main usase shaanti se baat karata hoon kyonki main usake pet ko kharonchata hoon, pratyek strok ke saath usake land ke kareeb jaata hoon. phir main usake ghinaune, dhadakate land ko chhoota hoon, dheere-dheere use pakadata hoon, aur phir usakee pratikriya dekhane ke lie rukata hoon.
"kya yah achchha lagata hai ladaka?"
usakee aankhen, laar tapakatee jeebh aur karaahane ne mujhe bataaya ki ise jaaree rakhana surakshit tha. mainne is baar use jor se maara, aur vah mere haath ko sahalaane laga.
mujhe lagata hai ki meree klit dhadak rahee hai aur ras mere pairon mein ek baar phir daud raha hai kyonki main apane kaaryon se uttejit ho gaya hoon. mainne apana ek haath apanee choot par sarakaaya aur rooe ke land ko sahalaana jaaree rakha. main phir bahaaduree se aage jhuk gaya, apanee jeebh baahar nikaalee aur land ko chaata.
"ememem," yah chakha, chipachipa, namakeen, aur maanav murga se bahut alag nahin hai.
phir mainne usakee madad karane ka phaisala kiya, mainne kutte ko mujhe chodane diya, lekin us samay nahin pata tha ki kaise, aur agyaat ke dar ne mujhe rok diya. main usake land ko chaatata, choosata aur sahalaata tha, kyonki meree ungaliyaan meree klit ko paagalapan se ragadatee theen.
main usakee harakaton, haamphane aur usake koolhon ko gunagunaate hue dekh sakata hoon, rooe sahana chaahata hai. "lekin, main yah kaise karoon," main khud se poochhata hoon. mujhe tab yaad aaya ki mujhe usake charamotkarsh ke lie usakee gaanth ko nichodane kee aavashyakata hai.
shaant svar mein mainne poochha, "are sveetee, kya mamma aapakee sah mein madad karana chaahatee hain?"
to kyon meree klit ragad rahee hai, mainne bas yahee kiya... usakee gaanth daba dee. baap re baap!! mainne itana veery kabhee nahin dekha, itana hee nahin usane mera munh bhar diya, yah ovaraphlo ho gaya aur kavar ho gaya, poore saamane kee taraph, aur galeecha.
main ek hinsak charamotkarsh ke saath pratikriya karata hoon. main lete-lete haamph raha tha aur apane nae anubhav ka aanand le raha tha. jahaan tak rooe ka savaal hai, vah hilata hai aur mujhase apana veery chaatana shuroo kar deta hai.
jab vo meree choot par aata hai; ek baar phir usakee adbhut jeebh mujhe ek aur prthvee-bikharane vaale charamotkarsh par le jaatee hai.
usake baad, mainne use baade ke ahaate mein baahar jaane diya aur nahaane ke lie daalaan mein chala gaya.
main nahaata hoon, sukhaata hoon, aur apana teree kloth rob pahanata hoon. phir main rasoee mein gaya aur apane lie kuchh halka khaane ke lie tay kiya, kyonki main jald hee sone ja raha hoon.
khaane ke baad, mainne rooe ko andar aane diya aur apane bedaroom kee or chal diya. ek baar ke lie main vaastav mein thak gaya hoon aur neend aa rahee hai. vah hamesha kee tarah mera peechha karata hai, shaayad soch raha tha ki kya is baar, vah maan ke saath soega, jaisa ki aamataur par rooe apane takie par bistar par sota hai.
main baage ko chhod deta hoon, bistar par chadh jaata hoon, aur kavar ke neeche chhip jaata hoon. phir main rooe ko dekhata hoon, jisaka chehara mainne kabhee dekha hai, sabase udaas cheharon mein se ek hai.
main muskuraaya, aur phir bistar ke kinaare thapathapaaya, "yahaan aao bachche, tum ab maan ke bagal mein sone ke laayak ho."
rooe bistar par kood jaatee hai, mujhase lipat jaatee hai aur jald hee ham donon so jaate hain. mujhe nahin pata ki kutte ka sapana hai ya nahin, lekin mujhe pata hai ki main sapane dekh raha hoon ki main rooe ke saath aage kya karoonga.
"vaah aadamee ke sabase achchhe dost ke baare mein baat karo, rooe ab mera sabase achchha dost hai."
us din ke baad se, jab mujhe pahalee baar pashupaalan ka anubhav hua, mera kutta rooe, ab bistar par mere bagal mein sota hai.
main us vishesh raat ko nagn avastha mein bistar par gaya tha, kyonki mera shareer abhee bhee mere pahale paashavik anubhav se chaarj tha. is tathy ke kaaran ki aardrata adhik thee; mainne khud ko dhaka bhee nahin tha. jald hee mujhe neend aa gaee aur main aur rooe bhavishy mein kya kar sakate hain, isaka sapana dekhane laga.
mere talaak ke baad, mainne ghar ka adhigrahan kiya, ek bada do bedaroom, viktoriyan shailee ka ghar. main ek pyaara, tejatarraar, ramaneey, teen varsheey bostan teriyar, jisaka naam "rooe" hai, ko chhodakar ekamaatr nivaasee hoon. jab mera beta sena mein hai tab main use paalane ka phaisala karata hoon.
rooe ek achchhee tarah se prashikshit kutta hai, jab use baahar jaane kee jaroorat hotee hai to vah bhaunkata hai, ek bade jarman shepard kee tarah ghar kee rakhavaalee karata hai, jo koee bhee mere anumodan ke bina hamaare domen mein pravesh karane kee himmat karata hai use kaatata hai. isalie raat gyaarah baje jab main kaam par jaane ke lie ghar se nikala to chinta nahin kee, kyonki main jaanata tha ki jab main lautoonga to ghar surakshit rahega.
kaam ke baad, mere lie ghar aana, pravesh karana, apanee chaabiyon ko us dish par rakhana asaamaany nahin hai jahaan mainne unhen hamesha rakha tha, aur phir kutte ko baahar jaane diya. ek baar jab vah samaapt ho gaya to mainne use andar jaane diya aur use khaana khilaaya. main phir apane joote utaar deta, upayogita kaksh mein jaata, kapade utaarata aur apanee vardee voshar mein phenk deta, phir apane labaade pahanata aur dekhata ki naashte ke lie kya taiyaar karana hai.
is vishesh din, main narak ke roop mein kaam kar raha tha aur baage ko chhodane ka phaisala kiya. kaee baar, main aisa karatee kyonki kisee ke mujhe dekhane ka rahasy mere kaamonmaad ko badha deta hai. mere nippal kathor hain, meree jhaadee bheeg gaee hai, aur main hava mein apanee uttejana ko soongh sakata hoon.
main bedaroom mein gaya aur mere paas maujood ek eks-reted patrika utha lee jisamen kaamuk akshar the. isake baad, main living room mein apanee pasandeeda kursee par baithane ke lie hol ke neeche chalata hoon, ek khulee aadhee-ekaant khidakee ke bagal mein.
jaise hee main prshthon ko dekhata hoon, mujhe do mahilaon ke baare mein ek kahaanee milatee hai, jo ki meree pasandeeda hastamaithun kalpanaon mein se ek hai.
mainne padhana shuroo kiya. mere dvaara padhe gae pratyek pairaagraaph ke saath, meree uttejana uchch giyar mein chalee gaee. pratyek nippal itana kathin hai; main kasam khaata hoon ki agar koee unhen kaatega to ve toot jaenge. meree yonee itanee bheeg chukee hai ki ras donon jaanghon se neeche bah raha hai. main klit ko mahasoos kar sakata hoon, dhadak raha hai, mujhe chhoone, chutakee lene aur kheenchane ke lie bheekh maang raha hai.
main padhane se ruk gaya, aur apane haathon ko apanee chhaatee par daudaaya, shuddh aanand mein karaah raha tha. mainne phir baen nippal ko taanana shuroo kar diya, ise kheenchakar apanee tarjanee aur angoothe ke beech ghumaana shuroo kar diya. jab mainne aisa kiya, to doosara, meree chaahat vaalee choot kee or sarak gaya, ek dulaar ke saath jo ek pankh ke roop mein halka tha. main ichchha se aniyantrit roop se kaanpane lagata hoon.
kaanpatee ungaliyon ke saath, mainne phir apanee tarjanee ko apanee bhattha ke maadhyam se chalaaya, ise meethe amrt se dhank diya. usake baad main taral se bhare ank ko apane munh mein laaya, use choos raha tha, aur svaad chakh raha tha.
jaise hee mere haath mujhe mantramugdh karate hain, meree aankhen garm kahaanee ko padhane ke lie vaapas chalee gaeen. har shabd ke saath, meree ungaliyaan apana jaadoo chalaatee hain; mere saath khilavaad karana, kheenchana, jaanchana aur chutakee bajaana, charamotkarsh ke kareeb.
achaanak mujhe apanee jaangh par yah thandee naak mahasoos hotee hai. jab mainne neeche dekha, to main jam gaya, vahaan rooee thee. pahale to mujhe laga ki vah mujhase kah raha hai ki use ek baar phir baahar jaane kee jaroorat hai. haalaanki, isase pahale ki main kuchh pratikriya ya kuchh kah paata, usakee jeebh meree choot par shoony ho gaee.
he bhagavaan, mujhe nahin pata ki kya karana hai, mere man mein utsaah aur bhay ka ek dhabba hai. yah tab mujhe ek kahaanee yaad aatee hai jo mainne ek baar ek kutte ke baare mein padhee thee jo is mahila ka yaun shoshan kar raha tha. mujhe yaad aaya ki isane kaha tha ki ve ek mahila ke prati bahut aakarshit hote hain, na keval usakee yaun uttejana, balki usake maasik dharm ke dauraan. ek cheej jo ve karana pasand karate hain vah hai billee aur gaand ko god mein lena, aurat ko kaamottejana tak laana.
"kya vah, kya vah mujhe sah sakata hai?" dhikkaar hai, yah ek lamba samay ho gaya hai jab mainne maanav-murga khaaya tha ya khaaya bhee tha.
main bas peechhe jhuk kar dekhane ka phaisala karata hoon ki kya hota hai. main kutte ko aashvast karate hue baat karata hoon, "achchha ladaka, rooe, bas itana hee, maan kee yoni kha raha hai."
use lagata hai ki mujhe kya chaahie aur kya chaahie. vah mujhe chodana shuroo kar deta hai, usakee lambee khuradaree jeebh, mere andar ek jaik haimar kee tarah ja rahee hai, jaise ki vah mere meethe amrt ko paryaapt roop se praapt nahin kar sakata.
main apanee aankhen band karata hoon, apana sir peechhe phenkata hoon aur chillaata hoon, "he bhagavaan! ise jaaree rakho bebee, achchha ladaka tum maan ko achchha mahasoos kara rahe ho!
main use vismay se dekhata hoon. tabhee dhyaan aata hai ki usaka chhota sa paanch inch ka land apanee myaan se phisalata hua, phoola hua, rason se damakata hua, dhadakata hua dikhaee deta hai.
main apane aap se poochhata hoon, "aashchary hai ki kya vah mujhe us kamabakht murga ko chhoone, khelane aur choosane dega, ememem !!!!"
kutte kee jeebh meree choot se phisal gaee aur meree gaand ko saaph karane laga ki yah kya kar diya! main apanee ungaliyon ko ek baar apanee klit par sarakaata hoon, aur charamotkarsh, jitana mainne kabhee kiya hai, usase kaheen adhik kathin.
jab main thoda shaant ho jaata hoon, to main rooe ko dhoondhata hoon. jab mainne use dekha, to vah thoda peechhe kee or jhuka hua baitha hai, jisase usaka land pooree tarah se baahar nikal aaya hai. na keval vah karaah raha hai, balki apane land ko chaat raha hai.
vaasana se meree aankhen jangalee ho jaatee hain aur main kaanp uthata hoon, kyonki usaka land itana sakht hai, ki gaanth bhee myaan se baahar hai.
main phir apane aap se kahata hoon, "kyon na use kuchh khushee den, aakhirakaar usane mamma ko sah liya?"
main kursee se utara aur rooe ke bagal mein pharsh par sarak gaya. main usase shaanti se baat karata hoon kyonki main usake pet ko kharonchata hoon, pratyek strok ke saath usake land ke kareeb jaata hoon. phir main usake ghinaune, dhadakate land ko chhoota hoon, dheere-dheere use pakadata hoon, aur phir usakee pratikriya dekhane ke lie rukata hoon.
"kya yah achchha lagata hai ladaka?"
usakee aankhen, laar tapakatee jeebh aur karaahane ne mujhe bataaya ki ise jaaree rakhana surakshit tha. mainne is baar use jor se maara, aur vah mere haath ko sahalaane laga.
mujhe lagata hai ki meree klit dhadak rahee hai aur ras mere pairon mein ek baar phir daud raha hai kyonki main apane kaaryon se uttejit ho gaya hoon. mainne apana ek haath apanee choot par sarakaaya aur rooe ke land ko sahalaana jaaree rakha. main phir bahaaduree se aage jhuk gaya, apanee jeebh baahar nikaalee aur land ko chaata.
"ememem," yah chakha, chipachipa, namakeen, aur maanav murga se bahut alag nahin hai.
phir mainne usakee madad karane ka phaisala kiya, mainne kutte ko mujhe chodane diya, lekin us samay nahin pata tha ki kaise, aur agyaat ke dar ne mujhe rok diya. main usake land ko chaatata, choosata aur sahalaata tha, kyonki meree ungaliyaan meree klit ko paagalapan se ragadatee theen.
main usakee harakaton, haamphane aur usake koolhon ko gunagunaate hue dekh sakata hoon, rooe sahana chaahata hai. "lekin, main yah kaise karoon," main khud se poochhata hoon. mujhe tab yaad aaya ki mujhe usake charamotkarsh ke lie usakee gaanth ko nichodane kee aavashyakata hai.
shaant svar mein mainne poochha, "are sveetee, kya mamma aapakee sah mein madad karana chaahatee hain?"
to kyon meree klit ragad rahee hai, mainne bas yahee kiya... usakee gaanth daba dee. baap re baap!! mainne itana veery kabhee nahin dekha, itana hee nahin usane mera munh bhar diya, yah ovaraphlo ho gaya aur kavar ho gaya, poore saamane kee taraph, aur galeecha.
main ek hinsak charamotkarsh ke saath pratikriya karata hoon. main lete-lete haamph raha tha aur apane nae anubhav ka aanand le raha tha. jahaan tak rooe ka savaal hai, vah hilata hai aur mujhase apana veery chaatana shuroo kar deta hai.
jab vo meree choot par aata hai; ek baar phir usakee adbhut jeebh mujhe ek aur prthvee-bikharane vaale charamotkarsh par le jaatee hai.
usake baad, mainne use baade ke ahaate mein baahar jaane diya aur nahaane ke lie daalaan mein chala gaya.
main nahaata hoon, sukhaata hoon, aur apana teree kloth rob pahanata hoon. phir main rasoee mein gaya aur apane lie kuchh halka khaane ke lie tay kiya, kyonki main jald hee sone ja raha hoon.
khaane ke baad, mainne rooe ko andar aane diya aur apane bedaroom kee or chal diya. ek baar ke lie main vaastav mein thak gaya hoon aur neend aa rahee hai. vah hamesha kee tarah mera peechha karata hai, shaayad soch raha tha ki kya is baar, vah maan ke saath soega, jaisa ki aamataur par rooe apane takie par bistar par sota hai.
main baage ko chhod deta hoon, bistar par chadh jaata hoon, aur kavar ke neeche chhip jaata hoon. phir main rooe ko dekhata hoon, jisaka chehara mainne kabhee dekha hai, sabase udaas cheharon mein se ek hai.
main muskuraaya, aur phir bistar ke kinaare thapathapaaya, "yahaan aao bachche, tum ab maan ke bagal mein sone ke laayak ho."
rooe bistar par kood jaatee hai, mujhase lipat jaatee hai aur jald hee ham donon so jaate hain. mujhe nahin pata ki kutte ka sapana hai ya nahin, lekin mujhe pata hai ki main sapane dekh raha hoon ki main rooe ke saath aage kya karoonga.
"vaah aadamee ke sabase achchhe dost ke baare mein baat karo, rooe ab mera sabase achchha dost hai."
us din ke baad se, jab mujhe pahalee baar pashupaalan ka anubhav hua, mera kutta rooe, ab bistar par mere bagal mein sota hai.
main us vishesh raat ko nagn avastha mein bistar par gaya tha, kyonki mera shareer abhee bhee mere pahale paashavik anubhav se chaarj tha. is tathy ke kaaran ki aardrata adhik thee; mainne khud ko dhaka bhee nahin tha. jald hee mujhe neend aa gaee aur main aur rooe bhavishy mein kya kar sakate hain, isaka sapana dekhane laga.