Buddhe se payar

[Kara lina]

Hum ek doosre ko choomte.,Sahlate the. Who meri choonchiyon ko masalta tha, meri nipples se khlta tha. Mai roj much maithun se uska nikal deti thi. Uska veerya mujhe bahut achchha lagta tha. Us se jyada hum wahan kuchh kar nahin paate the. Pakde jaane aur badnaami ka dar tha. Hafte bhaer baad ek din mai wahan pahunchi to kamra khali paya. Poochhne par pata laga ki usko discharge kar diya gaya hai.

. Mai kamre me uske history sheet me sab jagah uska pata janne ki kosish ki magar kuchh pata nahin laga. Meri haalat bawriyon jaisi ho gayi thi jisse man lagaya wohi meri bewakoofi ke karan mujhse door ho gaya tha. Maine use har jagah dhoondha. Magar wo to aise gayab hua jaise Subah dhundh gayab ho jati hai. Maine jindagi me pahli baar kisi ladke ke liye roya. Meri saheli rachna jo mere sath quarter share karti thi, usne bhi kafi khodne ki koshish kiya magar maine kisi ko bhi kuchh nahin bataya. Maine jindagi me pahli baar kisi se pyar kiya tha. Who garib tha lekin usme kuch baat thi jo use sabse alag karti thi. Kuchh ho na ho mai to us se pyaar karne lagi thi. Gharwaale pareshaan kar rahe the shaadi ke liye. Were parents azaad khayalon ke the isliye unhon ne kah diya tha ki mai jise chahe pasand karke shaadi kar loon. Kabhi kabhi mai shochti ki kya who bhi mujhe chahta hoga? Agar haan to fir who kabhi mujhse mila kyon nahin. Dhire dhire six months gujar gaye us mulakat ko.

Fir achanak hi who mila to mujhe diya tale andhera waali baat yaad ayi. Ek din mai hospital ke liye nikli to achanak mujhe ek jana pahchanachehra hospital ke samne ke bageeche me kaam karta hua dikha. " Suno maali." Uske ghoomte hi mai dhak se rah gayee, "tuuum?" samne Suraj khada tha. Mera pyaar, mera chain. Mai ektak use dekh rahi thi. "madam" suraj ne mujhe sote se jagaya." Mai yahaan maali ka kam karta hoon. Aap apne aap ko samhaliye nahinto koi bhi aadmi iska galat matlab nikal sakta hai. " Mujhe apni galti kaa ahsaas hua. "Tum mujhe aaj shaam chhe baje mere ghar par milna. Bahut jaroori kaam hai.. Aoge na? Tumhe meri kasam." kahkar mai apne aap ko samhaalti hui teji se hospital me chali gayi. Mujhe maaloom tha ki agar maine mur kar dekhliya to mai apni rulai nahi rok sakoongi. Hospital me man nahin laga to tabiyat kharab ka bahana bana kar mai bhag nikli. Aaj kisi kaam me man nahi lag raha tha.

Shaam ko Suraj aane waala tha mujhse milne. Uski taiyaari bhi karni thi. Wapsi me mujhe Suraj nahin dikha. Mai Bazar jaa kar kuchh saman khareed layi. Saman me ek jheena Reshmi gown. Khane peene ka saman aur ek botal beer tha. Ek larki ke liye beer khareedna kitna mushkil kaam hai aaj mujhe pata laga tha. Baari mushkil se kisi ko paise dekar maine ek bottle beer mangaya. Aaj mai uski poori tarah se swagat karna chahti thi. Sham chaar baaje se hi mai apne mahbbob ke liye taiyaar hokar baith gayi. Haalka makeup karke perfume lagaya. Fir transparent bra aur panty ke upar naya reshmi gown pahan liya. Gulabi jheene gown ko pahanna aur nahi pahanna barabar tha. Bahar se ek ek royan dikh Raha tha. Bistar par saafed reshmi chaddar bichha diya. Room spray chaaron or spray kaar diya. Kuchh rajnigandha ke sticks ek flower verse me bed ke sirhane par raakh diya. Chhay baje tak to mai betaab ho uthi. Bar bar ghari ko dekhti hui chahal kadmi kar rahi thi. 6.10 par door bell baja. Mai daur kar darwaaje par gaayi. Peep hole se dkhkar hi darwaja kholna chahti thi. Kyonki koi aur hua to mujhe is roop me dekhkar pata nahin kya soche. Use dekh kar maine darwaja kholka use andar khinch liya. Darwaaza band karke mai usse buri tarah se lipat gayi. Kiss karke poora munh bhar diya. " Kahan chale gaye the? Meri ek baar bhi yaad nahin ayi?" 

Mai yaheen tha magar mai jaan boojh kar hi aapse milna nahi chahta tha. Kahan aap aur kahan mai. Chaand aur siyaar ki jodi achchhi nahin lagti" maine uske munh par haath rakh diya. " kahbardaar jo mujh se door jane ka bhi socha. Aagar jaana hi tha to aye kyun? Meri jindagi me hulchal paaida karke bhagne ki soch rahe the." Maine kaha, " Aur mujhe ye aap aap karna chhodo. Tumhaaare munh se tum aur tu achchha lagegaa." « liken meri baat to suniye………" " baith jao" kahkar maaine use dhakka dekar sofe par bitha diya. Maaine man hi man decide kar liya tha ki itna sab hone ke baad aab mai Suraj se koi sharam nahin karoongi aur nirlajj hokar apni baat manwa loongi. Mai uthi aur fridge se beer ki bottle nikaal kar uska cork khola. Ek kaanch ke glass me udhel kar uske paas aayi. Glass me ufanta hua jhaag mere jajbaaton ka udaharan pesh kar raha thaa. Mai us se sat kar baaith gayee aur glass ko uske honthon se laga diya. Usne meri or dekhte hue meri haathon se ek ghoont piya. Glass ko uske hathon me pakda kar maai khaadi hogayi. " Tumhe mere yeh bahut achchhe lagte the na? " maine apne breasts ki taraf ishara kiya. Uske honthon ke bilkul paas aakar poochha. " khol kar nahin dekhna chahoge?" isse pahle ki who kuchh kahe maine khade hokar ek jhatke me apne gown ko shareer se alag kar diya. Wo ektak meri chatiyon ki or dekh raha tha. Mai uske paas aakar dono pairon ko phaila kar uski god me baith gai. Uske sir ko pakad kar aapni ek chaati par daba diya. "bra kholdo" maine uske kaano me phusphusate hue kaha. Magar use koi harkat karta nahin dekh kar maine khud hi bra ko sharer se alag kar diya. Aaj mai itni uttejit thi ki jaroorat padne se Suraj ko bang bhi karne ko taiyaar thi.