03-08-2022, 03:53 PM
It all started five years ago when doctor gave us the shocking news that my husband is impotent. I was happily married to Nishant and our married life was almost perfect before this news which shocked our world. For many days we were dejected and heartbroken but more so for Nishant, I could see the guilt in his eyes and I knew it was not his fault, it was just our bad luck and nothing else. I tried to console him and we went for a vacation for a month which helped Nishant to recover but from that point onwards our married life went from bad to worse.
Somehow Nishant got busier in his business and with the passage of time he had less and less time for me. Our sex life almost ended after that, I don’t know what actually happened whether the news made him so sensitive that he didn’t want to have sex with me which could remind me of his deficiency or whether he thought that it was no more important but what he forgot that it’s not just about sex, it’s about the love a husband and wife shares in the bed. I never counted him responsible in the first place, I just leave it on luck and I discussed the issue with him a number of times but he shrugged off my concerns that it was just my imagination but I could see the changes in him and our married life was almost sliding deeper intro troubles with every passing day.
It was hard for me to spend time at home, so I joined an office to kill my time. There I met Maahi, my college friend, although we were not close friends in college but it didn’t take much time for us to become close as we were in same office. We had one thing in common we were afraid to go home, the loneliness in the home was unbearable for me and Maahi was the only child of her parents and she lost them in an accident. Soon I started to know much more about her life.
Maahi was a walking disaster when it came to relationships, she was an easy target, a lonely girl, with a handsome salary and very bold, a typical metro girl. She wanted to settle down with a good nice guy but every time she got into a relationship the man turned out to be a bigger jerk than the previous one. They all treated her as a good time pass, having some good dates, lunches and dinners, vacation in Goa, some good fuck sessions and then they were gone.
Many times she cried like a baby in front of me and every time my heart went out for that beautiful girl. Sometimes life is so hard that you started to question what the hell we did wrong to deserve such hardships. The reasons although quite different but our pain was similar, we both wanted love but we were empty handed and this brought us even closer and I started to open up in front of her as well. We started to spend more and more time together and then after a while we felt like we don’t need anyone, I was no more cursing about the loneliness and Nishant’s ignorance towards me and Maahi not got into any relationship after my entry in her life.
Nishant was almost out of town every week, she started to visit me frequently staying at my home and I also started to stay in her apartment. Then it started with gentle kisses, lay down in each other’s arms, then she developed another habit, while watching t.v she forced me to sit in her lap, she used to kiss me throughout that time when were watching a program or any movie. At start we used to sleep in separate rooms then we started to sleep in the same room on same bed in each other’s arms. Finally after a year this night had come when for the first time we made love with each other and right now I am not feeling any guilt that I did something wrong with Nishant, seeing Maahi sleeping on the same bed where Nishant and me used to sleep is not making me feel guilty rather it was Nishant who forced me to Maahi, I just wanted to love and to be loved and Maahi completed me tonight, in last five years I forgot how it feels to be loved but last night and in last one year Maahi has loved me like no one has ever done.
I wrote this last line on my diary and then closed it and went towards my bed where I will slept in the arms of my love.
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“Maahi, at some point he will know everything about us, it’s better that I should tell him myself”…I was sleeping in the arms of Maahi, for last six months after that night, we were having this argument that I should tell Nishant about our relationship but Maahi was not letting me do that.
“What will you achieve by telling him? Look I have no problem even if Nishant takes an insane decision about you; I will be more than happy. I give damn about the society and everyone else. I Love You and I can admit it in front of anyone but you have a family, parents and siblings, if this goes out, it will be very hard for you to face all of them”
“But maybe Nishant allows me to have a relationship with you; after all I am not having an affair with another man”
“You are insane; he will take this as a hit on his ego to found out her wife is having an affair with another woman. No matter how much liberal our society is but still the affair of two people from same sex is deemed unacceptable. Although you have learnt that he is having sex with other girls because those girls don’t know about his deficiency but you do, these long business meetings are scapegoat but he will never allow you to do the same, it’s as simple as that”
“I can assure you, he will give you an option to choose between him and me than what will you do?”… Her question ran a chill down my spine; just a thought of Maahi out of my life was unbearable.
“But he will know one day”… I murmured once again
“We will see what to do when that will happen”… She planted a kiss on my lips and didn’t allow me to say anything more after that.
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Somehow Nishant got busier in his business and with the passage of time he had less and less time for me. Our sex life almost ended after that, I don’t know what actually happened whether the news made him so sensitive that he didn’t want to have sex with me which could remind me of his deficiency or whether he thought that it was no more important but what he forgot that it’s not just about sex, it’s about the love a husband and wife shares in the bed. I never counted him responsible in the first place, I just leave it on luck and I discussed the issue with him a number of times but he shrugged off my concerns that it was just my imagination but I could see the changes in him and our married life was almost sliding deeper intro troubles with every passing day.
It was hard for me to spend time at home, so I joined an office to kill my time. There I met Maahi, my college friend, although we were not close friends in college but it didn’t take much time for us to become close as we were in same office. We had one thing in common we were afraid to go home, the loneliness in the home was unbearable for me and Maahi was the only child of her parents and she lost them in an accident. Soon I started to know much more about her life.
Maahi was a walking disaster when it came to relationships, she was an easy target, a lonely girl, with a handsome salary and very bold, a typical metro girl. She wanted to settle down with a good nice guy but every time she got into a relationship the man turned out to be a bigger jerk than the previous one. They all treated her as a good time pass, having some good dates, lunches and dinners, vacation in Goa, some good fuck sessions and then they were gone.
Many times she cried like a baby in front of me and every time my heart went out for that beautiful girl. Sometimes life is so hard that you started to question what the hell we did wrong to deserve such hardships. The reasons although quite different but our pain was similar, we both wanted love but we were empty handed and this brought us even closer and I started to open up in front of her as well. We started to spend more and more time together and then after a while we felt like we don’t need anyone, I was no more cursing about the loneliness and Nishant’s ignorance towards me and Maahi not got into any relationship after my entry in her life.
Nishant was almost out of town every week, she started to visit me frequently staying at my home and I also started to stay in her apartment. Then it started with gentle kisses, lay down in each other’s arms, then she developed another habit, while watching t.v she forced me to sit in her lap, she used to kiss me throughout that time when were watching a program or any movie. At start we used to sleep in separate rooms then we started to sleep in the same room on same bed in each other’s arms. Finally after a year this night had come when for the first time we made love with each other and right now I am not feeling any guilt that I did something wrong with Nishant, seeing Maahi sleeping on the same bed where Nishant and me used to sleep is not making me feel guilty rather it was Nishant who forced me to Maahi, I just wanted to love and to be loved and Maahi completed me tonight, in last five years I forgot how it feels to be loved but last night and in last one year Maahi has loved me like no one has ever done.
I wrote this last line on my diary and then closed it and went towards my bed where I will slept in the arms of my love.
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“Maahi, at some point he will know everything about us, it’s better that I should tell him myself”…I was sleeping in the arms of Maahi, for last six months after that night, we were having this argument that I should tell Nishant about our relationship but Maahi was not letting me do that.
“What will you achieve by telling him? Look I have no problem even if Nishant takes an insane decision about you; I will be more than happy. I give damn about the society and everyone else. I Love You and I can admit it in front of anyone but you have a family, parents and siblings, if this goes out, it will be very hard for you to face all of them”
“But maybe Nishant allows me to have a relationship with you; after all I am not having an affair with another man”
“You are insane; he will take this as a hit on his ego to found out her wife is having an affair with another woman. No matter how much liberal our society is but still the affair of two people from same sex is deemed unacceptable. Although you have learnt that he is having sex with other girls because those girls don’t know about his deficiency but you do, these long business meetings are scapegoat but he will never allow you to do the same, it’s as simple as that”
“I can assure you, he will give you an option to choose between him and me than what will you do?”… Her question ran a chill down my spine; just a thought of Maahi out of my life was unbearable.
“But he will know one day”… I murmured once again
“We will see what to do when that will happen”… She planted a kiss on my lips and didn’t allow me to say anything more after that.
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