04-11-2021, 05:13 PM
Chapter 4
Madhu was from a middle class family, and her marriage happened because of her beauty. Her in-laws are rich, generous, and have social status. Her mother in law liked her. Her husband Mohan liked her when they came to see her before marriage. Her husband appeared to be a mild, soft and nice man. He could not fuck her, could not enter her and break her hymen. It angered her that despite knowing his erectile dysfunction problem he married her. Perhaps he thought that his ED problem is curable. She does not know. What he told her was that he was taking some ayurvedic medicines to overcome his ED problem. She could have waited as long as it requires with patience and hope. However, the news of her husband’s demise shattered her dreams about life. Though it was clear to her that she was no way responsible for his death, she felt guilty and in her mind, there is a lingering feeling that she failed as a woman and as a wife. But she did not know how she could have helped her late husband to fuck her. She was ready, willing and cooperative but he could not fuck her. Everyone was informed that her husband died due to an accident to keep the family honor.
She was relieved that her mother-in-law was sympathetic, did not blame her and talked to convince her about getting impregnated by Shiva at the earliest possible, so that family honor can be held up. Padma also told her Shiva agreed to impregnate her. Madhu was in a confused state. She was perturbed with so many conflicting thoughts of ethics, morals, religious beliefs, traditions, societal norms, future life, remarriage, personal dreams, desires, and feelings. It is almost certain that she does not have a choice. She has to get fucked by Shiva and get impregnated. She was in conflict and confusion. She could not share her thoughts with anyone else except her mother-in-law to talk about her turmoil and seek support.
Madhu wondered ‘whether Shiva likes her, if so since when?’ Did he agree to impregnate her because he has an opportunity to fuck a virgin widow. Did he like her when he saw her in the wedding as his friend’s bride? Her mother-in-law told her that Shiva likes her. She felt happy and thrilled to know that he liked her and desired her. He is a tall, handsome and confident man and any girl would be happy to be his wife. She has seen many girls and women flirting with him. Some of her friends showed interest and enquired about him. He was the most handsome hunk and eligible bachelor, girls and their mothers found during the marriage ceremony. She noticed that girls and women were attracted to him naturally. Few occasions she talked to him, he impressed her. His looks were penetrating and he even praised her beauty, saying that ‘Madhu, You are very beautiful and my friend is very lucky to have you.’ Contrary to her husband, Shiva is a strong masculine and confident man with sense of humor and charm. She was surprised how did her mother-in-law talked to him or even discussed with Shiva and made him agree to impregnate her. Does he know the real reason of her husband’s death? He must know. Her mother-in-law must have told him. She wondered whose idea it was, her mother-in-law’s or Shiva’s. She wondered whether it was his idea to impregnate her. If he impregnates her, it is obvious that the credit goes to her deceased husband. She is in fertile period and her mother-in-law is aware of it. What will happen is she cannot pregnant in the next few days. Will he continue to fuck until she is pregnant? She tried to imagine Shiva as her husband.
Imagining Shiva as her husband is a happy feeling. She is ready to be his wife, at least for few days, if not permanently. The thought of losing her virginity to such a handsome man is fascinating and now her mind and body is waiting with anticipation and excitement.
She decided to talk to her mother-in-law to find out answers to her questions and to sort out her feelings and seek reassurance. She came out of her room and walked towards her mother-in-law’s room to meet and talk to her.