21-04-2019, 01:09 PM
DIARY OF A LOSER
PART19
"The only thing I want to know is how many times have you cheated on me with Ravi?" I asked. I looked at Monisha to see if I could get any kind of hint as to what was going on inside her head but nothing in her expression gave me any kind of clue. I wasn't sure that it would have made any difference anyway.
"That was the only time but I wasn't really cheating. Not the way you're thinking," she replied. I didn't know what Monisha was trying to say.
“In what way was it different?” I asked.
“Ravi gave me that yearning of love and fulfilled that childhood wish that every woman has. To meet the man of her dreams and I felt in my heart that he definitely was the one. From my first sight of him there had been such magic that it made me weak. My body ached. Ravi was wonderful; he just could give me what I needed sexually. It wasn't just his size. He was a good lover. I know I am wrong but how can something that feels so right be so wrong?”
“Why did you not continue the affair with him then?” I said.
“I wanted to be faithful to you. I needed to find a solution to our situation. For it to work, I knew I had to never see him again.”
"But you failed again. Last night you could not suppress your attraction for Ravi".
“You saw us last night”? Monisha asked with a face mixed of surprise and shame.
"Yes….. I was searching you. I found both of you in this room".
Monisha became completely speechless. I saw tears in her eyes again.
"What are we going to do now?" Monisha asked, after a long silence.
"Monisha I think only you should decide what we are going to do. But if you ask me for suggestion I will suggest you to continue your affair with Ravi". Monisha's eyes opened wide and her face became complete white.
“Why are you saying this Rajiv”? “I told you that I want to be faithful with you. I want to repair the damage I made. I don’t want to see him again. Last night you shouldn’t allow me to go with him at the party.”
“Look Monisha I was listening your story very carefully. That day after having sex with Ravi you wanted to run away with him and may be you wanted to marry him. Do you understand what it means? It means you fall in love with Ravi.
“Yeas I said that but it doesn’t mean that I don’t love you.”
“Monisha you said you felt guilty only when you saw me at Desi’s party. You felt bad because you betrayed your husband for having sex with the man you fell in love with. You betrayed your husbands trust and that’s why you felt sorry for me. But I think you should have been sorry because you fall in love again. How could you fall in love again when there is already a man whom you loved for all these years?
Monisha tried to say something but couldn’t counter my logic. She wanted to say that, “I am not ashamed because I fall in love again”. She wanted to say, “Just because I am married and you are my husband you can’t control my feelings”. She wanted to say; “because I loved you for all these years you just can’t force me to stop loving someone else”. But she couldn’t.
So I continued again “If you want to stay with me and stop seeing Ravi then you have to sacrifice. You have to suppress your true feelings for Ravi”. “You know Monisha I felt jealous and hurt after listening your story. I felt terrible when you said…… “From your first sight of him there had been such magic that it made you weak. Your body ached. Ravi just could give you what you needed sexually”. You also said “It wasn't just Ravi’s size. He was a good lover too.” And then you expressed your true feelings about your affair with Ravi when you informed me that you know you are wrong but how could something that feels so right be so wrong?”
“Now I understand that you preferred Ravi to me in bed. Your body was no longer exclusively mine. You had been fully satisfied by my boss. I could never pleasure you the way Ravi could. Monisha….you would never be sexually satisfied with me ever again. But instead of your sacrifice if I sacrifice, then you could fulfill the yearning of love that you were talking about. You could also fulfill that childhood wish which every woman has. To meet the man of her dreams and Ravi definitely is the one for you.
“Rajiv you don’t know how much I love you.” Monisha said almost crying
“Monisha….You don’t know how much you want Ravi".
"Yesterday when Ravi was fucking you in this bed I was watching your every movement very carefully. Your movements were so intimate that I was thinking It wasn't just sex. It wasn't just fucking. It was making love".
I again saw tears in her eyes. “Tell me what should I do then?” She looked totally confused this time.
"I think you should phone Ravi right now and tell him that you want to leave me. Tell him that you want to stay with him for the rest of your life. See what he says. Don’t worry Monisha, no matter what happens, I will be there for you".
“You don’t want me Rajiv?” I know you hate me for sleeping with Ravi.
“I still want you very much Monisha…….and I don’t hate you for sleeping with Ravi.”
“Now, I just don’t want you to sacrifice Ravi for me. If Ravi wants to take you as his life partner I am willing to divorce you happily. If he can’t take you for any reason then I swear I can be a perfect cuckold husband too.” “I just don’t want you to stop for me now.”
“Don’t say like this Rajiv. I never wanted to hurt you like this. I just couldn’t control myself”
“Monisha…. I know Ravi is better than me in every aspect of life. He is rich, attractive, smart and very very hard to resist. He is also a very special human being and I am just an average guy. From the first day at the shopping mall you and Ravi were attracted. I tried my best to stop his advances towards you. But I failed every time. I wanted to stop him because I herd rumors about Ravi doing Sanjana and Ritikha both. But last night I realized Ravi’s attraction towards you is very much genuine. Ravi’s search for a beautiful and capable woman will end if he can have you completely.”
“I can’t leave you like this Rajiv. I can’t be that selfish. How Can I forget all those good times that we spend together in our married life”
You know Monisha, I always knew that life is a game. There is wining and there is losing. I just lost the game and he own. You are his precious prize and he really deserves it. It’s the rule of Mother Nature, that only the alpha male has the right to mate with the best female. I lost you in the battle of sex but lost from a far better player than me. I will try to take our matter like this.
“But Rajiv I never ……” Monisha tried to say something desperately. I stopped her by kissing her on her lips.
Please Monisha…………….I know…………I understand. It’s all in the game
(End)
PART19
"The only thing I want to know is how many times have you cheated on me with Ravi?" I asked. I looked at Monisha to see if I could get any kind of hint as to what was going on inside her head but nothing in her expression gave me any kind of clue. I wasn't sure that it would have made any difference anyway.
"That was the only time but I wasn't really cheating. Not the way you're thinking," she replied. I didn't know what Monisha was trying to say.
“In what way was it different?” I asked.
“Ravi gave me that yearning of love and fulfilled that childhood wish that every woman has. To meet the man of her dreams and I felt in my heart that he definitely was the one. From my first sight of him there had been such magic that it made me weak. My body ached. Ravi was wonderful; he just could give me what I needed sexually. It wasn't just his size. He was a good lover. I know I am wrong but how can something that feels so right be so wrong?”
“Why did you not continue the affair with him then?” I said.
“I wanted to be faithful to you. I needed to find a solution to our situation. For it to work, I knew I had to never see him again.”
"But you failed again. Last night you could not suppress your attraction for Ravi".
“You saw us last night”? Monisha asked with a face mixed of surprise and shame.
"Yes….. I was searching you. I found both of you in this room".
Monisha became completely speechless. I saw tears in her eyes again.
"What are we going to do now?" Monisha asked, after a long silence.
"Monisha I think only you should decide what we are going to do. But if you ask me for suggestion I will suggest you to continue your affair with Ravi". Monisha's eyes opened wide and her face became complete white.
“Why are you saying this Rajiv”? “I told you that I want to be faithful with you. I want to repair the damage I made. I don’t want to see him again. Last night you shouldn’t allow me to go with him at the party.”
“Look Monisha I was listening your story very carefully. That day after having sex with Ravi you wanted to run away with him and may be you wanted to marry him. Do you understand what it means? It means you fall in love with Ravi.
“Yeas I said that but it doesn’t mean that I don’t love you.”
“Monisha you said you felt guilty only when you saw me at Desi’s party. You felt bad because you betrayed your husband for having sex with the man you fell in love with. You betrayed your husbands trust and that’s why you felt sorry for me. But I think you should have been sorry because you fall in love again. How could you fall in love again when there is already a man whom you loved for all these years?
Monisha tried to say something but couldn’t counter my logic. She wanted to say that, “I am not ashamed because I fall in love again”. She wanted to say, “Just because I am married and you are my husband you can’t control my feelings”. She wanted to say; “because I loved you for all these years you just can’t force me to stop loving someone else”. But she couldn’t.
So I continued again “If you want to stay with me and stop seeing Ravi then you have to sacrifice. You have to suppress your true feelings for Ravi”. “You know Monisha I felt jealous and hurt after listening your story. I felt terrible when you said…… “From your first sight of him there had been such magic that it made you weak. Your body ached. Ravi just could give you what you needed sexually”. You also said “It wasn't just Ravi’s size. He was a good lover too.” And then you expressed your true feelings about your affair with Ravi when you informed me that you know you are wrong but how could something that feels so right be so wrong?”
“Now I understand that you preferred Ravi to me in bed. Your body was no longer exclusively mine. You had been fully satisfied by my boss. I could never pleasure you the way Ravi could. Monisha….you would never be sexually satisfied with me ever again. But instead of your sacrifice if I sacrifice, then you could fulfill the yearning of love that you were talking about. You could also fulfill that childhood wish which every woman has. To meet the man of her dreams and Ravi definitely is the one for you.
“Rajiv you don’t know how much I love you.” Monisha said almost crying
“Monisha….You don’t know how much you want Ravi".
"Yesterday when Ravi was fucking you in this bed I was watching your every movement very carefully. Your movements were so intimate that I was thinking It wasn't just sex. It wasn't just fucking. It was making love".
I again saw tears in her eyes. “Tell me what should I do then?” She looked totally confused this time.
"I think you should phone Ravi right now and tell him that you want to leave me. Tell him that you want to stay with him for the rest of your life. See what he says. Don’t worry Monisha, no matter what happens, I will be there for you".
“You don’t want me Rajiv?” I know you hate me for sleeping with Ravi.
“I still want you very much Monisha…….and I don’t hate you for sleeping with Ravi.”
“Now, I just don’t want you to sacrifice Ravi for me. If Ravi wants to take you as his life partner I am willing to divorce you happily. If he can’t take you for any reason then I swear I can be a perfect cuckold husband too.” “I just don’t want you to stop for me now.”
“Don’t say like this Rajiv. I never wanted to hurt you like this. I just couldn’t control myself”
“Monisha…. I know Ravi is better than me in every aspect of life. He is rich, attractive, smart and very very hard to resist. He is also a very special human being and I am just an average guy. From the first day at the shopping mall you and Ravi were attracted. I tried my best to stop his advances towards you. But I failed every time. I wanted to stop him because I herd rumors about Ravi doing Sanjana and Ritikha both. But last night I realized Ravi’s attraction towards you is very much genuine. Ravi’s search for a beautiful and capable woman will end if he can have you completely.”
“I can’t leave you like this Rajiv. I can’t be that selfish. How Can I forget all those good times that we spend together in our married life”
You know Monisha, I always knew that life is a game. There is wining and there is losing. I just lost the game and he own. You are his precious prize and he really deserves it. It’s the rule of Mother Nature, that only the alpha male has the right to mate with the best female. I lost you in the battle of sex but lost from a far better player than me. I will try to take our matter like this.
“But Rajiv I never ……” Monisha tried to say something desperately. I stopped her by kissing her on her lips.
Please Monisha…………….I know…………I understand. It’s all in the game
(End)
Like, Comment and Give Rating.
![[+]](https://xossipy.com/themes/sharepoint/collapse_collapsed.png)