Adultery The Old Toothbrush by Trambak

[Ramesh_Rocky]

"You know? How many times that day I had the desire to hold you in my arms like the old times? How many times did I want to cry on your shoulders and seek your pardon? But, the sadness in your eyes was scary. I knew that you would conform to anything that I wished. You would agree to any explanation, any truths or lies that I would tell. I could not defend myself because I would be presenting my case to a biased evaluator. There was no point in being declared 'not guilty' by a judge who was flawed."

I sat stunned. I was no appraiser of character but never had I been accused of being prejudiced. Well, I was learning newer chapters of life.

"On that Sunday, I asked you to leave and for the first time, I saw anger in your eyes, not hatred! You asked me about the gift. How could I return it? It was priceless.

And Ranju? She is my daughter, my flesh and blood, connected together for nine months. She is my life but not my weakness. I am not obliged to answer her anything.

But to you, I am. We, two genetically unrelated persons were united in a unique relationship and we vowed to uphold its dignity that I failed to honour.

You know I am a cheat. It no longer matters to me now whether Ranju knows it or not?

I am her mother, a defective human, not God.

Her opinion does not matter to me, yours does. And my own does.

The only thing that has continued to perplex me was that why Adi? Why not anyone else? I could not understand. To date, I was not fully sure why? But, today, when I saw you coming down the beach, looking so fit, so trim and so handsome in that jacket, I suddenly realized that I was looking at Adi, a clone of the younger you. My subconscious intuitive mind somehow recognized you in Adi.

But does that absolve me of my deeds? No, it doesn't. It will never be."

She looked at me intensely and whispered, "Tonight, I am here to woo you back to me with all my might, with all my beauty and my entire guilty mind. Tonight, I seek your pardon, your forgiveness and plead acquittal by the supreme judge of my being, you! Will you accept back this cheat?"

The sound of the Arabian Sea was incessant. It appeared too close to us and too close to me. The daybreak was near.

I got up, Suhasini responded. We locked ourselves in a deep passionate kiss.

Chapter-6

She clung to me like a creeper and her breathing got heavier. I closed my eyes and caressed her. Her lips, her face, her back, her arms, everything. My Suhas was in my arms. Her lips were mine. She too touched my hair. Her arms were around my neck. Her legs touched my legs. I never felt so aroused, so much in love. How long we stood there, I did not remember. The light of the early dawn touched our body and my soul.

I opened my eyes.

Her eyes penetrated my heart. It was intense. She whispered, "Let's go inside."

I closed my eyes again and felt her.

She giggled, "Let's go in!"

I whispered back, my eyes still closed, "Let me feel you. Let me identify my Suhas like a blind man recognizes the words in Braille."