Who do you fantasize about most while fucking your wife/GF??

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Actually my fantasy is really embarrassing for me. I guess xossipy is the only place where I can share it. So let me try.
I was sexually abused by an older man when I was still a teenager. It was scary and painful experience for me at that time for many reasons.
The act was repeated for over a year. That shaped my sexual preferences for the future. Years later, I once had his image enter my mind when I was with my BF. Strangely it gave me more pleasure than usual. I felt like a helpless teenager again. Somehow that was liberating. I have been fantasizing about him ever since. I feel bad sharing this in the real world coz I don't think my partner, or anyone for that matter, will understand me.

Actually you are not alone to have this feeling. My ex was sexually abused by her uncle and she had same traits as yours. Though she never mentioned it but she liked to get roughed up during foreplay. She liked being forced and a few times I felt it gives her pleasure imaging being abused. Not sure it was because of her uncle but it always felt like so. Who was the in your case?