banarsi panwala by Pinkbabu

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Chundi laal ko jaisy gussa aa gya ....... moorakh ..... paapi aurat ...... chali jaa yaha sy .......... tu ny agni ki pooja ko inkaar kia hai .......... tu khud to dooby gi saath main apny pati or usky pariwar ko bhi ly ky dooby gi ...... shraap lagy ga tujhy ........ teri kookh hi hamesha ky lye sookh jaay gi ...... chali jaa yaha sy ........ or btaa dena jaa ky kamala ko ...... ky woh apny pariwar ky kirya karam ki tyyari kry bus ab .................... ab koi pooja nahi ho gi .................
poory kamray main Chundi laal ki bhari bharkam .... gussay sy bhari hoi awaz goonj rahi thi ........ or main to jaisy thar thra kaanmpny lagi thi ....... main such main hi dar gai thi ...... ky kahin agar meri wajah sy pariwar ko kuch hoa to main yeh ilzam saari zindagi nahi utaar sakon gi ........ or meri saasu maan jo aik conservative or puraany khayalon ki mazhabi aurat thin ........ woh to mujhy ghar sy hi nikaal dy gi ......jo ky main kabhi bhi nahi chahti thi ....... main foran hi maafi maangny lagi ....
Main .... guru ji ... nahi nahi .... mujhy shama kr dain ..... mujh sy ghalti ho gai ............

Magar woh koi jawab dye bina hi darwazy ki taraf barh raha tha ...... nahi chali jaa .......... ab koi pooja nahi ho gi ......
mery hath pair phool gy ..... kuch samjh nahi aa raha tha ky main kya kron ...... meri saari education ... parhaai likhaai ..... sub achanak sy ghayab ho chuki thi kahin ...... or main aik sehmi hoi si aam si patni or bahu ban chuki thi ....... jo apny pati or usky pariwar ki tabhaai ka karan ban ny jaa rahi thi ........... bina sochy samjhy ..... main doudi .... or jaa ky guru ji ky charno sy lipat gai ..... unky pairon ko pakar lya ........
Main ..... shama kr dain guru ji ....... aik baar shama kr dain .... bacha lain mery pariwar ko ........ main nahi chahti ky kuch ho mery pariwar ko meri wajah sy ...........

Guru ji ny mud ky meri taraf dekha ....... main neechy bethi hoi thi unky pairon ko pakray hoy ........... main ny jaisy hi oper nazar uthaai ..... unka bhari bharkam pait meri aankhon ky saamny tha ........... unhon achanak apna haath mery sir py rakha ....... or thora naram awaaz main boly ........ uth jaa ....... or phir saath hi garaj daar awaaz ho gai ........ or ab ainda koi ghalti nahi krna ........... or jaldi sy yeh saree pehn ky pooja waly kamray main aaja ............ mery paas ziada samay nahi hai ...... mujhy khud bhi pooja paat krni hai apni rooz ki ............ yeh kahty hoy unho ny meri parwah kye bina apny qadam barhay or mery haath unky pairon sy phisal gy ...... or jaisy main neechy farsh py ludhak si gai ....... or woh bina meri tarf dekhy kamray sy nikal gay ......... or main us kamray main akaili rah gai ....... farsh py bethi hoi .... apny aik haath main wohi pawitar saree pakray hoy .......

Band kamray mai main akaili thi ........ main uthi ..... saree ko khol ky dekhny lagi ............ usy khola to aik rasi ka tukra neechy gira us main sy nikal ky ......... saree mushkil sy koi 4 meter kapray ka tukda ho gi ........ jiski chouraai bhi aik meter sy thora kam hi rahi ho gi ........ main hairani sy usy dekh rahi thi ky kaisy usy pehnon ....... magar ab mujhy yeh krna hi tha .........
main aik taraf rakhi hoi maiz ki taraf barhi ......... hath main rakhi hoi sufaid pawitar saree maiz py rakhi ........ or aik baar phir idha udhar nazar doudaa kar kapray utarny ka sochny lagi ....... main jo aaj krny jaa rahi thi woh main ny zindagi bhar kabhi nahi kia tha ...... ahist ahista main ny apni shirt utari ..... phir apni shalwar bhi utar di .......... ab main us anjani jaga py akaily kamray main sirf aik bra or panty main khari thi ..........