18-05-2020, 04:52 AM
mein jab biyah kar gai thi tu aik be hiss yehni
bina kisi ehsaas ke doli mein baith gai .
kiunkeh mere waldein yahi chahte thay .
mere apne jazbaat jaise thay hi nahein nah tu
mein apni shageer hasan se shadi pr khush
thi nah hi ranjeeda .mein bachpan se hi aisi
thi yehni la prwah si jo kuch ho raha ho
theek hai hota rahe mein sanjeeda nahein
laiti thi . nah koi chahay jane ka jazba tha nah
nah meri chahat ka koi mrkz bn ska . shadi
hoi ,suhaag raat guzri aur 2 mah mere hubby
sagheer hasan mere paas rahe . mein is sab
amal ko aik honi samjh ke karti rahi . iss mein
meri apni khwaish shamel nah ho saki aik
farz samjh kar sab kuch khush dilli se kiya.
hatakeh Sagheer hasan ke wapis jane ka bhi
koi asar nah liya , nah us ke liye ranjeeda hoi
nah us ke jane ki khushi thi . zindagi yunnhi
behissi mein guzar jati agar mere hubby ke
bare bhai ( mera jaith) sameer nah hote tu .
pata hi nah chala in 6 months mein kaise un
ki janab khinchti chali gai . ab bhi keh sakti
hoon jo kuch bhi hoa iski shurooaat
nadanstgi mein hoein . aaj bhi mujhe woh pal
acchi treh yaad hein . jab mein tray mein un
ke liye khana le kar gai thi . tray mein 2-4
dishes thein .mein ne tray ko dono hathon
mein mazbooti se pakr rakha tha . aise mein
sameer bhaai ne meri maddad karni chahi
aur tray pakarne ki koshish ki tu nadanstgi
mein un ke haath mere haathon par aagay .
unke hathon ke lms se mere badan mein aik
ajeeb si sansnaht hoi jo mein ne pehle kabhi
mehsoos nah ki thi . aik crunt sa jism mein
daur geyaa . mein ne jaldi se tray table par
rakhne ki koshish ki tu un ke hath mere
hathon ko chor nahein rahe thay ., mere
kheyal mein woh dar rahey thay keh kehaein
tray gir nah jay . mein ne unki traf dekha tu
un ki nazrein mere chehre pr hi thein tu mein
ne unhein kaha bhai jaan apne hath hataa
lein .unhon ne fauran mere hath chor diye
aur mein tray rakh kr seedhi hoi tu woh
mujhe hi dekhe ja rahey thay . mein jaldi se
kmre se nikal kar apne kmre mein aai tu aik
neya ehsaas janam le chuka tha . abhi tak
mere hathon par unke hathon ka lams aise
mehsoos ho raha tha jaise ab bhi un ke
hathon mein mere haath hoon . mein heiran
thi kiunkeh iss se pehle kabhi mein ne aisa
mehsoos nah kiya tha . mein sochne lagi
woh mujhe kin nazron se dekh rahe thay .
pehle tu unhon ne kabhi aise nah dekha tha ,
un ka khana le jane se pahle mein nehaai thi
aur mere geele baal mere shanon per khule
hoeye thay magar mein dupatta acchi trah
liya hoa tha . un ke hathon ke lams aur unki
nzron ki tappash abhi tak mehsoos ho rahi thi
keh mujhe kheyal aaya keh kahein sameer
bhaai mujhe ghalt nazr se tu nahein dekh
rahe thay yeh kheyal aate hi mujhe un ki
nazroon apne chehre pr tiki mehsoos hoein
tu mein be sakhta sharma gai jaise woh ab
bhi dekh rahe hoon . us din pehli baar mein
ne kissi ke bare socha aur woh sameer bhaai
hi thay . phir aik hi ghar mein sath sath rehne
ki wajeh se roz koi nah koi aisi baat hoti rahi
keh mein unki janab brhti gai . phir ai waqt
aisa bhi aaya keh mein un ke touch ke liye
unke qareeb se guzarti ya unke hathon mein
koi cheez deiti tu aise keh un ke hathon ki
kam az kam mujhe choo lein . un ke touch
mein koi mqnasiyathi jis ne mujhe apni trf
khainch liya aur phir jis dupehr un ko goad
mein baithi tu mein unki ho chuki thi ,mera
tann mera mann un ka ho chuka tha . mein
jaan chuki thi aag dono tarf hai brabar lagi
hoi .
chāhat kā jab mazā hai ki vo bhī hoñ be-qarār
donoñ taraf ho aag barābar lagī huī .
mein shadi shuda thi aur iss liye mein jhijhak
tu rahi thi mgr khud ko bebas samajh rahi thi
aur unke aik ishaare ki muntzer thi. mere
jazbaat jaag uthay thay aur sarkash jabon ke
saamne mein dher ho chuki thi . aur jis raat
pehli baar sameer mere kmre mein aaye tu
mein ne raza mandi aur khushi se apne aap
ko unke supard kar diya tha .
mein ne sagheer ko apni qismat tu maan
liya tha magar woh meri chahat nah thi .
hum 2 maah akathe reh kr bhi aik doosre
ko nah samajh sake . mera kheyal hai nah
mein ne aur nah kabhi uss ne aik doosre ko
smjhne ki koshish ki .uski mojoodgi mein
bhi khud ko adhoora samajhti aur aik khlaa
sa mehsoos hota tha. mgr samajh nahein
saki keh mein kiya chahti hoon is liye apni
qismat ke sath smjhota kr chuki thi mein.
mgr us aik touch ne meri zindgi badal di aur
mujhe aik anjaan rasta dikhaya jis per chalte
hoye mein lutf wa sroor aur pur mussarat
wadiun mein brhti chali gai. mein sab kuch
bhool kr sameer ki hoti chali gai .hatakeh
mein khud se bhi begaana hogai . mujhe
iqraar hai wohi meri chahat hai ,haan uss se
mujhe muhabat hai aur woh mujhe khud se
bhi piyara hai . aur ab halat aisi nehj pr le
aaye hein mein apni chahat ko hmesha ke
liye paane wali hoon uss ki ho kar hi mein
mukml ho sakoongi aur usse paa kar hi mein
apni manzal per paunch sakoongi . mgr uski
aarzi judaai bhi mere liye suhaan rooh bani
hoi hai .chand din tu hm telephone kar leite
thay . aik hafta baad sagheer ghar aaya tu
woh apni beevi shakeela ( nurs) ko bhi sath
hi laaya tha . mere liye maike aane ka jawaz
paida ho geya keh sdagheer ne doosri shadi
ki tu mein ne tlaaq ka mutalba karte hoye uss
ka ghar chor diya. apne aane se chand din
baad sagheer ne mujhe tlaaq nama bhjwa
diya jis se meri iddat shuroo hogai . aur
mere waldain ne sameer se phone waghera
karne ko manah kar diya. mein unki
mamnoon thi jab woh mujhe apne ghar laaye
thay tu mein dar rahi thi ghar paunch kar
meri dyrgat bane gi aur mujhe jawabdeh
hona pare ga aur unhon ne mujh se koi sawal
tak nah kiya aur mein samjhti hoon keh meri
saas maan ne apni mudabrana dalaeil se
hm sab ke liye asaani paida kar di thi . ab
unhon ne jab phone nah karne ka kaha tu
mein ne unki baat ko trjeeh di magar mein
khud sameer ke liye bechain rehne lagi .
mera haal teen agers se mukhtalef nahein
tha jo apni pehli muhabbat ke liye bechain
aur beqraar rehte hein . aur sach tu yahi hai
sameer meri pehli muhabbat hi tu tha . mein
apne aap ko samjhane ki koshish karti keh
ziyada se ziyada 6 months hi tu hein , phir
sameer hoga aur mein hoongi . yeh yaqeen
hote hoeye bhi mera dil sameer ke liye
beqraar rehta . mein usse khat likhti aur
phaar deiti . teen ager muhabbat ko puppy
love kehte hein . mgr mein mature hoon aur
muhabbat nahein blkeh ishq kar rahi hoon
sachi mujhe sameer se ishq ho geya tha.
"Menu Rabb di sohn Teray naal Pyar ho geya
way chana sachi muchi .
Teri Yaad ich dil beqraar ho geya way
chanan sachi muchi ."
do hafton ke baad mere susar Areeba ko
weekend mein mere paas chor jate jiss se
jis se mera dil bhi lag jata aur Areeba bhi
khush ho jati yun aokhe sokhe 5 maah guzar
gaye . Iddat ke khatme par aik aur museebat
uth khari hoi . mere chacha logon ne hum
logon se apne taluqaat khtam kar liye thay .
mein jab susral mein thi tu ahesta ahesta
dno bhaiun mein barf pighlne lagi aur
waqtan fawaqtan aik doosre ke haan aana
jana shuroo ho geya .mein jab maike aai tu
woh sab milne aaye aur jab tlaaq hoi tab bhi
afsos ke liye aaye thay . mere sabaq
magaitar ki shadi phuphu ki larki se hoi thi .
unki apis mein nah bani ya un ke waldein ne
ban`ne nah di kiunkeh mere chacha zidi aur
phupu bari sakhta tabiyat ki hein . behr unki
bahoo rooth kar apne maike baithi hoi thi . ab
mere chacha ne apne bhai mere Aboo par
dore dalne shuroo kiye kiye Aneela ka rishta
un ke baite se kr diya jaay . mujh tak baat
paunchi tu mein ne apni ammi se saf saaf keh
diya keh shaadi karongi tu sameer se aur
kisi ka naam tak mere samne nah liya jaay .
Aboo ne chacha se aik hafta ki muhlat mangi
thi . woh aik hafta mere liye azab ban geya .
mera khana peena choot geya rang zard par
geya meri Ammi ko iss ka ehsaas tha . unhon
ne Aboo ko qaeil kar liya keh Aneela ke liye
Sameer hi behtreen rishta hai . aur abhi meri
phoopu ki beiti Umair ke nikaah mein thi jo
keh meri phopho zad behn thi jis ki wajeh se
yeh shadi ho bhi nah dsakti thi , tu akher
Aboo ne apne ko jawab de diya aur aik blaa
mere sar se tal gai . warna mein soch chuki
thi keh agar koi zabardasti ki tu mein
un se baghawat karte hoeye sameer ko
kahoongi mujhe le jaao . mgr shukr hai iski
naubat hi nah aai doosre hafte sameer
log aaye aur unhon ne shadi ki tareekh
muqarar ki aur chale gaeye . shaadi 2 hafton
baad hona qaraar paai thi . mein khush thi
mere paaon zameen par nah tikte mgr 2
hafte guzarna muhaal ho geya .sameer se aik
aik pal ki doori mujhe khane ko daurti mgr
mein majboor thi aur waqt muqarar tak
mujhe judai ko sehna hi tha . akher woh ghari
aa paunchi jab mera sameer baraat le kar
mujhe biyahne aa pauncha . mere badan
mein musarat wa shadmaani ki lehrein
daorne lagein . mujhe us ke sath guzara aik
aik pal yaad aane lga aur mein machal
machal uthi . aise lagta keh keh pehli baar
doli mein baith kar apne piya ke des jaa rahi
hoon . pehli shadi ke waqt tu kisi qism ke
ehsaas se mein waqef hi nah thi . magar aaj
tu shadi mein ji wa jaan se shareek thi aur
mere jazbaat wa ehsasaat mere dhrkte dil ke
sath hum aahng thay . waldein aur bhaaiun
se ilwidah ho kar jab mein Sameer ke sath
car mein baithi tu aik tarf Areeba thi phir
durmian mein baithi aur mere sath mera
sameer baitha un ka jism mere badan se
touch hota geya tu mein khawabon mein
khoti gai . sameer ne mera hath apne
hathon mein le liya aur hole hole dabane lage
. Areba bhi chehk rahi thi . aaj woh bar bar
mujhe ammi keh kr pukarti tu mein khushi se
sharshaar ho jati . Car Sagheer mera sabqa
khawad drive kar raha tha aur frunt seat
par mere susar aboo baithay thay . Sameer ka sath aur sab ke samne saath hone se mujh ko bara hosla milla . saare raste Sameer
mera hath ane,hathon mein liye rahe aur meradil karta keh yeh safar kabhi khatam nah ho
magar mere badan ka taqaza tha keh kab
shaam dhale aur kab tanhaai muyasar ho .
bina kisi ehsaas ke doli mein baith gai .
kiunkeh mere waldein yahi chahte thay .
mere apne jazbaat jaise thay hi nahein nah tu
mein apni shageer hasan se shadi pr khush
thi nah hi ranjeeda .mein bachpan se hi aisi
thi yehni la prwah si jo kuch ho raha ho
theek hai hota rahe mein sanjeeda nahein
laiti thi . nah koi chahay jane ka jazba tha nah
nah meri chahat ka koi mrkz bn ska . shadi
hoi ,suhaag raat guzri aur 2 mah mere hubby
sagheer hasan mere paas rahe . mein is sab
amal ko aik honi samjh ke karti rahi . iss mein
meri apni khwaish shamel nah ho saki aik
farz samjh kar sab kuch khush dilli se kiya.
hatakeh Sagheer hasan ke wapis jane ka bhi
koi asar nah liya , nah us ke liye ranjeeda hoi
nah us ke jane ki khushi thi . zindagi yunnhi
behissi mein guzar jati agar mere hubby ke
bare bhai ( mera jaith) sameer nah hote tu .
pata hi nah chala in 6 months mein kaise un
ki janab khinchti chali gai . ab bhi keh sakti
hoon jo kuch bhi hoa iski shurooaat
nadanstgi mein hoein . aaj bhi mujhe woh pal
acchi treh yaad hein . jab mein tray mein un
ke liye khana le kar gai thi . tray mein 2-4
dishes thein .mein ne tray ko dono hathon
mein mazbooti se pakr rakha tha . aise mein
sameer bhaai ne meri maddad karni chahi
aur tray pakarne ki koshish ki tu nadanstgi
mein un ke haath mere haathon par aagay .
unke hathon ke lms se mere badan mein aik
ajeeb si sansnaht hoi jo mein ne pehle kabhi
mehsoos nah ki thi . aik crunt sa jism mein
daur geyaa . mein ne jaldi se tray table par
rakhne ki koshish ki tu un ke hath mere
hathon ko chor nahein rahe thay ., mere
kheyal mein woh dar rahey thay keh kehaein
tray gir nah jay . mein ne unki traf dekha tu
un ki nazrein mere chehre pr hi thein tu mein
ne unhein kaha bhai jaan apne hath hataa
lein .unhon ne fauran mere hath chor diye
aur mein tray rakh kr seedhi hoi tu woh
mujhe hi dekhe ja rahey thay . mein jaldi se
kmre se nikal kar apne kmre mein aai tu aik
neya ehsaas janam le chuka tha . abhi tak
mere hathon par unke hathon ka lams aise
mehsoos ho raha tha jaise ab bhi un ke
hathon mein mere haath hoon . mein heiran
thi kiunkeh iss se pehle kabhi mein ne aisa
mehsoos nah kiya tha . mein sochne lagi
woh mujhe kin nazron se dekh rahe thay .
pehle tu unhon ne kabhi aise nah dekha tha ,
un ka khana le jane se pahle mein nehaai thi
aur mere geele baal mere shanon per khule
hoeye thay magar mein dupatta acchi trah
liya hoa tha . un ke hathon ke lams aur unki
nzron ki tappash abhi tak mehsoos ho rahi thi
keh mujhe kheyal aaya keh kahein sameer
bhaai mujhe ghalt nazr se tu nahein dekh
rahe thay yeh kheyal aate hi mujhe un ki
nazroon apne chehre pr tiki mehsoos hoein
tu mein be sakhta sharma gai jaise woh ab
bhi dekh rahe hoon . us din pehli baar mein
ne kissi ke bare socha aur woh sameer bhaai
hi thay . phir aik hi ghar mein sath sath rehne
ki wajeh se roz koi nah koi aisi baat hoti rahi
keh mein unki janab brhti gai . phir ai waqt
aisa bhi aaya keh mein un ke touch ke liye
unke qareeb se guzarti ya unke hathon mein
koi cheez deiti tu aise keh un ke hathon ki
kam az kam mujhe choo lein . un ke touch
mein koi mqnasiyathi jis ne mujhe apni trf
khainch liya aur phir jis dupehr un ko goad
mein baithi tu mein unki ho chuki thi ,mera
tann mera mann un ka ho chuka tha . mein
jaan chuki thi aag dono tarf hai brabar lagi
hoi .
chāhat kā jab mazā hai ki vo bhī hoñ be-qarār
donoñ taraf ho aag barābar lagī huī .
mein shadi shuda thi aur iss liye mein jhijhak
tu rahi thi mgr khud ko bebas samajh rahi thi
aur unke aik ishaare ki muntzer thi. mere
jazbaat jaag uthay thay aur sarkash jabon ke
saamne mein dher ho chuki thi . aur jis raat
pehli baar sameer mere kmre mein aaye tu
mein ne raza mandi aur khushi se apne aap
ko unke supard kar diya tha .
mein ne sagheer ko apni qismat tu maan
liya tha magar woh meri chahat nah thi .
hum 2 maah akathe reh kr bhi aik doosre
ko nah samajh sake . mera kheyal hai nah
mein ne aur nah kabhi uss ne aik doosre ko
smjhne ki koshish ki .uski mojoodgi mein
bhi khud ko adhoora samajhti aur aik khlaa
sa mehsoos hota tha. mgr samajh nahein
saki keh mein kiya chahti hoon is liye apni
qismat ke sath smjhota kr chuki thi mein.
mgr us aik touch ne meri zindgi badal di aur
mujhe aik anjaan rasta dikhaya jis per chalte
hoye mein lutf wa sroor aur pur mussarat
wadiun mein brhti chali gai. mein sab kuch
bhool kr sameer ki hoti chali gai .hatakeh
mein khud se bhi begaana hogai . mujhe
iqraar hai wohi meri chahat hai ,haan uss se
mujhe muhabat hai aur woh mujhe khud se
bhi piyara hai . aur ab halat aisi nehj pr le
aaye hein mein apni chahat ko hmesha ke
liye paane wali hoon uss ki ho kar hi mein
mukml ho sakoongi aur usse paa kar hi mein
apni manzal per paunch sakoongi . mgr uski
aarzi judaai bhi mere liye suhaan rooh bani
hoi hai .chand din tu hm telephone kar leite
thay . aik hafta baad sagheer ghar aaya tu
woh apni beevi shakeela ( nurs) ko bhi sath
hi laaya tha . mere liye maike aane ka jawaz
paida ho geya keh sdagheer ne doosri shadi
ki tu mein ne tlaaq ka mutalba karte hoye uss
ka ghar chor diya. apne aane se chand din
baad sagheer ne mujhe tlaaq nama bhjwa
diya jis se meri iddat shuroo hogai . aur
mere waldain ne sameer se phone waghera
karne ko manah kar diya. mein unki
mamnoon thi jab woh mujhe apne ghar laaye
thay tu mein dar rahi thi ghar paunch kar
meri dyrgat bane gi aur mujhe jawabdeh
hona pare ga aur unhon ne mujh se koi sawal
tak nah kiya aur mein samjhti hoon keh meri
saas maan ne apni mudabrana dalaeil se
hm sab ke liye asaani paida kar di thi . ab
unhon ne jab phone nah karne ka kaha tu
mein ne unki baat ko trjeeh di magar mein
khud sameer ke liye bechain rehne lagi .
mera haal teen agers se mukhtalef nahein
tha jo apni pehli muhabbat ke liye bechain
aur beqraar rehte hein . aur sach tu yahi hai
sameer meri pehli muhabbat hi tu tha . mein
apne aap ko samjhane ki koshish karti keh
ziyada se ziyada 6 months hi tu hein , phir
sameer hoga aur mein hoongi . yeh yaqeen
hote hoeye bhi mera dil sameer ke liye
beqraar rehta . mein usse khat likhti aur
phaar deiti . teen ager muhabbat ko puppy
love kehte hein . mgr mein mature hoon aur
muhabbat nahein blkeh ishq kar rahi hoon
sachi mujhe sameer se ishq ho geya tha.
"Menu Rabb di sohn Teray naal Pyar ho geya
way chana sachi muchi .
Teri Yaad ich dil beqraar ho geya way
chanan sachi muchi ."
do hafton ke baad mere susar Areeba ko
weekend mein mere paas chor jate jiss se
jis se mera dil bhi lag jata aur Areeba bhi
khush ho jati yun aokhe sokhe 5 maah guzar
gaye . Iddat ke khatme par aik aur museebat
uth khari hoi . mere chacha logon ne hum
logon se apne taluqaat khtam kar liye thay .
mein jab susral mein thi tu ahesta ahesta
dno bhaiun mein barf pighlne lagi aur
waqtan fawaqtan aik doosre ke haan aana
jana shuroo ho geya .mein jab maike aai tu
woh sab milne aaye aur jab tlaaq hoi tab bhi
afsos ke liye aaye thay . mere sabaq
magaitar ki shadi phuphu ki larki se hoi thi .
unki apis mein nah bani ya un ke waldein ne
ban`ne nah di kiunkeh mere chacha zidi aur
phupu bari sakhta tabiyat ki hein . behr unki
bahoo rooth kar apne maike baithi hoi thi . ab
mere chacha ne apne bhai mere Aboo par
dore dalne shuroo kiye kiye Aneela ka rishta
un ke baite se kr diya jaay . mujh tak baat
paunchi tu mein ne apni ammi se saf saaf keh
diya keh shaadi karongi tu sameer se aur
kisi ka naam tak mere samne nah liya jaay .
Aboo ne chacha se aik hafta ki muhlat mangi
thi . woh aik hafta mere liye azab ban geya .
mera khana peena choot geya rang zard par
geya meri Ammi ko iss ka ehsaas tha . unhon
ne Aboo ko qaeil kar liya keh Aneela ke liye
Sameer hi behtreen rishta hai . aur abhi meri
phoopu ki beiti Umair ke nikaah mein thi jo
keh meri phopho zad behn thi jis ki wajeh se
yeh shadi ho bhi nah dsakti thi , tu akher
Aboo ne apne ko jawab de diya aur aik blaa
mere sar se tal gai . warna mein soch chuki
thi keh agar koi zabardasti ki tu mein
un se baghawat karte hoeye sameer ko
kahoongi mujhe le jaao . mgr shukr hai iski
naubat hi nah aai doosre hafte sameer
log aaye aur unhon ne shadi ki tareekh
muqarar ki aur chale gaeye . shaadi 2 hafton
baad hona qaraar paai thi . mein khush thi
mere paaon zameen par nah tikte mgr 2
hafte guzarna muhaal ho geya .sameer se aik
aik pal ki doori mujhe khane ko daurti mgr
mein majboor thi aur waqt muqarar tak
mujhe judai ko sehna hi tha . akher woh ghari
aa paunchi jab mera sameer baraat le kar
mujhe biyahne aa pauncha . mere badan
mein musarat wa shadmaani ki lehrein
daorne lagein . mujhe us ke sath guzara aik
aik pal yaad aane lga aur mein machal
machal uthi . aise lagta keh keh pehli baar
doli mein baith kar apne piya ke des jaa rahi
hoon . pehli shadi ke waqt tu kisi qism ke
ehsaas se mein waqef hi nah thi . magar aaj
tu shadi mein ji wa jaan se shareek thi aur
mere jazbaat wa ehsasaat mere dhrkte dil ke
sath hum aahng thay . waldein aur bhaaiun
se ilwidah ho kar jab mein Sameer ke sath
car mein baithi tu aik tarf Areeba thi phir
durmian mein baithi aur mere sath mera
sameer baitha un ka jism mere badan se
touch hota geya tu mein khawabon mein
khoti gai . sameer ne mera hath apne
hathon mein le liya aur hole hole dabane lage
. Areba bhi chehk rahi thi . aaj woh bar bar
mujhe ammi keh kr pukarti tu mein khushi se
sharshaar ho jati . Car Sagheer mera sabqa
khawad drive kar raha tha aur frunt seat
par mere susar aboo baithay thay . Sameer ka sath aur sab ke samne saath hone se mujh ko bara hosla milla . saare raste Sameer
mera hath ane,hathon mein liye rahe aur meradil karta keh yeh safar kabhi khatam nah ho
magar mere badan ka taqaza tha keh kab
shaam dhale aur kab tanhaai muyasar ho .
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