Adultery Neighbour Affair

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"Ok! Ok! Stop! Please... Sri... just stop!" She screamed out as she stared at me with bulging eyes that were now moist and red. "I can't believe you!" She was livid.

 

"I'm... uh... sorry Sirisha.... I was... I got caught up in the moment." I stammered, realizing I may have crossed the line in the way I had described everything.

 

"I... I... I don't... know. I don't know... what to... say." She stammered. "I am.... I can't believe what you just said."

 

"Sirisha, listen, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to upset you. I thought...... I'd be honest and tell you everything. I also thought...... never mind. I don't want to upset you any further."

 

"No. Please. Tell me." Her voice was steadier now, and as she crossed her arms across her chest again, she looked at me with sternness.

 

"Never mind Sirisha. For what it's worth though, I want to assure you that your secret is safe with me."

 

"Ya. Thanks." She chuckled sarcastically. "I would hope so." She rolled her eyes, clearly very distraught. "But please, tell me what you were trying to say."

 

"Some other time Sirisha. When you're more relaxed." I tried to get out of it.

 

"I doubt that's going to happen anytime soon." She sniggered. "So please, for fuck's sake, indulge me." She seemed pissed off now, and it didn't look like she was going to take no for an answer.

 

"All I was trying to tell you is that what I saw, well. Look Sirisha." I tried to figure out a way to tell her what I felt without trying to sound like a creep, which I think I was starting to come across as. She stared at me with her eyes wide open as I continued. "Sirisha. I'll try and be as candid as I have always been with you. Ever since you moved in next door, I've always found you attractive. I've always thought you to be one of the most beautiful women I have ever seen." I paused for a moment and saw that her expression had softened a little as she now stared at the floor. "But for obvious reasons, I never said anything earlier or shared my feelings. So, when I did see you that night with Ravi, I was shocked at first. But then, I found it arousing and I couldn't take my eyes off you. I was captivated. I actually felt jealous even, and since that day I haven't been able to stop thinking about you."

 

"Wow. I really don't know what to say Sri." She stood up and went to the window, staring out as her glance passed the very window that played theatre to that night's proceedings.

 

"You probably think I'm some slut. But you don't understand the frustration, the loneliness. And then you tell me you found it arousing as if I put on a show specially for you?" She spun around, her eyes were red and watery again. "I'm so bloody confused, angry, embarrassed. I don't know what else. I just can't believe this has happened. It's really got my head in a spin." She sat opposite me and trembled slightly.

 

"Sirisha. I am never one to judge you. I never intended it to sound like that. I do not think you are a slut, and I can't even imagine how hard it must be to live apart from your husband for such extended periods of time. Situations like this happen sometimes and take control of our better judgment."

 

"Your approval or whatever, doesn't make things better. It is still a terrible situation to be in. It's so bloody embarrassing to be caught, and then to have your neighbor and friend find it arousing and tell you so? I really don't know what to think. I'm confused and need to be alone please." Sirisha stood up and walked to the door, visibly shaken. At the door, she turned to look at me. "Sri. Please. This is our secret." And she left.

 

I sat on the sofa, staring blankly at some photographs on the wall across. I couldn't tell what would happen next, but I knew one thing. I had probably fucked up our friendship. I had told her how much I had enjoyed what I had seen, expecting her to do the same with me. What was I thinking?

 

I sighed and got up, poured myself a drink, and went out to the balcony to get some fresh air. This time the curtain was drawn closed and the show was over. I felt like an immature idiot.