My simple explorations in sexuality

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The oldest, (may be I may correct it later if something else comes-up to be older than this) experience of feeling sexually stimulated, was may be when I was like very very young, may be in LKG, when I used to finish my dinner early and watch Chitrahaar in my drawing room with my neighbor kids, sitting in front of the TV, watching Ajay Devgan songs like maine Pyar Tumhi se kiya hai, etc etc. I was pretty young back then, and my neighbor kid's (my age) elder sister Deepal was in her teens, but we being pretty younger to her, she never felt any type of unease wearing comfortable dresses, sitting in awkward positions with her big thighs stretched in revealing ways and sometimes taking me on her lap too, which I really enjoyed in innocent ways. She looked good, nice body, bit plump but very nice flaring nostrils, chiseled face and pout lips, and whenever I looked at Pooja Bhatt, I used to think she looks like Deepal. My very young impressionable mind used to associate whatever Pooja Bhatt does in movies and songs with Deepal, and one day, while watching Chitrahaar, this song "Badalon mein chup raha hai chand kyun..." was playing. Rahul Roy, and Pooja Bhat looking pretty romantic were in a kind of romantic evening tension as the song scenes unfolded, and as the song went on para after para, I began loving the way Pooja was breathing with her bosom swinging up and down, breathing heavily whenever Rahul Roy approached or looked at her, and then, as it went on towards teh end of the song, the two came closer and closer to each other and something I never had seen til then happened! They kissed each other on the lips, and Pooja Bhat's acting in that kissing scene is so bold, it seems she was enjoying all the kissing and yes, something unexpected happened in my little halp pant too. I had the first little boner of my life. And what more, she looked exactly like Deepal and that made it even harder. The parents of the 90's felt uncomfortable and quickly turned off the TV, and all of us slowly began to get up from our places, to go to our rooms... but I just was not ready to get up. Deepal sitting just next to me, I was having a big visible erection may be like 2-3  inches back then, which I was conscious enough to not make public. Somehow, I managed it, I don't remember how, but that night, I had some feelings for Deepal's body and also felt that I can kiss her like that too, thinking that it would be so much fun. But yeah, nothing like that really happened. However, she remains one of teh earliest recollections of my sexual interests. Whenever I saw her after that, I always, atleast for a split second felt the sexual feeling, and yeah, that was may be my first introduction to it. Let me progress slowly to the other recollections I have, in the coming posts till they finally turn real pervert level as I grew up. Yet, hold on, lets go slow, step my step, one by one... slowly