19-03-2020, 05:02 AM
Shaam gehri ho rahi thi ............. or main taizi ky saath apni car
highway py dodaati hoi apni manzil ki taraf jaa rahi thi ............ 2
ghanty ka safar tha jo ky main ny khud hi akaily hi apni car py krny ka
irada kia tha ............. magar pahly apny office ....... or phir ghar sy
nikalty hoy dair ho gai thi .............. mery shouhar Asif ny mujhy rooka
bhi tha ky aaj na jaao dair ho rahi hai to subah chali jaana ............
magar main aaj ka din bhi wahin py guzaarna chahti thi ............ hamary
shehar sy qareeb 2 ghanty ky faasly py tha mery parents ka ghar
.............. jaha main jaa rahi thi ..................... aaspaas traffic
bhi thi ............ magar highway ki traffic ki trah hi buhat kum or kabhi
kabhi ............ aagy tool plaza sy main ny aik side road py apni car moud
li ............. jaha py qareeb aadhy ghanty ki drive py hamar ghar aana tha
..............
apny papa ky ghar ki traf jaaty hoy main road sy main ny jis road py turn
lya tha .......yeh side road aaj kuch ziada hi sunsaan lag rahi thi
......... ya shayad shaam ky is waqt main yaha aisa hi haal rahta ho
......... shehar main hony waaly py darpay waaqiaat ny mery andar khouf ko or bhi jaga dya tha ......... bahar haal main apni car ky boofers py apna pasandeedah music oonchi awaz main lagaa ky sunti hoi ........... or apna sir hilaati hoi road py nazrain jamaay aagy barhti jaa rahi thi ............... halki halki si bhook ka ahsaas hoa ........... main ny apny qareeb ki khaali seat py rakhy hoy purse ko khola ........... or us main sy aik sandwitch nikaalny lagi ......... nazrain sarak sy hataa ky .............
jaisy hi main ny sandwitch
purse main sy nikaal ky dobara sarak ki taraf dekha to mairy pairon ny break
ko poori qoowat sy dabaa dya .............. sandwitch mery haath sy meri
goud main gir para ............. or mery dono haath itni zoor sy car ky
steering ko dabaany lagy ky jaisy main usi ko dabaa ky car rook loon gi
............. or saath hi mery monh sy halki si cheekh nikal gai
............. bari hi mushkil sy mairi gaadi siraf 10 feet ky faasly py ruk
paai us ............... sarak ky beechon beech pari hoi us laash sy
........................
jee haan ............. meri car ky saamny thori hi door ........... sarak ky
beech main ............. aik laash oondhi pari hoi thi ............. kisi
aadmi ki laash thi .............. usky irdgird khoon bikhra hoa tha
............. or qareeb hi us sy thori door hi aik cycle pari hoi thi
........ tooti phooti si ............. jo ky zahir hai ky usi ki ho gi
............... main ghabraa gai ............... dar ky maary mera jisam
thanda parny laga .............. main to shukar kr rahi thi ky achanak sy
meri nazar us py par gai thi warna shayad meri car bhi usy kuchalti hoi
chali jaati ............... us aadmi ka jisam or cycle kuch is andaaz main
pary hoy thy poori ki poori sarak block ho gai hoi thi ............ or mery
car nikaalny ka raasta nahi bacha hoa tha ........... pata nahi koun tha yeh
beechara .............. jisy is road sy guzarti hoi koi taiz raftaar car
takkar maar gai thi ............... or ab beechara shayad mar chuka tha
................... pata nahi shayad zinda hi ho ...............magar main
kisi bhi nai museebat main nahi parna chahti thi .............. mujhy is
waqat kisi qisam ki hamdardi ka khayal nahi aa raha tha ........... mujhy to
ab jaldi sy jaldi waha sy door jaany ki thi ............. magar usky lye
raasta banana zaroori tha ............ main ny us cycle ko road sy hata ky
us dead body ky qareeb sy car nikaalny ka irada kya ......... yeh khayal
aaty hi main ny ........... darty darty ........ apni car ka gate khola
............. apny nazuk nazuk sy pair neechy sarak py rakhy
.................. car sy nikal ky idhar udhar dekha ............ magar door
door tak koi nazar nahi aa raha tha ........... halka halka ho rahy andhairy
main ........... main ahista ahista uski taraf barhny lagi ........... jitna
surkh surkh khoon usky irdgird bikhra hoa tha to lagta to nahi tha ky woh
zindah ho ga ................. main apni chalny ki ahat paida kye bina aagy
barh rahi thi uski taraf .......... magar mujhy khud ghabrahat ho rahi thi
................ main ny us dead body sy thori door pari hoi cycle kheench
ky road sy neechy aik taraf kr di ............ or phir taizi sy mud ky apni
car ki taraf barhi ............... magar phir pata nahi kyon mujhy khayal
aaya ky main aik nazar dekh to lon ky aakhir woh beechara tha koun
........... jo kisi car ki takkar sy is dunya sy chala gya
....................... yeh soch ky mery qadam apni car ky qareeb pohnch ky
ruky or main phir sy us mud ky us laash ki taraf barhny lagi...............
jaisy hi main apny qeemti sandals ko usky khoon sy bachaati hoi ghoom ky
uski doosri taraf aai or usky chehry ki taraf dekha to ............. usky
galy ka aik bara sa kapra .......... usky chehry py para hoa tha
............ main ny kaanmpty hoy haathon ky saath haath aagy barhaa ky woh
kapra thora sa neechy ko kheencha .......... magar poora usky chehry sy nahi
........... siraf aankhain kapray sy bahir aain ............. main wahin ruk
gai .................... or uski aankhon ko dekhny lagi ............. jo
khuli hoi thin ............. or door kahin or markooz thin ............
jaisy kisi takleef sy guzar ky mout aai ho usy ...................... mujhy
uski un aankhon main ajeeb dard or takleef si mahsoos ho rahi thi
............ meri nazrain uski aankhon py hi thin ............ky achanak hi
uski aankhon ki balls main harkat paida hoi or woh aankhain meri taraf mud
gain .............. or mujhy dekhny lagin ........ meri aankhon main
............... main khouf ky maary uchal pari ........... magar is sy pahly
ky main waha sy door bhaag paati .......... aik haath meri monh ki taraf
baraha .......... meri aankhain band hony lagin ............ or maira dimagh
tareekyoon main doobta chala gya ...................
Jub mujhy hosh aaya ............... mujhy nahi pata ky kitni dair ky baad
mujhy hosh aaya .......... lakin jis waqat mujhy hosh aaya tub bhi meri
aankhon ky saamny andhaira hi tha ............. main ny apni aankhain kholny
ki koshish ki ........... magar mujhy andaza hoa ky meri aankhon pr to koi
patti bandhi hoi hai ........... jiski wajah sy main apni aankhain khol nahi
paa rahi thi .......... main ny apna haath foran apni aankhon py ly jaany ki
koshsish ki .......... magar mai dehshat zada rah gai jub mahsoos hoa ky
mery haath bhi bandhy hoy thy ............... main ny apny haathon ko
kheencha .......... magar kaafi mazbooti sy baandhy gy hoy thy mery haath
mery sir ki ooperi taraf ............ ab main khud ko mahsoos krna chah rahi
thi ky main kaha hon ....... kaisi halat main hon ........... tabhi main ny
apni baaqi senses ka istemaal krty hoy andaza lagya ky main aik bed py pari
hoi hon .......... achy sy bandhi hoi........... meri aankhain .... haath
...... pair or yaha tak ky monh bhi band tha .........lakin monh py mujhy
koi aisa pressure mahsoos nahi hoa .......... magar main monh ko khol nahi
paa rahi thi ............ shayad tape lagaa di gai thi mery monh py ......
taaky main chilla nahi sakoon ................. main buri trah sy khoufzada
ho chuki thi ............ main apny jisam ko jhatky deti hoi khud ko un
bandhishon sy churwaany ki koshsih krny lagi ............. magar sub koshish
nakaam jaa rahi thi ............. jitna zoor laga rahi thi utna hi mery
haathon py pressure barhta jaa raha tha ................ meri aankhon sy
aansu jaari hony lagy ........... jo saath ky saath meri aankhon py bandhi
hoi patti main juzab hoty jaa rahy thy ..............
aakhir main bilkul bybuss ho kar apni jaga pr saakit ho gai .............
main rooty hoy bhi yehi soch rahi thi ky main kaha hon ........... yeh baat
to confirm thi ky main kidnap ho chuki thi .................... or yeh
khayal hi mery poory jisam main khouf ki lehrain doudaany ky lye kaafi tha
ky mujhy aghwaa kr lya gya hoa hai ................. or ab mery dil main
bury bury khayal aa rahy thy ky pata nahi mery saath kya ho ga .............
is baat ky khayal hi sy mera jisam kaanmp raha tha ky meri izzat ko pamaal
kia jaay ga ........... kyon ky mujh jaisi haseen .... jawan ....... or
bybuss aurat py koi kaisy reham khaa sakta hai ............. jubky woh poori
trah sy doosry ky control main ho ............... main buri trah sy ghabraa
rahi thi ........ magar kuch bhi na kr sakti thi .............. lakin aik
baat ki tasalli bhi thi ky mery kapray abhi tak mery jisam py moujood thy
........... mujhy nangi nahi kia gya tha ................. jiska matlab yehi
tha ky kam az kam abhi tak to meri izzat mahfooz thi ................ magar
kub tak ................ ?????????????????
IZZAT ................. ???????????? mery dil ny mujh sy swaal kia
........... or phir main or mera dil ......... hum dono hi muskraa dye is
swal py ........
Pata nahi kitni dair ky baad ..... mujhy darwaza khulny ki awaaz aai
......... maira dil zoor zoor sy dharakny laga .......... pyaas ky maary
mera halaq to pahly hi khushk ho raha tha ........... ab mujhy apny irdgird
ka haal jaan ny ky lye siraf or siraf apny kaano ka sahara tha ........ main
kamray main hony waali har ahat ko sun ny ki koshish kr rahi thi .......
kisi ky pairon ki chaap mujhy sunaai dy rahi thi ........ mujhy mahoos hoa
ky woh ab meri taraf barh raha hai ........ magar un pairon ki chaap to
musalsal sunaai deti rahi ......... magar woh jo koi bhi tha ...... woh mery
qareeb nahi aaya ............ ab main yehi andaza lagaa sakti thi ky woh jo
bhi tha ......... kamray main idhar udhar tehal raha tha ........ mery
saamny hi .......... mery haath pair thandy ho rahy thy ....... phir woh
pairon ki awaaz aani band ho gai ........ jaisy koi chalty hoy ruk gya ho
.............. mujhy ajeeb si ghabrahat ho rahi thi ....... main chahti thi
ky jaldi sy jaldi woh mera monh kholy to main us sy baat kron ky jo paisy
chahye hain woh ly kar mujhy chor dy ........... magar abhi tak aisa kuch
nahi ho raha tha ...............
achanak mujhy mery maathy py kisi ky haath ka touch feel hoa ...... main
kaanmp uthi ........ magar woh haath ahista ahista mery maathy pr sy baalon
ko hataa raha tha ............ or mery maathy py paseena aany laga tha
...... jo ky usky haathon ko bhi yaqeenan lag raha tha ....... kyon ky us ny
kisi kapray sy mery maathy ko saaf kr dya ........ chand lamhon ky baad
mujhy mery gaalon py koi taiz dhaar nookdaar si cheez ka ahsaas hoa .......
main apni tamaam senses ko istemaal krty hoy andaaza lagaany ki koshish ki
ky woh kya cheez hai ....... or chand lamhon main jo naam mery zehan main
ubhraa uska soch ky aik baar phir mera jisam thanda hony laga ..........
mery maathy py thanda paseena aany laga .............. meri reedh ki hadi
main khouf ki aik lehar doud gai ........ mout ky khouf ki lehar ...........
mujhy aisa hi mahsoos ho raha tha ky woh yaqeenan aik taiz dhaar churi ya
chaaqu hai ........... jisy woh shakhs ahista ahista mery chehry py phair
raha tha ........ uski nouk ky saath mery gaalon ko jaisy kuraid raha tha
............. us zalim ko yeh ahsaas bhi nahi tha shayad ky uski taiz dhaar
mery gaalon ko zakhmi kar sakti hai .......... unko cheel sakti hai
.......... dheery dheery usky haath main pakra hoa chaaqu ya churi ...... ya
phir khanjar ....... mery galy ki taraf barhny laga .......... uska haath ka
dabaao buhat hi halka tha .......... mery band monh sy oooooonnnnnnnnnn
.......aaaaggggggghhhhh ki awaazain nikal rahi thin ....... magar main apny
jisam ya chehry ko koi bhi harkat deny sy dar rahi thi .......... ky kahin
mery hilny julny ki wajah sy hi woh taiz dhaar aala mery galy py hi na phir
jaay .............. ab woh churi mery galy pr thi ............ jiss sy woh
ahista ahista meri gardan ko sahlaa raha tha ............ or main soch chuki
hoi thi ky bus ab main chand lamhon ki hi mehmaan hon ............ or phir
jaisy hi woh aadmi churi mery galy py chaly ga to mera gala cut jaay ga
.......... or saath hi meri rooh mery jisam ka saath chor jaay gi
............... mera monh or bhi khushk ho chuka tha ................. or
jisam mout ky khouf sy dheery dheery kaanmpny laga tha ..............bandhi
hoi aankhon haath pairon ... or bandhy hoy monh ky saath ........ itni by
busi ki mout ka soch ky hi meri aankhon sy aansu nikalny lagy thy
................. magar woh us zalim ko kaha nazar aa sakty thy ............
kyon ky woh aansu to meri aankhon py bandhy hoy kapray main hi jazab hoty
chaly jaa rahy thy ............. .....
phir uska haath us churi ko ly ky mery honton py aaya ............... or woh
us churi ki nouk sy mery honton py lagi hoi tape ky oper sy hi mery honton
ko sahlaany laga ............ or phir wohi hoa jiska mujhy khouf tha .......
usky haath ka pressure ahista ahista barhny laga ........ mery honton py
........... or phir sub sy pahly mery honton py lagi hoi tape katny lagi
....... zahir hai ky sub sy pahly tape ny kutna tha ....... or usky baad
phir mery jisam ki baari thi ......... mujhay andaza ho raha tha ky yeh koi
junooni qatal hai ...... jo ky mujram hony ky saath saath aik zehni mareez
bhi hai ............or ab mujhy maarny sy pahly mery chehry ko buri trah sy
bigaad dy ga ............ or phir mery poory jisam ko bhi ........ or phir
yeh ho ga ky meri laash ki shanakht bhi nahi ho paay gi ............. yehi
soch soch kar mery khouf main izafa hota jaa raha tha ............ or main
us khanjar numa churi ky ab apny honton py chalny ka intizar kr rahi thi
...............
jaisy hi mery honton py lagi hoi tape thori si kutti ........to mujhy us
taiz dhaar aalay ka thanda pun apny honton py mahsoos hoa .............
magar agly hi lamhay .......... kuch lamhon ky lye hi sahi ........ mujhy
aik releif ka ahsaas hoa ............ jub us ny woh khanjar mery honton sy
hata lya ............ or woh churri bhi ............ main hairaan ho gai
........... or dil hi dil main Khuda ka shukar krny lagi ............. ky
shayad usko mery py reham aa gya hai ............. ... mery honton pr lagi
hoi tape ky katny sy mery honton ky darmyan thori si jaga ban gai thi
......... magar sides py lagi hoi tape ky khinchaao k wajah sy abhi bhi mera
monh poori trah sy khul nahi sakta tha .... ........ kyon ky abhi bhi mera
monh poori trah sy azaad nahi ho paaya tha ........ main kuch bolny ki
koshish krny lagi ....... mmmmmmmmmmmmm.mmmmmmmmm .........
oooooooooooooogggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh .... .magar koi bhi lafaz mery monh sy
nahi nikal paya ..........
agly hi lamhay aik or ajeeb baat hoi ........mujhy apny honton py cold drink
ka straw mahsoos hoa jisy woh mery honton ky darmyaan push krta hoa mery
honto main daal raha tha ....... main ny bhi halki si koshish kr ky apny
honton ky darmyan thori jaga banany ki koshish ki ................. or woh
straw mery honton ky beech main daakhil ho gya .......... ab main ny usy
suck kia to thanda juice mery khushk halaq main utarny laga ................
main jo pata nahi kitni dair ky pyaasi thi ........... or is qadar khouf or
dehshat ky aalam main pari hoi thi ....... apni pyaas bujhaany lagi
............ kyon ky mujhy is qadar pyaas lag rahi thi ky har achanak sy
milny waaly is thandy juice ny mery dimagh sy maout ka khouf chand lamhon ky
lye nikaal kar sirfa or siraf apni pyaas bujhaany ka khayal dimagh main daal
dya tha ............. or main ahista ahista suck krti hoi juice pee rahi thi
...........
jaisy hi juice khatam hoa to us ny woh straw bhi mery honton sy kheench lya
............. ab main muntazir thi kisi or harkat ki ........... magar phir
mujhy apny bed sy door jaaty hoy qadmoon ki awaaz sunaai di ........... or
phir aik baar darwaza khul ky band ho gya ............ main hairan o
pareshaan pari hoi sooch rahi thi yeh sub kya hai .......... us bandy ny aa
ky mujhy chooa bhi nahi .......... balky mujhy thanda juice pilaany ky baad
waha sy chala gya hai ............. mujhy hairat or bhi thi ky us ny mery
jisam sy kuch bhi ghalat harkat krny ki koshish nahi ki thi ..............
aik is baat ki mujhy umeed ho gai thi ky wo jo koi bhi tha mujhy qatal krny
ka irada nahi tha .............. ya agar tha bhi to kam az kam is waqat to
mujhy zindah chor dya tha .....................
main waha us anjaany or undekhy hoy kamray main pari hoi apni bandhi hoi
aankhon ky saath rasyoon main jakdi hoi apny mustaqbil ky baary main soch
rahi thi ............ aik baat to confirm thi ky yaha sy itni jaldi or
asaani sy nikalny ka koi imkaan nahi tha ................ in sub baaton ko
sochty hoy mery dimagh main aik yeh baat bhi aai ky us ny mujhy aisy baandha
to tha .......... magar meri bybusi ka faida uthaany ki koi koshsih kyon
nahi ki ............... kyon us ny mery jisam ky kisi bhi hissay ko choony
ki koshish nahi ki .......... mery boobs ....... meri choot ..... mera sub
kuch to usky saamny tha .......... magar us ny kuch bhi nahi kia ........
lakin kyon .................. aisy hi soochty hoy ......... pata nahi kub
meri aankh lag gai ....... ya shayad us juice main koi aisa nasha tha ky
main phir sy byhosh ho gai ......... yeh main kuch nahi kah sakti
........... bus yeh yaad tha ky aakhiri alfaaz jo ky us waqat mery dimagh
main us anjaany aadmi ky lye goonj rahy thy woh thy ..............
.... Junooni
............ MR. R.............
highway py dodaati hoi apni manzil ki taraf jaa rahi thi ............ 2
ghanty ka safar tha jo ky main ny khud hi akaily hi apni car py krny ka
irada kia tha ............. magar pahly apny office ....... or phir ghar sy
nikalty hoy dair ho gai thi .............. mery shouhar Asif ny mujhy rooka
bhi tha ky aaj na jaao dair ho rahi hai to subah chali jaana ............
magar main aaj ka din bhi wahin py guzaarna chahti thi ............ hamary
shehar sy qareeb 2 ghanty ky faasly py tha mery parents ka ghar
.............. jaha main jaa rahi thi ..................... aaspaas traffic
bhi thi ............ magar highway ki traffic ki trah hi buhat kum or kabhi
kabhi ............ aagy tool plaza sy main ny aik side road py apni car moud
li ............. jaha py qareeb aadhy ghanty ki drive py hamar ghar aana tha
..............
apny papa ky ghar ki traf jaaty hoy main road sy main ny jis road py turn
lya tha .......yeh side road aaj kuch ziada hi sunsaan lag rahi thi
......... ya shayad shaam ky is waqt main yaha aisa hi haal rahta ho
......... shehar main hony waaly py darpay waaqiaat ny mery andar khouf ko or bhi jaga dya tha ......... bahar haal main apni car ky boofers py apna pasandeedah music oonchi awaz main lagaa ky sunti hoi ........... or apna sir hilaati hoi road py nazrain jamaay aagy barhti jaa rahi thi ............... halki halki si bhook ka ahsaas hoa ........... main ny apny qareeb ki khaali seat py rakhy hoy purse ko khola ........... or us main sy aik sandwitch nikaalny lagi ......... nazrain sarak sy hataa ky .............
jaisy hi main ny sandwitch
purse main sy nikaal ky dobara sarak ki taraf dekha to mairy pairon ny break
ko poori qoowat sy dabaa dya .............. sandwitch mery haath sy meri
goud main gir para ............. or mery dono haath itni zoor sy car ky
steering ko dabaany lagy ky jaisy main usi ko dabaa ky car rook loon gi
............. or saath hi mery monh sy halki si cheekh nikal gai
............. bari hi mushkil sy mairi gaadi siraf 10 feet ky faasly py ruk
paai us ............... sarak ky beechon beech pari hoi us laash sy
........................
jee haan ............. meri car ky saamny thori hi door ........... sarak ky
beech main ............. aik laash oondhi pari hoi thi ............. kisi
aadmi ki laash thi .............. usky irdgird khoon bikhra hoa tha
............. or qareeb hi us sy thori door hi aik cycle pari hoi thi
........ tooti phooti si ............. jo ky zahir hai ky usi ki ho gi
............... main ghabraa gai ............... dar ky maary mera jisam
thanda parny laga .............. main to shukar kr rahi thi ky achanak sy
meri nazar us py par gai thi warna shayad meri car bhi usy kuchalti hoi
chali jaati ............... us aadmi ka jisam or cycle kuch is andaaz main
pary hoy thy poori ki poori sarak block ho gai hoi thi ............ or mery
car nikaalny ka raasta nahi bacha hoa tha ........... pata nahi koun tha yeh
beechara .............. jisy is road sy guzarti hoi koi taiz raftaar car
takkar maar gai thi ............... or ab beechara shayad mar chuka tha
................... pata nahi shayad zinda hi ho ...............magar main
kisi bhi nai museebat main nahi parna chahti thi .............. mujhy is
waqat kisi qisam ki hamdardi ka khayal nahi aa raha tha ........... mujhy to
ab jaldi sy jaldi waha sy door jaany ki thi ............. magar usky lye
raasta banana zaroori tha ............ main ny us cycle ko road sy hata ky
us dead body ky qareeb sy car nikaalny ka irada kya ......... yeh khayal
aaty hi main ny ........... darty darty ........ apni car ka gate khola
............. apny nazuk nazuk sy pair neechy sarak py rakhy
.................. car sy nikal ky idhar udhar dekha ............ magar door
door tak koi nazar nahi aa raha tha ........... halka halka ho rahy andhairy
main ........... main ahista ahista uski taraf barhny lagi ........... jitna
surkh surkh khoon usky irdgird bikhra hoa tha to lagta to nahi tha ky woh
zindah ho ga ................. main apni chalny ki ahat paida kye bina aagy
barh rahi thi uski taraf .......... magar mujhy khud ghabrahat ho rahi thi
................ main ny us dead body sy thori door pari hoi cycle kheench
ky road sy neechy aik taraf kr di ............ or phir taizi sy mud ky apni
car ki taraf barhi ............... magar phir pata nahi kyon mujhy khayal
aaya ky main aik nazar dekh to lon ky aakhir woh beechara tha koun
........... jo kisi car ki takkar sy is dunya sy chala gya
....................... yeh soch ky mery qadam apni car ky qareeb pohnch ky
ruky or main phir sy us mud ky us laash ki taraf barhny lagi...............
jaisy hi main apny qeemti sandals ko usky khoon sy bachaati hoi ghoom ky
uski doosri taraf aai or usky chehry ki taraf dekha to ............. usky
galy ka aik bara sa kapra .......... usky chehry py para hoa tha
............ main ny kaanmpty hoy haathon ky saath haath aagy barhaa ky woh
kapra thora sa neechy ko kheencha .......... magar poora usky chehry sy nahi
........... siraf aankhain kapray sy bahir aain ............. main wahin ruk
gai .................... or uski aankhon ko dekhny lagi ............. jo
khuli hoi thin ............. or door kahin or markooz thin ............
jaisy kisi takleef sy guzar ky mout aai ho usy ...................... mujhy
uski un aankhon main ajeeb dard or takleef si mahsoos ho rahi thi
............ meri nazrain uski aankhon py hi thin ............ky achanak hi
uski aankhon ki balls main harkat paida hoi or woh aankhain meri taraf mud
gain .............. or mujhy dekhny lagin ........ meri aankhon main
............... main khouf ky maary uchal pari ........... magar is sy pahly
ky main waha sy door bhaag paati .......... aik haath meri monh ki taraf
baraha .......... meri aankhain band hony lagin ............ or maira dimagh
tareekyoon main doobta chala gya ...................
Jub mujhy hosh aaya ............... mujhy nahi pata ky kitni dair ky baad
mujhy hosh aaya .......... lakin jis waqat mujhy hosh aaya tub bhi meri
aankhon ky saamny andhaira hi tha ............. main ny apni aankhain kholny
ki koshish ki ........... magar mujhy andaza hoa ky meri aankhon pr to koi
patti bandhi hoi hai ........... jiski wajah sy main apni aankhain khol nahi
paa rahi thi .......... main ny apna haath foran apni aankhon py ly jaany ki
koshsish ki .......... magar mai dehshat zada rah gai jub mahsoos hoa ky
mery haath bhi bandhy hoy thy ............... main ny apny haathon ko
kheencha .......... magar kaafi mazbooti sy baandhy gy hoy thy mery haath
mery sir ki ooperi taraf ............ ab main khud ko mahsoos krna chah rahi
thi ky main kaha hon ....... kaisi halat main hon ........... tabhi main ny
apni baaqi senses ka istemaal krty hoy andaza lagya ky main aik bed py pari
hoi hon .......... achy sy bandhi hoi........... meri aankhain .... haath
...... pair or yaha tak ky monh bhi band tha .........lakin monh py mujhy
koi aisa pressure mahsoos nahi hoa .......... magar main monh ko khol nahi
paa rahi thi ............ shayad tape lagaa di gai thi mery monh py ......
taaky main chilla nahi sakoon ................. main buri trah sy khoufzada
ho chuki thi ............ main apny jisam ko jhatky deti hoi khud ko un
bandhishon sy churwaany ki koshsih krny lagi ............. magar sub koshish
nakaam jaa rahi thi ............. jitna zoor laga rahi thi utna hi mery
haathon py pressure barhta jaa raha tha ................ meri aankhon sy
aansu jaari hony lagy ........... jo saath ky saath meri aankhon py bandhi
hoi patti main juzab hoty jaa rahy thy ..............
aakhir main bilkul bybuss ho kar apni jaga pr saakit ho gai .............
main rooty hoy bhi yehi soch rahi thi ky main kaha hon ........... yeh baat
to confirm thi ky main kidnap ho chuki thi .................... or yeh
khayal hi mery poory jisam main khouf ki lehrain doudaany ky lye kaafi tha
ky mujhy aghwaa kr lya gya hoa hai ................. or ab mery dil main
bury bury khayal aa rahy thy ky pata nahi mery saath kya ho ga .............
is baat ky khayal hi sy mera jisam kaanmp raha tha ky meri izzat ko pamaal
kia jaay ga ........... kyon ky mujh jaisi haseen .... jawan ....... or
bybuss aurat py koi kaisy reham khaa sakta hai ............. jubky woh poori
trah sy doosry ky control main ho ............... main buri trah sy ghabraa
rahi thi ........ magar kuch bhi na kr sakti thi .............. lakin aik
baat ki tasalli bhi thi ky mery kapray abhi tak mery jisam py moujood thy
........... mujhy nangi nahi kia gya tha ................. jiska matlab yehi
tha ky kam az kam abhi tak to meri izzat mahfooz thi ................ magar
kub tak ................ ?????????????????
IZZAT ................. ???????????? mery dil ny mujh sy swaal kia
........... or phir main or mera dil ......... hum dono hi muskraa dye is
swal py ........
Pata nahi kitni dair ky baad ..... mujhy darwaza khulny ki awaaz aai
......... maira dil zoor zoor sy dharakny laga .......... pyaas ky maary
mera halaq to pahly hi khushk ho raha tha ........... ab mujhy apny irdgird
ka haal jaan ny ky lye siraf or siraf apny kaano ka sahara tha ........ main
kamray main hony waali har ahat ko sun ny ki koshish kr rahi thi .......
kisi ky pairon ki chaap mujhy sunaai dy rahi thi ........ mujhy mahoos hoa
ky woh ab meri taraf barh raha hai ........ magar un pairon ki chaap to
musalsal sunaai deti rahi ......... magar woh jo koi bhi tha ...... woh mery
qareeb nahi aaya ............ ab main yehi andaza lagaa sakti thi ky woh jo
bhi tha ......... kamray main idhar udhar tehal raha tha ........ mery
saamny hi .......... mery haath pair thandy ho rahy thy ....... phir woh
pairon ki awaaz aani band ho gai ........ jaisy koi chalty hoy ruk gya ho
.............. mujhy ajeeb si ghabrahat ho rahi thi ....... main chahti thi
ky jaldi sy jaldi woh mera monh kholy to main us sy baat kron ky jo paisy
chahye hain woh ly kar mujhy chor dy ........... magar abhi tak aisa kuch
nahi ho raha tha ...............
achanak mujhy mery maathy py kisi ky haath ka touch feel hoa ...... main
kaanmp uthi ........ magar woh haath ahista ahista mery maathy pr sy baalon
ko hataa raha tha ............ or mery maathy py paseena aany laga tha
...... jo ky usky haathon ko bhi yaqeenan lag raha tha ....... kyon ky us ny
kisi kapray sy mery maathy ko saaf kr dya ........ chand lamhon ky baad
mujhy mery gaalon py koi taiz dhaar nookdaar si cheez ka ahsaas hoa .......
main apni tamaam senses ko istemaal krty hoy andaaza lagaany ki koshish ki
ky woh kya cheez hai ....... or chand lamhon main jo naam mery zehan main
ubhraa uska soch ky aik baar phir mera jisam thanda hony laga ..........
mery maathy py thanda paseena aany laga .............. meri reedh ki hadi
main khouf ki aik lehar doud gai ........ mout ky khouf ki lehar ...........
mujhy aisa hi mahsoos ho raha tha ky woh yaqeenan aik taiz dhaar churi ya
chaaqu hai ........... jisy woh shakhs ahista ahista mery chehry py phair
raha tha ........ uski nouk ky saath mery gaalon ko jaisy kuraid raha tha
............. us zalim ko yeh ahsaas bhi nahi tha shayad ky uski taiz dhaar
mery gaalon ko zakhmi kar sakti hai .......... unko cheel sakti hai
.......... dheery dheery usky haath main pakra hoa chaaqu ya churi ...... ya
phir khanjar ....... mery galy ki taraf barhny laga .......... uska haath ka
dabaao buhat hi halka tha .......... mery band monh sy oooooonnnnnnnnnn
.......aaaaggggggghhhhh ki awaazain nikal rahi thin ....... magar main apny
jisam ya chehry ko koi bhi harkat deny sy dar rahi thi .......... ky kahin
mery hilny julny ki wajah sy hi woh taiz dhaar aala mery galy py hi na phir
jaay .............. ab woh churi mery galy pr thi ............ jiss sy woh
ahista ahista meri gardan ko sahlaa raha tha ............ or main soch chuki
hoi thi ky bus ab main chand lamhon ki hi mehmaan hon ............ or phir
jaisy hi woh aadmi churi mery galy py chaly ga to mera gala cut jaay ga
.......... or saath hi meri rooh mery jisam ka saath chor jaay gi
............... mera monh or bhi khushk ho chuka tha ................. or
jisam mout ky khouf sy dheery dheery kaanmpny laga tha ..............bandhi
hoi aankhon haath pairon ... or bandhy hoy monh ky saath ........ itni by
busi ki mout ka soch ky hi meri aankhon sy aansu nikalny lagy thy
................. magar woh us zalim ko kaha nazar aa sakty thy ............
kyon ky woh aansu to meri aankhon py bandhy hoy kapray main hi jazab hoty
chaly jaa rahy thy ............. .....
phir uska haath us churi ko ly ky mery honton py aaya ............... or woh
us churi ki nouk sy mery honton py lagi hoi tape ky oper sy hi mery honton
ko sahlaany laga ............ or phir wohi hoa jiska mujhy khouf tha .......
usky haath ka pressure ahista ahista barhny laga ........ mery honton py
........... or phir sub sy pahly mery honton py lagi hoi tape katny lagi
....... zahir hai ky sub sy pahly tape ny kutna tha ....... or usky baad
phir mery jisam ki baari thi ......... mujhay andaza ho raha tha ky yeh koi
junooni qatal hai ...... jo ky mujram hony ky saath saath aik zehni mareez
bhi hai ............or ab mujhy maarny sy pahly mery chehry ko buri trah sy
bigaad dy ga ............ or phir mery poory jisam ko bhi ........ or phir
yeh ho ga ky meri laash ki shanakht bhi nahi ho paay gi ............. yehi
soch soch kar mery khouf main izafa hota jaa raha tha ............ or main
us khanjar numa churi ky ab apny honton py chalny ka intizar kr rahi thi
...............
jaisy hi mery honton py lagi hoi tape thori si kutti ........to mujhy us
taiz dhaar aalay ka thanda pun apny honton py mahsoos hoa .............
magar agly hi lamhay .......... kuch lamhon ky lye hi sahi ........ mujhy
aik releif ka ahsaas hoa ............ jub us ny woh khanjar mery honton sy
hata lya ............ or woh churri bhi ............ main hairaan ho gai
........... or dil hi dil main Khuda ka shukar krny lagi ............. ky
shayad usko mery py reham aa gya hai ............. ... mery honton pr lagi
hoi tape ky katny sy mery honton ky darmyan thori si jaga ban gai thi
......... magar sides py lagi hoi tape ky khinchaao k wajah sy abhi bhi mera
monh poori trah sy khul nahi sakta tha .... ........ kyon ky abhi bhi mera
monh poori trah sy azaad nahi ho paaya tha ........ main kuch bolny ki
koshish krny lagi ....... mmmmmmmmmmmmm.mmmmmmmmm .........
oooooooooooooogggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh .... .magar koi bhi lafaz mery monh sy
nahi nikal paya ..........
agly hi lamhay aik or ajeeb baat hoi ........mujhy apny honton py cold drink
ka straw mahsoos hoa jisy woh mery honton ky darmyaan push krta hoa mery
honto main daal raha tha ....... main ny bhi halki si koshish kr ky apny
honton ky darmyan thori jaga banany ki koshish ki ................. or woh
straw mery honton ky beech main daakhil ho gya .......... ab main ny usy
suck kia to thanda juice mery khushk halaq main utarny laga ................
main jo pata nahi kitni dair ky pyaasi thi ........... or is qadar khouf or
dehshat ky aalam main pari hoi thi ....... apni pyaas bujhaany lagi
............ kyon ky mujhy is qadar pyaas lag rahi thi ky har achanak sy
milny waaly is thandy juice ny mery dimagh sy maout ka khouf chand lamhon ky
lye nikaal kar sirfa or siraf apni pyaas bujhaany ka khayal dimagh main daal
dya tha ............. or main ahista ahista suck krti hoi juice pee rahi thi
...........
jaisy hi juice khatam hoa to us ny woh straw bhi mery honton sy kheench lya
............. ab main muntazir thi kisi or harkat ki ........... magar phir
mujhy apny bed sy door jaaty hoy qadmoon ki awaaz sunaai di ........... or
phir aik baar darwaza khul ky band ho gya ............ main hairan o
pareshaan pari hoi sooch rahi thi yeh sub kya hai .......... us bandy ny aa
ky mujhy chooa bhi nahi .......... balky mujhy thanda juice pilaany ky baad
waha sy chala gya hai ............. mujhy hairat or bhi thi ky us ny mery
jisam sy kuch bhi ghalat harkat krny ki koshish nahi ki thi ..............
aik is baat ki mujhy umeed ho gai thi ky wo jo koi bhi tha mujhy qatal krny
ka irada nahi tha .............. ya agar tha bhi to kam az kam is waqat to
mujhy zindah chor dya tha .....................
main waha us anjaany or undekhy hoy kamray main pari hoi apni bandhi hoi
aankhon ky saath rasyoon main jakdi hoi apny mustaqbil ky baary main soch
rahi thi ............ aik baat to confirm thi ky yaha sy itni jaldi or
asaani sy nikalny ka koi imkaan nahi tha ................ in sub baaton ko
sochty hoy mery dimagh main aik yeh baat bhi aai ky us ny mujhy aisy baandha
to tha .......... magar meri bybusi ka faida uthaany ki koi koshsih kyon
nahi ki ............... kyon us ny mery jisam ky kisi bhi hissay ko choony
ki koshish nahi ki .......... mery boobs ....... meri choot ..... mera sub
kuch to usky saamny tha .......... magar us ny kuch bhi nahi kia ........
lakin kyon .................. aisy hi soochty hoy ......... pata nahi kub
meri aankh lag gai ....... ya shayad us juice main koi aisa nasha tha ky
main phir sy byhosh ho gai ......... yeh main kuch nahi kah sakti
........... bus yeh yaad tha ky aakhiri alfaaz jo ky us waqat mery dimagh
main us anjaany aadmi ky lye goonj rahy thy woh thy ..............
.... Junooni
............ MR. R.............