Non-erotic Dawn at Midnight By Pinuram - {Completed}

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I was rushed to the nursing home of the gynecologist and I was immediately taken to the labour-room.

The pain was extreme and my body was getting numb. My legs were kept above my spine level. After preliminary diagnosis, the resident doctor told that the uterus had ruptured somehow and it had come down towards my fallopian tube at an alarming distance. Fetal-heartbeat-monitor was attached with my womb. I could hear the heartbeat of my unborn sapling dying down. My doctor arrived and I was given an injection of local anesthesia on my spine.

There was a stone cold silence in the operation theatre. The heart-beat monitor stooped sounding after few minutes. I lost my consciousness was all I remember then.

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The time I regained my consciousness, I found myself in a room of nursing home. I pulled up my head from the pillow to look at myself. I felt a huge void in my stomach and abdomen. I looked around; Maithili was sitting by my side. She clasped my hand and helped me to sit up. Himadri was standing there behind Maithili. I looked around with a huge query in my eyes. I fathomed everything that happened with me, from the agonized face of my husband, Himadri. He reached out and took me in his arms. I went numb when he clasped me. I could not speak any words. I could not move. I was more like a lifeless corpse. I looked blankly at my abdomen. There was no pain; no weight only a dark infinite space engulfed me.

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After two days in nursing home, Maithili took me back to my native place in the village. ChotoMa coaxed Maithili about keeping me with her. I do not know what the conversation between them was. However, she came in my rescue as a white angel and took me with her.

Later on, I came to know that the unborn fetus was of a male child. They asked Himadri and Maithili whether we want to do a biopsy on that fetus or not. My gynecologist also told me that my uterus was bit weak. In future if I conceive, then I had to take extra care of myself and the opening of the uterus has to be stitched.

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All the way from nursing home to my village, I sat as a stone effigy. My brain, my soul, and my heart everything was blank and nothing could fill that huge void inside me.

I lost my voice. Maithili and Meghna were always by my side. Himadri was very much lost. I felt that he was trying hard to cope as what happened. He pulled himself and tried to console me.

---“Life is not the end here, Suchi.”

I could not answer him and gave a blank look.

---“Do you want to return to Dhanbad?”

I could not answer him.

He cried out, his voice writhed---“Say something, Suchi.”

I lost everything I had, how could I speak out. My lips fluttered but no sound emanated from my quivering lips. My eyes were dry; lips were dry. I gave a painful void look at Himadri.

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I lost in to the deep void space of anguish and dolor. Himadri took me back to Dhanbad after few days. Maithili tried hard with all her compassion and love to bring me back to normal life, but my life was not the same anymore.

In a mere gap of forty-eight hours, I found my life shattered and finished. I could not close my eyes to take rest. I was unable sleep anymore. I lost all faith in human nature. I lost faith upon myself.

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