Adultery My wife, why did she betray me (completed)

[manas]

Who will bell the cat? When and How?

Meera – Prabhu relationship is known to 3 persons apart from themselves.

1. Saravana
2. Prabhu’s Father
3. Prabhu’s Mother

Technically, Saravana will never tell the truth to Meera.
Prabhu’s Father accepted Saravana’s request and will not budge.
Prabhu’s Father must have impressed upon his wife to keep her mum.

So, in the present scenario, only Prabhu has chance.

Let’s see a modified scenario.

In the aftermath of demise of Prabhu’s father.
Normally mothers have a soft corner for her son. Many a times, they are very irrational. In spite of knowing the truth, she may blame only Meera responsible for her son’s  misery. Mother’s affections are blind in many situations.

The day Saravana – Meera visited prabhu’s house, Prabhu Mom was not pleased to welcome Meera. She may have considered Meera’s presence is curse on their family. In her mind, she accused Meera only responsible for her husband’s deteriorating health.  She didn’t allow Meera in the proximity of her husband for long time. She may be forced to absorb her affection in fear of her husband.

After death of her husband, she may be free on her own and burst with her emotions. There is ample chance for Prabhu Mom to reveal the truth.

However for almost three years, she did not budge and may not yield so easily on her emotions. Husband last wish and family respect is not very easy to overcome for a devoted Indian lady.

So, my conclusions, Prabhu Mom will not reveal the truth.

Let’s get to insight of Prabhu again.

After Prabhu was caught, he was punished heavily by his father. A huge mental blow for Prabhu. The punishment continued without any abetment. Though we don’t have any clear indications; logical reasoning suggests; he must be wandering how to come out of it and seek forgiveness from parents. By his nature, he is a coward. The way he has left without informing Meera, and subsequently never tried to communicate Meera, it strongly suggests, he does not have any inclination ( or courage?) to communicate to Meera; forget about re-establishing any relationship with her.

So, I conclude, Prabhu will not take lead roll to bell the cat.

Let’s get to insight of Meera again.

Presently, we observe Meera in her Conscious and Subconscious mind.

Consciously, she wants to get rid of her memories of betray. She is of weak mentality character type. She is not able to control over her subconscious mind. In every slightest provocation, her subconscious mind is drifting to the past and in conscious mind she is wandering how to get rid of it for good. The conflict continues. And we are presented with beautiful erotica.

(***  I love the way they are presented. Only if it could have been never ending. Alas! A few more episodes and we will be in present. Thank God! Meera is not mentally strong. Otherwise we would have missed a lot. Let us enjoy, while she battles with her subconscious mind. ***)


“””Meera kept herself very busy making every effort not to think about her departed lover. She reasoned that the thoughts about him only come when she had nothing to do. It’s not for nothing that they say an idle mind is the devil’s workshop. She started doing some house cleaning and mopping. She had no help since the mother of her husband’s worker who her husband had got to help in her housework had suddenly died 6 months ago. She refused her husband’s offer of getting her another domestic help. She did not want to have more free time because that was when memories of Prabu and their blissful times together kept interfering in her peace of mind



Yet sleep refused to come to her. As it has been the past two days, whenever she was idle with nothing else on her mind, the memories of her time with Prabu disturbed her once more. Why is it especially for the last two days she wondered. The woman selling flowers offering her pink jasmine had initially triggered her mind. Prabu would always buy that for her before he mated with her. He found the fragrance of the flowers intoxicating as he would vigorously pump his thick rod in her wet sheath. Soon she too started associating the sight and smell of pink jasmine with satisfying sex. She would often smile as she had to clean their bed of the crushed and scattered pink jasmine flowers after Prabu had left after making love to her. Yesterday the sight of the pink jasmine flowers triggered back those old memories. Coupled with this was the visit to Prabu’s house “””


Look at this. How she is divided in her memories and battling to conclude.

“”” Even at that time she wondered how that she could be so taken up with another man while she still cared so much for her husband. Can a woman love two men at the same time she thought in wonderment. She also realized a woman cannot just simply give only her body to another man. Her heart too goes out to him.



She looked at her husband sleeping beside her. His face without the stigma of hate or ill feeling towards anyone. What grievance can I have on him. He had not even scolded me in our life together. He has not been a wastrel or a uncaring husband. Loving husband, a very good father, always working for the well being of his family. Not only have I betrayed such a good man, I am still yearning for the person with whom I betrayed him. When these thoughts came to her, eyes automatically teared up. I know I am doing something terribly wrong, yet why doesn't my heart want to listen to me. These thoughts were disturbing to her.  



Maybe if everything had came out in the open I would have to make an even more difficult choice. What would I have done then. On one side, the father of my kids. A person who had taken care of me with love and care. A good person who had never sought to hurt or do anything wrong to anyone. I and my kids are his life. On top of that, I too care a lot for him. On the other hand should I forsake all this for pleasures of the flesh which is just at best transient. Should I hurt this wonderful man for temporary pleasure. Knowing that he is not aware that I had been sleeping with Prabu and therefore he has not been affected is the reason I could fully enjoy the illicit mating with Prabu. If ever he were to come to know of the affair, oh god I can't even think about it. How badly it would hurt him. What pain it would cause him. I would never have been able to see that. I would rather die than see that horrible sight. All these thoughts were causing a terrible turmoil in her mind. “””

Her conscious mind is tormented by the very thought of her husband knowing the relation. She is more worried about the pain of her husband than her own future in the event of any disclosure. She is well aware of the transient temporary pleasure of flesh. There is no scope for her to do the same mistake again. She is matured in this area as evident from above.

So, she believes her husband is totally ignorant. She is contended on her foolish assumption and allows her subconscious mind to take over.

There were enough indications in Saravana’s actions for her to grow suspicious. She was, but ignored. She was so immersed in new adventures, she ignored everything. When she got definite information about Prabhu’s sudden departure after marriage, she was surprised and clueless. Most probably, she got suspicious again and to be sure she approached Saravana.

“””After two weeks Meera asked me one day, “your friend had suddenly got married and left even without telling you?””””

Actually she wanted to know, not only the reasons for Prabhu’s departure, but also how much Saravana is aware of their illegal affairs.

“”“Who knows what his difficulties were,” I said. Meera just stood there staring at me.”””

Saravana’s answaer did not help Meera in any way. But she did not have courage to poke further. So the questions remained in her memory. Only Prabhu has the answer to her quest. She may have made unsuccessful attempts to contact Prabhu. So far, she had not been successful. She is mentally disturbed to the core. She needs relief from it and only truth can help her.

So, aftermath Prabhu dad demise, there are high chances for Prabhu visiting home town. Meera is agonized by her subconscious tormented memories. She is pathetic. She is leading a life in hell. She will try to use the opportunity to resolve the truth.  And some truth will come to light to Meera. Even Prabhu does not have the full knowledge; how much Saravana is aware of their affairs. So will also Meera.
 
So, Meera will approach Prabhu to find reason for his departure; in turn will learn the cruel truth of her life.

This is how I have drawn the characters with perspective. This is my way of thinking.

How Meera will react to the truth? Will she confess everything to her husband and come out clean in her mind. Will Meera ever come to know every truth?  Or Saravana?

I don’t want to ponder further. Anything can happen. I want to relax and relish on whatever author will give us. This may be my last post till completion of the story. Unless anybody of you pinpoint my mistakes to learn more.