15-12-2019, 04:46 PM
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Mammi ne ek gehra saans lete hoowe Shahji ki taraaf dekha aaur kehne lagein, Shahji tum shayed theek kehte ho ke dil me choopi hoowi baat kisi ko kehdene se dil ka boojh halka ho jata hai, Maine kabhi kisi ko apne dil ki baat nahi bataya hai, aaj pehli baar tumhare samne tum paar poora bharoosa kar ke apna dil khool kaar rakh rahi hoon, dekho mere bharose ko kabhi maat torna.”
“Meri Jaan ! tum poora bharosa rakho tumhara sab raaz zindagi bhaar mere sine me dafan rahe ga.” Shahji Mammi ko yaqeen dilata hoowa boola.
Mammi phir kisi sooch me doob gaein, shayed woh apne guzre hoowe kal ko yaad kar rahein thein, phir kena shoroo kia, “Shahji tum yeh jannaa chahte ho ke kia shadi se pehle bhi mera kisi se talluq rah chooka hai, to haan rah chooka hai, aaur issi talluq ki wajah se hi meri shadi meri marzi ke khelaaf Najma ke Abba se kar di gaii warna mere ghar wale kabhi bhi meri be-joor shadi Najma ke Abba se nahi karte.” Mammi itna keh kaar choop ho gaein phir kehne lagein. “Main shooroo se poori baat batati hoon phir tumhari samaajh me sab kuch aa jaye ga, aaur haan yeh mat samaajhna ke main tum se choodwa chooki hoon iss liye bata rahi hoon, balke sach yeh hai ke jab tum ne hamare ghar samaan ka order lene ke liye aana shoroo kia tha oossi waqat se main tum ko pasaand karne lagi thi, aaur tum ko pasand karne ki wajah shayed Najma ke Abba ka na-mard hona tha, kiunke mujh jaisi bharpoor jawan aurat ko sirf achaa khana aaur kapra hi nahi chahiye hota hai osse apni jawani ki aag ko thanda karne ke liye ek taqatwar mard ki bhi zaroorat hoti hai. Phir ek taqatwar aaur handsome mard ki shakaal me tum nazaar aagaye aaur mere dil ne tum ko pasand kaar liya. Oske baad main din raat tum se choodwane ke liye taraapne lagi, Choonke main aurat thi issliye sharam ke mare main khud tum se kuch nahi keh saki, Jo tum ne aaj kia hai agar tum pehle hi kaar lete to kitna acha hota kam se kam etne dino main mard ke liye tarapti to nahi rahti.”
“Are mujhe tere dil ki baat ka kaise maaloom hota, main khud saloon se tujhe choodne ke liye pagal ho raha tha woh to daar se meri gand phatti thi iss liye kabhi himmat nahi karsaka, khair der se sahi magar ab choodai ka silsila shoro ho hi gaya, ab dekhti ja tujhe itna choodoonga ke too haath jodne lagegi, khair ab apne bare me shooroo se sab kuch batana shoro karde.”[/b] Shahji Mammi ki baat soon kaar beech me bool para.
Mammi thori der choop ho kar apne guzre hoowe din ko yaad karne lagein phir ek gera saans le kaar kehna shooroo kia. “Hamara khandaan sirf chaar logoon ka tha, Amma, Abba, bara bhai aaur main. Ham bahut ghareeb loog the. Akele Abba ki thori kamai me hamara ghar bahut mushkil se chalta tha. Main jaab panch (5) saal ki thi to mere Abba ka inteqaal hogaya tha. Onke marne ke baad ghar ko chalane ke liye Amma ek garment factory me kaam karne lagein. Mera bara bhai Ashraf oos waqat sirf aath (8) saal ka tha issliye woh kamane ke qabil nahi tha, Waise bhi Amma ka erada bhai ko achi taleem dilwane ka tha. Phir mujhe bhi college me admission dilwa diya aaur main bhi parhne lagi.
Bhai jab 12 saal ka hogaya to woho college se aane ke baad ek grage me motor mechnic ka kaam sikhne jane laga. Oosse jo pagaar milta oosse woh mere aaur apne college ki fees deta tha. Ham doonoo ka college alaag alaag tha, main girls college me aaur woh boys college me. Sobaah woh mujhe saath lejata aaur pehle woh mujhe mere college me choorta phir woh apne college jata, issi tarah din ko woh college se le kaar aata phir khana kha kaar woh apne kaam paar chala jata. Amma ke ane taak main ghar me akele hi rahti thi.
Waqat tezi se guzarne laga aaur dekhte hi dekhte main 15 saal ki aaur bhai 18 saal ka hogaya. Bhai ab poora mechanic ban chooka tha ooski tankhawah (pagaar) bhi ek poore mechanic ki ho gaii thi isske bawajood bachaat (saving) nahi ho raha tha kiunke na too bhai ne parhahi (study) choori thi na hi maine. Amma aaur bhai dono chahte the ke main aage chalke kisi subject me Master kar loon take kisi ache gharane me meri shadi ho sake. Bachaat na hone ki ek wajah yeh bhi thi ke bhai ne qist (Stallment) paar Honda 50cc Motor cycle, TV, Refrigiretor aaur Two-in-one tape recorder bhi le liya tha jis ki wajah se har mahine ooski aamdani ka aadhe se ziyada paisa nikal jata tha.
15 saal ki oomar me main ek bachi se haseen tareen ladki ban gaii, khubsoorti ke saath saath mere jism ka ek ek hissa oobhar kar masti me jhoomne laga tha, main thi to 15 saal ki magaar dekhne me 20 saal ki lagti thi. Meri be-panah khubsoorti aaur phaat parne wali jawani neAmma aaur bhai ke raatoon ki neend haraam kar rakhi thi. Mere bare me oonke fikir karne ki wajah yeh thi ke college se aane ke baad Amma ke factory se aane taak main ghar me akeli rehti thi. Mujhe bahut parde me rakha jata tha. Bahaar beghair burqe (a kind of ****** women dress which covered head to toe) ke nahi jati thi.
Jawani ek aise moohn zoor darya ka naam hai jo kisi ke rookne se nahi rookta hai aaur woh apna raasta khood khooj leta hai. Yahi mere saath hoowa. college me ladkioon se romantic aaur halki phoolki sex ki kitabein (books) parhne ko milne lagein jise parh parh kaar mera dil bhi kisi ke liye machaalne laga. Choonke mera kahein aana janaa nahi tha aaur parde me rahti thi to mujhe kaun milta. Magaar kab taak, aakhir mere machalte dil ne kisi ko dhoond hi liya. Woh hamare ghar rozana doodh (Milk) dene ke liye aata tha. Ooska naam Mansoor Malik tha woh 20/21 saal ka ek lamba choora aaur taqatwaar mard tha. Halanke dekhne me woh bilkul mamooli shakaal soorat ka tha aaur ooska rang bhi maila tha. Woh rozana 3 baje ke aas paas aata tha. Oos waqat main college se aa kaar ghar me bilkul akele ho ti thi. Mere akele paan ka oosne poora faida oothaya aaur woho doodh dete hoowe mujh se idhaar oodhaar ki batein karne ki koshish karne laga, Shoroo shooroo me main ooski kisi baat ka koi jawaab nahi diya bas choop chaap ooski baat soonte hoowe dhoodh le kaar darwazaa`band kar deti. Oose baat karne ka gur aata tha, aahista aahista ooski batein mujhe achii lagne lagein aaur ooske ek do baatoon ka jawaab bhi dene lagi aaur mujhe ooski baatein achi lagne lagein. Phir oosne meri khoobsurti ki tareef karna shooroo kar diya. Jab woh meri tareef karta to main sharma jati magaar mujhe ooske moohn se apni tareef soon kaar achaa lagta tha. Ek din woh doodh de kaar mere haath me ek envelope pakra kaar boola ke mere iss letter ko koi dekh na paaye aaur akele me ooske letter ko parhoon. Oske jane ke baad maine ooska khaat parha, apne letter me oosne likha tha ke woh mujh se bahut muhabbat karta hai aaur oose meri muhabbat nahi mile gi to woh apni jaan de-de ga. Main ooske letter ko Amma ke factory se aane taak baar baar parhti rahi. Koi mere liye apni jaan bhi de sakta hai ooski issi baat ne mere dil me ek aajeeb qisim ki gudgudahaat paida karne lagi. Amma ke aane se pehle hi maine ooske khaat ko choopa diya. Ek hafte taak woh choopchaap doodh de kaar chala jata aaur ek baat bhi nahi kaarta aaur aisa lagta ke oosne mujhe kabhi koi khaat likha hi na ho. Iss beech main college se aane ke baad rooz ooske khaat ko nikaal kar parhti aaur yeh ehsaas ke koi mujh se itna muhabbat karta hai ke mere liye jaan bhi de sakta hai mere dil aaur dimaagh paar ek masti aaur nasha paida karne laga Choonke koi doosra samne nahi tha issliye machalte dil aaur meri oothti hoowi mast jawani ne oossi ko pasand kaar liya.
Jab ek hafte taak oosne koi baat nahi ki too mere ander ek be-chaini paida hone lagi, main sharaam ke mare oosse koi baat nahi kaar paa rahi thi magaar beqarari se ooske boolne ka intezaar karne lagi, aakhir mujh se raha nahi gaya to ek din maine oosko ek letter likha jis me likh diya ke main bhi oosse piyaar karne lagi hoon. Dosre din dodh lene ke baad sharmate hoowe apna likha hoowa letter oosse dete hi jaldi de darwaza band karke bhaagti hoowi kichen me aakaar doodh ko rakha aaur apne kamre me aa kaar bistaar paar iss tarah gir gai jaise mujh me jaan nahi ho. Oss waqat mera saans iss taraah zor zor se chal raha tha jaise main kosoon door se bhaagti hoowi aaii hoon.
Mera letter jaise ooske liye har kuch karne ka ejazaat nama tha. Dosre din ooske aane paar jab maine darwaza khoola to darwaza khulte hi woho ek dam ander aa gaya, abhi main kuch samaajh pati ke woh apne doodh ki balti ko niche rakh kaar darwaza band kar diya aaur mujhe apne sine se laga kaar mere ko choomta jata aaur kehta jata, “Meri jaan….meri dil ki malka tum ne mere piyaar ko qabool kar ke mujhe naii zindagi di hai, aab kah kaar dekho main apna galaa khud apne haath se kaat kaar tumhare qadmoon rakh doon ga.” Ooske achaanaak yeh sab karne se main jahan sharam se pani pani ho rahi thi wahein mere poore jism me ek lazzat, soroor aaur nasha tari hone laga tha. Main sharam se be-haal ho kaar sirif itna kah pai ke woh aab chala jaee. Meri baat soon kaar woh fauran mujhe choor diya aaur yeh kehne laga, “Jo hukum meri rani ka aab jaldi se doodh lelo take main jaaoon.” Ooske baad woh choop chaap doodh de kaar chala gaya. Woh jis taraah meri baat ko maan liya tha oosse ooske liye mere dil me ooski muhabbat aaur barh gaai.
Ooss din ke baad Mansoor har rooz charoon taraaf dekh bhaal kar ghar ke ander aa jata aaur mujhe apne baahoon me le kaar piyar karta aaur mithi mithi muhabbat ki baatein karta. Ooski baatoon me ooske piyar me ek jadoo tha ek nasha tha jis me main poori tarah doob kaar madhoosh ho jati aaur ooske jate hi main doosre di ka intezaar be-qarari se karne lagti. Woh aab theek 2 baje aata aaur 5 baje se pehle hi chala jata kiunke Amma ki chootti 5 baje hooti thi aaur oonhein ghar aate aate sadhe paanh (5 ½ ) baj jaate. Do teen din to woh sirif mere haath, mere gardaan, mere gaal aaur mere hoont ko hi piyaar karta ooske baad woh meri chaati ko dabane aaur sehlane lagaa. Phir woh chaati se raan paar aaya, Ek do din to woh kapre ke oopaar hi se meri choot ko sehlaya phir mere na-nahi karne ke bawajood mere kapre ootaar kaar mujhe nanga kardiya, aaur oosdin main chood gaaii, ek kawanri ladki se aurat ban gaii. Woh bahut bara chodoo tha oosse choodne ka gur aataa tha, ooske lund me bahut taqaat thi aaur ooska lund bhi bahut moota aaur lamba tha, oosse choodwa kar mujhe zidagi ka woh maza`mila ke har rooz choodwane ke liye be-qaraar rahne lagi.
Dekhte hi dekhte do mahina guzaar gaya. Yeh din kaise guzra hame ehsaas bhi nahi hoowa ham to ek doosre ki muhabbat me doobe hoowe the. Ek din achaanaak hamari oostani ji (teacher) jo ghar ghar ja kaar bachoon ko quraan (Relegios book) parhaya karti thein mere liye Najma ke Abba ka rishta le kaar aa gaein. Jab Amma ko Najma ke Abba ke oomaar ka pata chala to oonhonein saaf saaf mana kar diya ke woh kisi bhi qimaat paar mujh se oomaar me teen (3) gunna bare mard se meri shadi nahi karwaein gi. Oostani ji Amma ko Najma ke Abba ke khandaan aaur daulaat ki bahut tareef karke soochne ka keh kaar chali gaein.
Oostani ji ke jane ke baad baat khataam ho gai aaur main aaur Mansoor pehle ki taraah choodai ka maza lootne me magaan ho gaye. Kahawaat hai ke “bakre ki Maa kab taak khair manae gi” mere rishte ko mana kie hoowe abhi hafta bhi nahi guzra tha ke Amma jaldi chootti hone ki wajah se ghar aa kaar range haathoon mujhe Mansoor se choodwate hoowe pakaar liya. Yeh itefaaq tha aaur hamari la-parwahi ke oosii di jis din Amma ko jaldi ghar aana tha ghalti se haam darwaza band karna bhool gaye the aaur Amma darwaza khoola hoone ki wajah se sidhe ghar ke ander aa gaein ooss waqat mansoor mujhe chood raha tha aaur ham donoo choodai ke nashe me iss tarah doobe hoowe the ke oonke aane ki khbaar bhi nahi hoowi. Qissa mukhtasaar ke Mansoor to kisi taraah kapra pehan kaar bhaag gaya. Ooske jane ke baad Amma ne maar maar kar mujhe adhmara kar diya. Bhai jaab kaam se aaya to Amma akele me bhai se bahut deer taak baat karti rahein phir doosre din hi oonhoone oostani ji ko boola kaar Najma ke Abba se mere rishte ke liya haan kaar diya. Main laakh roii, chillaii, girgirai ke kisi budhe se meri shadi maat karwaee magar sab bekaar aaur ek mahine ke andar andar main Najma ke Abba ki biwi ban kaar iss ghar me aagai.” Idhar main Mammi ki zabani oonki zindagi ki kahani soon kaar hairaat me dooba hoowa tha, main sooch bhi nahi sakta tha ke meri sidhi sadhi Mammi shaadi se pehle se hi choodwana shooroo kar diya tha.
Mammi ne ek gehra saans le kaar Shahji ki taraaf dekha aaur kehne lagein, “Aab tumko tumhare har sawaal ka jawaab mil gaya ho ga aaur tum samajh gaye hoge ke mere ghar waloon ne budhe se meri shaadi kiun kar di.”
Shahji jo bilkul khamooshi se Mammi ki kahani soon raha tha, Mammi ki baat soon kaar woh Mammi ko khaich kaar apne goud me baithaya aaur oonko piyaar karta hoowa kehne laga, “Meri jaan jo guzzaar gaya oosse bhool ja, kiunke guzre hoowe waqat ko pakra nahi ja sakta hai, magar aaj jo hai oosse pakar kaar zaroor rkha ja sakta hai, mere kehne ka matlaab yeh hai ke aaj main teri zindagi me aagaya hoon aaur ab ham donoo milkaar isse pakaar kar rakhein ge, kiun kia kahti hai.”
Mammi Shahji ki baat soon kaar Shahji se lapat gaein aaur kehne lagein, “Mere raja, main tumko bata chooki hoon ke main bahut pehle se tum ko pasand karne lagi thi, aaj mujhe tum kia mile sab kuch mil gaya, aaj tum ne mujhe zidagi ki sachi khushi de kaar moojhe doobara ek naii zindagi de kaar mujhe khareed liya hai ab tumhare liye to main apni jaan bhi de sakti hoon magaar tum ko nahi choor sakti, haan agaar tum hi mujhe bhool jaoo ge to doosri baat hai.”
Jawaab me Shahji ne Mammi ko bhaich kaar oonhein piyaar karta hoowa kehne laga, “Meri jaan ! too koi bhoolne wali cheez hai jo tujhe bhool jaoon ga. Achaa ek baat ka jawaab mujhe bahut sooch aaur samaajh kar de aaur poori sachaai ke saath jawaab dena.”
Mammi Shahji ke sine se apna chera ragaarte hoowe kehne lagein, “Jo chaahe poocho main tumse jhoot nahi boloongi.”
Shahji thori der iss tarah soochta raha jaise woh yeh sooch raha ho ke woh Mammi se kia pooche, phir woh Mammi ke thoodi (Chin) ko apni oongli se ootha kar Mammi ke chehre ko oopaar karke Mammi ki aankhoon me dekhta hoowa kehne laga, “Tum kehti ho ke tum mere liye apni jaan bhi de sakti ho, kia tumhare iss dawe me koi sachaaii bhi hai ya jo moohn me aaya woh keh diya.”
“Apni Razia ko aazma lo aaur keh kaar dekho main abhi apni jaan de kaar sabit kar doon gi ke maine jo kuch kaha hai woh pathaar ki lakeer hai.” Mammi be-ghair sooche fauraan jawaab dediya.
“Theek hai aazmaa leta hoon.abi maloom ho jaye ga ke too apne dawe me kitni sachi hai.” Shahji etna kah kaar ek lamhe ke liye rooka phir kehne laga, “Too to meri jaan hai phir apni jaan ko marne ke liye kaise kah sakta hoon. Jis taraah too mujh se piyaar karti hai issi tarah main bhi tujh se piyaar karne laga hoon, main chaahta hoon ke hamara piyaar hamesha ke liye ek hoo jaaye. Agaar too bhi hamare piyaar ko hamesha ke liye ek karna chahti hai to tujhe sab kuch choor kaar hamesha ke liye yahaan se bhaag kaar Punjab mere saath chalna hoga jahan poori zidagi ek doosre ke piyaar me guzaar dein ge. Bool sab ko choor kaar mere saath chale gi ?
Shahji ki baat soon kaar main iss taraah oochaal para jaise kisi bichoo (scorpio) ne dunk maar diya ho, main sooch bhi nahi sakta tha ke baat choodai ke maze lene se barh kaar Laila Majnoo ke muhabbaat me badaal jaye gi. Be-ekhtiyaar mere dimaagh me ek hi jumla (sentence) goonja, “Aisa kabhi nahi ho sakta.” Ek second me mere dil aaur dimaagh ne yeh faisla kaar liya ke main Shahji ko qataal kar doon ga magaar yeh nahi hone doonga. Shahji ki baat ne jahaan mere tan-badan me ghusse ki aag bhar di thi wahien mujhe aisa lagta tha jaise mera poora wajood paralize ho gaya ho aaur main hil bhi nahi sakta tha, magaar mere kaan ander ki poori baat ko soon raha tha. Maine dekha Mammi Shahji ki baat ko soon kaar oosse lapaat kaar kehne lagein.
“Mere Raja 20 / 21 saal maine ek aise budhe ke saath apni zindagi guzari hai jise piyaar karna hi nahi aata tha, kabhi piyaar ke do bol nahi bole, bas apne kaam se kaam rakhta tha. Jab taak ooske lund me choodne ki taqaat thi mujhe chood kaar apni piyaas bujha ta raha aaur mujh se bachoon pe bache paida karwa ta raha. Ab mujhe pehli baar tum jaise mard ka piyaar mila hai to oosse choor kaar main apni jawani aaur zindagi jahannam (hell) me nahi guzaar sakti. Iss liye jo tum kahoo ge main wahi karoon gi. Jab tum kahoo main hamesha ke liye sab kuch choor kaar tumhare saath jane ke liye tayyaar hoon.”
Mammi ka jawaab soon kaar mujhe aisa laga ke jaise kisi ne meri jaan nikaal liya ho. Kiunke mujhe poora yaqeen tha ke Mammi Shahji ki baat soon kar oosse dhakke maar kaar ghar se nikaal dein gi. Magaar woh to Shahji se choodai ka maza pakaar poori taraah ooske piyaar me doob kaar apna sab kuch choorne ke liye tayyar thein. Idhar mere dimaagh ne kaam karna band kardiya tha aaur meri samajh me nahi aa raha tha ke mujhe kia karna chahiye. Mammi ka jawaab soon kaar Shahji ne jo kaha woh soon kaar jaise kisi ne dobara mere jisim me jaan daal di ho, Shahji kah raha tha.
“Meri Rani, tere jawaab ne mujhe teri muhabbat ka yaqeen dila diya hai, maine jo kuch kaha tha woh tujhe aazmane ke liye kaha tha. Yaad raakh jawani ke joosh me yeh qadaam ootha liya to thore dino ke baad hi baqi ki poori zindagi roote hoowe aaur pachtawe ki aag me jalte hoowe guzaare gi jo na jine degi aaur na marne.”
“Theek kia hai aaur ghalaat kia hai yeh main nahi janti bas main tumhare liye kuch bhi kar sakti hoon sirif tumhare kehne ki der hai.” Mammi Shahji se lapaat kaar oosse choomti hoowi boolein.
Jawab me Shahji bhi Mammi ko choomte hoowe kehne laga, “Agaar aisi baat hai to kia tum meri ek khawahish poori karoo gi, ek aisi khawahish jis ko poora karne ke liye bahut dinoo se be-qaraar hoon.”
“Janoo ! ek baar keh kaar to dekho phir khud hi dekh lo ge ke main tumhari dil ki tammanna ko poora karne ke liye chahe kuch bhi karna ho kar ke tumhari khawahish ko zaroor poora karwa kar hi rahoon gi.” Mammi ne poore yaqeen se kaha.
Main Shahji ki batein soon soon kaar boori tarah oolaajh zaroor raha tha ke akhir Shahji ke dil me kia hai, magaar mere kaan poori tarah dono ki baatoom me lage hoowe the. Shahji Mammi ko dekhta hoowa kehne laga.
“Najma jab se jawan hooi hai mera lund ooski kamsin aaur kanwari choot ko choodne ke liye pagaal ho raha hai, too kisi bhi tarah Najma ko mujh se choodwa kaar mere dil ki tammanna ko poori kar de.”
“Meri Jaan ! tum poora bharosa rakho tumhara sab raaz zindagi bhaar mere sine me dafan rahe ga.” Shahji Mammi ko yaqeen dilata hoowa boola.
Mammi phir kisi sooch me doob gaein, shayed woh apne guzre hoowe kal ko yaad kar rahein thein, phir kena shoroo kia, “Shahji tum yeh jannaa chahte ho ke kia shadi se pehle bhi mera kisi se talluq rah chooka hai, to haan rah chooka hai, aaur issi talluq ki wajah se hi meri shadi meri marzi ke khelaaf Najma ke Abba se kar di gaii warna mere ghar wale kabhi bhi meri be-joor shadi Najma ke Abba se nahi karte.” Mammi itna keh kaar choop ho gaein phir kehne lagein. “Main shooroo se poori baat batati hoon phir tumhari samaajh me sab kuch aa jaye ga, aaur haan yeh mat samaajhna ke main tum se choodwa chooki hoon iss liye bata rahi hoon, balke sach yeh hai ke jab tum ne hamare ghar samaan ka order lene ke liye aana shoroo kia tha oossi waqat se main tum ko pasaand karne lagi thi, aaur tum ko pasand karne ki wajah shayed Najma ke Abba ka na-mard hona tha, kiunke mujh jaisi bharpoor jawan aurat ko sirf achaa khana aaur kapra hi nahi chahiye hota hai osse apni jawani ki aag ko thanda karne ke liye ek taqatwar mard ki bhi zaroorat hoti hai. Phir ek taqatwar aaur handsome mard ki shakaal me tum nazaar aagaye aaur mere dil ne tum ko pasand kaar liya. Oske baad main din raat tum se choodwane ke liye taraapne lagi, Choonke main aurat thi issliye sharam ke mare main khud tum se kuch nahi keh saki, Jo tum ne aaj kia hai agar tum pehle hi kaar lete to kitna acha hota kam se kam etne dino main mard ke liye tarapti to nahi rahti.”
“Are mujhe tere dil ki baat ka kaise maaloom hota, main khud saloon se tujhe choodne ke liye pagal ho raha tha woh to daar se meri gand phatti thi iss liye kabhi himmat nahi karsaka, khair der se sahi magar ab choodai ka silsila shoro ho hi gaya, ab dekhti ja tujhe itna choodoonga ke too haath jodne lagegi, khair ab apne bare me shooroo se sab kuch batana shoro karde.”[/b] Shahji Mammi ki baat soon kaar beech me bool para.
Mammi thori der choop ho kar apne guzre hoowe din ko yaad karne lagein phir ek gera saans le kaar kehna shooroo kia. “Hamara khandaan sirf chaar logoon ka tha, Amma, Abba, bara bhai aaur main. Ham bahut ghareeb loog the. Akele Abba ki thori kamai me hamara ghar bahut mushkil se chalta tha. Main jaab panch (5) saal ki thi to mere Abba ka inteqaal hogaya tha. Onke marne ke baad ghar ko chalane ke liye Amma ek garment factory me kaam karne lagein. Mera bara bhai Ashraf oos waqat sirf aath (8) saal ka tha issliye woh kamane ke qabil nahi tha, Waise bhi Amma ka erada bhai ko achi taleem dilwane ka tha. Phir mujhe bhi college me admission dilwa diya aaur main bhi parhne lagi.
Bhai jab 12 saal ka hogaya to woho college se aane ke baad ek grage me motor mechnic ka kaam sikhne jane laga. Oosse jo pagaar milta oosse woh mere aaur apne college ki fees deta tha. Ham doonoo ka college alaag alaag tha, main girls college me aaur woh boys college me. Sobaah woh mujhe saath lejata aaur pehle woh mujhe mere college me choorta phir woh apne college jata, issi tarah din ko woh college se le kaar aata phir khana kha kaar woh apne kaam paar chala jata. Amma ke ane taak main ghar me akele hi rahti thi.
Waqat tezi se guzarne laga aaur dekhte hi dekhte main 15 saal ki aaur bhai 18 saal ka hogaya. Bhai ab poora mechanic ban chooka tha ooski tankhawah (pagaar) bhi ek poore mechanic ki ho gaii thi isske bawajood bachaat (saving) nahi ho raha tha kiunke na too bhai ne parhahi (study) choori thi na hi maine. Amma aaur bhai dono chahte the ke main aage chalke kisi subject me Master kar loon take kisi ache gharane me meri shadi ho sake. Bachaat na hone ki ek wajah yeh bhi thi ke bhai ne qist (Stallment) paar Honda 50cc Motor cycle, TV, Refrigiretor aaur Two-in-one tape recorder bhi le liya tha jis ki wajah se har mahine ooski aamdani ka aadhe se ziyada paisa nikal jata tha.
15 saal ki oomar me main ek bachi se haseen tareen ladki ban gaii, khubsoorti ke saath saath mere jism ka ek ek hissa oobhar kar masti me jhoomne laga tha, main thi to 15 saal ki magaar dekhne me 20 saal ki lagti thi. Meri be-panah khubsoorti aaur phaat parne wali jawani neAmma aaur bhai ke raatoon ki neend haraam kar rakhi thi. Mere bare me oonke fikir karne ki wajah yeh thi ke college se aane ke baad Amma ke factory se aane taak main ghar me akeli rehti thi. Mujhe bahut parde me rakha jata tha. Bahaar beghair burqe (a kind of ****** women dress which covered head to toe) ke nahi jati thi.
Jawani ek aise moohn zoor darya ka naam hai jo kisi ke rookne se nahi rookta hai aaur woh apna raasta khood khooj leta hai. Yahi mere saath hoowa. college me ladkioon se romantic aaur halki phoolki sex ki kitabein (books) parhne ko milne lagein jise parh parh kaar mera dil bhi kisi ke liye machaalne laga. Choonke mera kahein aana janaa nahi tha aaur parde me rahti thi to mujhe kaun milta. Magaar kab taak, aakhir mere machalte dil ne kisi ko dhoond hi liya. Woh hamare ghar rozana doodh (Milk) dene ke liye aata tha. Ooska naam Mansoor Malik tha woh 20/21 saal ka ek lamba choora aaur taqatwaar mard tha. Halanke dekhne me woh bilkul mamooli shakaal soorat ka tha aaur ooska rang bhi maila tha. Woh rozana 3 baje ke aas paas aata tha. Oos waqat main college se aa kaar ghar me bilkul akele ho ti thi. Mere akele paan ka oosne poora faida oothaya aaur woho doodh dete hoowe mujh se idhaar oodhaar ki batein karne ki koshish karne laga, Shoroo shooroo me main ooski kisi baat ka koi jawaab nahi diya bas choop chaap ooski baat soonte hoowe dhoodh le kaar darwazaa`band kar deti. Oose baat karne ka gur aata tha, aahista aahista ooski batein mujhe achii lagne lagein aaur ooske ek do baatoon ka jawaab bhi dene lagi aaur mujhe ooski baatein achi lagne lagein. Phir oosne meri khoobsurti ki tareef karna shooroo kar diya. Jab woh meri tareef karta to main sharma jati magaar mujhe ooske moohn se apni tareef soon kaar achaa lagta tha. Ek din woh doodh de kaar mere haath me ek envelope pakra kaar boola ke mere iss letter ko koi dekh na paaye aaur akele me ooske letter ko parhoon. Oske jane ke baad maine ooska khaat parha, apne letter me oosne likha tha ke woh mujh se bahut muhabbat karta hai aaur oose meri muhabbat nahi mile gi to woh apni jaan de-de ga. Main ooske letter ko Amma ke factory se aane taak baar baar parhti rahi. Koi mere liye apni jaan bhi de sakta hai ooski issi baat ne mere dil me ek aajeeb qisim ki gudgudahaat paida karne lagi. Amma ke aane se pehle hi maine ooske khaat ko choopa diya. Ek hafte taak woh choopchaap doodh de kaar chala jata aaur ek baat bhi nahi kaarta aaur aisa lagta ke oosne mujhe kabhi koi khaat likha hi na ho. Iss beech main college se aane ke baad rooz ooske khaat ko nikaal kar parhti aaur yeh ehsaas ke koi mujh se itna muhabbat karta hai ke mere liye jaan bhi de sakta hai mere dil aaur dimaagh paar ek masti aaur nasha paida karne laga Choonke koi doosra samne nahi tha issliye machalte dil aaur meri oothti hoowi mast jawani ne oossi ko pasand kaar liya.
Jab ek hafte taak oosne koi baat nahi ki too mere ander ek be-chaini paida hone lagi, main sharaam ke mare oosse koi baat nahi kaar paa rahi thi magaar beqarari se ooske boolne ka intezaar karne lagi, aakhir mujh se raha nahi gaya to ek din maine oosko ek letter likha jis me likh diya ke main bhi oosse piyaar karne lagi hoon. Dosre din dodh lene ke baad sharmate hoowe apna likha hoowa letter oosse dete hi jaldi de darwaza band karke bhaagti hoowi kichen me aakaar doodh ko rakha aaur apne kamre me aa kaar bistaar paar iss tarah gir gai jaise mujh me jaan nahi ho. Oss waqat mera saans iss taraah zor zor se chal raha tha jaise main kosoon door se bhaagti hoowi aaii hoon.
Mera letter jaise ooske liye har kuch karne ka ejazaat nama tha. Dosre din ooske aane paar jab maine darwaza khoola to darwaza khulte hi woho ek dam ander aa gaya, abhi main kuch samaajh pati ke woh apne doodh ki balti ko niche rakh kaar darwaza band kar diya aaur mujhe apne sine se laga kaar mere ko choomta jata aaur kehta jata, “Meri jaan….meri dil ki malka tum ne mere piyaar ko qabool kar ke mujhe naii zindagi di hai, aab kah kaar dekho main apna galaa khud apne haath se kaat kaar tumhare qadmoon rakh doon ga.” Ooske achaanaak yeh sab karne se main jahan sharam se pani pani ho rahi thi wahein mere poore jism me ek lazzat, soroor aaur nasha tari hone laga tha. Main sharam se be-haal ho kaar sirif itna kah pai ke woh aab chala jaee. Meri baat soon kaar woh fauran mujhe choor diya aaur yeh kehne laga, “Jo hukum meri rani ka aab jaldi se doodh lelo take main jaaoon.” Ooske baad woh choop chaap doodh de kaar chala gaya. Woh jis taraah meri baat ko maan liya tha oosse ooske liye mere dil me ooski muhabbat aaur barh gaai.
Ooss din ke baad Mansoor har rooz charoon taraaf dekh bhaal kar ghar ke ander aa jata aaur mujhe apne baahoon me le kaar piyar karta aaur mithi mithi muhabbat ki baatein karta. Ooski baatoon me ooske piyar me ek jadoo tha ek nasha tha jis me main poori tarah doob kaar madhoosh ho jati aaur ooske jate hi main doosre di ka intezaar be-qarari se karne lagti. Woh aab theek 2 baje aata aaur 5 baje se pehle hi chala jata kiunke Amma ki chootti 5 baje hooti thi aaur oonhein ghar aate aate sadhe paanh (5 ½ ) baj jaate. Do teen din to woh sirif mere haath, mere gardaan, mere gaal aaur mere hoont ko hi piyaar karta ooske baad woh meri chaati ko dabane aaur sehlane lagaa. Phir woh chaati se raan paar aaya, Ek do din to woh kapre ke oopaar hi se meri choot ko sehlaya phir mere na-nahi karne ke bawajood mere kapre ootaar kaar mujhe nanga kardiya, aaur oosdin main chood gaaii, ek kawanri ladki se aurat ban gaii. Woh bahut bara chodoo tha oosse choodne ka gur aataa tha, ooske lund me bahut taqaat thi aaur ooska lund bhi bahut moota aaur lamba tha, oosse choodwa kar mujhe zidagi ka woh maza`mila ke har rooz choodwane ke liye be-qaraar rahne lagi.
Dekhte hi dekhte do mahina guzaar gaya. Yeh din kaise guzra hame ehsaas bhi nahi hoowa ham to ek doosre ki muhabbat me doobe hoowe the. Ek din achaanaak hamari oostani ji (teacher) jo ghar ghar ja kaar bachoon ko quraan (Relegios book) parhaya karti thein mere liye Najma ke Abba ka rishta le kaar aa gaein. Jab Amma ko Najma ke Abba ke oomaar ka pata chala to oonhonein saaf saaf mana kar diya ke woh kisi bhi qimaat paar mujh se oomaar me teen (3) gunna bare mard se meri shadi nahi karwaein gi. Oostani ji Amma ko Najma ke Abba ke khandaan aaur daulaat ki bahut tareef karke soochne ka keh kaar chali gaein.
Oostani ji ke jane ke baad baat khataam ho gai aaur main aaur Mansoor pehle ki taraah choodai ka maza lootne me magaan ho gaye. Kahawaat hai ke “bakre ki Maa kab taak khair manae gi” mere rishte ko mana kie hoowe abhi hafta bhi nahi guzra tha ke Amma jaldi chootti hone ki wajah se ghar aa kaar range haathoon mujhe Mansoor se choodwate hoowe pakaar liya. Yeh itefaaq tha aaur hamari la-parwahi ke oosii di jis din Amma ko jaldi ghar aana tha ghalti se haam darwaza band karna bhool gaye the aaur Amma darwaza khoola hoone ki wajah se sidhe ghar ke ander aa gaein ooss waqat mansoor mujhe chood raha tha aaur ham donoo choodai ke nashe me iss tarah doobe hoowe the ke oonke aane ki khbaar bhi nahi hoowi. Qissa mukhtasaar ke Mansoor to kisi taraah kapra pehan kaar bhaag gaya. Ooske jane ke baad Amma ne maar maar kar mujhe adhmara kar diya. Bhai jaab kaam se aaya to Amma akele me bhai se bahut deer taak baat karti rahein phir doosre din hi oonhoone oostani ji ko boola kaar Najma ke Abba se mere rishte ke liya haan kaar diya. Main laakh roii, chillaii, girgirai ke kisi budhe se meri shadi maat karwaee magar sab bekaar aaur ek mahine ke andar andar main Najma ke Abba ki biwi ban kaar iss ghar me aagai.” Idhar main Mammi ki zabani oonki zindagi ki kahani soon kaar hairaat me dooba hoowa tha, main sooch bhi nahi sakta tha ke meri sidhi sadhi Mammi shaadi se pehle se hi choodwana shooroo kar diya tha.
Mammi ne ek gehra saans le kaar Shahji ki taraaf dekha aaur kehne lagein, “Aab tumko tumhare har sawaal ka jawaab mil gaya ho ga aaur tum samajh gaye hoge ke mere ghar waloon ne budhe se meri shaadi kiun kar di.”
Shahji jo bilkul khamooshi se Mammi ki kahani soon raha tha, Mammi ki baat soon kaar woh Mammi ko khaich kaar apne goud me baithaya aaur oonko piyaar karta hoowa kehne laga, “Meri jaan jo guzzaar gaya oosse bhool ja, kiunke guzre hoowe waqat ko pakra nahi ja sakta hai, magar aaj jo hai oosse pakar kaar zaroor rkha ja sakta hai, mere kehne ka matlaab yeh hai ke aaj main teri zindagi me aagaya hoon aaur ab ham donoo milkaar isse pakaar kar rakhein ge, kiun kia kahti hai.”
Mammi Shahji ki baat soon kaar Shahji se lapat gaein aaur kehne lagein, “Mere raja, main tumko bata chooki hoon ke main bahut pehle se tum ko pasand karne lagi thi, aaj mujhe tum kia mile sab kuch mil gaya, aaj tum ne mujhe zidagi ki sachi khushi de kaar moojhe doobara ek naii zindagi de kaar mujhe khareed liya hai ab tumhare liye to main apni jaan bhi de sakti hoon magaar tum ko nahi choor sakti, haan agaar tum hi mujhe bhool jaoo ge to doosri baat hai.”
Jawaab me Shahji ne Mammi ko bhaich kaar oonhein piyaar karta hoowa kehne laga, “Meri jaan ! too koi bhoolne wali cheez hai jo tujhe bhool jaoon ga. Achaa ek baat ka jawaab mujhe bahut sooch aaur samaajh kar de aaur poori sachaai ke saath jawaab dena.”
Mammi Shahji ke sine se apna chera ragaarte hoowe kehne lagein, “Jo chaahe poocho main tumse jhoot nahi boloongi.”
Shahji thori der iss tarah soochta raha jaise woh yeh sooch raha ho ke woh Mammi se kia pooche, phir woh Mammi ke thoodi (Chin) ko apni oongli se ootha kar Mammi ke chehre ko oopaar karke Mammi ki aankhoon me dekhta hoowa kehne laga, “Tum kehti ho ke tum mere liye apni jaan bhi de sakti ho, kia tumhare iss dawe me koi sachaaii bhi hai ya jo moohn me aaya woh keh diya.”
“Apni Razia ko aazma lo aaur keh kaar dekho main abhi apni jaan de kaar sabit kar doon gi ke maine jo kuch kaha hai woh pathaar ki lakeer hai.” Mammi be-ghair sooche fauraan jawaab dediya.
“Theek hai aazmaa leta hoon.abi maloom ho jaye ga ke too apne dawe me kitni sachi hai.” Shahji etna kah kaar ek lamhe ke liye rooka phir kehne laga, “Too to meri jaan hai phir apni jaan ko marne ke liye kaise kah sakta hoon. Jis taraah too mujh se piyaar karti hai issi tarah main bhi tujh se piyaar karne laga hoon, main chaahta hoon ke hamara piyaar hamesha ke liye ek hoo jaaye. Agaar too bhi hamare piyaar ko hamesha ke liye ek karna chahti hai to tujhe sab kuch choor kaar hamesha ke liye yahaan se bhaag kaar Punjab mere saath chalna hoga jahan poori zidagi ek doosre ke piyaar me guzaar dein ge. Bool sab ko choor kaar mere saath chale gi ?
Shahji ki baat soon kaar main iss taraah oochaal para jaise kisi bichoo (scorpio) ne dunk maar diya ho, main sooch bhi nahi sakta tha ke baat choodai ke maze lene se barh kaar Laila Majnoo ke muhabbaat me badaal jaye gi. Be-ekhtiyaar mere dimaagh me ek hi jumla (sentence) goonja, “Aisa kabhi nahi ho sakta.” Ek second me mere dil aaur dimaagh ne yeh faisla kaar liya ke main Shahji ko qataal kar doon ga magaar yeh nahi hone doonga. Shahji ki baat ne jahaan mere tan-badan me ghusse ki aag bhar di thi wahien mujhe aisa lagta tha jaise mera poora wajood paralize ho gaya ho aaur main hil bhi nahi sakta tha, magaar mere kaan ander ki poori baat ko soon raha tha. Maine dekha Mammi Shahji ki baat ko soon kaar oosse lapaat kaar kehne lagein.
“Mere Raja 20 / 21 saal maine ek aise budhe ke saath apni zindagi guzari hai jise piyaar karna hi nahi aata tha, kabhi piyaar ke do bol nahi bole, bas apne kaam se kaam rakhta tha. Jab taak ooske lund me choodne ki taqaat thi mujhe chood kaar apni piyaas bujha ta raha aaur mujh se bachoon pe bache paida karwa ta raha. Ab mujhe pehli baar tum jaise mard ka piyaar mila hai to oosse choor kaar main apni jawani aaur zindagi jahannam (hell) me nahi guzaar sakti. Iss liye jo tum kahoo ge main wahi karoon gi. Jab tum kahoo main hamesha ke liye sab kuch choor kaar tumhare saath jane ke liye tayyaar hoon.”
Mammi ka jawaab soon kaar mujhe aisa laga ke jaise kisi ne meri jaan nikaal liya ho. Kiunke mujhe poora yaqeen tha ke Mammi Shahji ki baat soon kar oosse dhakke maar kaar ghar se nikaal dein gi. Magaar woh to Shahji se choodai ka maza pakaar poori taraah ooske piyaar me doob kaar apna sab kuch choorne ke liye tayyar thein. Idhar mere dimaagh ne kaam karna band kardiya tha aaur meri samajh me nahi aa raha tha ke mujhe kia karna chahiye. Mammi ka jawaab soon kaar Shahji ne jo kaha woh soon kaar jaise kisi ne dobara mere jisim me jaan daal di ho, Shahji kah raha tha.
“Meri Rani, tere jawaab ne mujhe teri muhabbat ka yaqeen dila diya hai, maine jo kuch kaha tha woh tujhe aazmane ke liye kaha tha. Yaad raakh jawani ke joosh me yeh qadaam ootha liya to thore dino ke baad hi baqi ki poori zindagi roote hoowe aaur pachtawe ki aag me jalte hoowe guzaare gi jo na jine degi aaur na marne.”
“Theek kia hai aaur ghalaat kia hai yeh main nahi janti bas main tumhare liye kuch bhi kar sakti hoon sirif tumhare kehne ki der hai.” Mammi Shahji se lapaat kaar oosse choomti hoowi boolein.
Jawab me Shahji bhi Mammi ko choomte hoowe kehne laga, “Agaar aisi baat hai to kia tum meri ek khawahish poori karoo gi, ek aisi khawahish jis ko poora karne ke liye bahut dinoo se be-qaraar hoon.”
“Janoo ! ek baar keh kaar to dekho phir khud hi dekh lo ge ke main tumhari dil ki tammanna ko poora karne ke liye chahe kuch bhi karna ho kar ke tumhari khawahish ko zaroor poora karwa kar hi rahoon gi.” Mammi ne poore yaqeen se kaha.
Main Shahji ki batein soon soon kaar boori tarah oolaajh zaroor raha tha ke akhir Shahji ke dil me kia hai, magaar mere kaan poori tarah dono ki baatoom me lage hoowe the. Shahji Mammi ko dekhta hoowa kehne laga.
“Najma jab se jawan hooi hai mera lund ooski kamsin aaur kanwari choot ko choodne ke liye pagaal ho raha hai, too kisi bhi tarah Najma ko mujh se choodwa kaar mere dil ki tammanna ko poori kar de.”
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