Adultery My Second Love

[MeriKaru3]

My Second Love

Dear Diary,  it's been long I wrote something about myself or my day or about my special ones but today I just felt like I should write something so here we go I am at work tired of looking at computer screen,  bored of my job and blank out of mind.  I want to quit my job yes I have to say this to my boss on his face without having to worry about money and responsibilities. This job is all about numbers,  accounts,  tally which is complete bullshit...

As a sales manager at Singhania Industries which is one of the top most companies in New Delhi I have to do my job to get business and to keep the top level happy,  same bull shit I have been doing for years and years so nothing goes to my boss and he comes and enjoy his personal office where he comes in his BMW. My team consists of few recent graduates and couple of strong performing members to does my shit done on time,  one of the tiring part of my job is to teach like a school teacher to freshly joined interns,  I pity those poor souls as well as they don't even get paid for the shit they do... CEO sends a mail to cut down budgets on office expense and official travels where he spends his weekends in exotic places without his wife,  she thinks he is on a business trip but he is with new girl who is attracted for his money and all paid expense trip.. Bloody 60 year old pervert man. So I deal with this everyday.. All day.. All hours.. I'm sorry Diary if my today's entry was only about complaints and how poor my day was... I promise I will make changes in my life and put some good entries... TC love xoxo

My Mirror

I removed my clothes and stood in front of mirror and saw my reflection as women who is not happy,  heart broken and who has spent last 4 years of her life in managing things apart from it.. nothing else.  4 years ago this women was cheerful like a school girl staying happy and making others happy but now I look like a 45 year old.. For a women who will turn 39 in couple of months..  39 years old 39 years old it rings a bell in my head.. I will be 39 that's the truth but the mirror says I look like 45 years old. Mirror is not lying as I can see wrinkles near my eyes... My boobs are getting saggy my ass is losing its firmness and how much work out I do and how much anti-aging cream I'll apply it won't work. I told to my reflection in the mirror "you are lying"  I am not even 40 and before I hit 40 I will make up a list and follow it I will keep myself happy that will keep my young by heart and eventually it will show it on my body.
Here's the 10 things I will do before I hit 40
1. I'll quit my boring job and look for something interesting and creative
2. Finish my car loan
3. Stop watching romantic movies because romance only happens in movies
4. I will take my daughter to Disneyland
5. Stop looking to bad body naked body in mirror
6. I will keep my body hair free,  clean pussy like girls do nowadays nobody like that bush anymore
7. Stop blaming my ex husband for problems in my life,  he cheated on me and I wanted a divorce so there's that
8. Stop hating and thinking about my best friend as she slept with my husband and had an affair with him
9. I'll meet new people and make new friends
10. May be have an one night stand for the first time in my life.
[i]As I was making this list in my head and looking myself in the mirror my phone rang which I totally forgot about it I had to go out with my friend on a girls night out so I'll just get ready.. Will make a mental note for this moment with a mirror selfie so I don't forget this list