25-11-2019, 05:12 AM
sharm kis baat ki abhi to kuchh der pahle mere samne bilkul nangi
thi. maine to tujhe us awastha me dekha hai jis halat me sirf tujhe
tera pati dekha hoga."
" nahi rahne do ab"
" dekh ghav gahre hain septic ho gaya to fir nasoor ban jayega. tu
ankhen band kar mai teri lungi hatata hoon."
" nahi pahle aap bhi apni ankhen band karo. nahi to mujhe sharm
ayegi."
" are pagli agar maine ankhen band kar li to tere ghavon ko saaf kaun
karega?"
maine apne hath uski lungi ki ganth par rakh diye. usne turant mere
hathon ko tham liya.
" thahro mai khud khol deti hoon. waise mujhe tumhare samne nagn hote
koi jhijhak nahi ho rahi hai"
"kyon mai to ek anjaan paraya mard hoon"
" nahin tum sabse alag ho. unke jaise nahin ho jinhon ne meri ye
halat ki hai." kah kar usne apni lungi ki gaanth ko dheeli kar di.
samne se kati us lungi ke dono kinaron ko pakad kar maine alag kar
diya. usne is baar apni ankhen nahin band ki. uski ankhen ektak mere
chehre par lagi hui thi. lekin meri ankhen to mano uske nichle badan
ke nirvashtra hote hi apni sudh budh kho chuka tha. usne apni dono
tangon ko sakhti se ek doosre se jod rakha tha. uske janghon ke jod
par jahan ek "Y" ki akriti ban rahi thi. chhote chhote saleeke se
trim kiye hue bal bahut hi khoobsoorat lag rahe the. kuchh der tak
uski lungi ke dono pallon k hath me thame bas but ki tarah use dekhta
hi raha. fir maine chaunk kar uski taraf dekha aur use apni taraf
dekhta pakar hadbada gaya. uske chehre par ek na samajh me ane wali
muskan khili thi. maine jhat apne mathe par chhalk aye paseene ko
ponch kar uske tangon ke jod ki taraf dekha.
uske ek tang ko apne hathon se pakad kar alag kiya. usne is baar apni
taraf se kisi tarah ka wirodh nahi kiya. usne apna badan dheela chhod
diya tha. uske ek tang ko ghutno se mod kar alag kiya. fir doosri
tang ko bhi waise hi kiya. uski yoni khul kar samne a gayee thi. uske
yoni aur uske aas paas bhi kafi sare danton ke nishaan the. dono
tangon ko alag kar mai apne chehre ko uski yoni ke paas laya. uski
yoni meri ankhon se mushkil se 6" ki doori par hogi. maine savlon me
bhigo lar rui ko pahle uske ghavon par firaya. usne apne daant se
apne nichle hnth ko sakhti se pakad rakha tha. shayad uski ye ada
hogi. uske hath takiye ko apni mutthi me le rakhe the. mai uske
ghavon par dawai laga raha tha.
" kitni berahmi se tumhare badan se khela hai un logon ne."
" haan wo sale chaar the sath me itna bada ek kutta bhi tha. sale
pata nahi kab se mujh par najar rakhe huye the. us din mujhe andere
me ghar lautte huye dekh kar unki banchhen khil gayee. aur apne van
ko lakar mere najdeek rok kar meri gardan par chaku rakh kar mujhe
van me ane ke liye vivash kar diya. Andar do admi peechhe baithe huye
the aur unke pairon ke beech kafi tagda aur mota ek kutta bhi baitha
hua tha. mujhe andar kheench kar un dono ne apne beech me mujhe bitha
liya. Till dada ke admiyon ko dekh kar to mai aphle se hi dari hui
thi oopar se wo darawna kutta apne dant nikale mujhe ghoor raha tha.
unhon ne mujhe dhamki di ki agar maine kisi prakar ka virodh kiya to
kutta mujhe noh kar kha jayega. Us kutte ne apne dono age ke pair
meri god me rakh diye aur mere muh ke samne apni lambi jeebh nikal
kar laplapane laga. mai kisi but ki tarah bina hile dule baithi hui
thi. agal bagal ke dono admi mere badan se mere kapde hatate ja rahe
the. wo jaisa chah rahe the waisa mere bada se khel rahe the aur mere
paas unko sahyog karne ke alawa koi chara nahi tha. ek baar maine
halka sa virodh kiya to kutta gurra utha. mai sham kar apne me simat
gayee. Kuchh hi der me mai unke beech poori tarah nangi baithi hui
thi."
mai uski baton ko sunte hue uski yoni par rui fira raha tha. fir
maine apne dono hathon ki ungliyon se uski yoni ki fankon ko alag
kiya aur failaya. andar koi jakhm to nahi dikha magar uski yoni ke
bheetar jhankte huye mera poora badan sihran se bhar gaya. mera ling
poori tarah tan kar khada ho gaya tha use kisi bhi tarah se shant kar
pana ab mere vash me nahi tha. wo is taraf se apna dhyan hatane ke
liye bina ruke uske saath hui ghatnao ka dohrati ja rahi thi.
"saale mujhe lekar us veeran pade park me le aye. aas paas koi nahi
tha meri asmat ko lutne se bachane wala. unhon ne mujhe nangi halat
me van se kheench kar nikala. maine ek ummid se apne charon or dekha
lekin door door tak kisi manav ki chhaya tak nahi dikhi. wo charon
mujhe khieenchte huye park me ugi jhadiyon ke peechhe lekar aye.
Kutta kuchh sunghta hua unke samne samne chal raha thya. Un jhadiyon
ke peechhe le jakar unhon ne mujhe jameen par patak diya. Mere hatho
ko jod kar ek kapde ke tukre se bandh diya. Mere munh me ek ganda sa
kapda thoons diya jisse mai cheekh na sakoon. fir ek ke baad dosra
doosre ke baad teesra, kabhi do ek sath kabhi munh me kabhi guda me
mujhe na jane kitni baar kitne tareeke se unhon ne ragda. meri khal
jagah jagah se chhil gayi thi. Janwaron ki tarah mere stano par aur
janghon ke beech unhon ne kat dala. mai dard se cheekhi ja rahi thi
magar munh se "gooo....goooo" ke alawa koi awaj nahi nikal rahi thi.
mere dono ankhon se ansoo jhad rahe the magar kise parwah thi mere
ansoon ki. unke mote mote lund meri chut ko ragad ragad kar uski khal
udhed rahe the. mai chhctpata rahi thi magar is halat me sirf ankhon
se jharne wale pani ke alawa kuchh bhi nahi kar pa rahi thi. saale
haramjadon ne mujhe jee bhar kar chodne ke baad wahan ek bench par
hathon ka sahara lekar ghutno ke bal jhukaya aur uske baad jo
hua......uffff..........kyon bacha kar laye tum mujhe? bolo mujh se
kya dushmani thi tumhari...."
"chalo beeti baten bhool jao"
"nahi kaise bhool sakti hoon. kaise bhool sakti hoon un haramjadon
ko. saalon ka jab jee bhar gaya mujhse tab mujhe jhuka kar apne kutte
ko chadha diya mere upar. uske ling ko meri yoni me daal diya. mai us
gande sambhog ki kalpana karke hi kanp jati hoon."
"chalo dressing ho chuki hai ab tum uth kar kapde pahan lo." mai
wahan se mud kar jane laga to usne apne hath se mere hath ko pakad
liya.
wo usi awastha me uth kar bistar par baith gayee. aur mere hath ko
apakad kar apni or kheecnha jab mai apni jagah se nahi hila to
khinchaw ke karan wo uth kar mere seene se lag gayee. aur mere chehre
ko apne hatho se tham kar mere honthon ko choom liya.
"ye ye tum kya kar rahi ho?" mai hadbada gaya.
" tum...." kahkar apni jeebh ko kat liya " aap bahut achchhe hain."
kahkar usne apni najaren jhuka dee.
" Anu tum abhi hosh me nahi ho. apne saath huye us hadse ki wajah se
tumhara dimag kaam nahi kar raha hai. tum abhi bhookhi ho pahle
humdono khane ka kuchh intezam karen."
" tum akele kaise rah lete ho. mujhe to sara ghar katne daudta hai.
tumhe kabhi aurat ki jaroorat mahsoos nahi hoti."
" Anuradha" maine baat ko khatm karna chaha.
" isme sharm ki kya baat hai. ye to jismani jaroorat hai kisi ko bhi
mahsoos ho sakti hai. mai to saaf kah sakti hoon ki mujhe to jaroorat
mahsoos hoti hai kisi mard ki. lekin aise nahi...." usne kuchh sochte
huye kaha " aisa mard jo mujhe dher sara pyar de. aur kuchh nahi
chahiye mujhe."
"chalo utho ab tum bahakne lagi ho." maine hath pakad kar use uthaya
to wo mere badan se sat gayee. uske badan ki garmi se mere poore
badan me ek jhurjhuri si daud gayee. hum ek doosre ki ankhon me
ankhen daal kar samay ko bhul gaye. kuchh der baad wo apni najren
jhuka kar kitchen me chali gayee. mai uske peechhe peechhe jane laga
to usne mujhe rok diya.
" ye mardon ki jagah nahi hai. aap aram kijiye mai kuchh na kuchh
bana leti hoon" kahte huye usne meri naak ko pakad kar kursi ki taraf
dhakel diya. mai baith gaya aur use niharne laga. wo ithlati hui
kitchen me chali gayee.
mai sochne laga abhi kuchh hi der ki mulakat hai. mai neeras aur
mariyal sa admi mujhme aisa kya dekh liya isne ki aisi koi hoor meri
jholi me a tapki. mai abhi tak viswaas nahi kar pa raha tha ki meri
kismat is tarah bhi palta kha sakti hai. mai is sundar aurat se man
hi man pyaar karne laga hoon.
mai utha aur shelf me chhipakar rakhe whisky ke bottle ko nikala.
lekin tabhi yaad aya ki roj ki tarah aj mai akela nahi hoon. mai
kitchen me aya Anuradha Roti banane me vyast thi.
" mai agar ek adh peg le loon to tum kuchh galat to nahi sochogi?"
maine jhijhakte huye poochha.
" Achchha to aap iska bhi shauk rakhte hain?"
"nahi nahi aisi baat nahi wo to mai kabhi..."
" koi baat nahi aap shauk se lijiye. mujhe apki kisi baat se koi
ittefaq nahi hai." usne kaha.
mai ek glass lekar do peg whisky use niharte huye sip kiya. tab tak
usne roti aur dal bana li thi. hum dono drawing room me baith kar
khane lage. khana khane ke baad maine use kaha
" anuradha tum bedroom me so jao."
"aur aap?" usne poochha.
" mere liye to yahi kamra bacha. mai yahan sofe par so jaunga." maine
kaha.
" aap yahan kaise soyenge. bedroom me hi a jao na." usne meri ankhon
me jhank kar kaha.
" koi bat nahi raat ke do baj chuke hain ab suraj ugne me time hi
kitna bacha hai." maine kaha aur use bed room me le gaya.
" darwaja andar se band kar lo" maine kaha
" ji mujhe yahan darne layak koi cheej dikhai nahi de rahi hai jo mai
darwaja band karun." kahkar wo bedroom me chali gayee. mujhe uske
lahje se laga ki wo shayad chidh gayee hai.
mai kuchh der tak sone ki koshish karta raha lekin neend nahi a rahi
thi. bagal ke kamre me koi khoobsoorat si mahila so rahi ho to mujh
jaise akele admi ko neend bhala kaise a sakti hai. Barsaat tej ho
gayee thi. is kamre ka ek darwaja balcony me khulta hai. use khol kar
mai bahar nikla to kuchh rahat mahsoos hui. mai andhere me jameen par
girti boondon ko dekhta hua kafi der tak railing ke sahare khada
raha. achanak mujhe laga ki wahan mai akela nahi hoon. kisiki garm
saansen mere gardan ke peechhe mahsoos hui. achanak usne peechhe se
mujhe apni agosh me bhar liya.
"neend nahi a rahi hai?" maine poochha.
" haan.." usne kaha " tum bhi to jag rahe ho."
" hmmmm"
" kya didi ki yaad sata rahi hai?" usne meri peeth par apni naak gada
di " didi bahut sunder thi na?"
thi. maine to tujhe us awastha me dekha hai jis halat me sirf tujhe
tera pati dekha hoga."
" nahi rahne do ab"
" dekh ghav gahre hain septic ho gaya to fir nasoor ban jayega. tu
ankhen band kar mai teri lungi hatata hoon."
" nahi pahle aap bhi apni ankhen band karo. nahi to mujhe sharm
ayegi."
" are pagli agar maine ankhen band kar li to tere ghavon ko saaf kaun
karega?"
maine apne hath uski lungi ki ganth par rakh diye. usne turant mere
hathon ko tham liya.
" thahro mai khud khol deti hoon. waise mujhe tumhare samne nagn hote
koi jhijhak nahi ho rahi hai"
"kyon mai to ek anjaan paraya mard hoon"
" nahin tum sabse alag ho. unke jaise nahin ho jinhon ne meri ye
halat ki hai." kah kar usne apni lungi ki gaanth ko dheeli kar di.
samne se kati us lungi ke dono kinaron ko pakad kar maine alag kar
diya. usne is baar apni ankhen nahin band ki. uski ankhen ektak mere
chehre par lagi hui thi. lekin meri ankhen to mano uske nichle badan
ke nirvashtra hote hi apni sudh budh kho chuka tha. usne apni dono
tangon ko sakhti se ek doosre se jod rakha tha. uske janghon ke jod
par jahan ek "Y" ki akriti ban rahi thi. chhote chhote saleeke se
trim kiye hue bal bahut hi khoobsoorat lag rahe the. kuchh der tak
uski lungi ke dono pallon k hath me thame bas but ki tarah use dekhta
hi raha. fir maine chaunk kar uski taraf dekha aur use apni taraf
dekhta pakar hadbada gaya. uske chehre par ek na samajh me ane wali
muskan khili thi. maine jhat apne mathe par chhalk aye paseene ko
ponch kar uske tangon ke jod ki taraf dekha.
uske ek tang ko apne hathon se pakad kar alag kiya. usne is baar apni
taraf se kisi tarah ka wirodh nahi kiya. usne apna badan dheela chhod
diya tha. uske ek tang ko ghutno se mod kar alag kiya. fir doosri
tang ko bhi waise hi kiya. uski yoni khul kar samne a gayee thi. uske
yoni aur uske aas paas bhi kafi sare danton ke nishaan the. dono
tangon ko alag kar mai apne chehre ko uski yoni ke paas laya. uski
yoni meri ankhon se mushkil se 6" ki doori par hogi. maine savlon me
bhigo lar rui ko pahle uske ghavon par firaya. usne apne daant se
apne nichle hnth ko sakhti se pakad rakha tha. shayad uski ye ada
hogi. uske hath takiye ko apni mutthi me le rakhe the. mai uske
ghavon par dawai laga raha tha.
" kitni berahmi se tumhare badan se khela hai un logon ne."
" haan wo sale chaar the sath me itna bada ek kutta bhi tha. sale
pata nahi kab se mujh par najar rakhe huye the. us din mujhe andere
me ghar lautte huye dekh kar unki banchhen khil gayee. aur apne van
ko lakar mere najdeek rok kar meri gardan par chaku rakh kar mujhe
van me ane ke liye vivash kar diya. Andar do admi peechhe baithe huye
the aur unke pairon ke beech kafi tagda aur mota ek kutta bhi baitha
hua tha. mujhe andar kheench kar un dono ne apne beech me mujhe bitha
liya. Till dada ke admiyon ko dekh kar to mai aphle se hi dari hui
thi oopar se wo darawna kutta apne dant nikale mujhe ghoor raha tha.
unhon ne mujhe dhamki di ki agar maine kisi prakar ka virodh kiya to
kutta mujhe noh kar kha jayega. Us kutte ne apne dono age ke pair
meri god me rakh diye aur mere muh ke samne apni lambi jeebh nikal
kar laplapane laga. mai kisi but ki tarah bina hile dule baithi hui
thi. agal bagal ke dono admi mere badan se mere kapde hatate ja rahe
the. wo jaisa chah rahe the waisa mere bada se khel rahe the aur mere
paas unko sahyog karne ke alawa koi chara nahi tha. ek baar maine
halka sa virodh kiya to kutta gurra utha. mai sham kar apne me simat
gayee. Kuchh hi der me mai unke beech poori tarah nangi baithi hui
thi."
mai uski baton ko sunte hue uski yoni par rui fira raha tha. fir
maine apne dono hathon ki ungliyon se uski yoni ki fankon ko alag
kiya aur failaya. andar koi jakhm to nahi dikha magar uski yoni ke
bheetar jhankte huye mera poora badan sihran se bhar gaya. mera ling
poori tarah tan kar khada ho gaya tha use kisi bhi tarah se shant kar
pana ab mere vash me nahi tha. wo is taraf se apna dhyan hatane ke
liye bina ruke uske saath hui ghatnao ka dohrati ja rahi thi.
"saale mujhe lekar us veeran pade park me le aye. aas paas koi nahi
tha meri asmat ko lutne se bachane wala. unhon ne mujhe nangi halat
me van se kheench kar nikala. maine ek ummid se apne charon or dekha
lekin door door tak kisi manav ki chhaya tak nahi dikhi. wo charon
mujhe khieenchte huye park me ugi jhadiyon ke peechhe lekar aye.
Kutta kuchh sunghta hua unke samne samne chal raha thya. Un jhadiyon
ke peechhe le jakar unhon ne mujhe jameen par patak diya. Mere hatho
ko jod kar ek kapde ke tukre se bandh diya. Mere munh me ek ganda sa
kapda thoons diya jisse mai cheekh na sakoon. fir ek ke baad dosra
doosre ke baad teesra, kabhi do ek sath kabhi munh me kabhi guda me
mujhe na jane kitni baar kitne tareeke se unhon ne ragda. meri khal
jagah jagah se chhil gayi thi. Janwaron ki tarah mere stano par aur
janghon ke beech unhon ne kat dala. mai dard se cheekhi ja rahi thi
magar munh se "gooo....goooo" ke alawa koi awaj nahi nikal rahi thi.
mere dono ankhon se ansoo jhad rahe the magar kise parwah thi mere
ansoon ki. unke mote mote lund meri chut ko ragad ragad kar uski khal
udhed rahe the. mai chhctpata rahi thi magar is halat me sirf ankhon
se jharne wale pani ke alawa kuchh bhi nahi kar pa rahi thi. saale
haramjadon ne mujhe jee bhar kar chodne ke baad wahan ek bench par
hathon ka sahara lekar ghutno ke bal jhukaya aur uske baad jo
hua......uffff..........kyon bacha kar laye tum mujhe? bolo mujh se
kya dushmani thi tumhari...."
"chalo beeti baten bhool jao"
"nahi kaise bhool sakti hoon. kaise bhool sakti hoon un haramjadon
ko. saalon ka jab jee bhar gaya mujhse tab mujhe jhuka kar apne kutte
ko chadha diya mere upar. uske ling ko meri yoni me daal diya. mai us
gande sambhog ki kalpana karke hi kanp jati hoon."
"chalo dressing ho chuki hai ab tum uth kar kapde pahan lo." mai
wahan se mud kar jane laga to usne apne hath se mere hath ko pakad
liya.
wo usi awastha me uth kar bistar par baith gayee. aur mere hath ko
apakad kar apni or kheecnha jab mai apni jagah se nahi hila to
khinchaw ke karan wo uth kar mere seene se lag gayee. aur mere chehre
ko apne hatho se tham kar mere honthon ko choom liya.
"ye ye tum kya kar rahi ho?" mai hadbada gaya.
" tum...." kahkar apni jeebh ko kat liya " aap bahut achchhe hain."
kahkar usne apni najaren jhuka dee.
" Anu tum abhi hosh me nahi ho. apne saath huye us hadse ki wajah se
tumhara dimag kaam nahi kar raha hai. tum abhi bhookhi ho pahle
humdono khane ka kuchh intezam karen."
" tum akele kaise rah lete ho. mujhe to sara ghar katne daudta hai.
tumhe kabhi aurat ki jaroorat mahsoos nahi hoti."
" Anuradha" maine baat ko khatm karna chaha.
" isme sharm ki kya baat hai. ye to jismani jaroorat hai kisi ko bhi
mahsoos ho sakti hai. mai to saaf kah sakti hoon ki mujhe to jaroorat
mahsoos hoti hai kisi mard ki. lekin aise nahi...." usne kuchh sochte
huye kaha " aisa mard jo mujhe dher sara pyar de. aur kuchh nahi
chahiye mujhe."
"chalo utho ab tum bahakne lagi ho." maine hath pakad kar use uthaya
to wo mere badan se sat gayee. uske badan ki garmi se mere poore
badan me ek jhurjhuri si daud gayee. hum ek doosre ki ankhon me
ankhen daal kar samay ko bhul gaye. kuchh der baad wo apni najren
jhuka kar kitchen me chali gayee. mai uske peechhe peechhe jane laga
to usne mujhe rok diya.
" ye mardon ki jagah nahi hai. aap aram kijiye mai kuchh na kuchh
bana leti hoon" kahte huye usne meri naak ko pakad kar kursi ki taraf
dhakel diya. mai baith gaya aur use niharne laga. wo ithlati hui
kitchen me chali gayee.
mai sochne laga abhi kuchh hi der ki mulakat hai. mai neeras aur
mariyal sa admi mujhme aisa kya dekh liya isne ki aisi koi hoor meri
jholi me a tapki. mai abhi tak viswaas nahi kar pa raha tha ki meri
kismat is tarah bhi palta kha sakti hai. mai is sundar aurat se man
hi man pyaar karne laga hoon.
mai utha aur shelf me chhipakar rakhe whisky ke bottle ko nikala.
lekin tabhi yaad aya ki roj ki tarah aj mai akela nahi hoon. mai
kitchen me aya Anuradha Roti banane me vyast thi.
" mai agar ek adh peg le loon to tum kuchh galat to nahi sochogi?"
maine jhijhakte huye poochha.
" Achchha to aap iska bhi shauk rakhte hain?"
"nahi nahi aisi baat nahi wo to mai kabhi..."
" koi baat nahi aap shauk se lijiye. mujhe apki kisi baat se koi
ittefaq nahi hai." usne kaha.
mai ek glass lekar do peg whisky use niharte huye sip kiya. tab tak
usne roti aur dal bana li thi. hum dono drawing room me baith kar
khane lage. khana khane ke baad maine use kaha
" anuradha tum bedroom me so jao."
"aur aap?" usne poochha.
" mere liye to yahi kamra bacha. mai yahan sofe par so jaunga." maine
kaha.
" aap yahan kaise soyenge. bedroom me hi a jao na." usne meri ankhon
me jhank kar kaha.
" koi bat nahi raat ke do baj chuke hain ab suraj ugne me time hi
kitna bacha hai." maine kaha aur use bed room me le gaya.
" darwaja andar se band kar lo" maine kaha
" ji mujhe yahan darne layak koi cheej dikhai nahi de rahi hai jo mai
darwaja band karun." kahkar wo bedroom me chali gayee. mujhe uske
lahje se laga ki wo shayad chidh gayee hai.
mai kuchh der tak sone ki koshish karta raha lekin neend nahi a rahi
thi. bagal ke kamre me koi khoobsoorat si mahila so rahi ho to mujh
jaise akele admi ko neend bhala kaise a sakti hai. Barsaat tej ho
gayee thi. is kamre ka ek darwaja balcony me khulta hai. use khol kar
mai bahar nikla to kuchh rahat mahsoos hui. mai andhere me jameen par
girti boondon ko dekhta hua kafi der tak railing ke sahare khada
raha. achanak mujhe laga ki wahan mai akela nahi hoon. kisiki garm
saansen mere gardan ke peechhe mahsoos hui. achanak usne peechhe se
mujhe apni agosh me bhar liya.
"neend nahi a rahi hai?" maine poochha.
" haan.." usne kaha " tum bhi to jag rahe ho."
" hmmmm"
" kya didi ki yaad sata rahi hai?" usne meri peeth par apni naak gada
di " didi bahut sunder thi na?"