Fantasy Choti si Bhool By Mr. Jatin ( COMPLETE )

[hirarandi]

Aur ish tarah se hamaari shaadi shuda jeendagi ki shuruvaat huyi. Aaj lagbhag ek mahina ho gaya shaadi ko. Hum hanste boltey hain. Ache dost ki tarah ek chhat ke neeche rahte hain. Baith kar ganto baate karte rahte hain. Jab ritu bolti hai to main pyar se ushke chehre ko dekhte huve ushki baat shunta hun. jeendagi bahut pyari aur hasin ban gayi hai. haan ye aur bhi jyada hasin ho sakti hai agar hum dono ek normal husband wife ki tarah rah paayein to. Par mujhe ish baat ka koyi gam nahin hai.
Ritu mera pura dhyaan rakhti hai. ushe bhi apne office jaana hota hai par phir bhi ushe pehle mujhe breakfast dene ki chinta rahti hai. kabhi kabhi khud breakfast karne ka time ushke paas nahi hota par mujhe kheela kar hi office jaati hai. ushki mere prati dedication dekh kar aankhe bhar aati hain.
Kabhi shaam ko vakt hota hai to hum dono gate way of India par ghum aate hai aur khub masti karte hain. Ice-cream khaate khaate hum dur tak nikal jaate hain
Hamaari jeendagi mein sex nahi hai par pyar chaaro aur beekhra pada hai. hum dono apni pyar se bhari duniya mein bahut khus hain.
Aaj ye diary padhi to ye ahsaash aur gahra ho gaya ki kitna bada paap kiya tha maine. Ek maasum se phool ko maine badi berahmi se kuchla tha. sukar hai vo phool aaj meri jeendagi mein hai aur mere paas moka hai ushe phir se kheelne dene ka. Main apni puri koshish karunga ki ab mere kaaran ritu ko koyi bhi dukh ya takleef na ho. Jish pyar se vo mera dhyaan rakhti hai utne hi pyar se main bhi ushka dhyaan rakhunga.
Aaj ye baat samajh mein aa rahi hai ki kyon ritu mujhe ushke sharir ko chune se mana karti hai. jitna julm ushne saha hai, ushki jagah koyi aur hota to mar jaata. Dukh bas ish baat ka hai ki ye sab mere kaaran huva. Man kar raha hai ki ritu ke kadmo mein gir jaaun aur ush se phir ek baar maafi maangu. Par vo uth jaayegi aur mujhe yaha apne paas dekh kar pareshaan hogi. kuch kahegi nahi mujhe, haan man hi man udaas jaroor ho jaayegi aur mujh se sorry feel karegi ki vo mujh se dur dur rahti hai.
Kal ritu ne mujh se bade pyar se pucha tha
“Jatin tum mujh se naraaj honge na”
maine kaha, “kyon aisa kyon kah rahi ho tum ritu”
ritu ki aankhe bhar aayi aur vo rote huve boli, “main tumhaari patni hun aur jab se shaadi huyi hai main roj tum se alag sho rahin hun, main kya karun jatin mujhe kuch samajh nahi aata. Jab bhi tumhe apne paas bulaane ka sochti hun to vahi sab purani baate man mein ghumne lagti hain. Ek andhera maano mujhe gher leta hai. Main tumhaari jeendagi barbaad kar rahin hun.. hai na”
“nahi ritu aisa kyon kah rahi ho, jeendagi to maine tumhaari barbaad ki thi. tumne to mujhe apna kar meri jeendagi par ek ahsaan kiya hai. mujhe jeendagi bhar tumhaare sharir ko chune ka moka na bhi mile mujhe koyi gam nahi hoga. Mujhe aaj bas ye khusi hai ki main tumhaara pati ban ke tumhaare saath hun. mujhe tumse kuch aur nahi chaahiye jaan, tum mujhe itna pyar de rahi ho vo kya kam hai. sex ke liye ye shaadi nahi ki thi maine, pyar ke liye ki thi. hum bas araam se apni ish shaadi shuda jeendagi mein aage badhte hain, jo bhi hoga acha hoga. I love you” —- maine ritu ko samjhaate huve kaha
“lekin phir bhi jatin main bahut dukhi hun ki ek patni ke roop mein main fail ho rahin hun, aisa nahi hai ki main koshish nahi kar rahi hun. bahut koshish kar rahi hun. par meri aatma tak andhera bhara hai. aaj tumhaare liye dil mein nafrat nahi hai phir bhi mera ye sharir ush sab ke liye taiyaar nahi hai jishke liye ek patni ko hona chaahiye. upar se mere papa ki daant ne mujhe aur jyada ashaaye bana diya hai” — ritu ne kaha
“to zemmedaar kaun hai ish sab ke liye. main hi to zemmedaar hun na, main tumhaari haalat nahi samjhunga to aur kaun samjhega. Tum jabardasti kuch koshish mat karo. Hamaari kishmat mein ek hasin husband wife ka rista raha to vo jaroor aayega. ye pyar sex se kahin jyada kimti hai jaan, kishi baat ki chinta mat karo aur sho jao” —- maine kaha
ish tarah badi mushkil se kal maine ritu ko samjha bujha kar shulaaya tha.