25-11-2019, 02:46 AM
Ritu mai tumhe abhi shaadi karne ko nahi kah raha hun. ab jab maine ye diary padh li hai to mai samajh sakta hun. tum aaraam se apne kaam par dhyaan dau. Aur rahi ush billu ki baat mujhe dikhaao ki vo kaun hai, ushki akal mai theekane lagaata hun” —— sidharth ne kaha.
Maine apne flat ki sadak ki taraf wali khidki se baahar jhaank kar dekha. Par billu vaha nahi deekha.
“Abhi vo yaha nahi hai. par jab bhi mai subah office jaati hun aur jab shaam ko vaapas aati hun to vo aajkal mere flat ke saamne sadak par milta hai” —- maine kaha
“tum chinta mat karo mai kal subah 9 baje aa jaaunga. Tum company ki car mein mat jaana, hum saath chalenge, theek hai. mai dekhna chaahta hun ki ye billu aakhir kya bala hai” — sidharth ne kaha.
Phir hum daono ne lunch kiya.
Lunch karne ke baad sidharth ne kaha, “tum soch lo ritu, tumhaare paas bahut vakt hai, par mai shaadi tum se hi karunga, I love you from the bottom of my heart. bade se bada toofaan bhi mere pyar ko nahi hila sakta. Ye tumhaari diary bhi nahi. I will wait for you. Ab mai chalta hun, kisi client ke paas jaana hai. kal subah miltey hai theek hai”
Ushki baat shun kar meri aankho mein aanshu aane ko ho gaye. Par maine khud ko thaam liya. pata nahi sidharth mujhe itna pyar kyo karta hai. mujhe yakin nahi tha ki vo ye diary padh kar bhi aisi baat kahega. Yahi kaaran hai ki mai bechan hun. ab sidharth ko mai kaise mana karungi, samajh nahi pa rahi hun.
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Date : 9-02-09 11:30 pm
Aaj bahut bade raaj se parda khul gaya
Aaj subah subah alarm ki bajaaye mujhe dipti ke phone ne uthaaya.
Subah 7 baje mera phone baj utha.
“dipti hi…., kya baat hai, itni subah kyo phone kiya” —- maine hairaani mein pucha
“ritu bahut badi baat pata chali hai, abhi abhi manish ka phone aaya tha. saari guthi sulajhati nazar aa rahi hai” —- dipti ne kaha.
Mai jhat se apne bed par baith gayi aur kaha, “acha, jaldi bataao kya pata chala hai”
“ye saari kahaani ek hi naam par ja kar ruk gayi hai, vo hai kavita” —- dipti ne kaha
“ kavita … kaun kavita, ab ye kavita kaha se aa gayi” — maine pucha
“sanjay ke clinic mein nurse thi vo, tum to ushe jaanti hogi” —- dipti ne pucha
“oh haan…. yaad aaya… tum ush kavita ki baat kar rahi ho. Bahut achi aur sarif ladki thi. ek baar chintoo ke birthday par ghar bhi aayi thi. meri ush se achi bol chaal thi. par vo to koyi 2 saal pahle clinic chhod kar chali gayi thi”
“she is missing ritu, 2 saal se vo gaayab hai, ushke saath kya huva, vo ab kaha hai, jeenda hai bhi ya nahi …kisi ko nahi pata” ??? —- dipti ne kaha.
“Ohh mujhe ish baare mein nahi pata tha, ek baar jab mein clinic gayi thi to sanjay se pucha tha ki kavita kaha hai, unhone to yahi kaha tha ki vo vaha se kaam chhod kar chali gayi” — maine kaha
“sanjay to yahi kahega, kyonki ho sakta hai ki kavita ke gaayab hone mein ushka haath ho, manish ko ish baare mein shak hai. haan par vivek ka ishmein pakka haath hai” —- dipti ne kaha
“par mere saath jo kuch huva, ush se kavita ka kya lena dena dipti” — maine hairaani mein pucha.
“billu kavita ka chota bhai hai ritu. aur ye pata chala hai ki vo 2 saal se apni sister ko dhund raha hai. Bahut pyar karta hai vo kavita ko. Ushke ma baap ke marne ke baad kavita ne hi ushe pala hai. security officer kuch nahi kar rahi. ya phir ye samajh lo ki kisi ke dabaav ke kaaran security officer kuch karna nahi chaahti. Manish billu ke delhi wale ghar gaya tha. vaha pata chala hai ki billu to bahut sarif aur nek ladka hai”
“bas-bas mujhe pata hai vo kitna nek hai, haan par kavita ke liye mujhe dukh hai, bahut mehanti thi vo. Mai jab bhi clinic jaati thi ushe kaam karte huve hi paati thi. sanjay bhi ushki kaafi taarif karte the, kahte the ki kavita ne akele hi kaafi kaam sambhaal rakha hai” —- maine dipti se kaha.
“Kavita ke hi kaaran manish par ush din jaan leva hamla huva tha. mujhe yakin hai ki sanjay aur vivek nahi chaahte ki kisi ko pata chale ki kavita ke gaayab hone mein unka haath hai. vo hamla un dauno ne hi karvaaya hoga” —– dipti ne kaha
“sanjay aisa nahi karenge, haan vivek kuch bhi kar sakta hai. par vo to mar gaya hoga. Maine khud ushe goli maari thi.” —- maine kaha.
“Ish baare mein mujhe nahi pata. Par itna jaroor saaf ho gaya hai ki billu kavita ke kaaran hi tumhaare peeche pada tha. shaayad ushe shak hoga ki kavita ke gaayab hone mein sanjay ka haath hai” —- dipti ne kaha.
“Ish se ushka gunaah kam nahi ho jaata” — maine kaha.
“Vo to theek hai ritu, mai to bas billu ka motive bata rahi thi. par yaar manish ab kavita ke case par lag gaya hai. he is taking it personally now, vo samajh hi nahi raha hai ki ish mein ushki jaan ko khatra hai, mujhe dar lag raha hai” —– dipti ne kaha
“dipti lagta hai vo ziddi hai. tum bas ushe ye samjaao ki apna khyaal rakhe. Mujhe nahi lagta ki ushe samjhaane ka koyi faayda hoga. Aur tum daro mat ab to vo bilkul theek hai, hai na”
“kaha theek hai, ladkhada kar chalta hai abhi bhi, par chalo, ab mai chalti hun, mujhe office ke liye bhi taiyaar hona hai” —- dipti ne kaha
“ohh… mai bhi late ho rahi hun, bye phir fursat mein baat karenge” — maine kaha
maine jaldi se fresh ho kar breakfast kiya aur office ke liye taiyaar ho gayi. par har pal mere man mein dipti ki kahi baatein ghum rahi thi.
maine khidki se baahar jhaank kar dekha, vaha koyi nahi tha. maine socha ki shaayad billu thodi der mein aane wala hoga.
Theek 9 baje sidharth ne door bell bajaayi.
Jaise hi maine darvaaja khola ushne pucha, “ baahar sadak par to koyi nahi hai, ye diary tumhari koyi fiction story to nahi hai”
Nahi sidharth billu roj subah sadak par khada milta hai. aaj shaayad vo nahi aaya. Phir maine sidharth ko subah waali baat bata di. Maine ushe vo sab kuch bata diya jo ki dipti ne mujhe bataaya tha.
“hmm…..very sad… but still, billu is a criminal” —- sidharth ne kaha.
“Haan mein bhi yahi sochti hun” —- maine kaha
jaise hi mai apne ghar se sidharth ke saath nikli meri aankhe charo taraf billu ko hi dhund rahi thi. mai ush se milna to nahi chaahti thi, haan par ye jaroor soch rahi thi ki aakhir vo aaj yaha kyon nahi aaya.
“Billu ko hi dhund rahi ho, hai na” ? —- sidharth ne emotional tone mein pucha
Maine ushki aur dekha aur boli, “mai hairaan hun ki aaj vo kyo nahi aaya”
“Acha hi to hai, ush se ab tumhe kya matlab, bhaad mein jaaye vo” —- sidharth ne thoda gusse mein kaha
mein samajh gayi ki sidharth ko hurt huva hai. mai chupchaap ushki car mein baith gayi aur yaha vaha dekhna band kar diya.
kitni ajeeb baat hai, kayi baar hum aisi harkate kar jaate hai ki hamein bhi nahi pata chalta ki hum kyo kar rahe hai. dar-asal subah dipti se baat karne ke baad mai billu se ek baar milna chaahti thi. yahi kaaran tha ki mai subah ushe sadak par na paa kar hairaan ho rahi thi. sidharth ko ye baat buri lagni hi thi. vo mujhe pyar jo karta hai.
saara din office mein bada hi mushkil beeta. Man kar raha tha ki abhi ghar chali jaaun, billu jaroor mere flat ke aas paas hi hoga. Ek ek pal mera badi mushkil se beet raha tha. kavita ka chehra bhi baar baar mere man mein ghum raha tha. mai ye bhi soch rahi thi ki agar billu itna nek hai to mere saath itni ghinoni harkat kyo ki ushne. Jo bhi ho, mai ek baar billu se milna chaahti thi.
maine lunch time mein apne office ke baahar bhi dekha, par vo vaha bhi nazar nahi aaya. Maine socha ki ho sakta hai vo delhi chala gaya ho. Phir khyaal aaya ki shaam ko ghar jaate vakt vo jaroor sadak par mil jaayega.
Ishi udhedbun mein mera har pal beet raha tha.
5:30 baje mein jhat se sabhi kaam nipta kar ghar ke liye nikal padi. Bahut bechan thi mai ghar pahunchane ke liye.
mera ghar aa gaya par billu kahi nazar nahi aa raha tha. maine car se utar kar charo aur nazar daudaayi par dur dur tak mujhe billu ki parchaayi tak nahi deekhi. Maine man hi man socha kaha chala gaya aaj vo ?
driver ne pucha, “madam kishi ko dhund rahe ho kya:”
“nahi tum jao aur kal time par aa jaana” —- maine driver se kaha.
Mai teji se apne flat ki taraf chal padi. Chalte chalte soch rahi thi ki jaroor billu ne aaj bhi koyi chit chhodi hogi
Par aaj koyi chit nahi thi
“Billu kaha gaya, kya vo vaapas delhi chala gaya, vaise vo kah to raha tha ki meri financial position theek nahi hai, mai yaha jyada der nahi tahar sakta” ——- Yahi sab mere deemag mein ghum raha tha.
Phir mujhe khyaal aaya ki gate way of India par jaakar dekhti hun, vo jaroor vahi hoga.
Sidharth ne mujhe bataaya tha ki gate way of India tumhaare ghar se walking distance par hai
Maine jhat se ghar ko lock kiya aur paidal hi logo se puchte puchte gate way of India ki taraf chal padi.
Aur jaisa ki mujhe lag raha tha, billu mujhe vahi mila. vo gate way of India ke paas jo samunder ke charo aur deevar bani hai ush se sat kar khada tha.
Ushka chehra samunder ki aur tha aur aisa lag raha tha jaise ki vo gahre vichaaro mein khoya hai.
Mai ushke karib aa gayi. par vo jaise ek murti ki tarah khada tha aur ek tak samunder ko dekhe ja raha tha. aisa lag raha tha jaise ki ushe hosh hi nahi hai ki ushke aas paas kya ho raha hai.
Mai bilkul ushke peeche khadi thi. samajh nahi pa rahi thi ki ushe kaise bulaaun.
“Billu, kavita ke baarein mein shun kar dukh huva” —- maine dheere se kaha.
Par billu ke sharir mein koyi harkat nahi huyi. Vo vaise hi murti ki tarah vaha khada raha
Maine ushke kandhe par haath rakha aur kaha, “billu mujhe kavita ke liye dukh hai”
Vo dheere se meri aur ghuma aur maine ushki aankho mein aanshu dekhe. Yakin hi nahi ho raha tha ki billu ro bhi sakta hai. ushki aankho mein aanshu dekh kar meri aankhe bhi nam ho gayi.
Vo mere gale lag gaya aur phoot phoot kar rone laga aur bola, “ pata nahi kaha gaayab kar diya meri didi ko kamino ne ritu”
Mai bhi bhaavuk ho gayi. maine ushe rokne ki koshis nahi ki. billu aaj ek bacha lag raha tha. mai soch bhi nahi sakti thi ki vo ish tarah ro sakta hai.
Mai ushe chaah kar bhi apne sheene se nahi hata paayi. Charo aur log hamein hi dekh rahe the. Tabhi maine dur se sidharth ko aate dekha. Mai sidharth ko dekh kar hadbada gayi. soch rahi thi ki pata nahi vo kya sochega mujhe billu ke saath aisi haalat mein dekh kar.
Maine apne flat ki sadak ki taraf wali khidki se baahar jhaank kar dekha. Par billu vaha nahi deekha.
“Abhi vo yaha nahi hai. par jab bhi mai subah office jaati hun aur jab shaam ko vaapas aati hun to vo aajkal mere flat ke saamne sadak par milta hai” —- maine kaha
“tum chinta mat karo mai kal subah 9 baje aa jaaunga. Tum company ki car mein mat jaana, hum saath chalenge, theek hai. mai dekhna chaahta hun ki ye billu aakhir kya bala hai” — sidharth ne kaha.
Phir hum daono ne lunch kiya.
Lunch karne ke baad sidharth ne kaha, “tum soch lo ritu, tumhaare paas bahut vakt hai, par mai shaadi tum se hi karunga, I love you from the bottom of my heart. bade se bada toofaan bhi mere pyar ko nahi hila sakta. Ye tumhaari diary bhi nahi. I will wait for you. Ab mai chalta hun, kisi client ke paas jaana hai. kal subah miltey hai theek hai”
Ushki baat shun kar meri aankho mein aanshu aane ko ho gaye. Par maine khud ko thaam liya. pata nahi sidharth mujhe itna pyar kyo karta hai. mujhe yakin nahi tha ki vo ye diary padh kar bhi aisi baat kahega. Yahi kaaran hai ki mai bechan hun. ab sidharth ko mai kaise mana karungi, samajh nahi pa rahi hun.
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Date : 9-02-09 11:30 pm
Aaj bahut bade raaj se parda khul gaya
Aaj subah subah alarm ki bajaaye mujhe dipti ke phone ne uthaaya.
Subah 7 baje mera phone baj utha.
“dipti hi…., kya baat hai, itni subah kyo phone kiya” —- maine hairaani mein pucha
“ritu bahut badi baat pata chali hai, abhi abhi manish ka phone aaya tha. saari guthi sulajhati nazar aa rahi hai” —- dipti ne kaha.
Mai jhat se apne bed par baith gayi aur kaha, “acha, jaldi bataao kya pata chala hai”
“ye saari kahaani ek hi naam par ja kar ruk gayi hai, vo hai kavita” —- dipti ne kaha
“ kavita … kaun kavita, ab ye kavita kaha se aa gayi” — maine pucha
“sanjay ke clinic mein nurse thi vo, tum to ushe jaanti hogi” —- dipti ne pucha
“oh haan…. yaad aaya… tum ush kavita ki baat kar rahi ho. Bahut achi aur sarif ladki thi. ek baar chintoo ke birthday par ghar bhi aayi thi. meri ush se achi bol chaal thi. par vo to koyi 2 saal pahle clinic chhod kar chali gayi thi”
“she is missing ritu, 2 saal se vo gaayab hai, ushke saath kya huva, vo ab kaha hai, jeenda hai bhi ya nahi …kisi ko nahi pata” ??? —- dipti ne kaha.
“Ohh mujhe ish baare mein nahi pata tha, ek baar jab mein clinic gayi thi to sanjay se pucha tha ki kavita kaha hai, unhone to yahi kaha tha ki vo vaha se kaam chhod kar chali gayi” — maine kaha
“sanjay to yahi kahega, kyonki ho sakta hai ki kavita ke gaayab hone mein ushka haath ho, manish ko ish baare mein shak hai. haan par vivek ka ishmein pakka haath hai” —- dipti ne kaha
“par mere saath jo kuch huva, ush se kavita ka kya lena dena dipti” — maine hairaani mein pucha.
“billu kavita ka chota bhai hai ritu. aur ye pata chala hai ki vo 2 saal se apni sister ko dhund raha hai. Bahut pyar karta hai vo kavita ko. Ushke ma baap ke marne ke baad kavita ne hi ushe pala hai. security officer kuch nahi kar rahi. ya phir ye samajh lo ki kisi ke dabaav ke kaaran security officer kuch karna nahi chaahti. Manish billu ke delhi wale ghar gaya tha. vaha pata chala hai ki billu to bahut sarif aur nek ladka hai”
“bas-bas mujhe pata hai vo kitna nek hai, haan par kavita ke liye mujhe dukh hai, bahut mehanti thi vo. Mai jab bhi clinic jaati thi ushe kaam karte huve hi paati thi. sanjay bhi ushki kaafi taarif karte the, kahte the ki kavita ne akele hi kaafi kaam sambhaal rakha hai” —- maine dipti se kaha.
“Kavita ke hi kaaran manish par ush din jaan leva hamla huva tha. mujhe yakin hai ki sanjay aur vivek nahi chaahte ki kisi ko pata chale ki kavita ke gaayab hone mein unka haath hai. vo hamla un dauno ne hi karvaaya hoga” —– dipti ne kaha
“sanjay aisa nahi karenge, haan vivek kuch bhi kar sakta hai. par vo to mar gaya hoga. Maine khud ushe goli maari thi.” —- maine kaha.
“Ish baare mein mujhe nahi pata. Par itna jaroor saaf ho gaya hai ki billu kavita ke kaaran hi tumhaare peeche pada tha. shaayad ushe shak hoga ki kavita ke gaayab hone mein sanjay ka haath hai” —- dipti ne kaha.
“Ish se ushka gunaah kam nahi ho jaata” — maine kaha.
“Vo to theek hai ritu, mai to bas billu ka motive bata rahi thi. par yaar manish ab kavita ke case par lag gaya hai. he is taking it personally now, vo samajh hi nahi raha hai ki ish mein ushki jaan ko khatra hai, mujhe dar lag raha hai” —– dipti ne kaha
“dipti lagta hai vo ziddi hai. tum bas ushe ye samjaao ki apna khyaal rakhe. Mujhe nahi lagta ki ushe samjhaane ka koyi faayda hoga. Aur tum daro mat ab to vo bilkul theek hai, hai na”
“kaha theek hai, ladkhada kar chalta hai abhi bhi, par chalo, ab mai chalti hun, mujhe office ke liye bhi taiyaar hona hai” —- dipti ne kaha
“ohh… mai bhi late ho rahi hun, bye phir fursat mein baat karenge” — maine kaha
maine jaldi se fresh ho kar breakfast kiya aur office ke liye taiyaar ho gayi. par har pal mere man mein dipti ki kahi baatein ghum rahi thi.
maine khidki se baahar jhaank kar dekha, vaha koyi nahi tha. maine socha ki shaayad billu thodi der mein aane wala hoga.
Theek 9 baje sidharth ne door bell bajaayi.
Jaise hi maine darvaaja khola ushne pucha, “ baahar sadak par to koyi nahi hai, ye diary tumhari koyi fiction story to nahi hai”
Nahi sidharth billu roj subah sadak par khada milta hai. aaj shaayad vo nahi aaya. Phir maine sidharth ko subah waali baat bata di. Maine ushe vo sab kuch bata diya jo ki dipti ne mujhe bataaya tha.
“hmm…..very sad… but still, billu is a criminal” —- sidharth ne kaha.
“Haan mein bhi yahi sochti hun” —- maine kaha
jaise hi mai apne ghar se sidharth ke saath nikli meri aankhe charo taraf billu ko hi dhund rahi thi. mai ush se milna to nahi chaahti thi, haan par ye jaroor soch rahi thi ki aakhir vo aaj yaha kyon nahi aaya.
“Billu ko hi dhund rahi ho, hai na” ? —- sidharth ne emotional tone mein pucha
Maine ushki aur dekha aur boli, “mai hairaan hun ki aaj vo kyo nahi aaya”
“Acha hi to hai, ush se ab tumhe kya matlab, bhaad mein jaaye vo” —- sidharth ne thoda gusse mein kaha
mein samajh gayi ki sidharth ko hurt huva hai. mai chupchaap ushki car mein baith gayi aur yaha vaha dekhna band kar diya.
kitni ajeeb baat hai, kayi baar hum aisi harkate kar jaate hai ki hamein bhi nahi pata chalta ki hum kyo kar rahe hai. dar-asal subah dipti se baat karne ke baad mai billu se ek baar milna chaahti thi. yahi kaaran tha ki mai subah ushe sadak par na paa kar hairaan ho rahi thi. sidharth ko ye baat buri lagni hi thi. vo mujhe pyar jo karta hai.
saara din office mein bada hi mushkil beeta. Man kar raha tha ki abhi ghar chali jaaun, billu jaroor mere flat ke aas paas hi hoga. Ek ek pal mera badi mushkil se beet raha tha. kavita ka chehra bhi baar baar mere man mein ghum raha tha. mai ye bhi soch rahi thi ki agar billu itna nek hai to mere saath itni ghinoni harkat kyo ki ushne. Jo bhi ho, mai ek baar billu se milna chaahti thi.
maine lunch time mein apne office ke baahar bhi dekha, par vo vaha bhi nazar nahi aaya. Maine socha ki ho sakta hai vo delhi chala gaya ho. Phir khyaal aaya ki shaam ko ghar jaate vakt vo jaroor sadak par mil jaayega.
Ishi udhedbun mein mera har pal beet raha tha.
5:30 baje mein jhat se sabhi kaam nipta kar ghar ke liye nikal padi. Bahut bechan thi mai ghar pahunchane ke liye.
mera ghar aa gaya par billu kahi nazar nahi aa raha tha. maine car se utar kar charo aur nazar daudaayi par dur dur tak mujhe billu ki parchaayi tak nahi deekhi. Maine man hi man socha kaha chala gaya aaj vo ?
driver ne pucha, “madam kishi ko dhund rahe ho kya:”
“nahi tum jao aur kal time par aa jaana” —- maine driver se kaha.
Mai teji se apne flat ki taraf chal padi. Chalte chalte soch rahi thi ki jaroor billu ne aaj bhi koyi chit chhodi hogi
Par aaj koyi chit nahi thi
“Billu kaha gaya, kya vo vaapas delhi chala gaya, vaise vo kah to raha tha ki meri financial position theek nahi hai, mai yaha jyada der nahi tahar sakta” ——- Yahi sab mere deemag mein ghum raha tha.
Phir mujhe khyaal aaya ki gate way of India par jaakar dekhti hun, vo jaroor vahi hoga.
Sidharth ne mujhe bataaya tha ki gate way of India tumhaare ghar se walking distance par hai
Maine jhat se ghar ko lock kiya aur paidal hi logo se puchte puchte gate way of India ki taraf chal padi.
Aur jaisa ki mujhe lag raha tha, billu mujhe vahi mila. vo gate way of India ke paas jo samunder ke charo aur deevar bani hai ush se sat kar khada tha.
Ushka chehra samunder ki aur tha aur aisa lag raha tha jaise ki vo gahre vichaaro mein khoya hai.
Mai ushke karib aa gayi. par vo jaise ek murti ki tarah khada tha aur ek tak samunder ko dekhe ja raha tha. aisa lag raha tha jaise ki ushe hosh hi nahi hai ki ushke aas paas kya ho raha hai.
Mai bilkul ushke peeche khadi thi. samajh nahi pa rahi thi ki ushe kaise bulaaun.
“Billu, kavita ke baarein mein shun kar dukh huva” —- maine dheere se kaha.
Par billu ke sharir mein koyi harkat nahi huyi. Vo vaise hi murti ki tarah vaha khada raha
Maine ushke kandhe par haath rakha aur kaha, “billu mujhe kavita ke liye dukh hai”
Vo dheere se meri aur ghuma aur maine ushki aankho mein aanshu dekhe. Yakin hi nahi ho raha tha ki billu ro bhi sakta hai. ushki aankho mein aanshu dekh kar meri aankhe bhi nam ho gayi.
Vo mere gale lag gaya aur phoot phoot kar rone laga aur bola, “ pata nahi kaha gaayab kar diya meri didi ko kamino ne ritu”
Mai bhi bhaavuk ho gayi. maine ushe rokne ki koshis nahi ki. billu aaj ek bacha lag raha tha. mai soch bhi nahi sakti thi ki vo ish tarah ro sakta hai.
Mai ushe chaah kar bhi apne sheene se nahi hata paayi. Charo aur log hamein hi dekh rahe the. Tabhi maine dur se sidharth ko aate dekha. Mai sidharth ko dekh kar hadbada gayi. soch rahi thi ki pata nahi vo kya sochega mujhe billu ke saath aisi haalat mein dekh kar.
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