Adultery Mind Control Part 1 completed – Part 2. Uncontrolled Mind- Completed

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I got up in the morning, I can't find Shazia in the bed. Dan is sleeping next to me. He is happily sleeping. He used to sleep till 9 am in Saturdays. Some times even more. This is my 7th year in London. We shifted to London after couple of years later our marriage. 10 years past from my most important day of my life. ''Day of choosing Shazia''. She is one of the best gift for me. The question always remain whether am worth for her? Suddenly, Shazia came to bedroom and found me awake. She was wearing a Knee length shorts and Loose sleeveless Tshirt. She become more beautiful after becoming a mother. Adding up little fat in her body made her more sexy. I ogled her boobs through the gap. I can see her bra from the gap. My dick got hard on immediately. She is still at her late 20 and am in late 30s. Even if she like to wear traditional dress while going out from home, she will always wear all modern attire inside the home for my happiness. She keep improvise on our love making with new ways to keep me engaged. Her world hang around me. Some times, I doubt my efficiency in bed. I started thanking that Whether am old ? Feeling like started loosing the old stamina and momentum. But never Shazia has mention or made me feel like am loosing my charm in bed.

She looked at me and smiled.

Shazia: Oh!!! got up. Hangover gone?
Sanju: What hangover ? I don't have any hangover. Yesterday, I didn't had much. Only few drinks. I am alright. Why you asking ?
Shazia: Sorry my love. Its my mistake. You had only few drinks balance bottle is finished by the Ghost ( she stops of a second then started telling in little tone)...do you remember what all you are telling me yesterday night ? Any idea about when you slept?
Sanju: I slept at midnight. After having food.
Shazia: Very well. Don't let me to open my mouth. Oh god, why you gave me the idea of marrying this womanizer husband ?
I got confused by her statement. Well according to me every thing was perfectly hidden. I got confused, whether I am telling truth to her after drinking ? Is it the reason instead of going with friends, she is encouraging me to drink in weekends at home ?
Sanju: What you mean by womanizer? I have one and that is standing at door and keep blabbering to me. She is not bothered about my boy (pointing my dick) who is feeling cold and need to be inside my women.
Shazia smiles. I saw her face getting red. She enjoys such comments and always find interested to listen to such words.

Shazia: Poor fellow. Let him be inside that blanket. If he see my body. He will soon spit inside me and take rest.

I feel like Shazia started making fun on my ability to satisfy her. Even I know that, my ability to hold cum has reduced drastically over the period of years. Now after ejaculating, my dick used to take 10 minutes to back on hard. In order to keep the momentum, several times I used to suck her pussy to make her cum after ejaculating inside her mouth or pussy. I feel that she is trying to avoid taking my dick in her mouth due to ejaculating fast. I always asked her opinion after love making and she always gives me the answer that she is satisfied. Some times, I feel that we have a very wider age gap. I was never expected Shazia to behave very wild in bed. She ride my dick very well. She give best blow job. She has the ability to keep my all nerves and vain active while love making. The best part of her is the ability to make you cum by giving blow on dick without taking it in mouth. I always wonder on her for the ability. All holes in her body is able to take my dick at any point of time. I was expecting a very shy and conservative approach from her but she rocks in bed.

Sanju: Oh!! you mean. You have doubt in my boys ability. ( I sound little sad)
Shazia: Oh!! My little boy got hurt. But I will say the same. How many times I told you to don't drink too much. You will always promise me couple of pegs and end up in bottle. Then how you expect my boy to stay steady. Sanju, why are you drinking too much. Is there any problem from my side? I found you drinking heavy in last few years. Some times I feel that you are behaving so rude to me after drinking like how Razia told about Abdul behaviour.

Sanju: Hey I am drinking on weekends only na
Shazia: Don't lie. I know that you are going with your secretary and drinking daily from some pubs.
I hate that women. She is a venom. She is behind you for her benefits. Keep an eye on her. I don't find her as a straight women. Don't fall in her trap. I know that she is the one who encourage you to drink daily.

Sanju: Oh!! My jealous wife. Beauty vs beauty
Shazia: Sanju. I don't like teasing me. I don't have jealous on her beauty. What is in her? She will sleep with anyone for her benefits. I hope you will not fall in her trap. Sanju, I love you. You know me very well.

Sanju: What will you do if I slept with her ?
Shazia: what else can I do ? You knows that, there is no place for me to go. I have to trouble my poor sister. No other place. There also you will have free access. ( her voice was breaking due to weeping)

Sanju: Oh my poor girl.. Please don't behave like this. I was kidding with you. You knows me. Come here.
Shazia: No. I have work in kitchen. Bye. Let me finish making breakfast.
Sanju: Come near and sit with me for few minutes and go.
Shazia: Oh no. You will be stinking with alcohol smell.
Sanju: Ok then . ( I told in disappointed sound)
Shazia: Oh!! my lovely husband is angry
she came near and remain kept my face angry. She immediately sat near me and start tickling me.
I tried to hold my laugh.
Shazia: Please leave your air. You will die by holding breath.( She kissed my face).
I smiled and kissed her.
Shazia: Chi!! go brush your teeth. Call that lazy pig also (Pointing our kid Dan) and both of you get fresh and have breakfast.
She was about to get up from the bed. I hold her waist and pull her back. She lost the balance and fell on my body. I hugs her and kissed her neck. My hands pressed her ass. She groan. She was trying to balance her on top of me. I used the opportunity to have a better grip on her body. I started pulling her Tshirt up.

Shazia : Leave me Sanju. What are you doing? Dan will wake up.
Sanju: Oh yes. He is going to learn his basics from us. Do you think that he don't get in nights when we have sex.
Shazia: I never do it in front of him. You are the one who force me after drinking.

I knows that she is right. We used to have sex in other bedroom but sometimes after drink, I force her to have sex in same bed with our child.
Sanju: Every thing is m fault.
Shazia: Please don't be upset. I just simply told you. You get up and come. I will take care of your boy in kitchen. Come.

She invited me to kitchen and left. Immediately I got up from the bed but suddenly realized my lack of strength. I can feel the effect of alcohol in my body and felt so tired. I went back to bed and covered in blanket.
I was really scared about what I told to Shazia after drinking. I know that my drinking habit has increased after Priya's death. I felt guilty for my involvement in the cause of her death. I always think about what is need for such a drastic move from my side ?

Major flash back came in my mind on last 10 years
Waiting time between marriage.
Time with Nimmy and got success in convenience her to go back to Arjun.
Never asked about the father of her kid. Whether she conceive from me as per her wish?
Pre marriage and post marriage era with Shazia and Razia.
Life in Bahrain with Razia and Shazia.
Quality time with Ajay and Priya.
Joseph and Priya's death.
Dan's Birth

I understand that, self analysis will always highlight the devil side of me.