Adultery SAMREEN: Shikast-e-Zanjeer-e-Muflisi

[Naaz]

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[Herotic]

Samreen From Future

[Naaz]

Lagta hai ab update nahi aayega

[Herotic]

EPISODE 23

Gaadi jab tak sadak par daud rahi thi, tab tak to mardana baaton ka ek bazaar garam tha. Lekin achanak, raste ki ek sunsaan aur dhundhli mod par, sadak ke kinaare ek purana, jhilmilata hua dhaba nazar aaya. Wahan peele bulb ki roshni mein dhuein ka ek halka sa badal tair raha tha. Driver Bodyguard ne steering ghumayi, aur humari kaali Scorpio seedha us dhabe ke saamne ja ruki. 

Mera dil ek baar phir uchhal kar gale mein aa gaya. Hum yahan kyun ruke hain? Rubina ka ghar toh yahan se sirf chand kilometron ki doori par hoga. Kya inka koi aur irada hai? Kya ye mujhe kisi aur musibat mein phasaane ke liye yahan laaye hain?
 
Gaadi ka engine band hote hi teeno bodyguards aur Pappu darwaza khol kar foran baahar nikal aaye. Unke bhaari booton ki aawaz zameen par goonji. Unhone aapas mein kuchh sargoshi ki aur dhabe ke table par ja kar baith gaye, jahan ek boodha dhabawala jaldi se chai banane mein jud gaya tha. Wahan aas-paas zyada bheed nahi thi, bas ek-do aur log the jo apni kisi truck ke paas sote hue ya bidi peete hue nazar aa rahe the. Aur main... main us band gaadi ke andar akeli reh gayi.
 
Sheeshe se bahar dekhte hue mera dam ghutne laga. Darr aur bebasi ka ek ajeeb sa aalam mere poore wajood par chhaya hua tha. Lekin kuchh hi lamhon mein, driver side ka door khula aur Pappu wahan khada tha. Uske haath mein ek kulhad tha, jisse garm chai ka dhuaan nikal raha tha. Usne gaadi ke andar jhuk kar wo kulhad meri taraf badhaya.
 
Maine apni aankhon mein gussa, nafrat aur thodi si bebasi bhar kar use ghoora, wahi shakhs jisne thodi der pehle mujhe zaleel kiya tha. Pappu ne ek halki si laaparwah muskurahat ke sath apna sar hilaya, aur bola, "Arey madam, gussa thook dijiye! Itna kya bhav khana. Thandi hawa mein chai peene se dimaag theek ho jata hai. Lijiye, pijiye garma garam chai."
 
Main kuchh pal ke liye uski taraf dekhti rahi. Mera dil nahi maanta tha ki main is aadmi ke haath se kuchh lun, lekin gale ki khushki aur andar ki ghutan itni badh chuki thi ki maine bina kuchh bole, nazrein doosri taraf fer lin, aur kaanpte hue haathon se wo kulhad uske haath se apne haathon mein le liya. Pappu ek tanzhiya muskurahat ke sath wapas un bodyguards ke paas laut gaya.
 
Baahar wo sab mard khade ho kar zor-zor se thahake laga rahe the, chai ki chuski le rahe the aur aapas mein hasi-mazaak kar rahe the. Unke qahqehe us khamosh raat mein kisi gidh ki tarah goonj rahe the. Main gaadi ki pichhli seat par akeli baithi, us mitti ke kulhad se chai ki halki-halki sips le rahi thi. Chai ki garmahat mere gale se utri toh zaroor, lekin usne mere andar ke sannate ko aur gehra kar diya.
 
Aur tabhi... wo aalam shuru hua jisne mujhe andar se tod kar rakh diya. Achanak, bina kisi silsile ke, mujhe apne shauhar ki yaad aane lagi. Subah jab main Pandey ji ke ghar ke liye farha baaji ke saath car mein baithi thi, aur unka wo purshaan ghar dekha tha, wahan se lekar ab tak, 24 ghante bhi poore nahi hue the, par aisa lag raha tha maano main apne ghar, apne shauhar, apni purani aur pakiza zindagi se salo door ho chuki hoon.
 
Is bich hi mere saath kya kya ho gya mujhe pata hi nhi chala. Mera dil chahte hue bhi unhe bhula nahi pa raha tha. Kal is waqt main apne ghar apne shauhar ke saath thi aur yahi soch rhi thi ki kya main pandey ji ke ghar jaaun ya nhi.
 
Aur aaj? Aaj main kahan thi? Ek aise ghar mein jahan meri izzat ka koi mol nahi tha, jahan naukron aur mardano ke beech meri ghairat ki dhajjiyan udayi ja rahi thin, jahan gunahon ke bojh se meri rooh kachoti ja rahi thi, aur main ek anjaan kaali Scorpio mein, in mustando ke beech, ek dhabe par akeli bethi aansoo baha rahi thi.
 
Aankhon se ansoo tap-tap kar ke mere hathon par girne lage. Main apne shauhar ke us chehre ko yaad karne lagi jo kitna saaf-suthra, kitna muqaddas tha. Aur mera ye wajood... jo unke baad in gande logon ke darmiyan, in gunaahon aur badnasibi ki daldal mein dhas chuka tha.
 
Main kahan aa gayi? Maine apne aap ko kis anjaam tak pahuncha diya? Farha baaji ne mujhe puri baatein kyun nhi batayi? Mujhe saima ki baat sun leni chahiye thi. Chai ka wo kulhad mere haath mein thanda padne laga, aur baahar wahi mardo ke thahake aur dabe hue shor ke beech, main khamoshi se andar hi andar ghut-ghut kar rone lagi.
 
Dhabe ki us dhundhli aur peeli roshni mein, jahan main apne shauhar ki yaad mein ansoo baha rahi thi aur dil ki gehraiyon mein apne gunahon ka maatam mana rahi thi, wahi achanak waqt ne ek aisi anjaan aur khaufnaak karwat li, jisne meri saansein tak rok din.
 

Screeechhhhh... dhadaaaakk!

 
Ek aisi behuda, tezi se aati hui tyre ki awaaj aur brakes ki chikh-chikh fiza mein goonji ki mera kaleja muh ko aa gaya. Main jhatke se hosh mein aayi aur apni nam aankhein utha kar bahar ki taraf dekha. Dhabe ke theek samne, dhuen aur mitti ko cheerte hue ek safed rang ki Bolero besahara raftaar se aakar ruki. Uske tyres ki ragad se road par safed dhuan fail gaya. Us gaadi ke darwaze khulte hi achanak aisi aahat hui maano maut khud nanga naach nachne ke liye utar aayi ho.
 
Gale mein gamchhe lapete hue, aankhon mein gussa aur haathon mein lambi-lambi raifelein liye teen-chaar mustande mard Bolero se kood kar bahar aaye. Aur bina ek pal zaya kiye, bina kisi warning ke, unhone us sunsaan dhabe par goliyaan barsa kar dahla diya.
 

Dhad-dhad-dhad-dhad! Dhad-dhad!

 
Andhadhun firing shuru ho gayi. Goliyaan hawa ko cheerte hue dhabe ke deewaron, tables aur wahan rakhi cheezon ko chhedne lagin. Waqt jaise wahin jam gaya. Main us kaali Scorpio ki pichhli seat par baithi ki baithi reh gayi. Mera wajood patthar ban gaya. Saansein seene mein kahin qaid ho kar reh gayin. Meri aankhein phail gayin, aur mera gala andar se khushk ho gaya. Ek aisi ajeeb si jhanjhanahat mere pure jism mein utar aayi,na main cheekh saki, na main hil saki. Main bas ek gungi aur majboor makhlooq ki tarah is qatleaam ko apni aankhon ke samne dekhti reh gayi.
 
Sab kuchh itni tezi se hua ki dimag ko sochne ka mauqa hi nahi mila. Firing ki us pehli round mein hi, jab Pappu dhabe ke table ke paas un bodyguards ke sath khada tha, tabhi ek goli aisi aayi jisne hawa ko chira aur seedha jaakar... seedha Pappu ke seene ke beechon-beech chhed dala.
 
Ek bhayanak jhatka laga Pappu ko. Uski hansi, uska wo gurur, uska wo be-baak andaz, sab kuchh ek second mein thahar gaya. Uske haath mein jo mitti ka kulhad tha, wo achanak uske haathon se chhoot kar zameen par gira aur chhanak ki aawaz ke sath hazaron tukdo mein bikhar gaya, aur uske sath hi garam chai mitti par fail gayi.
 
Aur tab... wo ho gaya jo shayad mere wajood ki sabse khaufnaak tasveer thi. Pappu bina kuchh kahe, bina ek bhi aah bhare, seedha peechhe ki taraf zameen par dhab se gir pada. Uske seene se khoon ka ek fawara sa foot pada, jo uske kurte ko tezi se laal rang mein rangne laga. Wahan zameen par girte hi uska jism ek aakhri jhatka liya aur fir bilkul shaant ho gaya. Uski khuli hui aankhein aasmaan ki taraf dekh rahi thi, jismein ab zindagi ka koi nishaan nahi bacha tha.
 
Mere haath aur pair buri tarah kaanpne lage. Mere apas mein jude hathon mein jo chai ka kulhad tha, wo achanak chhoot kar gir gaya, aur sari chai meri god me aur seat par bikhar gayi. Lekin mujhe uski koi parwah nahi thi. Meri rooh kaanp uthi thi. Pappu... use goli lag gayi thi. Aur shayad... shayad wo mar chuka tha.
 
Ek insaan, jise maine paanch minute pehle thappad mara tha, jo abhi mujhse baat kar raha tha, jo gaadi mein baith kar apni zindagi ki baatein suna raha tha, wo achanak zameen par pada ek lash ban chuka tha. Pandey ji ke baaki bodyguards, jo cover le chuke the, unhone jab tak yeh manzar dekha aur humari gaadi ki taraf daud kar rifles nikalne ke liye haath badhaya, tab tak wo hamlawar apni safed Bolero mein wapas chadh chuke the.
 

Vroooommm... screech!

 
Bolero ne ek bhayanak dhuen ka badal chhoda, aur sarak par rubber ki cheekh chhodte hue andhere mein gayab ho gayi. Sab kuchh itni tezi se hua ki maano koi bhayanak sapna ho, lekin wo khali sadak, wo bikhar hua khoon, aur zameen par pada Pappu ka bejaan jism is baat ka gawah tha ki yeh haqeeqat thi, ek behad siah aur khooni haqeeqat.
 
Mera pura jism paseene se tar-ba-tar tha. Aansuon ka sailab meri aankhon se beh nikla tha, aur gala aisa ghut raha tha maano aakhri saas bhi abhi nikal jayegi. Main Scorpio ki seat par simat kar bas kaanp rahi thi, aur samne wo laal khoon mere dil par hamesha ke liye ek ghaav chhod gaya.
 
Waqt jaise us sunsaan dhaabe par kisi ne rok diya ho. Fiza mein abhi bhi barood ki jalne wali wo tez aur ghinoni boo baaki thi. Dhaabe ke us kacche aangan mein dhuein ka ek halka sa badal tair raha tha, aur uske beechon-beech zameen par pada Pappu ka bejaan jism ek aisi haqeeqat ban chuka tha jise dekh kar rooh kaanp uthe.
 
Mera wajood kaali Scorpio ki pichhli seat par simat kar reh gaya tha. Meri aankhein phati ki phati thi, aur unme aisi bejaan sunnhali utar aayi thi ki na main palak jhapka pa rahi thi aur na hi mere hothon se ek lafz adaa ho raha tha. Main bas fati hui aankhon se us laal daldal ko dekh rahi thi jo dheere-dheere mitti aur Pappu ke jism se nikal kar fail raha tha.
 
Aas-paas ke kuchh log, jo dhabe ke doosre kone par the ya aaspas ke kacche makaanon se nikal kar daude chale aaye the, wo sab wahan jama hone lage the. Unki sargoshiyan, unka shor, aur aapas mein machi bhag-daud ek madham aur gungi aawaz ki tarah mere kaano mein pad rahi thi.
 
Nikal samreen... gaadi se bahar nikal... dekh kya hua hai! Mera zameer aur mera darr mujhse keh raha tha, lekin mere pairon mein jaise lohe ki zanjeer bandh gayi ho. Itni himmat mujh mein baaki nahi thi ki main us kaali Scorpio ka darwaja khol kar zameen par paao rakh sakun aur us khooni manzar ke qareeb ja sakun. Main bas apni jagah par ek patthar ki murat ki tarah baithi rahi, jiska dil seene ke andar dhadakna bhool chuka tha.
 
Kuchh hi lamhon mein, door sadak par ek red-blue flashing light ghoomti hui nazar aayi. Weeu-weeu... weeu-weeu! Ambulance ki wo darawani aur tez aawaz us khamosh raat ke seene ko cheerti hui dhaabe ke bilkul qareeb aa kar ruki. Ambulance ke darwaze khule, aur paramedics ke sath-sath wahan mojud Pandey ji ke bodyguards ne foran aage badh kar Pappu ke us be-jaan, khoon se latpat jism ko uthaya. Uske haath aur sar latak rahe the, aur uska wo kurta poori tarah surkh ho chuka tha. Unhone use utha kar tezi se ambulance ke andar stretcher par lita diya.
 
Main gaadi ke kaale sheeshe se ye sab kuchh ek gunghe tamashe ki tarah dekhti rahi. Mere kaanpte hue haath meri god par pade the, aur ankhon se ansoo ab behna band ho chuke the, bas ek nammi thi jo palkon par jam gayi thi. Tabhi, dhabe ki taraf se tez qadmon ki aawaz aayi.
 
Scorpio ka pichhla darwaja jhatke se khula. Wahan khada wo bodyguard tha, jiske chehre par gusse, darr aur afratafri ka mila hua taassur tha. Uski shirt par jagah-jagah Pappu ka wo laal aur gaadha khoon laga hua tha, jo uske seene ko choone se uske kapdon par lag gaya tha. Uska seena tez-tez upar-neeche ho raha tha, aur wo haafte hue seedha meri taraf jhuka.
 
Usne aawaz mein ek sakht aur ghabraye hue lehje ke sath kaha, "Madam... suniye! Humein foran hospital nikalna pad raha hai, doctor aur security officer ke chakkar mein sabko wahan pahunchna zaroori hai. Aap... aap yahin is dhaabe mein baithi rahiyega." Main ek pal ke liye saans rok kar bas use dekhti reh gayi.
 
Usne apne haath se apna paseena pochha, jisse uske haath ka khoon uske maathe par bhi lag gaya, aur foran aage bolte hue kaha, "Maine... maine Vivaan babu ko call kar diya hai. Wo bas kuchh hi der mein yahan aa rahe hain, aur aapko yahin se pickup kar lenge. Tab tak aap dhaabe ke andar hi baithi rehiyega, bahar bilkul mat nikaliyega!"
 
Uske wo lafz mere kaano mein goonje, lekin dimag mein unka asar hone mein waqt laga. Bina mere kuchh bole, us bodyguard ne foran pichhla darwaja wapas zor se band kar diya aur aage wali seat mein baith gaya. Main utar kar seedha dhaabe me ghus gyi, kadam ladkhada rhe the aur main girti girti bachi. Kuchh hi seconds mein, ambulance aage nikal gayi aur uske peechhe bodyguards kaali scorpio leke nikal gye.
 
Achanak... poora dhaba, wo sadak, aur wo andhera wapas mujhe gher liya. Ab wahan koi nahi tha. Sirf ek-do dhabe ke maalik aur door khade kuchh log the, aur beech sadak par wo sookhta hua khoon tha. Main akeli, us dhaabe ke andar, apne andar chal rahi qayamat ke sath baithi thi. Mera dil ghabra raha tha, kya Vivaan sach mein aayega? Agar aayega bhi to kitni der me aayega? Kya wo mujhe yahan se nikalega?

To Be continued...

[Sameer@86]

Badhiya tha bht khub...ab lagta hai story fir se apne track par arhi h...!

[Naaz]

Acha tha ye update
Bas aage se sambhal kar likhe

[Samreen Shaikh]

Very good writing... It opens a lot of options

[Naaz]

Very good writing... It opens a lot of options

Right ?

[Sameer@86]

Bhai update plse....

[Naaz]

Bhai update plse....

Update me bahot late karta hai

[Sameer@86]

Update me bahot late karta hai

Haa sahi keh rhi ho aap!

[Sameer@86]

Bhai kitna wait Krna padhega...?

[Naaz]

Bhai kitna wait Krna padhega...?

Wait hi to karne me maza kharab ho jata

[Sameer@86]

Wait hi to karne me maza kharab ho jata

Haa yaar sahi keh rhi ho aap!

[Sameer@86]

Update kab ayega bhai....?

[Naaz]

Update kab ayega bhai....?

Kahin bhi reply kiya hai kya is writer ne?

[Sameer@86]

Kahin bhi reply kiya hai kya is writer ne?

Nhi....

[Herotic]

EPISODE 24

Wo dhaba ab ek chhote se pinjre ki tarah tha, jiske andar main, Samreen, apne hi darr, apni bebasi aur is khooni raat ke saaye mein qaid baithi thi. Bahar dhabe ki wo dhool, wo peeli roshni ka jhilmilata hua bulb, aur sadak par sookhne laga hua Pappu ka wo laal khoon, sab mil kar ek aisi tasveer bana rahe the jise dekh kar rooh andar se thandi pad chuki thi. Mera jism kaanp raha tha. Mere daant aapas mein pees rahe the, aur hothon par sukhapan aisa tha maano paani ki ek-ek boond ke liye gala taras gaya ho. 

Itni jaldi... aakhir itna sab kuchh kaise ho gaya? Yahi ek sawal tha jo baar-baar mere zehan ki deewaron se takra raha tha. Subah jab main apne ghar se nikli thi, toh maqsad kitna saada, kitna mamuli tha, bas ek bade ghar ke bete ke birthday par us ghar ki auraton ko apni mehendi se sajana, aur fir apne ghar, apne shauhar ke paas laut aana. Magar kismat ne mere liye kaun sa raasta chun rakha tha? Aaj ek aise khooni manzar, goli-baari aur maut ki daldal mein aa phasi thi, jahan zindagi ki dor bas ek baarik dhaage par latki hui thi.
 
Main wahin kone waali kursi par simat kar baithi thi. Meri aankhein door us aisi sadak par tiki thin, jahan se kisi nayi gaadi ke aane ki ummeed thi. Mera dil ek hi raag alap raha tha, Vivaan... jaldi aa jao... Please, mujhe yahan se le chalo. Lekin us ummeed ke sath hi ek ajeeb sa khauf aur zehar mere dil mein utar raha tha. Kya Vivaan sach mein mujhe lene aayega?
 
Wo ladka... jise main andar se ek psycho, ek sarddil aur beparwah insaan ke roop mein jaan chuki thi. Wo ladka jisne thodi der pehle mujhe un mardon ke beech akela chhodte waqt ek pal ke liye bhi reham nahi khaya tha, jo meri bebasi aur darr ko dekh kar bas ek teekhi, zaleel karne wali muskurahat apne chehre par sajaye khada tha, kya wahi ladka is khooni raat mein, is sunsaan dhabe par mujhe bachane aayega?
 
Mera dil andar se cheekh uthta tha, Nahi! Wo nahi aayega... Wo mujhe yahan tadapne ke liye chhod dega... Shayad wo yahi chahta tha ki main is azaab mein phasun. Lekin phir, ek doosri taraf, ek akeli aurat ki wo laachari thi jo kisi bhi tinke ka sahara dhoondne par majboor hoti hai. Mere paas na koi aur rasta tha, na phone mein battery baaki thi, na kisi aur ka number yaad tha, aur na hi is sunsaan raste par chalne ki himmat thi. Main poori tarah se unke reham-o-karam par thi.
 
Soch-soch kar mera dimaag phatne ko ho raha tha. Main apne dono haathon se apna sar pakad kar baithi thi. Aansoo the ki rukne ka naam hi nahi le rahe the, wo chupchap bina kisi aawaz ke meri aankhon se bahte ja rahe the aur mere gaalon ko bhigote hue meri kurti par gir rahe the.
 
Haaye ***… Maine kya-kya nahi dekh liya is ek din mein? Apne ghar ki pakiza chaar-diwari se nikal kar, Pandey ji ke us azeem-o-shaan ghar ki ghutan, wahan unke zaalim bete aur ghar ke naukar ke sath kiye gaye wo gunah, Vivaan ke sath wo jismani aish aur badnasibi ke kisse, Pappu ka wo ghinona jumla aur fir mera use zordar thappad marna, uske baad us kaali Scorpio mein darr ke maare ghutna, aur ab... ab apni hi aankhon ke samne Pappu ko goli lagte hue aur tadap kar marte hue dekhna!
 
Aisa lag raha tha maano meri zindagi ek aisi horror film ban chuki ho jiska koi ant hi nahi hai. Zameer ka bojh itna bhaari ho chuka tha ki mujhe lag raha tha zameen phat jaye aur main usme sama jaun. Main andar hi andar apne khuda se maafi maang rahi thi, gidgida rahi thi, Ya ***, meri yeh saza maaf karde... Mujhse bohot badi galti ho gayi... Main bhatak gayi thi... Mujhe mere shauhar ke paas, mere ghar wapas pahuncha de...
 
Lekin fiza mein bas sannaata tha, aur door se aane wali hawa ki sargoshi thi jo kisi bhoot ki siski ki tarah lag rahi thi. Main abhi inhi khaufnaak khayalon aur aasuon mein doobi hui thi, tabhi achanak... door sarak par ek gaadi ki headlights ki tez roshni chamki. Us roshni ne us andhere ko cheer diya. Mera dil ek lamhe ke liye zor se uchhal gaya, aur saansein ruk gayin. Kya wo aa gaya? Kya wo Vivaan hai?
 
Main aur zyada dar kar pichhe aur simat gayi, aur apni fati hui aankhon se us aane wali gaadi ki taraf dekhne lagi, yeh jaane bagair ki wo gaadi mere liye aazadi ka rasta ban kar aa rahi hai, ya phir kisi aur nayi qayamat ka paigam lekar.
 
Sadak par chamakti hui wo headlights abhi door hi thin, lekin unki roshni ne mere andar darr aur ummeed ka ek ajeeb sa toofan khada kar diya tha. Aur agle hi lamhe... fiza ko cheerte hue ek behuda tez poww-poww… ki horn ki aawaz goonji.
 
Wo gaadi poori raftaar mein daudti hui aayi aur seedha dhabe ke saamne dakhil hui. Skrrrrrrt! Ek khatarnak drift leti hui wo car dhool aur dhuein ka ek bada sa bawandar udati hui theek dhaabe ke saamne aakar achanak ruki. Gaadi rukte hi uske headlamps ek jhatke ke sath bujh gaye, aur chaaron taraf ek gehri, daagdar khamoshi phail gayi.
 
Mera dil zor se dharak raha tha. Maine fati hui aankhon se us gaadi ke driver side ka door khulte dekha. Andar se ek saaya nikal kar baahar aaya. Wo Vivaan hi tha. Wahi zaalim ladka, jise main abhi tak ek psycho, ek patthar dil aur beparwah insaan samajh rahi thi. Lekin is khooni raat ke is siah andhere mein, use apni aankhon ke samne dekh kar achanak mere andar ek ajeeb si, thandi tasalli ki lahar daud gayi. Jaise dubte hue ko tinke ka sahara mil jata hai, wahi bebas sukoon mere seene mein utar aaya. Main palak jhapkaaye bina, ektak bas use hi dekhe ja rahi thi.
 
Vivaan ne bahar aate hi meri taraf ek baar bhi nahi dekha aur na hi uski nigaahon ne mujhe dhundhne ki ek bhi koshish ki. Uska poora dhyaan kisi aur hi cheez par tha. Usne apne kadam aage badhaye aur seedha wahin ja khada hua, jahan kuchh der pehle Pappu ka khoon gira tha aur ab dhool bhari zameen par ek gahra, kala-laal dhabba ban chuka tha.
 
Wo wahan ruka. Vivaan ne niche zameen par sookh rahe us khoon ki taraf dekha. Uske chehre ke taassur itne sard aur behis the ki unhe padhna namumkin tha. Wo thoda sa aage jhuka, aur achanak, jaise uske pairon ne uska saath chhod diya ho, wo ladkhada gaya aur wahi ghutno ke bal zameen par baith gaya.
 
Ye manzar dekh kar meri saas gale mein atak gayi. Pehle toh main apni jagah se hil bhi nahi saki, lekin phir ek anjaani si kashish ya majboori ne mere pairon ko hila diya. Maine kaanpte hue kadmo ke sath dheere-dheere aage badhti hui dhaabe se baahar nikal aayi.
 
Hawa ka ek thanda jhonka mere pasine se bheega chehra cheer kar nikal gaya. Main chalte-chalte seedha Vivaan ke paas aa kar khadi ho gayi. Mere kadam wahi thahar gaye. Mera gala poori tarah khushk ho chuka tha, aur mere honton se ek lafz bhi nikalne ki taaqat nahi bachi thi. Main bas wahi khadi, use niche zameen par baitha hua dekh rahi thi.
 
Vivaan ne ek pal ke liye bhi apna sar upar nahi uthaya. Wo bas patthar ki tarah wahi baitha, us khoon ki taraf dekh raha tha. Uski ankhon mein na koi darr tha, na koi aansoo, aur na hi koi pachhtawa, bas ek ajeeb sa khamosh sannata tha jo uske pure wajood par chhaya hua tha.
 
Aur tabhi, ek ajeeb harkat hui. Usne bina ek bhi lafz bole, dheere se apna haath apni pant ki pocket mein dala. Usne pocket se ek cigarette ka packet aur ek metal ka lighter nikala. bade aaram se, jaise kuchh hua hi na ho, usne packet se ek cigarette nikaali aur use apne honton ke beech daba liya.
 
Katchh... Lighter ki aag jali aur andhere mein ek chhota sa shola roshan hua. Usne cigarette ko aag lagayi, lighter wahi band karke wapas pocket mein daal liya. Uske baad, usne ek lamba aur gehra kash mara. Cigarette ka wo sira andhere mein lal rang ki tarah chamka, aur Vivaan ne dhuan dheere-dheere hawa mein chhod diya. Wo dhuan us peeli roshni ke beech ghumne laga jis roshni ke saaye me ek khoon ho chuka tha, aur main wahi khadi, uski is behis harkat ko bas sannaate mein dekhti reh gayi.
 
Cigarette ka wo dhuan dheere-dheere hawa mein ghul raha tha, lekin uske jism se aane wali khamoshi usse bhi zyada ghutan-zada thi. Main wahi, us khoon se sani zameen ke qareeb khadi thi, aur mera dil is darr se baith raha tha ki is ladke ka agla qadam kya hoga.
 
Maine ise pehle kabhi itna shaant, itna beharkat nahi dekha tha. Vivaan hamesha ya toh ek tanzhiya muskurahat apne chehre par rakhta tha, ya ek beparwah attitude ke sath har cheez ko mazaak bana deta tha. Lekin abhi... abhi is sannate mein uska yeh roop dekh kar meri rooh kaanp rahi thi. Aisa lag raha tha maano wo zinda insaan nahi, balki is khooni raat ka koi khamosh paida hua saya ho. Mera gala andar se puri tarah khushk ho chuka tha. Saansein seene mein phansi hui thin.
 
Maine thodi si himmat jutaayi, apne kaanpte hue honton ko aapas mein ragada, aur apni ladkhadati hui, dabi-dabi aawaz mein use pukaara, "Vi… Vivaan..." Meri aawaz us khamoshi mein goonji. Usne ek lamhe ke liye bhi foran jawab nahi diya. Woh waise hi zameen ke qareeb baitha raha, aur phir, ek aahista lekin bhaaripan liye hue apni gardan ko upar uthaya. Usne apni nazrein seedha meri taraf taraf kin.
 
Jaise hi uski aankhon ne meri aankhon ko chua, mere jism mein ek sardaari lahar daud gayi. Uski wo aankhein... aam taur par jo sard aur patthar jaisi hoti thin, abhi bilkul alag thin. Wo poori tarah surkh ho chuki thin, laal, jaise unme khoon utar aaya ho. Aur unke beechon-beech, paani ki ek halki si nami, kuchh aansoo the jo palkon ke kinaron par ruke hue the, lekin wo unhe girne nahi de raha tha. Uski ankhon ka wo dard, wo ghuma hua gussa aur ajeeb sa aalam dekh kar main aur zyada sehem si gayi. Main wahan se hil bhi nahi saki, bas ek kaanpte hue parinde ki tarah use dekh rahi thi.
 
Vivaan ne ektak, bina palak jhapkaye, meri aankhon mein dekha. Uski nazron ki wo gehrai aisi thi maano wo meri rooh ke andar tak jhaank raha ho, mere saare gunaahon, meri saari kamzori aur mere is waqt ke darr ko ek hi pal mein padh raha ho. Aur usne wahi dekhte hue, apne honton ke beech dabi cigarette ko khicha, aur ek aur lamba, gehra kash mara.
 
Cigarette ki chingari ek baar fir chamki, aur usne dhuan mere bilkul chehre ke samne, hawa mein chhod diya. Wo dhuan hamare beech ki doori ko cheerte hue mere gaalon aur naak se takraya. Uske baad, bina ek bhi lafz bole wo aahista se, apne kadam uthakar seedha khada ho gaya.
 
Jaise hi wo mere bilkul saamne khada hua, meri jaan hi jaise nikalne lagi. Wo mujhse itna qareeb tha ki uske jism ki garmahat aur uske andar uth rahe toofan ki khushboo mere qareeb aa gayi thi. Mera dil chaha ki main behosh ho jaun, ya zameen mein sama jaun, kyunki us waqt uski aankhon ki wo surkhi aur wo khamoshi kisi bade khatre ka aelan lag rahi thi.
 
Vivaan mere bilkul samne khada tha, itna qareeb ki uske seene ki uthal-puthal aur uske saanson ki garm aahat mere chehre par mehsoos ho rahi thi. Uski wo surkh, laal aankhein ektak bas meri aankhon mein gadi hui thin. Main aisi halat mein thi ki agar koi mujhe chhu bhi leta, toh shayad main dhool ki tarah bikhar kar gir padti. Mera poora wajood darr ke maare tharr-tharr kaanp raha tha. Ek ajeeb sa anjaana khauf mere dil aur dimaag ko is tarah jakad chuka tha ki saans lena bhi dushwaar ho gaya tha. Main bas ek murat bani, apni palke jhukane se bhi qasir, us psycho ladke ki unn siah aur dardnak aankhon mein dekhe ja rahi thi.
 
Tabhi, usne ek aur ajeeb harkat ki. Usne ek naya kash lene ke andaz mein apne honton ko khola aur gehra kash liya, bina ek pal ke liye bhi apni nazrein meri aankhon se hataye, jaise wo meri rooh ke andar tak utar kar mere saare chhupe hue raaz, mere darr aur meri majboori ko noch lena chahta ho. Aur phir, usne apne honton ke beech se wo dhuan nikaal kar seedha mere chehre par, meri naak aur aankhon ke qareeb chhod diya.
 
Wo dhuan mere chehre ko cheerte hue guzar gaya, aur uske turant baad, uske jabde is qadar sakht hue ki uske gaalon ki haddiyan ubhar aayin. Usne apne danton ko aapas mein peeste hue, ek aisi ghinauni, gandi aur zillat se bhari hui aawaz mein wo jumla kaha jisne mere jism ka ek-ek lomkaanta khada kar diya, aur mere andar ki duniya ko jala kar rakh diya.
 
Uske munh se nikla wo ek-ek lafz kisi dahakte hue lohe ki tarah mere kaano aur dil par daag gaya, "Tu kya us waqt apni gaand marwa rahi thi... do kaudi ki raand?" Aisa laga maano kisi ne achanak mere sar par ek bhari patthar de maara ho. Mera jism, jo pehle se hi darr ke maare kaanp raha tha, us ek lafz ko sunte hi wahi patthar ban gaya, ekdum jam sa gaya. Main saans lena bhool gayi. Mera gala andar se ekdam khushk ho gaya, aur dimag mein ek bhayanak, sannata chha gaya.
 
Ye kya sun liya tha maine? Ek mard, jiske sath meri ek alag hi ajeeb aur gunah-gar kahani judi thi, wo mujhe sareaam is tarah ki behuda, gandi aur sabse zaleel gaali de raha tha? Ek aisi aurat ko, jo nikaah shuda hai, jo samaj ke daayre mein ek izzatdar ghar se talluq rakhti hai, jiske apne zameer ka bojh pehle hi use qatl kar raha tha, use ek ghinoni zabaan mein pukaara gaya tha!
 
Mujhe is baat se jitna bura laga, use lafzon mein bayaan karna namumkin tha. Ek to maine itna bhayanak haadsa apni un aankhon ke saamne dekh liya jisne aaj tak ek maamuli si cheenti ko kuchalna aur use dard me tadapta hua dekhna bhi mehsoos nhi kiya tha, na hi maine kisi janwar ki qurbani ko aajtak apni nangi aankhon se hota dekha tha, aur aise me kisi aise mard ka sareaam khoon ho jaana jise abhi main kuchh der pehle se jaan chuki thi, itna gehra ghaao mere liye bardasht karne laayak nhi tha, aur upar se is ladke ne mujhpe ye jumla chhod kar shayad ek sawaal utha diya tha,  wo dard sirf kaano tak mehdood nahi tha, balki wo seedha meri rooh ke andar utar gaya.
 
Achanak mujhe apne wajood par, apni saanson par, aur apni is zindagani par aisi ghinn aane lagi ki mera jee chaha ki main wahi zameen par gir padun aur zameen phat jaye aur main usme hamesha ke liye dafan ho jaun. Mera sara guroor, meri bachi-khuchi izzat, aur meri wo ghairat jo abhi tak ek chote se tinke ki tarah bachi thi, us ek lafz ne pal bhar mein raakh kar di. “do kaudi ki raand?”... aur wo ganda lafz.
 
Kya meri auqaat sirf itni hi reh gayi thi? Kya ek aurat jab apni zindagi mein ek baar behak jaati hai, jab wo apne wajood se majboor ho kar ya kisi behkaawe mein aakar koi gunah kar baithti hai, toh kya duniya aur in mardon ki nazron mein uski izzat, uski aabru aur uski insaniyat ki koi keemat hi baaki nahi rehti? Kya har mard, jab mauqa mile, use kisi pair ki dhool ya kisi bazaar ki cheez ki tarah samajh kar kuchh bhi keh sakta hai?
 
Mera dil andar se cheekha, Nahi! Main aisi nahi hoon! Lekin wo cheekh mere gale ke andar hi ghut kar reh gayi. Meri aankhon se aasuon ka ek sailab achanak umad pada, jo bina kisi aawaz ke mere gaalon par behne laga. Wo aansoo darr ke nahi the, balki us bepanah zillat, us behis beizzati aur us rooh ko noch lene wale dard ke the jo Vivaan ke un gande lafzon ne mere andar paida kar diye the.
 
Mera dil kiya ki main apne dono kaan band kar lun, ya apna chehra chhupa lun. Main wahi khadi, pathar ki murat bani, apne aasuon mein doobi hui, aur us zaalim ki aankhon me dekhti hui khud ko duniya ki sabse bebas aur gandi aurat mehsoos kar rahi thi. Vivaan ke chehre par abhi bhi wo siah, sard aur pathar jaisi beparwahi thi, jo yeh bata rahi thi ki uske liye mere is dard, is zillat aur is rooh ke qatal ki koi ahmiyat nahi hai.

To Be Continued...

[Herotic]

EPISODE 25

Maine abhi apne andar uthte hue us dard, us zillat aur us bepanah azaab ke samandar ko sameta hi tha ki Vivaan ke wajood se ek aisi achanak bijli si koodi. Uske chehre ke wo siah aur beparwah taassur ek lamhe mein badal gaye. Uski aakhein, jo pehle se hi surkh thi, unme ek aisi qatilana aur shaitan numa chamak uth khadi hui, maano wo is waqt duniya ki har nafrat aur gusse ko mujh par utaar dena chahta ho. 

Bina ek pal soche, bina kisi rehem ke usne apna majboot aur maansal haath aage badhaya. Aur agle hi lamhe uske sakht, patthar jaise ungliyon ne aage badhakar seedha mera nazuk gala apni giraft mein le liya.
 
Mera gala uske un majboot hathon ke beech achanak kas gaya. Uski ungliyan mere saanson ke raste par ek aisi aahani deewar ban kar khadi ho gayin, ki meri ek hi saas seene ke andar hi ghut kar reh gayi. Mera wajood, jo pehle se hi kaanp raha tha, us achanak aur bedard hamle se hawa mein jaise jhool gaya.
 
Uski giraft itni sakht thi, itni bereham thi ki meri gardan ki nashein khinch gayin. Mera gala andar se dabne laga, aur mujhe laga ki bas... ab yehi aakhri lamha hai. Mera dam ukhadne laga. Aankhon ke aage andhera sa chhaane laga, aur zameen mere pairon ke niche se khisakne lagi.
 
Lekin us maut ke qareeb wale aalam mein bhi, meri aankhein khuli ki khuli reh gayin. Maine apne kaanpte, bejaan se haath uthakar foran Vivaan ke us majboot aur garm haath ki kalaai ko pakad liya. Main uske un baazuon ko hatane ki nakam koshish karne lagi, lekin uske aahani hathon ke samne meri taaqat ek tinke ke barabar bhi nahi thi.
 
Main saans lene ke liye tadap rahi thi, aur meri un nam, phati hui aankhon mein aasuon ka sailaab umad pada tha. Main apni unhi aansuon se bhari hui aankhon ko upar karke, ektak seedha Vivaan ki un surkh, pathar bani aankhon mein dekh rahi thi. Meri wo nazrein ek aakhri, bebas fariyad thi, ek aisi ummeed jo us zaalim ke dil mein thodi si bhi shafqat jagane ki koshish kar rahi thi.
 
Dekh rahe ho na tum? Main mar rahi hoon... tum meri jaan nikaal rhe ho, Vivaan! meri wo be-zubaan cheekh uski aankhon se keh rahi thi. Lekin us zaalim ke chehre par... reham ka ek qatra tak nahi tha.
 
Wo apna sara gussa, sara zehar, aur is khooni raat ka pura qahar seedha mere gale par nikaal raha tha. Uski saansein tez thi, uska seena upar-neeche ho raha tha, aur uska wo gathila haath aur zyada kasne laga. Haye ***! Us waqt uska wo gussa itna bhayanak lag raha tha maano wo mujhe zinda zameen mein gaad dena chahta ho. Wo apne andar ke saare azaab, saari nafrat aur us khooni raat ke trauma ka badla mere is naazuk wajood se le raha tha.
 
Mera dum ghut raha tha. Hoth khule hue the, aur zuban se ek be-aawaz siski nikalne ki koshish kar rahi thi. Wahan dhabe ki us peeli roshni mein, andhere aur sookhte hue khoon ke beech, ek aurat ki zindagi us aahani giraft ke beech sisak rahi thi, aur samne khada wo mard apni hi nafrat ki aag mein jal raha tha. Main bas apni saanson ki aakhri dor ko pakde hue, uski unhi siah aankhon mein dekhti chali gayi, jab tak ki mera wajood us giraft ke aage poori tarah bebas nahi ho gaya.
 
Tabhi, mere gale par kasne wali wo aahani giraft, jo kuchh lamhe pehle meri aakhri saas bhi chheen lene par tuli hui thi, wahan fiza mein ek ajeeb sa thumraav aa gaya.
 
Meri aankhon se behte hue wo garm aansoo, tap-tap kar ke seedha Vivaan ke usi majboot aur maansal haath par gir rahe the jo mere gale ko jakde hue the. Un aansuon ki nami ne shayad uske patthar bane wajood mein kahin koi halki si darar daal di ho. Main apni unhi phati hui, nam aankhon se, bina apni nazrein hataye, bas ektak uski siah aur surkh aankhon mein dekh rahi thi. Aur mere unhi kaanpte hothon se, badi mushkil se ek be-jaan fariyad nikal saki.
 
"Vivaan... please..." Wo ek chota sa lafz tha, ek aisi ghabrayi hui iltija thi jo us zaalim ki giraft ko chunauti dene ke bajaye uske aage ghutne tek chuki thi. Aur jaise hi wo aawaz uske kaano mein padi, pata nahi achanak use kya hua. Uska wo hath, jo mere gale par kisi pighle hue lohe ki zanjeer ki tarah kasa hua tha, ek hi jhatke mein dheela pad gaya. Jaise kisi ne uski poori taaqat ek hi lamhe mein khench li ho, usne apna haath foran mere gale se hata liya aur pichhe ki taraf do kadam ladkhada kar hat gaya.
 
Mera gala jo saanson ke liye taras raha tha, achanak khula toh ek tezi se hawa mere andar utri. Main wahi khadi ho gayi, apne dono haathon se apna gala sahlate hue, tez-tez haafne lagi. Mera seena buri tarah upar-neech ho raha tha, aur pairon ke niche zameen abhi bhi dol rahi thi.
 
Lekin jab maine samne dekha, toh mera dil ek pal ke liye aur bhi zyada ghabra gaya. Vivaan ki halat achanak badal chuki thi. Wo jo abhi tak ek patthar ki tarah sakht aur be-reham khada tha, ab wo buri tarah haaf raha tha. Uske maathe aur gardan par paseene ki moti-moti boondein chamakne lagi thin. Uski saansein itni tez aur choti ho chukin thin maano usne khud koi lamba daud ka safar tay kiya ho, ya uske andar koi ajeeb sa panic attack uth pada ho. Uski wo surkh aankhon mein ab gusse ki jagah ek ajeeb sa khalipan, thakaan aur ghabrahat tair rahi thi.
 
Use aisi haalat mein, itna behal aur toota hua dekh kar, achanak mera ji ghabrane laga. Mera dil andar se ek ajeeb si bechaini aur dard se bhar gaya. Yeh zaalim ladka, jisne abhi-abhi mujhe itni gandi gaali di thi, jisne meri izzat ko taar-taar kiya tha, aur jo mere gale ko ghot kar mujhe maut ke kareeb le gaya tha, ek aisa shakhs jo sach mein meri zara bhi izzat nahi karta tha, jo mujhe ek pal mein beizzat kar ke rula sakta tha.
 
Lekin uske bawajood... use is tarah paseene mein dooba hua, achanak se tuta hua aur be-jaan halat mein dekh kar, mere andar ki aurat ka wo kamzor dil pighalne laga. Mera darr dheere-dheere ek ajeeb si fikar aur bechaini mein badalne laga. Haaye *** ise kya ho gaya hai? Yeh is tarah kyun kaanp raha hai? Ab main kya karun?
 
Main khud apne gale par haath rakhe, haafte hue bas use dekhe ja rahi thi. Mera wajood abhi bhi darr se tharr-tharr kaanp raha tha, lekin uske sath hi ek ajeeb si khichav thi, ki main is zaalim ladke ko is halat mein akele kaise chhod dun. Wahan dhabe ki us andheri aur khooni fiza mein, hum dono ek dusre ke saamne khade the, jahan nafrat aur darr ki us deewar ke beech ek ajeeb aur khaufnaak sannata saans le raha tha.
 
Fiza mein tairta hua wo khauf, jo abhi tak hamare beech ek zeharile saaye ki tarah qaayam tha, achanak ek ajeeb aur dard-naak kashmakash mein badal chuka tha. Vivaan ki wo haalat, wo toot-fhoot, wo maathe par chalakte paseene ki boondein, aur uska be-hisaab haafna, mere andar ke saare darr aur gusse ko ek pal mein mita chuka tha. Uski wo bebasi mujhse dekhi nahi ja rahi thi.
 
Bina ek lamha zaya kiye, main aage badhi. Maine apne dono kaampte hue hathon se uske mazboot kandhe ko mazbooti se pakda aur ek halka sa jhatka dete hue uske chehre ko apni taraf kiya. "Vi… vivaan... tumhe kya ho raha hai? Dekho meri taraf! Kya ho gaya hai tumhe?" Maine fikar aur ghabrahat se bhari aawaz mein puchha, aur uske thande pad rahe gaalon ko apne kaampte hue hathon se thapthapaya.
 
Lekin jaise hi meri nazrein uske chehre par padin, aur maine uski aankhon mein dekha... mera kaleja ek dam se dhak se reh gaya. Mera poora wajood sateh par sunn pad gaya. Wahi kathor, zaalim aur patthar dil ladka, jiske andar nafrat aur gusse ke alawa kuchh nahi dikhta, abhi uski unhi surkh aankhon se aansuon ka ek sailab beh raha tha. Be-aawaz, chupchap aansoo uske gaalon par phisal rahe the. Uski wo rooh ko cheer dene wali siski, jo wo apne andar hi andar ghont raha tha, mere seene ko cheer gayi. Sach me mera kalega fatne laga vivaan ko rota dekh kar. Bhale hi is shaitaan ne aaj mere saath kitna kuchh kiya… par fir bhi ek lagao sa mehsoos hone laga mujhe is zaalim se.
 
Ek aisi aag mere andar lagi ki mera dil mom ki tarah pighal gaya. Wo ladka, jisne mujhe abhi-abhi zaleel kiya tha, jisne mere gale ko kas kar mujhe maut ke kareeb pahuncha diya tha, use is halat mein, be-sahara aur andar se toota hue dekh kar mera gussa kahan gayab ho gaya, mujhe khud pata nahi chala.
 
Main foran palati. Dhabe ke us chhote se counter par wo boodha dhaba-wala darr ke maare ek kone mein simat kar baitha tha. Maine apni poori taaqat se, ek cheekh-numa aawaz mein use pukaara "Are suniye babaji! Jaldi se paani lekar aaiye na… zara jaldi kijiye!"
 
Darr ke maare wo boodha foran lapka aur ek glass paani ek chhote se jug se bhar kar le aaya. Main foran uske paas gayi, glass chhin liya aur bhagti hui wapas Vivaan ke paas aayi jo abhi bhi wahi ladkhadata hua khada tha. "Lo vivaan... paani piyo... kuchh nhi hua sab theek hai…" maine glass uske honton ke kareeb kiya.
 
Lekin Vivaan ne apni zidd aur purani fitrat nahi chhodi. Usne apna sar jhatak diya aur aisi halat mein bhi apne nakhre dikhate hue pichhe hatne laga, maano use kisi ki fikar ya sahare ki koi zaroorat na ho. Usne aawaz mein thodi si akad lane ki koshish karte hue kaha, "Dimaag kharab mat karo mera... mujhe nahi peena... hatao ise."
 
Mera gussa, jo fikar ke niche daba tha, achanak ek baar fir ubla. Lekin is baar wo gussa nafrat ka nahi, balki ek haqdaar fikar aur daant ka tha. Maine apni aawaz ko sakht kiya, apni bhawein sikaudi, aur ek zordar daant lagate hue us par chilla padi.
 
"Chup ekdm… bilkul chup! Ekdum nakhre baazi band karo apni! Drama laga rakkha hai is ladke ne… Ankhon mein aansoo bharke marne ki halat bana rakhi hai aur yahan nakhre dikha rahe ho? Chupchap aankh band karke paani piyo, warna sach keh rahi hoon, is baar mera haath chhut jayega! Chupchap muh kholo apna!"
 
Meri us sakht, daant se bhari hui aawaz aur meri ankhon mein jhalakti fikar ka asar hua. Vivaan ne pehli baar ek aise bacche ki tarah meri taraf dekha jo apni zidd haar chuka ho. Usne koi lafz nahi bola, bas apni nam aankhon se meri taraf dekha, aur aahista se apne honthon ko khol diya.
 
Maine apne kaampte hathon se wo glass uske honthon se lagaya, aur usne ek hi saans mein saara paani pee liya. Paani peete hi uska gala khula, usne ek lambi saans li, aur apna ek haath apne maathe par rakh liya. Main wahi khadi rahi, glass ko wahi pakde hue, aur apne hi andar uth rahe us ajeeb tufaan ko mehsus karne lagi, jahan nafrat ki zameen par fikar aur dard ka ek naya aur ghor andhera phool khil raha tha.
 
Paani ka wo glass peene ke baad Vivaan ke chehre par jo ek murjhai hui si bejaan halat thi, wo dheere-dheere kam hone lagi thi. Uski saansein jo kuchh lamhe pehle ek toofan ki tarah chal rahi thin, ab aahista-aahista apni aam raftaar par laut rahi thin. Uski aankhon mein jo be-hisaab aansoo aur darr ka samandar umad raha tha, wo bhi ab thoda thamne laga tha.
 
Use is tarah thoda normal aur sambhalte hue dekh kar, meri jaan mein jaan aayi. Aisa laga maano mere seene par se koi bhaari patthar hata liya gaya ho. Wahi khada wo boodha dhaba-wala darr aur sahme hue andaz mein hum dono ko dekh raha tha. Maine bina ek pal gawaye, glass uski taraf badhaya aur kaha, "Yeh lijiye apna glass." Wo boodha foran kaanpte hue haathon se glass pakad kar wapas apne counter ki taraf bhaag gaya.
 
Ab wahi sunsaan rasta aur raat ka sannaata bacha tha. Main foran aage badhi. Maine apne dono haathon se Vivaan ki baazu ko pakda, use sahara diya, aur us andhere mein chalate hue wapas usi car ke paas le aayi jisse wo thodi der pehle aaya tha. Maine driver side ka darwaja khola aur use bade pyaar aur aahista se pakad kar driver seat par baitha diya.
 
Wo chupchap, bina kisi zidd ke, ek thake hue musafir ki tarah seat par dhas sa gaya. Uski aankhein abhi bhi gaadi ke dashboard par tiki thin. Main foran ghum kar aayi, co-driver wali front seat ka darwaja khola, aur uske bilkul bagal mein aakar baith gayi.
 
Gaadi ke andar baithte hi Vivaan ne bina kuchh soche, apni kaanpte hue ungliyon se ignition key ko ghumaya aur engine start karne ki koshish ki. Uska ek haath abhi bhi steering par thar-thara raha tha, aur wo bina apni halat ki parwah kiye gaadi ko aage badhane ki firaaq mein tha. Lekin jaise hi usne gear par haath rakha, maine foran jhatke se apna haath badhaya aur uske us kaanpte hue haath ko apne haathon mein kas kar pakad liya.
 
Mera dil ek baar phir tezi se dharak utha, aur is baar gusse ke sath-sath usme ek bepanah fikar aur haq-daari shamil thi. Maine apni aankhon mein gussa aur bhawein sikaudte hue us par ek aur zordar daant laga di.
 
"Dimag kharab ho gaya hai kya tumhara? Halat dekhi hai apni? Aise kaanpte hue haathon aur toote hue jism ke sath drive karne chale ho! Kahi raste mein gaadi kheenchi aur seedha kisi ped ya khadhe mein ghusa di, toh kya hoga? Bilkul band karo ye nautanki aur seedhe baitho chupchap!" Meri wo sakht, fikar se bhari hui daant us khamosh car ke cabin mein goonj uthi.
 
Vivaan ne apna sar dheere se upar uthaya aur ektak meri aankhon mein dekha. Uski un surkh aur thaki hui aankhon mein ab gusse ka namo-nishan nahi tha, balki ek ajeeb sa ajeeb-o-gareeb khali-pan aur herani thi, maano use samajh hi na aa raha ho ki ek aurat, jise usne paanch minute pehle gale se ghont kar maarne ki koshish ki thi, jise itni gandi gaali di thi, wahi aurat ab uski is tarah jaan ki fikar kyun kar rahi hai.
 
Main khud hairan thi apne is rawaiye par. Pata nahi kyun... mujhe iski fikar hone lagi thi. Zindagi mein pehli baar, ek aise zaalim aur pathar-dil insaan ke liye mere andar ek aisi bechaini jaag uthi thi jo kisi apnon ke liye hoti hai. Kisi gair *** ke mard ke liye, jisne mere saath itna galat kiya hai, main khud se hairaan thi. Haalanki main ye achhi tarah janti thi ki yeh ladka na meri izzat karta hai, na hi iske dil mein mere liye koi achhi jagah hai. Lekin iske bawajood, us waqt uski maut ya uski kharab halat ka khayal mere pure wajood ko kaanpne par majboor kar raha tha.
 
Maine uska haath abhi bhi apne haathon mein jakda hua tha. Uski ungliyan thandi pad rahi thin. Maine apni aawaz ko thoda naram karte hue, lekin hukumat wale andaz mein kaha, "Tum apni jagah se hiloge bhi nahi vivaan… Chabi mujhe do... ya phir chupchap yahi baitho, wo sab hospital pahuch bhi gye honge… please tum shaant raho bas!"
 
Wo bas chupchap baitha raha, kuchh nahi bola, aur meri unhi ankhon mein dekhta raha, jahan gusse ke peechhe chhupi hui fikar saaf nazar aa rahi thi.
 
Aisehi kuchh der jo sannata hamare beech fikar aur ek anjaani si narm-dili ki dor se bandha tha, wo achanak ek baar fir toofani hawaon ki zad mein aa gaya. Vivaan, jo abhi tak ek thake hue aur toote hue mard ki tarah chupchap baitha tha, uske chehre ke taassur ek second mein badal gaye. Uske andar dabi hui aag, jo dard aur aansuon ke parde ke peechhe chhupi thi, achanak ek bhayankar jhaad ki tarah ubhar aayi. Uski saansein fir se tez ho gayin, aur usne apne jabde ko is qadar kas liya ki uske gaalon ki nasein khinch gayin.
 
Wo achanak aage ki taraf jhuka, aur uske honthon se behuda, gandagi aur nafrat se bhari aawaz nikalne lagi. "Jisne bhi... jisne bhi yeh sab karwaya hai na, kasam se kehta hoon, uski ma chod dunga!" Vivaan gusse se dahada, aur gaadi ke dashboard par apna mukka de mara. "Madarchod... saale kutton ne mujhe jaan se badh ke maanne wale mere chacha ko maar diya!... Ek-ek ko dhoond kar zameen mein gaadunga behnchod!"
 
Uski wo gaaliyan, wo chillaahat aur wo aag itni achanak thi ki mera seene ka dhak-dhak karta dil ek baar fir darr se kaanp utha. Main toh abhi tak uski fikar aur dard ke asar se bahar bhi nahi aai thi, aur yahan wo ek nayi qayamat ka elaan kar raha tha.
 
Lekin uske gusse ka rukh achanak badal gaya. Usne apni un surkh, gusse se bhari hui aankhon ko meri taraf ghumaaya. Uski nazron mein ab fikar ka namo-nishan nahi tha, balki ek aisi aag thi jo mujhe zinda jala dena chahti thi. Usne apni ungli utha kar seedha meri aankhon ke samne kar di, aur aisi ghinoni aur zaleel baatein shuru kar din jinhone meri rooh ko andar se noch kar rakh diya.
 
"Aur in sab ki jad tu hai madharchod!" Vivaan chillaaya, aur uski aawaz mein ek zehrila tanz tha. "Yeh sab teri hi wajah se hua hai, haramzaadi! Tu... tu aur teri manhoosiyat!" Mera wajood sunn pad gaya. "Main?" mere honthon se bas itna hi nikal saka. "Haan, tu behn ki lodi!" wo aur zyada qareeb aate hue dahada. "Subah jab tu mere ghar mein aayi, tabhi se bad-shaguni shuru ho gayi thi. Aur abhi... abhi din dhalte hi tune kya kiya? Tune wahi ghar pe Pappu chacha ko sare aam sabke saamne thappad mara tha na? Tune unko zaleel kiya tha, unki mardangi aur unke character par haath dala tha!"
 
Uski har ek baat ek teekhe khanjar ki tarah mere seene mein utar rahi thi. Main bas uski aankhon me apne faili hui nam aankhon se dekh rhi thi. Main kaanpte hothon se bas itna hi keh saki, "Vivaan... maine bas wo kiya jo kisi bhi aurat ko...", "Bakk mat!" usne meri baat beech mein hi kaat di, aur aisi gandi aur kaali zabaan ka istemal kiya jise sun kar ek aurat ka sar sharm se zameen mein gaad jaye.
 
Wo mujhe ek ke baad ek aisi gaaliyan bakne laga jo kisi besharam se besharam mard ke munh se bhi shobha na dein. Usne mujhe kaali zabaan wali, bad-nasib aur bad-chalan aurat kehna shuru kar diya. "Tu ek aisi ghatiya aurat hai Samreen, jiske pair jahan padte hain wahan laashein bichh jaati hain!" Vivaan ki zabaan zehar ugal rahi thi. "Ek number ki bad-chalan aurat hai tu! Tere andar zara bhi sharm-o-haya nahi hai… Aur sirf itna hi nahi... tu toh ek dayan hai, dayan!"
 
Wo lafz gaadi ke us chote se cabin mein kisi zehrile dhuen ki tarah fail gaye. Mera dam ghutne laga. Main wahi co-driver seat par ekdm sunn hokar baithi rahi. Mere kaanpe hue hoth khule ke khule reh gaye, aur aankhon se ansoo ek baar fir sailab ki tarah behte hue mere gaalon ko bhigone lage.
 
Yeh wahi ladka tha jiske saath maine na jaane kitna bada gunaah kiya tha, apne shauhar ke alawa ye pehla aisa mard tha jiske saath maine jismani rishte bana liye the, wo bhi gair *** ke hone ke bawajood, aur abhi jiske aansoo dekh kar mera dil pighal gaya tha, aur ab wahi ladka mujhe is duniya ki sabse gandi, sabse zaleel aur giri hui aurat saabit karne par tula hua tha. Usne mujhe maut ke us manzar ki saari zimmedari mere sar par daal di, jaise us goli ka chalna, us khoon ka behna sab meri hi kisi manhoosiyat ka nishaan ho.
 
Mera dil andar se cheekh utha, Kya sach mein main itni buri hoon? Kya mera hona hi ek gunaah hai? Haaye *** kya ye main jahannum me aa chuki hun? kya mere gunaahon ki saza mujhe milne lagi hai? Main apna chehra apne dono hathon se chhupa kar, fati hui aawaz mein wahin sisak-sisak kar rone lagi. Aur Vivaan abhi bhi gaadi ke steering par haath maarte hue gusse mein badbad raha tha, uske lafzon ki aag mere wajood ki raakh uda rahi thi.

To Be Continued...

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EPISODE 26

Vivaan ke honthon se nikle hue wo zehrile aur noch lene wale lafz abhi bhi us gaadi ki fiza mein gunguna rahe the, aur main apne dono hathon se apna chehra chhupae, sisak-sisak kar ro rahi thi. Mera poora wajood us zillat aur darr ke bojh se tut chuka tha. Lekin agle hi lamhe, usne bina ek pal ka bhi waqt zaya kiye, ignition key ko poori taaqat se ghumaya. 

Gaadi ka engine ek bhayanak dahad ke sath start ho gaya. Isse pehle ki main kuchh samajh paati ya khud ko sambhal paati, Vivaan ne gear shift kiya aur gadi ko ek zordar jhatke ke sath aage badha diya. Tyres ki ragad se dhool aur kachra udd gaya, aur wo kaali gaadi us sunsaan raste par tezi se aage bhagne lagi.
 
Mera dil halaq mein aa gaya. Darr ka ek aisa bhayanak sailab mere poore jism mein daud gaya ki mere roongte khade ho gaye. Halat ye thi ki ek taraf uske gusse aur gaaliyon ka zehar tha, aur dusri taraf uski wo kaanapti hui halat thi jisme wo aisi raaftar se gaadi bhaga raha tha. Main foran aage ki taraf jhuki. Apne dono kaanpte hue haathon se maine uske steering par rakhe hue us maansal aur sakht haath ko mazbooti se pakad liya, aur gidgidate hue, rote hue chillane lagi.
 
"Vivaan! Please... meri baat suno! Aisi halat mein gaadi mat chalao, please!" Meri aawaz rone ki wajah se buri tarah kaanp rahi thi, aur mere gale se siskiyan nikal rahi thin. "Dekho apne haathon ko... tumse theek se baitha tak nahi ja raha, aur tum aisi raaftar se gaadi bhaga rahe ho! Raste mein koi bhi accident ho sakta hai, hum mar sakte hain! Please... meri jaan bakhsh do, gaadi rok do! Main tumhare pair padti hun…"
 
Lekin wo patthar bana hua tha. Usne meri ek bhi baat sunne se inkaar kar diya tha. Uski aakhon mein ek ajeeb sa junoon aur pagalpan sawaar tha. Wo aage raste ki taraf dekhte hue bas gaadi ko aur tezi se aage badhaye ja raha tha. Sadak ke kinare ke ped aur andhere ke saaye kisi bhoot ki tarah peechhe bhaag rahe the. Main aur zyada bezubaan ho kar ro padi. Main uske haathon ko pakad kar taras khane wale andaz mein gidgidae ja rahi thi.
 
"Mujhe... mujhe mere ghar wapas chhod do, please! Main haath jodti hoon tumhare aage! Main yahan sirf apne kaam ke liye aayi thi! Mujhe kya pata tha ki yahan aakar meri zindagi ek aisi aafat ban jayegi, jahan meri beizzati aur gunaah har kadam par naach rahe hain! Main kya kar rahi hoon yahan? Mera kya kasoor hai?"
 
Mera wo rona, meri wo bebas gidgidahat aur aasuon se bheega hua chehra kisi bhi normal insaan ka dil pighla deta. Lekin Vivaan ke chehre par shafqat ka ek qatra tak nahi ubhra. Wo bas apas mein jabde kase hue, apni nafrat aur gusse ke daldal mein aage daude ja raha tha. Gaadi ki speed badhti ja rahi thi, aur andhere raste par hamari saansein bas ek aakhri dor par latki hui thin.
 
Sadak par tezi se daudti hui humari car achanak ek aise zordar jhatke ke sath ruki ki mera jism aage ki taraf jhool gaya. Tyres ki tezi se lagne wali ragad aur achanak brakes ke dabav ne fiza ko hila kar rakh diya. Gaadi ne ek sunsaan mod par aakar dum tod diya. Vivaan ne bina ek pal gawaye ignition key ko ghumaya aur engine band kar diya. Gaadi ke andar ke saare power windows pehle se hi mukammal taur par band the, aur AC ki thandi, sikh-sikh karti hawa cabin ke andar ek ajeeb si ghutanzada fiza bana rahi thi. Bahar ki kaali raat aur andar ki is sard khamoshi mein sirf hamari tez saansein goonj rahi thin.
 
Main abhi tak us darr aur gidgidahat ke asar se bahar bhi nahi aai thi, aur mere aasuon se bheega hua chehra jhuka hua tha. Lekin agle hi lamhe jo hua, usne mere wajood ki saari sochein, saare darr aur saari cheekhon ko ek hi second mein jam kar diya.
 
Vivaan ne achanak apna haath pichhe se badhaya. Uski mazboot aur garm ungliyon ne achanak meri gardan ko pichhe se is qadar sakht giraft mein liya ki mera sar ek zordar jhatke ke sath aage ki taraf ho gaya. Aur isse pehle ki main koi aah bharti ya khud ko bachane ki koshish karti, usne mujhe apni taraf khinch liya.
 
Aur fir usne aage jhuk kar seedha mere hothon par apne hoth rakh diye. Wo ek achanak hua hamla tha, ek aisa junooni aur kaamuk chumban jismein nafrat, gussa, aur ek ajeeb sa bhookhapan bhara hua tha. Uski giraft meri gardan par aisi sakht thi ki main apna chehra zara sa bhi hila nahi saki. Usne mere hothon ko apne hothon ke beech jakad liya, aur ek bereham aur gehri chahat ke sath mere hothon ko chusna shuru kar diya.
 
Uski saansein garm aur tez thin, aur uske hothon ki wo ragad mere narm hothon par ek aag ki tarah lag rahi thi. Uski wo kiss aisi nahi thi jo pyar ya mohabbat mein hoti hai, yeh ek aisi kiss thi jismein uski saari nafrat, uska sara gussa, aur ek ajeeb sa dard ghula hua tha, maano wo mere wajood ko noch lena chahta ho, mere andar ke saare aasuon aur zillat ko apne hothon se pee jana chahta ho.
 
Mera dil ek lamhe ke liye ruk gaya. Meri fati hui aankhein khuli ki khuli reh gayi, aur mere hoth pehle toh uski is harkat se kaanp uthe. Maine apna ek haath uske seene par rakh kar use hatane ki ek choti si, nakam koshish ki.
 
Lekin uske hothon ki wo gehri aur kashish-bhari pakad itni majboot thi ki meri saari taaqat be-asar ho gayi. Dheere-dheere, uska wo andaz aur zyada kaamuk hone laga. Usne mere upar aur nichle hothon ko apne danton ke beech halka sa dabaya, aur apni zubaan se mere hothon ki khushki aur aasuon ke namkeen zaiqe ko mehsoos karte hue aur zyada gehrai mein utar gaya.
 
Gaadi ke us band, thande AC wale cabin mein, bahar ke us gehre aur andhere mausam ke darmiyan, hamare hothon ki ye berahem aur junooni kashmakash chal rahi thi. Mere andar ka saara darr, saari zillat aur fikar ek ajeeb se sannate mein badalne lagi, aur main chahte hue bhi us aahani aur kaamuk giraft se khud ko azad nahi kar pa rahi thi.
 
Band gaadi ke us sard aur ghutanzada mahol mein, jahan thandi AC ki hawa aur bahar ka siah andhera aapas mein mil rahe the, waqt jaise ek aisi laar par thehar gaya tha jahan darr aur nafrat ki saari deewarein achanak dher ho chukin thin. Vivaan ke hothon ki wo junooni, gusse se bhari aur bereham kashmakash ab dheere-dheere ek ajeeb aur gehre nashaane mein badal rahi thi. Uski ungliyan abhi bhi meri gardan ko pichhe se kas kar pakade hue thin, aur uska har ek chumban mere wajood ko andar tak noch raha tha.
 
Pehle toh mera jism uske is achanak aur behuda hamle ke khilaf tharthara raha tha. Mere andar ka wo darr, wo zillat jo usne thodi der pehle dayan aur badchalan keh kar di thi, mere zehan mein gunguna rahi thi. Lekin... jaise-jaise waqt bita, aur uske hothon ki wo garm aahat mere hothon par barasti rahi, mere andar ka sara gussa, saari zillat aur saari nafrat ek ajeeb se pighalte hue mom ki tarah behne lagi.
 
Mera wajood toot chuka tha. Main pehle hi is khooni raat ke trauma, Pappu ki maut, aur is safar ke azaab se andar se khokhli ho chuki thi. Aur ab, is zaalim ladke ki is qatilana qarabat ne meri bachi-khuchi matti ko bhi reza-reza kar diya tha. Meri aankhon se behte hue wo aansoo abhi bhi ruke nahi the, wo tapak kar hamare milte hue hothon ke kinaron par beh rahe the, jinka namkeen zaiqa hum dono mehsoos kar rahe the.
 
Mera dil andar se sisak utha. Ek aisi bebas aur dard-bhari siski mere gale ke andar gungunai. Aur us siski ke sath hi, jaane kyun, mere andar ki wo aakhri zidd bhi tut gayi. Maine apne dono haathon ko dheere se uthaya. Jo haath pehle use dhakelne ki, ya khud ko bachane ki nakam koshish kar rahe the, wahi haath ab dheere-dheere aage badhe. Mere kaanpte hue hathon ki ungliyon ne uske mazboot aur chaudhe seene ko pakad liya, aur dheere se uske un maansal kandhon ke gird lipat gayin.
 
Maine apne andar ki saari bagawat ko qatl kar diya. Maine apne dil ko, apni ghairat ko, aur apni is majboor rooh ko poori tarah uske hawale kar diya. Chus lo mujhe... meri saari sharm chus lo.
 
Mera zehan khamoshi se uske aage ghutne tek chuka tha. Main andar hi andar sisakti hui, uske is zulm ko apna mukaddar maan chuki thi. Bhale hi tumne aaj mujhpe kitna hi zulm dha diya ho... bhale hi mujhe duniya ki sabse gandi, sabse zaleel aur badnasib aurat keh kar mera qatal kar diya ho... lekin aaj main tumhare is azaab ke aage poori tarah haar chuki hoon vivaan.
 
Maine apni aankhein band kar lin, aur apne hothon ko aur zyada khol kar use puri azaadi de di. Mera wo surrender, mera wo bepanah azaab aur dard, uske kiss ke andaz mein foran jhalak gaya. Jaise hi use mehsoos hua ki maine ab koi muzahamat nahi ki hai, aur main poori tarah uske qabze mein aa chuki hoon, uska wo junoon aur zyada gehra ho gaya.
 
Uski zuban ne mere hothon ki deewar ko cheer kar aage ka rasta banaya, aur ek aisi gehri, kaamuk aur bhookh-bhari kashmakash shuru ho gayi jismein saansein ek hone lagin. Usne mere hothon ko, meri saanson ko is tarah apne andar utarhna shuru kiya maano wo mujhe zinda nigal jaana chahta ho.
 
Gaadi ke us band, andhere cabin mein, hamare jismon ki ye aisi aag thi jo bahar ke us siah aur gehre toofan ko bhi maat de rahi thi. Main bas uske hothon ki qaid mein, apne aasuon aur siskiyon ke sath, uske har ek zulm ko ek aakhri mohabbat ya majboori samajh kar apne andar utarti chali gayi.
 
Band gaadi ki us sard fiza mein, jahan bahar ka andhera aur andar ka AC ka shor aapas mein mil rahe the, hamare hothon ki wo junooni kashmakash ab ek aur bhi gehre, maadak aur aag se bhare daur mein dakhil ho chuki thi.
 
Mera surrender dekh kar, Vivaan ki wo nafrat aur gussa dheere-dheere ek aisi behisaab shiddat mein badal gaya jismein bas ek hi bhookh thi, mujhse mera sab kuchh noch lene ki bhookh. Uski ungliyan, jo abhi tak meri gardan ko pichhe se kas kar pakade hue thin, ab aur zyada gehrai mein utar aayin. Usne apni hatheli se mere baalon ki laton ko jakda aur mere sar ko thoda aur pichhe ki taraf jhuka diya, taaki mera chehra mukammal taur par uske qabze mein aa jaye.
 
Uski zuban mere hothon ki deewar ko cheer kar aage badhi, aur ek aisi gehri, geeli aur saansein rok lene wali kiss shuru ho gayi jismein mera dam ghutne laga.
 
Mera wajood pighal kar paani ban chuka tha. Mere hoth, jo pehle kaanp rahe the, ab uske har ek war ke aage puri tarah khul chuke the. Main apne aasuon aur uske hothon ke zaiqe ko aapas mein ghulte hue mehsoos kar rahi thi. Mere haath jo uske kandhon par tike the, dheere-dheere sarak kar uske chaudhe seene aur un maansal baazuon tak pahunch gaye, aur maine uski shirt ke kapde ko apni ungliyon mein kas kar jakad liya, ek aisi pakad jo bata rahi thi ki main ab khud ko bhi sambhalne ke qabil nahi rahi thi.
 
Vivaan ne apne hothon ko thoda sa alag kiya, aur meri saanson ki raftaar ko dekhte hue, ek halka sa, behad madham aur nashaane bhara lafz mere hothon par hi chhod diya. Uski aawaz ek aisi sargoshi thi jo seedha mere dil ko cheer gayi.
 
"Kitni khoobsurat lagti hain aap... jab aap is tarah mere saamne haar maanti hain, Samreen aunty..." usne apne hoth mere hothon ke bilkul qareeb rakhte hue dheere se kaha, uska garm saans mere gaalon ko jhulsa raha tha. "Samreen aunty... kitni ghatiya aurat hain aap, jo mere itne zulm ke baad bhi mere hothon par pighal rahi hain?"
 
Uske wo tanzhiye aur kaamuk lafz sun kar mere jism mein ek bijli si daud gayi. Mera dil chaha ki main use rok dun, ki main kahun nahi, main aisi nahi hoon... Lekin mere hothon se aawaz ke bajaye bas ek dard-bhari, maadak siski nikal saki. "Vivaan... mmmm" mere hoth uske hothon se touch hote hue kaanpe. "Kyun kar rahe ho mere sath aisa tum... mmhhh kya chahte ho mujhse? Main toh pehle hi... andar se mar chuki hoon..."
 
Uski siah aur surkh aankhon mein ek ajeeb sa dard aur hawas ka toofan ek sath mach gaya. Usne ek baar fir se mere hothon ko apne hothon ki qaid mein le liya, aur is baar uska andaz pehle se bhi zyada behad gehra aur chusne wala tha. Usne mere nichle hoth ko apne danton ke beech lekar ek halka sa dard-bhara kash mara, jisse mere munh se ek beikhtiyar siskari nikal gayi.
 
"Aannnnhhh..." Vivaan ne mere hothon par hi fufkarte hue kaha, aur apni zubaan se mere namkeen aasuon ko chatne laga jo mere hothon ke kinaron par bahe the. "Aap sirf meri hain is waqt, Samreen aunty. Na aapka wo shauhar, na wo ghar, aur na hi aapka koi parivaar... koi aapko mujhse nahi chheen sakta. Aap bas meri zillat hain, aur mera nasha hain."
 
Uski un baaton ne mere andar ke bache-khuche aakhri astitva ko bhi mita diya. Main ab kisi aur duniya mein nahi thi, main bas us kaali gaadi ke andhere mein, us gair *** ke zaalim mard ke hothon ki giraft aur uski un gandi, maadak sargoshiyon ke beech ek behosh makhlooq ki tarah jhul rahi thi.
 
Maine apni aankhein poori tarah band kar lin, aur apne hothon ko uske har ek war ke liye aur zyada khol diya. Usne mere hothon ko, meri saanson ko aur mere andar uthte hue us azaab ko apne andar is tarah utaar liya maano hum dono ek hi saans se jude hon. Gaadi ke us sannaate mein, hamari saanson ki wo aag aur hothon ki wo madhosh kashmakash ek aisi dastan likh rahi thi jiska koi ant nahi tha.
 
Band gaadi ke us gunghe aur andhere cabin mein, jahan bahar ka siah aasmaan aur dhabe ki wo khooni yaadein bhi ab ek dhundhli parchhai ban chuki thin, hamare darmiyan fasle simat kar dhool aur saanson ke ek naye azaab mein badal chuke the.
 
Mera wajood poori tarah tut chuka tha, lekin us toote hue wajood ke andar ek ajeeb sa samarpan jag chuka tha. Meri aankhein band thin, aur mere kaanpte hue haath dheere se sarak kar uske baalon mein chale gaye the. Main bina kisi sharm, bina kisi bagawat ke, bas uske sar ko dheere-dheere sehla rahi thi, ek aisi ammi, ek aisi mehbooba ya ek aisi majboor aurat ki tarah jo apne gusse mein jalte hue mard ko thanda karne ke liye apna sab kuchh dao par laga chuki ho.
 
Vivaan ke hothon ka rukh ab badal chuka tha. Wo mere hothon ki qaid se nikal kar aage badha. Uske garam aur thartharate hoth sabse pehle mere aasuon se bheego hue gaalon par aakar tik gaye. Usne dheere-dheere, ek behad naram lekin shiddat ke sath mere gaalon ko chumna shuru kiya. Uski wo chumban aisi thin maano wo mere chehre se us saari manhoosiyat aur darr ko apne hothon se noch kar saaf kar dena chahta ho.
 
Chap-chap... gaadi ke us sannaate mein uske hothon ki aahat aur meri saansein hi bas ek aawaz thi. Gaalon ko chumte-chumte uske hoth aur niche sarak gaye. Meri wo naazuk gardan, jise kuch hi lamhe pehle usne apni aahani giraft se ghota tha, ab wahi gardan uske hothon ke naram war aur chumban ke niche pighal rahi thi. Vivaan ne apni zubaan se meri gardan ki us nas ko chaatna shuru kiya, aur phir apne hothon se wahan ek gehra, nashaane bhara chumban chhod diya.
 
"Ahhh... Vivaan..." Mere munh se ek behad maadak, dard aur sukoon mein doobi hui siski nikal gayi. Mera sar pichhe ki taraf seat ke headrest par tik gaya, aur meri gardan aur khul gayi. Usne meri gardan ko chaat-te aur chumte hue dheere se sargoshi ki, uske hothon ki ragad meri sensitive skin par aag laga rahi thi. "Bohot naram hai aapki yeh gardan, Samreen aunty..." usne fufkarte hue kaha, aur uski aawaz mein ek aisi hawas aur pagalpan tha jo mere roongte khade kar raha tha. "Yahi gardan maine dabayi thi na? Bataiye... maza aa raha hai na mere is zulm mein? Aap sirf mere gusse ka nasha hain, aur kuchh nahi samreen aunty."
 
Uski un gandi aur kaamuk baaton ne mere andar ki bachi-kuchi sharm ko jala kar rakh diya. Main apne hothon ko kaatate hue, ek baar fir se sisak uthi. "Haan... Vivaan..." meri aawaz mein ek aisi bebasi aur laachari thi jo khud-b-khud use aur zyada aage badhane ka nawta de rahi thi. "Chum lo mujhe... mita do mujhe... uummmmhhhh jo karna hai karo, bas mujhe is azaab se azaad kar do... ahhh..."
 
Mera wo karahna, meri wo maadak aawazein aur uska naam baar-baar lena, jaise Vivaan ke us toote hue junoon ke liye aag mein ghee ka kaam kar raha tha. Use jab yeh ehsaas hua ki maine apne aap ko mukammal taur par uske hawale kar diya hai, toh uska haath meri kamar par sarakte hue aur upar aa gaya. Usne mujhe apni taraf aur zyada kas kar khinch liya, taaki hamare jismon ke darmiyan hawa ki bhi jagah na bache.
 
Uske hoth wapas meri gardan se uth kar mere hothon par aa gaye. Aur is baar ki kiss koi aam kiss nahi thi, wo ek aisi behisaab, geeli aur saansein noch lene wali chumban thi jismein hum dono apni saari hosh, saari duniya aur saare gunaah bhul chuke the.
 
Main aankhein band kiye, bas uske kandhon ko nochti hui, uske har ek war ko apne andar utarti chali gayi. Gaadi ki wo thandi AC ki hawa bhi ab hamare jismon ki us tapish aur aag ko thanda nahi kar pa rahi thi, aur hum dono us andhere cabin mein ek dusre ke jism ki qaid mein doobte chale gaye.
 
Hamare jismon ki us tapish aur saanson ki aag mein abhi ek maadak sannata tair hi raha tha ki achanak... Vivaan ne apne hoth mere hothon se alag kiye. Usne apna chehra thoda sa pichhe uthaya. Uske dono haathon ki hatheliyan mere gaalon par aakar tik gayin. Usne apne anguthe se mere gaal par bahi hui nami aur aansoo ke nishaan ko dheere se sahlaaya, aur ektak meri aankhon mein dekhne laga.
 
Main bhi apni saansein roke, poori tarah garam aur uski us qaid mein doobi hui, seedha uski aankhon mein dekh rahi thi. Lekin is baar... uski un surkh aur siah aankhon ka rang badal chuka tha. Wahan ab wo pehle jaisa junoon, wo chillaata hua gussa, ya nafrat ka zehar nahi tha. Uski ankhon mein ab ek ajeeb si naram-dili, ek gehri khamoshi aur kisi aashiq ki si wo bepanah deewangi tair rahi thi jo saaf bata rahi thi ki wo bhi is pal mein mere sath poori tarah doob chuka tha. Uski wo nazrein mere wajood ke aakhri kile ko bhi dher kar rahi thin.
 
Aur tabhi, na jaane mere andar kahan se itni taaqat, itna pagalpan aa gaya! Mujhe khud hosh nahi raha ki main kya kar rahi hoon. Ek aisi aag mere andar bhadki ki maine jhat se apne dono haathon ko badhaya, aur us zaalim ladke ke sar ko apne hathon ki mazboot giraft mein jakad liya.
 
Bina ek pal soche, maine apna wajood aage ki taraf jhukaya, aur poori shiddat ke sath uske hothon ko apne hothon se kas ke daba liya. Chhhuphh...Mera wo hamla itna achanak, itna junooni tha ki Vivaan bhi ek lamhe ke liye chaunk gaya. Lekin agle hi pal, usne meri is bepanah bhookh aur samarpan ko mehsoos kar liya. Maine uske hothon ko apne danton aur hothon ke beech kas kar jakad liya, aur ek bereham aur bhookh-bhari chumban shuru kar di.
 
Mera dil chahta tha ki main uske andar utar jaun, ki main uske us saare dard, saari nafrat aur is raat ke saare azaab ko apne hothon se choos kar khatam kar dun. Main uske hothon ko paagal aurat ki tarah chus rahi thi, aur mere gale se nikalti hui har ek siski ab uske hothon ke andar hi ghut kar reh ja rahi thi.
 
Vivaan ne bhi der nahi ki. Uske haathon ki giraft mere gaalon aur gardan par aur zyada kas gayi, aur usne palat kar meri us hawasi chumban ka jawab dena shuru kar diya. Gaadi ke us andhere, band cabin mein hamari saansein aapas mein ulajh chukin thin, aur hum dono is khooni raat ke har ek gham ko bhulakar ek dusre ke jism ki aag mein poori tarah jalte chale ja rahe the.

To Be Continued...