Adultery SAMREEN: Shikast-e-Zanjeer-e-Muflisi

[Naaz]

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[Herotic]

Samreen From Future

[Naaz]

Lagta hai ab update nahi aayega

[Herotic]

EPISODE 23

Gaadi jab tak sadak par daud rahi thi, tab tak to mardana baaton ka ek bazaar garam tha. Lekin achanak, raste ki ek sunsaan aur dhundhli mod par, sadak ke kinaare ek purana, jhilmilata hua dhaba nazar aaya. Wahan peele bulb ki roshni mein dhuein ka ek halka sa badal tair raha tha. Driver Bodyguard ne steering ghumayi, aur humari kaali Scorpio seedha us dhabe ke saamne ja ruki. 

Mera dil ek baar phir uchhal kar gale mein aa gaya. Hum yahan kyun ruke hain? Rubina ka ghar toh yahan se sirf chand kilometron ki doori par hoga. Kya inka koi aur irada hai? Kya ye mujhe kisi aur musibat mein phasaane ke liye yahan laaye hain?
 
Gaadi ka engine band hote hi teeno bodyguards aur Pappu darwaza khol kar foran baahar nikal aaye. Unke bhaari booton ki aawaz zameen par goonji. Unhone aapas mein kuchh sargoshi ki aur dhabe ke table par ja kar baith gaye, jahan ek boodha dhabawala jaldi se chai banane mein jud gaya tha. Wahan aas-paas zyada bheed nahi thi, bas ek-do aur log the jo apni kisi truck ke paas sote hue ya bidi peete hue nazar aa rahe the. Aur main... main us band gaadi ke andar akeli reh gayi.
 
Sheeshe se bahar dekhte hue mera dam ghutne laga. Darr aur bebasi ka ek ajeeb sa aalam mere poore wajood par chhaya hua tha. Lekin kuchh hi lamhon mein, driver side ka door khula aur Pappu wahan khada tha. Uske haath mein ek kulhad tha, jisse garm chai ka dhuaan nikal raha tha. Usne gaadi ke andar jhuk kar wo kulhad meri taraf badhaya.
 
Maine apni aankhon mein gussa, nafrat aur thodi si bebasi bhar kar use ghoora, wahi shakhs jisne thodi der pehle mujhe zaleel kiya tha. Pappu ne ek halki si laaparwah muskurahat ke sath apna sar hilaya, aur bola, "Arey madam, gussa thook dijiye! Itna kya bhav khana. Thandi hawa mein chai peene se dimaag theek ho jata hai. Lijiye, pijiye garma garam chai."
 
Main kuchh pal ke liye uski taraf dekhti rahi. Mera dil nahi maanta tha ki main is aadmi ke haath se kuchh lun, lekin gale ki khushki aur andar ki ghutan itni badh chuki thi ki maine bina kuchh bole, nazrein doosri taraf fer lin, aur kaanpte hue haathon se wo kulhad uske haath se apne haathon mein le liya. Pappu ek tanzhiya muskurahat ke sath wapas un bodyguards ke paas laut gaya.
 
Baahar wo sab mard khade ho kar zor-zor se thahake laga rahe the, chai ki chuski le rahe the aur aapas mein hasi-mazaak kar rahe the. Unke qahqehe us khamosh raat mein kisi gidh ki tarah goonj rahe the. Main gaadi ki pichhli seat par akeli baithi, us mitti ke kulhad se chai ki halki-halki sips le rahi thi. Chai ki garmahat mere gale se utri toh zaroor, lekin usne mere andar ke sannate ko aur gehra kar diya.
 
Aur tabhi... wo aalam shuru hua jisne mujhe andar se tod kar rakh diya. Achanak, bina kisi silsile ke, mujhe apne shauhar ki yaad aane lagi. Subah jab main Pandey ji ke ghar ke liye farha baaji ke saath car mein baithi thi, aur unka wo purshaan ghar dekha tha, wahan se lekar ab tak, 24 ghante bhi poore nahi hue the, par aisa lag raha tha maano main apne ghar, apne shauhar, apni purani aur pakiza zindagi se salo door ho chuki hoon.
 
Is bich hi mere saath kya kya ho gya mujhe pata hi nhi chala. Mera dil chahte hue bhi unhe bhula nahi pa raha tha. Kal is waqt main apne ghar apne shauhar ke saath thi aur yahi soch rhi thi ki kya main pandey ji ke ghar jaaun ya nhi.
 
Aur aaj? Aaj main kahan thi? Ek aise ghar mein jahan meri izzat ka koi mol nahi tha, jahan naukron aur mardano ke beech meri ghairat ki dhajjiyan udayi ja rahi thin, jahan gunahon ke bojh se meri rooh kachoti ja rahi thi, aur main ek anjaan kaali Scorpio mein, in mustando ke beech, ek dhabe par akeli bethi aansoo baha rahi thi.
 
Aankhon se ansoo tap-tap kar ke mere hathon par girne lage. Main apne shauhar ke us chehre ko yaad karne lagi jo kitna saaf-suthra, kitna muqaddas tha. Aur mera ye wajood... jo unke baad in gande logon ke darmiyan, in gunaahon aur badnasibi ki daldal mein dhas chuka tha.
 
Main kahan aa gayi? Maine apne aap ko kis anjaam tak pahuncha diya? Farha baaji ne mujhe puri baatein kyun nhi batayi? Mujhe saima ki baat sun leni chahiye thi. Chai ka wo kulhad mere haath mein thanda padne laga, aur baahar wahi mardo ke thahake aur dabe hue shor ke beech, main khamoshi se andar hi andar ghut-ghut kar rone lagi.
 
Dhabe ki us dhundhli aur peeli roshni mein, jahan main apne shauhar ki yaad mein ansoo baha rahi thi aur dil ki gehraiyon mein apne gunahon ka maatam mana rahi thi, wahi achanak waqt ne ek aisi anjaan aur khaufnaak karwat li, jisne meri saansein tak rok din.
 

Screeechhhhh... dhadaaaakk!

 
Ek aisi behuda, tezi se aati hui tyre ki awaaj aur brakes ki chikh-chikh fiza mein goonji ki mera kaleja muh ko aa gaya. Main jhatke se hosh mein aayi aur apni nam aankhein utha kar bahar ki taraf dekha. Dhabe ke theek samne, dhuen aur mitti ko cheerte hue ek safed rang ki Bolero besahara raftaar se aakar ruki. Uske tyres ki ragad se road par safed dhuan fail gaya. Us gaadi ke darwaze khulte hi achanak aisi aahat hui maano maut khud nanga naach nachne ke liye utar aayi ho.
 
Gale mein gamchhe lapete hue, aankhon mein gussa aur haathon mein lambi-lambi raifelein liye teen-chaar mustande mard Bolero se kood kar bahar aaye. Aur bina ek pal zaya kiye, bina kisi warning ke, unhone us sunsaan dhabe par goliyaan barsa kar dahla diya.
 

Dhad-dhad-dhad-dhad! Dhad-dhad!

 
Andhadhun firing shuru ho gayi. Goliyaan hawa ko cheerte hue dhabe ke deewaron, tables aur wahan rakhi cheezon ko chhedne lagin. Waqt jaise wahin jam gaya. Main us kaali Scorpio ki pichhli seat par baithi ki baithi reh gayi. Mera wajood patthar ban gaya. Saansein seene mein kahin qaid ho kar reh gayin. Meri aankhein phail gayin, aur mera gala andar se khushk ho gaya. Ek aisi ajeeb si jhanjhanahat mere pure jism mein utar aayi,na main cheekh saki, na main hil saki. Main bas ek gungi aur majboor makhlooq ki tarah is qatleaam ko apni aankhon ke samne dekhti reh gayi.
 
Sab kuchh itni tezi se hua ki dimag ko sochne ka mauqa hi nahi mila. Firing ki us pehli round mein hi, jab Pappu dhabe ke table ke paas un bodyguards ke sath khada tha, tabhi ek goli aisi aayi jisne hawa ko chira aur seedha jaakar... seedha Pappu ke seene ke beechon-beech chhed dala.
 
Ek bhayanak jhatka laga Pappu ko. Uski hansi, uska wo gurur, uska wo be-baak andaz, sab kuchh ek second mein thahar gaya. Uske haath mein jo mitti ka kulhad tha, wo achanak uske haathon se chhoot kar zameen par gira aur chhanak ki aawaz ke sath hazaron tukdo mein bikhar gaya, aur uske sath hi garam chai mitti par fail gayi.
 
Aur tab... wo ho gaya jo shayad mere wajood ki sabse khaufnaak tasveer thi. Pappu bina kuchh kahe, bina ek bhi aah bhare, seedha peechhe ki taraf zameen par dhab se gir pada. Uske seene se khoon ka ek fawara sa foot pada, jo uske kurte ko tezi se laal rang mein rangne laga. Wahan zameen par girte hi uska jism ek aakhri jhatka liya aur fir bilkul shaant ho gaya. Uski khuli hui aankhein aasmaan ki taraf dekh rahi thi, jismein ab zindagi ka koi nishaan nahi bacha tha.
 
Mere haath aur pair buri tarah kaanpne lage. Mere apas mein jude hathon mein jo chai ka kulhad tha, wo achanak chhoot kar gir gaya, aur sari chai meri god me aur seat par bikhar gayi. Lekin mujhe uski koi parwah nahi thi. Meri rooh kaanp uthi thi. Pappu... use goli lag gayi thi. Aur shayad... shayad wo mar chuka tha.
 
Ek insaan, jise maine paanch minute pehle thappad mara tha, jo abhi mujhse baat kar raha tha, jo gaadi mein baith kar apni zindagi ki baatein suna raha tha, wo achanak zameen par pada ek lash ban chuka tha. Pandey ji ke baaki bodyguards, jo cover le chuke the, unhone jab tak yeh manzar dekha aur humari gaadi ki taraf daud kar rifles nikalne ke liye haath badhaya, tab tak wo hamlawar apni safed Bolero mein wapas chadh chuke the.
 

Vroooommm... screech!

 
Bolero ne ek bhayanak dhuen ka badal chhoda, aur sarak par rubber ki cheekh chhodte hue andhere mein gayab ho gayi. Sab kuchh itni tezi se hua ki maano koi bhayanak sapna ho, lekin wo khali sadak, wo bikhar hua khoon, aur zameen par pada Pappu ka bejaan jism is baat ka gawah tha ki yeh haqeeqat thi, ek behad siah aur khooni haqeeqat.
 
Mera pura jism paseene se tar-ba-tar tha. Aansuon ka sailab meri aankhon se beh nikla tha, aur gala aisa ghut raha tha maano aakhri saas bhi abhi nikal jayegi. Main Scorpio ki seat par simat kar bas kaanp rahi thi, aur samne wo laal khoon mere dil par hamesha ke liye ek ghaav chhod gaya.
 
Waqt jaise us sunsaan dhaabe par kisi ne rok diya ho. Fiza mein abhi bhi barood ki jalne wali wo tez aur ghinoni boo baaki thi. Dhaabe ke us kacche aangan mein dhuein ka ek halka sa badal tair raha tha, aur uske beechon-beech zameen par pada Pappu ka bejaan jism ek aisi haqeeqat ban chuka tha jise dekh kar rooh kaanp uthe.
 
Mera wajood kaali Scorpio ki pichhli seat par simat kar reh gaya tha. Meri aankhein phati ki phati thi, aur unme aisi bejaan sunnhali utar aayi thi ki na main palak jhapka pa rahi thi aur na hi mere hothon se ek lafz adaa ho raha tha. Main bas fati hui aankhon se us laal daldal ko dekh rahi thi jo dheere-dheere mitti aur Pappu ke jism se nikal kar fail raha tha.
 
Aas-paas ke kuchh log, jo dhabe ke doosre kone par the ya aaspas ke kacche makaanon se nikal kar daude chale aaye the, wo sab wahan jama hone lage the. Unki sargoshiyan, unka shor, aur aapas mein machi bhag-daud ek madham aur gungi aawaz ki tarah mere kaano mein pad rahi thi.
 
Nikal samreen... gaadi se bahar nikal... dekh kya hua hai! Mera zameer aur mera darr mujhse keh raha tha, lekin mere pairon mein jaise lohe ki zanjeer bandh gayi ho. Itni himmat mujh mein baaki nahi thi ki main us kaali Scorpio ka darwaja khol kar zameen par paao rakh sakun aur us khooni manzar ke qareeb ja sakun. Main bas apni jagah par ek patthar ki murat ki tarah baithi rahi, jiska dil seene ke andar dhadakna bhool chuka tha.
 
Kuchh hi lamhon mein, door sadak par ek red-blue flashing light ghoomti hui nazar aayi. Weeu-weeu... weeu-weeu! Ambulance ki wo darawani aur tez aawaz us khamosh raat ke seene ko cheerti hui dhaabe ke bilkul qareeb aa kar ruki. Ambulance ke darwaze khule, aur paramedics ke sath-sath wahan mojud Pandey ji ke bodyguards ne foran aage badh kar Pappu ke us be-jaan, khoon se latpat jism ko uthaya. Uske haath aur sar latak rahe the, aur uska wo kurta poori tarah surkh ho chuka tha. Unhone use utha kar tezi se ambulance ke andar stretcher par lita diya.
 
Main gaadi ke kaale sheeshe se ye sab kuchh ek gunghe tamashe ki tarah dekhti rahi. Mere kaanpte hue haath meri god par pade the, aur ankhon se ansoo ab behna band ho chuke the, bas ek nammi thi jo palkon par jam gayi thi. Tabhi, dhabe ki taraf se tez qadmon ki aawaz aayi.
 
Scorpio ka pichhla darwaja jhatke se khula. Wahan khada wo bodyguard tha, jiske chehre par gusse, darr aur afratafri ka mila hua taassur tha. Uski shirt par jagah-jagah Pappu ka wo laal aur gaadha khoon laga hua tha, jo uske seene ko choone se uske kapdon par lag gaya tha. Uska seena tez-tez upar-neeche ho raha tha, aur wo haafte hue seedha meri taraf jhuka.
 
Usne aawaz mein ek sakht aur ghabraye hue lehje ke sath kaha, "Madam... suniye! Humein foran hospital nikalna pad raha hai, doctor aur security officer ke chakkar mein sabko wahan pahunchna zaroori hai. Aap... aap yahin is dhaabe mein baithi rahiyega." Main ek pal ke liye saans rok kar bas use dekhti reh gayi.
 
Usne apne haath se apna paseena pochha, jisse uske haath ka khoon uske maathe par bhi lag gaya, aur foran aage bolte hue kaha, "Maine... maine Vivaan babu ko call kar diya hai. Wo bas kuchh hi der mein yahan aa rahe hain, aur aapko yahin se pickup kar lenge. Tab tak aap dhaabe ke andar hi baithi rehiyega, bahar bilkul mat nikaliyega!"
 
Uske wo lafz mere kaano mein goonje, lekin dimag mein unka asar hone mein waqt laga. Bina mere kuchh bole, us bodyguard ne foran pichhla darwaja wapas zor se band kar diya aur aage wali seat mein baith gaya. Main utar kar seedha dhaabe me ghus gyi, kadam ladkhada rhe the aur main girti girti bachi. Kuchh hi seconds mein, ambulance aage nikal gayi aur uske peechhe bodyguards kaali scorpio leke nikal gye.
 
Achanak... poora dhaba, wo sadak, aur wo andhera wapas mujhe gher liya. Ab wahan koi nahi tha. Sirf ek-do dhabe ke maalik aur door khade kuchh log the, aur beech sadak par wo sookhta hua khoon tha. Main akeli, us dhaabe ke andar, apne andar chal rahi qayamat ke sath baithi thi. Mera dil ghabra raha tha, kya Vivaan sach mein aayega? Agar aayega bhi to kitni der me aayega? Kya wo mujhe yahan se nikalega?

To Be continued...

[Sameer@86]

Badhiya tha bht khub...ab lagta hai story fir se apne track par arhi h...!

[Naaz]

Acha tha ye update
Bas aage se sambhal kar likhe

[Samreen Shaikh]

Very good writing... It opens a lot of options

[Naaz]

Very good writing... It opens a lot of options

Right ?

[Sameer@86]

Bhai update plse....

[Naaz]

Bhai update plse....

Update me bahot late karta hai

[Sameer@86]

Update me bahot late karta hai

Haa sahi keh rhi ho aap!

[Sameer@86]

Bhai kitna wait Krna padhega...?

[Naaz]

Bhai kitna wait Krna padhega...?

Wait hi to karne me maza kharab ho jata

[Sameer@86]

Wait hi to karne me maza kharab ho jata

Haa yaar sahi keh rhi ho aap!

[Sameer@86]

Update kab ayega bhai....?

[Naaz]

Update kab ayega bhai....?

Kahin bhi reply kiya hai kya is writer ne?

[Sameer@86]

Kahin bhi reply kiya hai kya is writer ne?

Nhi....

[Herotic]

EPISODE 24

Wo dhaba ab ek chhote se pinjre ki tarah tha, jiske andar main, Samreen, apne hi darr, apni bebasi aur is khooni raat ke saaye mein qaid baithi thi. Bahar dhabe ki wo dhool, wo peeli roshni ka jhilmilata hua bulb, aur sadak par sookhne laga hua Pappu ka wo laal khoon, sab mil kar ek aisi tasveer bana rahe the jise dekh kar rooh andar se thandi pad chuki thi. Mera jism kaanp raha tha. Mere daant aapas mein pees rahe the, aur hothon par sukhapan aisa tha maano paani ki ek-ek boond ke liye gala taras gaya ho. 

Itni jaldi... aakhir itna sab kuchh kaise ho gaya? Yahi ek sawal tha jo baar-baar mere zehan ki deewaron se takra raha tha. Subah jab main apne ghar se nikli thi, toh maqsad kitna saada, kitna mamuli tha, bas ek bade ghar ke bete ke birthday par us ghar ki auraton ko apni mehendi se sajana, aur fir apne ghar, apne shauhar ke paas laut aana. Magar kismat ne mere liye kaun sa raasta chun rakha tha? Aaj ek aise khooni manzar, goli-baari aur maut ki daldal mein aa phasi thi, jahan zindagi ki dor bas ek baarik dhaage par latki hui thi.
 
Main wahin kone waali kursi par simat kar baithi thi. Meri aankhein door us aisi sadak par tiki thin, jahan se kisi nayi gaadi ke aane ki ummeed thi. Mera dil ek hi raag alap raha tha, Vivaan... jaldi aa jao... Please, mujhe yahan se le chalo. Lekin us ummeed ke sath hi ek ajeeb sa khauf aur zehar mere dil mein utar raha tha. Kya Vivaan sach mein mujhe lene aayega?
 
Wo ladka... jise main andar se ek psycho, ek sarddil aur beparwah insaan ke roop mein jaan chuki thi. Wo ladka jisne thodi der pehle mujhe un mardon ke beech akela chhodte waqt ek pal ke liye bhi reham nahi khaya tha, jo meri bebasi aur darr ko dekh kar bas ek teekhi, zaleel karne wali muskurahat apne chehre par sajaye khada tha, kya wahi ladka is khooni raat mein, is sunsaan dhabe par mujhe bachane aayega?
 
Mera dil andar se cheekh uthta tha, Nahi! Wo nahi aayega... Wo mujhe yahan tadapne ke liye chhod dega... Shayad wo yahi chahta tha ki main is azaab mein phasun. Lekin phir, ek doosri taraf, ek akeli aurat ki wo laachari thi jo kisi bhi tinke ka sahara dhoondne par majboor hoti hai. Mere paas na koi aur rasta tha, na phone mein battery baaki thi, na kisi aur ka number yaad tha, aur na hi is sunsaan raste par chalne ki himmat thi. Main poori tarah se unke reham-o-karam par thi.
 
Soch-soch kar mera dimaag phatne ko ho raha tha. Main apne dono haathon se apna sar pakad kar baithi thi. Aansoo the ki rukne ka naam hi nahi le rahe the, wo chupchap bina kisi aawaz ke meri aankhon se bahte ja rahe the aur mere gaalon ko bhigote hue meri kurti par gir rahe the.
 
Haaye ***… Maine kya-kya nahi dekh liya is ek din mein? Apne ghar ki pakiza chaar-diwari se nikal kar, Pandey ji ke us azeem-o-shaan ghar ki ghutan, wahan unke zaalim bete aur ghar ke naukar ke sath kiye gaye wo gunah, Vivaan ke sath wo jismani aish aur badnasibi ke kisse, Pappu ka wo ghinona jumla aur fir mera use zordar thappad marna, uske baad us kaali Scorpio mein darr ke maare ghutna, aur ab... ab apni hi aankhon ke samne Pappu ko goli lagte hue aur tadap kar marte hue dekhna!
 
Aisa lag raha tha maano meri zindagi ek aisi horror film ban chuki ho jiska koi ant hi nahi hai. Zameer ka bojh itna bhaari ho chuka tha ki mujhe lag raha tha zameen phat jaye aur main usme sama jaun. Main andar hi andar apne khuda se maafi maang rahi thi, gidgida rahi thi, Ya ***, meri yeh saza maaf karde... Mujhse bohot badi galti ho gayi... Main bhatak gayi thi... Mujhe mere shauhar ke paas, mere ghar wapas pahuncha de...
 
Lekin fiza mein bas sannaata tha, aur door se aane wali hawa ki sargoshi thi jo kisi bhoot ki siski ki tarah lag rahi thi. Main abhi inhi khaufnaak khayalon aur aasuon mein doobi hui thi, tabhi achanak... door sarak par ek gaadi ki headlights ki tez roshni chamki. Us roshni ne us andhere ko cheer diya. Mera dil ek lamhe ke liye zor se uchhal gaya, aur saansein ruk gayin. Kya wo aa gaya? Kya wo Vivaan hai?
 
Main aur zyada dar kar pichhe aur simat gayi, aur apni fati hui aankhon se us aane wali gaadi ki taraf dekhne lagi, yeh jaane bagair ki wo gaadi mere liye aazadi ka rasta ban kar aa rahi hai, ya phir kisi aur nayi qayamat ka paigam lekar.
 
Sadak par chamakti hui wo headlights abhi door hi thin, lekin unki roshni ne mere andar darr aur ummeed ka ek ajeeb sa toofan khada kar diya tha. Aur agle hi lamhe... fiza ko cheerte hue ek behuda tez poww-poww… ki horn ki aawaz goonji.
 
Wo gaadi poori raftaar mein daudti hui aayi aur seedha dhabe ke saamne dakhil hui. Skrrrrrrt! Ek khatarnak drift leti hui wo car dhool aur dhuein ka ek bada sa bawandar udati hui theek dhaabe ke saamne aakar achanak ruki. Gaadi rukte hi uske headlamps ek jhatke ke sath bujh gaye, aur chaaron taraf ek gehri, daagdar khamoshi phail gayi.
 
Mera dil zor se dharak raha tha. Maine fati hui aankhon se us gaadi ke driver side ka door khulte dekha. Andar se ek saaya nikal kar baahar aaya. Wo Vivaan hi tha. Wahi zaalim ladka, jise main abhi tak ek psycho, ek patthar dil aur beparwah insaan samajh rahi thi. Lekin is khooni raat ke is siah andhere mein, use apni aankhon ke samne dekh kar achanak mere andar ek ajeeb si, thandi tasalli ki lahar daud gayi. Jaise dubte hue ko tinke ka sahara mil jata hai, wahi bebas sukoon mere seene mein utar aaya. Main palak jhapkaaye bina, ektak bas use hi dekhe ja rahi thi.
 
Vivaan ne bahar aate hi meri taraf ek baar bhi nahi dekha aur na hi uski nigaahon ne mujhe dhundhne ki ek bhi koshish ki. Uska poora dhyaan kisi aur hi cheez par tha. Usne apne kadam aage badhaye aur seedha wahin ja khada hua, jahan kuchh der pehle Pappu ka khoon gira tha aur ab dhool bhari zameen par ek gahra, kala-laal dhabba ban chuka tha.
 
Wo wahan ruka. Vivaan ne niche zameen par sookh rahe us khoon ki taraf dekha. Uske chehre ke taassur itne sard aur behis the ki unhe padhna namumkin tha. Wo thoda sa aage jhuka, aur achanak, jaise uske pairon ne uska saath chhod diya ho, wo ladkhada gaya aur wahi ghutno ke bal zameen par baith gaya.
 
Ye manzar dekh kar meri saas gale mein atak gayi. Pehle toh main apni jagah se hil bhi nahi saki, lekin phir ek anjaani si kashish ya majboori ne mere pairon ko hila diya. Maine kaanpte hue kadmo ke sath dheere-dheere aage badhti hui dhaabe se baahar nikal aayi.
 
Hawa ka ek thanda jhonka mere pasine se bheega chehra cheer kar nikal gaya. Main chalte-chalte seedha Vivaan ke paas aa kar khadi ho gayi. Mere kadam wahi thahar gaye. Mera gala poori tarah khushk ho chuka tha, aur mere honton se ek lafz bhi nikalne ki taaqat nahi bachi thi. Main bas wahi khadi, use niche zameen par baitha hua dekh rahi thi.
 
Vivaan ne ek pal ke liye bhi apna sar upar nahi uthaya. Wo bas patthar ki tarah wahi baitha, us khoon ki taraf dekh raha tha. Uski ankhon mein na koi darr tha, na koi aansoo, aur na hi koi pachhtawa, bas ek ajeeb sa khamosh sannata tha jo uske pure wajood par chhaya hua tha.
 
Aur tabhi, ek ajeeb harkat hui. Usne bina ek bhi lafz bole, dheere se apna haath apni pant ki pocket mein dala. Usne pocket se ek cigarette ka packet aur ek metal ka lighter nikala. bade aaram se, jaise kuchh hua hi na ho, usne packet se ek cigarette nikaali aur use apne honton ke beech daba liya.
 
Katchh... Lighter ki aag jali aur andhere mein ek chhota sa shola roshan hua. Usne cigarette ko aag lagayi, lighter wahi band karke wapas pocket mein daal liya. Uske baad, usne ek lamba aur gehra kash mara. Cigarette ka wo sira andhere mein lal rang ki tarah chamka, aur Vivaan ne dhuan dheere-dheere hawa mein chhod diya. Wo dhuan us peeli roshni ke beech ghumne laga jis roshni ke saaye me ek khoon ho chuka tha, aur main wahi khadi, uski is behis harkat ko bas sannaate mein dekhti reh gayi.
 
Cigarette ka wo dhuan dheere-dheere hawa mein ghul raha tha, lekin uske jism se aane wali khamoshi usse bhi zyada ghutan-zada thi. Main wahi, us khoon se sani zameen ke qareeb khadi thi, aur mera dil is darr se baith raha tha ki is ladke ka agla qadam kya hoga.
 
Maine ise pehle kabhi itna shaant, itna beharkat nahi dekha tha. Vivaan hamesha ya toh ek tanzhiya muskurahat apne chehre par rakhta tha, ya ek beparwah attitude ke sath har cheez ko mazaak bana deta tha. Lekin abhi... abhi is sannate mein uska yeh roop dekh kar meri rooh kaanp rahi thi. Aisa lag raha tha maano wo zinda insaan nahi, balki is khooni raat ka koi khamosh paida hua saya ho. Mera gala andar se puri tarah khushk ho chuka tha. Saansein seene mein phansi hui thin.
 
Maine thodi si himmat jutaayi, apne kaanpte hue honton ko aapas mein ragada, aur apni ladkhadati hui, dabi-dabi aawaz mein use pukaara, "Vi… Vivaan..." Meri aawaz us khamoshi mein goonji. Usne ek lamhe ke liye bhi foran jawab nahi diya. Woh waise hi zameen ke qareeb baitha raha, aur phir, ek aahista lekin bhaaripan liye hue apni gardan ko upar uthaya. Usne apni nazrein seedha meri taraf taraf kin.
 
Jaise hi uski aankhon ne meri aankhon ko chua, mere jism mein ek sardaari lahar daud gayi. Uski wo aankhein... aam taur par jo sard aur patthar jaisi hoti thin, abhi bilkul alag thin. Wo poori tarah surkh ho chuki thin, laal, jaise unme khoon utar aaya ho. Aur unke beechon-beech, paani ki ek halki si nami, kuchh aansoo the jo palkon ke kinaron par ruke hue the, lekin wo unhe girne nahi de raha tha. Uski ankhon ka wo dard, wo ghuma hua gussa aur ajeeb sa aalam dekh kar main aur zyada sehem si gayi. Main wahan se hil bhi nahi saki, bas ek kaanpte hue parinde ki tarah use dekh rahi thi.
 
Vivaan ne ektak, bina palak jhapkaye, meri aankhon mein dekha. Uski nazron ki wo gehrai aisi thi maano wo meri rooh ke andar tak jhaank raha ho, mere saare gunaahon, meri saari kamzori aur mere is waqt ke darr ko ek hi pal mein padh raha ho. Aur usne wahi dekhte hue, apne honton ke beech dabi cigarette ko khicha, aur ek aur lamba, gehra kash mara.
 
Cigarette ki chingari ek baar fir chamki, aur usne dhuan mere bilkul chehre ke samne, hawa mein chhod diya. Wo dhuan hamare beech ki doori ko cheerte hue mere gaalon aur naak se takraya. Uske baad, bina ek bhi lafz bole wo aahista se, apne kadam uthakar seedha khada ho gaya.
 
Jaise hi wo mere bilkul saamne khada hua, meri jaan hi jaise nikalne lagi. Wo mujhse itna qareeb tha ki uske jism ki garmahat aur uske andar uth rahe toofan ki khushboo mere qareeb aa gayi thi. Mera dil chaha ki main behosh ho jaun, ya zameen mein sama jaun, kyunki us waqt uski aankhon ki wo surkhi aur wo khamoshi kisi bade khatre ka aelan lag rahi thi.
 
Vivaan mere bilkul samne khada tha, itna qareeb ki uske seene ki uthal-puthal aur uske saanson ki garm aahat mere chehre par mehsoos ho rahi thi. Uski wo surkh, laal aankhein ektak bas meri aankhon mein gadi hui thin. Main aisi halat mein thi ki agar koi mujhe chhu bhi leta, toh shayad main dhool ki tarah bikhar kar gir padti. Mera poora wajood darr ke maare tharr-tharr kaanp raha tha. Ek ajeeb sa anjaana khauf mere dil aur dimaag ko is tarah jakad chuka tha ki saans lena bhi dushwaar ho gaya tha. Main bas ek murat bani, apni palke jhukane se bhi qasir, us psycho ladke ki unn siah aur dardnak aankhon mein dekhe ja rahi thi.
 
Tabhi, usne ek aur ajeeb harkat ki. Usne ek naya kash lene ke andaz mein apne honton ko khola aur gehra kash liya, bina ek pal ke liye bhi apni nazrein meri aankhon se hataye, jaise wo meri rooh ke andar tak utar kar mere saare chhupe hue raaz, mere darr aur meri majboori ko noch lena chahta ho. Aur phir, usne apne honton ke beech se wo dhuan nikaal kar seedha mere chehre par, meri naak aur aankhon ke qareeb chhod diya.
 
Wo dhuan mere chehre ko cheerte hue guzar gaya, aur uske turant baad, uske jabde is qadar sakht hue ki uske gaalon ki haddiyan ubhar aayin. Usne apne danton ko aapas mein peeste hue, ek aisi ghinauni, gandi aur zillat se bhari hui aawaz mein wo jumla kaha jisne mere jism ka ek-ek lomkaanta khada kar diya, aur mere andar ki duniya ko jala kar rakh diya.
 
Uske munh se nikla wo ek-ek lafz kisi dahakte hue lohe ki tarah mere kaano aur dil par daag gaya, "Tu kya us waqt apni gaand marwa rahi thi... do kaudi ki raand?" Aisa laga maano kisi ne achanak mere sar par ek bhari patthar de maara ho. Mera jism, jo pehle se hi darr ke maare kaanp raha tha, us ek lafz ko sunte hi wahi patthar ban gaya, ekdum jam sa gaya. Main saans lena bhool gayi. Mera gala andar se ekdam khushk ho gaya, aur dimag mein ek bhayanak, sannata chha gaya.
 
Ye kya sun liya tha maine? Ek mard, jiske sath meri ek alag hi ajeeb aur gunah-gar kahani judi thi, wo mujhe sareaam is tarah ki behuda, gandi aur sabse zaleel gaali de raha tha? Ek aisi aurat ko, jo nikaah shuda hai, jo samaj ke daayre mein ek izzatdar ghar se talluq rakhti hai, jiske apne zameer ka bojh pehle hi use qatl kar raha tha, use ek ghinoni zabaan mein pukaara gaya tha!
 
Mujhe is baat se jitna bura laga, use lafzon mein bayaan karna namumkin tha. Ek to maine itna bhayanak haadsa apni un aankhon ke saamne dekh liya jisne aaj tak ek maamuli si cheenti ko kuchalna aur use dard me tadapta hua dekhna bhi mehsoos nhi kiya tha, na hi maine kisi janwar ki qurbani ko aajtak apni nangi aankhon se hota dekha tha, aur aise me kisi aise mard ka sareaam khoon ho jaana jise abhi main kuchh der pehle se jaan chuki thi, itna gehra ghaao mere liye bardasht karne laayak nhi tha, aur upar se is ladke ne mujhpe ye jumla chhod kar shayad ek sawaal utha diya tha,  wo dard sirf kaano tak mehdood nahi tha, balki wo seedha meri rooh ke andar utar gaya.
 
Achanak mujhe apne wajood par, apni saanson par, aur apni is zindagani par aisi ghinn aane lagi ki mera jee chaha ki main wahi zameen par gir padun aur zameen phat jaye aur main usme hamesha ke liye dafan ho jaun. Mera sara guroor, meri bachi-khuchi izzat, aur meri wo ghairat jo abhi tak ek chote se tinke ki tarah bachi thi, us ek lafz ne pal bhar mein raakh kar di. “do kaudi ki raand?”... aur wo ganda lafz.
 
Kya meri auqaat sirf itni hi reh gayi thi? Kya ek aurat jab apni zindagi mein ek baar behak jaati hai, jab wo apne wajood se majboor ho kar ya kisi behkaawe mein aakar koi gunah kar baithti hai, toh kya duniya aur in mardon ki nazron mein uski izzat, uski aabru aur uski insaniyat ki koi keemat hi baaki nahi rehti? Kya har mard, jab mauqa mile, use kisi pair ki dhool ya kisi bazaar ki cheez ki tarah samajh kar kuchh bhi keh sakta hai?
 
Mera dil andar se cheekha, Nahi! Main aisi nahi hoon! Lekin wo cheekh mere gale ke andar hi ghut kar reh gayi. Meri aankhon se aasuon ka ek sailab achanak umad pada, jo bina kisi aawaz ke mere gaalon par behne laga. Wo aansoo darr ke nahi the, balki us bepanah zillat, us behis beizzati aur us rooh ko noch lene wale dard ke the jo Vivaan ke un gande lafzon ne mere andar paida kar diye the.
 
Mera dil kiya ki main apne dono kaan band kar lun, ya apna chehra chhupa lun. Main wahi khadi, pathar ki murat bani, apne aasuon mein doobi hui, aur us zaalim ki aankhon me dekhti hui khud ko duniya ki sabse bebas aur gandi aurat mehsoos kar rahi thi. Vivaan ke chehre par abhi bhi wo siah, sard aur pathar jaisi beparwahi thi, jo yeh bata rahi thi ki uske liye mere is dard, is zillat aur is rooh ke qatal ki koi ahmiyat nahi hai.

To Be Continued...