Heat Wave

[Kara lina]

garmee. garm, paseene vaalee garmee. jab bhee main garmiyon ke baare mein sochata hoon, meree yaaden mujhe mere jooniyar kolej pareekshaon ke baad ke dinon mein vaapas le jaatee hain. us garmee mein samoocha uttar bhaarat bheeshan garmee kee chapet mein tha.

main shilpee hoon. aur yah mere jooniyar kolej pareekshaon ke theek baad ke dinon kee kahaanee hai. main us vakt 19 saal ka tha. pareeksha samaapt hone ke ek saptaah baad hee garmee ka prakop shuroo ho gaya.

mere maata-pita ne deharaadoon mein lambe samay se khoe hue kuchh rishtedaaron se milane ka phaisala kiya. ve chaahate the ki main bhee unake saath taig karoon, lekin mainne mana kar diya. “un logon ke saath apanee chhuttiyaan barbaad karo jinhen main shaayad hee jaanata hoon? bilakul nahin!" main bade shahar, rishtedaaron aur maata-pita se door aazaadee ka svaad chakhana aur kuchh naya anubhav karana chaahata tha.

meree aazaad aatma, mere uchhaalabhare, sudaul 34deedee stan kee tarah, nidar aur adamy thee. isalie, yah nirnay liya gaya ki mere maata-pita ke deharaadoon se vahaan aane se pahale mujhe gaanv mein hamaare paitrk ghar mein 5 din bitaane kee anumati dee jae.

paanch din. akela. hamaaree paitrk sampatti par. “aah! aazaadee!" main bahut utsaahit tha.

ab, yah pushtainee ghar bada to hai lekin kisee bhee maanak se glaimaras nahin hai. yah uttar bhaarat ke theek madhy mein sthit hai. koee shoping mol nahin, koee pab nahin, koee badhiya haingaut spot nahin. to, main utsaahit kyon tha?

khair, 5 din kee aazaadee aur mee taim koee bura sauda nahin laga. 18 saal tak paapa-mammee ke niyantran mein rahane ke baad-skool-homavark-tyooshan-shaikshanik lakshy-saamaajik apekshaen-saathiyon ka dabaav-aalasee premee... ityaadi. kaash yah aur lamba hota, lekin 5 din kuchh na hone se to behatar hai.

paapa bole, “shilpee, jeetoo yaad hai? vah sampatti ka dekhabhaalakarta hai. mainne unase aapake rahane kee saaree vyavastha karane ko kaha hai.”

mujhe jeetookaaka yaad aa gaye. jahaan tak ​​mujhe yaad hai, vah us ghar ka dekhabhaal karane vaala tha. "usakee kya umr hai?" mainne paapa se poochha.

“jeetoo ab 67 ka ho gaya hoga,” paapa ne uttar diya. “apanee aadhee jindagee us ghar kee dekhabhaal mein bita dee hai. vah ek jaik-oph-ol hai. khaana pakaane sahit sab kuchh prabandhit kar sakate hain.

"apanee zaroorat kee har cheez paik kar lo, kuchh bhee chhootana mat." maan ne kaha. “tumhen vahaan koee saamaan nahin milega. aakhirakaar yah ek gaanv hai.”

isalie, main kiraaye kee taiksee mein paik sootakes, dhoop ka chashma, apana phon aur ek taibalet lekar chala gaya. mujhe jara bhee andaaja nahin tha ki vahaan pahunchane par kya hone vaala hai.
neeche mere pahunchane ke baad ke dinon ka vivaran hai.

din 1

gaanv pahunchane ke baad sabase pahalee baat jo mainne dekhee vah yah thee ki mausam kitana garm tha. yah jhulasa dene vaala tha. jeetukaaka ne kaha ki us varsh garmee kee lahar asaadhaaran roop se kroor thee. taapamaan pahale se hee 46 digree se oopar tha.

aur puraane ghar mein koee eyar kandeeshaning nahin thee!

"kyon?" mainne poochh liya.

jeetukaaka ne uttar diya, "mere alaava yahaan koee nahin rahata." “ab koee nahin aata. esee yoonit rakhane ka kya matalab hai?”

bamar. yah bahut garm aur paseene vaala hai. mainne jaldee se snaan kiya, jeetukaaka dvaara taiyaar kiya gaya dopahar ka bhojan kiya aur bistar par let gaya. jeetukaaka ne mere lie doosaree manjil par ek kamare kee vyavastha kee thee. kaar kee lambee yaatra ke baad main itana thak gaya tha ki mujhe jaldee hee neend aa gaee.

main achaanak ghutan aur asahajata mahasoos karake utha. chhat ka pankha nahin chal raha tha. yah bahut garm aur umas bhara tha. mujhe bahut paseena aa raha tha.

"jeetukaaka, pankha nahin chal raha hai," main apane bistar se chillaaya.

“bijalee kat gaee hai chhotee raanee. yah kaaphee saamaany hai.” jeetookaaka mujhe hamesha chhotee raanee kahakar bulaate the. yakeen nahin hai ki kyon.

"laanat hai!" mainne shaap diya. itanee garmee, koee esee nahin aur ab bijalee katautee. bhayaanak!

mainne samay dekha. shaam ke 6 baj rahe the. mera poora shareer paseene se tar tha. paseena mere maathe, gardan aur bra ke andar kleevej se bah raha tha. meree tee-shart paseene se bheeg gaee thee. meree skart paseene se bheeg gaee thee. meree bra mujhe maar rahee thee. itana chust-durust ki mujhe ghutan mahasoos hone lagee.

main uthee, apanee tee-shart utaaree, apanee bra ka huk khola, donon ko kamare ke kone mein phenk diya aur doosaree tee-shart pahan lee. ek patalee, halkee jhilamilaatee tee-shart. neeche bina bra ke.

mainne ek chhotee minee skart pahanee huee thee, isalie mainne use pahan rakha tha. mere sootakes mein isase chhota kuchh bhee upalabdh nahin tha. mainne minee skart ke neeche apanee niyamit paintee nahin pahanee huee thee. garmee aur umas ke kaaran, mainne dopahar ke bhojan ke baad sone se pahale ek chhotee saphed petee pahanee. petee ne bamushkil mere kroch aur slit ko dhaka.

mera bat pooree tarah khula hua tha. mainne socha ki petee niyamit paintee kee tulana mein adhik aaraamadaayak hogee. lekin bijalee katautee ne use bhee paseene se lathapath kar diya. isase bhee badatar, meree kamar mein khujalee hone lagee.

mainne apana haath skart ke neeche daal diya. aur meree petee ke oopar se mere kroch ko khujalaana shuroo kar diya. khujalee badhatee gayee. yah meree jaanghon kee bheetaree paraton, mere kroch aur jaangh ke jod tak phail gaya. yahaan tak ​​ki meree daraar ke andar bhee khujalee hone lagee.

mal. meree choot par baal ugane lage hain! mujhe apanee mom kee pattiyaan ghar se laanee chaahie theen. main unhen le jaana bhool gaya.

mainne apanee ungaliyaan petee ke andar daaleen aur apanee jaanghon aur choot ko khujalaaya. baalon ke chhote-chhote tukade bade ho gae the aur unhonne meree kamar, meree daraar kee pooree lambaee aur yahaan tak ​​ki meree gaand kee daraar ke andar tak ko dhak diya tha. chhote-chhote baalon ne khujalee ko aur bhee badatar bana diya.

jab main bistar par letee huee thee aur apanee skart ke neeche khuja rahee thee, achaanak mujhe daravaaje ke paas halkee see halachal aur roshanee kee jhilamilaahat dikhaee dee. daravaaza khula tha. jeetookaaka ek haath mein laalaten aur plaastik ka haath vaala pankha lie vahaan khade the.

vah saphed baniyaan aur lungee pahane hue tha. aur usakee lungee ke andar kroch eriya ke paas ek vishaal tamboo tha. main tamboo dekhakar chaunk gaya lekin koee pratikriya nahin dee. uthe bhee nahin.

jeetukaaka ne kaha, "main tumhaare lie lait aur ek haath ka pankha laaya hoon, chhotee raanee." usane laalaten aur plaastik ka pankha mez par rakha aur kamare se baahar jaane ke lie muda. meree nazar usake kroch aur usakee lungee ke neeche chhipe hue bhaaree haard-on par padee. mere man mein ek vichaar aaya.

“jeetukaaka ko mat chhodo. pankha yaheen le aao, mainne bistar par letate hue kaha.

mainne apanee ungaliyaan apanee skart ke neeche se nikaal lee theen. jeetukaaka haath ka pankha lekar mere bistar par chale gaye. unaka irekshan bana raha aur unhonne ise chhipaane kee koshish nahin kee. usane andaraviyar nahin pahana tha, mainne khud se kaha. aur use apane irekshan se bilkul bhee sharmindagee mahasoos nahin ho rahee thee.

“pharsh par baith jao. mujhe pankha karo, mainne aadesh diya. jeetukaaka kartavyaparaayanata se pharsh par baith gae aur mujhe pankha jhalane lage. main bistar ke kinaare par ludhak gaee, apanee daraar kee or ishaara kiya aur usase vahaan pankha karane ke lie kaha. usane mere raseele kleevej aur usake beech se bahate paseene ko ghoor kar dekha aur pankha jhalana shuroo kar diya.

mainne jo jheenee tee-shart pahanee thee, vah paseene ke kaaran mere stanon se chipak gaee thee. mainne dekha ki tee-shart ke kapade mein se mere nipals dikh rahe the. mainne apana seena us pankhe kee or badhaaya jise jeetukaaka hila rahe the. vo mere stanon aur nipals ko vaasana bharee najaron se ghoor raha tha. lekin kuchh bhee karane mein asahaay mahasoos kar raha tha.

“jeetukaaka, meree skart ke neeche pankha. vahaan bahut garmee lag rahee hai.” yah kahate hue, mainne apane pair thode se khole, unhen jeetukaaka ke saamane rakha aur utha liya.

kuchh sekand tak usakee or se koee pratikriya nahin aaee. mainne use meree skart ke neeche meree petee ko ghoorate hue dekha. unaka irekshan vaise ka vaisa hee raha.

vaastav mein, usakee lungee ke neeche kuchh halachal ho rahee thee jaise usaka land hil raha ho aur bada ho raha ho aur drshy ka aanand le raha ho. usane meree skart ke neeche pankha jhalana shuroo kar diya. mujhe bahut maza aaya. lekin main ise aur aage le jaana chaahata tha. mainne socha ki jeetukaaka ek naukar tha, jisane mujhe badhat dila dee.

“jeetukaaka, neeche bahut paseena hai. ise mita do, mainne aadesh diya.

phir kuchh minaton tak usakee or se koee pratikriya nahin aaee. pankha jhalana band ho gaya

. aur phir mainne apanee petee par usakee saansen mahasoos keen. mainne neeche dekha. vah meree petee soongh raha tha! kya bigaad hai! aaie dekhen ki yah kahaan jaata hai.

usane paseena ponchhane ke lie meree jaanghon ke andarunee hisse par apanee ungaliyaan phiraanee shuroo kar deen. phir usane apanee ungaliyaan meree petee ke andar saraka deen. usane apanee ungaliyaan mere chhote-chhote jaghan baalon, meree choot ke honthon ke baahar ke baalon mein phiraeen aur meree bhaganaasa ko chhua. main usake sparsh se sihar uthee. yah achchha laga.

“chhotee raanee, ​​yahaan sirph paseena nahin hai,” unhonne kaha.

“phir aur kya?” mainne turant uttar diya. "jaldee jaanchen."

usakee ungaliyaan meree choot, bhaganaasa aur meree yoni ke mukh ko chhoo gaeen. bas udghaatan.

"yah phisalan bhara, geela hai aur isamen paseena nahin aata." usane ungalee munh mein daal lee. “yah namakeen hai. aisa lag raha hai jaise tum bheeg gayee ho chhotee raanee.”

mujhe pata tha ki main tha. aur main jaanata tha ki main usase aage kya karavaana chaahata hoon. "ise saaf karen. ise saaf karo. meree paintee utaaro,” mainne usase kaha.

usane kuchh sekand intajaar kiya, phir apane haath meree skart ke andar daal die, meree petee ko kamar ke donon or se pakad liya aur use mere pairon ke neeche ghuma diya. jaise hee usane ise pooree tarah se hataaya, usane ise apanee hathelee mein le liya aur kaha, “yah bahut chhota hai! roomaal se bhee chhota!” aur use soonghane laga.

mainne socha, vah ek dusht vyakti hai. lekin use meree geelee paintee ko soonghate hue dekhane ka aanand aaya. phir usane apanee 2 ungaliyaan meree geelee choot ke hothon par ragadana shuroo kar diya. vo jitana ragadata, meree choot utanee hee geelee hotee jaatee. vah nahin ruka. meree choot aur klit ko masalata raha. main ab buree tarah se leek ho raha tha. usane meree gaand ke chhed ko chhua aur use ponchhane kee koshish kee.

"yah kaam nahin kar raha hai," mainne usase kaha, kyonki main har gujarate sekand ke saath adhik kaamuk aur geela hota ja raha tha. “ise apanee jeebh se saaf karo.” hamesha kee tarah kuchh sekand ka thaharaav tha. tabhee mujhe usakee saansen meree nangee choot par mahasoos hueen. vah phir soongh raha tha!

"aap kya kar rahe hain?" main chidh gaya.

"isakee khushaboo bahut achchhee hai," usane uttar diya. aur phir usane apanee jeebh meree geelee yoni par rakh dee aur chaatane laga.

mere shareer mein aanand kee nadiyaan bah gaeen. usakee jeebh meree choot ke chhed se andar-baahar, kinaaron ke aasapaas, honthon par, meree bhaganaasa par aur yahaan tak ki mere nitamb ke chhed par bhee aatee-jaatee rahatee thee.

"isaka svaad bhee achchha hai," usane mera ras peete hue apane honth thapathapaaye.

mainne apanee aankhen band kar leen aur karaahane lagee. pahale dheere se, phir tez aur tez. main leek aur leek hotee rahee, kaampatee rahee aur karaahatee rahee. aur phir, mera ras nikal gaya. main charamotkarsh par pahunch gaya. jor jor. yah itana teevr charamasukh tha, mere jeevan ka ab tak ka sabase teevr. meree yonee se ras kee nadiyaan bahakar usake chehare par aa gaeen.

usane meree choot se nikalane vaale taral padaarth kee aakhiree boond ko bhee chaata aur chaata. phir usane meree gaand ke chhed ko chaata, jo bhee taral padaarth se bhara hua tha. usane oopar dekha. main santushti se usakee or muskuraaya. laalaten kee mand roshanee mein usaka chehara chamak raha tha.

usakee naak, honth, thuddee aur yahaan tak ki usakee moonchhon par bhee mera safed ras laga hua tha.

"mujhe kyon?" usane poochha.

"kya?" main samajh nahin saka.

“mere saath aisa kyon karen? aapaka koee boyaphrend to hoga hee. mujhe kyon?" usane poochhataachh kee.

mainne aah bharee. “mera boyaphrend aalasee aur moorkh hai. vah mere saath tulana mein apane plesteshan ke saath adhik samay bitaata hai.

"vah kya hai?" usane playstation ke baare mein kabhee nahin suna tha.

"veediyo gem," mainne uttar diya.

vah nahin samajha. lekin vah khada ho gaya aur bola, “tumhen yahaan koee andaragaaraments nahin pahanana chaahie, chhotee raanee. yah bahut garm hai. dinabhar bijalee katautee hotee rahatee hai. aapako apane nijee angon ko saans lene dena chaahie.

"kya?" main usake saahasik sujhaav par hansa.

"haan. andaraviyar se aapako paseena aaega aur khujalee hogee. jab tak tum is ghar mein ho, kuchh bhee mat pahanana. mere alaava yahaan dhyaan dene vaala koee nahin hai.” unhonne aage kaha, "aapako apane guptaangon ko adhik havaadaar karana chaahie."

mujhe yakeen hee nahin ho raha tha ki hamaaree propartee ka 20 saal tak keyaratekar mujhe itanee gandee salaah de raha tha. pichhale 30 minat kee ghatanaon se unhen hausala mila hoga.

"kya iseelie aap andaraviyar nahin pahanate?" mainne usakee nirbheekata ko apanee nidarata se milaane kee koshish kee.

"nahin. mainne apane jeevan mein kabhee bhee andaraviyar nahin pahana hai. jab main bada ho raha tha to mere gaanv mein kisee ne bhee aisa nahin kiya, unhonne uttar diya. "ab, yah ek aadat ban gaee hai."

ab samay aa gaya hai ki main apana dhyaan apanee jaanghon se hataakar apanee jaanghon par lagaoon. vah mere bistar ke paas khada tha. usakee lungee mein tamboo pahale jaisa hee bada tha. aur mainne sire par geelepan ka ek bada gol dhabba dekha. yah usaka pree-kam hona chaahie!

"theek hai, mujhe dekhane do ki tumhaare paas kya hai," mainne kaha. "apana baniyaan utaaro."

usane turant apanee baniyaan utaar kar pharsh par phenk dee. mainne jeetukaaka ka nagn dhad pahale kabhee nahin dekha. bachapan se mainne unhen shart, kurta aur baniyaan mein dekha hai. usake poore kandhe, baanh, chhaatee, pet aur peeth par baal the. ghane, ghane, ghungharaale, kaale baal

usaka pet bahut bada tha. aapakee saamaany biyar belee se bhee bada. lekin mujhe usakee lungee ke peechhe usake pet ke 6 inch neeche jo kuchh chhipa tha usamen jyaada dilachaspee thee.

"mujhe ise utaarane do," mainne kaha. mainne bistar ke kinaare baith kar usakee kamar par lagee lungee kee gaanth hata dee. lungee chupachaap pharsh par gir gaee. bahut khoob! men to sahee! lungee ke neeche jo chhipa tha vah usake pet se bhee kaaphee bada tha.

ghane baalon vaalee jhaadee. ek vishaal kaale land ne theek meree or ishaara kiya. aur 2 vishaal genden - aaloo ke aakaar - ghane, ghungharaale baalon se dhakee huee. jeetookaaka aadhe andhere, aadhe roshanee vaale, aadhe roshanee vaale kamare mein ek nagn, baalon vaale jaanavar kee tarah khada tha. usake vishaal kaale land kee nasen kisee ped kee shaakhaon kee tarah ubharee huee theen.

usake land ka supaara laalaten kee roshanee mein chamak raha tha. mainne apanee ungalee se sire ko chhua. mere ungalee kheenchane par bhee ek chipachipa, jel jaisa taral padaarth meree ungalee se chipak gaya. yah behad gaadha pree-kam tha aur isamen bahut tez gandh thee. main isaka svaad chakhana chaahata tha, lekin gandh ne mujhe vichalit kar diya.

main apana chehara usake dik ke kareeb laaya, aur gandh majaboot bleech kee tarah tej ho gaee. usakee gendon mein bhee vahee gandh thee.

"tumane badaboo phailaaya!" mainne kaha aur usake land se apana munh hata liya. “yahaan neeche amezan varshaavan jaisa hai. aap shev kyon nahin karate?”

“kya shev karo?” vah aashcharyachakit lag raha tha.

"is jangal ko saaf karo," mainne usakee baalon vaalee jhaadee ko kheencha. “aur aapakee genden. ve oon se dhake aaloo kee tarah dikhate hain!”

vah sachamuch bhramit lag raha tha. "main ek aadamee hoon. sabhee purushon ke baal neeche kee or hote hain. mujhe sheving kyon karanee chaahie? main kaise shev kar sakata hoon? mere gaanv mein koee bhee apanee gotiyaan nahin kaatata.”

mainne socha, kitana aadim asanskrt jaanavar hai. vah aaj bhee paashaan yug mein phansa hua hai. purush in dinon niyamit roop se apanee andakosh aur kamar ko shev karate hain. lekin usase bahas karane ka koee matalab nahin hai.

mainne hataasha mein usase kaha, "jab tak tum saare baal nahin hataoge, main tumhaara land nahin choosoongee." “aur tumhen apana dik dhona hoga. isase badaboo aatee hai

vah kamare ke doosaree or chala gaya, ek alamaaree kholee aur kuchh nikaala. phir, vah mere paas aaya aur vah cheez mere haath mein de dee. yah pairaashoot naariyal tel kee ek chhotee botal thee.

“isaka aur apane haathon ka upayog karo. mujhe aapake munh kee zaroorat nahin hai. ye kahate hue usane meree minee skart phaad dee aur meree tee-shart ko 2 baar mein utaar kar neeche pharsh par phenk diya. "let jao, chehara oopar karo," usane krodhit svar mein aadesh diya.

main pooree tarah nagn hokar bistar par let gaya, usakee aavaaz ke badale hue svar se thoda ghabara gaya. vah theek mere chehare ke oopar khada tha. usaka land seedha aur seedha khada tha.

"meree gendon kee tel se maalish karo," usane phir aadesh diya.

mainne apanee hatheliyon par tel daala aur usakee goliyon par lagaana shuroo kar diya. ve bahut bade the. main unhen apanee hatheliyon mein sama nahin saka. aur ve bhaaree the, bahut bhaaree.

"ab, mere land kee maalish karo," usaka agala aadesh aaya.

mainne usake land par tel lagaaya. donon haathon se. aisa lag raha tha maano mainne koee mota lohe ka paip pakad rakha ho. tel se sana hua vah laalaten kee mand roshanee mein chamak raha tha.

“ab, apana ek haath mere land par aage-peechhe sarakaatee raho,” usane aadesh diya. “aur doosare haath se meree gotiyon ko ragado.”

jaisa mujhase kaha gaya tha vais mainne kiya. main badee mushkil se usakee gendon ko ek haath se pakad pa raha tha. ve bahut bade the. aur mera chhota sa haath usake ped ke tane ke aakaar ke land par ek chhadee kee tarah lag raha tha.

“nichodate raho, pamp karate raho. aur tez, aur tez,” jaise-jaise usaka land sakht aur bada hota gaya, usakee aavaaz tez hotee gaee. usake land ke sire se pree-kam taral mere gale aur gardan par tapakane laga. gandh atyadhik thee, lekin main chalata raha.

sekand beet gae. minat beet gae. main usakee chhadee ko pamp karata raha aur usake supaare ko nichodata raha. mere haath dukhane lage. mainne thakaan mahasoos kee. jaise hee main haar maanane vaalee thee, usane mere haath ko chodana shuroo kar diya. usane zor se dhakka maara aur apana land meree hathelee par rakh diya.

usane apanee andakoshon ko meree ungaliyon par pakad liya, jo pahale se hee unhen pakad rahee theen aur jor se bheench liya. aur phir vah ek zor kee ghuraghuraahat ke saath saham gaya. ek jaanavar kee tarah. oopar se garm gaadhee malaee kee phuhaaren jharane kee tarah mere shareer par girane lageen.

safed kreem ke tukade mere gale, stan, nipals, naabhi, baal aur chehare par gire. aur usane aakhiree 2 boonden mere hothon par nichod deen. mainne anajaane mein apana munh khol diya. aur taral padaarth andar risane laga. yah gaadha, chipachipa, bahut chipachipa tha. aur usamen bleech jaisee tez gandh thee.

jeetookaaka ne pharsh se apanee lungee aur baniyaan uthaee aur kamare se baahar chala gaya. unhonne ek shabd bhee nahin kaha. main kuchh der bistar par leta raha aur phir usake dvaara chhodee gaee laalaten ko lekar baatharoom mein chala gaya.

main darpan ke saamane khada ho gaya aur laalaten pakad lee. main apane aap ko nahin pahachaan saka. mere ooparee shareer ka har inch gaadhe, saphed veery se dhaka hua tha. mere baal, naak, honth, stan aur pet par veery lag gaya tha. veery kee boonden gond kee tarah mere shareer se chipak gaeen! ve neeche nahin gir rahe the, bas apanee jagah par atake hue the.

main veery se naha gaya. jeetukaaka ne mujhe veery snaan karaaya tha!

mainne apane chehare se kuchh veery uthaaya aur apanee jeebh par rakh liya. namakeen, chipachipa, malaeedaar - kya yahee aazaadee ka svaad hai?

[Kara lina]

doosara din

main agale din jaldee utha aur snaan kiya. pichhalee raat, mujhe apane shareer se saara chipachipa veery dhone ke lie 30 minat tak nahaana pada. aaj subah mainne ek baar phir der tak snaan kiya aur naashte ke lie neeche chala gaya.

subah-subah bijalee aa gaee thee. lekin abhee bhee bahut garmee thee. isalie, mainne jeetukaaka kee salaah par dhyaan dene ka phaisala kiya. neeche jaane se pahale mainne naitee pahan lee aur koee bra ya paintee nahin pahanee.

naashta taiyaar tha. mainne jeetukaaka ko "suprabhaat!" kahakar abhivaadan kiya. unhonne vaise hee abhivaadan kiya. aaj usane doosaree lungee aur baniyaan pahan rakhee thee.

naashta karate samay mainne dekha ki vah mere stan aur naitee ke neeche se dikh rahe mere nipals kee chhaap ko ghoor raha tha. usaka dhyaan bhatakaane ke lie mainne poochha, "tumhaara kamara kahaan hai, jeetookaaka?" usane uttar diya, "chhat par, aapake shayanakaksh ke theek oopar."

jaise hee mainne naashta khatm kiya aur oopar apane kamare mein jaane laga, jeetukaaka ne kaha, “main ab snaan karane ja raha hoon. dopahar ka bhojan dopahar ek baje hoga.” main apane kamare mein gaee, apane maata-pita ko phon kiya aur unase baat kee, kuchh doston se baatacheet kee, aur apane premee ko sandesh bheja.

main kal raat kee ghatana ke baare mein sochata raha aur bechain hone laga. meree bechainee ne meree utsukata badha dee. mainne jeetukaaka ko dekhane ke lie chhat par jaane ka phaisala kiya. aaie dekhen ki kya usane apana snaan samaapt kar liya hai.

main vahee naitee (aur neeche kuchh nahin) pahanakar seedhiyaan chadhakar chhat par pahunchee. aur mainne jo dekha, use dekhakar daravaaje par thithak kar khada ho gaya.

chhat ke beech mein ek chhota sa kamara tha jisamen ek chhotee see rasoee aur ek chhota baatharoom tha. baatharoom ke saamane - chhat par - jeetukaaka khade the.

vah hiran-nanga tha! unake pairon ke paas pairaashoot naariyal tel kee ek badee botal padee huee thee. vah dhoop mein khada hokar apane shareer par tel laga raha tha

pahalee baar mainne jeetookaaka ko din ke ujaale mein pooree tarah nagn dekha. kal raat laalaten kee dheemee roshanee mein tha. is baar tez dhoop usake sir ke theek oopar chamak rahee thee.

usaka tel se sana hua kaala land bhee sooraj kee roshanee mein chamak raha tha. vo aadha khada tha. usake bade baalon vaale andakosh usakee taangon ke beech neeche latak rahe the, jab vah khud kee maalish kar raha tha to vah baen aur daen ghoom raha tha.

yah aadamee bahut lamba nahin tha - lagabhag 5 pheet 8, lekin usaka shareer bail kee tarah bana hua tha. ped jaise mote haath aur pair, bada gol pet, bade koolhe. aur vah baaladaar tha. usakee chhaatee, pet, kandhe, haath aur pair ghane kaale ghungharaale baalon se dhake hue the. unakee peeth aur yahaan tak ​​ki unake koolhon par bhee atyadhik baal the.

lekin baalon kee sabase ghanee vrddhi usake pairon ke beech thee - usake pyoobis aur andakosh - kuchh aisa jo mere premee ke paas nahin tha. (usake paas saaph-sutharee genden aur ek kroch tha).

achaanak jeetookaaka kee najar mujh par padee. ek kshan ke lie vah avaak khada rah gaya. main bhee vaheen khada raha. phir vo meree taraph ghoom gaya.

“chhotee raanee, ​​tumhen kuchh chaahie?” usane apanee nagnata ko chhipaane kee koshish kie bina poochha.

"nahin, main bas tumhen dekhana chaahata tha," mainne javaab diya aur apane kamare kee or mud gaya.

"ek pal ke lie yahaan aao," unhonne kaha.

main usakee or chala, na jaane usake man mein kya tha. mujhe bhee yakeen nahin tha ki mere man mein kya tha. lekin mujhe apane pairon ke beech geelaapan mahasoos hua.

"kya aap mujh par tel malana pasand karenge?" usane vinamrata se poochha.

nahin, mainne sir hilaaya. mujhe koee aapatti nahin hogee. mainne saath khelane ka phaisala kiya aur botal se tel apanee hatheliyon par daal liya.

"yahaan ragado," usane apane aadhe khade dik aur gendon kee or ishaara kiya.

"agar koee hamen dekh le to kya hoga?" mainne poochh liya.

"chinta mat karo. itanee garmee mein koee chhat par nahin chadhega. saath hee, hamaara ghar pados mein sabase ooncha hai. hamaaree chhat padosee chhaton se nahin dekhee ja sakatee, unhonne mujhe aashvaasan diya.

main usake saamane ghutanon ke bal baith gaya aur donon haathon se usakee chhadee par tel mal diya. mere ghutane pharsh par the, aur choonki vah khada tha to meree kleevej usake najarie se dikhaee de rahee thee.

"main dekh raha hoon ki tumane neeche kuchh bhee nahin pahana hai," vah muskuraaya aur mere kleevej ko ghoorakar dekha.

"haan, mainne aapakee salaah ka paalan kiya," mainne uttar diya. phir turant kaha, “yah sachamuch bahut garm hai. tum dhoop mein kyon khade ho?”

“main chhat par rahata hoon. mera kamara yaheen hai. baatharoom yaheen hai. isalie, main yahaan tel lagaata hoon, unhonne kaha. usaka shareer ab tel aur paseene se lathapath ho gaya tha. mujhe bhee paseena aane laga tha.

kuchh hee minat mein usaka kaala danda sakht hokar poora khada ho gaya. main ise donon haathon se pamp karata raha. usake land kee nasen ubharee huee theen aur aisa lag raha tha jaise koee mota lohe ka paip ho.

mainne chamadee peechhe kheenchee aur usake ling ka gulaabee sir ujaagar kar diya. isamen pichhalee raat kee hee gandee badaboodaar gandh thee. aur us par chipachipa safed jamaav tha, shaayad pichhalee raat ke veery ka bacha hua hissa

“yoo! jeetukaaka, yah bahut ganda hai! tumhen ise dhona hoga, mainne ghrna se kaha.

“main roz tel lagaata hoon,” usane uttar diya, “jaisa ki aap abhee laga rahe hain.”

"tel nahin," mainne virodh kiya. “tel is saphed jamaav ko chipachipa bana raha hai. ise saabun aur paanee se saaph karana hoga.”

“theek hai, tum aisa karo. saabun baatharoom ke andar hai.”

main utha, baatharoom ke andar gaya, saabun kee tikiya aur paanee ka mag liya aur phir se usake saamane ghutanon ke bal baith gaya.

mainne apanee hatheliyon par dher saara saabun ragada, usake land par lagaaya aur sar ko achchhee tarah saaph kiya. isamen 5 minat lage, lekin jab mainne us par paanee ka mag daala to vah saaph suthara dikhane laga.

“dekho, ab kitana achchha lag raha hai?” khushaboo bhee achchhee aa rahee hai, mainne usase kaha.

“saabun meree tvacha ko shushk bana deta hai. mujhe tel pasand hai, usane laaparavaahee se uttar diya.

beshak, tum aisa karate ho, tum aadim jaanavar, mainne socha.

mainne usakee goliyon par saabun lagaaya aur unhen bhee ragad kar saaph kar diya. ve itane bhaaree the ki aisa laga jaise main 2 bade naariyal utha raha hoon.

"ye itane bhaaree kyon hain?" mainne ek jigyaasu bachche kee tarah usase poochha.

"kyonki unake andar kya hai," usane sharaarat se uttar diya.

"unake andar kya hai?" mujhe turant ehasaas hua ki yah prashn kitana moorkhataapoorn tha, lekin phir bhee usane uttar diya.

"aap jo kar rahe hain use karate rahen, aur aapako jald hee pata chal jaega," vah muskurae.

mujhe pata hai. mainne vah kal raat dekha. kisee ne bhee mujhe pichhalee raat kee tarah veery se nahalaaya nahin tha.

"kya main aapase koee baat poochhoon?" mainne poochh liya. “mera boyaphrend tumhaaree umr se aadhe se bhee kam umr ka hai - sateek roop se kahen to meree umr - lekin usaka land aur genden tumase bahut chhote hain. usaka veery bahut patala aur paaneedaar bhee hota hai. tumhaare jaisa mota nahin. kya hai tumhaara bhed?"

vah kuchh sekand ke lie chup raha aur javaab diya, “yah dukhad hai ki aise yuva vyakti ka veery paanee jaisa hota hai. land ka saiz koee maayane nahin rakhata. yah oonchaee, umr aur shaareerik sanrachana ke aadhaar par vyakti se doosare vyakti mein bhinn ho sakata hai. lekin purush ka veery gaadha aur bharapoor hona chaahie. yah jitana gaadha hoga, isamen beej utana hee adhik hoga.”

mujhe usakee baat par aashchary hua. aisa lag raha tha jaise kisee kam padhe-likhe aadamee ke gyaan ke shabd, jo na to mere premee jitana parishkrt tha aur na hee parishkrt tha.

"to, aapaka rahasy kya hai?" mainne phir poochha.

“kaun sa rahasy? main nahin jaanata, unhonne uttar diya. “main saada khaana khaata hoon, dhoomrapaan nahin karata, sharaab nahin peeta, har din tel maalish karata hoon. kya yahee kaaran hai? mujhen nahin pata."

"theek hai," main niraash tha ki koee rahasy nahin tha.

“desee ghee ho sakata hai,” use achaanak yaad aaya. “mera saara khaana desee ghee mein banata hai.”

"deshee ghee? oh teree! yah dil ke lie bura hai, mainne kaha.

“hrday ke lie bura hai, lekin veery ke lie achchha hai,” usane mujhe sudhaara. "desee ghee manushy mein beejotpaadan badhaata hai."

kya iseelie jeetukaaka ke paas itanee bhaaree genden hain? deshee ghee? unaka pet bhee bahut bada hai, jisaka kaaran bhee desee ghee hee hoga. yah koee aadarsh vikalp nahin lagata.

“jeetukaaka, mujhe apana rejar aur sheving kreem do. main tumhaaree jhaadee kaatana chaahata hoon, mainne usase kaha.

"kya? kyon?" unake dimaag ke purje hil chuke the.

"yah jangal jaisa dikhata hai," mainne usake ghane jaghan baalon ko kheenchate hue uttar diya. “aur isase badaboo aatee hai. yah asvasth hai.”

jaise hee mainne unhen kheencha, unake jaghan ke baalon kee kuchh laten ukhad gaeen aur meree ungaliyon se chipak gaeen. "dekhana? kitanee gadabad hai!" mainne use dikhaaya.

"nahin," usane balapoorvak uttar diya. "main aisa nahin kar sakata. yah sharmanaak hai. maana jaata hai ki purushon ke neeche ghane baal hote hain. shahar ke log shaayad aisa kar rahe honge, lekin yahaan gaanv mein isakee anumati nahin hai.”

mujhe ehasaas hua ki usase bahas karane ka koee matalab nahin hai. unake paas mardaanagee ke baare mein puraane zamaane ke vichaar the. mainne vishay badal diya.

"theek hai, phir mujhe shev karane do," mainne usase kaha. “mere baal neeche kee or badhane lage hain. aur isamen khujalee hotee hai.”

"haan, aap kar sakate hain," vah turant sahamat ho gaya. “mahilaen kate hue nijee angon ke saath behatar dikhatee hain. khaas taur par aap jaisee yuva shaharee ladakiyaan.”

vah apane baatharoom mein gaya aur paanee ka ek mag, sheving kreem kee ek tyoob, ek sheving brash aur ek plaastik tvin-bled rejar lekar vaapas aaya.

"aaeena? mujhe ek darpan kee aavashyakata hai, mainne usase kaha.

“baatharoom kee deevaar par darpan laga hua hai. ekamaatr haindaheld darpan aapake shayanakaksh mein hai, unhonne uttar diya. “neeche jaane kee jaroorat nahin hai. main tumhaaree hajaamat bana doonga.”

mainne aashchary se usakee or dekha. usakee aankhon mein havas aur honthon par gandee muskaan thee. usaka nagn tel se sana hua land khambhe kee tarah sakht tha, aur usakee genden veery se bharee huee lag rahee theen.

"theek hai," mainne sharamaate hue uttar diya. "kisee ne mujhe pahale shev nahin kiya hai."

darasal, main apanee choot aur gaand par vaiksing karaatee thee, lekin mainne isaka jikr nahin kiya kyonki vah vaiksing nahin samajhata tha.

“main ise theek se karoonga. aap dekhenge, jeetukaaka apane kamare se ek chaadar lekar aae aur mere saamane pharsh par bichha dee. "apanee naitee utaaro," unhonne kaha.

"kya yah aavashyak hai?" mainne poochh liya. “mainne neeche kuchh bhee nahin pahana hai.” mainne use dikhaane ke lie naitee ko apanee kamar tak kheench liya.

meree nangee koochee dekh kar usakee aankhen chamak utheen. lekin unhonne kaha, “tumhaaree naitee gandee ho jaayegee. aapake aur mere haathon mein tel hai. mujhe ise utaarane do.”

ek tvarit gati mein, usane meree naitee uthaee, mere sir ke oopar kheenchee aur bedasheet par phenk dee. main ab din ke ujaale mein chhat par bilkul nangee khadee thee. jeetukaaka kee aankhen ab vaasana se bhar gaeen. mujhe apanee nagnata par sharm mahasoos huee.

“bedasheet par pet ke bal let jao,” usane aadesh diya. "aapakee peeth oopar honee chaahie."

main bedasheet par aundhe munh let gaya. meree peeth ab sooraj ke saamane aa gaee thee.

"apane koolhe uthao," usaka doosara aadesh aaya. mera dil tejee se dhadakane laga. vah kya karane kee yojana bana raha tha? mainne jhijhakate hue apane nitamb oopar uthaaye lekin taangen band rakheen.

mera chehara, stan aur haath neeche kee or bedasheet par the. meree kamar aur nitamb ghutanon ke sahaare oopar kee or uthe hue the.

"apane pair phailao," usaka teesara aadesh aaya.

main hichakichaaya. apane koolhon ko oopar karake pair phailaana ashobhaneey lag raha tha. mainne apane pair thode alag kar liye. vah mere pairon ke beech ghutanon ke bal baith gaya aur mere donon pairon ko apane haathon se pakad liya. usane unhen chauda kar diya - mere baen pair ko apane baen haath se aur mere daahine pair ko apane daahine haath se.

usaka chehara meree gaand ke chhed ke theek oopar beech mein tha. kuchh sekand tak kuchh nahin hua. tabhee mujhe usakee saansen apanee choot par mahasoos hueen. vah soongh raha tha! dobaara!

"aap kya kar rahe hain?" mainne jhunjhalaakar poochha. "tum hamesha idhar-udhar kyon soonghate rahate ho?"

"isakee khushaboo bahut achchhee hai," usane besharmee se uttar diya. “mainne pahale kabhee itanee taaza aur saaf yonee kee gandh mahasoos nahin kee thee. gaanv kee ladakiyon kee aisee meethee-sugandhit munda yoniyaan nahin hoteen.

usakee ashleelata ne mujhe chaunka diya. main is aadamee ko jeevan bhar jaanata hoon. mujhe kabhee nahin pata tha ki vah ek vikrt vyakti hai.

“tum sachamuch badee ho gaee ho, chhotee raanee,” vah bola. usane apanee ungaliyon se meree choot ke honthon ko ek saath dabaaya aur chhed ko band kar diya. un hothon se turant namee tapakane lagee. “tumhaaree geelee yoni sooj gaee hai. mainne apane jeevan mein sabase adhik geelaapan dekha hai.”

isase pahale ki main kuchh pratikriya kar paatee, usane apanee jeebh se meree choot ke honthon ko chaatana shuroo kar diya tha. kuchh hee sekand mein main usakee saaree baaten bhool gaya. usakee chaat ne mujhe doosaree duniya mein pahuncha diya.

usane meree choot ko baahar se chaata, phir chhed khola aur apanee jeebh andar daal dee. main khud par kaaboo nahin rakh paee aur jor-jor se karaahane lagee. mera ras khulakar bahane laga. jaise-jaise usakee jeebh mere chhed ke andar gaharaee tak jaatee gaee, main geelee aur geelee hotee gaee. aur meree karaahon ke saath-saath pach-pach ka shor bhee badh gaya.

chhat par, dopahar kee tez dhoop mein, bheeshan garmee kee lahar ke beech, jeetukaaka ne ghanton tak meree choot ke chhed ko jeebh se choda. main kam se kam teen baar charam par pahuncha aur apana ras usake chehare, naak aur hothon par chhidak diya.

jab vah aakhirakaar ruka, to mere pair kaanp rahe the. main ab apane nitamb oopar nahin utha sakatee thee. mere pair thakaavat se dhah gae aur mera shareer paseene se lathapath ho gaya. mainne usakee taraph dekha. usaka chehara bhee paseene aur mere safed ras se lathapath tha.

usane apana chehara chaata, apanee ungalee se apanee naak aur gaalon se ras ponchha aur apane munh mein daal liya. aisa lag raha tha jaise vah garmee ke dinon mein aaisakreem kee tarah isaka svaad le raha ho.

usane mujhe apanee saansen sambhaalane dee aur apana sanyam vaapas paane diya. kuchh minaton ke baad unhonne kaha, “theek hai, chalo shev karate hain. apane koolhon ko phir se oopar uthaen.”

"are nahin dubaara nahin. aaj nahin. main thak gaya hoon, mainne usase vinatee kee.

"chinta mat karo. yah kuchh hee minaton mein khatm ho jaega. main tumhen hajaamat banaane ke alaava kuchh nahin karoonga. main vaada karata hoon."

anichchha se mainne phir se apane koolhe oopar uthaaye. phir apane pair phaila die. jeetookaaka ne brash par sheving kreem lee aur use paanee ke mag mein duboya aur meree gaand par lagaane laga.

gol-gol ghumaate hue usane seedhe meree gaand ke chhed par brash phiraaya. brash par baal mere nitamb ko tab tak gudagudee karate rahe jab tak ki jhaag jaisa gaadha jhaag na ban gaya. usane brash ko meree choot par bhee ragada, jisase mujhe vahaan bhee gudagudee hone lagee. meree gaand aur choot donon ab sheving kreem se sane hue the.

jeetukaaka ne meree gaand ke chhed ke donon taraph plaastik ka rejar chalaaya aur mujhe dikhaane ke lie use mere chehare ke saamane le aae. usamen sheving kreem ke saath meree gaand ke chhote-chhote baal lage hue the. phir usane rejar ko meree daraar ke donon kinaaron par neeche kee or chalaaya aur mere pyoobis tak pahunch gaya.

yah 5 minat se bhee kam samay mein khatm ho gaya. meree bur, choot aur gaand sab saaf saaf thee.

"tumhaare ganje chhed sundar lag rahe hain," jeetukaaka ne apanee hatheliyon par naariyal ka tel daalate hue prashansa kee. phir usane shev kee huee jagah par tel lagaana shuroo kar diya.

"tel ke prati yah kaisa junoon hai?" main chidh gaya. main pahale se hee paseene se lathapath thee, tej dhoop mein nangee padee thee aur vah mere chhed par tel mal raha tha!

"tumhen tel aur soonghane ka shauk hai," mainne uthane kee koshish karate hue usase kaha.

"yah aapake sanvedanasheel kshetron ke lie achchha hai, khaasakar shev karane ke baad," usane mujhe bedasheet par peechhe dhakelate hue javaab diya. is baar mera chehara neeche tha, lekin mere koolhe zameen ke star par the, oopar nahin.

usane mere pairon ko aur phailaaya, unake beech pojeeshan lee aur apanee ungaliyon se mere nitambon ko phailaaya. usane meree gaand kee daraar, koolhon aur gaand ke chhed ke andar tel mal diya. phir usane apanee beech vaalee ungalee seedhe meree gaand ke chhed mein daal dee. thoda. lekin main uchhal pada.

"aaj ke lie bahut hai. mujhe jaane do, mainne usase kaha, mujhe ab nahaana hai.

"baad mein. pahale, mujhe tumhaare chhed saaf karane do.” yah kahate hue usane mujhe phir se neeche dhakel diya aur apanee beech vaalee ungalee phir se mere nitamb mein daal dee. is baar thoda jyaada.

“aauch! nahin, vahaan nahin, mainne virodh karane kee koshish kee. lekin usakee tel se sanee ungalee meree tel se bheegee gaand ke chhed mein kuchh senteemeetar tak aasaanee se ghus gaee. bahut zyaada dard to nahin hua, lekin vahaan chhoone par ajeeb laga.

tab tak kisee ne bhee meree gaand ka ullanghan nahin kiya tha. mera boyaphrend bhee nahin. jeetookaaka pahale aadamee the jinhonne us din dopahar kee chilachilaatee dhoop mein meree gaand ko ungalee se choda.

vah dheere-dheere, bahut dheere-dheere apanee ungalee andar baahar karata raha. pratyek dhakke ke saath thoda aur andar. usane apanee ungalee mere nitamb ke chaaron or ghumaee jaise ki kuchh khoj raha ho.
mainne apanee aankhen band kar leen. shuruaatee pareshaanee kee jagah thodee adhik sukhad anubhooti ne le lee.

kuchh hee minaton mein meree choot vaasana se geelee ho gayee. yah mahasoos karate hue, usane apana tel se sana hua angootha meree yoni ke andar daal diya. aur dheere dheere andar dhakelane laga. ab mere andar 2 ungaliyaan theen - usakee beech vaalee ungalee meree gaand ke chhed ke andar aur usaka angootha meree choot ke andar.

"tumhaare chhed bahut chhote hain!" usane kaamukata se kaha aur apanee ungaliyon ko baaree-baaree se andar baahar karana shuroo kar diya. mera safed ras meree jhukee huee yoni se baahar bedasheet par svatantr roop se bah raha tha. dabaav teevr tha, isalie main chhatapataane lagee aur kaampane lagee.

“tum machhalee kee tarah chhatapata rahee ho!” unhonne kaha.

jab bhee vo apanee ungaliyaan andar daalata to meree bur se gandee poch poch kee aavaaj aane lagatee.

"band karo. ab aur nahin, mainne aankhen band karake usase vinatee kee. ek hee samay mein donon chhedon mein oongalee karana mere lie naya tha. yah bahut zyaada tha!

“theek hai, main ek shart par rukoonga,” unhonne kaha. “main tumhen poore ghar mein apane land par bithaakar ghumaoonga.”

"kya?" mainne ardhabehoshee mein poochha. usaka matalab samajh nahin aaya.

usane apanee ungaliyaan mere chhed se baahar nikaaleen aur mujhe apane saamane ghuma liya. main ab usakee taraph peeth karake leta hua tha.

“tum mere land par baithogee. ise apane andar le lo. aur main tumhen aise hee le jaoonga aur ghar ke chaaron or ghumaoonga, ”unhonne kaha.

mujhe ab bhee apane kaanon par vishvaas nahin ho raha tha. “tumhaara matalab hai ki tum mere andar rahoge….”

"poore samay, haan," usane mera vaaky poora karate hue kaha, "main tumhen samarthan nahin doonga ya apane haathon se pakad nahin loonga. bas mera land. yah andar hoga aur aapako ghar ke har kamare mein le jaega.

main ab thoda saamaany mahasoos kar raha tha isalie main hansane laga. "yah mumakin nahin hai. mera vazan 52 kilo hai.”

"yah sambhav hai. yadi main asaphal ho gaya, to aap jo chaahen karane ke lie svatantr hain, usane aatmavishvaas se uttar diya. “lekin agar main jeet gaya, to main jo chaahoon vah karane ke lie svatantr ho jaoonga. usake baad."

yah asambhav lagata hai lekin mazedaar hai. vah yah kar sakate hain?

“lekin 2 sharten hain,” unhonne kaha. “mera land tumhaare andar poora hona hai - aadha nahin, 70% nahin - balki poora andar. aur doosaree baat, jab main tumhen uthaoonga to tum oopar-neeche nahin ho sakate.

main usake dussaahas par chakit tha. yah ek ajeeb prastaav tha, bahut ashobhaneey. lekin yah ek mazedaar chunautee kee tarah lag raha tha. main bhaaree nahin tha, lekin 52 kilo vajan halka nahin hai. mujhe yakeen tha ki vah asaphal ho jaayega.

"theek hai, agar main isase sahamat ho jaoon, to main jo chaahoon vah kar sakata hoon, yahaan tak ​​ki tumhaaree jhaadee bhee kaat sakata hoon?" mainne poochh liya.

"haan, lekin keval tabhee jab main asaphal ho jaoon," usane uttar diya. "lekin aap poore samay oopar ya neeche nahin ja sakate."

"aisa kyon?"

"kyonki agar tum mere land ko oopar-neeche karogee, to main veeryapaat kar sakata hoon," unhonne samajhaaya, "aur phir main ghar ka daura poora nahin kar paoonga."

"lekin aap kandom pahanenge, hai na?" mainne utsukata se poochha.

“kandom? kaun sa kandom? mainne kabhee kandom ka upayog nahin kiya hai, unhonne upekshaapoorn svar mein kaha.

beshak, aapane aisa nahin kiya, mainne socha. aap abhee bhee paashaan yug mein phanse hue hain. lekin ab main chintit tha. mainne usase kaha, "jab tak tum kandom nahin pahanoge, ham aisa nahin kar sakate." "main jokhim nahin le sakata."

“is ghar mein koee kandom nahin hai chhotee raanee. lekin ghabaraana nahin. main apana beej tumhaare andar nahin giraoonga,” usane mujhe aashvaasan diya. "yah ek vaada hai. aur agar main aisa karoonga, to main tumhen kal phaarmesee se ek golee laoonga."

[Kara lina]

mainne usakee aankhon mein dekha. ve shaant aur aashvast karane vaale the. vah eemaanadaar lag raha tha. mainne us par vishvaas karana chuna. kyon? mujhen nahin pata.

shaayad yah prastaav ka romaanch tha, chunautee jeetane ka mauka tha, ya shuddh shaareerik ichchha thee. mainne sveekrti mein sir hilaaya.

"apana vaada yaad rakhen," mainne use yaad dilaaya.

vah muskuraaya aur bistar kee chaadar par let gaya, usaka land aasamaan kee taraph tha. lagabhag dopahar ho chukee thee, haalaanki mujhe samay ka dhyaan nahin raha.

"dheere se baitho aur ise andar lo," usane apane kadak land kee or ishaara kiya.

main usake oopar donon taraph pair karake khada ho gaya aur dheere-dheere khud ko neeche kar liya. usane apane land ko ek haath se aise pakad rakha tha jaise usane koee rod pakad rakhee ho. yah tel se dhaka hua tha aur dopahar kee dhoop mein chamak raha tha.

jaise hee meree choot ke honthon ne usake land ke sire ko chhua, mujhe apanee galatee ka ehasaas hua. meree choot ka chhed bahut chhota tha aur usaka land bahut bada tha. yah andar nahin jaega.

apane hothon ko apanee ungaliyon se phailao, usane meree pareshaanee samajhee. "apana chhed kholo."

jaisa mujhase kaha gaya tha vais mainne kiya. lekin udghaatan abhee bhee bahut chhota tha. main bamushkil usake land ke sire ko chhed ke andar le ja paee thee ki vah phans gaya.

"yah phans gaya hai!" mainne usase kaha.

“thoda aur neeche kee or dhakelo,” vah muskuraaya. “tumhaare chhed ke andar kaaphee tel aur ras hai. chinta mat karo."

vah sahee tha. mainne us par apane shareer ka adhik vajan daala, aur usake ling par lage tel ke kaaran poora sira andar ghus gaya. itana bada, itana sakht, ya itana mota kuchh bhee kabhee meree yonee mein nahin gaya tha.

us dande ne meree choot kee bheetaree deevaaron aur baaharee honthon ko kalpana se bhee pare phaila diya. main apane andar itanee badee cheez ko lekar spasht roop se asahaj tha, aur usane use pooree tarah se andar dhakelane ke lie bilkul ant mein thoda oopar kee or dhakka diya. dard hua, lekin mainne dard sah liya.

"apanee baahen mere kandhon ke chaaron or lapeto," usane uthate hue nirdesh diya, "aur apane pair meree kamar ke chaaron or lapeto."

mainne donon kiya. vah khada hai. aur achaanak, main hava mein tair raha tha!

meree baahen usake kandhon ke chaaron or lipatee huee theen, mere pair sahaare ke lie usakee kamar ke chaaron or lipate hue the. jeetukaaka chalane lage. usake haath aazaad the, mujhe bilkul bhee nahin pakad rahe the. vah seedhiyon se neeche doosaree manjil par aaya aur pahalee manjil aur phir graund phlor par utarata raha.

vah living room, baalakanee, kichan, baatharoom aur stor room tak chala gaya. main us anubhooti ka varnan nahin kar sakata jo mainne mahasoos kee. kisee purush kee baahon mein ghar ke chaaron or ghoomana apane aap mein ek bahut achchha ehasaas hai. lekin usake land dvaara idhar-udhar le jaaya jaana kisee abhootapoorv se kam nahin hai.

is aadamee ke land mein thee shaitaanee taakat! unhonne graund phlor ka daura poora kiya aur seedhiyaan chadhakar pahalee manjil par pahunche. vah har kamare, baalakanee aur baatharoom mein daakhil hua aur pratyek mein lagabhag ek minat bitaaya. romaanch, utsaah aur ghor avishvaas ne mujhe itana geela kar diya ki meree yoni se ras bahane laga.

main karaahane laga. naramee se. ant mein, vah doosaree manjil par aaya, mere shayanakaksh mein pravesh kiya aur darpan ke saamane khada ho gaya. usane usakee or ishaara kiya aur mainne dekhane ke lie apana sir ghumaaya. jo chhavi mainne darpan mein dekhee vah sadaiv meree smrti mein rahegee.

jeetukaaka darpan mein ek vishaal baalon vaale jaanavar kee tarah lag raha tha. usake haath usakee kamar par the, usaka land mere andar gaayab ho chuka tha aur sirph usakee goliyaan dikh rahee theen. vo meree choot ke ras se bheeg gaye the. main itana geela ho gaya tha ki mera ras neeche pharsh par tapakata hua usakee gendon tak pahunch gaya.

main ek ped ke tane ko gale lagaatee huee ek chhotee ladakee kee tarah lag rahee thee. aur bahut kamazor aur chhota mahasoos karane laga. aisa laga jaise mere 52 kilo ke phrem ka koee matalab nahin hai! achaanak, yah adhed umr ka mota keyaratekar mere man, shareer aur aatma ko pooree tarah se niyantrit karane laga. usake baad mera aatmavishvaas kabhee vaapas nahin aaya.

jeetookaaka mujhe phir se chhat par le gaye. usane apana land baahar nikaale bina hee mujhe saavadhaanee se bedasheet par lita diya. vah abhee bhee mere andar tha. aur main svarg mein tha.

"isalie? mainne chunautee jeet lee, vah ek vijeta kee tarah muskuraaya. mainne sir hilaaya. unhonne kaha, ab, main jo chaahoon vah karane ke lie svatantr hoon.

"aap kya chaahate hain?" mainne ghabaraakar poochha

"main tumhen apana poora veery pilaana chaahata hoon," usane vaasana se kaha.

"kya?" main ghabara gaya. “nahin jeetookaaka, main keval 19 saal ka hoon.”

"aap pake aur raseele hain," unhonne uttar diya.

mainne usakee aankhon mein dekha. usaka yahee matalab tha. vah apana saara beej mere andar daal dena chaahata tha. unhonne chunautee jeet lee. usane apana man bana liya tha. yah aa raha tha.

"lekin main garbhavatee nahin ho sakatee!" mainne namrataapoorvak vinatee kee.

"main tumhen kal sthaaneey phaarmesee se ek golee laoonga," unhonne mujhe aashvaasan diya.

mainne bhay aur pratyaasha se apanee aankhen band kar leen. vo apana land mere andar baahar nikaalane laga. dheere se. bahut dheere se. usane poora baahar nikaala aur phir andar dhakelana shuroo kiya, phir dheere-dheere. bahut dheere se. itana dheere-dheere ki usake pooree tarah andar aane se pahale main 10 tak gin sakatee thee. aur 10 sekand pahale vah pooree tarah se baahar tha.

jeetookaaka ne ek ghante tak meree choot se khela. 10 sekand tak dheere-dheere andar daalen, phir 10 sekand tak dheere-dheere baahar nikaalen. jab usaka land dheemee gati se andar-baahar ho raha tha to mujhe dard kam aur aanand adhik mahasoos hua.

main karaahata raha aur sahata raha, sahata raha aur karaahata raha. main baar-baar apane saphed ras se chaadar ko bhar detee thee. mainne samay ka dhyaan, khud par niyantran aur apanee prem nahar ko chhodakar shareer ke har hisse mein sanvedana kho dee.

aakhirakaar, anant kaal ke baad, usane apana veery mere andar chhod diya. unaka sraav itana adhik tha ki vah uthakar chhat se baahar bhee chale gae. ek ghante se adhik samay tak usaka malaeedaar saphed taral padaarth meree choot se nikalata raha.

shaam ho chukee thee jab main chaadar se uthee aur apanee naitee uthaee. sooraj pahale hee doob chuka tha. mere pair parishram aur jabaradast anubhav se kaamp rahe the. mera shareer paseene se lathapath tha. isase pahale ki main apane kamare tak pahunchane ke lie seedhiyaan chadh paata, jeetukaaka mujhe dekhane aaye.

usane mere pair kaampate hue dekhe aur turant mujhe apanee baahon mein utha liya. vah mujhe mere kamare mein le gaya, phir mere baatharoom mein. usane mujhe shovar ke neeche bithaaya aur use chaaloo kar diya. usane mere poore shareer par saabun lagaaya, saara tel saaf kiya aur mere chhed saaf kar diye. mujhamen khade hone kee taakat nahin thee.

usane mujhe tauliye se ponchha aur phir se mujhe bhootal par bane bhojan kaksh mein le gaya. jab main chhat par letee huee thee aur meree yoni se veery nikal raha tha, tab usane raat ka khaana taiyaar kar liya tha. main daining cheyar par nanga baith gaya aur khaana khaaya. mainne aaj dopahar ka bhojan nahin kiya tha. subah naashta karane ke baad se main chhat par tha.

raat ke khaane ke baad, jeetukaaka mujhe apanee baahon mein uthaakar chhat par apane kamare mein le gaya. "tum chalane kee sthiti mein nahin ho, isalie tum aaj raat yaheen so jao," unhonne mujhe bistar par litaate hue kaha. "agar tumhen kisee cheez kee zaroorat ho to mujhe jaga dena."

vah pharsh par let gaya aur main usake bistar par so gaee. jab main agalee subah uthee, to mujhe takiye ke paas garbhanirodhak goliyon kee ek pattee milee, jis par jeetookaaka ka hastalikhit not tha, "ise apane paas rakho. ise apane paas rakho." aapako isakee aavashyakata hogee.”

teesara din

mainne not padha, pattee se ek golee lee, use paanee ke saath nigal liya aur chaaron or dekha. main jeetukaaka ke kamare mein, unake bistar par tha. subah ho chukee thee aur vah kaheen nazar nahin aa raha tha.

achaanak, mujhe apane pairon ke beech kuchh hilata hua mahasoos hua. kuchh daraavana. meree yonee par ek prakaar kee gudagudee ho rahee thee. mainne neeche dekha aur meree choot mein ek chhote se kaale keede ke ghusate hue drshy ko dekha.

oh teree! yah kya hai? ek cheentee? ya kuchh aur? isase pahale ki main pratikriya kar paatee aur use baahar kheench paatee, vah meree bur mein ghus chuka tha. main ghabara gaya aur jaldee se use baahar nikaalane ke lie apanee ungalee daal dee. lekin bahut der ho chukee thee. keeda andar gaayab ho gaya tha!

main bistar se uth khada hua. main pharsh par uchhal pada. mainne ghabaraahat mein apane haath-pair patak diye. aur phir mujhe vah gudagudee phir se mahasoos huee, is baar meree choot ke andar gaharaee tak. cheentee andar tak ghusatee ja rahee thee!

main bistar ke kinaare par baith gaee, apane pair phailae aur apanee ungalee pooree tarah se apanee yoni mein daal dee. mainne aasapaas jaanch kee, use dhoondhane kee koshish kee aur use baahar nikaala. lekin yah kaam nahin aaya. mainne apanee ungalee baahar nikaalee, aur us par jeetukaaka ke kal girae gae thode se veery ke alaava kuchh bhee nahin tha.

“jeetukaaka!” main ghabaraahat mein chillaaya, "jaldee aao."

vah neeche se daudata hua aaya. "mujhe rasoee mein rahana pada tha. kya hua?"

"mere andar kuchh ghus gaya..." mainne apanee choot kee or ishaara kiya, vistaar se bataane mein asamarth thee kyonki main abhee bhee sadame mein thee.

"tumhaara andar kya matalab hai?" vah hairaan lag raha tha.

“ek keeda, shaayad ek cheentee. mujhe nahin pata, main chilla raha tha.

usane turant mujhe bistar ke kinaare par baithaaya aur mere pairon ko apane haathon se alag kar diya. phir usane apanee beech vaalee ungalee ko tel mein duboya aur bina kisee chetaavanee ke seedhe meree choot ke chhed mein daal diya.

agale 5 minat tak, usakee motee ungalee meree geelee nahar ke andar ghere banaatee rahee, baen aur daen, oopar aur neeche, kabhee-kabhee mote taur par ghoomatee rahee. mujhe bechainee, halka dard aur bahut geelaapan mahasoos hua, lekin jyaadaatar chinta is baat kee thee ki kya hoga.

phir usane apanee ungalee nikaalee aur mere saamane rakh dee. vah tel aur mere geelepan se sana hua tha, lekin koee keeda nahin tha.

"ab kya ho?" meree chinta ka star badh gaya. "ise baahar nikaalo, kuchh karo!"

"kya hai vah? ek cheentee?" jeetukaaka ne poochha. "yah andar kaise aaya?"

“yah bas rengata hua andar aa gaya. aur kaise? ye sab tumhaaree galatee hai. aapane mujhase paintee na pahanane ke lie kaha tha. dekho kya hua hai, main chillaaya.

vah kuchh sekand tak chup raha aur phir uttar diya, “keeda tumhaaree yonee kee gandh aur ras se aakarshit hua hoga. isamen meree galatee kaise hai? ise baahar nikaalane ka ek hee tareeka hai. aapako sahane kee jaroorat hai.

"kya?" mujhe usake sujhaav par yakeen nahin ho raha tha.

"yah kaise kaam karega?"

“theek hai, yah apane aap saamane nahin aaega. isalie, hamen ise khatm karana hoga,” unhonne samajhaaya. "aapaka ras ise khatm kar sakata hai."

mainne ek kshan socha, phir adheerata se uttar diya, “to phir karo. jaldee se. bhagavaan jaane ye baat kitanee andar tak chalee gayee hai. main nahin chaahata ki yah ab vahaan rahe.”

jeetookaaka ne meree yoni mein ungalee karana shuroo kar diya. tez. phir jor-jor se. vah pratikshan apanee gati badhaata raha. kuchh hee sekand mein main jor-jor se karaahane lagee. meree choot behad geelee aur dheelee ho gayee thee. kuchh hee minaton mein main charamotkarsh par pahunch gaya.

meree yonee se saphed taral padaarth nikala aur meree jaanghon aur taangon se hote hue bistar par aur antatah pharsh par bah gaya. main thakakar bistar par gir pada aur aadha behosh ho gaya. jeetookaaka cheentee ko khojane ke lie ghutanon ke bal baith gaya, is ummeed mein ki cheentee meree choot ke ras mein mil jaegee. lekin vah niraash dikhe.

"yah yahaan nahin hai," unhonne kaha, "abhee bhee andar hona chaahie."

"are!" mainne shaap diya. itanee mehanat aur phir bhee koee nateeja nahin. mujhe niraasha mahasoos huee.

jeetukaaka ne ghoshana kee, "ek aakhiree vikalp hai, agar vah kaam nahin karata hai, to kuchh aur nahin hoga."

“kaun sa vikalp? mujhe batao."

“pahale ise maarane ke lie hamen koee badee aur majaboot cheez daalanee hogee. jab tak yah jeevit rahega, yah baahar nahin aaega, unhonne kaha. "aur ise maarane ke baad, hamen ise baahar nikaal dena chaahie, is baar adhik ras ke saath."

“matalab…..” mainne usake man ko padhane kee koshish kee.

“mujhe ise apane dong se maarana hoga. phir apane andar mere veery ko bhar do. yahee aakhiree vikalp bacha hai.”

mainne apanee aankhen band kar leen - niraasha, hataasha ya sharm se - main nahin bata sakata. kya mujhe us keede ko baahar nikaalane ke lie jeetookaaka se dobaara chudaee karaanee hogee? mujhe sthiti kee niraasha ka ehasaas hua aur mainne sahamati mein apana sir hilaaya. mainne praarthana kee ki is baar yah kaam kare.

jeetookaaka ne mujhe bistar ke kinaare par donon taraph pair phailaakar lita rakha. vah mere pairon ke beech pharsh par khada ho gaya aur meree phisalan bharee chhed ke udghaatan par apanee kathor kaalee chhadee ko chhua

"isase dukh ho sakata hai, daro mat." yah kah kar usane jor se aage kee or jor lagaaya. main dard se chilla uthee kyonki usaka vishaal land bina kisee chetaavanee ke meree komal choot mein ghus gaya. vah 5 sekand tak ruka, phir dobaara ghus gaya. main dard se paagal ho gaya.

kal, chhat par, vah dheema aur saumy tha. lekin ab, vah ek raakshas kee tarah jangalee aur kroor tha. jab main is hinsak prahaar ko jhelane kee koshish kar raha tha to meree aankhon se aansoo bah nikale. "dheere jaiye. yah dukhadaayak hai!" main chillaaya. lekin vah chalata raha.

"mujhe ise maarana hoga, dheemee gati se nahin chal sakata," usane uttar diya. "main aadhe raaste mein hoon."

bas aadha raasta? aur mujhe pahale se hee mara hua mahasoos hua. ek baar jab vah pooree tarah aa jaega to kya hoga?

usake dhakke tez, ugr aur kathor ho gaye. mera dard tez, gambheer aur asahaneey ho gaya. mera poora shareer kaamp raha tha, mere stan hil rahe the, meree cheekhen tez ho gaeen aur meree peshaab mein jalan hone lagee. yah itane lambe samay tak chalata raha ki mujhe samay ka dhyaan hee nahin raha.

“thaap! thaap!” usake bade-bade bhaaree gole mere nitambon par thapede maar rahe the aur aisee ashleel aavaaj nikaal rahe the. vah itanee taakat se andar-baahar kar raha tha ki main har sekand usakee kathor kaalee chhadee ko meree garbhaashay greeva par takaraate hue mahasoos kar sakatee thee. usake land mein shaitaanee taakat thee. yah maanaveey nahin laga.

30 minat tak kroor, bhaaree prahaaron se meree choot ko thokane-peetane aur nasht karane ke baad, jeetukaaka ne apana veery tyaag diya aur mere andar paanee bhar diya. main nishchal, bedam aur ardh-chetan avastha mein leta hua tha. usake gaadhe chipachipe taral padaarth ka gailan meree yonee se nikalakar meree taangon se hote hue pharsh par bahane laga.

"yah paaya!" jab usane meree jaangh se apanee ungaliyon se kuchh uthaaya to vah uttejana mein chillaaya.

main dekhane ke lie mushkil se apanee aankhen khol saka. yah ek chhote kaale dhabbe jaisa lag raha tha - shaayad ek cheentee - malaeedaar saphed veery mein dhaka hua. vah bechaaree hil nahin rahee thee, shaayad mar gaee thee, ya to pitaee se ya doobane se.

main jashn manaane kee haalat mein nahin tha. mujhe is baat se raahat milee ki prayog saphal raha, main baithane aur aasaanee se saans lene kee sthiti mein nahin tha. mujhe itanee berahamee se kabhee nahin choda gaya. aaj tak nahin.

din 4

main agalee subah jeetukaaka ke bistar par utha. dobaara. mujhe yaad nahin aa raha ki main yahaan kaise pahunch gaya. pichhala din bahut dhundhala sa lag raha tha. subah mujhe berahamee se peetane ke baad poore din kya hua, mujhe bamushkil yaad aa raha hai. kya main so gaya? kya mainne snaan kiya? khaana? mujhe koee yaadadaasht nahin thee.

main har taraph dekha. bedasheet kal jaisee hee thee. yah veery ke dhabbon se bhara hua tha - bade, gol dhabbe - unamen se bahut saare the. mujhe pharsh par veery ke dhabbe bhee mile. jeetukaaka ne kal se na to pharsh saaph kiya tha aur na hee bistar kee chaadar badalee thee.

mainne ek taaza naitagaun pahana hua tha jo main ghar se laaya tha. kya mainne ise svayan pahana tha? main javaab paane ka nishchay karake neeche gaya. khaane ke saath-saath mujhe bhookh bhee lagane lagee.

jeetookaaka rasoee mein khaana bana rahe the. mujhe dekh kar vah palata aur bola, naashta taiyaar hai. bred, jaim, makkhan, chaay.”

mujhe itanee bhookh lagee thee ki mainne usake haath se naashte kee plet le lee aur kichan mein khade hokar khaane laga.

"jeetukaaka, main aaj subah aapake bistar par kaise pahunchee?" mainne usase poochha.

“tumhaaree tabeeyat theek nahin thee, chhotee raanee,” usane uttar diya, “isalie mainne tumhen nahalaaya, tumhaare kapade badale aur tumhen apane kamare mein le gaya.”

jaisa ki mainne socha tha, lekin mujhe kal kee koee yaad nahin thee.

chaay ke saath naashta karate hue mainne usase kaha, "aapane apane kamare mein pharsh saaph nahin kiya hai ya bistar kee chaadar nahin badalee hai."

“koee samay nahin tha. mujhe tumhaare chhedon ko dhona aur saaph karana pada, usane besharmee se uttar diya. phir usane meree naitee uthaee, mere nange nitambon ko ghoora aur kaha, “tum to din bhar leek kar rahe the. mujhe tumhen 5 baar nahalaana pada. ab aap saaf dikh rahe hain.”

main usakee baaton aur meree nangee gaand par usakee vaasana bharee najar se sharminda thee. phir mainne usakee lungee ke neeche kroch kshetr mein parichit vishaal ubhaar dekha.

"aapako ek din mein kitanee baar kathinaee hotee hai?" mainne utsukata se poochha.

“aamataur par 5-6 baar. lekin jis din se aap aaye hain, yah 10-12 guna badh gaya hai, unhonne uttar diya.

din mein 10-12 baar! ek madhyam aayu varg ke vyakti ke lie yah asaamaany lag raha tha. asaamaany bhee.

"aur aap us sthiti mein kya karate hain?" mainne poochh liya.

"main ek chhed dhoondh raha hoon." itana kah kar usane apanee ungalee kisaan jaim ke jaar mein duba dee aur meree choot par jaim malane laga.

main uchhal pada. “nahin, jeetukaaka. vahaan nahin! yah abhee bhee dard hota hai. yah jakhmee aur sooja hua hai.”

“lekin mujhe ab ek chhed kee zaroorat hai. main kathor hoon, vah ade hue the. “theek hai, phir mujhe isaka svaad chakhane do.”

vah rasoee ke pharsh par baith gaya aur main khadee rahee. usane meree choot par jaim kee boonden mal deen aur chaatane laga. pahale to yah ajeeb laga - jaim chipachipa lag raha tha jabaki usakee jeebh phisalan bharee thee - lekin mujhe isakee aadat ho gaee. meree saansen tez ho gaeen, meree taangen kaanpane lageen aur meree choot se paanee nikalane laga.

"yah meetha aur namakeen hai!" usane khushee se kaha, jisase mujhe 10 minat mein charamotkarsh praapt hua. main bhaagyashaalee tha ki usake shuroo hone se pahale hee mainne apana naashta khatm kar liya. isase mujhe khade rahane kee kuchh taakat milee.

phir vah utha, mujhe rasoee kee mej par jhukaaya, apanee ungalee amool makkhan mein duboee aur meree gaand ke chhed par laga dee. mujhe pata tha ki kya aa raha tha. use apane land ke lie ek chhed kee zaroorat thee aur vah ise paane ke lie krtasankalp tha.

usane meree gaand ke chhed par makkhan lagaaya aur phir apanee ungalee se andar tak lagaaya. phir usane apanee ungalee baahar nikaalee aur apane land ke sire ko meree makkhan lagee gaand ke chhed par chhua. mainne apanee aankhen band kar leen aur khud ko usake aakraman ke lie maanasik roop se taiyaar kar liya. usane pooree taakat se aakraman kiya.

usaka mota sakht land meree chhotee gaand ke chhed ko adhikatam seema tak phaila deta hai. main dard se chillaatee rahee jabaki vah khushee se gurraata raha. usaka land meree gaand ke hisaab se itana bada tha ki aadha andar jaane ke baad hee phans gaya, phir bhee vo saand kee tarah use thokata raha.

apana maal andar giraane se pahale usane lagabhag 20 minat tak meree kunvaaree gaand ko thoka aur pamp kiya. jaise hee vah peechhe hata, meree gaand ke chhed se gaadhe malaeedaar veery kee boonden neeche pharsh par tapakane lageen. isamen vahee parichit gandh thee - bleech jaisee tez durgandh - pichhale dinon kee.

main poore din chal nahin saka. jab bhee mujhe peshaab karana hota tha to jeetukaaka mujhe shauchaalay mein le jaate the. usane mujhe nahalaaya, khaana khilaaya, khud suar kee tarah khaaya aur phir raakshas kee tarah mujhe peeta. lanch ke baad usane mujhe choda. dinar ke baad usane mujhe choda. usane mujhe itanee baar choda ki meree ginatee hee khatm ho gayee.

mujhe bas itana yaad hai ki main poore din na to chal sakata tha aur na hee baith sakata tha.

din 5

main phir se jeetukaaka ke bistar par jaaga. kal aadhee raat ke baad vah phir mujhe apane kamare mein le gaya. doosare din ke baad se mainne apane kamare mein ek bhee raat nahin bitaee. yahaan meree pahalee raat ekamaatr aisee raat thee jab main apane bistar par soya tha.

main neeche apane kamare mein gaya, apane kapade utaare, apane bistar par baith gaya aur sheeshe mein dekha. main apane aap ko nahin pahachaan saka. mere baal bikhare hue the. mere nipals, koolhon aur jaanghon par kaatane ke nishaan the. mere nitamb bhee chaude ho gaye the. mainne apane pair phailae aur sheeshe mein dekha.

meree gaand ka chhed, jo pichhale haphte tak ek chhote kaale bindu jaisa dikhata tha, ab ek chaude udghaatan ke saath ek gaharee surang jaisa dikhata hai. andar saphed veery ke chhote-chhote jamaav the. meree choot ke honth phool gaye the aur sooj kar laal ho gaye the. main apanee choot kee nahar ke andar veery ke saphed chipachipe dhabbe bhee dekh sakatee thee.

aur chhed chauda ho gaya tha. mujhe har samay veery kee gandh aatee rahatee thee. jeetukaaka ke veery kee bleech jaisee tez badaboo ab mere poore shareer par thee. jab bhee vah mujhe apane land se chodata tha to meree karaahen ghar ke har kamare mein goonj uthatee theen. yah ek veshyaalay kee tarah lag raha tha, aur main ek phoohad kee tarah lag rahee thee.

jeetukaaka kee lagaataar pitaee kee na to koee shuruaat thee aur na hee koee ant. din-raat, subah se shaam tak aur aadhee raat ke baad bhee, vah apane gande land se mere chhedon mein chhed karata tha. vah suar kee tarah khaega aur raakshas kee tarah chodega. "mujhe apana pet bhara aur andakosh khaalee rakhana hai," usaka bahaana tha.

aaj yahaan mere pravaas ka 5vaan aur aakhiree din hai. mere maata-pita mujhe lene aur ghar lautane ke lie kal aaenge. unhen kabhee pata nahin chalega ki aazaadee ke in 5 dinon ke lie mujhe kitanee keemat chukaanee padee. aur main phir kabhee apane puraane svaroop mein nahin laut paoonga. in 5 dinon ne mujhe hamesha ke lie badal diya hai.