09-11-2019, 04:48 AM
(This post was last modified: 08-07-2022, 04:42 PM by hirarandi. Edited 2 times in total. Edited 2 times in total.)
Har kahani ka koi na koi nayak aur koi na koi nayaka jaroor hoti hai,
par shayad meri kahani who pehli kahani hogi jisme sirf khalnayak hi
khalnayak bhare hue hain. Main khud nahi samajh pa rahi ke mera is
kahani mein role kya hai nayaka ya khalnayaka? Shayad aap hi mujhe
kuch bata payen.Yeh kahani kuch mahine pehle ki hai. Main taaza taaza
B. Ed. Ka couse khatam kar ke college se nikle hi thi aur maine
correspondence se M A shuru kiya tha. Main ache ghar ki ladki hoon.
Ghar main paise ki koi kamin nahin hai. Lekin phir bhi shuru se hi
independent kyalat ki hone ki wajah se main apna paisa khud kamana
chahti thi. B. Ed. Ka result ane se pehle hi mere pitaji ke ek dost
ke college main main padhane lag gai. Yeh college 19 kaksha tak tha aur
main kam qualified hone par bhi 18 kaksha tak English padhati thi.
Iski wajah do thi. Ek to main shuru se hi English medium main padhi
thi aur dusra jaise ke maine apko bataya ke mere college ka propertier
mere pitaji ka acha dost tha. Aur isi wajah se college mein sabh mujhe
ache se jante the aur mein students ki jam kar pitayi kar sakti thi.
Mein bahut hi strict teacher thi aur college ke sabse jyada bigrhe hue
ladkon ko bhi jam kar thapad lagati thi. Sab students mujhse darte
the.Hum sab teachers aur students college buses main hi apne apne ghar
jate the. Hamare college ki buses hamesha khacha khach bhari hoti thi
lekin hum teachers ko hamesha bethne ki jagah mil jati thi aur hamare
students khare ho kar jate the. Sab kuch theek thak chal raha tha.
Par ek din chutti ke baad ghar jate waqat maine dekha ke 11 class ki
ek ladki apne akhon mein ansum chupate hue bas se utri aur uski
saheli ne uske kan me kaha, "Tu ghabra mat kal hum English wale maam
se baat karenge, wo unhe acha sabak sikhayingi." Mujhe baat kuch
samajh mein nahin aayi lekin maine socha ke kal jab yeh mujhse baat
karengi tab khud ba khud pata chal jayega.Ab mere college ki sabhi
badi ladkiyan mujhe kabhi kabhi akele mein didi didi bulati thi aur
mere kafi close thi aur apne kayi problems aksar mere saath hi
discuss karti thi. Iski waja thi mein unse umar mein jyada badi nahi
thi. Main 12th class ki ladkiyon se kewal 4 saal hi to badi thi. Ab
college ke baad B.A. aur B. Ed karne mein sirf 4 saal hi to lagte
hain.
Balke college ke 12 class ke 4-5 badmash ladkon se to main sirf 2 saal
hi badi thi kyon ke who sab to kam se kam 2-2 kisi na kisi class mein
fail ho chuke the.To agle din main jab college pahunchi to main wait
kar rahi thi ki kab wo ladkiyan aa kar mujhe apni problem batayen aur
main usse solve kar sakun. Lekin ek din bita do din beete, phir pura
hafta beet gaya par unhon ne mere so koi baat nahin ki aur main bhi
use bhool gaye. Phir ik din achanak usi din ki tarah wo ladki phir
rote hue bas se utri aur is bar woh jyada hi ro rahi thi. Balki baki
teachers bhi uski saheliyon se puchne lage ke isse kya hua. Is par
uski saheliyon ne kaha, "Ma'am is ka sar bahut jor se dard kar raha
hai." Un teachers ke liye baat wohin dab gayi. Lekin mujhe is sab par
vishwas nahin hua. To main agle din khud us ladki aur uski saheli ko
free period mein apne kamre mein bulaya aur usse pucha ke problem kya
hai. Who boli, " Kuch nahin Ma'am sab theek hai.""Mujhse jhooth mat
bolo", maine kaha," us din bhi maine tumhe isse tarha bas se rote hue
uttarte dekha tha aur tumhari saheli tumhe keh rahi thi ke hum kal
English wale ma'am ko yeh baat batayenge aur woh unki khabar lengi.
Mujhse chupayo mat aur khul ke batao ke problem kya hai?"Is par woh
ladki phut phut kar rone lagi. To uski saheli boli, " Ma'am main apko
batati hun ke problem kya hai. Aap to janti hain ke hamari bas mein
kitni bher hoti hai aur hamen kare ho kar bas mein jana padta
hai.""Haan! Haan!" Maine kaha."To Ma'am problem yeh hai ke pichle ek
mahine se who 12th class ke mushtande, woh basketball players! Woh
failures! Hamen bas mein rojh tang karte hai. Ham ladkiyon ka unhon
ne bas par safar karna mushkil kar diya hai. Kabhi to woh hamare
lower back mein ungli dalte hai to kabhi
Hamari breast par chunti katte hain. Kal to unhone had hi kar di. Kal
un charon ne hame kas kar peche se pakad liya aur jor se hamari
breasts masal di," woh boli."Kya unki yeh himat. Main aaj hi unki
shikayat principal se karti hoon, aur unki khud khoob pitaye karungi.
Aur yeh sab tumne pehle kyon nahin bataya. Aur baki ladkiyon ne iski
shikayat kyon nahi ki?" Main boli. " Nahin nahin Ma'am, aap please
yeh baat kisi se na kahiye ga warna sab hum par hasenge aur hamari
college mein badnami hogi aur majak banega. Aap chahen to unki pitayi
kar dejiye par yeh baat aap unse bhi na kahiye ga ke humne batayi hai
warna wo hamhe aur tang karenge ya phir badnam karenge. Abhi to yeh
baat sirf humen, aapko ya phir un ladkon ko pata hai jo hamare ass
pass bus mein khare hote hain", woh boli."Theek hai, main dekh
loongi," maine kaha.Us din class mein jate hi maine un charon ko
khada kar liya aur bina kuch bataye unki jam kar thapad parade ki.
Itna mara ke mere haath dukhne lage aur unke gallon par mere thapadon
ki wajah se neel pad gaye. Jab class ne pucha ke ma'am aap inhe kyon
mar rahi hain to maine kaha, "Inhen Bus mein safar karna sikha rahi
hoon." Aur woh charro sir jhuka kar khade ho gaye.Kuch din tak sab
theek raha, lekin ek din phir wo ladkiyan mere pass aayi aur rone
lagin. Maine unse pucha, "Ab kya hua, Ab tum kis baat par ro rahi ho?
Kya woh tumhe abhi bhi tang karte hain." Is par woh mujhe bolin, "
Ma'am apne jab unki pitayi ki thi to kuch din tak sab theek raha
lekin pichle do din se woh phirse humen tang kar rahe hain.""Lagta
hai ab principal se baat karni hi padegi," main boli."Please ma'am
aap principal se kuch mat kahiyega. Yeh baat agar faill gaye to
hamara majak udega.
Humara college aana mushkil ho jayega," woh girgirayen." To theek hai,
aaj main tum logon ke saath bus mein khari rahoongi. Agar unhone kuch
kiya to mein unki wahin pitayi karoongi aur unhe college se niklwa
doongi," maine gusse se bhar kar kaha.Us din maine phir un charon ki
khoob pitayi ki aur chutti ke baad bas mein ladkiyon ke saath peeche
khari ho gayi. Jab mere saathi teachers ne pucha to maine kaha ke
main students ke saath mixup hone ki koshish kar rahi hoon ta ke yeh
mujhse itna zyada na daren.Us din sab theek raha. Main unke saath 3-4
din bas mein khare ho kar safar karte rahi. Woh 4 badmash hamare
piche hi khade rehte the lekin unmein se kisi ki himat nahin hui ke
kuch kar sake. To kuch din baad main phir aage bethne lagi. Ugle hi
din woh ladkiyan phir mere pass wohi shikayat le kar aa gaye. To main
phir us din peeche khadi ho kar safar karne lagi.Do-ek din tak sab
theek tha phir ek din achanak mujhe aisa laga jaise kisi ne koi cheez
mere peche mere buttocks (yani Chuttaron) ke bich gusa di ho. Main ek
dum kamp gaye. Meri sari body thandi pad gayi aur mere shareer ke
loyen khare ho gaye.Main sari umar girls colleges aur girls colleges
mein hi padhi hoon. Mere pitaji mujhe khud college/college drop karke
jate the aur khud pickup karte the. Kisi ladke ko maine kabhi ankh
bhar nahin dekha tha. Kisi ladke ka mujhe sparsh karna to door ki
baat thi. Halan ke main gori chitti teekhe nainon wali ek sundar,
patli ladki thi. Meri saheliyan aksar mujhe kehti thi ke main kissi
kismat wale ko hi millungi aur jisse millungi woh 1 saal to pehle
bedroom se hi nahin niklega, kam karna to door ki baat hai.Par us pal
mujhe bijli ka jhatka laga. Pehli baar maine kisi cheez ko apne
sharir ke ek najuk bhag ke andar sharat karte mehsoos kiya tha. Mere
paon halke ho gaye aur ek pal ke liye mere hosh ud gaye, chehre ka
rang ek dum fika pad gaya, gala sukh gaya. Main ladkhda kar girne
lagi, par phir bas ki seat par lagi support ko pakad kar apne aap ko
sambhala. Mere haath kamp rahe the. Ladkiyon ne puch, "Ma'am aap
theek to hain?""Haan main theek hun," maine kaha. Lekin mere chehre
ke utre rang ko dekh kar
Mere saathi teachers ne jab yehi sawal mujhse pucha to maine kaha ke
shayad mujhe bukhar ho raha hai. Us din raat ko der tak mujhe neend
nahin aayi. Sari raat mujhe mere chuttron ke beech woh cheez sarakti
mehsoos hoti rahi. Main agle 2 din college nahin gayi. Bemar hone ka
bahana kar diya.Jis din main college gayi bhi us din main aage apni
seat par ja kar chup chap beth gayi. To woh ladkiyan utre se chehre
ke saath meri taraf dekhti rahi. Aur jab woh dono bus se utri to
donon ki ankhen bhari hui thi. Mujhe teachers ne bhi puch, "Aaj apne
students ke saath khare nahin hona kya? Kya baat hai? Sab theek
hai?""Sab theek hai, bas thodi weekness lag rahi hai," maine bahana
kiya.Agle din woh ladkiyan phir mere pass aayi aur mujhse boli,
"Ma'am apko kya hua? Ma'am jab se apne hamare saath khare hona band
kiya hai un logon ne hamen phir tang karna shuru kar diya. Jab aap
hamare saath khari hoti thi tab sab theek tha. Ma'am aap please
hamare saath peeche khari ho jaya keejiye! Please!"Maine kaha, "Acha
theek hai!" Aur woh chali gayi. Lekin main sara din tension mein rahi
aur us din ka wakeya yaad karti rahi. Shaam ko kisi tarha himat juta
kar mein peeche ja kar khade ho gaye. Lagh bhag sara safar aaram se
kat gaya aur main itminaan se ho gayee lekin mera stop aane se 2
minute pehle hi kisi ne phir peeche se mere chuttron men haath de
diya aur is dafa achi tarah ek jhatke mein mere chuttron ke beecho
beech niche se sarkate hue upar tak le gaya. Main ek dam se piche
palti to sabhi ladke idhar udhar dekh rahe the aur mujhe pata bhi
nahi chala ke ye kisne kiya hai. Mere saath khadi ladkiyon ne pucha,
"Ma'am sab theek hai?""Haan!" Maine jawab diya.Us raat main gusse se
bhari so bhi na payi. Agle din class mein jaate hi maine un charon ki
khoob pitayi ki aur is dafa maine class ke puchne par kaha ke in
logon ne kitne dinon se mujhe kam nahin dikhaya.Us sham bas mein
chadte hi jab ladkiyon ne mujhe peeche bullaya to main confidence ke
saath un ladkon ko ghurti hui peeche ja kar khadi ho gayi. Ab itni
buri tarah pitayi hone ke baad bhala woh kyon nahin sudhrenge. Par
bas chalne ke thodi der baad hi kisi ne mere chuttron mein phir haath
diya. Jab maine peeche mur kar dekha to is bar charon ne meri aankhon
mein dekha aur muskra pade.
par shayad meri kahani who pehli kahani hogi jisme sirf khalnayak hi
khalnayak bhare hue hain. Main khud nahi samajh pa rahi ke mera is
kahani mein role kya hai nayaka ya khalnayaka? Shayad aap hi mujhe
kuch bata payen.Yeh kahani kuch mahine pehle ki hai. Main taaza taaza
B. Ed. Ka couse khatam kar ke college se nikle hi thi aur maine
correspondence se M A shuru kiya tha. Main ache ghar ki ladki hoon.
Ghar main paise ki koi kamin nahin hai. Lekin phir bhi shuru se hi
independent kyalat ki hone ki wajah se main apna paisa khud kamana
chahti thi. B. Ed. Ka result ane se pehle hi mere pitaji ke ek dost
ke college main main padhane lag gai. Yeh college 19 kaksha tak tha aur
main kam qualified hone par bhi 18 kaksha tak English padhati thi.
Iski wajah do thi. Ek to main shuru se hi English medium main padhi
thi aur dusra jaise ke maine apko bataya ke mere college ka propertier
mere pitaji ka acha dost tha. Aur isi wajah se college mein sabh mujhe
ache se jante the aur mein students ki jam kar pitayi kar sakti thi.
Mein bahut hi strict teacher thi aur college ke sabse jyada bigrhe hue
ladkon ko bhi jam kar thapad lagati thi. Sab students mujhse darte
the.Hum sab teachers aur students college buses main hi apne apne ghar
jate the. Hamare college ki buses hamesha khacha khach bhari hoti thi
lekin hum teachers ko hamesha bethne ki jagah mil jati thi aur hamare
students khare ho kar jate the. Sab kuch theek thak chal raha tha.
Par ek din chutti ke baad ghar jate waqat maine dekha ke 11 class ki
ek ladki apne akhon mein ansum chupate hue bas se utri aur uski
saheli ne uske kan me kaha, "Tu ghabra mat kal hum English wale maam
se baat karenge, wo unhe acha sabak sikhayingi." Mujhe baat kuch
samajh mein nahin aayi lekin maine socha ke kal jab yeh mujhse baat
karengi tab khud ba khud pata chal jayega.Ab mere college ki sabhi
badi ladkiyan mujhe kabhi kabhi akele mein didi didi bulati thi aur
mere kafi close thi aur apne kayi problems aksar mere saath hi
discuss karti thi. Iski waja thi mein unse umar mein jyada badi nahi
thi. Main 12th class ki ladkiyon se kewal 4 saal hi to badi thi. Ab
college ke baad B.A. aur B. Ed karne mein sirf 4 saal hi to lagte
hain.
Balke college ke 12 class ke 4-5 badmash ladkon se to main sirf 2 saal
hi badi thi kyon ke who sab to kam se kam 2-2 kisi na kisi class mein
fail ho chuke the.To agle din main jab college pahunchi to main wait
kar rahi thi ki kab wo ladkiyan aa kar mujhe apni problem batayen aur
main usse solve kar sakun. Lekin ek din bita do din beete, phir pura
hafta beet gaya par unhon ne mere so koi baat nahin ki aur main bhi
use bhool gaye. Phir ik din achanak usi din ki tarah wo ladki phir
rote hue bas se utri aur is bar woh jyada hi ro rahi thi. Balki baki
teachers bhi uski saheliyon se puchne lage ke isse kya hua. Is par
uski saheliyon ne kaha, "Ma'am is ka sar bahut jor se dard kar raha
hai." Un teachers ke liye baat wohin dab gayi. Lekin mujhe is sab par
vishwas nahin hua. To main agle din khud us ladki aur uski saheli ko
free period mein apne kamre mein bulaya aur usse pucha ke problem kya
hai. Who boli, " Kuch nahin Ma'am sab theek hai.""Mujhse jhooth mat
bolo", maine kaha," us din bhi maine tumhe isse tarha bas se rote hue
uttarte dekha tha aur tumhari saheli tumhe keh rahi thi ke hum kal
English wale ma'am ko yeh baat batayenge aur woh unki khabar lengi.
Mujhse chupayo mat aur khul ke batao ke problem kya hai?"Is par woh
ladki phut phut kar rone lagi. To uski saheli boli, " Ma'am main apko
batati hun ke problem kya hai. Aap to janti hain ke hamari bas mein
kitni bher hoti hai aur hamen kare ho kar bas mein jana padta
hai.""Haan! Haan!" Maine kaha."To Ma'am problem yeh hai ke pichle ek
mahine se who 12th class ke mushtande, woh basketball players! Woh
failures! Hamen bas mein rojh tang karte hai. Ham ladkiyon ka unhon
ne bas par safar karna mushkil kar diya hai. Kabhi to woh hamare
lower back mein ungli dalte hai to kabhi
Hamari breast par chunti katte hain. Kal to unhone had hi kar di. Kal
un charon ne hame kas kar peche se pakad liya aur jor se hamari
breasts masal di," woh boli."Kya unki yeh himat. Main aaj hi unki
shikayat principal se karti hoon, aur unki khud khoob pitaye karungi.
Aur yeh sab tumne pehle kyon nahin bataya. Aur baki ladkiyon ne iski
shikayat kyon nahi ki?" Main boli. " Nahin nahin Ma'am, aap please
yeh baat kisi se na kahiye ga warna sab hum par hasenge aur hamari
college mein badnami hogi aur majak banega. Aap chahen to unki pitayi
kar dejiye par yeh baat aap unse bhi na kahiye ga ke humne batayi hai
warna wo hamhe aur tang karenge ya phir badnam karenge. Abhi to yeh
baat sirf humen, aapko ya phir un ladkon ko pata hai jo hamare ass
pass bus mein khare hote hain", woh boli."Theek hai, main dekh
loongi," maine kaha.Us din class mein jate hi maine un charon ko
khada kar liya aur bina kuch bataye unki jam kar thapad parade ki.
Itna mara ke mere haath dukhne lage aur unke gallon par mere thapadon
ki wajah se neel pad gaye. Jab class ne pucha ke ma'am aap inhe kyon
mar rahi hain to maine kaha, "Inhen Bus mein safar karna sikha rahi
hoon." Aur woh charro sir jhuka kar khade ho gaye.Kuch din tak sab
theek raha, lekin ek din phir wo ladkiyan mere pass aayi aur rone
lagin. Maine unse pucha, "Ab kya hua, Ab tum kis baat par ro rahi ho?
Kya woh tumhe abhi bhi tang karte hain." Is par woh mujhe bolin, "
Ma'am apne jab unki pitayi ki thi to kuch din tak sab theek raha
lekin pichle do din se woh phirse humen tang kar rahe hain.""Lagta
hai ab principal se baat karni hi padegi," main boli."Please ma'am
aap principal se kuch mat kahiyega. Yeh baat agar faill gaye to
hamara majak udega.
Humara college aana mushkil ho jayega," woh girgirayen." To theek hai,
aaj main tum logon ke saath bus mein khari rahoongi. Agar unhone kuch
kiya to mein unki wahin pitayi karoongi aur unhe college se niklwa
doongi," maine gusse se bhar kar kaha.Us din maine phir un charon ki
khoob pitayi ki aur chutti ke baad bas mein ladkiyon ke saath peeche
khari ho gayi. Jab mere saathi teachers ne pucha to maine kaha ke
main students ke saath mixup hone ki koshish kar rahi hoon ta ke yeh
mujhse itna zyada na daren.Us din sab theek raha. Main unke saath 3-4
din bas mein khare ho kar safar karte rahi. Woh 4 badmash hamare
piche hi khade rehte the lekin unmein se kisi ki himat nahin hui ke
kuch kar sake. To kuch din baad main phir aage bethne lagi. Ugle hi
din woh ladkiyan phir mere pass wohi shikayat le kar aa gaye. To main
phir us din peeche khadi ho kar safar karne lagi.Do-ek din tak sab
theek tha phir ek din achanak mujhe aisa laga jaise kisi ne koi cheez
mere peche mere buttocks (yani Chuttaron) ke bich gusa di ho. Main ek
dum kamp gaye. Meri sari body thandi pad gayi aur mere shareer ke
loyen khare ho gaye.Main sari umar girls colleges aur girls colleges
mein hi padhi hoon. Mere pitaji mujhe khud college/college drop karke
jate the aur khud pickup karte the. Kisi ladke ko maine kabhi ankh
bhar nahin dekha tha. Kisi ladke ka mujhe sparsh karna to door ki
baat thi. Halan ke main gori chitti teekhe nainon wali ek sundar,
patli ladki thi. Meri saheliyan aksar mujhe kehti thi ke main kissi
kismat wale ko hi millungi aur jisse millungi woh 1 saal to pehle
bedroom se hi nahin niklega, kam karna to door ki baat hai.Par us pal
mujhe bijli ka jhatka laga. Pehli baar maine kisi cheez ko apne
sharir ke ek najuk bhag ke andar sharat karte mehsoos kiya tha. Mere
paon halke ho gaye aur ek pal ke liye mere hosh ud gaye, chehre ka
rang ek dum fika pad gaya, gala sukh gaya. Main ladkhda kar girne
lagi, par phir bas ki seat par lagi support ko pakad kar apne aap ko
sambhala. Mere haath kamp rahe the. Ladkiyon ne puch, "Ma'am aap
theek to hain?""Haan main theek hun," maine kaha. Lekin mere chehre
ke utre rang ko dekh kar
Mere saathi teachers ne jab yehi sawal mujhse pucha to maine kaha ke
shayad mujhe bukhar ho raha hai. Us din raat ko der tak mujhe neend
nahin aayi. Sari raat mujhe mere chuttron ke beech woh cheez sarakti
mehsoos hoti rahi. Main agle 2 din college nahin gayi. Bemar hone ka
bahana kar diya.Jis din main college gayi bhi us din main aage apni
seat par ja kar chup chap beth gayi. To woh ladkiyan utre se chehre
ke saath meri taraf dekhti rahi. Aur jab woh dono bus se utri to
donon ki ankhen bhari hui thi. Mujhe teachers ne bhi puch, "Aaj apne
students ke saath khare nahin hona kya? Kya baat hai? Sab theek
hai?""Sab theek hai, bas thodi weekness lag rahi hai," maine bahana
kiya.Agle din woh ladkiyan phir mere pass aayi aur mujhse boli,
"Ma'am apko kya hua? Ma'am jab se apne hamare saath khare hona band
kiya hai un logon ne hamen phir tang karna shuru kar diya. Jab aap
hamare saath khari hoti thi tab sab theek tha. Ma'am aap please
hamare saath peeche khari ho jaya keejiye! Please!"Maine kaha, "Acha
theek hai!" Aur woh chali gayi. Lekin main sara din tension mein rahi
aur us din ka wakeya yaad karti rahi. Shaam ko kisi tarha himat juta
kar mein peeche ja kar khade ho gaye. Lagh bhag sara safar aaram se
kat gaya aur main itminaan se ho gayee lekin mera stop aane se 2
minute pehle hi kisi ne phir peeche se mere chuttron men haath de
diya aur is dafa achi tarah ek jhatke mein mere chuttron ke beecho
beech niche se sarkate hue upar tak le gaya. Main ek dam se piche
palti to sabhi ladke idhar udhar dekh rahe the aur mujhe pata bhi
nahi chala ke ye kisne kiya hai. Mere saath khadi ladkiyon ne pucha,
"Ma'am sab theek hai?""Haan!" Maine jawab diya.Us raat main gusse se
bhari so bhi na payi. Agle din class mein jaate hi maine un charon ki
khoob pitayi ki aur is dafa maine class ke puchne par kaha ke in
logon ne kitne dinon se mujhe kam nahin dikhaya.Us sham bas mein
chadte hi jab ladkiyon ne mujhe peeche bullaya to main confidence ke
saath un ladkon ko ghurti hui peeche ja kar khadi ho gayi. Ab itni
buri tarah pitayi hone ke baad bhala woh kyon nahin sudhrenge. Par
bas chalne ke thodi der baad hi kisi ne mere chuttron mein phir haath
diya. Jab maine peeche mur kar dekha to is bar charon ne meri aankhon
mein dekha aur muskra pade.