Adultery Abitha Roja the Jail Bird longing to fly

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My name is Abitha Roja and at the age of 23, I was married to my husband, Rajan, who was 42. This was due to a family situation and because of this, was not allowed a part of a traditional dowry. As part of our marriage, Rajan had been able to secure a new job in another state and it meant that I had to stay with my strict mother-in-law in our home nestled in the South Indian countryside.

At first, I welcomed the change in my life as it seemed like a adventure awaiting us. I was excited to start a new life with Rajan and I noticed small things within our home that made me happy. But as the time progressed on and my husband had gone off to his work, I feel my naivety crash back to reality.

The loneliness started to grow like an embryo inside of me because I was really alone alone and had no one to talk to in this rural village. The thoughts started to become unbearable and as each day went on, I became more and more depressed.

I realized that even though my marriage was a source of joy and pleasure for my family, for myself, it was nothing but sadness and despair.

I tried so hard to find an outlet for my emotions as I sought solace in prayer and spending time with elderly villagers in the village. I felt like I was going mad, spending day in and day out in an environment that felt stagnant and stifling.

But then a moment of clarity hit me as I remembered an old desktop computer in one of the closets of the house. It was already connected to a broadband lifeline and I decided that I could use it to my advantage.

Using the machine, I created an account and started engaging with people on the internet across the world. It definitely was a learning curve, but soon enough after a few months I was able to grow a digital circle of friends who understood my condition and offered me comfort and solace in the form of words and discussions.

The depression and loneliness slowly started to fade away as I realized that I was no longer alone and instead had a supportive group of friends online who I looked forward to talking to every day.

I understand now that our circumstances in life don't always feel ideal, but thanks to my digital allies, I have been able to cope and search for a new way to live despite the loneliness and despair.

At first, I thought it would just be a fun hobby, but my addiction to the internet grew. I started exploring different websites and stumbled upon MEWE, a platform where people from all over the world interacted. It was like having my own little world. I made some wonderful friends, but it was also a little daunting and I felt like an outsider.

As I often visited MEWE, I encountered many dark and intriguing people who lured me in with promises of a life beyond my wildest dreams. Soon, I became obsessed with learning about the mysterious and weird part of the internet known as the dark web. It was a wild world of crime, drugs and pornography that captured my imagination.

My new friends started to take me to night clubs, pubs and bars in other states. In this underworld, I was introduced to party drugs and pornography. It was like a dangerous thrilling ride and I started to crave more. Without having to tell my husband, in-laws and family, I decided to follow them and experience this life on my own.

Life in the dark web was never dull. Every night would present me with a new adventure and experience. I loved it. But at the same time, I was also scared of crossing a limit and never returning.

Eventually, the thrill turned into a nightmare, and I was forced to face the truth and confront the consequences of my actions. I still have the scars of that dark period of my life and I know I was lucky enough to come out of it alive.

But I don’t regret my experience there. I gained knowledge and courage; two of the most important qualities that have helped me grow into who I am today.