Adultery my Affairs

[godofgoud]

 

I woke up somewhere in the middle of the night. Last night memories went through my mind. I felt the deepest guilt. I felt as if I cheated on my parents. In my society premarital sex was forbidden. This was not sex but I couldn't convince my consciousness. I started crying.
 
I felt like a dead woman. As if I have lost everything. I felt guilty because I knew about Sri's lover, Anjana. What I did was a sin. He was in a relationship. I should have controlled myself. I felt that I was seducing him. I cheated Anjana.
 
I felt another horror full scenario unfolding before me. What if he showed this to somebody else? What if he didn't delete it as he told me? What if he makes copies before deleting? He won't show it to anyone if I was his lover, but what if not. I was surrounded by all these questions. Guilt and fear.
 
I called him the next day.
 
"Sri, I am sorry. Forget everything. Delete that video. Not only that, delete everything," I asked him.
 
"Appu, don't worry. I will delete everything. But you may want the photos later once you become normal. Now you are feeling guilty. Don't be sorry. You didn't do anything wrong," he tried to reassure me.
 
"I know it. You are a good friend. You won't do anything that may harm me. Am I right?"
 
"Appu, trust me. I am your friend. I will delete all videos now. You can see the photos when we meet after the holidays and decide what else to delete. Happy?"
 
"Aji, I feel so relieved. You are a good friend."
 
"Can I ask you something Aparna?"
 
"You can ask me anything," I said.
 
"Did you get excited there?"
 
"Why did you ask so?" I asked nervously.
 
"Nothing."
 
"Tell me Aji. There is something. Why did you ask that?"
 
"You won't feel bad, right?"
 
"No Aji, please be open to me," I said.
 
"Ok, I asked that because your nipples looked so erect when that happened."
 
I was dumbstruck. I felt so ashamed and caught right in the light.
 
"You can tell me. I will tell you what I felt. Actually I should have felt horrible when you got exposed like that. But I couldn't believe it when I felt excited when you were topless with 5 people around you. It's not that I did mean any harm to you. I just felt so," he said. I never thought he would admit something like that so openly, showing his pervert nature to me.
 
"Aji, ok. It's true. What you told is true. I was also excited." I admitted that.
 
"I felt the same when you sent me the pictures yesterday. I felt like I was getting exposed in front of you and that fear got me excited. Unlike the morning session, this was safer and I lost it after that," I said, "And I lost it after that. I was not under my control."
 
"Don't feel bad. I don't think you did anything wrong. It's our inner feeling. From our heart, don't feel guilty for it," he reassured me.
 
"I felt bad initially. In fact, I cried a lot after I got up. Now after talking to you, I feel much relaxed."
 
"Appu, I am happy to hear that you feel better now. We got 5 more days of holiday. Why don't we meet for a coffee?"
 
"I don't feel like going out. I will tell you when I feel ok," I said.
 
"Ok Appu, call me whenever you want. Bye."
 
I was super excited that day. We didn't talk about those feelings after that day. I loved to be with him.
 
I felt better and better over the next 2 days. The next day and I called Sri.
 
"Aji, I feel better now. Shall we meet in Cochin?"
 
"Why not, I am ready. Actually, I was waiting for this call for 2 days."
 
"Where will we go."
 
"Shall we go to the movies?"
 
"Ok. Where?"
 
"We will go to Goldsouke mall. My uncle is running an electronics store there, PRS electricals. His son will be there because of the holidays. He is my close buddy. I will ask him to take the tickets for us. I will be there by 11, ok."
 
"PRS electricals! Wow, that is your uncle's business? They have a huge chain across Kerala. He must be a millionaire!" Aparna was excited.
 
"No Appu, he doesn't own the whole business. He is running their Cochin franchise." Sri explained.
 
"Oh, I got it. So, I will be there on time. What's the plan after the movie?"
 
"We can have lunch from KFC if you like it," he suggested.
 
"Wow, I love KFC chicken. So, it's fixed. Done." I loved KFC.
 
"Do you mind if I call him for lunch with us?" Sri asked me.
 
"Who?" I wondered.
 
"My cousin."
 
"Okay, no problem. What does he do?" I enquired.
 
Sri replied, "He is doing his 12th grade. And it's his birthday tomorrow. He will turn 18 years old tomorrow."
 
"That's a nice coincidence. Shouldn't we give him a birthday gift also," asked Aparna.
 
"I just got a plan for a surprise gift for him tomorrow," Sri sounded excited.
 
"What's the plan, please tell me."
 
"No, I won't tell you. It's a surprise for you also."
 
"You and your surprises. Do whatever. It's your cousin, I don't care."
 
"Hey Appu, it will be fun to have surprises."
 
"Ok, so we will meet tomorrow by 10:45 am at the mall," I confirmed the plan with him.
 
"Done. Good night. Take care," he disconnected the call.